my daughter helped me meet my Affair at our house but then the worst case scenario happened hello Reddit never really thought I'd be one of those people coming here to talk about my worst mistakes online but here I am ironic right I've ruined and destroyed my life and I did it all with open eyes my life is in absolute ruins and it's all my [ __ ] fault the worst part my daughter is going down with me and I can't even begin to explain how much I regret everything so let's just call me Sarah my
husband and I have been married for over 15 years we're both in our late 30s and we have two kids Zoe who's 15 and Brad who's 12 things were great in the beginning my husband was that guy the Romantic thoughtful type you know the kind of husband that everyone else is jealous of because he remembers the little things makes sweet gestures and always puts the family first he was good to me honestly more than good but I guess after 15 years of marriage something changed or maybe it was always going to change and I just
didn't want to admit it the love starts slipping away after a while doesn't it it's like it happens in slow motion you don't even notice it until one day you wake up and realize you've become more like roommates than Partners there's no passion anymore no excitement Everything feels routine now don't get me wrong he didn't change I did and I've spent countless sleepless nights trying to figure out why but maybe it doesn't even matter anymore all I know is I started wanting more more attention more excitement more of something I couldn't even Define and that's
where everything started spiraling out of control Zoe my daughter has always been a mommy's girl she's been attached to me since the day she was born we've always been incredibly close she's my supporter my shadow and if I'm being honest that only made what I did even worse it's not just that she's always supported me she's trusted me completely and I've broken that trust in the worst way possible Brad on the other hand has always been more of a daddy's boy it's funny everyone used to joke about how perfectly balanced our family was Zoe was
always closer to me and Brad was closer to my husband it was like a running joke in our house like we'd each taken one kid under our Wing I guess that's why it was easier for me to confide in Zoe to let her in on things I never should have things between my husband and me were still fine on the surface but deep down I was already drifting away I didn't want to admit it then but I can see it now I guess my husband and I had had our ups and downs like any couple
but lately it had been more Downs the love was slipping away we weren't fighting exactly there wasn't any big dramatic moment where things fell apart it was more like like we were just drifting we were more like roommates than Partners we barely talked and when we did it was about the usual boring things who was picking up the kids what groceries we needed stuff like that we rarely touched anymore and when we did it felt forced like we were going through the motions because that's what married people are supposed to do right I'm not proud
of what I did to be honest I'm ashamed but if if you're going to read this I owe it to you to be brutally honest I hated how monotonous our routine had become I hated how boring my life felt I hated hated hated everything and it got to a point where I didn't even recognize myself anymore I wasn't just unhappy I was resentful I resented my husband for not noticing how miserable I was I resented the life we had built even though it was supposed to be everything I ever wanted and that's when I met
him let's just call him Ryan he was every my husband wasn't he was exciting spontaneous and interested in me in a way that my husband hadn't been in years he saw me as me not just as a wife or a mother when we talked it wasn't about the kids or the bills or our boring routine he asked me about my dreams my thoughts my life he made me feel like I mattered again it started small it always does right just casual conversations after work Ryan and I met at work and at first it was harmless
we talk about the day complain about our jobs laugh about something stupid one of
