NARRATOR: This program contains subject matter and language that may be disturbing to some viewers. Viewer discretion is advised. [music playing] I love you.
Brea is a beautiful young woman. Come on. There you go.
KRISTA: She's her own person. Like she's just-- she's just genuine. Come on, Pulta.
KRISTA: More of a tomboy type. She loves the outdoors. Yeah, want some beer to wash that down?
CINDY: She's the kindest, most thoughtful soul I've ever seen. Ha, it was hidden behind the other one. CINDY: But give her a drink or give her a pill and forget it.
She's not my daughter. It's like "Jekyll and Hyde. " [bleep] you.
[bleep] Kill you. Ah! My name is Brea, and I'm addicted to alcohol and cocaine, stimulants.
Uppers and downers and everything all around. [music playing] CINDY: She just hasn't stopped. She's been nonstop every day, every chance she gets.
[gagging] Thought I was gonna croak. Where's my liquor? BREA: Two hours after I stop drinking, I start shaking.
Where's my [bleep] liquor, man? You jig out so bad you just want to die. DERRICK: It's like somebody-- like lightning going through her body was the worst that I ever seen.
Like, multiple times I was ready to call an ambulance, and sometimes she did end up going to the hospital. CINDY: When Brea, was born the second I laid eyes on her my entire world changed. She was an amazing baby.
Always smiling, always laughing. She just didn't cry. Her biological father was very abusive.
He had actually smashed my face open with a full bottle of beer. Everything was about her and protecting her. I was never going to take the chance of anything happening.
He was just never going to hurt her. He was never going to hurt me again. So I left him.
About three weeks after she was born, I met the man who she thought was her dad. [music playing] He was always there, he was supportive and kind of was looking out for their family back then. Brea idolized him.
There was a lot of arguing because he was a very, very, very bad addict. I wasn't aware for a long time, and there was no way that I was raising them in that environment. She took it very hard.
It was just devastating. And that made me like start cutting and all that and getting depressed. And I start failing everything.
And everything was just-- it started getting really bad. BREA'S BROTHER: Brea thought that my dad was also her dad because her dad was so bad that mom didn't want her to like-- you know what I mean? She wanted to keep her away from that.
CINDY: She had crossed the street to go to the store, and her biological father was sitting on the step. And he said, are you Brea so-and-so? And she says, yes, why?
And he said, well, I'm your father. And she said, no, my father is, you know, her stepdad. And she said-- he said, no, I'm your father, and your mother lied to you.
JUDY: She became angry and into herself and didn't want to talk. And she'd walk by ya like sometimes and wouldn't say hi. She wasn't the happy-go-lucky Brea anymore.
I don't know. BREA'S BROTHER: I kind of started noticing her friends change. They were going from like nerdy and straight edge to like kind of sketchy and shady.
She quit cheerleading. She quit school. She just wanted to drink and do drugs with the people that wanted to drink and do drugs.
[music playing] CINDY: He was an addict. As messed up as they both were, they really, really loved each other. They felt like they were all each other had.
We went to detox together, and then we separated for a bit to get clean. CINDY: She took the national pageant very seriously. She raised the money.
She was sober. BREA: I met a lot of people, and they were awesome. And I came out of my shell a bit.
KRISTA: She went and did very, very, very well in it, and I was so proud of her. So proud of her. CINDY: After the pageant, she got a phone call that the love of her life had overdosed.
BREA: They found him in an apartment by himself overdosed on heroin and fentanyl. He was my favorite person. DERRICK: There's a smoke.
CINDY: Derrick wants somebody to drink with, so he doesn't care about her in the big picture, in the long run, or her future. BREA'S BROTHER: Him being an alcoholic, he's always going to have liquor. So when Brea's at his house, she's always going to have liquor.
We both drink, so-- DERRICK: Things would turn, get violent. It could be something that I would say to make her mad, and holes would go in the wall. Could be a glass, a plate being thrown to knives being thrown.
BREA: I don't know why. I don't really want to talk about this. DERRICK: I'd like to talk about it.
BREA: You can-- well, you can talk to yourself because I don't want to talk. [music playing] [slurring] My favorite person. [slurring] Jeez.
[grunting] [bleep] When you have liver problems that bad, you can't drink, and she drinks every day. BREA: Either probation, jail. Nothing good.
Appointment for probation. All right. She's so angry, and she is so mad at the world and herself and her life, and it's just not her.
The addiction has just ruined her. Brea has gotten sicker and sicker from her addictions. She's in survival mode, and she's not doing very well.
CINDY: That's it. No. She's not the girl I grew up with.
She's a ghost of herself. She'll cry in my lap. Krista, I don't want to live like this.
I don't want to live anymore. Like, I don't want to be like this. And it's just-- I just want her to get help.
[music playing] Just take a nice big deep breath. BREA: I don't like these doors. Hi.
Come on in, Brea. BREA: [bleep] I knew those doors were up to something. Good morning.
Good morning, sweetheart. You look beautiful. Listen.
I thought we were going somewhere. Brea. Listen to what-- listen to what they all have to say.
It's OK. We love you. I haven't even got to have a drink yet.
Are you serious? Way to tell me. Brea, just please relax, honey.
OK, all right. All right. JUDY: We all love you, but we can't stand by any longer.
I really miss your calls wanting to go for tea or your sleepovers. Brea, the reason I'm here today is out of pure love for you. I want to see a Brea who knows her worth and be a happy young lady, not a girl living day-to-day who could not survive without alcohol or drugs to cope with living.
KRISTA: Knowing that you need to drink and do drugs every day, the likelihood of burying you, even more probable than it already is. BREA'S BROTHER: I'm waiting for the call from the hospital saying that you're dead any day. I want to see my sister at her full potential.
I want to see you get back into modeling and do good. Chase your dreams. I want you around, but I can't watch you kill yourself anymore.
As much as I hide it, it's killing me too. This life filled with addiction has stolen my sweet angel away from me, away from your brother, away from our family. I love you so much, Boo, but I can no longer stand by and watch you slowly kill yourself.
THERAPIST: So it's my job today to ask you, are you willing to accept help for your disease? You're willing to accept help? Yeah.
THERAPIST: It's a very brave step to take. No. THERAPIST: I'm glad you're taking it.
I love you. I love you. BREA: Love you too.
[music playing] Everything happens for a reason. I believe in just whatever was put together to get me into that certain program, it was obviously the right one because it was-- it was really good. Like, the counselors were so amazing.
And all my friends, they were real friends, like genuine people. My relationship now with my mom sober is good. She's a lot more at peace, and so am I.
And I'm just happy that my mom's happy because I took her happiness away for a while-- a long time. [the davenports, "five steps"] (SINGING) You know me, Ellen, enough to tell.
