should this medication just vanish off the face of the Earth tomorrow my number one reason for doing this I think I feel a bit sad oh my God this has been one of the most surprising things okay this is without a shadow of the doubt my most requested video to dat we're going to get really up close and personal which is why I felt like I just needed to be sat on the bed you know [Music] Maple and cinnamon matcher yes thank you so what happened was I suggested making a video the response was more overwhelming than anything I've ever experienced before online in terms of people asking me questions and then I got overwhelmed shut down and was like a can't handle that can't deal with that however that being said now that I have been on a glp1 medication since the end of OCT October I actually feel in a better position to be talking about this than at any other point in my journey feel like my posture is not really on point but I really just think we should let that slide first of all I need to show you the gravitas of questions asked this this is the amount of questions that have been asked for this video so I've screen recorded them all and I'm going to try and work through these as best I can now before we get started there are a couple of things that I just want to have said on record number one when I first decided to take this medication I too called it weight loss injections and I no longer call them that I call it a glp1 a glp1 medication or I call it by the name which is mangaro reason being is because I had a reason for wanting to go on this on this medication in my mind and I felt really headstrong in that and I think I needed to trial being on it to confirm that my intentions were aligned with the actions and I would say that they have been and I've probably been more surprised than I expected in other circumstances the next thing I want to say is I am not a medical professional a doctor and if you are thinking of doing this do not and I please beg you to not take anything I say in this video as your soul s source of information and that also applies to any video you've seen on Tik Tok any person you've seen discussing it please no matter what information you've consumed make sure that you speak to some form of medical professional before going on this medication because there are some tragic things being shared about about this and now we've got that way let's get started first question how are you feeling love you I love you too I am feeling incredible really didn't expect I didn't expect something with such minor consequences to have such a huge effect on me and my mental health and my relationship with food and my body and what I mean by that in an overview and obviously there's so much that we're going to cover during this video I had kind of prepped myself for big side effects and pardon me that is a side effect the gassiness is next level I just don't think I could have ever anticipated form of medication transforming my mindset in the way that it has I have struggled with my body image and my relationship with food my entire life like for as long as I can remember and the way that this medication has affected me is like a blanket of calm has been put over my brain in that area and that is generally as a whole how I feel just interjecting here because as IED I've edited this back and realized there are a few really important things I want to say number one being that if you have suffered with eating disorders or disordered eating I suggest clicking off this video I just don't think that this video is for you and the last thing I would want to do is to um make anybody who has struggled with those horrible mental illnesses uh feel a certain way the second thing that I want to say is if this medication meant I never lost any weight but I would feel this way towards food would I still take it the answer is yes third thing that I want to mention is although I haven't mentioned it in this video or acknowledged it in this video I just want to acknowledge here that I'm aware of my privileges in an able white body and a lot of the things I'm talking about and a lot of the hardships that I faced with my body image relationship with food still come from a place of privilege that I am very aware of very grateful for please make sure you subscribe how long do you take it for and what do you have to do when you stop question mark Lifestyle Changes Etc so yeah according to the science of the medication gp1 what's it called the gp1 I can't remember what they're called but like the little things exist in your gut for 7 days now I'll get into it in more detail at a later stage when I first took the medication from my first pen I actually did every 11 days so I started on a Sunday and then would do a whole week and then inject on the Wednesday and although I did yes feel the suppression waiver towards those last couple of days I would say that I definitely still felt the suppression there also with that being said I've had a little bit of uh situation with uh suppliers of where I order my pen from and there for have actually been without my injection for two weeks I think and my suppression is still way way way lower than it was prior to starting this medication so I think it I think the in answer to that question I think it varies and it's dependent on you and your lifestyle but for me I hope that with the work I'm doing alongside the medication it's teaching me and retraining my gut microbiome and my way of thinking and my mindset in a way that I will be better supported should this medication just vanish off the face of the Earth tomorrow so that's my personal opinion somebody said any impact on digestion and I would say yes so the whole point is that or like you know one of the mega things that gp1 medication does is slow down your digestive system so yes I definitely cannot like physically cannot eat the amount that I could eat prior and I would say that the relationship I had with I don't feel like I ever could have stopped eating food didn't I just don't think it affected me I don't think I had a full signal my um Cravings were wildly out of control I could eat junk food consistently I could still love and enjoy and eat and want to eat healthy food cuz I genuinely do love it and have an interest in it but that doesn't mean that I couldn't then put away anything and everything after then so I have to eat smaller amount like my portion size is just from the first couple of days maybe less than half I was eating huge portions I would also say the one side effect I have had is I'm very very gassy really Burpy and really like farty um luckily I don't have what I hear people talk about sulfate burps like there doesn't seem to be a smell it's just complete gas and I feel like sort of food repeating on myself things that really help with that are obviously making sure that my water intake is really high and uh taking um having peppermint tea after I've eaten like in the evening I've also heard that activated charcoal is fantastic and I heard that from one of the coaches that I had from the supplier that I first went with which I'll talk about in a minute hi Sasha how often are you weighing yourself I had to weigh myself before taking the medication and I haven't been AAP weer for like 8 years so I was kind of scared about it because I just I didn't want to get addicted and I didn't want to get stressed by the number on the scales and I didn't want my whole journey of doing this to be about that like I said from the beginning my number one reason for doing this was to hopefully heal my relationship with food and this be one of many tools that I need to like acquire from the tool books in order to for that to happen I weighed myself before and I weighed myself last week and the reason why I weighed myself last week was because I changed supplier and part of the evidence that they needed was you stood on the scales with a hand uh written full name and date with my feet in short of the scales uh so if I started on the third 31st of October which is when I took my first injection and we're talking now sort of third week in January that's how long I've gone without weighing myself I felt apprehensive because you know one of the reasons is because I do want to lose weight and it felt a little bit like you know I'm not in a rush to do that I'm not in a race to do that I want to do it properly and I want to make sure that I'm doing everything I can to heal all of those bad habits along the way but it it for me I think it did feel a little bit too soon however um you know I had lost weight what I do moving forward in terms of weighing myself I'm not too sure I think I think I'd probably go for like maybe I'd try and do yeah maybe I would stick to like every 3 months it feels weird to discuss does it feel weird to discuss how much weight I've lost actually you know what you know what I think in in uh in honor of explaining to you how I'm doing this then I'm happy to share that from November December in like two two and a half months I would say yeah in about 2 and a half months I've lost between I think I've lost about a stone and a quarter which compared to some people is ridiculously slow but I that's how I want it to be I think drastic weight loss is dangerous and scary that's just my opinion have you had any side effects how have you felt energy wise I would say that the only side effect I felt is the um the gassiness and then the other thing I would say is that the day after I inject I'm usually very tired I feel a lot lower in energy that day but apart from that I have to say I haven't felt any side effects at all if you're dehydrated you're going to get headaches if you're not eating enough you're going to be freezing if you're um on too high a dose you're going to feel constantly sick like to me that's just absolute [ __ ] common sense but the amount of people I see shooting up the doses and um going for like intense appetite suppression is kind of a little bit wild because with anything that intense and that drastic there's going to be consequences so yeah that's that's just my opinion really this is a good question do you feel any guilt I don't think you should but aware the media makes others feel different do I feel any guilt no I don't feel guilt say the one thing that I feel a little bit of is I do feel a little bit of sadness that I couldn't ever reach that stage of love for my body I do believe that that's possible and I do believe that there are people out there that that do love their body no matter what but and it makes me sad that my upbringing and the generation I grew up in and the source of sources of inspiration we had thrown upon us as like Millennial girls it makes me sad that all of that had such a huge impact on what I saw as normal and that for the majority of my life I've grown up hating my body because it looked nothing like what I'd seen in the media so from that aspect I think I feel a little bit sad that I perhaps couldn't or didn't have the energy to do enough if that makes sense that doesn't take anything away from all the work that I have done to accept and love myself for who I am and how I present myself and how I look I just I think I was never able to reach the finish line so to speak on my own without the help of something but then I also think is there a Finish Line like is that is that a reality or is it you know I am the first person to tell you guys that not everything you see on social media is real and that that goes for everything you know I would say that my relationship is one of the most celebrated things that I share online and everyone's like I wish I had a love like that I wish I had a love like that and even then you know you guys never got the bad bits you guys never saw the horrendous moments so I do sometimes wonder about all the people who are so against losing weight I do often wonder is that really how you feel like Truly Deeply to your core is that how you feel or is that helping the content cycle of something being popular I don't know um that's a whole another video I expect has it affected Workout Motivation I. E as appetite is less do you need to work out less yes my I don't think the two are connected though if that makes any sense I don't think me being on this medication has changed anything to do with my motivation in terms of working out because that had long gone the whole of last year I really struggled to work out and um basically ever since I stopped personal training I would say that I really lost my confidence in the gym and in the spaces of like lifting weights and feeling strong and it's only now in the last couple of weeks that I've kind of started to build that back up again in an Ideal World I would have a PT forever I'd have a nutritionist forever or a dietitian forever to sort of help me really tailor what my body needs and wants but you know there's no two ways about it all of that comes with a financial level attached to it that I I just can't sustain you know the the medication costs money so there's only so much that I feel like I can do at the moment but I'm hoping that slowly slowly but surely I am getting my confidence back in the gym and I'm definitely sticking to the Avenue of consistency over performance so that hopefully what happens is the consistency builds the foundation in which I can then you know perform to my best ability are you worried about when this when you stop the weight SL food noise will come back I'm kind of unsure on how I feel about that I'm also trying to very much take it one step at a time but why I'm trying so hard to make sure that the medication isn't the sole reason for helping me in this way I um am hoping that I can realign other things as well the way that it balances sort of insulin and hormones and things like that your Cravings do completely eradicate so I haven't craved sweet chocolate and [ __ ] food in the way that I used to that therefore my diet has been better as a result of it I'm making sure that because I'm eating less than I was what I'm eating is better quality than what I was eating before so I'm making sure that I'm having really balanced Foods I'm having hydration that I'm I'm getting nutrients in so I'm almost focusing more on the the whole food diet which is ultimately what we should all sort of like strive to live off anyway and when you are having fulfilling nutritional meals you're satisfied in a different way so I'm kind of hoping that over time whilst slowly working my way through this medication process that I'm also building up like long-standing habits that's just my approach to it and how I kind of am you know trying to to use it if that makes sense um was it prescribed by your doctor or privately slashonline thank you I think I'm apprehensive about telling people where I've got it from because you know one thing that I don't want this video to do is to like I don't want this video to be influencing people to go on it or do it or take the the medication it's just I don't want my personal decisions to influence other people with what they do with their bodies however you would be [ __ ] stupid to think and you know and not realize that this is being spoken about everywhere everybody is talking about them doing them taking it uh talking about their experience online I've seen very little shared in in sort of the same pool of thought that I have towards it so I think my reason for talking about it online is one because I share so much with you I wouldn't ever want to be untruthful about it especially if you see me losing weight or you see my body changing or you see my relationship with food you know change over time and two the last thing I would would want is for people to not have access to what I believe is quite a balanced approach to taking this and I want to make sure that I obviously share that I have stopped calling it weight loss injections because for me it's given me so much more than weight loss and I think all of those other things just aren't spoken about enough but yeah I just want to make sure that it's very clear this is not me trying to influence anybody your body your choice your decision go and get Med medical professional advice um make sure you're doing it for the right reasons all of that was it prescribed by your doctor or privately slashonline thanks so I went privately although my BMI would have classified as obese I was at my absolute wits end with what to do next and I didn't want to go via an NHS waiting list situation so I got it online from a um website called voy and the reason why I went with them is because there's another one I think called Juniper where you have 24/7 access to Medical coaches that are going to help you alongside your journey I wanted that safety there in the beginning I only ever had one phone call with a coach and used like quite a lot of information on their website but other than that yeah I've been um I've been getting it online I've just I've only got it from two places one voy and then the other place places um another website called Med Express so I've been just really careful with the places I get it from making sure that I read the reviews check all of the like accreditation of the websit and yeah basically doing it like that however with that being said my doctor knows that I am on the medication someone said here where did you buy it from have you lost the joyan food obviously I've just touched on where I bought it from oh my God this has been one of the most surprising things I can't believe how much more I love food and I didn't think that was possible but my obsession with food was actually very toxic whereas my love for food and my love for cooking and fresh ingredients and nutrients and learning about um nutrition and educating myself to you know do the best I can by my body has actually increased and for that I just yeah I've been really surprised by that and I love it and um it brings me so much more joy thinking about how I can have like a really balanced meal and what fiber what carbohydrate what protein you know stuff like that yeah I'd say that I have been so surprised but my my joy for food has actually been increased in like a really bright colorful wonderful way I also think that there was a couple of like non-negotiables that I had in in the back of my head going forward with this and that was that if I did lose joy for food and if I did lose that passion and and sort of like love that I have for food and what it brings me and my life um if this medication had taken that away I wouldn't have continued it I'm sorry but for me personally a life without food enjoyment is a [ __ ] miserable life and I would never ever want that just to look and feel a certain way like I would have to go around it another way what was the criteria you had to meet to start taking it if any so I'm not exactly sure and different um distri Distributors use different requirements I would probably say that that's the one thing I have a sticky opinion on is um it would be possible to lie and alter your evidence as to why you think you are eligible for the medication so I think I I find it quite worrying how easy it is for anybody to get their hands on this medication I have to be so careful with what I'm saying here because I don't want it to I don't want in no way or sh no way shape or form do I want to bash anyone like if somebody wants to exist in a skinny body that's their choice I worry about that personally and I worry about taking medication to just be skinny personally because I think so much can be bypassed like your new nutrition like your hydration like your protein like you know what you're putting inside of your body can be bypassed just to achieve a skinny body that worries me so I think yeah that's one thing that I feel a little bit sort of wobbly about is um is there a strict enough criteria that is met in order to distribute the products I'm not too sure how much does it cost there's quite a lot of um questions about this I think it varies and as as far as I'm aware the higher up in dose you go the more it costs I actually have not moved up a dose at all I am still on 2. 5 milligrams which is the starting dose they call it and the lowest dose that you can be prescribed which is also the cheapest dose so I think I've been paying perhaps £130 a month in in my opinion it doesn't make sense to move up a dose if I'm reaping the benefits of what that dose is giving me again there are conflicting things that you have people say online like you know a business is going to want to a business is going to want you to go up in dose because that's going to give them more money um whereas I've been following and I will link him down below a specific glp1 and obesity um professional I can't remember if he's a doctor or what his official like credentials are but I'll link him down below and he's been uh his videos are so insightful and he has literally said if if you are feeling the benefit why on Earth would you move up and that the best dose to maintain is your lowest dose like I think I've had a DM from a nurse before who's been on uh 5 milligrams for the last two years which is the dose up from mine and I think also going up the doses is where you start feeling intense side effects like being sick or feeling sick and stuff like that so for me staying at 2.
5 has been the best thing for me because like I said it's not it's not like a plaster cure for this it's helping me and it's giving me so much but I have to meet it some of the way too which is how I want it I don't want drastic weight loss whereas if I went up a dose I'd probably be able to to have what I'm eating again therefore my calorie intake would be less and I'd be drastically losing weight but that's just not that's just not how I want to approach it or do it so for me to stay on the lowest dose as long as I possibly can is going to be what I am you know hoping to do why this and not a PT Etc no judgment by the way this is a really good question because I think a lot of like comments have been like why are people doing this like why don't they just go to the gym or why don't they just stop eating or why don't they just eat less like I think unless you struggled with eating and like poor relationships with food and body image and exercise and you know self- punishment and things like that you're never going to understand why you can't just go to the gym or why you can't just do this it felt like I was like war with myself it's like this medication said to me here let me help you like let me just lighten the load of this a minute especially for me the last two years have been pure hell I went through a divorce I walked away from an 8-month marriage I moved house like [ __ ] I think it was five times in 18 months I was so unstable my career just took a massive knock everything uh you know I I financially reached the absolute pit of of my ever like it was just so bad that I didn't have the energy to just go to PT or just start eating better I just couldn't do it it it's like it's like saying to someone who's mentally ill and depressed in bed just get out of bed just go for a walk sometimes it just isn't that simple and that's not how mental illnesses work you can't just click your fingers and fix it so when I'd done all the research that needed to be done on this if if someone's going to help me then you know if something's going to come along and lighten the load and take a weight off my shoulders then I would actually be stupid to turn that down in an ideal world like I said earlier I do want to do pt again I do want to be able to one day have a relationship completely healed with food I would love that but if it means that I can't do that without this medication then that's what it means we'll cross that bridge when we get to it I suppose um what does it feel like do you just not feel hungry yes I would say that for me my experience is that you don't feel hungry and you don't think about food now I think the reason why people get this so muddled is because just because you don't feel hungry doesn't mean you don't need to eat obviously starving yourself is [ __ ] stupid that's dangerous so it stops you from for me personally it stopped me from obsessing over food so I would wake up in the morning and the first thing I would think is what am I having to eat today if a weekend came around I'd think what weekend food am I having this weekend because a weekend I would associate with different types of food as I would from the weekday I would go to bed thinking what am I going to eat tomorrow I would be eating thinking about have I have I got enough here do I need to eat more here we would order a CH Chinese and I would think we need to order as much as we can so that there's some tomorrow so that I might fancy Chinese tomorrow and I can eat tomorrow if you imagine that times 25 in your brain constantly from all different angles that's how my brain was I would say since taking the medication that is silent but I feel excited about oh my God I'm going to have such a delicious breakfast this morning I'm going to have avocado I'm going to have eggs and then I'm going to make sure that I've got protein in there so I'm going to have some chicken sausages and I will eat less I'll make sure what I'm eating is more of the right stuff and I've just I guess although I'm not hungry I'm still dedicated to fueling my body and nourishing my body in a healthy way and I think that if you don't have that mindset going into this medication and you just think oh yippee I'm not hungry I'm not going to eat that in in my opinion is when you're going to start sliding downhill because it's not like we actually do regardless of what some people are saying you you actually do need to eat to stay alive this is delicious how do you handle eating out in public especially this time of year I'm on week four this I I find this some of the questions I find a little bit sort of uh I guess weird because another girl I know who's on it she sort of messaged me about takeaway she was like have you had any takeaways on it how' you feel and I was like yeah I've still had takeaways I've had about I've had about 90% less takeaways than I would have had and there are some takeaways that just the thought of having are a bit like oh no I couldn't do that I just order differently so I think my favorite takeaway to get would be Indian and rather than having a full Curry a full rice a full narm bread a full side dish and popadoms I would now order chicken Tika So like um the dried sort of chicken I'd have like a lentil side dish maybe and like spinach like sag paner or something and about a quarter if not less of Anan bread I've also had like a full normal Curry like a MadAss or something um and like if we had some friends over around Christmas and we had a curry and I had a little bit of their coconut rice I've still eaten I just can't eat the amount that I used to eat and it makes me make better choices and like how incredible is that when you've suffered with such loud obsessive toxic food thoughts how incredible is it that I can enjoy food and like stop eating when I'm full and leave a plate with food on it and watch someone else eat something and not want to rip it from their hands and shove it down my neck like how incredible is that you know there are so many things about this medication that isn't being spoken about that is just is that's lifechanging for me like that has changed my life if I was to be put off by going out for dinner then I wouldn't want to be on the medication so therefore it would be my priority to find a medication or to find a dose that works for me so that I can still get excited about going out for dinner we're actually going out for dinner tonight and we're going out for dinner tomorrow and I'm excited uh I just won't be able to eat what I used to be able to eat what research did you do and why did you end up going with a provider you chose I read a lot I did watch a lot of videos but I made sure that the videos were from doctors dietitians nutritionists like basically medical professionals and then the third thing I did was speak to uh people I know that have been on it and that are doing it just to get their advice they I would say that they're like the top three things that I looked at to um for advice and for information quite a few questions asking have you had any hair loss I would say no my hair's actually grown like insane amounts since um I had it all chopped off and it I'd say that my hair is pretty healthy so no I've I've not experienced that but again that is a complete common side effect of drastic hair drastic weight loss so I can imagine if you're sort of like shooting up the doses and eating [ __ ] all with that being said you know just because I'm taking 2. 5 and it's working for me that's not the case for everybody there are some people that don't feel a facts until 7.
