well well well look what we have here did you miss me so much you couldn't wait until i got home you should be careful trying to go out on your own after everything that's happened and how close i came to death that time i wouldn't want anyone to get any fancy ideas with you you know i love you little mouse now you need to stop with your recklessness it doesn't help anything you know you're just hopeless aren't you couldn't even wait for me to get home well i'll take it as flattery then i must mean
something to you for real if you'd go so far even with your anxiety your fear of the outside world i know how it is i know how much how much you struggle with it sometimes the words don't find me but the feelings always do isn't that just how it works honey no matter what we try we can't escape from ourselves well it's not always a bad thing though mostly on accounts that you you don't have to escape from yourself you may feel like you do sometimes but i swear to you you're wonderful one of a
kind cutie someone who deserves this world on a silver platter and i know that's not what we get the world has [ __ ] us over a thousand times and i know it's going to do it ten thousand maybe a million times you never know but [ __ ] that that's not why we live in it to lament the fact that it's going to happen again no what we need is each other nothing else think about it honey you and i together we can be happy we can make something out of the [ __ ]
this world throws at us the situation at least i'm fine just that bastard left me with some side effects don't think for a second i'm not gonna get epidemic back for this it's personal he left me there fighting for my life though at this point you'd think that i'm used to it at least i've got you you make it all worth it all those times i think to myself why am i still here and then i immediately get an image of you in my head and i just stare at you and if you're sleeping or
if you're near me i give you a big hug even if you don't know it i'll give you a kiss on the forehead every single time and i'll tell you even if this world wants us done it's not their world anymore and honey i know how much it's ate away at you that i might not have a full lifetime i know it's not always the happiest thing to talk about but i promise you i'm fighting and i'm not going down without a fight anyone who tries to take me down they're going to have a real
[ __ ] bad time little mouse tears don't look good on you leave it to the ugly folk like me yeah we might have a point there sorry self-deprecation was always my coping mechanism but i realize it's not that i look terrible or something it's that i just don't have any confidence in it i've never had someone say something nice about my look so i i get insecure easy i let those self-deprecating thoughts creep in and look at me you're not having a therapy session like this [ __ ] that little mouse come with me
we're going on a date [ __ ] it we're already out if you were wondering what i was doing today was pretty simple a business deal that should protect us for a while i'm gonna be working with the heroes quotation marks well it's not even heroes anymore the entire anti-heroes whatever you want to call them we all banded together and soon we're gonna go and explore the facility that they apparently rescued all might from i'm not going to tell you i'm a big fan of the guy but he's better than some of them in any
case apparently what they did to him was pretty bad but more importantly when we raid this place i'll get to take some of my hatred out on them not the heroes the [ __ ] who put us in the situation to begin with maybe even confront my old man listen i'm well aware that life isn't about revenge but it doesn't mean i have to like the fella and it doesn't mean i can't beat him half to death i've watched tokyo ghoul i know how things can go it's got a few ideas that i could use
on her you're right fire with fire i'm not sure it would end well for either of us i already burned myself for [ __ ] sake no revenge is only part of my motivation you're a way bigger part of it in fact without you there's no way i would have been able to hold on through all that [ __ ] i had to face you saved me in more ways than one and you should be proud of it not just anyone can save this big crusty guy but umass you've always been there you've always made
me feel like i have a home which is something i've not known for a long time if ever she could even call that bastardized place a home in the first place it was more like a prison a prison where i was constantly reminded what i wasn't good enough but with you i don't feel that way i feel like i can actually just be myself and be accepted at that that's something i'm not used to something i don't think i could ever get with anyone else who's not you you are something beyond my wildest dreams you
might be human but you certainly don't seem like the rest of them in my book there's something about you that changed me you made me whole you made me feel alive and for a walking corpse like me there's nothing more in this world i'd love than that i just want to hold you and i want to make you blush a thousand times over and even if it means that i live as a short but big impact crazy person i don't mind as long as i can make you happy live a full life with you yeah
that is the goal isn't it it's what i want more than anything mouse if i could have one thing it would be to get away from all this the responsibilities the difficulties the sickness everything it's so terrible and i don't want to focus on it and that's exactly why we're doing this day because [ __ ] it i'm sick of worrying and i'm sick of being in this negative headspace so this is me trying to make both of our headspace a little bit better because i know both of us are no strangers to hurt we
face that [ __ ] every day but you honey you've changed me you made me realize what it is to have feelings again alongside the underground i was never the hard ass everyone took me for but i certainly lost myself when i was in those those days of playing along with the bad guys it all felt so empty i didn't just do it for this or that but i guess i used it as an outlet in some form i had some wave making it a stress ball because i had constantly something to burn and most
of the time it's a double-edged sword i burned myself i burned bridges i made myself into this villain i hurt myself i hurt others i failed i was weak but now i don't hate my weakness so much because someone who's very strong except someone so weak as me mass you've changed me yeah make me wanna hope again you make me wanna hold on to that pipe dream that things will go just fine and then we can make it through this and i know we can there's no doubt in my mind about that i've known that
from the start since i saw that glenn of hope in your eye i've known how much you believed in it and how much i needed to as well hope is like living it's like breath in your lungs if you don't have it sometimes it's not like living at all it's like being in purgatory maybe even being in hell regardless i'd like to make sure that we both stay filled with hope i don't want anything to separate us anything to make us fall apart not that i think it could no little mouse i'm too [ __
] stubborn to let us fall apart and you're too [ __ ] cute that's right even when you're shoved up against the wall and i stare and breathe right in your face when i really just take a moment to look at you flustered that's right baby now after all that after everything we've been through i'll make you mine over and over and over and over again you best believe that this isn't gonna end with that either now me being the stubborn bastard i am doesn't know when to stop you see the way i'm gonna do
it i'm gonna make the sweetest date you've ever had unless little instances when you least expect it that i steal moments from you that you never expect to be taken from your lip to your lips to your lips again to your neck you're filled with weak spots baby don't you think for a second every single one slowly and methodically because baby i want you to be mine and i want to give us hope together through our chemistry our compassion through touch and kissing and everything else all i want is you wrapped in my arms kissed
and against the wall is that wrong is it wrong that i want you baby so bad is it wrong that i love you more than anything in this world or is it wrong that i don't know how to put it into words when i look at you i get breathless just look at you baby you really do show when you're shocked surprised embarrassed how those show on you in fact i'd say almost every emotion does at least with me which makes me happy and the ability to make you feel that's all i ever wanted to
do i mean what do you take me for someone who would just leave something halfway no honey no wayne [ __ ] hell you see when it comes to you i don't share i don't beat around the blush i just take and i give without limitations are different baby you're different than the rest of the [ __ ] world that's betrayed and made a bunch of a mess now i'm not saying the underground is all bad but it's a pain in the ass always having everything all the responsibilities i'm not going to say i don't
love it too because they're just like me misfits of the world doesn't have any use for that they dust under the rug and you've treated them well they're like my family but i still want more time for us because i'm a greedy greedy bastard and a selfish one at that because i've never had a chance to be selfish with anything in my life i always spent it blaming hating everything i wasted my time but no more you're my promise and you make it all worthwhile so that i don't have to regret the time i've wasted
since it led me to you and without that we might not have ever met we might still be enemies looking at each other like we're fresh meat the world likes to try and make us like this like them it tries to fit us in the cogs of a machine we're never meant for that we have souls and hearts and feelings and that's never what people seem to care about it's always money and power that's the [ __ ] of it and that's exactly why i say [ __ ] this world and anyone who tries anything
because i'm going to make sure you are mine mouse don't forget you're always going to be and i'm always going to be yours that's just the way love gets you isn't it you could spend your entire [ __ ] life wasting it but that moment you find someone that makes the time worth it then everything is fine again then all of a sudden all the negativity just melts away and suddenly you're just happy that's a word i didn't understand for a while what does it really mean to be happy is it something that people really
want or is it something that's hyped up for no reason i realized it's always the most hateful disrespectful horrible people that always do this it's always them that ruins our perception of warts that were never supposed to be that way and that's exactly what's going on here you and i were escaping from the world's constraints and will live in our own [ __ ] world that's what the underground was and is to this day but now it's creeping in and the moment it crept at our front door the moment it spread disease and disaster and
[ __ ] us all up is the moment that i had to take everything i can no longer let the world outside be different from the world of our own we have to change things before they destroy it for the rest of us but like i said today isn't about that it's about us no you didn't honestly think you were gonna get away that easy did you no not until i tease you until you're at an inch of your life because that's what i want right now nothing personal it's just you're so fun to tease
i can't stop it you know you make me feel it more than anything alive wow and so [ __ ] virulent i want you to know that all of this every touch every word it's just meant for you and i'm sick and tired of anyone getting in the way of that they try even once and baby i'm gonna stop them in their tracks and i'm gonna make you blush a thousand times harder do you know why little mouse because i feel like it because i to run my hands through your hair like that and hold
your ear real close and whisper your mind little mouse you should know by now there's no innocence here no i had no chance for it when you're like that the only innocence is the honest feelings between us and that i wouldn't trade for anything i wouldn't trade what we have because i know how special it is to you and how special it is to us because it's what we stand for it's our feelings it's everything and you make those feelings of mind bubble out into reality and i don't know how i survive your attacks but
i also don't know how you survive mine it's so fun every time i get to make you panic to the point where you don't know what to say or you panic and feel like you're completely [ __ ] mind baby and it should be more than a feeling it's a fact you are mine and no one gets your time but me yes i'm being that greedy bastard that i've always been and so what who's going to stop me you sure aren't you little pushover yeah so what i'm holding back costs but what does that matter
at this point can you feel that hand slipping behind yes slipping there hunting down your back your neck is sweeter when your voice escapes and your voice is even more heavenly when i make you that much more devilish little mouse what am i going to do with you especially when i want to do everything where do i start maybe here's a good point kissing you holding you do you like feeling my hot breath against you the feeling of my hand evils and bites i claim what's mine little mouse does it feel nice knowing a man
wants you like a beast once it's steak like a beast who wants everything the greed of a monster placed in the body of a man and yet i still think my looks are more like a monster but you don't seem to mind then it does have its benefits doesn't it especially with making you understand how much my pharaoh intensity my jealousy and my passion comes out in more than just flames in fact the flames are nothing in comparison they would be extinguished in two seconds in comparison to my desire my passion i didn't know i
had you see now that i've got someone to take everything out on in the best way making something positive of all the [ __ ] up negatives of life that's exactly what i want to do screw using anything else that's not what my life goal became it became nothing but you nothing but doing something making some good impact instead of bad you see everyone's so [ __ ] convinced that if you're abused or if you're some kind of kicked puppy you're going to resent and hate everyone you're going to take it out or you're not
going to have a backbone and expect it to adapt to it and those stereotypes don't matter to me you matter and i'm damned sick of wasting any more time on those thoughts they keep coming back like flies annoying little creatures right luckily you are much much better you keep coming back sure but you're the one thing i want to come back the way you're sitting on my lap like that and i can just hold you in my arms it makes me feel happier than anyone else or anything else could ever even try baby you're my
little mouse and don't get it messed up either as much as i may tease a tot of love i mean every single word because it's from the bottom of my heart i have nothing short of passion and well true love for you i can't put it in better words because i'm not some kind of wordsmith or crafter i'm not good with mincing them and i don't like to talk when i don't have to but with you it's different i've looked into things that i've never before i've realized that there's so much to myself i never
understood so much of me that needs so much view and i've realized firsthand just how much that my heart belongs to you i'm kind of loyal like a wolf in that way i'm loyal because you're the only one i'd accept as my mate for life i know how it is that's how things work in the wild those of us who've grown up thrown to the wolves we cling to things that make us happy and let me tell you baby this little mess has made me happier than anything just look at yourself you made my breath
escaping way it never was meant to and i love it i love the feeling of being so into the moment that you lose the sense of where you are restraint why you just do it because you're following your heart and that's what true love should be isn't it that's why i guessed you there and that's why i try so hard to make damn sure you see it you feel like you hear it that my love for you my person is that palatable that you can taste it i want you to taste and feel my love
for you i want you to look me in the eyes and tell me what you think and never hold on to the [ __ ] notion that you have to be okay with all this because of me now you should be okay with us yourself you name it together because that's what it means to be a team and that's what it means to love someone give and take right sometimes i forget that sometimes i lose myself and trying to protect and i think anyone could but we'll see you baby i can't just leave it at
that i gotta see how deep this rabbit all goes just look at you as much as you'd like to pretend that i'm not going to devour you we both know it's just not true you want me to and i want you now just relax that's all you need to do focus on me my voice and my passion of love for you know how much i love you and that's what drives so much of this life is you and i and the passion we share together oh you're so [ __ ] perfect at first i hated
that about you and now i love it um juicy and delicious huh not that i'm complaining but you did ask for this that was for earlier and this is for now yeah if you want to get more out of me you best apologize you know exactly what for being insatiable trying to make things more complicated at this that's right you're mine yes honey yes honey let's never let the other man yes exactly what we deserve each other nothing more or less we'll do we just need to make sure we cherish let's see maybe don't give
me that baby you know how i feel about you did i hurt your feelings if i did then clearly i've been misunderstood and didn't mean to i'd never do it intentionally you you damn cutie just promise me no matter what happens you'll remember i do everything i do because i love you not for ulterior motives not because i'm a selfish bastard though that does contribute to it it's because you're worth all that love and time and you may feel guilty for it or unusual but you shouldn't because honestly you and i baby that's literally all
i want if we were the last two people on earth you know what i would say good riddance most people who are here don't really want to be sir maybe my idea of things is too harsh and i apologize if it is but i won't apologize for having my opinion i know you don't want that you don't want me to be ashamed you want me to be your man and hold you just like this well i can see where this is going we're going to enjoy this together these cuddles they are the best i've ever
had you know cuddles or something i was always convinced weren't going to be for me something meant for everyone else but then you came out of nowhere i might add and made me fall in love with cuddles in general you made me feel like that i hope you're happy you little sinner you're the one who made this villain turn soft i hope you understand you have to take responsibility and make sure you don't regret it if you ever did regret anything having to do with us or myself i'd never be able to look in the
mirror the same way so well that sounds narcissistic but it's because of the guilt i don't want to be guilty i don't want to be condemned i spent so much of my life being those two things and i don't want that for you i'm sick of people assuming just because you have a past that isn't perfect that somehow makes you just a terrible horrible thing now that's not what i want i don't want to live in my past i want to be in my present that's why i want to make sure look you right in
your eyes and tell you how beautiful you are how simultaneously handsome you are how much i wish i had a word that summed it all up how wonderful you've been to me beyond any shadow of a doubt i want to say thank you thank you for everything you've done to save me i never thought i'd have a chance in this world but you proved that doubt that cynic in my heart wrong you prove that i don't need to be something i'm not that i can be me and still manage to get someone who loves me
for the me that i am instead of the me that i should be maybe all this sounds all self-pitying but it's not that is not why i'm mentioning this it's to give you some semblance of an idea of how i feel right now maybe make you feel a little more confident in our love together because you do deserve to be confident think about how very much we've been through you should never ever feel like you're wrong for being put through the ringer the only thing wrong is giving up baby i love you so much now
i just wish there were better circumstances where we didn't have to always struggling but i'm going to change that i'm going to work very hard and make sure that the underground ends up better than the above that's something that's been a passion for a long time it may take 10 15 tries but maybe you want to work that's what i'm betting on one percent versus anything huh look at me doing pointless rambling and now i can so i think i'll give you some more while i'm at it hmm i love you little mess always