Michael Singer - Shifting the Downward Pull to Upward

Giger J Masters there's a very definite turning point in your growth where before it you're trying to not go down not have problems not feel loss lack Etc trying to compensate for the fact that you're not okay in there when you cross this crossing point Which we're going to discuss tonight it's not like that anymore ever it's more like it's really nice and it keeps getting nicer so everything you're doing in the first part is a try to be okay in the second part it's you're totally okay and you realize that what you thought was

okay yesterday was nothing compared to what you're experiencing today it's called the ascent and it keeps going up just like in the first part it keeps Going down things happen they disturb you people leave you people die people lie people do all kinds of things people do lots of things and it disturbs you and so you try to not be disturbed that's that's the Benchmark of the first part I'm trying to not be disturbed and I'm trying to have some good moments some rushes some highs in the second part there's none of that there's just

none of that and you never go back to that it's all somehow there's this Beautiful energy flowing up inside of you and like I said I once talked to you and we maybe we'll talk to you tonight you all like the fourth chakra you all like love don't you there are seven of them some say there's 12 beyond the seven within the body you're a very very very very very very very high being why are you struggling if you're that high and it's that great why are you hanging out in the first part and that's

that's the great Discussion because you don't have to you do not have to live Baba Mand used to hit his mic he didn't speak much English but his mic and he'd say don't be a beggar we're Beggars aren we please love me please take care of me please let me have finances please let me travel where I want to travel please give meaning to my life etc etc etc you're begging that's all you're doing all day you're begging for something to go okay you're begging for things not to go wrong okay That's no life you

don't want to live like that that's a silly Life to Live considering one you're on the most beautiful planet that anything has ever seen doesn't mean there's not something else but we're sure looking for it aren't we we got the best telescopes out there we got everything got Rovers and we ain't seeing nothing not even an amoeba and I think you're great than AA so you're on the finest planet that could ever possibly exist and you're the Most beautiful being that was ever created so what are you begging for why is it like that so

let's do that very quickly we do it all the time it's like that because you made it like that it is not true that anyone else did it it is not true that anything else did it you are the only one in there it's a single occupancy apartment only you live in there your mother's not living your father's not living there your kids don't live in there do they you are in There therefore anything going on in there is you you're doing it and that's the truth and that's the Deep truth that people just one

they don't tell you that they say well if you had a traumatic experience when you were young you'd be traumatized your whole life that's not true first of all what is a traumatic experience something has happened that I can't handle when it came inside of me the energy was so disturbing emotionally Mentally etc etc that I couldn't handle that energy so what do you do with things you can't handle you try to push them away from you don't you you try to keep them at a distance Freud called it suppression or repression I just call

it resistance you resist things that come inside that are not comfortable to you yes or no come on okay you don't understand when you do that they stay inside okay there can be a terrible experience That happens to you but if it's over why is it not over inside that's the psycholog you should be asking instead of how to teach you how to cope with the fact that it's not over how to cope with the fact that you had this bad experience and you need to live with it don't you no if your mother did

something 35 years ago and she's been dead for 20 years why are you telling me I have to live with that it's not there anymore you are the one that's Making be there are you not what do you do when it comes back up push it back down what do you do if somebody says something that hits your stuff you yell at them you dare talk to me like that you know I don't like when you talk to me like that my father talked to me like that so cute in other words in other words

I'm keeping this stuff in here so it's you got this stuff in there you do have stuff in there don't you how did it get there don't you dare say that Somebody else put it there yes events happen they do events happen there's Hur there's storms there's Wars there's death there's there's so many things I can't even label them things happen correct but they're over they're over things are over nothing has ever stayed nothing has ever stayed do you understand that but they're not over inside of you that's what you need to question not why

did they happen things happen it's not under your control Things happen they've always happened they've always happened and they're going to happen that's all there is to it they're going to happen but if they're not happening why are they still bothering you that's the deepest question a spiritual person ask not how can I meditate how can I go to God what's my prama that make me breathe better what Mantra should I use fine go do all that stuff but until you ask I don't understand if it's over outside Why is it still going on inside

because I'm the only one in there it's not happening out there so it must be me it must be something I'm doing that's keeping that from going away inside of me and that is the truth there is something you are doing that's keeping that from going away inside of you the same thing you did when it happened you didn't want to experience it so you kept it at a distance you pushed it away you don't push the event away the event Already happened you pushed the experience of the event everything has energy correct it comes

in and you experience its vibration its nature what it's called it's nature you feel the thing come inside you don't want to feel it you don't want it to come all the way in there I don't even want it to have happened too bad it did happen no yes if it didn't happen I wouldn't be dealing with it so it obviously happened now the energy of it has come in and your Consciousness your awareness of being can't handle it it doesn't want to deal with it so what does it do it use his will that's

what you have in there you have are you helpless in there or can you push thoughts around and push emotions around you do don't you okay how do you do that how do you do that electromagnetic force no you have will who has will you you who's in there the self the Consciousness the awareness of being can focus its Awareness on one thing or another or let it expand out you can concentrate Etc when you focus your Consciousness on one object it is equivalent to holding a magnifying glass out in the field where it's just

beautiful sunshine every standing having a good time take a magnifying glass and hold on that Sunshine you'll burn whatever it's hanging out nothing changed you concentrated the energy that was there that's what you're Doing inside when something comes inside and it catches your attention distracts you focuses your Consciousness on it that is the power of will you have the ability to coales the great power of your being down to a single thought down to an emotion down to an event and when you focus it that way you give tremendous power that's what willpower is willpower

is not mystical it's not weird it is The Power Of Consciousness concentrating what do you do when you Want to do a math equation in your head multiply 143 * 12 all right I know you won't do it but make believe you got a Blackboard in there and you have to concentrate don't you what is concentrate I need to hold the thought in one place 1403 12 carry over all right you're concentrating and it makes something stop it makes the thoughts stop because you took the power of your Consciousness and focused it it there that

is willpower you use your will to Make it stay and you use your will to push it away you have will in there and will is a natural Power Of Consciousness that's where it comes from you know those of you who are scientifically oriented know the standard model says there are four forces in the universe period four forces electromagnetism gravity strong nuclear and weak nuclear guess what they're wrong why because if I pick up that glass which one did that Electromagnetism gravity no gravity said don't pick it up the strong nuclear force that holds the

atom together the weak nuclear force that lets radiation fall apart none of those did it I did it I have a power inside don't I I can completely overcome all those forces I just overcame the force of gravity didn't I how with the power of will but because it's an inner power it doesn't fit in the standard model do you understand what I'm saying there's Obviously another Power isn't there it does all kinds of things that's what will is I mean there's Wars that go on did electromagnetism start the war did Gravity start the war

did strong nuclear force start the war did weak nucle Force start the war no somebody's will like Hitler right somebody's will decided this is where I'm taking the power of my will it's amazing isn't it okay so will is a tremendous power and I've just told you where it comes from it's not just a Word Consciousness is the strongest power in the whole universe Consciousness is the most important thing in the whole universe there's nothing that comes close to the importance of Consciousness what do you mean if everything's here but nobody's conscious of it what

meaning does it have none it has no meaning no one's aware of it ever nothing you don't know is there or not there nobody knows anything okay but if Consciousness is There and it's aware of a bunch of objects objects then it gave meaning to the objects because it became conscious of them I always tell you this story I tell in tell the soul you're in a room you're standing in a room there's a piano there's people there's a party there's all kinds of stuff going on okay are you aware that that's going on yes

All right I'm going to take away the piano and all the instruments are you aware they're gone yes okay I said they Weren't who you were they're not that important because you're still there okay now I'll take away the people are you aware the people are gone Consciousness stayed it stayed when the object of conscious went away now it take away the room and you're this there in outer space are you aware the room is gone your Consciousness is still there you are the Consciousness that's the essence of your being what's the essence of my

being the part that if it went Away there's no me if everything else went away I'm a wear a went away did every understand what I just said okay that's they talk about Soul the core the ESS essence of your being is your Consciousness so basically if you're sitting there and you have Consciousness and you do someday you're going to find out when we talk about the higher states that Consciousness is not passive it has tremendous power such as the power of will if you concentrate Consciousness it Creates a focus and a power so what

we do with that without realizing it nobody thinks about this kind of stuff right you just do it you do it he use your will all the time you know think about what it is or where it came from and why I'm using it the way I'm using it it's just I don't like what you said you usually will inside or outside when something happens outside that when it comes in it creates enough disturbance you try to push it away with your will You push it away that's a natural instinct I don't want to feel

this but you don't understand and they should teach you this anything you push away stays inside of you anything you push away stays inside of you anything you have ever pushed away the tiniest little thing the fact that Mommy gave the bike to sister and not me the fact that boyfriend walked with somebody else a little too close every single thing the fact that somebody said they'd call you At 10 it's 20 after and you were young in high school and it really hurt you it's still there the entire field of psychology is based on

the fact that you couldn't handle it period there's no psychology there's no therapy there's no anything if the event happened the events happen they didn't call it wasn't comfortable fine it's over they called it's not over that was it the First thing you do when they call why didn't you call you couldn't handle the fact that they didn't call so you stored it inside of you and 3 weeks later when a person says to you hey I'll call you 10 yeah sure you laughing or you think I'm right there's not a chance in the world

that you don't doubt that that call is going to take place even though they call all the rest of the times before that one time so you never thought about you Didn't handle the situation you pushed it away and Everything You Touch in there if you touch it you own it there is nothing solid inside of you there's no fly paper there's no Gorilla Glue there's no cement there is nothing solid inside it's more etheric than air everything the air passes through the air doesn't it everything everything passes through there everything all your thoughts all

your emotions doesn't mean you don't experience them but when They're over they pass through now you're a clean being you're here now you're not sitting there storing if somebody asked you if you store every single thing ever bothered you inside of you what's it going to be like inside bothered and it is isn't it that's why it is not anything the world did it's not God it's not this and the other thing you you know the Bible says you were given Free Will guess what it's True but people twist around they I wasn't give him

free will I didn't get what I wanted that's not what it means it doesn't doesn't mean you get what you want it means you have free will to fight and get upset cuz you didn't get what you want that's your free will you're not the master of the universe but you are the master inside there's nobody else inside nobody just you but what you do when something comes in that's not comfortable is you push it Away and I'm telling you if no one ever told you before please listen if you touch it it stays inside

it will come back up won't it the tiniest thing a car cut you off 3 months ago when you're driving down the road it's a particular type of car particular color you're minding your own business driving on the road you see a car looks like that your heart goes like this even though it happened in Gainesville and you're in Boston or Europe it won't matter will it You stored the disturbance inside of you therefore it is going to affect you again therefore by the time you stor enough stuff in there you're not free at all

those patterns will say I don't want to feel this again so I won't drive down that road I don't like what it felt like that I said a little to Sally and she didn't say hello back she's supposed to be my best friend what what's going on I don't like this I'm not going to say hello again it's too Painful you literally structure your life based on the garbage you stored inside but not just negative I have to be fair there's positive things you stored inside you don't like when I teach this they cause just

as much trouble as the negative ones why because you try to make them happen again if you stored inside some really really nice experience on a vacation where do you try to pick your next Vacation you're going to take every little thing that you liked try to make it happen again so therefore you're incapable of a new experience you already have a preconceived notion of what the experience is supposed to be like well before you had that experience you hadn't had it and it was spontaneous and it was wonderful but now you can't have one

again because you're judging it against the thing you stored inside so anything you store inside destroys your Life what it means to be whole and complete and spiritual and high is it's clean in there it's clean every single experience is new you're not bringing these old experiences that you're afraid of or that you desire you're not bringing them into the moment you're experiencing the new experience of the moment every moment's new but you can't experience them because you're either afraid that something happened before that your story is going to happen or You're disappointed or maybe

appointed waiting anticipate right in other words you're not being here now you can't be that's what happens when you push something away it ruins your life you say no no these are the things that will make my life wonderful I've had them before and I know I I made a list of them which ones I want to happen and if they happen I'll be wonderful but what happens in the meantime I'm not so happy all right I'm Trying to manipulate and control here I had beautiful relationship in in 10th Grade with somebody right and was

just a perfect relationship and then they moved away their parents moved them away it was like the most wonderful never fought and this is what he or she looked like right I'm telling you you're trying to have that experience again for the rest of your life you're trying to find that person not literally that person but you're trying to find that person and if You're dating somebody and some your friend says to you how you doing I had a nice relationship you know what you call it it's a work in process what does that mean

it's a work in process I have a preconceived notion of what will make me happy that person out there if they're smart they'll be that way cuz that'll be really nice to them now you're blushing instead of laughing you're trying to manipulate what it is that you kept inside of you before that Felt good you're trying to make that person be that you do it with your dogs you have a pet that dies you get another one Rover was different I he never did that all right so I'm telling you you store your NE negative

experiences and I don't have to talk about the positive ones there's so few of them there are so more negative experience that you've had there's a talk I once again so hard to get these couns across does that mean that the World is more negative you do have more negative experience than you understand that psychology will definitely tell you that Troy will be sure to tell you that you stored more negative stuff why because anything that bothers you you store it and there aren't that many things that are happened that blushed you out so is

that true that the world is negative no listen to me the reason there are more negative experiences in there because you have to find anything That doesn't match what you want is negative he slurps his soup I can't believe it my uncle slurp his soup I hated the guy I thought this was a perfect relationship he's a soup slurper all right so that's a negative experience why CU you said so not because it is what if you loved Uncle Charle and he slurped a soup and he was the most fun thing in the whole world

and you're dating somebody for a while all sudden you notice he slurps a soup Oh my God it's the most perfect person you remind me of Uncle Charlie right or wrong it's not that there are more negative things that happen is because you have a very small list of things that you call positive and the natural unfolding of life is not going to match those and when it doesn't you call it negative it rained yesterday it was my birthday why is it to rain on my birthday okay nice negative experience it doesn't know it's your

birthday it Did not rain because it's your birthday you're the one who sat there and said the rain was a negative experience was it a negative experience no you made it a negative experience anybody listening please listen all right this is deep as it gets you understand that you're out there looking to make life match what won't hurt you or will make you feel good instead of experiencing life and until you learn to experience life you will not be okay you'll get disappointed You'll get hurt you'll have negative experiences you're not having negative experiences you're

having experiences you're the one one who decides whether they're negative and you're the one who decides whether they're positive and if it matches what you your mind that's what you do with your mind now you use your mind to build a concept A conceptual world based on your past experiences that if the world is this way I'm happy if the world is this way I'm not happy and therefore I want to be happy so I'm going to manipulate every single person place and thing that passes before me to try and make it be the way

that makes me happy and never ever be the way that make me happy I'll dress accordingly I'll buy my cars accordingly buy my house accordingly I'll take a job accordingly I'll do whatever I need to do to get it the way I need it to be so it makes me feel good it doesn't make me feel bad and Therefore everything's negative because it's not going to match I've taught you that I got to do it again once because I don't know whether you get it psychology says that you are the sum of your learned experiences

you're not you're the Consciousness that is aware that your psyche is a some of learn experiences it is you've had experiences they programmed you you like a certain kind of music as your father did you didn't like your father you hate that Music you're being programmed you're being programmed by your experiences and how they hit you and they hit you according to the previous experiences and it's pretty complicated but that's what's going on in there the sum of your learn experiences and now based on the semi learn experiences you have developed a self-concept what do

you mean a self-concept I am the one that likes this and I'm the one that doesn't like that that's who I am I'm the one That this happened to me in fifth grade and I'm the one that didn't happen it happened to jod and you stored that in there based on your experiences and you developed a you that has preferences Concepts and Views and opinions and preferences and hopes and dreams those are all mental words you understand that they don't exist show me a hope it's in your head show me a dream it's in your

head show me a preference it's in your head show me a like a dislike they don't Exist they don't exist you project them onto the world and you did that based upon your past experiences so now that psyche that you're looking at is the sum of your learning experiences just takes me a minute but I love teaching it pretty straightforward right okay and everybody's different right everybody's different because they have all had different experiences all right so every single psyche if somebody tells you I think exactly like you do they're lying To you they can't

possibly no they cannot possibly think like you do because theyve had totally different experiences but we've been dating for 3 months what about the other 20 50 years before you met them and about when you're not with them everybody's having different experiences all the time throughout their life therefore the psyches are different so yours is this way based on some learn experiences and what you want is at the Moment unfolding in front of you match what you want don't you and never ever matches what you don't want so now we have yours semi learned experiences

you're scientist I treat you like scientist you don't have to be physicist you just have to understand basic science the moment in front of you is the sum of its learn experiences it's called cause and effect it's raining today not because it's your birthday it's raining today because El and the Mountains in Europe the the heat of the ocean and blinds right is raining today because of meteorology everything is that way he's yelling at you because his mother died yesterday and he's really hurt and blah blah blah blah blah every single thing that's happening in

front of you has a history and it's not your history that moment out there has nothing to do with you it has to do with itself has to do with all the causes that caus it to be that way like I give You an example you're driving down the road somebody runs a red light and you get an accident do you understand how many forces had to be exactly right between time and space for that accident to take place at that moment if your coffee maker had been faster or slower you would not have been

in that space at that moment why the coffee maker well somebody had a fight with their wife the night before and they didn't solder the thing exactly right they were pretty Poed okay therefore it took 3 years for the solder to break down therefore it took longer to all of that had to be that way every single thing had to be that way every moment is the sum of its learned experiences you were not there and your head is the sum of your learned experiences what is the probability that that moment unfolding in front of

you is going to match what's going on inside your head zero .001 like you know who knows it's ridiculous if you trace it all the way back what had to happen and then Trace you all the way back they have nothing to do with each other I've taught that in the new book the moment in front of you has nothing to do with you it's totally impersonal if you're standing somewhere on the planet Earth and somebody's yelling they're not yelling at you they're just yelling you have any standing there he said but I said Something

yeah but what you said they didn't hear it right and they heard it based on what they got it going inside their head and if you had said the same thing yesterday after they won the lottery they'd be kissing you and if you say the same thing and yesterday their father or mother died or something like that right then they're hitting you it has nothing to do with you it's just forces of creation unfolding in accordance to every single thing that Made them be the way they are there's reasons if you want to know why

things happen study science see spirituality and science are hand in hand they're like gloves there's no there is zero dichotomy between science and spirituality spirituality is about the truth and science is about the truth the problem is that you make up your own truth based upon your past experiences and you want the physical reality world to match it and if it doesn't you you do All kinds of weird stuff so once you wake up and you realize I did this I made the mess I'm the one that couldn't handle the experiences that happened throughout my

life so I stored them inside of me and now I'm trying to manipulate and control everybody and everything so that I can be okay I'm drowning I'm drowning you say some I don't like how how do you like it when somebody's you think they're a certain way and then all of a sudden they say Something you never thought they would ever say how you feeling because it breaks your model you developed the model and then you sit there and say I can't believe you said that you shouldn't have said that well the truth of the

matter is they should based on all the experience that made them say it based on Mommy and Daddy and Freud and the rain and the deaths and births and you know the fact that the doctor said this and that based on all the factors If you took a computer I hope we never make one they say I stuff scary right if you take a computer and feed it every experience you ever had it'll be you it won't really be you right but it will behave accordingly it will say what you're saying when you're going to

say it it will do all that kind of stuff because it's the sum of his learned experiences now you're greater than that you're the Consciousness that's aware that your psyches is the some you learn Experiences you are not the some you learn experiences if I'm looking at that photo over there and I stare at it I'm not the photo I'm was looking at it you're the one who's looking at your thoughts that are the some experiences that are looking at your emotions that are semil learned experiences you're not the semi- Learned experiences guess what you

were there before the experience happened weren't you that's so deep that they ask you question you don't pay Attention to are you in there you sure are you in there were you in there yesterday you sure were you in there 10 days ago were you in there a year ago you have always been in there when you were 5 years old you looked in the mirror it didn't look like it looks now you were looking there's one Consciousness it has always been there it has no age it has no gender it has no likes it

has no dislikes has no preferences has no hop Has no dreams it's just aware it's a phenomenal thing go deep in the meditation you will touch that place and when you come back it'll never be the same you are a very great being staring at something that's not so great did you get that yet okay that's why you're staring at the psyche you're staring at the stuff that bothered you you're staring at your self-concept you made up something based upon those past experiences so that's Why it's not okay in there it really is okay in

there but you're staring at something that's not that doesn't mean you're not okay it means you're staring if I take a light and I shine it on something beautiful is the light beautiful or is the object is shining up beautiful if I move that light over to a broken old moldy thing did the light get broken and moldy no that's where the word Transcendent comes from you are Transcendent above a different plane Whole another thing all right the light is transcendent to the object is shining on Consciousness is transcendent to the object of Consciousness and

that includes thoughts emotions which you takeen from your senses the whole Outer world has nothing to do with who you are no more than the object the light is shining has anything to do with the light if the light shined on an object for 6,000 years just on that one object and you moved it off that 6,000 years Had no effect on that light no Impressions were left the light did not change one single Iota that is true of your Consciousness Consciousness has nothing to do with what it's looking at it just is looking at

it so if the truth of the matter is and we talked about the two different levels is split spirituality the whole level of your growth changes right now you're staring at your stuff you're staring at your stuff and You're trying to figure out how to make the world unfolding in front of me match my stuff the good stuff and not match the bad stuff every single thing you do but I don't know if I should marry him at this time that's just what a beautiful question in other words I have no idea whether being married

to this person is going to make me feel better or not if God came down and said all right listen here if you marry this person you'll be the most miserable Person for the rest of your life right trough decision tough decision now no because you care about the effect that the person has on you cuz you're not okay and you want these different decisions and things that you're doing to make you okay spirituality does not play that game true spirituality is not about getting what you want it's not about attracting what you want manifesting

what you want getting what you want it's not about getting what you Want cuz what you want is just the sum of your learn experiences it's not even it's the sum of the stuff you couldn't handle so you stored it inside of you not a single one of you that the white lines you pass on the road whether they're yellow or white or dashed or not that is affecting your rest of your life they come in they pass through believe it or not that's what it's all meant to be you're not meant to not have

experiences you're meant to have Experiences and let them pass through so you can have the next experience does that mean I can't remember you do naturally remember you have a memory it's part of your part of your mind you have a memory but it isn't a memory of things you couldn't handle you don't put a tag on it it rained yesterday yeah it did not oh my God that was my wedding day and I want to have to rain okay you didn't resist it you didn't fight it you didn't push the Energy away or cling

to it because you didn't want to let it go you didn't do that so it came in you experienced it pass through can you bring it back of course you can like a computer memory bring it back but it doesn't haunt you for the rest of your life the difference isn't the memory the difference is that you couldn't handle the experience so all the energy of the experience was meant to feed you and grow and learn you pushed away and that energy is always Trying to come back that's what you're going to find out it's

always trying to release it is not natural I told you the Hoover Dam whenever they put the darn thing up I almost said damn thing all right the Hoover D whenever they put that thing up okay the Colorado River is still still trying to flow past that Dam it has never stopped it will never stop if they took that Dam down that rer go right back where it used to be that's the same inside of you if you use your Will to push away the energy of an experience you have store that inside of you

and it is always trying to come back up I don't always feel it that's what flud talk about suppression repression you push it down far enough to where it Cooks down air it's like a virus but I'm telling you anything you store the driver in front of you is driving too slow and you don't like it and you go tell everybody about it oh my God 10 miles hour speed what's wrong with these People the more you talk about it the more it's coming back because you put more energy into it instead of letting it

pass through spirituality is the ability to learn to handle life doesn't mean you don't do anything about it doesn't mean that if something happens and it's it's it's bad or something that once you've handled it and are peace with it you then deal with it cuz then you're dealing with the situation instead of dealing with your inability To handle a situation right it bothered me I can't handle it well I don't want to be around with what you do with it because you just admitted you can't handle it you're going to make a mess aren't

you don't you make a mess if you can't handle something you yell at somebody you do this you say bad things you do things you we do all kinds of things because we can't handle the energy you understand that I can't handle what's going on have you ever Made a mess in your life M because you couldn't handle what was going on yeah of course you have because if you can't handle it you just kind of throw energy around to to make it change make it go away when it's not going to go away it

happened all right what needs to go away is your blockage to it your inability to handle it that's what needs to go away so if you can handle things they happen doesn't mean they're Pleasant there are things that happen in the world they not Pleasant you still have to handle them why because they happened if they didn't happen yet by all means do what you can to to help balance things and bring goodness into the world but if it actually happened you ain't changing it it's called reality it already happened now you better handle it

or it's going to make a mess out of you and you will make a mess out of everything else that's that Tipping Point I told you there's a whole Level of your spiritual life in which you're trying to get what you want trying to get a relationship trying to get this trying to get money trying to get things together trying to make the outside world not bother you so much and maybe sometimes make you feel good all right terrible you're a great being you should not be bothering to live a life like that when you

get to the point where instead of working on the World to match your stuff you catch on it's about Letting go of your stuff there the cat of the bag there's nothing holding that stuff in there for you but it was really hard I know it was hard of course it was hard you wouldn't have held in there if it wasn't hard but you were 3 years old now you're 33 I think you could do better that which you couldn't handle when you were five you should able to handle when you're 55 you're supposed to

grow you learned you're better at it okay but you don't It comes back up you push it back down you make all kinds of decisions you make decisions today over the stuff that bother when you were 5 years old when your parents got divorced when you were eight it really hurt it was terrible now you're 38 years old and you don't want to get married why or if you're married you don't have children why I ain't putting anyone through what I went through whoa and you think that's high I'm very SP ual person I don't

want any Children to go through what I had to go through CU who knows maybe we'll get divorced and no we're not having children you're letting the lowest part of your being that couldn't handle what happened when you were 8 years old run your life there's nothing holding that in but you so the spiritual path is about saying I don't want this stuff in here that's when you're ready to start working at the second level not how do I get what I want in order to be happy or How do I avoid what I don't

want in order to not be miserable no no how do I get rid of the stuff that's inside of me that's defining how things need to be for me to be okay so that I can be open enough and appreciate the rain and appreciate the storm and appreciate that people don't get along so well sometimes and appreciate all kinds of stuff and then once I'm appreciating it and honoring and respecting it look to see can I do something to help but help the Situation not help me because I can't handle the situation as the most

selfish thing in the whole world okay you find out your kids doing drugs school the principal calls it's terrible who wants that nobody wants that okay you have to go down there and meet with the principal and it's embarrassing it's all right but this is your action I can't how could he do that to me God I tried to give them everything why would he do that my God the neighbors to say about The things things that I brought the kid up and now we're having all this trouble oh my God what that's not about

your child that's about you that's all about you you will never ever fix the situation if what you're trying to do is fix you you're trying toix fix your inability to handle the situation that goes for everything okay your business is having trouble oh my God we not making money we're losing the thing right how can I do it I face my family And it's so embarrassing it's ridiculous and what will I do in other words I can't handle the reality situation so I'm going to make decisions that put it off that make it look

different people thr all the time you understand that make it look different than it is I still suit up nicely and whatever it is you're not dealing with situation you're dealing with your inability to handle a situation it changes completely when you let go Your personal reaction to this stuff and realize wait a minute it's not my problem it's a problem it's not personal I need to see what would a centered clear being do in this situation not what would I do cuz I can't handle the situation so you have to transcend yourself and the

bottom root of it is it is because you store this stuff inside that you can't handle things otherwise there just experiences are happening they pass through nobody said they feel Good there's all kinds of experiences in life but they still pass through are they easy to pass through no no but when they're over I mean I understand if you're in a bad experience it's hard to handle but it's going to be over every single experience is going to be over when it's over are you done no nobody they don't know how to do it it

ruined my life that divorce ruined my life which one the one I had 15 years ago well did you remarry heck no I'm going To remarry I was the worst divorce anybody could ever have I would never even think about having another relationship in other words you're still in having the relationship the relationship is still running your life it does not have to be like that it does not have to be like that I don't care I know you got a tough story we all got tough stories it doesn't matter how tough your story is

it's over okay it happened a long time ago Let It Go That's what blows down to can you let it go instead of resisting it that's the difference between what level of spiritual growth you're at if you're busy resisting it and trying to make everything match what you resisted you're still going to struggle down here and try to cope with it and try to be okay and be afraid you're afraid try to be afraid things will go wrong be afraid blah blah blah blah blah all right once you get to the point that you realize

Wait a minute it's not about getting what I want because what I want is based on my junk how do you decide what you want you've had past experiences that programmed you so it's all based on stuff you reach the point where you say wait a minute I want to clean out in here if I'm the one who's holding in here I don't want to do that I want to use my will not to manipulate everybody else and everything else I want to use my will to let go of the garbage I Stored inside and

that becomes the second layer the minute you start saying it's me it's not you it's me yes I can justify you did some things that were not comfortable to me right but notice they were not comfortable to me if I couldn't handle it you have you ever said I can't handle it that's the essence of the difference in one stage and the other if you can't handle reality I can't talk to you it already happened I can't make it not happen the Only thing I can do is talk to you about handling it so spirituality

gets to the point where we understand it is all about not storing the stuff inside if you don't store the stuff inside you're not weak you don't have problems you're not scared you're just facing the day you're here it is here comes the day Bring it on Bring it on I told you how spiritual being W up in the morning ready no matter what's happening back look the room is still here there's a Dresser here's my bed here's my body oh boy I wonder what's going to happen today it'll be fun what do you care

you said a little planet for a few years spinning around a little nowhere how in the world can be so under rock that you care what happens something's going to happen go to Mars see how board you get in 1 hour there's nothing there and here everything's happening but you decided what's supposed to happen well you're wrong because guess What What's Happening by definition is what was supposed to happen not moral or right or wrong or good or bad just reality the sum of its learned experiences is what un folded in front of you period

all right so spiritual allity is about learning how to handle things wow never looked at it that way I'm not good at handling things of course you're not I give you the same example every time I'm sorry when you sit down at the piano don't play Bethoven or Mozart if you never played before when you pick up a tennis racket don't play Bor or the women's sisters because you're not going to do very well doesn't mean you can't learn you don't sit there and say no I don't play tennis I know you don't no I

don't know how to do calculus that's why you're in a Calculus class I I I don't know how to play the piano that's why there are things called scales and music teachers can you learn now I agree armillo can't Play the piano all right but you can posum can't do calculus but you can you can learn doesn't mean you're an a student doesn't mean you're a concert pist but you can get better can't you how practice is that how you get better is that what Olympics is all about that they practice and everybody practice instruments

for why don't you understand this takes practice what does learning to handle reality learning to handle reality takes practice well how do you Practice by doing it same way you practice anything else you sit there and say events are going to happen today this is how spiritual work wakes up all right I'm back I wonder what will happen today whatever it is it'll be educational that's what my day is my day is not making money my day is not having a relationship my day is not deciding where I want to go on vacation my day

is not deciding what to do so I don't look old but that's no no no no no that's not My day my day is can I handle the reality that's unfolding in front of me today I never used to be able to right can I handle the driver in front of me they didn't imagine he didn't use his blinker nice blinker buddy and I was talk for 10 minutes now nobody drives properly they're supposed to be in the right lane when they're going slower my God somebody need a blinker on a planet Earth all these

car what are you doing I can't handle it I can't handle the Speeds are going I can't handle that they use their brakes so much I can't handle they use their blinker I can't handle I got every light going into town all kinds of really really big things I can't handle right there I bother myself about him therefore I'm bothered and you wake up and you sit there and say God it's not about the license it's about me it's not about the driver it's about me it's me I'm doing this I'm bothering myself I told

you once when I did the Interview the new book with Oprah living in tether she picked out a line if I had one line it'd be that line the moment in front of you is not bothering you you're bothering yourself about the moment in front of you the driver in front of you is not bothering you the rain is not bothering you you the fact that you spilled some ketchup on your pants have to go back to work that's not bothering you you're bothering yourself about that how do you know that because if you stop

Bothering yourself about it it's not a bother right you're doing all of this so spirituality is about waking up and saying okay I need to learn to not do that and learn to stop bothering myself I'll be less bothered people rise from all over the world and say it works of course it works how can it not work how can it not work that if you're bothering yourself and you stop bothering yourself you'll stop being bothered any chance you have to not Bother yourself when you used to bother yourself you're going to be less bothered

and you're going to have a better day so you start catching on that that's what your day is about in fact that's what your life's about Earth is a place that souls are sent to evolve Earth is a place that souls are sent to evolve you now what trouble they're trying to try figure how to get somebody to Mars how'd you end up here it's just a planet just like Mars sh Will you dare look at it it's just a planet spin in the middle of nowhere remember Earth rise that picture from the Moon well

I got a picture over there from 2 million miles out that casin you took on her way to Saturn that's like a little tiny little star okay how'd you get on that planet if it's so hard to get to another planet I guess it's none of your business but you're here right it's a pretty nice planet Earth is a place of souls are sent to evolve how About we make it Heaven while we're here how about you clean out so it's nice in there and you think if I say that your mind wants to say

well if people would behave it could be nice and no that's not what I said let go of the garbage you've stored in there it will always be nice in there period it will always be nice in there you're going to say there's a river of joy and there is that flows inside of you now we're at the second stage I talked to you about why Don't I feel that River because it's blocked same reason feel the Colorado River the other side of the dam you're on the other side of the dam you created with

your stuff if you let go of that stuff see there's a thing called shaki Spirit shaki Rush a holy Waters call whatever you want every tradition has a name for it shei shaki Spirit but what if I did bad things you didn't do bad things you watched your psyche do bad things if you let it go there's nothing It has nothing to do with anything doesn't matter what you ever did if you can let it go otherwise you carry it with you and you know by definition affects Russ life the power is yours you're a

great being so you learn to let go of this stuff how I go through it in great detail in living on Tether you start not with the big stuff you don't start with I know I cause this trouble and we got divorc and this and I didn't take care of that I hurt somebody no Don't start with that start with the driver in front of you start with the weather start with these simple little things you don't have to bother yourself about the driver in front of you do you okay you can pass them pass

them I say don't pass them but if you can't pass you're going to drive behind them you have a choice Drive behind them or her and bother yourself about it or drive behind them and don't bother yourself about it which one you want to do let it Ruin your day or just have fun with it you know just have a positive affirmation I told you I've given you an example the book goes very deep the new book into this stuff how you can make it fun just make it fun and then will happen it will

be fun if you make it fun all right then because you let go some of the stuff there will be more energy cuz less is blocked if you don't put more in there then other stuff can start coming up so the basis starts coming up And you'll find I tell you you will find that things you couldn't handle before now you can handle why because you practiced please look it like a piano if you practice your scales you can play Twinkle Twinkle wow all right then you can play some other piece right or wrong you're

going to get better at it you'll get better at handling reality you better not bothering yourself about stuff then some point something really bigger will happen that used to bother You a lot and you'll see it and you'll say there that's that point I talked about to start with you look at it and you'll say no I don't want to go back down I could but I don't want to go back down it's nice up here if you love somebody and you feel love that's really beautiful why would you let something they do make your

stuff feeling love like slurping soup or not calling or forgetting the anniversary Why would you let anything take away that which is so important to you cuz they didn't take it away you took it away do you need to do that do you need to trade off this beautiful thing called love because your mind didn't like what somebody did or or didn't do I would never do that there's no way I'm doing that hear me and so but now you don't have a choice because it it it stops right away the heart closes right because

you have all the stuff in there Hits your stuff if the more you let go I'm telling you the more there will be this gap between the experience and your reaction to it all of a sudden at first it's just a little bit you get to the side and then it's really big and then it's so big it's like I'm not going down there that this witness is way back there right R said it beautifully he said at some point you're standing on a bridge watching the turmo of the water flow underneath and every once

in a While it gets so tumultuous so rough that a spray comes up and touches you and your mind says God I used to live in that I used to live in that I a going back into that why would you go back into that all right and you know what you say to protect myself you're feeling love somebody does something no way I'm not keeping my heart open if they're going to do that that's crazy what are you protecting yourself from CU you just gave it Up I'm protecting myself from getting hurt well you

just hurt yourself someday you'll get there and you realize I ain't trading anything for love I'm not trading anything for ecstasy for Joy for rushes of Beauty for God if I can feel some of that shuy flowing inside of me there Ain no one that anyone going to do anything that going to do anything other than say I can handle this the more you let go the better off you are letting go and the More you let go the higher you get and the higher you get the more you let go that's called the upward

Ascent the upward spiral see it and you will literally get to the point well you want to trade it for anything I'm not trading it off period That's What I want you and what will happen just keep getting higher keep getting harder well how high can it get you once said you say you want energy you all like energy right if the Amount of energy you're capable of opened up and came into your body you'd blow up right and I see that now it's not that okay how do I learn to do that it's like

you need to go out into the energy not have the energy come down and try to handle it while you're busy being you you understand that that's why they say let go let go and let God as you let go of yourself the Consciousness doesn't get drawn down into the psyche and the Body it still can interact with it but it doesn't get distracted and drawn down so the next thing you know is the real energy flow you go into not it comes into you cuz you can't handle it and that's where the great Masters

went that's why I always finish and stop my airb hit it beautifully my Consciousness was like a drop of water staring at me until I let it go I let me go and then that drop of water fell into the Ocean into the ocean of Consciousness find it find a drop of water go take a drop of water try it's a good experiment we're doing science take a little eye dropper put some water in it then go to the ocean and drop one drop in find that drop will you ever find the drop no it

emerged became one that's what the yogi does that's what these great states are that's what Christ meant by my father and I are one it's not that you bring it down into you is that you stop Identifying with what you're staring at and next thing you know that drop falls into the infinite ocean now there's all the energy you're capable of which all the energy when yog on to enter the uh the state of cosmic conscious he called it he said I felt my body was every single Galaxy throughout the whole universe and it was

expanding at the speed of light in all directions that's a lot of energy that's who you Are that's who you are and you're down here begging please like me do you like what I wore you like my lipstick do you like my new car like wow you are a great being all right you are a great being you just need to be willing to work work your way out of yourself and I just told you how did I every minute of every day you have the right to let go to the best of your ability

and if you can't do it perfectly it'll come back you know that and then you let go the next piece when It comes up just keep letting go of what you can as it comes up if you will do that way to see what happens to you all right and then okay I did talk about what I promised there's this one state where you're being pulled down and fighting to not go down and you need reach the state I just talked about what I'm telling you it's pulling you up you have to learn how to

let go but not let go of your stuff let go of your resistance to dying to be reborn Everything Christ taught is everything we just talked about it starts pulling you up so strong into the core of your being but we're used to being separate we're used to being I'm a person no you're not you're God descended you're my father and I are one that's who you are sh but