Michael Singer - The Journey from Finite to Infinite

G gastas some people say that a human being can't truly conceive of get close to have a relationship with this thing called God unless they humanize it unless they personify it like we make a big deal out of worshiping images like the ancient Greeks and Romans and so on had all these statues and images and gods and Goddesses but we do it too I mean people look at Christ instead of looking at God right it's something they can relate to it's something that has form it's something they can say if I love this then I

love God right and even things even though the Jewish tradition says have no graven images or images you know the Torah itself or a temple or anything like that they're they're not God God is a lot bigger than that okay and so to get any sort of Conception we end up creating images it says not to but those are images we create images all right can a human being meaning you have a direct relationship with God God real God God the creator of the universe God the omniscent omnipresent omnipotent one or do you have to

bring it down to the human level and what yoga teaches and the great teachings all the great great deep teachings including Christ teach That yes you do have a direct relationship and you can have a direct relationship not by bringing God down to your size but by allowing you to go to the infinite omnipresent omnicient size that's the key it's not I'm in a body therefore God needs a body I have a mind therefore if I think of God that's God I have a human heart that can love and can hate and can be scared

and do these things if the heart is feeling love devotion for God then that's as far as I Go I've brought God down to my size I have brought God down I call God on the mind okay this is what I believe in God well what is a belief it's a thought pattern that you hold in your mind is it not I don't believe in God I believe in God to a yogi to a very deep being they're the same they're are beliefs there are things that you formulate in your mind and you say I

believe in God but I had a miscarriage now I don't or better yet I've heard People say it I believe him and I hate him why would you do that to me you see you've humanized the the holy relationship you basically brought it down to in essence what is God to you that which takes care of me that answers my prayers that which knows what I need before I need and gives it to me somehow every one of those words was about me God's a little bigger than you the reality of what it means to

be Omnipresent omnicient and omnipotent is a lot bigger than you but that's not what you care about I'm not talking you personally but just listen what you care about is I will do my best to take care of me what does that mean to get what I want I told you once before the foundation of what a human being is I have things I want and I have things I don't want I'm going to spend my life trying to get what I want and avoid what I don't want did I get you yet and you

Think it matters what you want or what you don't want yeah it does morally yes it does legally I understand but from a spiritual point of view you're still dealing with the limitation of wants and not wants those are things that are very very human okay by the way they're what we call very very personal how do I know they personal because yours are different than hers and guess what yours are different than your wives you won't tell her but you yours are different Than your kids your there's no one that has the same wants

and fears and desires wants and not wants as you I've been through that before there is no one that has ever walked the face of the Earth or ever will or is here now that has the same wants and not wants as you why then you go to what I always teach you that's why spirituality is is really very grounded if you want to know God if you want to know the real God you have to start with understanding why you don't So what do I mean that every human being that ever lived is different

than you has different wants and not wants why well where do he wants and not wants come from it's very naive if you think you made up what you want what you don't want that is not true not one single one of you ever made up what you want or don't want and I have all the psychologist standing behind me they studied it they've watched it and they're right they say a human being is A sum of their learned experiences what does that mean it means if somebody comes up to you and they say something

mean to you and you never met them before you don't like them if you see them again you avoid them the sum of your learned experiences oh but it's logical it's not logical if you didn't have that experience you would not have that feeling about that person would you if they didn't take your blanket way too soon you wouldn't be Frey and weird Every single thing they say they say you are the sum of your learned experiences don't think of it just oh there's some big trauma that happened to me every single day if you're

driving behind the car that that's a you know I'm old right a 1976 Pinto they don't make him anymore believe me right and and Ford Pinto and you're driving on the car and it's kind of aqua green and all of a sudden he Rams on his brakes you almost hit him and then and he floors it and then he Turns starts to turn but he comes back right if you ever see that car again your heart will go even if you're in Germany and that car ain't there it doesn't matter I want to know did

I tell the truth or not does it leave an impression on you yes right therefore you are different because you had that experience and you think you're deciding these things because your mind is so attached to itself that it says I know how people who drive 1976 green Pinos drive and that's weird I ain't getting near him ever again okay get married to someone named Sam and have him turn out to be a real Son of Sam a real schnook okay and you get divorced I'm telling you if the next time your friend tries to

hook you up on a blind date and you're exciting it looks wonderful what's his name Sam forget it watch I've had enough Sams for the rest of my life it sounds logical to you it's not logical at all is it it's Just an experience that happened to happen and you happened to have it nobody else had it just think about how you go from spot to spot to spot having experiences is anybody having the same experience as you no one ever has and no one ever will because the experience will never happen again it's a

motion picture the moments don't repeat themselves so it's really important to understand this is all about knowing god because that's why you Don't know God that sounds weird why is that why you don't know God because your Consciousness is distracted by what you want and what you don't want if you go to a party and you walk in that party you're having a good time there's music there's food there's this there's all kinds of entertainment things going on and your Consciousness is resting on the experience and all of a sudden somebody yells out Sam Sam

you want to Leave so what happened was this one experience that you stored from the past you was very strong because you stored all of the emotions and the whole history every single thing about it you stored in your mind and your heart didn't you and that is way more distracting than the music at the party than the people at the party than all of a sudden one word because this comes back up so your Consciousness is distracted by the sum of your learned Experiences I always tell you white lines go right through the lines

in the road how many times you have nightmares about the lines in the road how many times you really make a thing out of the darn lines on the road whether they're solid or yellow or white or dashed on one side or the other you don't make a thing out of them they go right through but Sam doesn't nor does the fact that you went on a picnic and there were ants I'm not Going back there there's ants all over the place there happen to be a day there was ants there there might not be

later but you don't hear about it do you go to a restaurant and the particular time you go to the restaurant something goes wrong you know the waiter spill some water this happen something happens you're not going back there and you're telling everyone don't go to that restaurant just because one stupid experience programed you so that now You're not free so what happens is your Consciousness gets distracted by the strongest stuff that's going on inside your mind and your heart your awareness your Consciousness you you are I forgot to ask you are you in there

anybody in there okay you're in there what are you doing in there I'm being aware of what's in there and what's outside that's what I'm doing I'm aware if I wasn't aware there wouldn't be an issue either but I'm aware and what Happens is the outside comes in as an experience and it hits the mind and the mind starts thinking about it hits the heart and the Heart starts feeling about it and if the thoughts and the feelings are nice then you like what's out there if the thoughts and the feelings are not nice you

don't like what's out there and you store it inside you store the strongest ones that are the most nice and the most not nice I've often said to you at this particular moment if you're Listening I hope you are isn't it a kind of silly thing to do to store inside of you everything that ever bothered you ever think about that okay everyone does this you don't even think about it let's say you went to a restaurant and they serve some food and you got sick it wasn't good something was wrong with the food all

right and you started to feel gas and stomach ache right but what you should do is call the waiter over waitress over and say oh excuse me can I Have a doggy bag and take the doggy bag take it home and there's a room in your house called the sick room and you take that food and you put it in the sick room every time anything made you sick you keep it in that room and every morning just a little teaspoon you go in and taste it to remember how sick it made you now you

laugh cuz that'd be pretty stupid wouldn't it why would you do that why do you do it with Experiences why do you literally have a bad experience it's over somebody said something not nice to you somebody didn't call when they were supposed to some experience happened you don't let it go you say give me a doggy bag and you store it inside of you don't you and it comes back up all the time doesn't it how many of those you done thousands and thousands and thousands all the time you've done since your youth everything ever

bothered you stor inside of you and You wonder why you're not okay so that stuff is distracting your Consciousness well so what if it wasn't I'm going to make a statement for you and then we'll fill it in later if it was not distracting your Consciousness you would know God which God not the god that would give you what you want because you don't want anything because you're fine not the god that would make sure you don't have things you don't want because you Couldn't care less it doesn't bother you because what happens is your

Consciousness itself not what it's conscious of the Consciousness itself is the holiest thing in the universe it is the universe you're a very great being and your Consciousness when the Bible says man is created in the image of God it's talking about your Consciousness you are aware of things if you were not aware of things they wouldn't exist would they there are Two things in your Universe your Consciousness and objects of Consciousness your awareness and things you're aware of the things you're aware of change constantly your thoughts are things you're aware of yes or no

you're aware of your thoughts your emotions are things you're aware of of and what comes in through your senses of things you're aware of so you are aware of objects of Consciousness to a yogi a great being all objects of conscious are the same All objects of conscious are the same they're objects of Consciousness all right the only thing that's different is the Consciousness itself I am aware of her I'm aware of him I'm aware of the ant I'm aware of the sound I'm aware of the color it's just things I'm aware of who's aware

of them that's the thing that's different everything else is an just listen to me that's called nism this teaching everything else is an object of Consciousness that's a Category is it Consciousness or an object of Consciousness I've never done this as deep with you is it Consciousness or an object of Consciousness every thought is an object of Consciousness is it not you're aware of it same you are you aware if you have a nice thought and you're aware if you have a not nice thought is the same you that's aware of it or you got

to phone each other there's only one Consciousness in there but there are Infinite objects of Consciousness every single thought is an object of cons every emotion is an object of Consciousness everything in form is an object of Consciousness from looking at him looking at her there's no difference I'm looking at something but it's a girl there's no difference you're making a difference with your mind they're just objects of Consciousness here here's a rock it's Shining Here's another rock the gold type shining okay this one has To be real gold and this one is fool's gold

all right to the Consciousness there's no difference they're rocks until you fill it in with your past experience a baby doesn't know the difference those two things and a lot of fools buy fools gold that's why it's called Fool's Gold they don't know the difference either all right the difference is because your mind processed this and said they're different to a great being when I told You will keep coming in and out to great being Consciousness is the most important thing if I take away an object Consciousness are you still aware it's gone here here's

a here's a diamond right see it I'm going to take it away did you see it when it was there do you know it's not there did Consciousness change no awareness stayed the same you were just aware it was there now you're aware it's not there this is like the most important Spiritual teaching you will ever get you are in there who are you what they mean by Soul what they mean by Atman all this is you it's not some esoteric thing that you need to learn about you are it you've always been it so

you start there there's Consciousness and objects of Consciousness the objects of conscious you might like them might not like them they might be be scary they might be this whatever it is everything's different a rattlesnake and a butterfl Are different but there're still objects of Consciousness a scary situation and Pleasant situation are just object Consciousness take a breath this is what it means to research true spirituality and this is what it means to try to find God real God not God of the Mind god of the mind I told you is about I am distracted

completely that's a normal human I am distracted completely by my thoughts and by my emotions and my Thoughts and emotions are affected by what happens in the outside world I told you once none of you Care One Hoot about the outside world none of you right now you don't have to do any meditation have to do a single thing you do not care one Hoot about what's going on in the outside world you care because the outside world affects your inside if it didn't affect your inside you couldn't care less about it that's why you

don't care about the white Lines anybody willing to listen it's because the outside affects the inside why because you stored past experiences in your inside and you're putting them all together and figure out what you like what you don't like and all that kind of junk okay and that's what it means to be human that you do that stuff but then you get totally distracted your Consciousness gets so distracted by this noise going on in your head and in your heart and The world affecting it and so on that you never get out very few

people ever get out they spend from the time they're born to the time they die figuring out what they want figuring what they don't want trying to get it and trying to avoid it so you're really special you're you're into money you're into Ferraris and fancy cars and castles and that that's what you're about right you're a hippie all right and you're into Off the Grid and have nothing to do with Anything and to vegetarian and vegan stuff everything you're both the same through Yogi you're the same you are both completely absorbed in your objects

of Consciousness your object of Consciousness your thoughts and your emotions are saying get off the stupid grid you can't trust anybody blah blah blah blah blah and yours are saying get in the grid own it all right in both cases your Consciousness is lost in whatever you're subject to Consciousness Is is that threatening do you understand that yes all right that's what it means to go deeper than the personal self the personal self is the mind that's programmed by the past experiences the mind and heart that are programmed the past experiences are personal to you

and now you look outside and try to control the world so that when it unfolds it matches what you like and doesn't match what you don't like it's simple you spend your whole life that way okay and You call a paradigm shift most people call a paradigm shift I used to be the one that want all the money now the one off the grid I changed everything I changed a single thing not from a spiritual point of view do you see that it's a nicer object to Consciousness it's a nicer set okay it's like I'm

going to go very extreme if you really want something you take a gun and put somebody's head give it to me I want that right or you go om Attract it to me I want the manifestation I want what you have please bring it to me same not really okay but you hear me in both cas you completely absorbed in what you want and what you don't want you're just using different methodologies to do it this is called transcendental thought you're understanding that you're the Consciousness how you go about getting what you want avoiding what

you don't want listen if you're my neighbor use mantras not guns I mean it's certainly Much nicer it's more civil it's better for society it's legal like there's just all kinds of things that are much nicer but from a spiritual point of view a strictly spiritual point of view you are the Consciousness and you are absorbed in your OB of Consciousness the fact that your OB Consciousness changed fine okay I'm not passing moral judgment on anything I'm talking spiritually so that basically the key becomes if your Consciousness is distracted by you and you know what

I mean by your ego and your super ego and your ID nice nice Freudian stuff in your head and all the different things that go on in your heart and those are being affected by the outside world you're gone so spirituality sister and says okay all objects of Consciousness are the same I don't obviously feel that way because I got my stuff inside right so that obviously let's be honest somebody talk About spiritual bypassing right okay they're all the same I'm done no that's spiritual bypassing you're not even close to done you haven't even started

you are sitting there absorbed in your personal self and you're still out there trying to control everybody and everything so that you can be okay in there so at some point you wake up and you sit there and say wait a minute I'm not done the outside world has every ability to mess With me inside but I don't want to devote my life to that that's a spiritual person there I don't want to devote my life to me I would like to know more than me cuz I'm very limited oh am I limited I like

this color I like that person I live in this house how big is that I try to tell you I don't know why I I it affects me all the time to sit there and say that's all one spot on this giant planet and that's all you think about and your family you Have one kid two kids and a husband that's three people out of 8.3 billion and how long you going to be here what 70 80 90 years how long's the planet been here 4.5 billion and you think it's important to think about this

tiny little meaningless thing that's here today and gone tomorrow and is just a sum of his learn experiences anyways if had a different experience would be thinking differently doesn't matter I'm completely devoted to me devoted to my Thoughts my emotions and therefore I need this tiny world I live in how small is your world that you interact with all day or throughout your entire life compared to the planet Earth that it's ridiculous and what do I tell you I'm going to do it again I'm sorry 1.3 million Earth fit inside the Sun and you're taking

up how much room on the meaningless thing that 1.3 million fit inside the Sun and your sun is one of 300 billion stars in One Galaxy and there are two trillion galaxies what's important to you me my thoughts my emotions my body and my world that's because your Consciousness is distracted by that therefore that is your world your Consciousness which you don't know anything about is completely distracted all the time by you my children my house my job my car my body my relationship my my my my my all right it's just it's so Small

it's incomprehensible how small it is but it's your whole world it's 100% of your whole world spirituality is about saying the father following is there something greater than me well you said God is probably greater than you can I know something greater than me or do I have to bring this God God thing down to me and spirituality says no don't bring it down to you go up to it how you can't go up to it while You're distracted down that's it that's the entire real spiritual teaching yeah I told you once I'll do the

same thing I'm going to take a 15ft rattlesnake don't be scared do be scared and I'm going to drop it down in this room it's not tamed it's a regular old rattlesnake okay first question I'm going to ask you you can't stop me from doing I'm going to do it you have one choice do you want it in front of you or behind you that's not even funny okay I want it In front of me why so I can watch what it's doing so I can be distracted by it there's no in the world I

don't want to be distracted by it I don't want it behind me and not know what's going on okay so that basically you've done that with all of the things in your life so it pulls you down it pulls your Consciousness down to form believe it or not and I'm not going to prove it to you someday you'll find out for yourself that's the fall from the garden the fact That your Consciousness is capable of being conscious of anything including ready oh I'm going to say it itself if Consciousness can be aware of something why

can't it be aware of being conscious that's what you mean in a little little sense with witness Consciousness everybody's witnessing what they're seeing but some people are aware that they're aware that they're seeing it okay I'm feeling insecurity I'm lost in it I need to find somebody I Don't know what to do I'm so unhappy I'm so okay there now you have lost your Consciousness in insecurity there's no Center it got pulled away into the insecurity I've learned to get above that I'm the witness I'm the Consciousness yesterday I was feeling love today he or

she said something and I'm feeling insecurity I'm feeling jealousy but I'm the one who's feeling it I'm not it I'm not is noticing that the weather inside Changed how's that okay I'm in here and it used to be sunny in here now it's a little stormy but I didn't go down there it didn't pull me down there it doesn't mean it's Pleasant it just means I'm capable this is so important I'm capable of remaining in the seat of Consciousness witness Consciousness awareness the seat of awareness and I know that this is just something I'm aware

of I'm not not aware of it I'm not claiming I'm not aware of It I see it perfectly I'm jealous I see it perfectly well there it is so you're see seeing it there it is but it didn't suck you in you're capable of relaxing in the face of it you're capable of knowing it will come and go like everything else does everything in your life has come and gone nothing in the universe stays for even truly a nanc every atom is every electron is different everything's changing unless you stop it unless you hold on

to that And then it stays in your mind even though it didn't stay in the world right if I take the r snake out now you'll never come back to the temple rattlesnakes in there he said he wouldn't put it in again but I don't know what's stopping him you see what I'm saying you now have an impression in your mind and even though there is no rattlesnake and there will never be another rattlesnake there will be for you it's there from now on God please Listen so it has distracted your Consciousness pulled you into

it versus I am in here and I'm noticing that he's getting weird about this subject he got weird because the name Ben called out but but I'm aware that I'm in Europe and Ben ain't in Europe in fact Ben died 5 years ago all of a sudden you stayed that's what the word centered means I'm a centered being what does centered mean I don't get pulled away from this place That's my place of Center I'm sitting in a seat of Consciousness I'm not thinking I'm a seat of conscious I am I'm aware objects of Consciousness

are coming and going and that's what they do they come and go they may pull on me a little bit but I let go I understand why I teach Letting Go all right I'm in this seat and all of a sudden some fear comes up did I not have the fear I had the fear I'm not going to lie I'm not have a self-concept that I don't have fear Right it's something I had it came up based on my past experiences didn't make you feel fear you didn't freak out when heard Ben in fact you

got excited because you were dating a Ben not my Ben all right are we weird yes me are we weird all right so if you're centered these events can happen outside they still do believe me know what you do they're going to unfold outside they can hit your stuff because you still have stuff And now you know this stuff stuff you stored in there from before so it can get stimulated up of like and dislike and all that stuff and believe it or not you can sit right there and you know deep state becomes as

you spend more time there Bend there done that that's what it's like I've seen that before I I've seen the jealousy I've seen the fear I've seen the insecurity been there done that and it was I managed to sit through it before I Noticed that it I can growl it started to come up and I can just relax and I can feel a ever feel a pull doesn't it pull you into it not easy to stay back there is it all right that's I teach you don't struggle with it this is how you get out

don't if you struggle with it it already won because you had to go down there to struggle with it it's not about pushing it away it's not about not having it it's not about denying it it's about saying I've seen you before and I Know you're going to come and go and I'm capable of not going down there I can feel pull I teach that in the new book living in tether what do I do when I feel a pulling I don't pull back I don't try to push it away I do what happens if

if I'm going to tug of war with somebody much stronger than me on the other end of the rope and I'm holding the rope and I couldn't care less who wins I just want to go home what do I do I don't have to win I just relax my Hands if I relax my hands I go home all right it takes two to tango so if that thing's pulling on you and you feel a pull who's on the other end of the pull I understand it has a powerful pull of Attraction pulling you down but

if you feel pull it means you're holding on you're on the other end oh God if you guys understand me it's the deepest stuff you'll ever understand you're on the other end of the Rope so the mistake people make is they sit There and said I'm not supposed to feel jealousy or anger or or lust or greed or any these sort of things because I'll go to hell therefore I have to make them go away you just suppress them they'll be there all the time but what do I do I don't want to go with

them yes if you go with them you go down if you go down there to fight them or you go down there to be with them it's the same thing God can you believe that Christ actually talked at this level he said it has been Said unto you an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth but I say unto you resist not evil well what kind of statement is that if you fight it it becomes part of your life if you fight the jealousy you fight the fear you fight the insecurity you

fight the lust you fight the greed you fight these things then you're basically saying either they're going to pull me and I go with them or I push them away and I suppress them he said don't resist them Resist not evil what does that mean relax relax in its presence and what happens it passes by it passes through and it is what happens by the way the only Reon in there because you held it in there from the past you're holding it in there now if you relax relaxation is the opposite of resistance listen to

me relaxation is the opposite of resistance if you're resisting something you have to put out will to interact with it to resist it if You relax you can't do that relaxing means I am not resisting doesn't it go do a massage have it massaging you should you resist tighten up every time it touches something no relax relax do yoga but I tell you relax through it just relax through it that is what every spiritual thing is trying to teach you relax if you relax it means I got to stay centered I'm the one who's relaxing

it's what was pulling on me well what do I do if I don't like what's happening Relax no I have to do something that is doing something it is relaxing it's a thing to do it's an act of will relax don't fight it don't touch it don't resist it don't wish it wasn't there just relax what we have I relax because you relax it has room to pass and that's what it will do doesn't mean that you feel anger and you relax that you'll never feel anger again but you'll feel less I guarantee you you'll

feel less the first time you sit Through one of these pulls and manage to stay centered you learned how to do it when you play your scales on a piano every time you play it you get better doesn't mean you're a concert penist but I guarantee you you practice a sport or practice an instrument you will get better that's the same thing you're in here if you practice relaxing in the face of the pull by letting go next time it will be less and next time it'll be less and eventually you have to ask is

It still there or am I just able to handle it what difference does it make it couldn't pull you into it and now we're going very deep UK you's Guru very lighten brilliant being made a statement and ignored guest quickly leaves an ignored guest quickly leaves what does that mean it means if you don't interact with it it's gone if somebody comes to your house and and wants to either be so nice that you like them or wants to make so much disturbance you don't like them They're going to stay you interacted with them if

you ignore them they'll leave it's boring okay it's the same thing with these patterns that you stored inside if you can handle them and relax in the face of them there's no reason to be in there they're in there because you couldn't handle them you couldn't handle the divorce so it's still in there you couldn't handle the snake so it's still in there if you're kind of person that likes reptiles you Grew up with them your brother had them then you see the snake it don't bother you at all you don't think tce about oh

I've seen those lots of times hear me if you can handle it it passes through if you can't handle it either because you liked it so much that you don't want it to pass through that's called a positive sscar or you didn't like it so much that you don't even want it to ever come back up again a negative subc Scara they're both doing the same thing they're Basically saying I couldn't handle it I had to make a thing out of it so I stred inside of me and so it keeps coming back up so

this thing about winess Consciousness about being centered being clear Krishna called it objective observation objective observation isn't it that's witness Consciousness another name for witness Consciousness it was very early you know back in the 50s and 40s whenever Krishna muray was all right very great being and that's what he Called it way before you all thought about witness Consciousness or anything called objective observation meaning you're there objectively not personally observing what's going on inside what will happen if you do it will come and go therefore leaving you as it found you you stay centered we

talk now as though witness Consciousness is some great state it's really not it's like it's just a starting position of spirituality in other words if you can't maintain Your Center you're just another human here's another human a loose cannon running around and somebody says something you hit him somebody says something you run away you never talk to him again you're just a reactive machine right or wrong that's all you're doing is reacting based upon the fact that somebody came in and you either liked it or you didn't like it and boom there we are right

well like I said if you want to call God that I can pray and ask that I get what I want and avoid what I don't want very good you made him as small as you it's a personal God okay what happens if you learn to do this and I taught you how I just taught you how to do it if you can relax in the face of the pull now you know you think you guys would think but how great do I have to be to get to the point that I can relax in

the face of the pull well I'll give you an example how about a heroin addict that goes through withdrawal and Straightens their life up can it happen can it happen did they not relax through it did they not manage to not go with the pull you think there was no pull a lot of pull that's a lot of pull is it going through withdrawal if they can do it you can do it they just did it about a very low thing you can do do of every High thing your ego your self-concept your preferences right

it's not about renouncing it's About letting go that's different renouncing is I want it I'm not letting go I want it but I'm not going to do it because I want to go to heaven or I don't want to go to hell all right that's that's a problem that's depression what I'm interested in is okay I feel a desire I feel a fear I noticed and I'm wise enough to notice that they they desire sound very promising and fear sound very scary but they all come and go don't they and I Get left holding the

bag if I react based on the fear I quit my job I left this I did that right I was scared all right well okay fine that's your karma that that now you've laid a pattern Down based upon your limitations and you need lessons they'll come back understand that I don't ever want you to look at Karma as a as a punishment don't ever think like that what karma is is I couldn't handle this so I hit you now I'm in jail why because you couldn't Handle yourself therefore life put you in jail well now

what now I need to learn to handle myself in the uh surrender experiment I tell a story about this one inmate that I did prison for 30 years and very very special Soul he was head of a motorcycle gang and had been in fights with rival gangs and killed people and all kinds of stuff but was very very special grew tremendously but he told me the first time I met him when the first time I met Him he said after he listened he used to come my class all the time he sat there and said

that when he went in to the max secury prison and that he was a wild man of course he was he was head of motorcycle gang and he there was another brother of his of of that gang that had been in there for years and he pulled he pulled from his side and he said listen don't resist wow he's sat song from a Bor he says don't resist he said I've been here There are places in here that are so dark that you don't want to go there and they can put you there it's not

worth it you've been fighting your whole life not in here wow isn't that amazing in other words that guy went through what he needed to go through to learn how to handle himself okay so don't say it was his karma it was his teaching opportunity it is for you too so if you do things that hurt people if You do things you're basically telling life I'm not done with this I need to go through this again I need more training on this I need to practice more that's how I want you to look at Karma

so it's true that what goes around comes around but not as a punishment okay as an opportunity to do better to stay centered and not react the same way so basically here you are learning this and so now let's say you managed to do that let's go deeper we Talked about knowing god now you still know you but you're a little higher you're watching it told you once ramd beautiful teacher right and he used to always gave lectures to they pass some years ago but back in the 70s we used to listen to his lectures

and I'll never forget he once said it's sort of like I feel like I'm standing on a bridge watching tumultuous water go under and every once in a while a spray comes up and touches me and I think I Used to be in that that's witness Consciousness I'm up here I'm aware and I'm able to stay up here not by fighting not by fighting you lose if you fight by relaxing if you're capable of relaxing then you're capable of going through it and it's capable of going through you all right now what happens so what's

this got to do with knowing god so the first thing you've done is not known yourself so well right you're not so lost in your stuff That it's running your life it didn't pull you out of the garden right pulls you down then you're out there and you have to work with the sweat of your brow Bible says you thrown of the garden you work with the sweat of your brow you do that don't you you work for the sweat of your brow trying to get what you want avoid what you don't want that's because

you got pulled down into your stuff all right if you can stay up there how by relaxing relaxing through what I would Advise trying to relax through everything you won't be able to but that's why you'll get a second shot and a third shot and just like the piano can you play some scales yeah can you play beov no try beov no I can't play it but if you play your scales eventually maybe can the same thing here just every day let go let go it's raining you don't want it to rain that's a wonderful

practice opportunity God I care so much for you And they don't teach you this right have you ever had whether or not be the way you want it to be did it change did it change because you didn't want it to be that way therefore you wasted an opportunity to let go you might as well have used it as a practice session it's not going to change anyways okay fine it's raining I have to get out of the car and carry these papers and it wasn't raining 10 minutes ago and now it's pouring no okay

I'm sitting on a little Planet spinning around out space and deserves weather fine in this spot where I have to be standing on the planet of which 1.3 million fit inside one star okay I think I can handle it how about you and you just start handling it just relax okay fine I relax and you just take that opportunity every opportunity every opportunity to keep relaxing releasing relaxing releasing that's what it means relax and release relax and release right and if you practice you Will find more and more that you able to stay Center and

that's where I want you now what happens this is the big difference between the personal God and God all right what do you mean your awareness which is you your awareness is who you are used to get pulled down constantly pulled down now it's not getting pulled down what happens well it's very nice it's not getting pulled down that that end of itself is a reward I can handle Things somebody said something okay fine he said it right all a would it be nice a to handle things now I don't have to pay attention so

much it doesn't call all of my need and energy and will to deal with it because it's fine I'm fine with it what will start happening is you'll notice that where you sit you look down there's a behind you everything has a front and the back and the left and the right you're just sitting in one spot you're not getting Pulled down but you're still looking right like Grand I said watching the water go by he don't go down there but he's still looking down at it he still notice the water's pulling his Consciousness you

understand so you're there you're there and if you sit enough you'll start noticing what else is there right now all I know is me because that's what's being pulled down to look at what if I didn't where did I come From who am I what is consciousness what's it made of where does it come from is the most important thing your whole life how do I know if you're not conscious don't worry about anything you're not conscious it's the essence of your being your Consciousness and all I can tell you is if you sit in

that spot enough you start to feel this up upward pull of what of like something in there saying what about me what about not the dot that's sitting there looking at this What ocean is the dot in where did the dot come from I don't you have to think it you're not thinking this you're just not getting pulled down and what happens if you're not getting pulled down you naturally go up you naturally start to get pulled up and you will start to feel what's called shocky you start to feel this beautiful energy pulling on

you drawing you up beckoning to you and it's really beautiful and you realize this is where Love Came From This is where all love that I've ever felt came from in here the difference is I was open enough so it made it down through or I was so closed that it never made it down through but this is the source of love this is the source of Joy this is the source of beauty this the source of inspiration everything is from behind is back there now it's getting more interesting all right that's where all your

spiritual experiences come from and so on but I told you before I Mention spiritual experiences I mentioned your spiritual State and experien is something that comes and goes oh I had this beautiful experience 20 years ago okay how you been doing well not well but that was a beautiful experience I was quite the I saw white lights glowing all over the place and Jesus came holding hands with Krishna it was the most amazing thing right well now I'm suffering all right it's like a spiritual state is where you're at Inside where you live inside so

now because you're not being distracted by the lower aspect of your being how by learning to relax in its face now I don't get pulled down into it you're going to start to have some room in there and realize you're not little you're not a DOT looking down at this AR Ray of sun one beam of sun falls on the earth that's you that's not really you are you're the whole Sun you're the source of where the beam came from it's Pretty expansive isn't it so you're not a DOT of consciousness but now it is

because you're focusing it down on one little tiny thing okay and when you learn to relax through yourself Christ called it dying to be reborn all the great Masters taught the same thing you have to let go of you to know what's greater than you otherwise what you know is you it's very logical isn't it okay so you keep relaxing through yourself relaxing Through it you will end up in a seat that doesn't get pulled down as much and at some point doesn't get pulled out at all and then all of a sudden you'll realize

there's something behind you that's all I can say and makes me cry even say it you don't realize you're sitting somewhere looking at you because you're busy being you you're busy being drawn down into you the moment you're not drawn down into you by being able to Relax through you you will realize wait a minute I don't have to stare at this another way to look at it is all right sunlight's everywhere is isn't it during the day sunlight's everywhere take a magnifying glass hold it in front of the sunlight it Narrows its beam down

to a spot that would burn something doesn't it okay you're that spot you focus your Consciousness so much on you that you're now just that little dot that dot of the power what happens if you stop doing That you realize you're the whole sky where you came from is everything that's what's going on in there because your personal stuff is drawing your Consciousness down you're only aware of that the day you don't have to get pulled down cuz you relaxed through it you handled it and so on you're up here you realize there's a behind

me there's it on top of there's every direction I'm not just sitting there floating in the middle of nothing and what will happen Is your Center will start to expand and it will expand and you'll feel more spacious and then less and less will bother you because it's really beautiful up there it's just you're the highest thing ever walk in the face of the Earth you're gorgeous you're unbelievable you the Consciousness and so it expands it starts to expand and then you start to understand what the master was talking about which mayor Baba said when

I let go completely when I let go of me Completely the drop of my Consciousness that was staring at me fell into the ocean it stopped like I said I think the magnifying glass thing is a perfect example it stopped focusing down to a point and it became way more expansive didn't it always was never changed the sun was always there okay you just stop focusing on you and all of a sudden he said my drop of Consciousness fell into an ocean of Consciousness and I became everything what does that mean you're Going understand it

really beautifully there's a chapter in autobiography it's called my experience in Cosmic Consciousness and he said he reached this state where first he was a person then boom the energy went up so high that he became the universe that he was the Galaxy not I'm looking at it it's not an object I am every Galaxy I am expanding at the speed of light in every direction everywhere it's just whoa why because you didn't limit Consciousness To you therefore it's Consciousness and just so happens Consciousness is God in the Deep punish of the great scriptures God

has called shocky conscious energy now in science we have gone down and studied what's all this made of and they called it a Quantum field of energy there's no matter there's Just Energy and particles seem to appear out of the energy but really they don't it's just a behavior pattern it's just pure light Pure Energy Einstein said equals MC s energy is matter matter is energy okay they went down there science has gone down there to the level of shaki shaki is energy it's all made of energy I I read once that really blew me

away in a NASA article big NASA write up it said the quantum field is omnipresent oh my God the only time I ever heard the word omnipresent used before was God and they said the quantum Fields under present the farthest galaxies are made of the quantum field Every single thing is made of the quantum field okay good and we're getting some worse all right but in yoga we teach it chit chakti all right what does that mean conscious energy It's Not Just Energy it's Consciousness behaving is energy behaving Consciousness and was Underneath It All there's

God everywhere is the same it's just omnipresent non-al it's just this field of Consciousness that just blows my mind I can't even talk about it imagine a field I'm going to try a field of Consciousness that stretches out to the two trillion galaxies and Beyond it's infinite and every spot is the same Consciousness just like your body every spot on your body body is conscious you're conscious every spot on your body right that Consciousness is just as present in your little finger as it is in the farthest Galaxy and it's all connected together at the

same time in the same way there's oh my God that's God so that Consciousness is the real appreciation and understanding of God and you are that Consciousness Consciousness is consciousness if I go to the ocean anywhere to go to the ocean there that's the Ocean Take a little bit here ocean a little bit here right it's the ocean your Consciousness is the same Consciousness as the Consciousness that's everywhere throughout the Universe the problem is it's staring at you do you understand that's why Christ Said you must die to be reborn you have to be willing

to not know yourself as what you know yourself as now so that you can know what you are you're the pure Consciousness it's funny I don't know if you use that magnifying glass example but that's pretty dar good right light is everywhere but you only see it on that dot because you focus it it distracted down to that dot if you stop doing that boom that light is everywhere well That's that's it that's what's going on so I was told you you come out here when we start going to December until toward the New Year's

you get some serious talks why you're sitting on a planet spinning around a star how many times I don't know 80 90 times all right some handful of times it's been doing for 4.5 billion years and basically you come down to understanding that the meaning of your life is what we just talked about it's not true that he who dies in The most toys winds they leave without their toys there's actually nothing that you're doing here that has any meaning except Liberation except freeing yourself from yourself because when the body drops you're still there Consciousness

does not die okay the G says weapons can't reach it water can't overwhelm it fires can't burn it you can see fire you can see water it's an object of Consciousness but it's not Consciousness I can't touch it okay so it's a time as you come toward the new year to stop and take inventory what am I doing in my life am I wasting my life by trying to get what I want and avoid what I don't want since it's not even me that wants it it's just patterns that I learned there just patterns yes

I feel better if I get it and I feel worse if I don't okay fine is that your whole life give me a break it's pry small and you're pretty big all right or you work on this What we talked about you work on Rus used to say use it to go to God use what everything use every single thing to let go of yourself so that you can experience your true self all right thank you for listening Jag