hey I think the chick that I like has a demon in her and I'm not even joking what a crazy way to start a video the story actually starts a couple weeks ago I was scrolling on Instagram and I got a notification that this girl followed me and the name looked familiar so I went and I clicked on the account and I looked at it and it was actually a girl that I grew up with we haven't talked in a couple years so I was like hey that's dope and I followed her back and it
wasn't anything like serious or anything it was just like the type of thing where you slide up on their story they slide up on yours and you guys just have like little combos back and forth that's how it's been for the last few weeks and maybe about a week ago they started to be a little bit more flirting and we had interesting conversation about God and she was asking me all these questions and books about like different things that she could read to help grow her relationship with God and I thought that was great and
if anything that's a green flag to me right now I have to be honest with you leading up until this morning The Temptations to fall into lust have been a lot worse in fact I feel like my flesh has had more of a grip on me lately than arguably like ever before like it's been bad normally if I do get Temptations It's in those few minutes before I fall asleep but over the last few days it's been like I get it throughout the day when I first wake up in the the morning and this morning
was no different in fact it was even worse now mind you just a few days ago she had texted me was like hey when you going to come see me and all this type of stuff and I just kind of laughed it off like haha whatever cuz it's going good so I didn't read anything into it you know it was going good until I looked at her Instagram story and that's what kind of appalled me actually not kind of really appalled me I don't know if you'll know what I'm talking about but on Instagram there's
a few different accounts that basically use these like like the type of way you would see a woman from the 1950s dress and such right there's these different accounts post these different types of like memorabilia or something like that they're almost like posters and all of them have these types of like 1950s women on them and they're all like sexually suggestive when I opened up Instagram and I clicked on her story because I'd been added to her close friend story she had one of those images on there and it was this woman sitting on top
of a Bible in lingerie which is already wild right and the caption was yeah invite him over for a Bible study and when you kept swiping through the Instagram thread you know what I'm talking about where it's like a set of Po and you can slide through them it was just different ones of women in lingerie laying on Bibles and my it immediately reminded me of the reason that I went celibate like the actual thing that made me go celibate I don't know if I've ever told this story on social media before when I was
like 16 17 I was very lukewarm right like I would claim to be Christian yeah Christ is King but there was no fruits of my life to demonstrate the fact that I actually believe that right and so around the time I was 17 my parents had gone away for the weekend I was the only one at the house so I invited this girl over and we're upstairs you know we're getting into it like we're about to do it and she's like if you can imagine she's like on top of me and we're kissing and stuff
and all of a sudden she like pulls away and goes so you're Christian which mind you just put it in that frame of mind like if you imagine you're in that situation for someone to stop and say that like really just throws the whole situation off and I was like um yeah and she goes oh well I'm atheist I don't believe in God and in my mind I'm think that is such a weird thing to say and at that moment like when she's speaking like I'm looking down at like her like her waist like her
stomach and I remember looking up at her eyes and if you can imagine like the whole bedroom is pretty much just dark there's just some red LED lights on over on this side of the room but like you can still kind of see each other's faces you know what I'm talking about and when I looked up this is the part that's like oh dude to this day it freaks me out like people don't even believe it when I say it when I looked up her eyes were like black and I can still it is it's
85° outside and I'm still getting the same feeling that I got then like every hair on my body stood up like looking back at that was my spirit like something is off you know what you know that feeling I'm talking about like when you walk into a room or you're in some type of environment and you get that spiritual feeling of like something isn't right here that is exactly how I felt then and then fast forward to today with the chick that I'm talking about now it's the same feeling and it's just so interesting to
me that the last few days building up to this like the lust of Temptations have gotten even worse I'm actually currently fasting right now and if you wouldn't mind praying for me too I would greatly appreciate it if you don't mind praying in faith for me like it would mean a lot part of the reason I wanted to bring this up beyond the fact that it's just interesting to talk about I don't know where I heard this from but it is insanely true I think it's the reason the Bible brings it up so much lust
kills Kings look at David look at Solomon I know Samson wasn't a king but look at Samson and obviously by no means am I perfect on Sean retention by no means right but something the longer I do this I'm just really starting to notice is that when the longer you're on it the longer you're on SE retention the longer you're on Christ focused self-improvement you're going to attract almost like two different types of women the type of women that you actually want to be around right the God-fearing women the proverbs 31 women whatever you want
to call them the beautiful feminine wife like the type of women you want to be around and then you almost attract like the polar opposite of that the type of women that almost can see on a spiritual level that there's something you have and they want to take it from you and I'm no expert on the Jezebel spirit but isn't like a big piece of the Jezebel spirit like the idea that a woman is super controlling right and they look to get something from you I've even heard people say that like when they messed around
with women like this and then they fell into the lust with them after it's done the woman wants like nothing to do with them like Clean Hands that's it I more or less just wanted to share this this video isn't really advice because not all my videos are intended that way like I'm literally just telling you what I'm currently going through and I want to share it maybe the thing you can take away from this video maybe it's the reason I'm making this video is because you need to have the spiritual eyes you need to
be able to discern what Spirits are behind people and their motives I mean look at this one like you would think because we talked a little bit about God and the Bible and even recommended Christian books and all this stuff you think that would mean moving in the right direction but there's discernment levels to it it's like even when Jesus was being tempted by the enemy when he went to fast if you go look at it I can't remember what scripture it is I want to say it's Matthew 8 the devil recites scripture to Jesus
he just twists it a little bit or lies about it just because she says she knows God does not make her spiritual just because she says she's Christian does not mean she's actually Christian and walking with Christ just because she says that she wants to grow with God I guess that means that does not mean she actually wants to grow with God that's all I really got if you have any advice for me you can leave it down in the comments I'll try and read through all of them Christ focus self-improvement is what I teach
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