so here's the thing I am definitely losing my mind also good morning nothing makes sense that's kind of become my monra lately I keep repeating it to myself nothing makes sense okay so like sometimes right I'm living my life I'm going about my day and it's like all of the sudden I have this awareness and I can actually like see it's like my eyes actually open even though obviously they were open already but it's like then in that moment that's when I'm able to actually see the world for what it is instead of just being
trapped in this like subjective state of being it's like you oh gosh what philosopher was it how like we're sleepwalking all the time that's like a thing isn't it oh gosh I don't know it's been so long since I've taken a philosophy Clash but that's kind of what it feels like it's like this constant sleeping but then sometimes I wake up and I'm like oh oh look look I'm actually looking at the world it's like I'm trying to look at my hands right now it's like I'm looking at them but I know it's not like
the same Clarity of looking at them okay so then that got me thinking right we're like I think we're all literally like sleepwalking we're all kind of asleep right when I really think about it Humanity The Human Experience it's just pain and discomfort and the way we get through life is by finding ways to numb ourselves like everything is painful Everyone is always aching whether it's physically or mentally or somewhere in some way one way or another there's always this like aching and we're just numbing ourselves to what extent and we try to like find
our purposes or we try to like meditate and we try to just it's literally just numbing it's a numbing effect and we're numbing ourselves to death and there is just there is this incredible World happening all around us like this this is where I'm sitting this is incredible this is why I always dreamed of being so why do I always feel uncomfortable and unhappy and there's like this this like tormented unfulfilled kind of feeling that's always just sitting there even like even in the good moments it's always just kind of there what is that and
I I know it's not just me I know it's every single other person we're always uncomfortable it's like we're already living in Hell there is just pain all the time and people turn to different things like religion or like careers or drugs anything to channel this it doesn't make any sense and then of course we are just like our subconscious mind our subconscious mind doesn't know know the difference between right and wrong or good or bad it just takes in information so then it's up to the conscious part of our mind to decide what we're
actually going to do but then the conscious mind is still controlled by the subconscious mind so do we actually have a say in what we're doing or are we just the result of our Environ ironment it doesn't make any sense and I'm actually unwell about this there's so many different ways that you can look at this too okay right oh my gosh I just spit everywhere gosh I remember that one story from philosophy where there's like the guy and he thinks really hard about things he's like a more well-off guy but he thinks too hard
about things and he's just always distraught because he's so aware of everything but then he has a neighbor who's like an older lady and she's poor and she is just in a total state of BL cuz she's so ignorant to what's happening around her and it's like oh would you rather be the guy who's really aware and stressed or the lady who's ignorantly Bliss gosh I had a point with that why was I talking about that I don't remember what I was going to say about that all I know is that I wish I could
be the lady but I can't cuz I'm the guy feel like once you realize you're the guy there's no going back oh my gosh it's like Spy Kids three it's the guy there's so many different approaches you can take to this topic too you can come at it from the optimistic perspective of oh you know everything's chaos that means you get to create your own purpose and your own happiness in life which I think is probably my favorite Outlook then you really think about it and it's like it's like the nothing matters kind of concept
and like why are we just in pain all the time like what are we even doing here we're just alive until we die this is just part of the human experience and everyone's just walking around like they're totally fine that like they're all going to be dead one day and like yes I think it's good to be at peace with that but I don't think anyone actually understands what it is that we're like I'm trying so hard to look at my hands right now and I know that I'm looking at them but it's like I'm
not actually experiencing reality I'm pretty sure we're in The Matrix I'm pretty darn sure okay okay but then pain right how we're like always in pain and discomfort all the time that's all in our mind even if it's in our body it's in our mind cuz like the you know nerves everything whatnot neurons it's all being processed in here so then is it like are we our brain or are we actually something deeper than that is there spirituality or is this just chaos I think maybe it's both I don't know listen listen the thoughts are
getting deep man nothing makes sense absolutely nothing makes sense and you know what I don't think I really want it to make sense I kind of like the mystery and the whatnot but I at least want to be able to enjoy the chaos that is life because I feel like my soul is in turmoil because I can't understand and that's I'm trying so hard to be the person that just doesn't want to understand I want the Bliss seriously nothing makes any sense like how there are so many different opinions thousands of different opinions on perhaps
one topic and somehow they are all correct they are all correct they opinions I swear it's it's the Matrix I don't know how it works I don't know why it works I it just guys guys okay thank you for listening it's time to actually get about my day now guys what is happening okay have a beautiful lovely lovely day um May the force be with you
