hi guys I know this is not my usual video setting and you guys always complain about my lighting and my video quality well this must be the worst thing that I've ever filmed but it's all about the message is it not I need to make a video today because I was walking around and I was uh I was listening to music that I used to listen to when I was severely depressed and it put me back in those memories of of that period right and I just realized how far I've come and it was not
until this moment that I actually realized this because before I used to just listen I'm gonna explain to you something when you are something someone that comes out of an abusive household toxic household their whole life and when you are getting out of it you just are still in survival mode so the only thing you're thinking is let me get and do as much as I can and acquire the stability for me and that's it but in the moment of you accomplishing all these things you don't realize actually what you're accomplishing you don't realize what
you're going through because in your head it's just okay I need to be stable my family needs to be stable whatever you know I need to get this done but that also that makes you feel like you didn't accomplish anything at the end because I for example I used to think like no matter how far I got no matter how many subscribers I got it was never good enough and it was never like I had done something great or something powerful and when people would tell me oh my God you did that and the sort
of in that short amount of time and I would have realized how crazy of a thing that is I think I didn't even realize that I got famous because people would come up to me constantly and I'm just I see myself as a regular normal person which I am but they come up to me and they say like you saved my life you changed my life and I'm like oh okay but I don't realize it it keeps me humble as well because I don't see myself as this big YouTuber I don't see myself as uh
you know a famous person whatever but at the same time it also it can be dangerous because I'm naive like I think everyone sees me the same way I see myself which is not true people see me and they're like oh I can gain something from her oh I if I befriend her she can give me something she can promote something so they have an attorney a terminal motive that I don't understand because I don't see myself the same way they seem but I also think when you grew up in a in a childhood where
where you were never applauded for any of your accomplishments and whatever you did or accomplished it was never good enough you you grew up and you become that kind of person for yourself as well so for me it's like whatever I do it's never like oh Liz you did a great job it's like Liz you can do more Liz you can do more unless you can do more but it's like no you did good like it's okay that's why I also want to say to you guys if you feel like oh I haven't accomplished anything
you probably have and I think for a lot of people these days just getting out of bed is a big accomplish I mean we have gone through so much suffering and pain these past years all together and it has not been nice but the fact that we're still standing we're still going and we're still trying to create that best life for ourselves is a huge accomplishment so when I make this video to encourage anyone that's watching that's living in a toxic household whatever like that that is poor as well um you you can literally turn
your life around and which is what I did and I am shocked to be honest because now I'm I'm like sitting in a park I moved to a different country I I have my own apartment um I I make more money than I could ever imagine and it's like it's crazy to me and I remember I used to pray for such small things and I would like you to try to like I'll be like God like giving this kind of job and I would like try to get like the most stupid job ever but I
would never get that job because like obviously it was not meant for me and I was meant for something else but I would get angry because I was like no I want that job but I I also could not see that there was a bigger picture for me that I could not see for myself obviously as well when when you are in a in a in a negative and toxic environment you think that your life is really limited and and you think that everything in life is limited but you have to see further than your
situation you have to look at things greater than what your situation is you can look at your family you can look at your situation and you can tell yourself it does not have to be this way I do not have to go through what my mom went through I do not have to go through what my dad went through I do not have to have the same life as my siblings I can do things differently for myself can come from the best best childhood and end up having a really bad life or you can come
from the worst place ever pick yourself up and then create a beautiful life for yourself and your family your life like we're not we're not a written thing you know we can change things around for ourselves and I want you to have that belief and I want you to know that it can happen and as much as I hated uh going through what I went through and my childhood if I did not experience those things I would not be where I am today because my career is literally based on giving advice based on my circumstances
based on why what I went through and imagine I didn't go through anything thing you know I I could not tell you tell you guys these things so take whatever is happening to you take it as a lesson take it as a stepping stone it doesn't have to knock you down and your life does not have to be that way I want you you know why I keep repeating this because I don't think people understand it because I never understood this you're not a done deal it doesn't matter where you come from it doesn't matter
what you did in the past it doesn't matter what happened to you what you did you can't turn your life actually around and if you have that mindset and if you actually believe that it can happen it will happen for you God always had a bigger purpose for me and I could not see that for myself but um I remember I would constantly pray for the smallest things ever I would not get them I would not get them I would not get them and there was a point where I just got hit rock bottom so
hard that I was like you know what I do not care anymore I literally do not care for anything anymore I I like I don't care I'm just gonna do whatever I'm gonna try to do whatever I can to make myself a better person to make myself healthier mentally from the inside out and that's when I when I started changing things around I went from never leaving my room to actually going for walks I went from watching stupid videos to actually watching things that educated me I I went I went from never working out to
doing like 10 minutes or 20 minute workouts in my room I went from Nokia from having an eating disorder and and just putting everything in my body to actually being thinking about what I put in my body being mindful about it and starting to realize that I can turn things around when I turn them around I think it's it's a sad thing but it's liberating as well to know that first of all we will never be good enough for anyone we will never be good enough um and I think especially if you're a woman whatever
you do how intelligent you are how beautiful you are you will always be knocked down for those things always because you know first of all people get insecure by women like that and other women see you as a competition so at the end of the day you will constantly get knocked down by everyone and they will tell you you are not as good as you think you are but you have to have that mentality to yourself where you constantly reinforce to yourself that you are you know it doesn't matter what other people say it's what
you believe about yourself that will manifest those other people I read this thing and it was basically like your conscious mind yeah your mind doesn't know anyone else it only knows you so if you for example if you say like uh oh that person is so ugly your conscious mind thinks that you're talking about yourself because your conscious mind doesn't know anyone else it knows you and your mind so you have to be careful with what you speak into existence you have to be careful with your words and you actually have to be careful with
what you allow other people to say to you you have to be careful with who you allow in your life and what kind of energies you allow in your life I think if you actually start having the mentality of you know what like I will accomplish what I want to accomplish no matter what they say no matter who's against me if you want it bad enough it will happen and and you can even see this with people that are actually really bad at what they're doing like they're not they're not good at all at it
but they still accomplish what they're doing because there is no stopping them like and and when you cannot stop someone how far can you actually go most people they don't even reach 20 of their potential at all in life you know and I think the saddest thing is like for me the one reason why I always wanted to be the best version I always wanted to accomplish the most things that I can was because I was so afraid of being old and looking back and regretting my life and thinking that I lived a life for
someone else that was my worst fear and um there came a point where I was so low that I was like you know what nobody can stop me anymore because I will not live like this I refuse to live I think when you come to that point where you're like no no I refuse to let this be my story that's when things actually shift for you and that's when things actually happen if you want advice on how to do this I have a lot of videos so you can watch those but this is more like
telling you that I know maybe it's bad right now but it doesn't have to be your story you can actually change that around and if you live a life thinking about what other people will say that's just the biggest prison ever imagine you live in a prison in the mind of others that's insane to me that's no Freedom at all and the only thing I've ever craved in my life was freedom because that's the only thing I did not have ever I did not have freedom so yeah I would say appreciate where you are right
now because those things are teaching you huge lessons and just know that whatever you decide to do if you do not want this to be your story it doesn't have to be it doesn't have to be just because you see your your siblings family whatever go through that that it has to be like that for you too it doesn't you can be that cycle breaker and and honestly I did it and I came from nothing I did not come from money I did not come from a stable household and I I completely turned my life
around and now I actually have the freedom that I always desired because I never lost fate and I knew okay some days I'm I might have think like oh it will not happen whatever but my base fate was always no this will not be my story and I do not have to accept what my mother accepted I do not have except up with my father except I do not have to accept these things I was I scared to get out of there I was so scared I did not have support for most of the time
but at the end of the day when uh when I did turn it around I am very proud of myself today and to be honest there is not a situation that I cannot handle there is not anything that I cannot do once I send my mind to it because I'm just built that way I built myself that way I said Liz you're not going to be a victim you're going to be you're gonna be a warrior and I am a warrior so if this can encourage anyone on whatever you're doing whatever you're trying to accomplish
you can change it for yourself and it can happen fast once you decide that it's going to happen it can happen fast for me it came very fast once I was like I'm done I'm gonna actually take responsibility for my life and how it's going because it's all my fault and nobody else I'm done playing the victim that's when it came so fast and everything I wanted came and then 10x more so don't worry because life figures itself out you you just have to make sure that you do every like uh the things that you
need to do in order to be the best version for yourself you know you do those things and then life will fall into place the picture will fall into place you don't have to have it figured out I still don't have it figured out still you will never have it actually figured out I know people that are six years old billionaires don't have it figured out but if you have some consistency in what you're doing throughout the day and what you how you are showing up for yourself then you will see like a clear picture
of where you're going so don't worry um you're doing amazing and everything will fall into place I promise you everything will fall into place thank you so much for watching this small little video I hope uh it helped someone and yeah I see you next video love you guys bye
