The last time I was on this stage about three years ago, I collapsed right over there. Um, with [clears throat] a neck injury. Um, it taught me uh so many important things. Like everything that comes into our life, there's there's no accidents out there anywhere. This is an infinite universe that we're in and it's filled with uh purpose for all of us. Uh it got me to sit down while I talk. And uh the difference between standing and sitting is that when you're standing, you're sort of performing and um entertaining. When you're sitting, you're having
a conversation and you're at eye level with your audience. All of the great teachers that I've studied over the years, especially the last few years, always sit when they speak, as did Jesus. >> [clears throat] >> So I'm very very uh grateful for that Moment. I am uh I am in perfect health. I am cancer-free. [applause] Thank you. I've changed so many things about my life, my diet. I live on things like this and um have entered into a stage in my life that I call radical well-being working at making myself as absolutely healthy as
I possibly can and treating This body of mind like a temple um that deserves to be treated in a sacred way which I would encourage you to do as well. Um the Sufis say that if you don't have a temple in your heart, you'll never find your heart in a temple. And it's about having that temple in your heart and re and respecting this magnificent body that you carry around that houses your soul which allows you to become anything that You put your attention on. I am 75 years old just a few months ago. And
um I'm glad you didn't applaud because usually that's not a good sign when they applaud your age. I know it's not. And um I have sex almost every day. [applause] Yeah. Almost on Monday, almost on Tuesday, almost on Wednesday. I just love that line. It was from Jack Lane and uh and I'm really very honored and thrilled to be here. Um it's a spectacular weekend we I have planned for you. Um you'll be hearing Anita Moujani this afternoon. I'll tell you a little bit more about it. She's [clears throat] a walking, talking, breathing miracle woman
um who was inches from death and died and uh came back to teach us some Very important and profound lessons. The name of this uh this course is I am light. Uh light is at the core of who we are. I always ask to have a rose on stage because one of my favorite uh teachers and poets and someone that I I feel a a spiritual kinship with was a man who lived um back in the uh 13th century was born on the 30th of September in the Year 1207. His name was Medlana which means
our master in Farsy. Jelaludin Roomie. And um Roomie said this. He said what was said to the rose that made it open was said to me here in my chest when I met you. And he was speaking of God in the form of his beloved teacher Shams of Trees With whom he spent four years learning how to live in ecstasy and from a place of God realization. What was said to the rose that made it open? Something invisible, something impersonal, something non-local, something non-dual. um opens the roses. We can't figure out what it is. There's
no scientist on our planet that can figure out what it is, where it is, how it works. And it's in every one of us. It's in every one of us. Unfortunately, we don't listen to it. We pay attention to other things that we've been conditioned to believe about ourselves, our belief and our limitations. Would you like this? Yes. [clears throat] Take your seat belt off. There you go. Here you go. You don't have to come up. No, you can catch it. Ready? >> That's for you. Enjoy. [applause] Anias Nin, a very famous uh Cuban writer
who lived in France for a good part of her life said uh and the day came when the risk of remaining tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. This two-day seminar is designed to help you to have a recognition that you don't have to stay tight in that bud. That um there's something within you and me and everything and everyone that ever existed in the universe that um [clears throat] that urges you to blossom, urges you to fulfill a destiny, a dharma that you signed up for um long
before you ever came into this world. >> [clears throat] >> the uh I want to open this with a uh an opportunity for you to u to be um Bewildered and amazed and in awe. It's a two and a half minute video. It is uh [clears throat] it's a portrait of the uh Hubble telescope and the Hubble telescope uh orbits around the earth something like 320 mi above the earth and it has built into it the most powerful spy glass that [snorts] we can uh envision. Um, and it has been able to just recently, Just
this year, I think it was January 8th of 2015, um, they were able to get their very first pictures of a galaxy that is next to the galaxy that we're in. The galaxy that we're in is called the Milky Way galaxy. uh it contains millions if not billions if not trillions of uh heavenly bodies and now they have taken With their cameras and been able to project them into our neighboring galaxy which is called the Andromeda galaxy and it is um two and a half million light years from here. A lightyear is the distance that
light travels in a year. Light travels at 186,000 miles per second. Um, imagine how far 2 and a half million of those light years are. Um, it's distances that are incomprehensible to our minds to be able to to comprehend. And the Andromeda galaxy is just next door in this infinite universe that we're in. The estimate by the top astronomers in the world today is that the minimum number [clears throat] of galaxies that there are in our universe is 200 billion galaxies. So room said sell your cleverness and purchase bewilderment. This is an opportunity for you
to uh Be bewildered. A very famous German poet, philosopher named uh Gerta said this. However much we are attracted and fascinated by the myriad phenomena of this earth, there's an inner longing that compels us again and again to turn our eye heavenward because an inexplicable deep feeling convinces us that we are citizens of those worlds. Those worlds that mysteriously shine above us and that we shall someday return thither. That um we look out there at these [clears throat] at these heavenly bodies and these stars that we see and we know that the light those stars
might all by be extinct by now because it takes hundreds of thousands of years for the light just to get here. That's how far away they are. What I want you to just have a a feeling of a sense of is a sense of awe, a sense of bewilderment about this universe that we occupy. And ask yourself when you see how tiny this little tiny little rock that spins around [clears throat] and orbits a sun, one of trillions of suns and hurls through space at uh 17,000 miles per hour And is not only orbiting, but
it is turning on its axis as well. So, we're on a little rock that is spinning, orbiting, and hurling through an infinity of space. So, if you're still pissed off that you couldn't find a parking place [laughter] or that you have some little problem that you just can't seem to figure out how to resolve, put it into the context of who you Really are. Pierre Teliard of Chardan, the French Catholic priest who was excommunicated for his ideas said back [clears throat] in the early 1900s, "None of us are here as human beings having a spiritual
experience. It's all the reverse that we are all infinite spiritual beings having a temporary Human experience. And the recognition of that and the alignment of yourself with that awareness of your infinite nature will take all suffering and possibilities of suffering out of your life. It's my intention to have you at the by 4:00 tomorrow afternoon um to go out of here with that awareness. It's an awareness that has only come recently into my life. So, let's take a look at what the Hubble telescope that's Orbiting around our planet at uh 320 miles above us and
taking a picture. And every little black dot that you see represents a solar system and you're going to see millions of them as and the start the things that look like lights in there are just clusters of additional solar systems. Here's the Hubble telescope. [clears throat] Lights down. If we got [music] That's 61,000 light years across that little section of Earth. >> [music] [music] >> We're looking We got an infinity of uh solar systems. Each one of those little dots Heat. Heat. Woo! Okay. Isn't that something trying to comprehend this uh this idea Of infinity,
the infinitess of of the universe that we're in and trying also to understand that um who we are is an infinite consciousness as well. um believing unfortunately that we are individual separate intelligences. um and believing that we're separate from everyone else because we've grown up with this insane idea that um that who we are individuals Instead of uh infinite consciousnesses which have just had a manifestation of a tiny little body for just a speck of time in a universe that has no time and has no space. And it's one thing to contemplate this and one
thing to think about it and to have philosophical discussions about it. It's another thing to be aware that that intelligence has many names. Some call it some call it the Dao, some call it Brahman, some Call it Allah, some call it Krishna, some call it God. It really doesn't matter what we call it. The Dao that can be named, says the Dao Ding, says Lau and the Da Deing. The Dao that can be named is not the Dao. It is something that defies description. [clears throat] It's what you are. And having that awareness and coming
to that awareness for me it has been such a spectacular awakening that um that I have within me Surrounding me. The same intelligence that um is in every single one of those planets that are out there and every flower. TS Elliott, a very famous American uh poet [clears throat] back in the 1950s said that we shall not cease from exploration, but at the end of all of our exploring will be to return to the place from which we originated and to know it for the first time. Now, he was talking about death and I'm not
I don't think we have to die. That is leave these bodies of ours. I'm not even convinced anymore that we even have to leave these bodies. that I think uh if we don't blow this place up with our insanity with our absence of God consciousness within um that it isn't that far away when people will realize that uh aging itself is a mistake of the intellect that the DNA and the uh intelligence Within each and every one of us that every cell that replaces every cell that allows you to continue to grow is not replaced
by an old cell that has worn out worn out. It's replaced by a new young healthy strong cell and our consciousness has shifted in such a way that um we've just become to believe collectively that that's just the way things have to be because it's the way it's always been. And yet what I've come To know and read and be experiencing in recent months particularly is that there are uh [clears throat] there are beings who walk among among us who are infinite beings including having bodies. And some of this will sound a little weird and
when it does I'll point it out so you don't think I don't know that I'm sounding weird up here. But I just always remember the lines of Jesus in the book of John you know it's Like he said with God with source with this infinite intelligence all things are possible with God all things are possible because God is that source that is allowing everything to be is the infinite consciousness itself and that's what you are each and every one of us there's nothing in the in this universe that isn't Isn't that and I would always
ask you what does all Things are possible leave out? It leaves out absolutely nothing. And on my whole life I've been always intrigued by people um who are capable of performing miracles and who are able to do things that um that seem impossible to us. Um, back in 1990, I received a phone call from a a fellow who was a singer you've probably heard of. His name was Michael Jackson. And [clears throat] he invited myself And our eight children to come out to his ranch in California to spend a week with him if I would
sit and talk with him for three hours on a mountaintop, just the two of us, about something I had written in a book called Real Magic. He wanted to know what it was and if such a thing really existed. No matter what you've ever heard about Michael Jackson and all of the negativity and by this weekend is over, you'll never even repeat anything Negative from anyone. It has to always be just love. Um, this was a divine, beautiful, spiritual human being who could never in a million years hurt anybody ever. And I can give you
that from my very firsthand experience with him and with my children. Um, and we talked about this idea of real magic. He wanted to learn how to levitate. He wanted to learn how to uh be able to move in ways that that uh no one else Had ever moved before. He wanted to know about communicating telepathically. And did such a thing really exist? And was were we all capable of if Jesus said that even the least among you can do all that I have done and even greater things. Does that mean that we all have
within us the gift of fish and loaves? Does it mean we have within us the the power to heal ourselves and even be in An energy field in which uh those who enter into that energy field are healed as well? Can we elevate ourselves to those exalted levels of consciousness and overcome our conditioning, our conditioned belief that who we are is limited and ordinary. And a big part of this weekend, learning that you are light, that you are light, that you are light. You know there was an Irish poet who said uh An aged man
is but a poultry thing a tattered coat upon a stick. Unless soul claps its hands and sings and louder sings for every tatter in its mortal breast. Until you find your soul, until you find that invisibleness within and I begin to identify yourself from that place, you're just a tattered coat upon a stick. Something that I feel I allowed Myself to be for a while. Now I recognize that I'm an infinite intelligence and there's nothing that I cannot do if I put my attention on it. Yeah. So, I was out at a uh Oh, and
by the way, I always debate whether I should send it say say this or not, but uh many [clears throat] of you may know that I I had a calling to uh to live as a Dowist for a year uh The year that I turned 65, 2005. [clears throat] And um it was really a grand year in my life. A year I did no interviews and year I uh I just devoted myself to studying the da deqing lsu's the dao tao. Here it is right here. The da whoop tao. It's just the Chinese word for
the great way or god or spirit or divine mind or whatever label we need to put on it. And I was called in 2005. And I'll talk about callings here in a Moment. Um, this is a book I recommend you carry with you. Some call it the uh wisest book ever written. 81 verses written 2,500 years ago with some of the greatest truths in such a simple format. Just uh each verse is no no longer than 10 or 12 lines. And in it is the so many of the great uh paradoxes. You know the journey
of a thousand miles begins with one step. You have to take one step. If you want to accomplish Great things, you have to think small. If you want to have great strength, [clears throat] you have to allow yourself to be like water, which is soft and weak and pliable. It was it was a divine year for me. And um this is this is just I I sat down and and in one year I wrote 81 uh essays on each of the verses of the Dao de Jing. But I did more than just sit down and
write them. I uh I lived them and memorized them and cut them out and put them on my walls in My sacred space in my home. And um it became a uh [clears throat] a way of looking at myself and my life and what I'm capable of and what this world is about in a totally different way. U and I have no idea why I was called to do that any more than anything else that I was called to do, including come here. I don't even know what the hell I'm doing here. I don't need
to fly all the way down Here uh to do this. And yet here I am because I go where I'm sent and I listen to those voices that are so strong and so powerful. The Dao, living the wisdom of the Dao. The book that I wrote on this is called Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life. And I would look at a picture of Lasu every day. And it was really just a drawing that someone had of him in an ox sitting on an oxen. I would read verse one Opening line. The Dao that can be
named is not the Dao. And I would contemplate what that means, the rest of it, and memorize it. And for four days, I would just live it. Everywhere I went, I'd try to see it. [clears throat] And then I would sit down in the morning about 3:00 in the morning and I would look at this picture of Lasu and I would allow him to teach me how to apply this today in today's world. What It means now that was for four and a half days. Then I would do verse two, memorize it. Totally new concept.
Practice it. Live it. and then I'd sit down four and a half days later and do the same thing. And I did that for an entire year, 365 [clears throat] days. Um, I've been invited to China to uh to speak about the Dao as if I'm an expert on Daoism and I I don't I feel so less than an Expert on anything. I think the reason that I've considered to be a spiritual teacher is because inside I have a recognition about how little I know and how much there is to know. And all I have
to do is look at what we just saw for two and a half minutes and realize my god this is an infinite universe and the infinity of that universe is inside of me. Then I am an infinite being. Imagine that I am beginningless. I am endless. So, uh, would you like this? Come on up. Here you go. As a gift to you. >> You're so beautiful. Thank you. Enjoy the Dao. Yeah. [applause] I always recommend people carry it with them wherever they go. Put it in your purse, put it in your glove box of your
car. Um, have it around. If you go into the sacred place where I live and work and write and do all my uh [clears throat] all of my writing, You'll see each one of the 81 verses of the Dao all on all of the walls. I live in that energy. It's so beautiful and so powerful. And someone sent me this. It's a picture of Laauu, a drawing of Lasu, which I thought was kind of cute. And it says, "Yes, do it, Wayne." I keep deciding. Should I? Shouldn't I? Nah, I never win. I always lose
this one. It is only when a mosquito lands on your Testicles that you realize there is always a way to solve problems without using violence. I love that. I don't know. >> [applause] >> I don't think so. No, I think we can tell. Maybe I can talk to you. Maybe we can negotiate. We can have blow [snorts] you away. And so, um, my life has just undergone such radical Changes since I was here on this stage, um, whenever it was two and a half, three years ago. Um, you can probably tell just by looking at
me that I've taken years off. Um, my energy is higher than it's ever been. I'm doing two-day seminars. I'm speaking here, speaking in New Zealand next week, then going to London. Then we're going on a cruise to Israel, giving a talk at the Sea of Galilee where uh Jesus delivered the sermon on the mount. Big shoes to fill. I'm going to give a talk on the sermon on the mount um in Israel. It's a cruise that I think there's still about 20 seats left out of 500. If any of you want to go, it's going
to be amazing through the uh through the Mediterranean. I'll share more with it about later. But I was uh I live on Maui um which is an island in the uh middle of the Pacific Ocean. Um I always liked the book Moby Dick Herman Melville living on an island. It reminds me what he said in there. One of the most beautiful pieces of writing I ever remember and committed to memory. He said, "For as this appalling ocean surrounds the verdant land, so in the soul of man lies one insular Tahiti, full of peace And joy,
but encompassed by all of the horrors of the half-lived life." The half-lived life, the life that we have chosen to believe in our ordinariness and in our limitations and most of our focus is on that to elevate ourselves to a place where we find that inner Tahiti. That's one of the reasons I think I live on Maui because of reading that in Moby Dick. [clears throat and cough] And I was out uh in a place called Hana, which in Hawaiian means heaven. And [clears throat] there's a road to Hana that goes through a uh um
it's it's a road that goes back and forth, back and forth. It's got it's a rainforest and uh there's endless uh waterfalls and just just divine places to look and uh to to see some of the Highest levels of rainfall uh on the entire planet come just in this little rainforest uh way out out on the other side of uh of Maui. And last spring, um, I was invited to partake in, uh, in seven ceremonies. Um, iawaska is a plant that grows in Peru. And, um, it, um, some call it, you know, God's plant. It,
u, it's not a drug. It's not, uh, it's not something to get High on. It is, um, a gift to us. It's called the medicine. And this medicine when it goes inside of us, it reaches places within us and hours and hours later it will uh help us to remove within us any of the blockages to our divinity. Because truly the thing that we fear the most, the greatest fear that we have as human beings is the fear of our own divinity. We fear being God, being pieces of God. We've somehow created an image of
God That is something external and outside of us. Uh instead of recognizing that we all come from that and if it we come from it, we must be like what we came from. And it's within each and every one of us. And there was um in the midst of this ceremony um it starts about 7 o'clock in the evening and it goes till the next morning about 8:00 in the morning. So about 13 hours and um you drink a little Of this medicine and then um spend some of the time just vomiting. Um but not
in it's nothing like it's not vomiting like anything you've ever seen before. It doesn't smell like vomit. It doesn't look like vomit. just black water that comes out of you and um and sometimes it takes two or three hours for it to do so and sometimes it never happens. It just depends on whatever it is that you need because It's an intelligence that's here as everything is. And [clears throat] one of the most beautiful parts about an Iawaska ceremony which is a very much of a spiritual tradition particularly in South America and in Peru particularly
um and throughout Argentina and Brazil. Um, one of the most beautiful parts about it is that um, they people come and play music And the music is just divine music and when you're in that space of uh, almost God consciousness, God realization, which is one of the great things in my life. I was on a the equivalent of the Tonight Show here in Australia. Oh, back in the 1970s. In fact, it was uh 1977, my first trip here, but I've been here maybe 20, 25 times since. Um, and I was uh on the on the
Tonight Show, and a woman was the hostess. I don't even remember her name now. And she asked me, "What is it? What is my mission? What is your mission?" And I No one had ever asked me that before on television. And I just blurted out, "Um, I would like to experience God realization." I didn't even know what that was. I never I'm still not sure I do. But that those words just came out of me and it was uh it was wow I love that dog in here whoever you are. And uh and one of
the things that I learned in The iawask experience is that uh you come to a sense of an awareness of uh of your god consciousness. You'll hear Anita speaking about this today and tomorrow in the afternoon. Um it's uh it's like it's like a serendipity. It's like a synchronicity where you you suddenly lose your ego and your identification with this human self of yours and your accomplishments and and your things that you own and uh all of the stuff that has Taken you away from your God realization from the real and God is just one
term whether it's the Dao or spirit or Brahman whatever you want to call it um you uh one of the things that I'll be wanting you to do here in this time is to is to really shift your alignment, you know, so that you're no longer aligned as uh as this human being having a spiritual experience on Sunday mornings or whatever, but uh you know, where where You begin to see yourself uh in this divine context and it's not it's not a big stretch to to get that. And if you read the spiritual literature, even
the Bible is uh it's all over the Bible. Uh, so I was listening to this uh song. Uh, someone started the I was laying out on the grass and I looked up at what I saw out there in Hana. It was a clear night, maybe four o'clock in the morning, and I was just lying there, and I was looking up at this at these this infinity of Heavenly bodies that were just staring down at me. And the woman uh brought this song that was sung by India Ari, written by India Ari um and I listened
to that and it was a transformative moment in my life. It's why this program is called I am light. It's why I'm working on a book called I am light. It's um [clears throat] I just had this amazing awareness that uh who I am is not Anything that I've ever believed myself to be. That who I am is uh it's basically at my core it's light. It's it's God consciousness. And and if I could get there, if I could stay there and I had just an amazing awakening there. So, I called my daughter Sky, uh,
who sings beautifully, has written many of her own songs. Uh, she's going to sing for you here today on three different occasions. Um, and I called her up and I said, "Have You ever heard of this song?" She said, "No, but I do love India Ari." And I said, "Well, the song is called I am light." And it was a transformative moment in my life. It was one of those uh Maslo called peak experiences. Just just a clear moment. Oh my god, this is who I am. So I called her. I said, "Honey, I want
you to learn this song." because she travels with me all over the world and Sings at a lot of my talks and has three beautiful CDs and uh and I'm going to ask her if she will right now to come up on this stage and sing it for you ac capella and direct you through the amazing words [applause] so beautiful. Hello everyone. As my dad said, I'm going to sing this beautiful song for you. And I'm going to sing it one time through. And when I'm done, I would love it if all of you Would
join in and just sing the choruses of I am light. So here it is. I am light. I am light. I am light. [singing] I am light. I am light. I am light. I am light. I am light. I am not the things [singing] my family did. I am not the voices in [singing] my head. I am not the pieces of the brokenness. inside. I am light. [singing] I am light. I am light. I am light. Oh, [singing] I am light. I am light. [singing] I'm not the mistakes that I have made or any of
the things thataus pain. I am not the pieces [singing] of the dream I left behind. [singing] I am light. I am light. [singing] I am light. I am light. [singing] I am light. I am light. Oh, [singing] I am light. I am light. I am not the color [singing] of my eyes. I am not my skin on the outside. [singing] I am not my age. I am not my race. My soul inside Is all [singing] light. Is all light [singing] is all light. [singing] is all light. I am light. I am light. I am light.
I am light. I am divinity defined. I am a god on the inside. I am a star, a piece of it all. [singing] I [singing] am. [singing] >> Wow. >> Thank you. [applause] >> That was beautiful. Beautiful. Now, [applause] one of the things I'll be speaking about, we're going to do a meditation at the end of the morning Before lunch. One of the things I speak about is something called japa, which is the repetition of the sound of the name of God as an inner mantra. I'm going to have it taught to you by the
person who taught it to me, something I do every day. We'll be doing it at around just before lunch. Um, it's called Ishakria. Um so a big part of it is the repetition of a sound. So repeat and this is what we heard the night of the iawaska ceremony is the continuous repetition. So by saying these words yourself and recognizing that light is at the core of your essence. It's at the core of your being. This is who you are who we all are light. So sky just maybe two or three verses and just ask
people and we can do it collectively. um singing the I am light part portion. >> Okay, here we go. I am light. [singing] I am light. You can do it with me if you want. I am light. I am light. I am light. I am light. I am light. I am light. I [singing] am light. I am light. I am not the things my family [singing] did. I am not the voices in my head. I am not the pieces of the brokenness [singing] inside. I am light. [singing] I am light. I am light. I [singing]
am light. I am light. I am light. I am light. One more time. I am light. I am light. >> One more verse. >> One more verse. [laughter] >> I'm not the mistakes that I have made or Any of the things thataus. I am not the pieces of the dream I left behind. [singing] I am light. I am light. I am light. [singing] I am light. I am light. I am light. I [singing] am light. I am light. I am light. I am light. I am light. I am light. >> Beautiful. Thank you honey. Thank
you very much. Thank you. Beautiful job. [applause] These are Sky CDs. I'll be giving some of these away a little bit later on. You inspire me. This sky has no limits. And u letting go. Beautiful. Beautiful. Beautiful. Thank you, honey. So, [clears throat] I'm speaking to you about callings. Um many of you may have known may know that I've written a somewhat of a memoir. Um it's called I can see clearly now. Um on the 26th of June in 2012, my entire family uh came to visit me on Maui. I have eight children uh six
girls and two boys. Um some of them have children of their own. Um [clears throat] and they were all there for the summer. and I made an Announcement to them that um I couldn't I was done writing uh something like the way I felt when I was here in Melbourne on this stage and when I had collapsed that perhaps it was time to join my two brothers both of whom are a year and and two years older than me uh who've been retired for 22 years now um and I'm out here traveling all over the
world writing books doing all the things that I'm doing with a very different level full of energy and Perhaps it was time for me to uh let go of that um and watch the birds or whatever it is that I was going to do. So I told them particularly the writing thing because as much joy as I get out of writing, I've been writing since I was a little boy. I wrote a novel when I was 16 years of age. I've written hundreds of essays when I was in the military between the ages of 18
and 22. Um, I used to sell book reports for my friends for 25 Cents. If they got a B or higher, they didn't have to pay. If I did, if they went below that. Um, writing has just always been just a joy, a way of expressing an inner something inside of me that um that no one else could ever feel. the very last words that I wrote in uh I can see clearly now as advice to uh whoever uh wanted to read this the stories that have been in my life. I said in order to
access the guidance I encourage you to make a commitment to be Absolutely faithful to that which exists nowhere else but within yourself. This is the great secret for seeing even more clearly and living your life from a place of passion and purpose. that there is something unique to you. Even though we're all connected to each other, there's a there's there's a calling. There's something inside each and every one of us. And throughout my entire life as I um as I looked at that, but on the 26th of June, I told my children I was Through
with it, that it puts too much pressure on me, that um it's uh it's [clears throat] it's looking at 500 or 600 empty sheets of paper and filling them from in here. And I do all of my writing by hand. I put my hand on the table. I let the energy come through my heart and onto the paper. Um, that's how I've written all of my books. Um, and when I start doing something like that, it just it sort of takes over me and it's almost like an obsession and I I Feel like I can't
uh I can't stop and it's draining and it's uh I'm up early in the morning, I'm writing in the morning, I'm writing in the afternoon, I'm writing in the evening. Um, I seem to get guidance from I don't know where. Um, when I get stuck even for a moment, uh, some kind of intelligence, some invisible energy shows me what to say. The phone will ring, someone will call, something will show up in the mail, I'll watch something on television, my kids Will say something. Uh, I'll read something in the newspaper, whatever it is, and off
I go. It's like there's this invisible guidance and it's there for not only for me but for all of us regardless of what our um whatever dharma we signed up for before we ever showed up here on this planet. But it's tiring and exhausting. And I just said, I've I've just done enough of that. And I was 72 years old at the time. I said, uh, I'm just going to let That go. That was the 26th of June. On the 27th of June, I woke up at 3:00 in the morning and I had this calling,
this inspirational calling, and I started writing. I said,"I am going to look at all of the factors, the circumstances, the people, the weird events, the the the kinds of things that showed up in my life um that were directing me that I'd be heading one direction here in my life and all of a Sudden I'd be turning right or I'd be making an about face or I'd be going off doing something else." And um and I wasn't even aware of it at the time. I said, "I'm just going to look at those things." And uh
I took every book that I had written. It's now 46 books and I laid them all out in my sacred writing space just from the very first one from my textbooks from your erroneous zones and pulling your own strings the sky's is the limit all of these books uh all The way right up until um that day. Um, and I wrote and I wrote and I had to tell the kids they they were all taking over my house on Maui. So, I had to go rent myself a place because I needed this this the quiet,
the peacefulness. And I wrote every day for five months. Every day, morning, noon, and night again. And it was um it was a realization that uh see I was being interviewed uh by the New York Times back in the early 1990s. And I was also uh being interviewed at the same time. There was a a great American playwright. his name was Arthur Miller who wrote uh Death of a Salesman and The Crucible and so many plays some of which you probably had to read when you were in school and and you've seen you know Willie
Lman you know and and so on. Um and the interviewer before they interviewed me was interviewing Arthur Miller. He was 88 years old at the time and they said to him, "Mr. Miller, are you working on another play? And I'll never forget his response. He said, I don't know, but I probably am. That's a very profound answer. I probably am. My teacher Carl Jung said, "From the beginning, I had a sense of destiny as Though my life was assigned to me by fate and had to be fulfilled. This gave me an inner security. And though
I could never prove it to myself, it proved itself to me. I did not have this certainty, it had me that there is there is something that is calling us. each and every one of us. This isn't unique to me. And whatever it is that excites you, whatever it is that gives you a sense of passion. Um that's really, you know, it said if if if prayer is you talking to God, your intuition is God talking to you. When you it's that it's that divine intelligence. It's that it's that uh it's that infinite consciousness, this
infinite awareness that keeps it all together, that opens the roses, that holds the planets in alignment, that places desires, burning desires into your heart. And when you have an sense of excitement about what it is that you Would like to do and you're willing to listen to it and you're determined to act on it and you're fearless in its implementation in your life, then you will be fulfilling whatever it is that you agreed to come here for in the very first place from the very beginning of your incarnation here into this uh into this world.
And one of the things that I noticed as I laid out these books and was looking at what was taking place in my life and I started it with one of the Stories my mother told me before I had to go into an orphanage for 10 years. Um stories that she told me about myself as a little boy and things that I recognized seeing in myself that there was something something [clears throat] moving like it's a chess board. There was something moving the pieces o of my life and there is something moving the pieces of
all of our lives because lau said in The daqing you are not doing anything you're just being done and then if you look at your own body you have a true recognition of this don't you that I always say [clears throat] everybody in the room let's say there's a thousand people here uh just take Take a look at your fingernails and your fingers. Just take a look at your 10 fingers and talk to your fingers today before you go to bed tonight and ask them to stop growing Fingernails that you're tired of it. Like I
was tired of writing and and worn out from it and so um and just ask it ju just tell it demand it. Just say I don't want my fingernails to grow. I got to cut those cuticles. I got to chew them. I got to do and I'm just tired of that. I just I'm going to put a stop to that. And you have this awareness that there is something doing that to your fingers, growing your fingernails every single Day, independent of your opinion about it. It makes no difference who the eye that you think that
you are is directing that. Now, the interesting thing about it is if there's a thousand people in here and we each have 10 fingers, that means there's 6,000 fingers in this room. Those 6,000 fingers don't each have an individual separate God for those fingers. There's some kind of an impersonal non-dual non-local Intelligence that is growing every one of our fingernails every single moment that we are alive. And we are all connected by that intelligence, by that invisibeness, by that infinite consciousness. And not only that, but if there's six billion people on this planet, there's 60
billion fingers. And that intelligence is growing every single one of those fingers and we are all connected to it. That alone is enough of an awareness to Recognize that there is no individual consciousness. There's a group consciousness. It's beating all of our hearts and it's taking place independent of your opinion about it. Now, you can understand this when it comes to your bodies because like I have a picture of myself when I was 20 years old on the wall at my home and I look at that picture and then I look at myself in the
mirror 50 years Later and I cannot see one single cell that was in that 20 year old body that is in this 75 year old body and yet I am still here. [clears throat] The I that I am, the I that is we, the I that is collective, the self, the infinite consciousness within each and every one of us is ageless. It's beginningless. It is endless. And it is taking care of everything that needs to be taken care of for you. Not Only is it doing that, as I started reading, I writing I can see
clearly now. I realized [clears throat] that what I just said that applies to your body also applies to everything else in your life. There is an intelligence that is taking care of it all. And it was all laid out for you from the beginning. The problem is that we came into this world and we took on a set of beliefs that had us believe that we're separate From each other instead of that we're all connected to each other by all you have to do when you're looking at a stranger and say, "Well, I don't know
that person." Just recognize that whatever is beating its heart is beating yours. It's not a separate intelligence over here for his heart and then a separate one for yours. It's not a separate fingernail god for this one and for there. It is in every one of us. And this infinite, this intelligence is Infinite. Even though these bodies of ours that show up and manifest in this space are not. So [clears throat] I have had such um so many things have been taking place in recognition of this uh of this intelligence and I call them uh
callings things that um that are just they're desires that are placed into my heart that I had nothing to do with. I don't even believe that I'm the Thinker of the thoughts that I have. that thought is just something that just shows up and we can pick whichever ones we want to use at any given time. We can't go inside of our brains and look and find our thoughts, find a thought in there. We can find the command center in our brains that allow us to have a thought that says, I think I'm going to
wiggle my finger. And then you thought, you have that thought which you don't even know what it is. You can't get a Hold of it. It's beyond your senses. And then you wiggle your finger and instead of going, "Wow, booga." But look at that. There's something invisible going on inside of me. Is it inside of me? Because I know that my brain isn't filled. If they open it up, they're not going to find a bunch of thoughts in there that what is this thing, this intelligence, this uh energy that I have a thought about something
and I can just wiggle my finger or move My thumb or move my head or hit tap my hat or whatever it is. It's going on instantaneously at all moments of our life. And we can the scientists can find the command center inside of our brain. But no one, no scientist has ever been able to find the commander in the command center that says, "I think I'm going to wiggle my finger." And not very long ago, I was uh [clears throat] you know when when things start showing Up in your life, you have to recognize
that that invisibeness within you that you cannot comprehend or understand with your senses. You can't see it. You can't touch it. You can't smell it. You don't It's It's beyond It's impervious to the senses. That these things called burning desires that show up are not placed there by our own egos and by our own personalities. They're placed there by the same thing that is growing your fingernails. Now, a book came into my life that was radically transformative of my life just about a year ago. Um, I called Leon who was the head of Hay House
here and they don't even publish it. I asked him to see if you could get them here because I'd like every one of you to be able to purchase one. They don't that's very inexpensive. It's um it will radically shift your life. Now, On my flight down here from uh from Los Angeles to Brisbane, two of my daughters were with me. Um, and while they slept and got all excited about being able to fly in business class and said, "It's the greatest night of my life." One of my daughters said, "It's just the greatest night
of my life. I can't even I can't even believe that I'm here. I can actually lie down and sleep all the way to Australia. It's just like they've never heard of such a Thing. And you can order whatever you want and you can I was uh sitting there with a little light coming over here for 16 hours 15 hours whatever it was and I was making doing my and I'm not exaggerating because I don't what I say is truth. That's one of the things I've learned to be in the last three years especially to be
very careful about being in a place of truth. I read this book for the 10th time completely through. And I said to one of my daughters who was watching her sixth movie or whatever it was that she was doing over there next to me, I said, "Oh my god, this is the 10th time I've read this book in the last year, and I finally am getting it. It's like it's like a It's like a new book. It's an energy that I just didn't I didn't grasp it before. The name of The book um it was
written in 1914 100 years ago and it was published under the name anonymous because the man who wrote it was a Lutheran minister and this book was came into this world through something called automatic writing. Now, I know about automatic writing because I wrote a book called The Power of Intention that was automatic writing. It just wrote itself At one of the lowest points in my life. It wrote itself. Each of these 81 essays in I in change your thoughts change your life were automatic writing directed to me by looking at a painting of a
man who lived 2,500 years ago and directed me on what to say and how to say it and what it means today. I was flabbergasted that I even knew it as I went back when I wrote I can see clearly now and I would get to that stage when I would write that that Chapter in here about what was taking place. I would read it and say, "I just can't believe how good this is." Especially the power of intention. I said, "I I didn't even know that I knew this. I don't even remember writing this.
I don't remember how it possibly could have come through me and where all these quotes came and all of the things that showed up." It's that moment when you just let go. Like I I gave up alcohol 30 years ago, over 30 years ago. I haven't had a drop of alcohol in my body in over 30 years. And in the Dao, it says, "If you want to accomplish great things, think small. Don't think, I'm never going to have a drink for 30 years. Think, I'll just not have one today." Or, "Wait, maybe this morning or
or wait in the next hour. Well, certainly I can go five minutes." And the journey of a thousand miles begins with that step. And you think Small and you think big. And um it's it's having this kind of an awareness that there's nothing that you can't accomplish for yourself if you allow yourself to listen. And in the recovery movement, we call this letting go. And you know the rest. What? >> Letting God. Letting go. And letting whatever you call this invisible. You could be an atheist. it doesn't make any difference and believe in God. It's
very Simple because when I was on the show with Oprah Winfrey and I was explaining this healing that had taken place and how the how the leukemia had left my body and all of that and and she was saying you know you can't you can't just say um you know that that you had this miraculous healing and so on. I said you absolutely can say that that when the when the student is ready the teachers appear. When you have a level of readiness for Something to take place in your life, there are absolutely no limitations.
The problems that most of us have is that we listen to somebody else's idea of what our dharma should be. Very often it's our relatives. They're very good at it. You know, I've often said that our friends are God's way of apologizing for our relatives. All right? Because because our our friends, I mean, a friend, a friend, here's a definition of a friend. Someone before whom I can think out loud, whatever it is. So, so many of us have allowed our life's mission and our de or we have something called a burning desire and then
we allow somebody else's idea that this isn't right or you shouldn't do that or this is your culture or this is what this is the family you have to do it this way and and you get to a point there's a woman here in Australia her name is Bronnie Wear and um she wrote a book she was a hospice nurse um for eight [clears throat] years and she interviewed people who were crossing over who were who were uh making their transition and leaving. And she would ask them, "Do you have any regrets? What are your
regrets?" And she wrote a book called The Top Five Regrets of the Dying of some some seven or 800 people that she interviewed and chronicled their their regrets. The Number one regret of wi of people who were in hospice who were getting ready to cross over was I wish I would have had the courage to live the life that I knew I came here to live. I wish I would have had the courage to do that. Um, and I can say after writing, I can see clearly now and looking at my life. I have been
willing to listen to that same intelligence that's growing my fingernails and opening the roses and allow it to move and direct the course Of my life from the time that I was a little boy. For somehow, for some reason, that passion that I have felt inside when other people tied tried to squash it, I was able to resist. Even as a young boy, when I was living in the orphanage when I was seven years old and I came home from school and I asked Mrs. Scarf, who who had we had a home there with a
whole lot of children that live there. Um, [clears throat] and I said to her, I Said, "Mrs. Scarf," I said, "What's a scurvy elephant? She said, "A what?" I said, "A scurvy elephant." She said, "I I've never heard that. Where did you hear that?" I said, 'Well, I heard Mrs. Pool, who was my third grade teacher, telling the principal that Wayne Dyer was in her classroom and that he was a scurvy elephant. So, she got on the telephone and called the principal, and the principal said, "Oh, no, no, no, no. That's Wayne. Uh, he gets
everything mixed up." She didn't say that he was a scurvy elephant in her classroom. She said that he was a disturbing element. in her classroom. EE Cummings to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best night and day to make you just like everybody else means to fight the greatest battle there is to fight and never stop fighting. To be nobody but yourself. to Be willing to listen to the outrageous claims as Shakespeare said it in Hamlet so so beautifully to be or not to be that is the question every time
I fly in first class I always ask for seat to be I want to be I don't want a not to be to be it's my favorite seat but the lines that follow his uh Hamlet's oratory are more important. Whether it is nobler in this in the minds of men to suffer the slings and Arrows of outrageous fortune or to take arms against a sea of troubles and thus by opposing end them. You have to be willing to listen. And those burning desires that are placed inside of you that call you, beg you, insist upon
you moving in this direction, being willing, being determined, being fearless, loving yourself enough to let go of the expectations that have been imposed and placed upon us by all of the all of the People who know better. all of the uh all all [clears throat] of the cultural impositions that are placed upon us. There is something inside each and every one of us that is beyond the world of our senses. Our thoughts have nothing to do with our senses. Our thoughts are just experienced. They're not what we experience with. They are experienced. Who we are
is an infinite divine organizing spiritual infinite intelligence. It is Beginningless. It is endless. You can never die. Who you are, what you and one of the things that you'll grasp and get a hold of is this wonderful recognition of your infinite nature. You know, Emily Dickinson, a very very well-known American poet from the 19th century, holding up a handful of dust would say, and I remember this poem so well because my mom passed away three years ago because I got back with my Mother when I was uh 10 years old. She only put us in
orphanages because my father abandoned us. And uh when she passed away um they she was cremated a day or two later and they gave my two brothers and I this ern full of ashes and we were holding this ern that was my mother. My mother was such a beautiful sweet divine soul. and your grandmother. I mean, she she just just always kind, always loving, always uh always there when she finally was Able to get her life back together. And I said this to my brother David and my brother Jim. I said, "Uh, surely this isn't
mother. This urn full of dust and dirt, ashes." Listen to Emily Dickinson. This quiet dust was gentlemen and ladies and lads and girls was laughter and ability and sighing and frocks and curls. This passive place, a summer's nimble mansion where bloom and bees fulfilled their oriental circuit, then ceased like these. Or long fellow, life is real, life is earnest, and the grave is not its gold. Dust thou art to dust returneth. was not written of the soul. You have it's like you have been conditioned to believe that you are what you experience with your senses.
If you can touch it, if you can smell it, if You can see it, if you can hear it, if you can feel it, then it is real. Otherwise, it is not. But my teacher in India, Naradata Maharaj said that is real which never changes. The only thing that is real is that which is infinite or eternal. That's the soul. That's the part of you interior. The thoughts, the burning desires that are placed there, not by you, but by something called the impersonal life. And that's The book. This is the little book right here. And
they have I asked Leon to get it. It's out. They went out and and made copies and and because the book is in uh [clears throat] eminent domain, they were able to copy them. They're here for you. It's inexpensive. It's a book, like I said, I've read it 10 times. Now, here's what the book is. It was written in 1914, published anonymously because the man who wrote it was a Lutheran minister. He Was receiving messages much like the Course in Miracles, much like the Uranche book, much like a good part of my own writing. When
you become to begin learn how to write from the soul that you just you let go and you let God. It isn't just how to get over alcohol or drugs. It's how to allow this intelligence to flow through you and to recognize that there is a personal part of you which is your resume. It's your ego. It's your accomplishments. It's the Things you own. It's how much money you have. It's how beautiful you are. It's it's all of the things that you've accumulated. It's your reputation that is all of the things that other people think
about you. All of this stuff that has dominated so dominated our lives, mine included, uh for so long a part of our lives that the internal callings, these powerful internal directions that are, you know, when you have an excitement inside of you, an Enthusiasm in Greek, the word enthusiasm breaks down to enthos, God within, the God within. everything that excites you, everything that that turns you on and gets you recognizing that this is what I'm here for. This is what I came here to do. That you know, I was at this place in uh up
near Brisbane uh called Corum Corumban. Is it Corumban? Sounds some something like Corumban. It's this place where they have these koalas and you can go in and hold them. They gave Me a very special uh tour, a beautiful place. I encourage you to support it. Um, and the two people uh that were working there, one was the assistant to Steve Irwin. Um, who was who who died when that uh what was it? A >> is it? >> Oh, stingray. Stingray. There it is. Yeah, you're saying it in Australian. That's the problem. Uh, yeah. But see,
he knew and he, you know, That he would go that way is not at all a surprise that he would leave this world and uh, you know, and leave his body behind because he's infinite. There is no death. There is no death. There's nothing to fear in death. You know, it's easy. It's uh um it's a divine experience. I know my mother has already visited me once since she passed away uh two years a two and a half years ago. Anyway, um the two people that run this place and all that, it's it's their Whole
life. They bring they have a hospital there. They bring in wounded little birds and animals of of every kind, turtles, whatever, and they take care of them and they feed them. And we went in and watched them do surgery on a little bird and and giving it oxygen. And so, it's their enth it's their whole life. It's preserving some of these species that are endangered. It's that excitement. It doesn't have to be writing or music or uh you know Entertainment of any kind. It can be you know setting up an orphan. It can be riding
horses. It can be anything you know. But when you have that interior knowing that this is who I am and that enthusiasm for it, when you allow it and when you follow it through and you don't fight it back, what happens is that uh you start getting you start aligning with this with this with God with this source this invisibeness within us. And it's not within it's everywhere. There's No place that it is not. There is no place that it is not. It's in you and it's in everything that you perceive to be missing from
your life. So therefore, whatever you perceive to be missing from your life, this intelligence, God is there and in you. All you have to do is align with it and you can attract it and pull it into your life and all things become possible. So what this is this book the impersonal life it's a book by the way that see I Was in Australia on the 16th of August 1977 on the radio in Sydney when they came over the radio and announced that Elvis had just passed away and so my interview was over and it
was time for you ain't nothing but a hound dog and they played Elvis music and of course Elvis was just this Elvis carried this book with him where he had it with him when he died he said it was The only thing that allowed him to to entertain and write the way he did in his life, The music and so on that he did. It was the carrying of this book. It looks like this here. The impersonal life. Um Sky, would you give these out to two people that you decide should have them? Okay, there
you go. You get it? You reach that? >> One more. Just somebody just just pass them out back there. Yeah. and get make sure you get the right person. Okay. Yeah. Um and I know most of you you'll want to Get this. It's just a few dollars and it's uh but what it is what this book is and it came to me and when I started reading it I was just uh it asks you at the beginning to be still and know that I am God. I am God. And the I that is saying that
is you. This word I am. Very very significant two words. When Moses was at Matsane and talking to a burning bush that was not being consumed and asking who is this That is directing me to free my people? Who is this that is uh what is your name? And in Exodus, the book of Exodus in the Torah, Exodus 3 verse 18, Moses is told, "My name is I am that I am, and that shall be my name for all future generations." Every time you use the word I am, you are saying the name of God.
when Jesus was about to be stoned in the book I think it's in Matthew might be in Luke uh and he is asked the Question um by the Pharisees um who were about to stone him he said why would you stone me and they said because you blasphe you claim to be God and Jesus's words were now you weren't raised on this if you're Christian Jesus's words to the Pharisees were isn't It not written in your laws that I have said you are God's. That God is not something outside of you. God is what you
are. It's that same intelligence that's doing all of it. There's no place that it is not. Or if you go to Psalms in the Old Testament, Psalms 82, you are all children of the most high. You are God's right out of the spiritual literature. Or go to Philippians, St. Paul, have in you the same mind as Christ Jesus, who being in the form of God, did not consider it robbery to be equal with God. But were you raised on that? We were raised instead because we out of our egos created a god of the ego.
An individual with with a beard and with you like a cosmic bellboy that is like all I have to do is just ask it for something and it's going to give it to me. Not understanding for a second that God is what Jesus said. God is love. And all you have to do is recognize within instead of being afraid to recognize the God within yourself to re Remember that every time you use the word I am, you're saying the name of God. In the book of Joel, it says, "Let the weak man say I am
strong." That's why I say I am cancer-free. I am well. I am perfect health. I don't need any documentation for that by a medical team of any kind. I don't need a reading on a on a piece of uh physical uh reports back to me, a medical records that tell me this. I am I am each and every one of us has this I amness within Them. And what this book, The Impersonal Life, did for me, is it taught me because it's written like this. It's a it's a conversation between your impersonal self, that is
the part of you [clears throat] that is non-local, that has nothing to do with your senses, that has nothing to do with your resume, that is in every single one of us. Talking to your ego, talking to the personal self and having a conversation with it and Teaching it, teaching yourself how to react to. And one of the things it says in there that is so important and so powerful is that every single desire that you have is placed there by me. Me being the impersonal self. So that when you have a burning desire, when
you are called to do something and you have a a sense that this is the direction my life has to take. Now I've had these callings in my life. I had them. Perhaps the most important Calling like this I had in my life occurred on the 30th of August in 1974. I write about it here and I can see clearly now. Another one of the callings that I had was when I turned 65 to give up everything that I had to let it all go and to read the Dao and to study it. And my
my kids will tell you I gave away everything I had. All of my clothes were given to homeless people. They were some of the best dressed homeless people You've ever seen. I had 20,000 books or more that were all donated to hospitals and to places where people can't afford books, schools and so on. I gave away my apartment um my garden apartment where I had done all of my writing for the previous 20 years. I let it all go. Gave it all away because I was called to do something. You're all being called. You have
these impulses all the time. Here's what it says on page 221. Again, if you will look back, you will recall many times when you felt strongly impelled to do certain things. Some of which you did with perfect results, others of which you argued against. Your intellect reasoning you into different actions and often with a failure or disappointment or suffering as a result. Now hear this. This impelling consciousness was only your real self. I within you. That is the personal self, God, source, divine Mind. If you don't like those words, call it Louise. What? It doesn't
make any difference. It doesn't need a name. Distinctly telling you what to do. At those moments, you were hearing with your spiritual ears, my my ears, meaning the impersonal, meaning God speaking to you. And when you impersonally obeyed, success and satisfaction followed you. When you personally thought you knew better, discomfort, Regret, and unhappiness often resulted. This is the story of I can see clearly now of having a willingness to listen and be a scurvy elephant. Meaning, it doesn't matter if someone else thinks or says you should do it a certain way. It doesn't make any
difference. being willing to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune. And ultimately there's there's not it doesn't even take courage to do that because the more the people around you realize that you are Your own person and you're going to fulfill your dharma and you're going to listen to it. Even if everybody else out here thinks that I shouldn't be doing it and everybody in my family ostracizes me, it doesn't make any difference. I am going to listen to that voice. And that voice is capable of creating miracles. Even the least among you can
do all that I have done. You have that within you. And that calling on the 30th of August 1974 was when I went to My father's grave. My father had walked out on us when I was just a baby. and [clears throat] he had three boys under my mother had three boys under the age of four. I was born in 1940. My brothers were born in 38 36 during the Great Depression. War was getting ready to start all over the planet, World War II. And he just took off. And I spent my youth into [clears
throat] my 20s trying to find this man. When I got back with my Mother, when my mother finally realigned her family and got us all back together, um my oldest brother was someone I didn't even know. I met him at 10. I knew him apparently when I was one or so, but then we got separated. My brother David and I went through it all together, all the different homes and places that we lived. And neither one of them had this burning desire inside to know their father. My oldest brother, Jim, just dismissed him because he
just didn't like the he didn't like him. He remembered him. I had no memory of him, but I I had to know. I didn't even know what a father was. I didn't even know the word father meant until I was six or seven because where I lived in in this in the foster homes and so on where I lived, there were no fathers. Um, but at any rate, to shorten that story, Um, I ended up in my my teens, I would dream about my father every night. I would just be filled with anger and remorse
and and ranker and rage. I'd wake up, I'd have dreams about him. He spent several years in prison. He was an alcoholic, an abusive man. Um, he was a womanizer. He was a thief. Um he uh left my mother and um involved himself with six or seven other women, four or five of which he uh he married. Some were much younger than him. Um and then in 1964 um when I was 24, he passed away. But I didn't know that. I even went to his mother's funeral and volunteered as a pawbearer to carry her gra
her body to the grave thinking I would meet my father. He has to be there. He wouldn't miss his mother's funeral. And he missed his mother's funeral and sent a note and said he couldn't show up because he was afraid my mother would put him back in jail for non-support and so on. Um, this Was the man that uh I had to know about. And every time I told my mother I wanted to know about him, she would just be filled with internal rage. You just don't know what he was and how bad a person
he was. But I had to know. And it was a burning desire. Has there been something inside any one of you that you just feel like you're not going to be complete until you reconcile it? Whatever it might be. It could be anything. And in 1964, um, he passed away. Okay. And in 1974, I was told by [clears throat] a cousin that I didn't even know I had who knew that I had been searching for my father. I traveled all over the country looking for this man, interviewing his ex-wives and so on. And [clears throat]
she told me, she said, "I'm sorry to tell you, Wayne." She said, "But your father died in uh 1964, 10 years ago. I Know you've looked for him. Um, and he died in uh he died in New Orleans, Louisiana. And his body was shipped to a place called Buxy, Mississippi. And he um he was he was buried in a poer's grave. That's all I know. He had no money. He was an alcoholic. And he died of cerosis of the liver at the age of 49. So that didn't stop my quest. I got on a plane.
[clears throat] I flew to New Orleans. I rented a car. I drove to Beluxy. I found out where he was buried. That's a ve much more involved story than that. We've done a whole film about it called My Greatest Teacher, which I encourage you to watch if you like. A reenactment of some of the events of this time. And um and I actually went to my father's grave to piss on his grave. I did. That's that's where I was at that time. I was filled with rage. Um I just Couldn't imagine somebody treating my beautiful
mother the way that he treated her and just abandoning three children. It just isn't something that I could process in me. And I went I found his grave. It was on the ground. It was It said Melvin Lyall Dyer 1914 to 1964. I cleaned it off and I cursed and I swore and I yelled and I questioned and I cried. It was like the end of a of a vision. And I went and I got back. I was there for three hours. Two and a half to three hours. It was about now around 8:00 in
the evening, just getting dark and I got into my rental car, put on the lap belt, and I was going to drive back to uh New Orleans, [clears throat] take a flight up to New York. I was a professor at a university in New York City called St. John's University, the largest Catholic university in the world. and uh I was going to get ready for the fall semester which was going to start in two weeks to [clears throat] teach the graduate students that were my students. I was 34 years old. And [clears throat] as I
started to drive away, a voice, something, an energy called me back. It's a calling. and I went back To my father's grave and something came over me in that moment. Something that changed the entire course of my life. I blurted out loud and I had no idea because I wasn't in the consciousness that I live in today. I blurted out loud from this moment on, I'm sending you love. Who am I to judge you or anyone? Given the conditions of your life, you did What you knew how to do. You can't ask any more of
anyone. I let go. I was sobbing. And I was free. I forgave my father. I just let it go. Honestly, to tell you the truth, right now, right here, in this moment, I feel him here. I could I have to be careful. I could break down up here. [applause] And um I have really shortened this. This was like a really this was the signature moment of my life. At that time I was overweight. I was drinking. I was doing drugs. I was u not taking good care of myself. I was in a terrible relationship. Um
my uh my writing I was writing textbooks which was easy but they weren't what I felt in me. I didn't want to write textbooks. I was writing just to get promoted. Um, and I'd written three textbooks, all of which Were very successful, but nothing. I was just off, just off. I got back in the car and it was like this huge weight had just been taken off of me. I got back to New Orleans. I flew up to New York City and I ga went to my home in West Babylon, New York on Long Island
and gathered up all of uh the notes that I had been taking, all the recordings of the lectures that I had been giving. I've written about All of this and I can see clearly now. And I gathered it all up, put it into a big suitcase, [clears throat] flew down to Fort Lauderdale, Florida, rented a car, drove to the Spin Drift Motel on A1A between Oakland Park and Sunrise Boulevard, checked in, and I sat down and I wrote, and I wrote morning, noon, and night. I hardly even ate. One night I wrote so much. I
wrote 77 pages one night and I forgot to number the pages And they were all over the motel room floor and I had to gather them all up and try to figure out which one went where. That's it was like it's just it's when you let go and just allow this infinite intelligence to flow through you that uh magical things begin to happen. And that book I wrote was called Euronia Zones. It was published in 1976. About a year and a half later, it became the number one selling book in the world For the entire
decade of the 1970s, fiction and non-fiction. It's published in 47 languages, over a 100red million copies of it in print. Um, I changed everything about my life. I started running and exercising. I stopped drinking. I got out of the relationship that I was in. Everything in my life turned around. I met my wife who became the mother of seven of my children of seven of my eight children. Um, It all turned around in a moment of forgiveness. Mark Twain said, "Forgiveness is the fragrance that the violet sheds on the heel that has crushed it. It's
like you got to be like that violet and whatever it is that happens to you out of you comes something called divine love. Divine love is very different than any other kind of love. I'll speak about it later. This moment these callings there have been so Many of them in my life. I have a little children's book up here called I am. And the subtitle is why two little words mean so much. I am the name of God. Being able to reference and say the words I am. One of the reasons I've written six children's
books is because I really believe the lessons that we have to learn of infinite consciousness and who we are um can be inculcated in very young Children who can grow up to understand that what they feel deep within them and what they know and when those burning desires that are placed there not by yourself, your body, your mind, your [clears throat] your senses cannot don't know anything about a desire. Can't can't get one. Don't know what it is. Is it composed of thoughts? What is it made out of? These are things that they're just amorphous,
formless energies that are with you that you have no idea how They got there. They got there because your impersonal self, God, who allowed you to manifest into this world of infinite consciousness, placed those desires within you. That's why they're there. [clears throat] And in 1940, this book was republished under the name Joseph S. Benner. B- N E R because when he passed away, the year that I was born, he passed away. His wife felt that what he had written was So profound and if the Lutheran church didn't like it, it was too bad that
she was going to put his name on it and it is now in public domain for all of you to hear. And you know, [clears throat] um, Sage, would you pass these out to Where are some are there any moms here? You right over there. That lady right there. Come on up. Yeah, that one. Yeah, both of you. You and you. Yeah. One for each. Would you just hand them to them? Yeah. You stand up. You got it. I am. Wonderful book. Wonderful children's book to read to your children. I am two very important little
words. And you know, I spend a lot of time around little children. I had eight of my own. I have nine grandchildren. Um, and the woman who works with me, her name is D. Garn. Um, she's my assistant. She's my life bre. She takes care of everything for me. She has two little babies. [clears throat] And I was telling her, I was giving her a quote about a poem uh by William Werdsworth. William Werdsworth said that uh our birth, this is a famous Victorian English poet, our birth is but asleep and a forgetting. Heaven lies
about us in our infancy. See this infinite consciousness [clears throat] Allows things to manifest within it like your body and like everything that you see and touch in the world. Um but and [clears throat] it's everything is made out of this infinite consciousness and children especially very young children I've always been intrigued by by babies especially newborns because I talked to them I used to talk to my girls like uh tell me about God I know you know my wife would say she's three days old I Said I know but I know that she knows
and De had a a little boy. His name was Marcus and he was uh 17 months old and I was telling her about Wordsworth and the poems and and this recognition of reincarnation because there's so much more evidence now that bodies can reincarnate. There's a book called Soul Survivor. If you've ever doubt reincarnation, read Soul Survivor about a little boy who reincarnated as a pilot who was killed at Euima uh during World War II who knew everything about not only who that he was, but every one of his friends. And then they the little boy
went because the the the people that were still there, two of them were still alive in their 90s, went back and told them their nicknames and all the things about them. There's so much evidence on it. like it's it's impossible for it to just be a set of uh happenstances or coincidences. At any rate, it's a it's an awareness that I'm like really aware About. And I said to her one day, I said, "D talk to Marcus. Um ask him about God. He's just starting to put words together. He can't even say sentences yet. He
can just say one word at a time." And uh so [clears throat] one day she said to him, "Uh, Marcus," she said, "what's heaven like?" And uh Marcus looked at her and looked up and he said, he put his arms up like this. He just put his arms up like this. He said, "Like this." And she said, "Well, Tell me about God. What is God like?" This is his first word. He said, "Light." Those were his words. So, I took that word and that little story that I just told you, and I put it on
my Facebook page, which has about two and a half million people on it. That's uh [clears throat] and I ask for people from all over the world, many from here in Australia. Um if you have ever had any experience that indicates that what Wdsworth said that that heaven lies about us in our infancy, that these little beings have just come. I wonder how many of you who are parents who have children who had invisible friends when they were little. How many how many invisible friends? Look around. This is a third of the audience. You know,
these are not friends that uh that that they can't see that it's just part of their imagination. These are like one of my daughters had an invisible friend. Whenever we gave her a bath, we had to give a bath to Jesse. Whenever whenever we sat sat down at the table, we had to set a special place for t and she could see her. She could talk to her. She could feel her. that children at this time have this amazing capacity for recollection of moments before before coming to earth. So I asked for that and we
got we got about two and a half to three thousand responses from people all over the world. Some of them were just So amazing. One of the stories was of a woman who had a little baby and uh she sang to she wrote a lullabi for her when she was uh and she sang it to her up all the time until she was two years of age and then the little girl died. She lost her baby and she was just heartbroken. And then seven years later she had another daughter and she was just so happy.
And one day when the daughter was about three or four years old she started singing the same lullabi. the Lullaby that had been written for the baby sister that had died five years before. And the little the mother said to the little girl, "Um, where did you hear that? Where did you hear that song?" And the little girl in all of her innocence just said, "Mommy, don't you remember? You used to sing that to me all the time." And it was like those. And so we put together a a story, a collection of those. It's
called Memories of Heaven. It came out The day before yesterday. I just saw it in Brisbane for the first time last just last weekend uh with myself and Darns and it's filled with all of these plus all of these stories for I really I mean the some of the stories one woman had a little girl who always talked about her grandma but she didn't have a grandmother. Her grandmother had died like three or four years before she was born and she and her father they didn't even know. And they went to they went to The
cemetery. The mother went to the cemetery without even telling the daughter what she was doing. And the daughter went and there was a whole bunch of new burials since the last time she had been there. The little girl who always talked about her grandma ran through all of the rows of and went and stopped right here and stood and said, "Grandma, this is where grandma is." And the mother just stood there looking like, "Oh my god, what do these children Know?" It's really amazing how much little children have these awarenesses. their invisible friends, their intuitive
knowings, their uh [clears throat] their recognition. So many children have stories about uh reincarnation within the same family that so we put it all together. We put it out as a book. It just came out. Children's astounding recollections of the time before they came to Earth. I think you're going to love this. It's uh it's just something That uh I'm very very very proud of. Sky, will you pass a couple of these out? Come on. Come on. Get it. Earn your money over here. First class all the way down here. Business class. Yeah. Yeah. [clears
throat] So, these two little words, I want to share another story of you with you and it's a story about my youngest daughter. We were in Brisbane in 1989 on Valentine's Day, 14th of February. They have that here, right? You celebrate Valentine's Day here. Yeah. Um, and [clears throat] we had had four children in the previous seven years. Um, and the last thing on my mind was having any more children. It was impossible. That was not going to happen under any Conditions. There's just no way. We [clears throat] were on the 14th floor of the
Hilton Hotel and my wife was asleep uh in the bed next to me with um our son uh who was uh about a year and a half, maybe even a year, still nursing. Um and I was asleep in this bed with our other daughter, Serena, who was just barely three. Um, and it was 4:00 in the morning and [clears throat] one of the strangest things that ever Happened in my life happened to me that night. My wife turned into something that I don't even know what was going on. I had never seen this kind of
behavior from her ever before or ever afterwards. She got up and she started moving the furniture around in the in the hotel room and she was sort of in a coma just like she wasn't even really awake and she took the [clears throat] Serena who was like less than three out Came in and picked her up and put her in the bed next to us and got into bed with me. And it had been a while since I had had any kind of activity like this since she was nursing or pregnant. She used to say
I went from a 36 C to a 32 long in one decade, you know. So at least she had a sense of humor about it and she came into the bed with me and started fooling around. When I tell you in 25 years, never Before, never after when those things happened, it was because I was walking around moving things around and wanting those things to happen. That was not her way. And so, [clears throat] so we made love in Brisbane. And um just to be absolutely certain that even even though she was insane, I was
still awake and I said this is not Happening. I withdrew from there at the la that critical moment. That was the end of that. And we named our last daughter withdraw [clears throat] or should have because somehow there was some this infinite intelligence that is in all things was um directing the whole play that night. and this little soul that had to get here because I used to say to my kids when they would Get upset with me, you know, if you don't like the way I'm parenting, if you think that I'm doing it wrong,
you know, then you shouldn't be upset with me, you should be blaming yourself for having picked me in the first place. My daughter Serena one time said when I said that to her, she said, "What are you talking about? You're trying to tell me that I picked you to be your uh my father and I picked mom to be my I said exactly that's the way it works. Now I Was being facitious at the time. I didn't realize there's an awful lot of kids who come in and say they picked their parents. There's probably some
of you in here who have told you that that they act absolutely picked you at that time. Um [clears throat] so she said to me, "You're telling me that I actually picked you? I can't even believe that." I said, "Yes." She said, "I must have been in a hurry, you know. >> [clears throat] >> So, um, obviously this little child picked us. It was I wrote a poem about it. I've published it in in this book in Memories of Heaven. It's in there. I think it's on page 61. Um, if I'm not mistaken. Just a
little thing that I said to my wife. Brisbane, where God was revealed to us. Only the two of us know the magic and the awe of that presence. Against impossible odds, our connection to eternity further reinforced and Strengthened. Yet the paradox always lingers. We are in control. We are not in control. We are doomed to make choices. All I am certain of is our love embedded in forever. And um that little girl has always had a very magical [clears throat] sense about her. Always kind of a knowing. [cough] [clears throat] Excuse me. Oh, I bet
that sounds great. Oh, gross. Come on, tell me. Daddy, you're so gross. So, um, she had an experience when she was four, five, six years old that I wanted her to write about and and write a children's book about it because I want children to know that they have an invisible divine organizing intelligence within them that is capable of doing anything. And an absolute miracle happened one time. She Wrote a little story about it. I wrote it. I published it in a book called There's a Spiritual Solution to Every Problem. And um and then I
asked her to write a children's book with me. Uh it's called Goodbye Bumps and her name is Sage and she's now 25 years of age. Um Sage Withdrawal Dyer, would you come on up on the stage, my love? [applause] Get over here. You >> I specifically told him not to use the word withdrawal. [laughter] >> Hey, beautiful. Tell your story. It's an amazing story and it's an amazing book. >> Okay. Um, so basically uh when I was about 5 years old, I developed um a rash of bumps all over my face. And so, you know,
after a few weeks, my parents took me to the doctor to see what it was and what was going on. And the doctor diagnosed it um diagnosed me as having flat warts, which you know aren't that Uncommon in kids. And um he said that they should probably go away on their own. Most of them do. So we he told us to like, you know, wait a few months, whatever. So we wait probably like a year and they still are not going away and they're actually getting worse. They're like spreading towards my eyes and all this
stuff. So my parents took me uh back to the doctor to to another doctor and he kind of said the same thing. He was like, "Let's give it a Little more time because the treatments on these uh kind of warts can be very harsh." And you know, she's I was like six probably at this time. And so we didn't want to they didn't want to put me through that. So we waited probably like another year, year and a half. And you know, finally my parents were like, "This is, you know, it's getting crazy." Because we
were out in Maui and um like where my dad lives and you know, in the sun like my skin would tan, but the Bumps wouldn't or I called them bumps because I didn't like the word wart, but um so they wouldn't tan. And so then they looked even more pronounced. And um so they took me to a dermatologist, a specialist out in Maui. And he said uh he he he said basically like you've had these bumps or these warts, whatever, for like two, three years now. And it just seems like your immune system isn't going
to kick in. Like you're not fighting them. So we're going to have to Do something about it. You know, they're not going to go away on their own. >> Pull the mic up a little closer. There you go. >> Oh, there we go. Okay. and uh [laughter] he said, "They're just not going to go away on their own, so we're going to do something about it." So he he was like, "I'm going to tell you your options." And and he spoke directly to me because my parents always let let all of us make decisions about,
you know, our bodies When we were that age. And um or at any age. And so he said to me like, you know, your first option is we could burn them off or, you know, freeze dry, burn type of thing. And it will be painful, he said, and it will leave scars, you know, for a little while. And and as you know, a seven-year-old, I'm sitting there listening, I'm like, I don't want to freeze. That sounds awful. Okay, what's the next option? And he said, um, you know, your second option would be That you could
take an oral medication. And he said, this medication, it it may or may not work. and there's, you know, x number of side effects and your skin's going to turn red and you have to stay out of the sun and all these things. So, you know, again, to me as a seven-year-old, I'm sitting there like, I don't want to do that either. I I'll stay with these bumps aren't bothering me that much. I'll just keep them. You know, that's I don't want to stay out of The sun and something that may or may not work.
So, anyway, I said to my parents like, I don't want to do either of those. And so, they sat and they talked with the doctor for a minute and then they came back to me and they said, you know, we think maybe you have a third option. And I was like, "Okay, I'm listening." And they said, "Um, we think that you could heal yourself of these bumps, that you could talk to your bumps and that they'll go away. They'll listen To you. You could heal yourself." And I was like, "Okay, sounds good. I'll go with
that option. Sounds like best one to me." So, you know, we went home that night and I um I Sorry, that's >> And I went uh and I got into my bed, actually, my air mattress because I was the youngest, so I always got the air mattress. And um that poor she's so abused. You poor thing. >> Oh my god. >> You had to sleep on a air mattress. >> I did have to sleep on air mattress. >> And uh so I got into my air mattress. >> I give you some money or something. >>
I'll be okay. I'm okay now. And I pulled the uh covers over my head and I um and I talked to my bumps for like five minutes or so before I went to bed. And um and that was it. I talked to them, went to bed, woke up in the morning, kind of forgot about it, and then did that again for the next two nights. So I did it for three nights and then I got In bed on the fourth night and um and I went to go talk to my bumps again and I just
reached up and I touched my face and I was like, "Oh, it's smooth." And then I felt all around. I'm like, "Oh my god, my whole face is smooth." So I was so excited. I ran out of my bed and I jumped into my parents. I ran into their room, jumped into their bed and I was like, "They're gone, you guys. they're gone. And they were like, "What's gone?" And they didn't know what I was talking About. And I was like, "My bumps, they're gone." And my dad was like, "They are. Come here." And he
felt my skin. And he he was like he looked at me. He's like, "Oh my god, they're gone." And my mom couldn't believe it. And then and they So my dad looked at me, he's like, "What did you say to them?" And And I was like, uh, I could tell he was really excited. So I was like, "I'm not going to tell you." and And he was like, "Oh, you got to tell me." It went on. I mean, he was I and I decided it was a secret from that point on. >> For about a
week, he was bribing me. You know, I'll take you to get ice cream. I'll give you $20. You know, I wouldn't tell him. I thought this was like a really fun game for me, so I refused to tell him. And then, um, you know, they eventually gave up on asking. And and I even I wrote a story about it. In fourth Grade, uh, we had to write a a an essay. Um, the the prompt was called overcoming obstacles. So, I chose to write about my bumps, but I even ended that story saying like it's a
secret. And I I'm not going to tell you. I'm not saying I don't tell what I said to them. And so, um, I don't know, maybe like >> maybe 10 years later. >> 10 years. Maybe like five years ago. So, or like seven years ago. I was like 18. And I real, you know, the topic came up Again and I was sitting I'm like, why haven't I told him? I don't get, you know, I don't know why I kept this a secret so long. So I was like, I guess I can tell you now. And
um and I told him that basically, you know, what I said to my bumps was that um I told them that I loved them, but that we couldn't be together anymore and that they had to leave. And and I pictured them going I pictured myself having clear skin. I pictured them falling off like not Leaving any scars and anything like that. and and you know and it worked and um and so we told the dermatologist that who was you know he's a good friend of ours and yeah and what you told >> Kenny yeah Kenny
Malard who's a dermatologist on Maui when I told him that he broke down he was he was just so touched by that >> that uh you could actually tell them and say and and [clears throat] use the word love >> right >> uh as as part of the healing because love is the the name for this infinite consciousness this infinite intelligence it's and it is all healing and it is capable of doing anything. >> Right? >> So, um so I [clears throat] published it in in the uh uh in the book called there's a spiritual
solution to everyone written exactly the way she wrote it as a seven or eight year old or however you Were all the all the misspellings she said obstacles like popsicles and the whole thing and if you have read that you can see it in there. Um, and then when we did this, um, Memories of Heaven, I I e emailed her the entire context, all of the uh all of the different u things that these different people have told us from around the world about what children um tell us and and we often times um will
hear something from our children and think, Well, they're just little, they don't know any better, and so on. And they're giving us this amazing information for us, and very often they just give it off and they don't think anything more about it. Um, but anyway, you were saying that it really impacted you because we have you have a little niece and and you're with Marcus and Shiloh. >> Yeah. Well, yeah. Well, this book impacted me because I feel like I'm around children a lot. I babysit um I'm Getting I'm still in school, but I I
babysit on the side and and I don't know, just after reading the book, it definitely made me feel uh differently about kids. Like I looked at them a little differently, you know, not as like they are they are them full selves. They're full selves right now. You know, this is who they are. They're real people, but they still have these this magic about them, you know. >> But um but just to conclude also my Story, >> the thing that I took away from my bump story for for me now as an adult is that, you
know, cuz as as a child, as that little seven-year-old, having my parents tell me that I could talk to my bumps and that they would go away was like enough of a reason for me to completely believe in what I was doing. And I didn't have any like doubt in my mind that I didn't think like well I'll try talking to them for a week and if it Doesn't work I'll go back to the doctor and I'll take the medicine that that's not how I approached it. I just you know as a child I thought
like this is option number three that's equivalent to the other options but even better because there's no side effects and I know it's going to work and I know this is going to be the last time that I'm dealing with these bumps. Like I had no doubt. I 100% believed in what I was doing and I think that's [clears throat] why it Worked you know. >> Yeah. >> No element of doubt. raising our children to have these kind of internal knowings within. Um, and so because one of the things I've been criticized by my my
kids, my kids have been very great keeping me down, you know, if I ever raise my voice or say anything that's inappropriate that they think is inconsistent with what I write about or show up on television, They'll say, you know, [clears throat] I wonder what all those people think of Mr. Positive if they can see I'm here today. You know, [applause] they keep me down. Um, >> it's true. [laughter] >> But one of the things, one of the criticisms was that I I I just I just don't like medicine. I don't take I don't take
any med I've got rid myself of all medications whatsoever. And I've Been able to clear myself of uh of leukemia and um and I'll talk a little bit more about that later on. But this whole idea that that we have to when you go to people who are looking for things to be wrong [clears throat] instead of surrounding yourself with people who see things as already well and is already healed. That's a very important part of uh my book wishes fulfilled. You know they [clears throat] c they recommend they say that Jesus you know speaks
of God in there he calls those things which do not exist as though they did you know I am well I am healed and she saw herself as that. But getting them to go to doctors you know yeah >> there were some times where we actually needed to go to doctors growing up you know and he just uh like Sky for instance walked around with a broken leg I think for two weeks. But you can heal that. You can heal that. That's That's not a big deal. You know, >> one time the neighbor had to
take me to get stitches because he thought I was fine. And >> never mind. Get off the stage. You're good. >> Thank you, honey. Very good. Goodbye bumps. Sage, take a couple of those. [applause] Pass them up to this side of the audience. I think they're stairs over here, too. Yeah. Pass a couple of those out. Goodbye bumps. Wonderful story. All Right, we have two more things to do. We're going to go to lunch about 15 minutes later than than 12:30. We're going to go about quarter or 2. Um I've also been directed and through
these callings to um see what happens is that when you be when you get into this u this knowing that that Sage was talking about up there, this this uh this awareness that who I am is is not this body that I'm in. That who I am is this thing called an infinite Consciousness. Um, I've been directed to uh the life and teachings of the masters of the far east. I'll be quoting some of it later this afternoon and tomorrow. um is an expedition that took place back in 19 uh uh I think it was
1894 to 1897 where they met these these people who lived at these elevated levels of awareness who've moved beyond ordinary consciousness and find see in order to be able to shift from ordinary to extraordinary you have to be able to Change your concept of yourself and your concept of yourself is everything that you believe to be true. So in order to move, if everything that you believe to be true is got you to where you are now, then in order to get to a higher place, an exalted place, an infinite consciousness place, you have to
change what you have believed to be true about what's capable and that what you're capable of. And that's one of the most difficult things that people have to do Is to to [clears throat] change the things that you've believed to be true. Mark Twain again said, "It's not the things that you don't know that get you into trouble. It's the things that you know for sure that just ain't so." Those are the things that you have to watch out for. You know, this awareness that I know something when in fact who you are is this
God consciousness that knows everything that it's all within you. All You have to do is tap into it. So, the life and teachings of the masters of the Far East. And then I was directed one day. It was 1:00 in the afternoon. It was in August um last year, about a year ago now. And I live on Maui, so between the time of 10:00 a.m. and 400 p.m. I stay out of the sun, very intense sun in the middle of the ocean. But this day, it was 1:00 in the afternoon. And something kept proddding me.
It was 1:00 to go for a walk to leave where you are. I was reading, I was studying, I was preparing, doing some of the writing that I'm working on now after I gave up writing. Um, and started listening to the that voice inside and [clears throat] and I just couldn't re I couldn't put it I I couldn't get it to go away. Um, it was I just watched a film yesterday in my hotel room uh about uh a man named Jo Jacob Corp Lorber um who Was called God's scribe and he would hear these
voices and he would record these uh voices that he was hearing. It's very much like Joseph Benner in uh the impersonal life or the course in miracles. The entire course in miracles was just channeled information. Before I ever come on to speak, when Leon was introducing me, I said I always say what it says from the course. If you knew who walked beside you at all times on this path that you have chosen, you could Never experience fear or doubt again if you just knew that you're not alone on this path and that there is
[clears throat] guidance that's always available to you and that all you have to do is know it, believe in it, go to it, and you can see miraculous things happening. But what happens is not only do miraculous things begin to happen for you, but as [clears throat] you move more and more towards God consciousness or God Realization, then [clears throat] whatever it is that you place into your mind, um the infinite consciousness begins to align with you and will send you what you need. Like I am now doing uh 64 ounces a day of of
juicing as a way of of living. I'm now doing things like coffee enemas every day, you know, which is a way of bathing the liver in in caffeine, [clears throat] which extracts coffee. My kids laugh at me, you know, they think that's the silliest Thing in the world. Um, they want to start a a whole franchise called Starbucks. I don't know if that's They've got a slogan for me, you know. It's nothing says morning like folders in your butt. I don't know. I don't think that's right. Rear entry only. no front doors, you know. But
when I first was introduced to that idea, I just thought it was the silliest thing ever. A woman had flown all the way to Maui when she found out that I Had leukemia and told me about the Gerson miracle and about the which is a film that you should watch if you have any cancer anywhere in your body or know anybody that does. Just look at the kinds of the the the miracle, the Gerson miracle. G- E- R S O N. Max Gerson and his daughter Charlotte Gerson who's now in her 90s and looks like
she's in her 50s. And um it's like once you start making this consciousness shift and you make this shift, these the universe Starts to align with you and sends you what it is that you need. two years ago, I didn't think I would be living on on on juice like this and eating gluten-free for the, you know, and wheat free and and uh getting rid of uh so many of the toxicity that's in my life. Your liver, your liver, it's called to live for. That's what the word means. That every single drop of blood in
your body goes through your liver every three minutes. It's a it's a it's a Circulatory system. And if you can bathe your liver where all the toxins that you've accumulated in your life from all the meat and all the drugs and all the alcohol and all of the poisons and all of the things that you have done in your lifetime, if you can get that liver bathed and three years before when I when she brought me this coffee and she just she brought me a pot of coffee. She flew from Utah to Maui, brought me
a pot of coffee, bought me 10 pounds of Coffee. It had to be green organic raw coffee. Gave me probiotics what I'm supposed to take. And when she left, my son said, "What do you do with that?" I said, "If you think I'm going to put coffee up my ass, you're out of your mind." I gave it all away. I just said, "That's" Three years later, I'm with a great teacher, great spiritual medical genius, an osteopathic physician who lives on Maui. He's named John Impe. He's feeling around in my body and he said, "Wayne," he
said, "you liver feels very stiff. A liver should be pliable and soft." He said, uh um he said, "I recommend that you do what I do." He said, "I recommend you do a coffee enema." I said, "Coffee enema? Where have I heard that before?" I said, "Well, how often?" He said, "For the rest of your life every day." He said, "Uh, and you can bathe and rid the toxins from within your body this way." Because the only way to get to your liver is not by drinking coffee, but it's through the portal vein, which goes
directly to the liver and uh and ba it. And it's like um and I've been teaching this stuff for years. It's called uh when the student is ready, the teacher will appear. And when you're not ready, the teachers the teachers are always there. This woman Marian flew all the way from Utah to Maui at her own expense just to give That to me. And today I celebrate her. And after doing that and after having John of God have the remote healing, um then all of the rest of this information began to come to me. And
now what happens is with your alignment, the universe just keeps sending you the right people, the right event, the right circumstances that you need. So it's 1:00 in the afternoon and it's a it's a hot day and I finally just couldn't stop Anymore. I said, "Okay, I'll do it. I will do it." And I got [clears throat] I put on a hat, put on sunscreen, and decided to go for this walk that just somehow I was being impelled to do. When you feel a strong impelled desire to do something, it is your impersonal self speaking
to you. When you ignore it, when you think it's silly, when you think other people's opinions are more important, when you think that's not something I could possibly do and you Allow yourself to ignore, then this divine consciousness very often it'll take you down to a low point because almost every spiritual advance that you make in your life is preceded by a fall of some kind or another. Those falls give you the energy. And sometimes it says in here that when you have to experience those low points, that evil, the the sadness, the depression, the
fears, the the breakdowns, the uh the things that you know in uh in if you're Drinking alcohol or doing drugs, the low points, those low points are what the impersonal self sent you there for because it's the only way it can get your attention. And then once it gets your attention then you can start to elevate. You know St. Francis of Aisi one of the heroes in my life I wrote a whole book in Aisi about his life uh called the spiritual solution to every problem. He said I have been all things unholy. If God
can work through me he Can work through anyone. I got up. I walked. I went for about a mile and a half. Came back and I was just about to get back to where I live on Kopali Beach on Maui. And um the four people stopped me. They were all sitting in front of the hotel next to where I live. And um and they [clears throat] just said, "Hi, you're Wayne Dyer. I recognize you." And I I'm very accustomed to that. I just went over I talked to them and she said, "You know, My husband
is uh has the same kind of leukemia that you have." And he was told by his teacher in India that he should read a book called Vasista Yoga. Now, I could I had never heard of it. I didn't even know how to spell it, but I wrote it down because when those kinds of things happen, I take notice, and I'm encouraging you to do the same. So, I called D, who is uh my co-author with Memories of Heaven, and I asked her to order it for me, and it came in, and It's uh this is
what it looks like. It's um [clears throat] it's close to a thousand pages. It's got some of the smallest print you'll ever see. It is some of the most deep, obtuse, esoteric kind of information. I got it, I used it as a doors stop for about a month. Uh, worked real good for that. Every once in a while, I would open it up and I would I would just read, you know, look at this print. I mean, it's Just um and I then I'd put it back and say, I just can't take this on. I
just can't take it on. And months would go by, another month went by and finally I just said okay I'll read what Mktanandanda wrote the blessing the beginning of this book Swami Mktanandas a great teacher of mine a man I admire very much as a saint walking among us and he said this in his blessing the yoga of aista is a unique work of Indian philosophy it is highly respected for Its practical mysticism the study of the great scripture alone this great scripture alone can surely help one to attain to god consciousness For aspirants of
the highest biatitude, the yoga vasista is like nectar. It is a storehouse of wisdom. The path shown in this work is for those who are highly spiritually evolved almost to the state of acida. It expounds the highest doctrine with many stories and illustrations. Not only philosophers but Even the modern psychologists and scientists will certainly find in it something related to their own discovery. It is the teaching of the sage Vasista imparted to Lord Rama. It contains true understanding about the creation of the world. He said if all of the spiritual literature in the world were
one day destroyed but yoga's vasista stayed, it would be enough to give us all that we need for spiritual liberation. Pretty high praise for a saint from a saint. And so I said, "All right." because it recommends in there in the forward to this it says don't try to read more than one page a day that's I'm just 75 I don't have enough time for that all right I started getting out my calculator and said I don't know I going to be 106 when I finish this you know [clears throat] so I decided to do
10 Pages a day um I'll do a reading from it sometime before we probably this afternoon maybe when we come back from lunch before Anita speaks Um, it taught me about something called infinite consciousness and they call it Brahman. That there is no place that Brahman is not. There is no place that infinite consciousness is not. And it says in there just like infinite consciousness is unconcerned with all of The things that manifest within it. Just as space the space in this room. Think of the spaces in this room and think of yourself as that
space, that infinite, quiet, soft, formless intelligence that's within you. Space is unconcerned with all of the clouds that manifest within it. They can be dark, they can be bright, they can be black, they can be white, they can be cumulus, they can be cumulus nimbus, they can be stratus, they can be Are you impressed with that? I got every one of the clouds. Uh, it's unconcerned. Space is unconcerned. Space is unconcerned with all of the things that manifest within here. If you get up and you start fighting in here, you scream and you holler in,
space is unconcerned with it. Okay? So that who we are is that infinite space. And one of the things that they demonstrate in here which I want to do for you right now is the use of a clay pot. It asks the Question, Vasista asked the question or answers the question that Rama asked. Um what is it that makes the clay pot the clay pot? This is really important to understand what it means to be light. And tomorrow the last part of tomorrow before we leave I will [clears throat] go through the changes that you'll
s see taking place in yourself. What kind of a person you will become as you uh as you develop this infinite consciousness awareness. So, if I were To ask you, what is it that makes this pot a pot? You would say, well, it's made out of clay. It's got a skin kind of around it. It's got this paint around it. And um and it's made out of the minerals and so on that constituted and that's what this pot is made out of. So, if I were to take a hammer and this pot was, by the
way, I brought this all the way from Maui. It was made for me my by by my daughter Summer uh who is not here on this trip with me uh when she was an Art student at a at a college in Alabama. Um [clears throat] and I brought it all the way with me for a reason. I carried it but very carefully on the plane with me to be here with me here and also in Auckland um next week. And if I were to take a hammer and I were to hit this clay pot as
hard as I could hit it and it would all of it would shatter, you would see that the pieces the pieces of this uh clay pot would all be here. And yet There would be no clay pot. So what it is that makes this clay pot a clay pot has got to be something more than just the pieces. Because if the pieces were over here all laid down, there would be no clay pot. In order for this clay pot to form into a clay pot, it needs something other than just the material that it is.
It needs what? It needs the silent, empty, invisible space within which is the only thing that allows this pot to be a pot. It cannot exist without The space, the quiet, formless, infinite space within it. Otherwise, there's no pot. Otherwise, it's just a whole lot of pieces. So, if we extend the metaphor to ourselves and remember now the idea to think that like when I left Maui and I took this pot and put it in my suitcase with me on my handbag that I carried on the plane, I knew that I had to take the
stuff, the minerals that make it up. But I didn't have to be Concerned about the space inside, did I? I didn't have to say, "Oh, I better make sure I get the space with it." Because I know that when I get to Australia, right, the space is going to be there because there is no place that the space is not. It is wherever you go. There is no escaping the space. Okay? Inside the infinite, quiet, silent space within. And the idea that this pot began when my daughter got it, put it on that earn and
turned it and That's what brought the space, that's what brought this pot into into reality. No, the thing that makes it a pot is the space inside. And that has no beginning. It's always there. And the idea that when I hit it and the space is gone, that the pot is gone. You can never kill the pot because what makes the pot the pot is the space inside of it and it can never die. Now we take that same metaphor to ourselves and we take the body that you are with All of the chemicals and
the skin and the hair and the bones and the rivers of fluid and all of the things that constitute and you think you are. You are this body. You've come to believe this. You've been trained to believe that I am the body, but you're not the body. You're not even the mind. You're something way beyond that. So that we can take the all of the things that constitute your physicalness and carve it all up, put it all out and lay it out Right here. And [clears throat] what it takes for and there's no you. Because
what we need for you to be you is the silent empty invisible space within. That's what makes you what you are. And the idea that you began when these bones started forming and when that hair started growing and when those fluids started circulating is absurd because what it is that makes you what you are is not these chemicals. You've looked at this body and it's changed a Thousand times. You've already been in thousands of bodies in this lifetime. They just keep changing because that is real which never changes. And what never changes is the infinite
consciousness inside of you. And just like the cloud, the infinite the space here is unconcerned with anything that shows up into it. So is infinite consciousness unconcerned. There is no individual you. There is only this space, this quiet, infinite soft consciousness within you. That's what makes you who you are. And if we cut your body up in a million ways, we can never carve up that space within because it has no beginning. It has no end. And Rama asks Vasista over and over and over again the question and he refers to the clay pot all
the time that what makes us what we are is not this physical stuff that we hang on to and think is our life but who we are is infinite divine pieces of God. Each and every one of us are. So what I'm Going to do now is ask you just before we go to lunch. It's going to take about 14 15 minutes and we're going to do a meditation together. It's a very powerful meditation. You can Google this when I wouldn't leave. This is pro this is as good one of the things that's really important
here. You can never come to know infinite consciousness until you are able to meditate and get quiet. Melville said, "God's one and only voice Is silence [clears throat] and the awareness that u all of man's troubles stem from his inability to sit quietly in a room alone." You can Google the words Isha which means that which is the source of creation. Isha I S H A Ca K R I Y A Ca It means an internal action. This is an internal action toward the source of creation. It is taught by a man who's going to
teach it to you right now and I'm going to do it with you. We're all going to do it together. His [clears throat] name is Sadguru. Sadguru. When he speaks in India, a quarter of a million people will show up. This is the recognition of his brilliance. He has taught me this meditation and I have it on video. You can close your eyes if you will or open them. We're going to do about seven minutes of a Mantra. The mantra is I am not the body. I am not even the mind. You'll say I am
not the body. On the inb breath to yourself and on the outreath I am not even the mind. After about seven minutes of this [clears throat] he will ask you he will make a sound and the sound is the sound of japa the sound of god. Rather than ah you'll say god and it goes like this. After he does it, you'll follow. God, [groaning] we'll do seven of those. After those seven are completed, and this is called japa. This is a repetition of the sound of God. After [clears throat] that is completed, we will listen
for about a minute. And then he will sing for about 45 seconds a uh Sanskrit prayer, healing prayer, which is the one that I carry on this bracelet that was made for me. Um and then he is going to speak for four Minutes explaining this meditation. The whole thing will take about 19 minutes al together and then we'll go to lunch. So if you want to get ready, I always uh you might want to take your shoes off. I always do. I will sit like this and [clears throat] and you'll see him appear on the
screen. And if you have any questions when he says, >> "I'm not the body." >> Here we go. Inb breath. >> I am not even the mind. I am not the body. I am not even the mind. I am not the body. I am not even the mind. I am not the body. I am not even the mind. I am not the body. I am not even the mind. I am not the body. I am not even the mind. I am not the body. I am not even the mind. I am not the body. I
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the body. I am not even the mind. I am not the body. [clears throat] I am not even the mind. I'm not the body. [clears throat] I'm not even the mind. Continue to do that. [clears throat] After this sound after me. God. Oh, heat. Heat. [chant] Heat. >> [chant] >> Heat Okay. >> [chant] >> Amen. [music] Heat. Heat. God. [chant] Keep your eyes closed and just sit still with your face slightly turned upward. You get it to Oh, yes. Brah honey. Yes. Ra na. Take your own time. Take your own time. Slowly. Very slowly. Open
your eyes. >> Now listen for three minutes to what he explains. Very important what he tells you here. In today's world the way it is you have to address every aspect otherwise people cannot do anything. Now question will pop up but why sound a why should I say a if you open your mouth you have to Explain why otherwise it doesn't work in today's world it's a why sound as there is a physical body there is a mental body and an energy body in the structure of the energy body there are 72,000 nadis are pathways
or channels in which the vital energy moves. These 72,000 nadis meet and redistribute in 114 different places. There are 114 important junction points. So these 114 junctions are referred to as the chakras. So there are 114 chakras in the body, 112 within the physical body, two slightly outside the physical body. Of all these 114 chakras, there is only one chakra in the whole body where all the nadis or all the pathways meet at one point that is known as the manipuraka which is physically located about 3/4 of An inch below your navl. So the navl
is known as manipuraka or it is known as the maintenance center. Body is maintained from here because this is the only place where all the pathways of prana or the vital energy meet and redistribute themselves. Even when you are in your mother's womb, where was the maintenance pipe connected to you? It's at the navl. So today that has been severed but still the maintenance center Is in the navl. So this is the manipura chakra. This is the only place where everything meets. If you are to the sound ah you will see the reverberation begins just
about 3/4s of an inch below your navl and spreads right across the body. So reminding yourself through your breath and thought and awareness that you are not the body, you are not the mind. If this message has to go viral To every cell in the body, if the message has to go, it has to be taken to manipur, then only the information goes everywhere. Otherwise it gets localized. So when you are to the sound ah if this has sunk into you if this awareness has sunk into you that I am not the body I'm not
the mind then it reminds every cell in the body in case they have false notions just like you it takes the message across the body. So Just seven times uttering this seven times the sound ah will take the message across and after that you simply sit every day every day if you do this you will sit one day when you sit here your body is here your mind is out there what is you is somewhere else and even if you open your eyes if you become like this there's a distinct separation between you and your
body between you and in your mind. This is the end of suffering Because there are only two kinds of suffering that you have known in your life. Physical and mental. Once there's a little space between you and the body, between you and the mind, that is the end of suffering. Only when the fear of suffering completely disappears from your perception. Only then as a human being you will explore the full depth and dimension of who you are. You will dare to explore The full scope of what it means to be human only when there is
no fear of suffering. Otherwise as long as fear of suffering is there. Every step that you take is only half a step. And if you keep taking half steps you become half alive. If you want to become a fully blossomed life, it is very important that there is no fear of suffering. And that is only possible when there is a little distance between you and the body, between you and the Mind. As long as you're identified as the body, as long as you're identified with the mental process, fear is a natural process. So sound ah
takes the message across the body to every cell in the body. This is a medit [clears throat] my mic on. Hello. Yes. This is a meditation that I do every morning and every evening in Ishaka. You can Google it. You'll find it's you'll see that on the Internet. You can pull it up yourself and use it. They recommend that you do it twice a day for 48 consecutive days. And then every day I did that for 48 consecutive days and now it's just a part of my life. And as Sadguru said, when you repeat that
enough times coming from the navl up through the ah eventually suffering is no longer a possibility because you're not the body. You're not even the mind. You're going to meet a saint and u a miracle in a few Moments. I have a few things yet to cover before Anita comes out. [clears throat] The meditation I spoke about uh it's called Isha Ka I S H A K R I Y A. Isha means that which is the source of creation. Ka just means uh an internal action toward the source. Ka meditation is the meditation that Paramahanza
Yogananda taught. It's a very deep and involved process. Something I've been doing for Years. Um, it is designed for one purpose and that is to put some separation between yourself and your body. What I want you to try to do now is to begin to think of yourself as if you ever need a metaphor or analogy for it um think of yourself as the space. And remember that even your thoughts the thoughts that you have um are not they are experienced. They are not what you experience with Even what you see everything that you see.
Seeing is something that takes place within you. The uh the great uh poet from the 19th c 18th century William Blake said to see the world in a grain of sand and a heaven in a wild flower to hold eternity infinity in the palm of your hand and infinity in an hour. We are all led to believe a lie when we see with not through the eye Which is born in a night to perish in a night while the soul slept in beams of light [clears throat] everything that you see if I were to stand
say up here and stand ask you to stand up and walk towards yourself you couldn't get even one inch or one millimeter away Who you are is the infinite consciousness. Despite the fact that you've come to Believe that you are a body that has thoughts, thoughts are things that are experienced through your inner consciousness. So think of yourself as space. And when you do that, you begin to realize that if you close your eyes, there's no seeing. The minute that you open your eyes, seeing is something that takes place within you. And then if you
begin to realize that everything that you do see that seems to Be out there is also experienced only within you. So that seeing and [clears throat] the scene are all internal experiences of infinite consciousness. It's all taking place within you. So that seeing the seen and the seer are all one. hearing, the sound, and the hearer are all one. It's all the oneness. It's trying to get past this consciousness that we've been raised to believe that who I am is this individual Thing that is separate from everything and everyone else. [clears throat] So what I
just want to I want to do a quick reading for you from uh yogaista. But in the fourth volume of the life and teachings, by the way, I used to be in a place where I couldn't read up on stage without reading glasses. Um, I decided years ago to set an intention about improving my eyesight. And now, not only 14 years ago when I Took the I the test for my driver's license, I had to have uh a little box marked on there, must have uh assisted with sight, must wear glasses. Then seven years later
when I was going to renew it, I found out I could do it over the internet internet so I didn't have to go in. So another seven years went by and I had to go in because you're only allowed to do that once. And when I went in, not only was I able to read the line for 2020 vision, but I Asked if I could please try an even smaller line. I just wanted to see how far I had gone with the ability to perfect my vision. And now I can stay up here and and
read. Uh, I read the entire impersonal life on the plane from uh, Los Angeles without glasses in the middle of the night in a dark room with just a little tiny light. Um, there's absolutely no limits to what you can create or manifest for yourself. If you can do What Sage did when she was just a little girl and banish all the doubt, just let it all go and know that I am not this body. I am not this mind. I am the space, the infinite space within that without it there is no me and
I [clears throat] am not all of this all these chemicals that I carry around and this river of fluids that I carry around with me. The best way to understand this is to understand yourself in dream consciousness. For onethird of your life When you're in your dream consciousness, you can manifest anything you want by just simply putting your attention on it. The other night I had a dream that uh I was in my home on Maui and the ocean the water was coming up and the water was coming up closer and closer and closer and
it was realizing that it was going to actually come into the windows and uh there was going to be water all I could I could actually see the color of the of the of the ocean of The water and all of the sand and things that were coming up. I could actually uh experience um the feeling of the water. I could actually feel the wetness within the water and I could hear the ocean roaring. All of this was taking place without a body, without any eyes, without any ears, without even anything to feel with. You
do not need eyes and ears in order to experience anything. Thoughts are not things that you experience with. They are experienced in The infinite consciousness that you are. And you can pick any thought that you want at any time. And when you reach the level of consciousness that Anita will share with you in her moments of transformation and coming back into this world to teach us about healing. Um [clears throat] you can place anything on your attention. This is what called Siddi consciousness or Christ consciousness. It's called the gift of fish and loaves. All you
have to do is Have a thought and that thought has no time delay between it and its manifestation into form. You do it every night in your life when you're dreaming and then you awaken and believe that you can't do it. Your job is to become a waking dreamer. It has been clearly stated that life lived by the average individual is hypnotic. That is the majority of men and women are not living life as it was intended At all. This is from the life and teachings of the masters of the far east. Not one in
a million feels the freedom to live what he inwardly feels he should live. He has come under the world opinion of himself and this opinion is what he obeys rather than the law of his own being. In this respect and to this degree, he is living under an hypnotic spell. He lives under the delusion that he is a mere human being living in a merely material world and Only hopes to escape it when he dies and goes to what he calls heaven. This is not the determination intended in the plan and purpose of life. Obedience
to one's inner nature, the expression of life as [clears throat] as instinctively he feels it ought to be expressed is the very foundation of the life which the masters reveal as the only true mode of living. Obedience to one's inner nature, the expression of life as he instinctively feels it ought To be expressed is the very foundation of the life which the masters reveal as the only true mode of living. Your own inner nature, Lasu called our original nature that which is gentle, which is kind, which is serving, and which is love. In the course
in miracles, it speaks that a mind at war with itself remembers not eternal gentleness. Eternal gentleness is your original nature and returning to That original nature. All it all you have to do is let go of what you've been conditioned to believe. In 1978, I was invited to appear on a stage with one of which was one of the great honors of my life. I wrote about it and I can see clearly now. [clears throat] I was invited because I had written a couple of books that had topped the bestseller lists around the world that
um [clears throat] somehow they thought that I knew Something and I thought I did too at that time and I uh I was invited to speak at an organization called YPO, Young President's Organization, presidents of corporations with more than 50 employees. And [clears throat] it took place in Vienna in Australia. In Austria, rather, I'm sorry. And um When I arrived there, I really didn't know who I was going to speak to or what I was going to do. I just knew that they flew me over there. They my wife and I were able to live
this wonderful life. It was a one, it was a week-long experience in Vienna. And no one was paid for [clears throat] for appearing, but it was just it was a great honor to be there. Um, I followed the vice president of the United States at that time, Walter Montdale, And they put me on a panel with a man who had been my hero, a man that um I had required his uh every student that I had at the university and in high schools before that uh when I taught and had given to each one of
my children and asked them to read over and over again. Something that I had read many times. I just read it again uh just before [clears throat] I flew down here when I spent a week with at the Chopra Center with Deepo in Uh in California. [clears throat] The man's name is uh Victor Frankle. Victor Frankle wrote a book called Man's Search for Meaning. Victor Frankle in 1942 when I was two years of age was picked up from his home. He was a medical doctor, a psychiatrist. Um, and he was put on a train [clears
throat] and he was sent to a place in Poland where I visited called Ovich. And he was an Oich and Dau and Burkinbald and two other places uh for the next three years. And he survived the concentration camps because he he developed something called logootherapy. Logo means uh meaning. um and decided that uh we have to have meaning in our lives. He said we can find meaning in in three ways generally. One is through love, another's through our work And another is through suffering and he quotes in his writing. He says uh Deceian novelist he
said am I worthy of my suffering the low places the struggles the difficulties in my life am I worthy of them and he wrote he he wrote [clears throat] this book after he was liberated in 1945 when he was at Dhaka um His wife who was pregnant at the time was put in a train and and concentration camp and she was uh she [clears throat] she was cremated the day that she arrived there. Of every 28 people that went to one of the concentration camps, only one survived. And he met and and uh some amazing
stories. He tells one story in here. Um he said this young woman knew that she Was going to die in the next few days. But when I talked to her she was cheerful in spite of this knowledge. She said I am grateful that fate had hit me so hard. She told me in my former life I was spoiled and did not take spiritual accomplishment seriously. Pointing through the window of the hut she said this tree here is the only friend I have in my loneliness. She was a skeleton. Through that window, she could see just
one branch of a chestnut tree, and on That branch were two blossoms. I often talked to this tree, she said to me. I was startled, and I didn't quite know how to take her words. Was she delirious? Did she have occasional hallucinations? Anxiously, I asked her if the tree replied, "Yes," she said. "And what did it say to her?" She answered, "It said to me, I am here. I am here. I am life. Eternal life. I am. I am the name of God." Victor Frankle and I were on the same Panel along with Virginia Satir,
a family therapist, a very brilliant woman. And I was just in awe of this man who had managed to survive the kind of suffering that it's hard to even imagine took place during my lifetime that we were in an exterminating human beings by the millions in factories of death in the stench of the horrors of places like Ostitch that he managed to survive. And he said to me after lunch after we spoke, He said, "We were given a bowl of dirty water with a floating fish head in it for our protein." And he said, "Those
who couldn't find beauty in that floating fish head could not survive." A very important question to ask whenever you're suffering, whether it's with a malady, with a physical malady, an emotional malady, financial, [clears throat] whatever it might be, is am I worthy of my suffering? Did the impersonal life, the impersonal intelligence, the infinite consciousness, God, source, divine mind, whatever you want to call this, the great Dao, did did it place me into this place and with these desires within me? Um, and am I worthy of it? Because if you decide that you are worthy of
it, and what he said to me at lunch, I've never forgotten. He said, "When we are when we are confronted [clears throat] with situations in our lifetime over which we have no control, we are then challenged to change ourself. And if we cannot change ourself, we cannot survive nor can we grow." And the problem that most people have is that they are unable to change what they have come to believe is to be true or their version of who they are And what the world ought to be. So within you, I ask you to think
about that whenever you find yourself suffering. I do it myself in perhaps the most difficult time in my life when my wife and I separated 16 years ago when she um fell in love with an Australian son of a Oh, what where did that come from? That old eagle. And at my my deep sadness, my children saw that I uh I was Struggling so much. And yet that perhaps became the most significant moment in my writing and in my life when I found a way to be compassionate, a way to find kindness, a way to
be softer and open myself up to a life of living with God. Because I believe this to be really one of the most important lessons in my own life. Where the path to God ends, the path in God begins. Living yourself and recognizing yourself as a piece of God. And I [clears throat] have four posters up here. One of which I want to speak about briefly which I've already spoken about this morning and the others tomorrow [clears throat] and you might be be able to put this on the screen. Yeah. Oh, you can. That's great.
If the doors of perception were cleansed, [clears throat] everything would appear to man as it is, infinite. For man has closed himself up till he sees all things through narrow chinks of his cavern, said William Blake. [clears throat] A man named Aldis Huxley wrote an essay years back called the doors of perception and he talked about cleansing these doors of perception. And [clears throat] there was a young man, his name was Jim Morrison. And Jim Morrison said, um, there are things that are known and there are things that are unknown. And in between are the
doors. That's where that rock group got their name from an essay written by Aldis Huxley, a dear friend of a friend of mine, Ramdas, who lives as my neighbor On Maui. uh a friend of Aldis Huxley who wrote the perennial philosophy and the recognition of the infinite nature of everything and that all of this other temporary stuff is just it's just ego that you want to come to a place where you have a knowing within that um this mind that has trapped you into believing a whole lot of things that just mostly limit you. I've
I've come to [clears throat] an awareness and a realization that when you elevate and move to this infinite consciousness which is like space and just like space is unconcerned with what manifests within it. So is infinite consciousness unconcerned with anything that manifests in it because there is no place that it is not. Which means it is in you around you inside up down north south east west. None of those things have any there's a you're going to enter The world of non-duality this afternoon and tomorrow. And what I want to do just before I introduce
you to one of my heroes in my life, I want to read to you. I'm going to try this without glasses. They're here. But this is u this is like reading through a a microscope. And this book, by the way, has just if you can see what I have done with this book and what it means to me. And there Isn't a page on here that I don't have notes and references. Uh um Vista Vista speaks to me reminding me always that um who I am has nothing to do with what I've been subconsciously trained
to believe who I am. And once I've begun to have that awareness, I've seen not only my own healing, but I've seen other people's healing take place as well. A woman told me just five minutes ago, standing right over sitting Right over there, that she was a heroin addict for 20ome years living on the streets and she picked up something that I had written and decided that she was no longer going to do that. Where is that lady? You want a shout out? Or maybe you don't want to be identified. At any rate, what is
that you over there? Come on up. [applause] Come on. Yeah. Can we give her a microphone? I just want her to tell her tell you what she told me. Is there a mic there? Someone Someone with a mic. Sky, you have it, honey? Come on up. Come on up up up on the stage. [applause] Have a seat. She did. Had no idea I was going to do this. >> Hi. Is this on? Hi. >> Just tell us. We just have a couple of minutes. Just tell us what you told me. >> Um, well, first of
all, I was meditating to the Moses code like I do every morning for about 40 minutes. the other day and I heard Wayne Dyier in my meditation which is why I'm here today. Um at in in 20 25 odd years ago I picked up Real Magic and that was the first book that I've read and I was had been living on the street and had oh my god My heart is just shaking. [laughter] Um and um I picked up the book and I I learned that I could um have a different life and that I
could change my life and that I deserved more and that that not to be fearful. I still continued to use for about five or six years after that. But I kept reading and I kept believing. And now I'm a teacher and I teach um all over Australia and I teach um um the the gift of changing your beliefs to Marginalized people all over um Australia. And I mention you [applause] [applause] >> were doing heroin. >> Yeah. >> How did that come about and how did you get past it? >> I was a child and I
had a brain injury and I had lots of anxiety. I belonged to a family who um I thought was narcissistic and now I think they were just um meant to be there in my life. Um And um I began self-medicating when I was 15 and continued until I was 38. Um and >> living on the street? >> Yeah. Yeah. >> With your daughter? >> Yeah. >> And how did you get out of it? >> Um meditated. Even though I didn't think it was working, I did it anyway because you said it would work. >> [applause]
>> We honor you. We honor you for not only coming up and and saying those words, but for the recognition that the infinite intelligence, the uh the impersonal self sent you there. You had to be there. you being in a state of gratitude for those years on the street and those years of heroin um is what allowed you to transcend it and compass it and now to teach others that there is absolutely nothing taking place in your life that you can't overcome when you Find not only the path to God but the path in God
to live in God. I'd like to give you this as a gift. Thank you so much. [applause] God bless [applause] you. [applause] [clears throat] This is from Vasista, a book that um was one of the great challenges. I could not believe that I took on the uh the task of of reading it and then finishing it finally. All close to well 800 and some pages in this edition and um and then putting it down and leaving it for just a couple of weeks and being so drawn to come back to it and back to it
because [clears throat] one of the things it says in the impersonal life is it says you however who do comprehend what I am saying here will love every word and will read and reread many times and consequently will receive all the Wondrous pearls of wisdom I have held in reserve for you. This book and its message will be to you hereafter merely a fountain of inspiration or a door through which you will be enabled to enter into the impersonal estate and to hold sweet communion with me your father in heaven when I will teach you
all things you desire to know. The excitement. I mean, my kids just say, "Come on, dad. Get a life." You know, but the excitement of a sister Just holding it up here in front of you and telling you about it. And there's a handful of you in here that are intrigued by it. There's a few that will probably order it on the internet and find it and have it sent to you. And there's probably one in here that may get through it. May get through it. Um it's but when it resonates with you as a
burning desire remember that every burning desire that you have ever had has not been placed there by your Personal self which is your ego and your um your senses. It has been placed there for you whether it's up or down to uh to find the excitement within you that perhaps it was for me to have it here for this moment just to teach it here this afternoon or to inspire any one of you because I've often said that an infinite universe who's to say who's to say that my father didn't sign up to come and
incarnate Into this conscious iousness of being a thief and a basically an uh all of his life in order that you might hear that story and be able to forgive someone in your life which will and infinitely it goes. Who's to say that he didn't sign up for that? To say, I'm going to come here and in this lifetime I'm going to have three children and my youngest is going to so want to find who I am and I'm going to stay away from him. And when he does Find me, it's going to transform his
life. And not only is it going to transform his life, but it's going to help millions and millions of people into infinity to have a recognition of their own divine self. Who's to say? By the way, that's what happened. That there are no accidents is more than just a clever saying. In an infinite universe guided by infinite [clears throat] consciousness And divine intelligence, there can be nothing that isn't on purpose and perfect. Even what Victor Frankle had to go through and collectively what we had to go through so hard to get a hold of this
idea that even evil itself and some of the things that we read about and hear about. What I have found as I've moved into this different level of consciousness that I no longer read newspapers that I rarely turn on the news or the TV And if I do and there's something on there that I don't want to be in a space of divine love which is what I where I live and and practice every day um that I just let all of that go because I know that it is only through a shift in consciousness
that our world is going to be transformed and consciousness is everywhere. where even in the things we think it shouldn't be. So I'm just going to do a brief reading without glasses for the first time. [clears throat] A deer known as the mind which had been wandering in the wilderness of countless concepts, notions, and prejudices, and which somehow finds the right path, takes shelter under this tree. This deer is pursued by its many enemies who coveret its hide or covering. It hides itself in thorny bushes known as the body in an attempt to save itself.
All this effort wears out its energies Running hither and thither in the forest of samsara which is the coming and going of things. This life that life harassed by the winds known as vasana or latent tendencies and scorched by the heat of ego the deer is afflicted by interminable distress. This is your mind I'm speaking about. This deer is not easily satisfied with what it gets. Its cravings multiply and it continues to go out far in search of satisfaction of those cravings. It gets attached to the many pleasure centers known as wife, children, family, etc.
And it wears itself out in looking after them. It is caught in the net of wealth and it struggles to free itself. In this struggle, it falls down again and again and injures itself. Born down by the current of craving, it is carried far away. It is haunted and hunted by innumerable ailments. It is also trapped by the different sense experiences. It is bewildered by its alternate rise to the heavenly regions and its fall into the hell. It is crushed and wounded by the stones and rocks known as mental modifications and evil qualities. To remedy
all of these, it conjures up its own intellect various [clears throat] codes of conduct which prove ineffectual. It has no knowledge of the self or of the infinite consciousness which is what it is. This deer known as the mind is made Insensible by the poisonous exhalation of the snake known as worldly pleasures and cravings for such pleasure. It is burnt by the fire of anger. It is dried up by worries and anxieties. It is pursued by the tiger known as poverty. It falls into the pit of attachment. Its heart is broken by the frustration of
its own pride. At some stage, this deer turns away from all of this and seeks the refuge of some tree Already described, the tree of meditation. And there, there it shines brightly. Supreme peace or bliss is not attained in any other condition but the unconditioned state of consciousness. And this is attained only in the shade of the tree known as samadei or meditation. Thus having obtained rest the deer the mind delights itself there and does not seek to go elsewhere. After some time the tree known as meditation or samadei Begins to yield its fruit which
is the revelation of the supreme self. [clears throat] The mind deer beholds that fruit above itself on the tree of meditation. Thereupon it abandons all other pursuits and climbs that tree to taste its fruit. Having ascended that tree, the mind deer abandons the worldly thought patterns and it does not contemplate the baser life again. Even as the snake abandons its sloth, this mind dear abandons its Previous habits so that it might ascend the tree of meditation. Whenever memory of its own past arises, it laughs aloud. How was it that I remained such a fool until
now? Having discarded greed, etc. It rests on that tree like an emperor. Day by day its cravings decrease. It does not avoid what it gets unsought. Nor does it long for what it does. That's so important. It does not avoid what it gets unsought. That is, it is not craving anything. It Just allows. Nor does it long for what it does not obtain effortlessly. It surrounds itself with the knowledge of the scriptures that deal with the infinite consciousness or the unconditioned being. It perceives inwardly its own past states of ignorance and laughs. It sees its
own wife and children and laughs at them as if they were either relatives in a previous lifespan or people seen in a dream. All the activities that are based On attachment and aversion, fear and vanity, pride and delusion, appear to it as though they were all play acting. Looking at the momentary experiences in this world, it laughs derisively knowing that they are like the experience of a madman. And there's more. That kind of writing just thrills me. the idea when I look back at who I was. But I always remember what Basista said that true
nobility It's not about being better than anyone else. It's about being better than you used to be. And I can tell you for sure and my children and my wife with whom I'm still married and we love each other very much from separate places on the earth. But very much we're going on a cruise together to Israel uh in the fall that I am better than I used to be in All of those areas. Facista teaches in the very opening pages, let go of your cravings. That all of your s seeking of pleasure is really
the seeking of pain because whatever pleasure comes to you, it will be gone in the next moment and you'll be chasing something else. You'll always be in the chase. You'll be in a state of striving rather than arriving. And the great Indian poet Rabbindraanath Tagore writing back in The 1920s in a collection of poetry called the katanjali for which he was awarded the Nobel Prize for literature talked about the ego this way. He said, "I went out alone on my way to my trrist, but who is this me in the dark? I step aside to
avoid his presence, but I escape him not. He makes the dust rise from the earth with his swagger. He adds his loud voice to every word I utter. He is my own little self, my Lord. He knows no shame. But I, I, the real me, I, the infinite me, I, I am ashamed to come to thy door in his company. I just don't think writing gets much better than that. Tagore, one of my Favorite all-time favorite poets. And about a dozen years or so, or less than that ago, a woman here in this room who's
about to ascend the stage was um was inches away from death. And [clears throat] I read about something that she had u posted about her recovery and her experience. and all I knew was her initials. But I had a burning desire. And I've learned over the years now, as I wrote about all of my burning desires Here, that um when that thing is there, when that voice is there, when that inclination, when that being impelled to do something is there, that I am willing to listen and respond with willingness, determination, and fearlessness. and I found
her and she [clears throat] can tell you the rest of the story or we'll talk about it more tomorrow. But my friend uh Stuart Wild wrote a book about infinite wisdom And he said, "I've seen what the light looks like at the end of the tube. I've seen the God force. There are no human words to describe the magnificence of it. One is lost to explain it. It is utterly the most beautiful thing I've ever seen and the greatest power that exists. A glimpse of that and every stuckup twerp on the planet would sit down
and shut up. But even if you haven't had a near-death experience, you will be able to feel the God force in your heart as you begin to control the ego. Ladies and gentlemen, my friend, [clears throat] my colleague, and someone I admire and speak to all the time about achieving that God consciousness. She's been there. She's seen it. Anita Mujani. Come on up, Anita. [applause] >> Yeah. >> [applause] >> Dance with me. I want my arms about you. >> Thank you. Enjoy. >> Thank you. >> Hi. Hi everyone. Good afternoon. Thank you. Thank you for
coming. And I met some of you last night at the book signing and thank you for coming to that. I love Melbourne. Love the people here. You've all been so friendly and I met so many of you outside while signing books. I'm going to just move this a little closer to the center because I want to get closer to all of you. Just want it up here. Yeah, just up here if it's possible. Or here. Around here. No, no, no. Right here. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. [laughter] Sorry. I was just dragging it here. >> Here. >>
Yeah, that's it. >> Thank you. Yeah. >> How's the light? >> Is Is it all right over here? Can you all see me? Yeah. >> Can you hear me? >> Yeah. I just wanted to get close to all of you because you know we're all connected anyway. So, um hi gosh I it's been such a whirlwind trip and it's been it's just been beautiful. It's Wayne has been he's such a generous spirit. So, and I am so grateful to him to have launched me on the stage. It started over three years ago, three and a
half years ago. The journey started Pretty much in Sydney when my book was launched. And in Sydney, I'd never been on stage before. We were we were at an auditorium for 3,000 people and my book had just come out and Wayne pulled me up on stage to share my story. And so there I was standing on stage for the first time, 3,000 people in the auditorium, and I was shaking. And he said to me, "You're scared?" And I said, "Yeah, of course I am. I've never been on stage before." He goes, "Yeah, but you've been
Dead and back." [laughter] He said, "What have you got to be scared of? What's the worst thing that can happen to you? you've already experienced the scariest thing. So I said, "No, public speaking is scarier than death." Believe me, it is. [laughter] Death is actually very, very beautiful. Um because February the 2nd, 2006 should have been my last day of life. On that day, I actually experienced death. I had had cancer. I was struggling with cancer with lymphoma in fact for four years and by 2006 I was diagnosed in 2002 but by early 2006 the
cancer had spread throughout my lymphatic system. So, I had tumors, some Of them the size of lemons, from the base of my skull, all around my neck, under my arms, in my chest, and all the way down to my abdomen. In some places, my skin had opened up. I had these great big skin lesions, these gaping holes where toxins was oozing out of my skin. My lungs were constantly filled with fluid. So if I lied down, if I lied flat, I would be choking on my own fluid. I was connected to a portable Oxygen tank.
So I had the oxygen mask over my nose all the time. My body had stopped absorbing nutrition. So, um, my muscles began to deteriorate and I weighed about 83 lbs at my when I was at my lowest. So, I looked like a skeleton. [snorts] But not only that, because my body had stopped absorbing nutrition, I could no longer walk. My legs just didn't have the strength to to walk. So, I was in a wheelchair. Not only that, Even my neck didn't have the strength to hold my head up. My head was always hanging down and
it was a real strain for me to even put my head up. I was so weak and I was constantly in a state of discomfort because um I was in pain all the time from the skin lesions from being unable to breathe. I was just constantly in pain and every time I would try and sleep I would choke and wake myself up. And then one morning on February the 2nd, 2006, I didn't wake up. I was at home. Um, I was being cared for at home by a full-time nurse. And on that morning, when I
didn't wake up, my husband was frantic. He called my doctor and the doctor told him to rush me to the hospital right away. So he rushed me to the hospital and the doctors told my husband and my mother who was there. They told my family that these were my final hours, that I wasn't going to come out of the Coma because my organs had now shut down. My limbs were starting to swell up because I was now going through organ failure. My kidneys, my liver, one by one, the organs were starting to shut down. And
they said that this was the dying process and that I was not going to come out of the coma and I would not even make it through the night. Of course, my my husband Danny um he was distraught as was my mother. This was happening to me in a hospital In Hong Kong. But as my physical body lay lying there on the hospital bed, unbeknownst to everyone, I was actually aware of everything that was going on around me, everything that was going on around my body. Even though my physical body was in in a coma,
I was aware of what everybody was saying, what the what the doctors were saying to my family, what my family was saying, but I was also aware of what they were feeling Like as if I completely it was as if I merged with their feelings. I knew what they were feeling. I could feel the helplessness of the doctors and the nurses because they were rushing around and they were poking tubes into my veins, but they knew that I was dying. Um, I was aware of how distraught my mother and my husband were feeling. My husband
was sitting there, Danny, he was sitting there right by my bedside holding my hand and willing me To come back. And yet I actually felt absolutely amazing. I felt absolutely beautiful because all the pain was gone. For the first time that I can remember in four years of dealing with cancer, all of the pain was gone. All of the discomfort was gone. And I just felt really light and really free. And I wanted to communicate to my family that I'm okay, that I'm perfectly fine, I'm not in pain because they were so distraught. But I
couldn't communicate with them. It was like I had no voice. I wasn't able to speak. And yet I just felt really incredible. And I felt a feeling that I can only describe as a feeling of unconditional love. I use the words unconditional love because there aren't any words in the English language to describe what I really felt. But it Was a feeling as if I was loved just because I existed. I didn't have to do anything to prove myself. I didn't have to um uh I didn't have to be someone. I didn't have to I
didn't have to prove myself or anything. I was loved unconditionally just because I existed. And I don't remember feeling that way ever, ever in my life before. And it was just the most amazing feeling. I felt light and of course all the pain from having the fluid in my lungs, the open Skin lesions and and being unable to breathe, all the discomfort, it was all gone. I then started to become aware that I was surrounded by other beings and I started to realize that I was going through the dying process. It was like they were
there to help me through the process and they were all very they were loving loving beings. But one of those beings was my deceased father. My father had died about 10 years prior. And when I was growing up, my relationship with my father was very turbulent because um my parents are Hindu and I grew up in Hong Kong and I went to a British school. So my father and I clashed. We had a lot of cultural clashes because as I grew up, he wanted me to embrace traditional Hindu values. But I had grown up outside
of my culture. I had friends who were of all different cultures and nationalities and religions. And my parents wanted me to Have an arranged marriage. And I uh and I rebelled against this. Finally, when I I did give in and uh I was supposed to get married to somebody they had chosen about two days before the wedding. I couldn't go through with it and I ran away. And this [laughter] and this actually brought a lot of shame. It's the best thing I ever did looking back at it now because I've met the most amazing husband,
Danny, who's over there Taking photos. And by the way, while we're on the serious topic, um when whenever Wayne sees Danny, he always says, "Danny, if you and I put our heads together, we'd make an ass of ourselves. Um so so two days before the arranged marriage I ran away and um I brought a lot of shame to my family to his family and to our community because um everybody in the Indian community in the whole planet heard about what I'd done And this was this was the days before the internet. [laughter] And if anyone
here is Indian, you'll know what I mean. So my parents were told that no Indian boy would ever marry me. No parents would ever let their son marry me after what I'd done. Interestingly, when Danny asked me to marry him, he happens to be Indian. And when when he [laughter] when he told his parents he wanted to marry me, they said, "What? That's the girl Who has a mind of her own. >> [laughter] >> Are you sure you want to marry her? So anyway, so I met my father in the other realm and I had
always felt that I had disappointed him, that I had never been good enough, that I'd failed him. And he passed away before I got married. I'd failed him in the eyes of our community. um and and he passed away and So he wasn't there for my wedding. When I encountered my father in the other realm, I realized that he had been watching over me during my wedding. He had seen Danny. He had seen me get married and I was very very comforted by that. But also more importantly, all I felt from him and for him
in that realm was pure unconditional love. The guilt that I had carried, it was just gone because of the love I was Feeling from him. There was no judgment for anything that I had done in my life that could have been judged as being wrong. There was no judgment at all because in that realm I understood that whatever I had done that can be perceived wrong um it was done I understood that I had done it from my own limitations and also from the limitations of the circumstances. So even though I had often felt that
I Was a victim of my own culture, I realized in that realm that even my father had been a victim of our culture. I had no judgment for my father as well for what he had done because he was doing the best he could and the best he knew how as a Hindu father for his daughter. Because I realized in that realm when we die, not only do we leave our physical bodies behind, but with it we also leave our gender, Our culture, our race, our religion, our values, our beliefs, and all the layers and
layers that we accumulate through this lifetime. time of all our beliefs and our values. So if we leave all this behind, then what crosses over? I realized that what crosses over isn't something smaller or or reduced because of everything we've left behind. In fact, it's something far far greater. It's something huge. It's something that Cannot be labeled by all those labels. It's our pure essence. It's our pure consciousness. It's our pure light or we can call it pure God. Again, these are all labels. And labels limit who we truly are. And what crosses over is
who we truly are. And I realized that who I was, what crossed over and who we all truly are is something or someone much more powerful And much more magnificent than I had ever realized in my life. I never knew how powerful I was, how magnificent I was, how great I was. I never knew that I was an expression of God. That that which expressed itself through this physical body is an expression of God. I never knew that in physical life. Now I also encountered my best friend who had died um she had died of
cancer about two years before I had this experience and I Encountered her in the other realm and at the time she had died I wasn't with her because I was watching her dying of cancer and I found I couldn't be with her because I was dealing with my own diagnosis so I stopped stopped going to the hospital to see her even though she wanted me there. And when she died, I had felt really guilty. And she was my best friend, like a sister to me. We'd grown up together. And now here she was in the
other realm. And all she felt for me was pure unconditional love. There was no judgment for me not being there. There was no And even the guilt I had felt was just gone. What we feel in the other realm is even beyond forgiveness. Because in order to forgive someone, you have to judge them as being wrong first and then you forgive them for having hurt you. When we're in that realm, it's the state of non-duality. You realize there is nothing wrong. Everything that happened was meant to happen. It was all perfect. I realized I was
meant to run away from that marriage because the family who it happened to, they had to have it happen to them. Um because it it gave them what they needed to move on, to move to the next stage of life. Everything is so perfect when we're in that realm. It's like we're all part of the tapestry. Everything that even feels wrong, it's all perfect when We cross over. I reached a point where I had a choice of whether to come back or not. I realized if I went any further that I wouldn't be able to
turn back and come back into my body. But it was at that point that my father said to me that that I should go back because it wasn't my time. Now, no part of me wanted to come back. He actually had to convince me because it was so beautiful in that realm. And over here I was suffering. My Physical body was dying and I was suffering. Um my family was suffering taking care of me. But I realized in that state of clarity that now that I knew the truth of who I really was, if I
chose to go back, my body would heal very very rapidly. I also want to say at this point that time is very different in the in that realm because so much happened so much More than what I can what I can even describe in this short time that we have but time is so different it's not linear like the way it is the way we experience it here we experience one point of time at a time only the present moment this present moment and the next present moment and the next and we string it together
to form linear time. In that realm, it's like all of time exists at once. So, it felt like I had 360 degree peripheral vision. Um, it was not like Viewing through these physical eyes the way we view here in in physical in through our physical bodies. I didn't have physical eyes. So, I wasn't viewing like from one point um outwards. It was like I could see everything all around me because it was pure awareness. But it wasn't just the room I was in. It was all of time and all of space. And that's what I
mean. So wherever I put my awareness, there I was. So I was able to become aware of my my brother who was in India while I was dying in Hong Kong. and he was getting on a plane trying to get to see me before I actually died. I was aware that I had to stay alive, at least until he got to me. But I was also aware of other lifetimes that I had with my brother and other lifetimes that I had with my husband Danny. I was aware that Dany's and my purpose was linked and
if I died, he wouldn't be able to complete his purpose either. Um and the communication in that realm The way my father communicated with me was not with words the way we communicate here in physical because again we don't have bodies we don't have vocal cords. It was like his essence and my essence just merged and I knew everything he wanted me to know. So there was no room for miscommunication. Here in the physical, there is so much room for miscommunication. We learn language and we learn words to be able to express ourselves in order
to Be understood. But more often than not, we use our words to disguise what we're feeling and to hide behind rather than to express our truth. In that realm, there's no room for that. Everything was known. So I reached this point where I knew I could no I couldn't go any further. And it was at that point that I felt my father encouraging me to come back. He said to me that I still had gifts that I Had to go back and I had to go back and live my life fearlessly. And I could see
at that time that if I chose to go back, I could see how my life would unfold. And I could see that I was supposed to be talking to people, thousands, tens of thousands of people. But I had no idea what I was going to talk to them about. And I had no idea how it was going to happen. But I also knew that I wouldn't have to do anything to make it happen. it would just unfold by itself. And it was at that point when my father and my best friend said, "Now that you
know the truth of who you really are, go back and live your life fearlessly." That's when I started to open my eyes and come out of the coma. So I had been in the coma for about a day and a half, about 36 hours. And um as I started to open my eyes, I noticed my family were around me. My brother had come straight from the Airport, my mother was there, my husband Danny was there, of course. And they all looked relieved and they were smiling. And I started talking immediately, but I was very, very
groggy. And it was like I had one foot on this side, one foot on the other side. And I started to say things like, "Dad is here. Dad has said, "I'm going to be okay. I have to come back." And so they they didn't know if I was delirious. And they didn't know what was Going on. So they called the doctor to come and see me. Now, this, excuse me, this was the doctor that had only started tending to me after I'd gone in the coma, after I'd entered the hospital. And he had never seen
me before. I'd never seen him before that. Um, and as he walked in the room and I said, "Good afternoon, Dr. Chan." He was really surprised. He said, "How do you know my name?" And I said, 'You were the one yesterday that was putting the tubes Into my veins and you took fluid out of my lungs. And he said, he said, 'Yes, but you were in a coma. How could you possibly have seen that? And how could you recognize me? And I just said, I was? And I didn't even know I was in a coma.
I kind of just was completely confused between that realm and this. It was like it was all one. It was like I could see this realm. I could see that realm and I didn't know that for all the people here that I was in a coma. So when he left the room, I said to my husband, "Why did he look so surprised? Isn't he the one who said to you that I'm not going to make it through the night?" And that's when Danny said, "But how could you have heard that? He didn't even say that
here in the room. He said it 40 feet away down the hallway outside the door near the nurses station." And that's when they started to realize that something had happened. Over the next couple of days, I started to say,"I Don't need I don't need the oxygen mask. I don't need the food tube. I'm fine. I'm going to I I know my body will absorb food again." And the doctors were, of course, fighting me. And they were telling my family that I was still very very weak. Just because I'd come out of the coma doesn't mean
that I was out of the woods yet. But 4 days later, that's when they could really see there was a big change. The changes started to happen. In four to Five days, my tumors had shrunk by 70%. By the fifth day, I no longer needed the oxygen and I was pulling the food tube out and I wanted to sit up even though my head was hanging. Um, and I was and my skin lesions started to heal by themselves. They were still the doctors were still continuing to take tests and they were still following the cancer.
And but three weeks later, they could find no trace of cancer in my body. And during that time, It wasn't as if I knew my body was going to heal. It was that I knew my body was already healed. I knew I was already healed, but my physical body just had to catch up with me. That's what it felt like. And three weeks later, I remember three weeks after coming out of the coma, four doctors came into my hospital room and they said to my family, "We have a problem." So my family looked really worried,
as did I. And they said, "What's wrong?" And that one of the doctors said, "We can't find any trace of the cancer." So my brother said, "How is that a problem?" And they said, "If we can't find the cancer, we don't know what drugs to give her and what treatments." And and so then my family said, "Well, if you can't find the cancer, then don't give her anything." and they said, "No, we can't do that because it's impossible for cancer to disappear like that. But Don't worry, we're going to keep looking till we find it."
But after five weeks, they still couldn't find the cancer. And by then, I had picked up enough strength to start walking. and I'd started walking and I was I started eating and I was strong enough for them to release me from the hospital to go home and live my life cancer free. Thank you. [applause] Thank you. Um and I'd like to share with you a few photos from part of my journey. if we have the photos queued up, I'd love to share them with you. And that's the photos of my parents. Now, what I wanted
to say though is I didn't have any photos taken of me when I was at my worst. When I was in the wheelchair, when I had when I was connected to the oxygen tank and all, I refused to let anybody see me. I wouldn't see anyone. I wouldn't let anyone see me. And of Course, I refused to have photos taken and also when I was in the hospital. So, what you'll see is something pretty close, but not quite there. So, that's my parents when they first got married. And that's my father who I met in
the other realm. And this is my best friend. She's the one on that side on my left, your right, and I'm on the right. That's my husband Danny and I when we first got married back when he had hair. He says he lost all his hair after being married to me. [laughter] That was when I first started to get sick. I was always near my bed because whenever I would walk, I I would get out of breath very very quickly because my lungs were always filled with fluid. And that's me even weaker. That's about the
worst point at which I would appear on photos. After that, I refused to let people take photos of me. That's me with my dog. I used to hate Being in the hospital because I would miss my dog so much that even though I used to go to the hospital for treatment, I'd always want to go back home after treatment. I never I never liked staying in the hospitals. I wanted to share with you my medical report. So, this was on February the 2nd, the day I went into the coma. And you'll be you can see
over here is the list of where they found all the tumors. And you can see it says in the in the Neck in the axilla which is under the arms um in the in the lungs in the chest the fluid in the lungs the plur plural fluid and so on. That's all the findings. That's on the 2nd of February. That one is dated the 27th of February. That was the day they came into our hospital room to say we have a problem because this says there is no evidence of lymphoma um in my body. So
So if I have a few more minutes I just Wanted to share some of the lessons I learned. >> 10 minutes. Okay. So what happened is that when I when when I was released from the hospital to go back home, that's when the real work began because now I had to live a life that I didn't know how to live anymore. I had been someone with cancer for the last four years. And the person I was before I got the cancer versus the person I was now That I went home after this experience was a
completely different person because the things I learned in the other realm were things that I had never learned in physical life while growing up. And so many of the things I learned contradicted what I had been brought up to believe. In fact, so many of the things I learned were the opposite of what I had been brought up to believe. And I I realized that the reason why I had always created a life That I didn't want was because everything I learned was the opposite of what I really needed to know to make life work.
It's very hard to explain what it felt like in the other realm. So because there aren't any words in the English language. So I like to use metaphors and one metaphor I use is that of the warehouse. So I want you to imagine this with me. If you imagine that you're in a dark warehouse, pitch black. It's just Pitch black. There's no light. And all you have is one little flashlight. And you have this little flashlight to navigate your way through this warehouse. So the only thing you can see is what the little beam of
your flashlight is shining on. So as you walk and make your way through the warehouse, you illuminate your path. And that's all you can see is what the beam is shining on. Then as you shine it up on the wall here or there, you can just see those Little areas that you're shining your flashlight on. Now, imagine one day that the lights go on. And when the lights go on, that's when you realize that you're in this huge warehouse. I mean, it's humongous, huge. It's so huge, you can't even see the ends, but it's lined
with these shelves, like rows and rows of floor toseeiling shelves, like bookshelves. And on these shelves are all kinds of things. Some of the things are really Beautiful and some are horrendous and some are colorful and some are not so colorful. Some of the things on the shelves are boring. Some are scary. Some are of colors you've never seen before. Um, some of them are loud and garish and some of them are just frightening looking and some are ugly. So there are all these things lined up on the shelves side by side existing simultaneously. But
you haven't seen most of those things. You've only seen the few that Your flashlight shone on. You had no idea that all of these things existed simultaneously. 95% of those things you had no idea they even existed. But now here they were existing side by side along the things that you knew existed. So now if the lights go back off and you're back to one flashlight and if your flashlight is shining on something and even if that thing is the only thing you can see in that moment, You know that it's not the only thing
that exists. You know that so much more exists than what your flashlight is shining on because you've seen the warehouse. This is what it feels like. It feels like that our awareness is only focused on one thing at a time. The flashlight is an analogy for our awareness. Our awareness can only focus on one thing at a time. And we think that one thing is reality, but it's only your Reality. Someone else's flashlight is focused on something else, and someone else is on something else, and that's their reality. But in actuality, all these realities exist
simultaneously. And realities exist right under your very nose, which you're not even aware of. Let me try a little experiment with you. I want you to look around the room and find everything in the room that's any shade of red, red, orange, red, Orange, pink, any shade of red, red to orange, red to pink, and commit it to your memory. Look around, including people's clothes. Find as many as possible. Commit it to your memory because I'm going to test you on it. Okay. Now I want you to face the front. Turn [snorts] around. Face the
front. No cheating. Close your eyes. Close your eyes. No cheating. Now I want you to recollect as many Things in the room that were blue as you can. Can you think of anything? No. Very few. So, open your eyes and look around and see all the things that you missed that were blue. The blue and the red exist simultaneously, but your flashlight was focused on the red, so you didn't even see the blue. That's what happens with us. You know, have you noticed that when you buy a new Car, that's when you notice that a
lot of people are driving the same car. They were there all the time, but you didn't see them before. Now, think about this. Think about how much awareness we put into cancer. Think about all the ad campaigns. Think about how much money we put into cancer awareness. How many campaigns we have. Um, how many ads there are, billboards, ads, everything just on cancer awareness. Now, I want you to think About this. What if we put that same amount of effort, that same amount of awareness, the same amount of money, the same amount of campaigns on
well-being instead. What a different reality we'd have. [applause] Thank you. >> [applause] >> Most people most people and especially most people in the medical field don't even know what wellness really is because we've all been really focused on Finding that cancer. Most people don't know that wellness means joy. It means love. It means it means being able to love people. It means allowing yourself to be loved. It means finding your joy in life, doing what makes you happy, having meaning in life, as well as physical wellness. Most people don't actually know that. Now, let me
tell you the biggest thing that saved my life when I was in that realm. I told you that I knew that I was going to be well when I came back. I knew I was going to be healed because in that realm, I understood how I got the cancer. I understood how every thought, every decision, and every choice that I had made in my life had led me up to that point. Lying in that hospital bed, I understood that I had never ever loved myself. I had always forsaken myself. I had always treated myself like
a doormat. I'd always allowed other people To treat me like a doormat. We only allow other people to treat us the way we treat ourselves, by the way. Um, and I had never known how important it was to love myself. I had always thought it was selfish to love myself. But in that realm I realize that if I am an expression of God, if I if I'm an expression of universal energy, of source, whatever we want to call it, how can I not love myself? Because not loving myself means not loving the God Force energy
that expresses itself through me. I understood that I had to love myself like my life depends on it. And that was the most important thing that I could do for myself and for everyone around me. And that was the lesson that saved my life. And I realized that that what had been driving my life was fear. Because our lives are only driven by either love or fear. You can't focus On both because remember the flashlight, you either see the green or you see the red. So you see the blue or the red. So if your
flashlight is focused on fear, my flashlight was focused on fear. Every decision I made was made from fear, not from love. I was obsessive about eating healthy food, but I was obsessive because I was afraid of cancer. It wasn't because I loved myself that I ate healthy food. So I every choice I made I made because I was afraid of the Consequences not because I loved myself. After I came out of the coma I realized that I had to make every choice out of love and not fear. I had to make every choice because I
wanted to make that choice because I loved myself and because it made me it made me feel joyful. And so every choice I made I made out of love. And on that note, I invite you all to live your life fearlessly. And if that doesn't work, eat chocolate Because that always works. Thank you. [applause] Thank you. I need a more [applause] beautiful God. Beautiful. [applause] Yeah. [applause] Oh my goodness. That was so beautiful, Anita. Thank you. Thank you. I won't need it. Yeah. Oh, you can move that if you like. Yeah. Um, [clears throat] as
I was listening to Anita, and I've listened to her many times. I went looking for her, found her, put her on my public television uh show, decided that I was going to uh [clears throat] not only publish her book, but uh write the forward to it and bring her with me and do seminars around the world because I think her message is so powerful. She was um she was in a stage of cancer. She [clears throat] doesn't go into detail. Tomorrow we're going to dialogue together and and have You ask some questions as well in
the afternoon before I do the uh summary of what your life is going to look like when you become a person of light. When you stop [clears throat and cough] when you stop the journey to God and begin the journey in God where you recognize that who you are is God. In fact, on one of the [clears throat] one of the interviews, I don't know if it was on TV or one of the things that we were doing, she said, "Uh, do you Think it would be all right? Do you think it would be okay
if uh if they asked me about God if I said that uh that we all are God? Do you think that would be a problem that people would be offended by that?" I said, "Well, there'd be a lot of them who will be offended by that." Um, I know when I wrote wishes fulfilled and I was out there lecturing about it and some of the [clears throat] people who were raised on pretty faright straightforward uh I don't I like to call them Christian values but values that people believe were Christian values, the values of Christ.
Um, and when I would tell people that they were God, that God is within each and every one of us and we are God, and I would say that [clears throat and snorts] they would just get all upset with me because there's this belief system somehow that God is this uh This image that we've created of ourselves. We create a god in our own image, the image of our ego, a god that we are to fear, a god that is angry, a god that's going to uh [clears throat] take revenge on you if you don't
uh do things the way that uh you're supposed to, if you don't pay the indulgences or if you don't do it through some organization who all will will take the place of uh making conscious contact with God for you because somehow they've Got more access or they know more about it. Um and we live with that. And then what I would say, well, because I went through very carefully. I read the entire New Testament before I wrote wishes fulfilled and um went through and picked out all the places where where Jesus says out in his
own words um that we are God. Is it not written that we are all gods? They say Wonder Woman [clears throat] said to me, "Well, he didn't really mean it that way." I said, "But it says right here it says,"I have said you are gods." you know, well, he didn't really mean you are gods. And when I was talking with Oprah about this and she got all upset about this, I said, she said, 'You just can't tell people that they are God. You can't just go around saying that. It's going to be people are going
to have trouble with that. I said, "Well, then substitute the word God for love." Because that's what Jesus said. God is love and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in me and I in him. So use that as a metaphor rather than some being that we've created that was out there. Some really fantastic being who was able to create that universe that we saw early this morning uh with those trillions and trillions of uh of uh heavenly bodies that are out there and all the galaxies and so on that God is an infinite consciousness and
uh and you are a part of it. And I Was thinking about what she was saying when I think about my own experience with cancer because when I was diagnosed with leukemia, um I just I even said to the to the doctor, I I don't do leukemia. I don't do cancer. I I teach people how to overcome it, but I don't do that. Um and there was um the moment when I began to realize that there is a uh what what what Anita was saying about fear in the course in Miracles it says there's only
two ways to experience anything in life. It's either through fear or love and everything that is fear cannot be love and everything that is love cannot be fear. So you are in either one or the other and the ego is filled with fear and your infinite consciousness is nothing but love and staying in that state of love. So um I had an amazing uh experience of of of healing of just that um You know was done through someone down in uh down in Brazil who handed this to me and told me when I was healed.
His name is John of God. Um, when I talked with Oprah about it for two hours on her show, she was so intrigued by it that she flew down there like a week later with her own plane and had an amazing experience down there herself and now talks about it from a place of almost being a devote. This crystal necklace Was handed to me um by John of God and I carry it with me and and only uh only wear it when I speak when I'm in a place of teaching because um I I had
[clears throat] a friend who's a medical doctor. She's an eye surgeon. Her name is Raina Piscova. And she found out because the word got out in America that I had this leukemia and it was on all the television stations and all of that that uh and a lot of them with derision because how Could someone who talks about being positive absolut have something like this as if I had said that uh if you if you read my books and and listen to what I have to say you know you're going to just uh never have
anything ever go wrong in your life. It's not about that at all. It's about understanding that it's not what happens to us in our world. It's h how how we decide to process what happens to us that makes all the difference in the world. [clears throat and cough] And um this woman uh asked me if I would go down to Aagana with her uh to uh experience the entities that uh do this healing. Now all over the all over the earth there have been many people that we call them faith healers and there's a lot
of uh duplicity uh involved in it. You have to be very careful about all of it. But um this this experience that I had uh with John of God is the is the real deal. Um he has treated over he's been here in Australia and there have been stories written and there are always stories about people that uh you know looking for all the negative side of it and so on. But when Rea got when I committed to going down there, but I was in the process of writing wishes fulfilled and um she said um
I want you to go. It's very very important. You're a very important person. I don't want you to I don't want You to die. Uh you have so much more to teach. And I said, "Well, I've got a writing. I've got deadlines and I had all of these things that I and uh I just backed out at the last minute." But I knew about John of God. And so she flew down there anyway. And she had had an amazing healing a while back herself um and was going down there for the second time. And when
she got down there, she um she called me from there. She was a bit Angry with me for not going but uh she said I still um want you to experience the healing um and I want you to experience the entities because John of gone always says I do not do any healing he goes into a trance a coma and when he does goes into this trance if any of you if you want to again you can Google this you can look it up you can see the film of it it's all on the internet
it's all over the place just uh John of God from Aba uh Brazil and you'll see it as Oprah did before she went down there [clears throat] and um he goes into this comike and these uh entities enter into his body and he has no memory of anything that he ever does and he does surgery without any any anesthesia and without even cleaning the instruments and so on uses kitchen knives and crazy things probes and um it's it's it's almost beyond anything that you can ever recognize or realize. Uh it's a Different kind of uh
a different kind of a world down there in Brazil, especially in that in that community. And when [clears throat] she got down there, um she said that she had talked to uh John of God when he was in the in the with the entities and they said that they would be willing to do a remote healing on you if you would do the following things. If you would uh take the supplements or the herbs, if you would drink the blessed Water for three or four days before, and if you would uh wear white and on
the appointed night for the surgery, if you would uh just invite the entities in and um and then wake up uh the next morning and for the next uh seven days um stay in bed. And then um the following week, 7 days later, there will be a uh a removal of the sutures. And in the process of removing the sutures, um you will experience the healing. Now, I have [clears throat] to admit I was this was five years ago. Now, I was I was indeed very skeptical. I'm not any longer because I've had the entities
already come back again into my life in Montreal just about a month ago, about uh six months ago now, uh in Montreal, Canada, and gave me evidence that they were still with me and accompanying me and helping me not only with my own healing, but with helping to heal others as well. Um because when you begin to shift your energy to a higher place, um Dr. Valerie Hunt writes it this way in her book, Infinite Wisdom. But I do not believe that man can perceive his god-like qualities until his field reaches higher and higher vibrations
and attains a greater degree of coherency. No matter how hard we try to receive spiritual guidance, we cannot until our fields are attuned to that vibrational system. It's as you begin to banish the doubt, do What Sage did with the healing of these things that had been on her face for three years and she'd do it in three days. Um as you begin to banish the doubt and come from a place of uh of absolute knowing that um what happens is that you begin to everything is vibration in this universe and you begin to vibrate
at a different speed and as you get into a higher and higher speeds that's why the repetition of the sound of the name of God like in the Meditation in the ishaka we did this morning and we'll do again tomorrow. Um when you begin to see this and and do this it uh it raises the frequency at which you vibrate and as it as it does that you send out a different kind of an energy and as you send out this energy it's sort of like the energy that St. Francis speaks about in in in
his famous prayer Lord make me an instrument of thy peace. He doesn't say um Lord I don't have any peace please bring me some Peace. He said, "Make me an instrument of thy peace. Where there is hatred, let me being love. Where there is darkness, let me bring light." In other words, that you take the darkness and instead of trying to abolish it or remove it from your life, you convert it through this process of uh of transformation. And in in this process, light darkness turns to light, hatred turns to love. I've given many lectures.
I've given [clears throat] lectures in a Cisi with St. with St. Francis. I've had actually seen St. Francis in a healing. I've there's a film that I've done called Ambition to Meaning here in in Australia. It's called The Shift in America. Uh same film. Um and I had a momentary experience of uh being about to collapse with someone on the back of my uh on my shoulders who was uh injured. Um, and St. [clears throat] Francis appeared in just 5 seconds to me. Just went like This. And this knee that was about to be I
I had had MRIs done on it. It was going to be replaced um was healed in that moment. And I carried this man up three stairs to where the poor Claire's were in Sandamiano in Italy. It all happened in a moment. And I want to tell you about what that moment and what that moment is like before we close out for the for the uh for the day. Um it's it's shifting the awareness and having this absolute knowing within that uh I am an I am a piece of infinite consciousness and there is absolutely nothing
that has ever happened or ever will happen that I'm not capable of because who I am is that there's no place that I am not. [clears throat] So I I still had a great deal of skepticism four or five years ago about this treatment. I had been diagnosed with leukemia. Some of the effects were starting to show. I was get getting the night sweats. I was getting the bruising in my body. Uh I my energy Was low. I had to quit doing yoga. Um I had to slow down. I I used to run every day.
I couldn't run uh anymore. I could barely walk. Uh I was getting weaker. Um, my kids noticed it. I noticed it. I saw deterioration taking place today. This morning, I was up at uh4 to 5. I already meditated for an hour. I've run ran for a half an hour this morning. Um, I did a coffee in if you want to join me for coffee. I did a little coffee in the morning. Um, [clears throat] and when this is over, I'm going with Cal who's taken me over to a place because they don't have a pool
at the hotel I'm staying at. that I'm going to go do an hour swim. Um, and I [clears throat] have more energy than I've than I can ever remember ever having had in my life. Um, it's um, and it all took place back there with this experience with John of God through those entities back on April the 21st. Um, on my 70 just before my 71st birthday. I remember it because it was my mother's birthday. She was 95 uh, at that on that day. So, um, I I played along with Raina. Remember, she she's a
medical doctor, an eye surgeon, and I said, "All right, I'll do it." And she was so determined. She had such a burning desire. This burning desire thing is really important. I mean, when uh when you read Think and Grow Rich, Napoleon Hill, he speaks about the difference between people who live an enriched life and people who don't. He said the only thing that distinguishes this group from this group, highly functioning people from ordinary people, is that these people have a burning desire to do something and they are willing and determined and fearlessly applying it in
their life. They don't listen to anybody else tell them what can or can't be done. So I've believed What Topus said back in the 10th century. Have a mind that's open to everything and attached to nothing. attached nowhere. But I still had a healthy degree of skepticism. I've read stories about fa fake ta faith healers um places in the Philippines where you see people and they pull things out of their bodies and it's really it's all the whole thing is a roose. But there is something called real Magic. I talked with Michael about that for
three hours one day at the top of a mountain uh about real magic and I exper experienced it that day. And what happened is um she arranged to have the uh [clears throat] the herb sent to me. And any of you can do this by the way. You can sign up if anybody you want to. Uh it just depends on whether you have whether you banished the doubt or not. And she sent me the herbs. She had them FedEx to me from uh from Brazil. [clears throat] Seven hour time difference. She had them sent to
Maui. She uh FedExed me the uh blessed water, a gallon of blessed water blessed by the entities which I drank. Sent me a picture of I I had to send pictures down of uh myself from the front, from the back, from the side, and from the side. I did all of those things. When they got down there, they Uh looked at the pictures and they said, "No, we can't do the surgery. He is not taking the uh supplements." They hadn't arrived yet. So she had to wait three more days when they arrived and I had
them in my body for three days. They took the same pictures again, front, side, side, back and uh it was approved that I would be ready for the remote healing. [clears throat] I went to uh I got the water. I got all Dressed in white uh the appointed time. Went to sleep that night. There's a seven-hour time difference between Chile and there. And um the truth of it is I went to sleep that night, woke up the next morning, and she called me and asked me, "How did it go? How did I feel?" And I
said, "I felt nothing." Um she said, "Um well, it's no different than as if you'd had a uh had your spleen removed." She said, "You must treat this seriously. you got to get Back into bed and you have to stay in bed for the next week and then you will have what's called the removal of the sutures. And I'm thinking sutures like I have leukemia of the blood. That's a lot of sutures. Putting little sutures and that's just a term that they use for um when the entities uh and you've actually I've actually seen photographs
of these entities and I've seen in person I've been with John And God in person four or five months later up in upstate New York at the Omega Institute in Reinbeck, New York. I walked in front of John of God, not having him know who I was, that I was separate or different than anybody else. And he looked at me and said in Portuguese, "You are healed." And had me sit there and I we were all dressed in white. This was several months following it. But anyway, I went to uh I went to sleep and
I said, "Raina Called me from uh from [clears throat] Brazil. She said, "I want you to stay in bed." I said, "Okay, Raina. Yeah, I'll stay in bed." But I had just slept eight hours and I wasn't staying in bed. And I got up and I went downstairs and I my son Sans and my daughter Serena were there at the time and I went outside and went for I said I'm going to just go for a run because I've you know or just a walk and um I got about a hundred yards from my uh
my Home and I collapsed and I couldn't get up and my son daughter helped me and I was just so weak. I just could not believe how weak I was. And um I uh went back upstairs and I got into bed and all I had was just a little bit of broth for the next week. Um [clears throat] I was very very weak. Um so I was starting to become a believer that something was going on here. And then um It was time for the uh removal of this the healing this the the removal of
the sutures now where the entities literally come in and go into your body and these entities work from a spiritual dimension. They could walk into this room of a thousand people and heal every single disease that exists in this room in one instant second one just instantaneous like that because they don't work in the physical domain. They work in a place where there is no time There is no space. There are no boundaries. There are no beginnings. There are no ends. It's an endless universe. And these are healing elements. I know there's skepticism. I can
feel it in the room. But that's okay. Just just allow yourself to, you know, to have a mind that is open to everything and just not attached. Just don't stay attached. It's not what you know know. It's what you know for sure that just ain't so. There are many times As I'm telling the story, I like to read this little poem because u it helps you to realize that sometimes you think you really know what's going on and [clears throat] what you have hung on to isn't isn't applicable at all. A woman was waiting at
an airport one night several long hours before her flight. She hunted for a book in the airport shops and bought a bag of cookies. Found a place to drop. She was engrossed in Her book, but happened to see that the man beside her, as bold as could be, grabbed a cookie uh or two from the bag in between, which she tried to avoid to avoid a scene. [clears throat] So, she munched cookie. She So, she munched the cookies and watched the clock as this gutsy cookie thief diminished her stop. She was getting more irritated as
a minute stick by, thinking, "If I wasn't so nice, I'd blacken his eye." With each cookie she Took, he took one, too. And when only one was left, she wondered what he do. And with a smile on his face and a nervous laugh, he took the last cookie and broke it in half. He offered her half as he ate the other. And she snatched it from him and thought, "Oh, brother, this guy has some nerve and he's also rude." Well, he didn't even show any gratitude. She had never known when she had been so gented
for relief when her flight was called. She gathered her belongings and headed to the gate, refusing to look back at the thieving ingrate. She boarded the plane, sank in her seat. Then she saw her book, which was almost complete. As she reached in her baggage, she gasped with surprise. There was her bag of cookies in front of her eyes. If mine are here, she moaned with despair, then the others were his. Then he tried to share. Too late to apologize, she realized with grief that she was the rude one, the ingrate, the thief. Be careful
about being a cookie thief and having a knowing. It's not what you don't know, it's what you know for sure that just ain't so. And I knew for sure for many years of my life that what I'm describing to you just wasn't possible. And I remember when Oprah did the show on this and they sent a Harvard trained surgeon down there to witness what was Taking place and his report back on film said in all my years of training I have nothing inside of me to explain what is taking place here. He came down there
with such doubt and while he was walking and describing to the people who were filming the show, he started bleeding from underneath his heart and they couldn't stop the bleeding. It just no matter what they did, no matter what they put on it and he was just so shocked that beneath his heart was this Uh bleeding that was taking place and he said, "I don't I don't have a bleeding disorder and I and I don't have thin blood and I don't have I do not understand why why is this taking place? Why all of a
sudden am I bleeding?" And the woman that was walking with him said, "Oh, that that's how the entities work sometimes when it was really important to understand this message." He is opening up your heart right now by letting you know that what is taking Place actually is taking place and they're showing it with you. He was just and he by the way today is one of the great devotees uh and travels all over the world talking about the ability of some of us. I have a book here that I brought with me called Man of
Light, the story of Mauricio Panaceet, who had lights coming out from bottom. I've there's stories in here. I may share them with you tomorrow. But amazing stories of this man who uh I experienced With my wife saw the light just come out of him. He has a cross embedded into his chest from uh this energy. It's um so it was the night of the sutures removal and now I'm a believer because I was swimming at that time and [clears throat] the ocean I'm about maybe 100 200 meters or so from the ocean but I couldn't
even imagine getting to the ocean. I was so weak. I couldn't even imagine walking to the ocean, letting getting in the ocean and Swimming the way that I was feeling after the week of the surgery. And I awoke the next that morning after the removal of the sutures at 8:00 in the morning and I had a watch, a real beautiful watch that my kids had persuaded me to get, a very expensive watch. It was an atomic watch that never gains or loses a second. And during the night of the removal of the sutures, this watch
exploded. It just broke. And uh I took it back to the jeweler. They Said they had never seen such a thing. They gave me another one, replaced it. Very expensive watch. That one broke as well in that room. The uh the energy in that room that night when [clears throat] I came out, my son and my daughter were in the kitchen and I walked out and they said, "Dad, what happened? Did anything happen?" I said, "I can't believe how beautiful you are." I said this to my son and I put my arms around. He said,
'W whoa, what's going On with you? Are you having problem? He said, ' Dad, it looks like it looks like someone went into your eye and scraped your eye. It's all bright red, your right eye, it's just all scraped. I said, I have no idea. I said, but the ocean the ocean looks like a a bowl of love soup. The trees are illuminated in a way that I had never seen before. Um my daughter Serena was there and I hadn't eaten of course in a week or so and uh I was just Wearing a pair
of shorts and they fell down. That's so gross. You don't have any clothes on. He's on I said just give daddy a hug. I mean I just love you so much. It's like what they had done what I realized what the entities did is they didn't put sutures on every little piece of cancer that was going throughout my body. What they did is they removed the fear. Fear was gone. You know the word leukemia, if someone tells you you've been diagnosed with leukemia, it's loaded with fear. Anita and I will be talking about this tomorrow
uh when we dialogue up here together. It's the word cancer is just so loaded with this thing called fear. And we can't be we can't go to our original place. Who we are because who we are is just pure infinite Consciousness or unconditional divine love. That's who we are. That's our original nature. It's not just my me saying that. It's all of the great spiritual texts including vasista and and uh the impersonal life and so many of the things I've been speaking about here today. It's all just a a a st a space of pure
love. And um from that moment on [clears throat] I began to live from a place of divine love. And this place of divine love is a very different than any other kind of place that I've ever been. What um that was April the 28th. It was 7 days after my mother's 95th birthday. Um she passed away the following year. I was uh filming the movie about my experience with my father at the grave site called My Greatest Teacher. Um I was in San Francisco at the St. Francis Hotel and my birthday is May the 10th
and so [clears throat] it was now 12 13 days since I'd had this and I had noticed that everything in my life was changing. I woke up my birthday about six o'clock in the morning and I went downstairs to the St. Francis hotel um to the lobby and I took I had I took $2,000. I wrote a check for $2,000 out and I got $2,000 in $50 bills and I went out to Union Square where it's loaded just with homeless people um who are looking in garbage cans taking Pieces of plastic back so they can
get enough or people who are selling their blood uh in order to to feed themselves and so on. a lot of destitute, homeless, deeply sad people. And I spent that entire day until about five o'clock in the evening just walking around embracing homeless people. I remember when I was in the room with Mother Teresa, her saying that every day, every day I see Jesus Christ In all of his distressing disguises. that I see the unfolding of God, of Christ consciousness, of infinite consciousness, of pure love wherever I go in everything that I see. I don't
see appearances. I see beyond the appearances. I knew what she meant that day. I embraced people who hadn't probably had a bath in years. Um, I talked to them about their life and is there anything that I could do to maybe have lunch with you? And I always Put at least $50, some to $100 into their into their pocket and uh told them that uh how loved they were and how beautiful they were. I wasn't preaching. I was just living from a place of divine love, a place of love where there's that never varies, a
place that a place that never changes. And that was u well I'm now 75. So that was four years ago this past May. And that's the place that I live for from and strive for. I've stopped I've Stopped my path to God and I'm now living in God. It is everything I see and everyone that I see I have no judgment or criticism toward. And what has taken place with what I spoke about earlier with this being, you know, drinking these uh organic juices and changing my diet around it didn't come around because I made
a conscious decision. All right, now I'm going to I'm going to live this healthy life and so on. When you start To elevate yourself and live in God, what happens is God begins to see you and you become become like God. And when you are like God, you are able to do anything and whatever it is that you need begins to show up. It's called synchronicity. A term coined by I was trained to be a Yungian an analyst at one time. Deepak Choper and I were on stage one time at the Palladium in London about
15 years ago or more and we started dialoguing About how do you manifest something in your life and Deepo said well Wayne there are four ways to manifest something let's take something like strawberry ice cream and we began this dialogue on what are the four ways to manifest strawberry ice cream and they go from a lower level of consciousness into God consciousness. The lowest level, the lowest way to manifest strawberry ice cream is to have A thought. Um, gee, I'd really like to have some strawberry ice cream. And then you get up, you take that
thought, you get up and you go for a walk, you get on your bicycle, you get into your car, and you drive to the store, whatever, and you purchase the strawberry ice cream and come home and you're eating your strawberry ice cream. It's pretty powerful thing to do because it's just a thought and this thought is just something that shows up in your Consciousness and you attach yourself to it and act on it. The second higher level of consciousness way of reaching and having some strawberry ice cream is to have a thought, gee, I'd really
like to have some strawberry ice cream. And you sit there and you tell one of your kids to go get you some strawberry ice cream. Well, look, go to the store. would you get me? Would you give me some strawberry ice cream? And you just have To sit here and 30 minutes later they come in and say, "Oh, oh, Dad, here's the strawberry ice cream that you wanted." And you say, "Wow, this is great. I'm moving up." A third way to have strawberry ice cream is a way that you've all had it at one time
or another, which is to have a have the same thought. Gee, I'd really like to have some strawberry ice cream. And someone walks by, a stranger, and says, "Excuse me, is this your strawberry ice cream?" And when that happens, you go, "Booga, booga. What's going on?" You call everyone that you know. I was just thinking about strawberry ice cream. I was just thinking about it. And then this person just walked by. I was just having the thought. And sure enough, there it was. That's the third way to get strawberry ice cream. And you've all had
this these Kind of experiences where you think someone you put your attention on someone's on their on on your sister who you haven't talked to who lives in another country and all of a sudden she picks up the phone and calls you while you were thinking of her. This goes on and on. It's a universal experience. If I ask for a show of hands, everyone in the room has had these kinds of experiences where you have a thought and then something in the universe acts and Usually you say, "Oh, it was just a coincidence." But
the word coincidence is a mathematical term that comes from coincide. A mathematical geometric term. Two angles that that fit [clears throat] together perfectly are said to be two angles that coincide. So, we've taken a term that means something that fits together perfectly and interpreted it to mean something that shows up accidentally, coincidence. Oh, it's just a coincidence. When in fact, coincidence Means that it's all showing and fitting together perfectly. And the fourth way to get strawberry ice cream is a way that they talk a lot about in the in the life and teachings of the
masters of the Far East, and that is to have a thought. I'd really like to have some strawberry ice cream. And you manifest it from your infinite consciousness where all things show up From the world of the invisible, from the world of the formless into the world of the form, just like you did, like we all did. It's the gift of fish and loaves. It's being able to take two loaves of bread and five fish and feed the masses through consciousness. I've watched divine [clears throat] avatars, spiritual masters in front of me, manifest vote and
hand it to me. I was given a a sack Full of vabbout that I had people take for years and years in my home. And every time they would take it, it would just be replaced. It just never went empty. I still have it in my apartment on Maui. So this intelligence sky, this intelligence isn't something that's individual. This consciousness isn't local. It's a world of non-duality. It's a world in which you begin to see that it isn't just for me. That I didn't get my leukemia out of my body. Anita didn't get cancer out
of her body because she's special. Because she's u better than anyone else. It was her dharma. It was what her purpose in life is and how it was fulfilled. It's in every one of us. It's in every single one of us to have this connection. And tomorrow I'll be talking to you about not only the rest of these Posters, but what kinds of changes that you'll see taking place within you when you become a person of light. It's in every one of us. It's in every one of us.