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www forthepeople.com thee other side or click the link in the description below don't wait take the first step toward protecting your rights my name is Zada and I am from Turkey Istanbul and I'm here today to share my near-death experience it happened 12 years ago and it all began in a hospital basically I was there for some minor surgery which was supposed to take just an hour but everything went wrong right from the beginning so my doctor was not there I had to wait for a few hours I was kept being notified to wait a
little bit more so it was already pretty late in the evening and I received a call asking me if I agree if another doctor helps me cuz my doctor is unable to come I agreed these doctors they have just finished their shift and they were just about to leave and suddenly they got a call that they have this one more patient quickly they took me in and we're preparing for the surgery and everyone is in a rush because their shift is already over and they want to go home basically so no one is asking me
too many questions and by the way at that time I was blonde so no one asked me about my relationship with drugs and anesthesia so they give me the anesthetic drug right away and they wait for the effect to show itself so they talk to me but not affecting me at all so the doctor decides that the reason is that they calculated the dosage wrong so they should increase the dosage because I'm pretty tall and at that time I had a lot of muscle mass on my body and they decided that they should double the
dosage which they do the nurse injects the second dose and it's over for me at that moment I'm gone for me at this point what I remember is that right before I lost the perception of the hospital room I experienced few very weird Sensations like the first sensation was I felt my whole body get really really really heavy like a rock and I was very surprised why am I not falling through the bed through the floor because I felt that's how heavy I felt I was like supposed to push through all these surfaces and that
sensation of heaviness then was replaced by sensation of dryness like complete dryness like I felt like my whole body suddenly dried out like all liquid was gone not just from my mouth but all water all liquid is gone from the whole body and that was very shocking feeling and third one was freezing cold I felt whole body shivering like all the warmth all the fire element was gone and it all went so fast like heavy dry cold and then the last element to leave my body I guess was the element of air where I tried
to breathe in just take this one breath and there was no air to breathe there was no oxygen I couldn't take that breath and at that point I felt I have no more power to keep perceiving this reality that's how I felt like this whole reality that I was seeing this hospital room these doctors running doing something my body it all just suddenly just dissolved like fell apart I did not feel moving myself moving anywhere like I did not fly out of the body I did not travel I felt that I'm still in that same
spot at that same place I'm still there but everything around me disappeared and instead of this hospital room now I was perceiving void just black darkness like empty darkness and this field of like hard to describe because it felt like so endless and black is the color that I put to it but there was no surface there was like nothingness emptiness and that was very weird very unusual feeling and in this void I saw one light in the distance and it felt like in this black cosmic space you see one little star and that little
star it grabbed my attention because there was like basically nothing else to look at I felt myself staring at that one light and I knew at that point that light is trying to get my attention and that light is asking for my attention it's like pulling my attention but I knew that if if I focus on it if I give into that calling it will suck me in I had that knowing that it wants me to come to it towards it like to fly towards the light it's going to turn into a tunnel and it's
going to suck me in I felt like I'm not going to go because this attitude of not willing to do something that something else wants me to do it's just something about me I had this attitude all throughout my life that's why I did not go towards that light my reaction was to just stay where I'm at if that light wants to us to interact it has to come closer that feeling I had that's why I did not move I kept standing in that spot in this void perceiving that light but not moving towards it
and still seeing it I noticed that as I focus my attention on it I'm kind of pulling it out of the darkness it like starts coming out of the darkness towards me it's moving towards me and as it gets closer I real realiz that this piece of light this particle of light is actually a concept and when it gets very close I realize it's a concept of my mother and then once I perceive this concept of my mother I noticed that there are few more stars like it just next to it and I focus my
attention on the next one as I focus on it I'm kind of like pulling it out of that Darkness towards myself when it gets close enough I realize that that's the concept of my brother and I do the same thing with the third light and that's the concept ccept of a telephone and I do the same thing with the next one that's a concept of car and I realized at that point these concepts are a parts of a thought the last thought that I had right before I got switched off in the hospital I remember
myself looking at the wall and thinking that it's already so late at night and my mother doesn't even know where I'm at I should have called my brother uh so that he could pick me up my car because the road is long so this concept of mother brother telephone car and Road are like my last thought but when I was in hospital room thinking it I was not aware that this thought consists of these specific Concepts and here it was all kind of like slowed down and I was here thinking that one by one concept
by concept moving from one piece of light to another one I was thinking a thought and I noticed myself once I was done with six of them I would come back to the first one again and I was doing it in a loop it's a circle I'm just going in a loop thinking this one thought over and over I did it like for few times and then I felt that kind of like my powers are leaving me I felt like I don't have any more energy to keep thinking this complicated thought that's how it felt
to me and at one of these circles I realized that I lost an element I lost something there I lost like one of those lights like I didn't have enough power to keep holding them all together so one of them just drifted away into the darkness and I was not able to pull it out and that was the first concept to disappear was the concept of my mother I felt like I've lost something some concept there I forgot but I did not remember what it was so I basically forgot even the idea of having a
mother not just my specific mother I forgot completely that there is such a thing as mothers and that I had one basically it was just like completely erased from my awareness then the next thing I forgot was having a brother that was the second con concept to lose so I kept trying to think that one thought over and over but it was already like there was like phone car Road and I kept trying to focus on it like I put all of my energy into thinking that thought but after a while I felt like I
kind of lost Point why am I even doing it it doesn't make any sense and I just kind of let the third one go and the next one go and I felt no more point to keep doing that and once I let all the concepts go dissipate into that Darkness to that void the last one that I was left with is the concept of me this idea that I am and I already had no awareness or understanding of what I am like where am I which planet I am from what kind not just my identity
as this person but generally I had no idea of life on Earth or anything just basically no Concepts but one last calming thought was that no problem I don't know where I'm at what is this place I have no idea who am I but I still exist if I'm still thinking it means I exist I have no idea why I exist and where but I exist so I kept thinking that one thought I am for a while and then I came to a conclusion that this place is located somewhere because if I'm able to perceive
something I'm perceiving it in in this kind of like I don't know how many degrees Vision so I felt like if I'm perceiving something in front of me that means there's probably something behind me it means there is this spot from which I'm looking so that's me I am somewhere I am something and the moment I had that one thought it just snapped and I had 360° Vision right away and that was probably the most terrifying part of this whole experience because the moment I realized that I'm not anywhere so that second I felt this
Primal Fear of really realization that I do not exist that's probably the most terrifying thing that I've ever experienced ever and there is no words which can describe that level of Terror and that level of fear at that moment and I realized that what I experienced at that time is what is described in many different books as hell because there is no physical body to say like what did it feel like did it feel like pain did it feel like there was nobody to feel pain but that Terror that my Consciousness was feeling experiencing if
I would have to translate it into physical terms I would say that I felt like I am being torn into pieces like my physical body is being like torn alive into pieces and cut and burnt endlessly nonstop forever that's how painful it was there's no words to describe that experience because there is no Concepts there to describe that Terror so when we translate it into into our Concepts and our words the closest available description is like the way they describe hell being burnt uh fried or what cut and tortured forever that's how it felt and
it felt forever and that Terror of my awareness of my own nonexistence was at the same time my desire to exist if I would have voice or ability to scream there I would just scream like an animal there from that Terror and that would be my desire to exist I want to exist and the moment when I kind of like expressed that desire to exist I realized that this whole field of darkness is actually not empty I realized that it's not empty and I'm part of it I'm part of this Darkness but it is not
empty it is just very very dense it's just like very very compressed field and I realized that everything that surround rounds me is information and I'm part of this this Blackness this Darkness this void is information it's infinite there is no end in any direction and there is no limits to me where I'm located within this field I'm everywhere so I have access to all information at the same time and that feels like so much that feels like too much and I felt like so much pressure so much tension so much like such huge density
that's what I was experiencing as pain but when I realize that like when I express that desire to I got awareness that I am I'm part of this mass of information I am but in order to exist the way I was wishing to exist I realized I need to think but thinking in this field of this vast dark dense information it's so hard to think there because to think I have to find like out of all this huge amount of information that is around me I have to pick one like a point and I have
to focus on it that's what I knew I need to do if I focus on it I start thinking it and that transition was hard for me to make because imagine you're in vast ocean of information how do you pick what to focus on and there is just too much so much and it's painful but to release get rid of that pain you need to choose one point focus on it and start thinking it so that was a choice that was a choice it was I'm telling it like it takes such a long time to
describe but actually it all happened maybe like all in Split Second that decision the thought that I was thinking was that I just want to be something and the moment I decided that something snapped and I see myself back in the room I see myself back in the hospital room but I am floating kind of like I see this whole place from above the ceiling and at the same time I still have the awareness of that whole black field of that all void I still have awareness of it but I'm perceiving this room now at
the same time I have awareness of this whole Hospital of all the corridor in other rooms I know what's happening there but my attention is focused on this specific room and these people I see my Budd on the table and it looks disgusting to me it does not look attractive and I don't feel excited to get into that Budd again I know it belongs to me I know like we're related it's mine but I feel like no no way I don't want to go into that that's how felt I see the doctor trying to do
something to my face up there and then I see a nurse and one more doctor that one is male and these two are females and they're arguing the doctor is yelling at the nurse shouting and saying that she will not sign the papers for my death because it was not even her shift and why did I even agree she's like yelling angry screaming shouting and she's cursing at me for dying and the nurse is standing with this journal and she's supposed to Mark the time of the death I guess and somebody has to sign it
and the nurse is just like listening standing there all freaked out and the doctor is yelling at her telling her to sign it and basically they're deciding who's going to be responsible for my death and that doctor who is yelling she's cursing like using all the worst language towards me for dying and from above the ceiling I hear that and I feel this desire to tell tell her to stop cursing because she probably doesn't realize that I understand their language and I want to tell her stop cursing I understand your language I know what you're
saying and I'm trying to tell her that and I feel so surprised that she's not hearing me she's still yelling and I try to send the message I'm talking to her but nothing is happening so for those who are trying to connect with their spiritual guides or deceased relatives just so you know even when they're really trying to communicate with you if you're not really listening it's your task to really open up and relax and listen because like I was talking I was like sending the message no one was listening and this my desire to
express something to them is what pulled me back into my body right away like with that desire to express I feel myself back in the physical body and I look through like already through my eyes and I see this doctor standing above me and yelling at me and he noticed probably some life in my eyes and he start yelling what's your name and I know the answer I feel like I know everything at that point I feel like I have this connection to this whole field of information I know everything about everyone like before and
after like ask me anything I feel like I know everything and he's asking me my name of course I know what he wants to hear he wants to hear irada and I try to tell him and I figure out that I don't remember how to communicate through this body so I try to send this message to him like telepathically my eyes I'm telling he's not receiving so I try to send that signal through my face through my belly through my chest I'm sending sending it's not going and after a few attempts he's still yelling so
after a few attempts I stumble upon my mouth the sound comes out and I feel like oh I found it I found how this buddy talks and in my perception I actually answered clearly irada I said but what came out of my mouth it was like some animal roar or something it was nothing like human speech at all but to me it felt like I said said it and it took me a while to tune my hearing and speaking to tune them at first it felt like I'm saying even though I didn't I had to
try several times until my ear and my mouth tuned and I was hearing outside the same thing that I was hearing in my head it took a while so after they realized that I'm back they're still proceeding with their whatever they're doing and I look at the wall in front of me and I'm still under effect of that Terror that I just experienced and I look at that wall and I have only one thought I say God okay I haven't died this time but I will have to die eventually is there anything I can do
so that my next death is not like that and once I expressed that thought when I expressed it right away I received this from that wall like a wave of light like wave of warmth coming from that wall and kind of like embracing me covering me with that warmth and this wave of light came with one word love and with that word love I felt so calm and peaceful and embraced as if like okay now I know now I'm safe I felt like that word it had like everything in it it was more than just
word it basically it calmed me down and it gave me that peace like okay there is hope there is hope there is light at the end of the tunnel I will figure it out so basically it's been 12 years and it took me quite a number of years to figure out what that word meant what I'm supposed to do how to actually do it how to make sure that my next death is peaceful and pleasant and calm now 12 years later I've finally figured out and I feel safe and calm that if I need to
die today I know what to do I know how it's going to happen and so since then I've been on my own Awakening Journey for quite a while and I've written a book in which I describe the easiest in my understanding the easiest and the simplest way to solve this whole mystery of life and I'm teaching what I've discovered on my YouTube channel and if you're interested you can find the links in the description box below and thank you for listening to my story and bye we all fall in when the loves in all right
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