chris i apologize to you my behavior was unacceptable and i'm here whenever you're ready to talk i can say to all of you there is no part of me that thinks that was the right way to behave in that moment i am deeply remorseful and i'm trying to be remorseful without being ashamed of myself i made a mistake and i'm trying not to think of myself as a piece of but i promise you i am deeply devoted and committed to putting light and love and joy into the world