my name is Sean Jacobs I go by the stage name of cubs uh and in 2021 I had a near-death experience and I went over to the other side for 13 minutes out of respect for those involved out of respect for the experience so as to not implicate anybody out of forgiveness love and a deep understanding of the nature of fate and reality I'm going to start my story at the end I was lying on the floor heart beating faster and louder than I've ever felt I had a deep sense of panic and overwhelm my
breathing became labored and this sudden knowing and realization that it was my time to go had filled my Consciousness there I was in the experience that I had been running from my whole life the dying experience the moment that I had realized that my physical body was about to perish my mental body began to cling like never before my ego there was a shaky vignette of Darkness around the corners of my vision that started to close in more and more until it created this dark tunnel and out of that dark tunnel emerged a light and
I'm only calling this a light because that's how we would describe it but it was a vibration an illumination of Consciousness a feeling of Eternal peace and comfort and home like home of home of homes and I was drawn to this piece like a magnet but the part of me that was having a hard time letting go of my life experience my ego my sha was clinging blaming and resisting So In This Moment of this near-death experience I am panicking what have you done we are dying you wasted a whole beautiful life then the blame
kicked in I blame the people that have done this but I blame you for being here I blame the person that introduced you to the person that invited you here for this grave error and mistake leading to our death and it was this very punishing feeling and as this light started to draw closer and become brighter the fear had nowhere else to go it was backed all the way into a corner and a voice came through and this voice that I can only describe as Stern loving wise and primordial said surrender to the experience and
I let my hands go cuz they were grasping and shaking and I went into the light this light became me and once I was in that light I merged with non-duality God Consciousness I merged with spirit and in this Spirit there's only a few things that I can describe to an audience the color orange the feeling of peace like the peace that we're promised as humans one day an eternal love like all of the hugs and kisses from all of the grandmothers in all of history the awareness of this place that I was in this
Blissful Heavenly omnipotent awareness was that of nonduality was that of God and in nonduality in this space that I found myself I was all things I was the Alpha and the Omega Beyond Time Beyond form Beyond circumstance it was the most exalting and Powerful love that you can imagine and I've had a difficult time in sharing this experience with people because I think as humans we all cling to the version of the afterlife where there is what 72 virgins or like your grandma and Abraham Lincoln playing beer pong but I believe that there is a
place for that I believe that there's levels of consciousness that we all reside in as humans but this place that I went to was The Place Beyond all of those levels the place of non-duality and on my way up to that place I had a Life review and I got to see all of the moments of my life the good the bad the flow the resistance the contraction the expansion and not only did I get to see my memories of my life but I got to feel them from the perspective of other people I got
to feel how I touched my listeners I got to feel how I made people feel when I was on stage or my mom when I told her I loved her or the opposite you know when I was younger I got to have a fully immersive experience of what it means to be Shawn and there was some stuff that was very hard to sit with and to look at followed by this immediate forgiveness of a new memory of something such so much simpler and more profound and I realized in that moment of Letting Go that our
life is just a journey of love and all all of our experiences are just how many steps removed or how far away from love you are and I realized that the fabric of reality itself creation itself time all of the forces that we identify with are God and God is love and when I finally was able to shed my own Consciousness and cross over I became God I became that love I became everyone in existence this Singularity Consciousness from which we all come from is just love so I've had a lot of questions about this
this nature of non-duality and when I was over there for a very brief point in time I knew everything I saw everything and when I came back didn't remember most of it but I was given this very simple understanding of how the universe is and how it was created we as humans can conceive of most levels of reality but historically we've only been able to attain most of them and it goes as far back into prehistory the pagans and stuff and they believed in a mother and a father God and that's Duality polarity and I
realize that as humans we all come from a mother and a father and it's only natural for us to believe that they are two separate people and that their love and the connection between the two of them wasn't a separate party wasn't the actual thing that they were and so what I discovered overed was that God created two so God could experience thyself so God could love thyself and from two created polarity and polarity created opposing forces which created all of the events that unfolded to the Big Bang the expansion contraction the harmony disharmony all
at once and everything was just birthed from there and beyond all of this there is just one and we are that one and there is no separation between us and that because that is us we are that we are and we are love I returned to my body after I couldn't tell you how long I was here because there wasn't time cuz there isn't time and I was crying and shaking and I had felt so touched so loved so Chosen and I don't mean special chosen like I'm on a podcast chosen but like so deeply
deeply chosen by me and you are chosen by you and my life took took a series of wild turns after this an entirely new understanding of how everything works integrating back into sea a musician a soon to be father a friend and I will say that when I did return into my own life and my own Consciousness I understand why we ascribe power to things outside of ourselves that I understand why the Saints and the mystics in the Old Testament talked about this powerful scary God because this this force is so it's omnipotent it's massive
and when you're dealing with this and interfacing this from a human standpoint it's scary dude it's super scary I was very scared but when you let go of fear the truth will appear so simple and clear I heard it in a song right after and I was like yeah because beyond that fear which is separation was unity and unity is love and love is creation and that is the message that as convoluted and difficult to describe I know that I'm here and I know I was in that room dying having that experience to come back
and talk about and I wanted to say for anybody out there watching these videos they're so fascinating they're all so different and diverse and wonderful and and inspiring we all search for these videos to remember we think maybe sometimes it's cuz we have a loved one who's sick and we want to feel better about where they're going but we're just wanting to remember and so I have this a reading I'd like to share called Diamond Radiance prayer I love the div within me I love the divine within the Divine I love the Divine that is
the Divine and I can call upon the Divine to help me see that I am unbroken the whole not a piece I merge with the Divine and I wake from the dream a washed in the River of Love That is me thank you for listening and uh I love you I see you and I am you we all falling when the loes in our eyes staring lost at the skyl We All Fall in when the lovees in our eyes [Music]
