are you lonely yeah how come are you gonna make me emotional are you lonely am I lonely um uh Christ um it's tough like I have a very social job I live with three other people I have three different romantic partners I should say no exactly but loneliness for me it manifests is like feeling even though I'll be surrounded by people I feel just emotionally isolated I feel lonely when I feel like I don't want to burden people with my problems if I am feeling lonely I will like kind of shut myself down more sometimes
I get really into my head I like to bury everything Within Myself are you lonely oh absolutely I am right now because I'm pregnant and I've been at home for like eight weeks because I've been really sick are you lonely um I'm not lonely I am alone very two different things in a way I'm lonely but I kind of like it I'm an introvert I like myself I do live stream daily so I don't really crave that like in person experience most of the time I'm like please someone leave me alone I don't even want
to be around people like it's like over stimulation I would love to be lonely for a little bit I have two kids a partner a baby daddy I am never ever lonely I have two mini-me's that are like always near me like I can't poop with the door shut I really feel lonely got a dog how long have you ended up a year now are you lonely no have you ever been lonely oh yeah I have I get lonely sometimes sometimes I think everybody's lonely sometimes right after my ex-husband moved out I had just asked
my husband to leave my dad had just passed away my mom was already gone and I think that was the loneliest darkest part of my life what were you at your loveness probably the end of my second marriage I spent a year on the couch that was pretty lonely living by myself for the first time last year was my first year of college and I moved across the country I just moved here from Bangkok Thailand it's very lonely seeing all your other friends hang out with each other but you're not there did I get fomo
a lot I live alone I really like hanging out with people and sometimes I think I rely on that too much I have a lot going on in my head all the time and it gets so much louder when people aren't around me usually when I'm in a room full of people sometimes I just feel like I'm not totally myself around people I don't feel like anyone has the same interests I do I feel like all the people like I do surround myself with I'm just with them because it feels better than being alone there's
always times when you like start overthinking around like 10 p.m sitting in bed trying to figure out like who's actually means anything to you I just get isolated sometimes in my own head well I wouldn't say it would be like Oh I'm lonely because I'm not like hanging out with someone I think just like over analyzing like my future or thinking too much I think very beginning of covid having a baby right before covet I was already on top of the hormones and going through postpartum and all of that then we're stuck inside and I
don't know when we're gonna get out so that was a really hard time for me I work from home now I miss being able to like groups going out places pretty much everything is virtual you know it's really nothing like seeing each other in person whether you ask your loneliest when you call someone and they don't answer also when you like to leave a big Gathering and then all of a sudden you're by yourself I think I'm at my loneliest when I'm happy I want to like spend it with somebody or like a friend and
then you like go through your messages or like your contacts and you don't have anybody to hit up I'd say I wish I had more friends I don't have a lot of friends more close friends more close friends girlfriends I feel like I just don't have like a best friend that like I can tell anything to but I do have a cat so he listens to me so I just remember being in late middle school and I had a group of friends and we were very close I've seen where they're at and I don't think
we would be that kind of friends now but I miss that kind of relationship are you lonely not right now actually I don't think I am no no I would not consider myself only I'm actually not and I think that's a privilege for me to say that I think I have a good wealth of friends no I say that questionly because I'm an only child so I've like learned to entertain myself between work and social life I try to find time for just me to make my lonely are you lonely yeah are you gonna make
me emotional I've lived alone for like three years and then I got out of like a pretty like on-again off-again relationship with someone and then after that it's just like kind of been hard to move on I do want to find the right person and be in a relationship I've tried dating and it's not going great are you lonely oh yeah you smile like you said that romantically I can't like admit that I like people and I can't let people like me so it's just kind of like a cycle the real word that I'm lacking
is like intimacy I don't think I have that intimacy right now I want somebody to hold me I want to be coddled and I want somebody to grab my ass and it's not [ __ ] happening right now so yeah are you lonely when I'm not with my boyfriend yeah hour long distance so it can be a little hard my partner right now they're in a different state when's the next time you're gonna see them next month or maybe two when's the last time when my husband was in the hospital for medical uh emergency I
got dumped I do so you're definitely an accident well you can be with someone and still be lonely because I felt Lonely with someone I think I felt the most only when I was dating someone how come I felt like he was no longer putting the same energy into whatever we had are you lonely I would say yes I don't have many friends I barely reach out to my family I do miss my parents my biological dad my mother she died when I was 18. the first New Year's Eve without my dad I felt oddly
lonely in a way of like no one is relating to me right now everyone's happy that the New Year's is changing over and I'm really sad when my parents passed away we had a tragedy in the family and I was in charge as the oldest it was a lonely spot to be in when my godmother passed away about four months ago my world was turned upside down I ate a lot I found comfort in food I ate a lot of candy journaling drawing writing lyrics I'd spend way too much time on Instagram I've been taking
some steps to like for my mental health where like I'm on medication and I'm going to therapy and I'm taking care of myself more than I have in the recent years like I took like kickboxing classes and I just started to do a bunch of different things just to try to meet people yeah definitely I am becoming less and less lonely as I learned to live with myself who is a chill dude A rad chill dude yeah
