Life has a funny way of unraveling the best laid plans which is why I don't even bother with them anymore there was a time back before my divorce when I was all about planning at work I'd anticipate every possible scenario always prepared with a backup for when things didn't go as expected then today I got a call my ex-wife Betsy was in the hospital and my daughter insisted that I come I hadn't seen Betsy in over a year And wasn't eager to change that but when my daughter Lisa asks me for something it's tough to
refuse so I got in the car and made the nearly hourlong drive through the snarl of traffic to Allentown General Hospital where Lisa had taken her mother parking I hope this visit would be quick at the information desk I learned Betsy had been admitted 2 days earlier a nurse guided me to her room mentioning that Betsy was still asleep what's wrong with her I asked the Nurse started your wife I cut in grinning ex-wife very ex-wife she chuckled but then her expression turned serious Dad please tell me you're not flirting with the nurse while Mom's
in the hospital Lisa said from behind me of course not Lisa I replied with a smirk if I were I'd at least have asked her name the nurse gave a soft laugh Bonnie she said o that suits you I commented catching Lisa's eye as she rolled her eyes and nudged me Toward the room breaking the moment inside the the room was Grim with four beds that only added to the sterile depressing atmosphere wow this place could use a decorator I muttered Lisa aside she's here because she doesn't have health insurance bad Evan and I tried
to add her to our plan but he couldn't swing it and the only other person who could she trailed off her meaning hanging in the air Lisa honey i' do almost anything for you but you have To understand your mom and I are divorced I followed the judge's orders to the letter and did what was necessary but I don't owe her more than that Lisa's voice softened as she looked down at her mother lying there she never wanted a divorce you know she still loves you Dad even now I scoffed my tone harsh wanting something
doesn't make it right your mom and I are over because of choices she made I know what happened Dad I was there but sometimes it feels Like you two still belong together she loves you so much look at her she's withering away some folks don't age gracefully I replied coldly maybe she just needs to take better care of herself she needs love and support that's why she's wasting away Lisa shop back hurt flashing in her eyes is that so much to ask for I sighed frustrated Lisa I loved her once enough to put my pride
aside and try to fix things even after everything that happened but I Couldn't keep doing it forever some some men can handle that but I'm not one of them Lisa shook her head maybe some women love more than one person and sometimes it works but not for you right she paused looking down I just don't get it you're not the type to walk away from something some things are better left behind Lisa when the marriage was over I split everything except the house her lawyer combed through all of our finances then why she said her
tone Suddenly suspicious are you driving a customized Mustang Evan thinks it cost 50 Grand and meanwhile mom's struggling just to get by maybe I've got better credit I answered Turley shrugging look I'll sit with her while she's out so you can get a break you could probably use one Lisa side relenting a bit thanks Dad she might not even wake up they've had her on medication and they're still unsure if she took too much by accident or on purpose she's been slipping dad Drinking more not eating properly exhausted and dehydrated good chance she'll stay asleep
then I said trying to lighten things a bit Lisa didn't seem amused Dad if she does wake up please just be kind for my sake all right Lisa I agreed quietly she leaned down kissed my cheek and left I settled into the chair beside Betsy's bed and pulled out my iPad intending to read but my mind wandered 2 years had passed since this All Began but somehow it still felt raw Thinking back I remembered the way I'd do anything for Lisa when she was young she used to concoct these strange mixes of candy and I
pretend to love every single one smiling and telling her how great they were one evening Lisa invited us over for dinner it was nice though she still hadn't mastered cooking the roast was tough and dry but Evan kept my drink topped off probably sensing I'd needed to get through the meal thankfully I don't drink much or I'd Have been stumbling out of there still I enjoyed the time with my family I spent some of it with Lisa's little boy Martin who was named after me he was adorable and in my eyes he could do no
wrong the highlight of the evening though was when Lisa and Evan announced she was pregnant again Evan what are you doing to my daughter I joked burning a chuckle from the table we moved on to the usual discussions about baby names Lisa mentioned they lik the name Emma if it Was a girl after Evan's M I suggested the name Thomas for a boy after Evan's dad and he seemed to like that idea but then Betsy chined in taking things in a different direction you've already got a grandkid named after you she said her tone sharper
than necessary maybe it's time to let someone else decide I grinned oh yeah let me guess Betsy for a girl Benjamin for a boy well actually I was thinking about Michael she said we could could call him Mike the mood Shifted Lisa looked at me her expression unreadable I'm not sure about that she said I think I like dad's suggestion better don't you Evan Evan was still caught up in the moment picturing his dad's reaction to a grandson named after him he just nodded Betsy reached for my hand but I pulled back instinctively Lisa hadn't
noticed my reaction so Dad she asked her tone was icy what do you think I kept my voice as Steady as I could I think naming him that would be as big a mistake as what your mother just suggested you know those moments you see in movies where everyone's having a good time and suddenly someone says something so off that the whole room goes silent that's exactly what happened it felt like an eternity though it was probably just a few seconds then Evan broke the silence looking down at his watch well I really should get
to bed early meeting tomorrow Thanks for the evening I stood up patting him on the shoulder thanks Evan love you Lisa I headed for the door hoping to make a quick exit but Lisa's voice stopped me dad what is wrong with you she demanded her frustration spilling over aren't you forgetting something I Shrugged come over here and hug your old man Lisa I've got to get out of here I can't even breathe her face Twisted into a smirk I wasn't talking about you I was talking about Mom and here I thought you weren't drinking just
what has Evan been filling your glass with all might it's Pepsi sweetheart I said though honestly a drink might not be the worst idea right now Betsy stepped forward her hand reaching for me again this time I moved away so sharply that everyone noticed we'll talk about this when we get home she said trying to keep her voice calm there's nothing to talk about I snapped I'm going back to my place I don't know What you're doing or where you're going but it's not with me Lisa's face fell wait a minute dad you're mad because
Mom didn't like the name you suggested Betsy's eyes widened she must have known I was on to her no Lisa I said softly I'm not mad I'm just finally seeing things clearly I looked around the room taking in everyone's shocked faces except Betsy's she knew exactly what I was talking about sometimes the people you love hurt you and you let it slide You think if you can get past this one little thing things will be better but then something happens that tells you all the pain and compromise were pointless dad you're not making any sense
Lisa said confusion clouding her face I took a deep breath Lisa your mother wants to name my grandson after the man she's been in love with for 15 years the guy she had an affair with she just found found out he died recently and now she wants to honor his memory in My family the room went deadly silent as everyone turned to Betsy who had collapsed onto the floor quietly sobbing I'm so sorry Martin she whispered it ended years ago I've tried to be a good wife to you then why did it end Betsy I
asked my voice cold because I felt guilty she answered voice trembling I knew it was wrong so I ended it you didn't understand a thing did you I should have ended things when I first found out Martin it wasn't an affair it Was just once a year we didn't even always sleep together and afterward you and I things were better between us it's been over for a long time you're wrong Betsy it's worse than you think I replied anger filling my words maybe you'll finally tell someone the truth after the divorce is final but I'm
done with your lies she looked at me and shock what are you talking about I ended it not you I replied my voice firm I went to Allentown 5 years ago and found Him beat the hell out of him he ended up in the hospital before you even got off the plane I took his phone and went through every text you sent him I warned him that if he ever came near you again I'd destroy him Betsy's face paled Martin I I'm sorry it was a mistake I was wrong I shook my head emotion churning
in my chest I was wrong too I thought I could fix this mess for Lisa's sake I thought if I loved you enough we'd get past it but tonight when you Said his name you ended things for good without another word I turned and walked out I climbed into my Mustang revved the engine and took off into the night the Roar of the engine and the thrill of speeding through the darkness under the Moonlight DED the ache in my chest I turned off my phone needing nothing but the road ahead to clear my head honestly
I wasn't as rattled by the night's events as I probably seemed I'd known about Betsy's Affair for over 5 years And ever since I'd been preparing for our eventual divorce in every way possible Betsy was probably more blindsided by that night than I was first she had no idea that I was aware of her Affair and second she only learned that night exactly why the affair had ended it had all started when Betsy flew out to Allentown for a work conference the same one she attended every year she checked into her usual hotel and went
to the conference a One-day event she always claimed lasted too after the day seminar ended she met up with Michael for dinner at a quiet restaurant they spent hours together laughing talking catching up she even mentioned me once or twice probably out of habit maybe even as a way to quiet any remaining guilt when the restaurant finally closed they shared a lingering intimate kiss before Betsy returned to her room meanwhile Michael made his way out to the parking lot where his car was Parked planning to head home only he didn't get far because I was
already waiting there perched on the hood of his car like I belong there hey that's my car he said surprised and maybe a little unnerved I Shrugged standing up and stepping toward him sorry but it's wrong for someone to mess with things that don't belong to them don't you think Mike he looked confused like he was trying to figure out what I meant I couldn't agree more more he replied Chuckling nervously probably still hoping this was some kind of joke good so we're on the same page I paused letting him sweat a little letun not
worry about hubcaps Mike let's talk about Iva your wife she's probably at home right now on Juniper Court wondering where you are Mike went pale I watched him try to keep his cool but I could see the panic in his eyes I I think I should call the police he muttered his voice shaky as he reached For his phone I pulled out my own phone and held it out to him go right ahead but it'll be my word against yours and I can assure you I've got nothing to lose here you on the other hand
I wonder how your loyal faithful wife would feel if she found out you'd been sneaking around with another woman it' be a shame wouldn't it his face was drained of color I leaned in closer my voice a low growl I don't share Mike he stamed Ed glancing around like he was looking for An escape look I know Betsy but we haven't I cut him off let's not play games I watched you tonight I know tonight was just dinner but what about last year and the year before that how far back does this go he swallowed
his face twisting in fear and shame 15 maybe 20 years he mumbled his words barely audible through his quivering lips good I said my voice hard and unfor giving then you should understand me clearly it's over and if you so much as say her Name again I will not only end your marriage I'll end you do we understand each other Mike nodded quickly his whole body trembling I turned to leave throwing one final warning over my shoulder next time we talk Mike it won't be this friendly and with that I left him there his world
shaken to its core I went back home to find Betsy acting just like she always did after her conference trip RS overly affectionate as if trying to make up for lost time usually she'd Come back and we'd go on some little vacation together to reconnect but that year I was suddenly too busy for any getaways no matter how much I tried to push it all to the back of my mind though the memory lingered and every time it surfaced I felt that anger that need for vengeance bubbling up inside me it wasn't long before I
started taking my anger out on Michael in other ways through a few well-placed business connections I arranged for him to lose His job I didn't need him to know I was behind it the satisfaction of knowing I'd had a hand in his downfall was enough it was almost thrilling in a way a warm glowing satisfaction like the kind I'd once felt when i' do something nice for Betsy but this time it was a twisted satisfaction one that came from knowing I was making his life a living hell for the next 5 years I kept chipping
away at Michael's life bit by bit even as I set up my own safety net For the divorce I knew was inevitable as for Betsy why hadn't I just confronted her and filed for divorce when I first found out despite everything I still loved her at least on some level in my heart I wanted to believe she'd change that she deserved a second chance but my head the same part of me that excelled at planning every contingency at work told me to be ready for anything so I told Betsy there was a freeze on raises
at work even though I just received a Hefty raise and a promotion that almost doubled my salary I funneled most of the extra income into accounts she knew nothing about then 2 years later I got another promotion and another race and again I kept it all hidden the whole point was simple if we divorced Betsy would have no idea what I was actually earning she'd think I was still making 40 Grand a year which would be the basis for any settlement my boss had gone through his own nasty divorce and was More than willing to
help officially I was listed as a mid-level manager so no one outside the company questioned why everyone else deferred to me in reality 75% of my salary was paid to a vendor company run by some fishing buddies they let me use their names and I took them fishing now and then in return the money went straight into an offshore account leaving no trace a couple of times I dipped into the funds to help Lisa and Evan when they got married I made a Hefty down payment on their house so they wouldn't be saddled with a
huge mortgage I didn't buy it outright but I made sure their monthly payments were next to nothing another time I used the money to buy them a second car something they needed since they worked in opposite parts of town even with these gifts I made it look like I'd pulled from my retirement or taken out loans so that if it came to a divorce Betsy wouldn't have much to claim meanwhile I Kept finding ways to make Mike's life miserable he worked in manufacturing inspecting castings and my company had ties to similar businesses all over the
country I had a friend in Allentown who kept tabs on his career so whenever he landed a new job I'd take a call if we already had a business account with his employer someone would arrange lunch with the managers and soon enough Mike would be out of a job if we didn't have an account we'd get one and the same Thing would happen I kept a detailed spreadsheet tracking every setback he faced though not all of them were my doing eventually his reputation became so tarnished that he couldn't even get an interview by the end
he was stuck doing landscaping and day labor just to get by of course all of this took a toll on Mike's personal life his wife had to go back to work to support the family though I never targeted her I had no quarrel with her or their kids so I made Sure they were taken care of I even helped get Mike's daughter into law school setting up a scholarship just for her she never knew where the money came from but it was enough to get her through school with a few bonuses along the way meanwhile
Mike was crushed by his failures he' wanted to be a provider a self-sufficient man but life had other plans he began drinking though he never took it out on his wife or daughter by the end he was a shadow of the man he'd Once been I couldn't ignore the changes in myself either I wasn't the same easygoing softspoken guy I'd been before discovering Betsy's betrayal I'd always been open and honest but that shock shifted something fundamental in me yet when I looked in the mirror I still saw myself Martin Ellis Family Man a decent guy
shouldn't villains have some sort of Telltale sign like a black hat or a near sometimes I even wondered if I should trade in my Mustang for a black One to fit the part but even as I question these things I couldn't stop my shattered heart wasn't interested in healing it wanted Vengeance and it wasn't going to rest until I'd gotten it I watched Betsy closely I found myself incapable of trusting her anymore and I realized just how hollow it felt not to have faith in the woman I'd once pledged to love and cherish her affair
with Mike had destroyed more than just our marriage it had shattered my ability to Trust anyone and that loss ran deep so for five long years as I worked to grind Mike down I also kept a careful eye on Betsy and prepared meticulously for the divorce I knew was coming unlike other men who only have days or weeks to Shield their assets I'd had years to prepare originally I'd planned to wait even longer Betsy though fading a bit was still decent looking when we divorced I'd intended to wait until she was fully on the downswing
but Mike Hadn't last as long as I thought he would and 5 years had been enough time for me to hide away as much money as I could The House wasn't an issue it had been in my family for generations and we were allowed to live there because my parents no longer needed such a big place so when divorce proceedings started my lawyer made it clear that my parents owned the property outright and had simply allowed us to live there rentree after Betsy returned from the Conference that year she texted Mike telling him how much
she'd enjoyed their dinner and the kiss they'd shared she added that while she missed the times they'd been intimate she was relieved it hadn't happened this year she said she always felt guilty about being unfaithful to me and was certain Mike felt the same about his wife she went on to say that their romance now a purely emotional affair was actually better because they could carry it on without Guilt according to her maybe they were simply getting older and physical affection wasn't necessary just being together is enough she' said that way we can be together
forever she signed off with until next year my love I read that text while waiting for my luggage at the airport for a split second I felt a surge of Fury I wanted to strangle her part of me still loved Betsy but that text transformed my feelings twisting them into something darker when she got Home I was in the den watching a football game she came in wrapped her arms around me and leaned in for a kiss I pulled back telling her I was fighting off a cold and didn't want to pass it on just
make sure better by the weekend she said with a grin what's happening this weekend I asked figting ignorance come on she said looking at me with that familiar smile we're going on our little getaway remember we always go right after my boring conference three nights Four days just the two of us away from everything oh well maybe you could make it a motherdaughter trip this year take Lisa along I suggested I can't really get away from work she tried to mask her disappointment but it's just two work days she protested think about it a long
weekend together in the Solomon Islands we might not even leave the hotel room I bought some interesting things to wear for you I couldn't help but wonder how many of those things Mike would have Seen if they'd been together sooner honey there's a freeze on raises at work and their cutting costs wherever possible I explained I've got to make sure I'm not seen as an Expendable expense she sighed fine I get it she said a bit reluctantly I'll give Lisa a call but you'd better join me in the bedroom 10 minutes after I had up
I heard her upstairs talking to Lisa on the phone then as if she couldn't help herself she sent Mike another text Asking if he'd gotten her earlier message my stomach churned with disgust I couldn't stomach going to bed with her so I lay on the couch and pretended to be asleep when she came looking over the next few weeks I had to come to terms with everything and that adjustment was far from Easy I became a much better actor than I'd ever imagined we still had intimacy as often as we had before though I couldn't
say if Betsy enjoyed it as much I didn't care I didn't bother With trying to please her anymore I just didn't give a damn if she found satisfaction or not she was just another woman in my life not the one I'd once loved our time in bed became raw and devoid of affection yet oddly more adventurous Betsy had always been pretty reserved but that guilt-filled period after each conference made her more accommodating I treated it as a chance to experience everything she' never wanted to do before she could object or Tell me she wasn't that
kind of woman I was already there when conference time came around the following year I kept a close watch looking for any sign that she might still be in touch with Mike I checked her phone records and found no incoming calls from Allentown though she'd sent several texts to his number her frustration grew as her messages went unanswered she even reached out to a few friends who knew him only to find that he'd hit A serious rough patch she learned for the first time about the beating and robbery he'd suffered after last year's conference and
that he'd lost his job no one knew where he was working now or even if he was still in the same field she tried texting him again hoping he'd agree to meet her for dinner but she got no response finally she got one of her friends to check in on him the friend came back with a harsh message Mike didn't remember Betsy and saw no point In reconnecting especially since he no longer worked in their industry and wouldn't be attending the conference Betsy was heartbroken she told me she didn't feel up to attending the conference
that year you've gone every year you might as well tough it out again I told her feigning nonchalance why should this year be any different she looked at me clearly deflated but agreed to go I timed my flight so that I landed just two hours after hers and Kept a close eye on her the entire day almost let my cover slip a few times but Betsy didn't even stay tonight she was on a return flight by evening while she was heading to the airport I called her pretending to miss her terribly telling her I'd be
out of town that night but that it didn't matter since she'd be at the conference she told me she couldn't stand to be aart and was flying home early part of me expected she' try to find someone new to latch on to but she Didn't she just attended the lectures wandered through the Expo and when it was over flew straight home the following year she tried to convince me to attend the conference with her so she could prove how boring it was I wasn't interested after that she stopped going altogether for the past 2 years
Betsy had been totally faithful to me or at least she tried to be from time to time I'd check in either watching her myself or hiring a private investigator to keep Tabs on her for a few days she hadn't done a single thing to make me suspicious if I hadn't known any better I might have thought she was the perfect wife and in many ways she had tried to be but once trust is gone there's no going back there we' be sitting on the back deck relaxing on her big swing and I'd feel her head
on my shoulder she'd hold my hand her eyes distant and I'd wonder if she was thinking of Mike thinking of how in her mind their love Would last until one of them finally died one Lazy Sunday morning Betsy woke me up in a way that would have once had me over the moon but now it just left me wondering in moments like that when she showed sudden bursts of passion I couldn't shake the thought that maybe she was imagining herself with Mike it was that gnawing doubt that prevented me from ever giving her my heart
again no matter how hard she tried to rekindle things for the past 5 years I'd lived With a constant sense of Suspicion always questioning her motives Betsy had become in many ways a maid with benefits and an expensive one at that in the last two years before the divorce I began to look at her differently it felt like I was a farmer inspecting his crops checking the signs that her beauty was beginning to fade a few more lines on her face I'd notice or the way her body had softened we're getting there I'd think quietly
satisfied just a bit Longer Betsy I'd say handing her a slice of cake why not treat yourself have another piece she'd hesitate sometimes glancing at herself in the mirror I don't want to get any bigger doesn't matter to me I'd say keeping my voice light she'd smile thinking it meant I'd love her regardless of any weight gain but I meant something entirely different it didn't matter to me because I knew we wouldn't be together much longer she could eat whatever she wanted or look However she pleased it wouldn't affect me in the least our life
looked good from the outside we still had friends we spent time with and we often visited Lisa and Evan everything seemed peaceful even happy for years I almost believed that Betsy had put her Affair out of her mind or maybe that she thought she'd actually gotten away with it I suppose after 5 years with no consequences she'd let herself believe it didn't matter anymore but just a couple of days before That fateful dinner one of my friends a private investigator in Allentown sent me an update on Mike he'd been let go from his latest job
and was scraping by working in fast food his drinking had gotten so bad that the manager wouldn't even let him work inside instead he was tasked with landscaping around the restaurant on some days he had to shovel snow or mow the grass on others he wore a ridiculous clown costume to stand by the road and spin a sign hoping to lure In passing drivers for Burgers and Fries he'd hit rock bottom an almost laughable sight for a man nearing 50 a college graduate reduced to a minimum wage worker dressed like a clown all of his
co-workers save for the manager were teenagers one day a young kid at the restaurant gave Mike an especially hard time the boy's mother had shown up to argue about his grades trying to make him quit and the kid made his point by looking at Mike what's the point mom he Said glancing over at Mike even if I graduate and you and Dad pay for college like that poor guy's parents probably did how do you know I won't end up right back here dressed like a clown I mean I'm better off than he is and I'm
only 17 at least I work inside and make more than minimum wage if I go to college I might end up making even less Mike's Pride had already been shattered but hearing that kid tear apart his life was the final blow his once confident face Turned to stone whether it was on purpose or just a careless mistake I don't know but not long after he flung his sign up into the air and it crashed down on a woman standing nearby knocking the bag of food out of her hands the woman started screaming at him and
something in Mike snapped he went berserk kicking her spilled hamburger down the street like a hockey puck calling her every name under the sun when the police arrived they they found Him in a state of Rage yelling and cursing as if he'd lost every ounce of dignity he'd once had he was fired on the spot with his last paycheck Mike bought himself a bottle of liquor and a rope he went home that night and before he took his first sip he said about using his college degree one last time Mike had studied manufacturing technology so
he took his time crafting the most Flawless noose he could looping it perfectly before climbing onto a Chair with it around his neck then he drank deeply thinking over the moments that had shaped his life he remembered his early career full of promise and traced The Arc of his decline he thought of his daughter and how he'd lost her respect of his wife who'd once been his partner in everything but now barely spoke to him they slept in separate rooms a silent acknowledgement of their broken marriage it wasn't his job loss that had ruined his
marriage it was his Inability to handle each failure to adapt as his life changed they'd been drifting apart for years and deep down might knew he'd been waiting for the other shoe to drop in those final moments Mike died thinking his downfall was just a string of bad luck he never knew it was me behind it all slowly pulling the strings that unraveled his life I'd always plan on telling him one day just before finishing my Vengeance but I never got the chance Mike's last Coherent thoughts blamed Betsy tracing his bad luck back to the
day he first met her in his mind he'd been an innocent friend but her husband had somehow discovered them and beaten him within an inch of of his life from then on his life had spiraled a constant slide downhill and he'd never recovered his last thought was a curse aimed at Betsy damn witch he muttered his mind fogging as the alcohol overtook him when I wake up I'll find a way to make her Pay Mike's wife was the one who found him swinging lifeless from the ceiling she didn't even have enough emotion left to cry
in a way she was relieved he'd been suffering for years and at least now he was finally Beyond his pain one of Betsy's old colleagues who knew Mike emailed her to share the news she learned every detail about his last years his struggles and how he died I'd already heard the news from my investigator so I knew to expect Something from her I watched her closely trying to gauge her reaction was she devastated because she'd lost someone she loved or just shaken by the reminder of life's fragility that night she clung to me with a
fervor I hadn't seen in years she held on to me as though I might slip away clinging to me with tears in her eyes when I asked her what was wrong I half expected her to admit she'd lost an old friend but instead she surprised me I just I love you so much She whispered her voice trembling I'm so grateful to have you I don't know what I'd do if anything ever took you away from me her words got to me I'll admit I let my guard down just for that one night we made love
like we used to with a tenderness I hadn't felt in years I held her close kissing her slowly letting her know that I loved her too stupidly believing for a moment that I might be healing that maybe I could trust her again it felt as though a scab Had finally formed over my Wounded Heart the next night we were at dinner with Lisa and Evan and I couldn't stop holding her hand we shared looks across the table and Lisa teased us asking how we were still so in love after so many years together I thought
for a moment that maybe she was right then Betsy had to go and open her mouth she started on how Lisa and Evan should name my grandson after Mike pushing that name with an intensity that made my blood Boil in an instant everything crumbled I felt all those years of quiet patient Vengeance against Mike resurface all that anger and bitterness I thought I'd buried I knew then why everything I'd done to Mike had never felt like enough it wasn't as though I hadn't punished him enough I realized in that moment that my resentment went deeper
I could destroy Mike's life a hundred times over but it would never fix what Betsy had broken in me what I'd done to Mike over The years had been Relentless as if I'd emptied a full clip into him reloaded and then fired again I'd kept going again and again even when he was down but the truth was Mike alone hadn't caused my pain he was in a way just a side character in the story of my misery he hadn't been the one who promised to love honor and cherish me for life that had been Betsy
Mike was practically a stranger until I confronted him and now in town and left him broken my revenge On him had been Overkill but more than anything it had been cowardly it was like i' had been a regular high school kid and instead of standing up to the football player who' shoved me I'd turned and beaten up one of the Nerds on the chess team my anger had been directed at Mike but Betsy deserved far more of it in the days after that disastrous dinner Betsy called repeatedly desperate to come home and talk each time
I cut her off barely Saying a word I let her know that I packed up all her clothes and personal belongings and that she could come by on Saturday to pick up whatever furniture or appliances she thought she deserved I suggested she bring Lisa and Evan along so one of them could call me to verify that the items she took were acceptable I plan to be gone all day and would return only when she called to say she was finished but that Saturday evening when I pulled into the driveway she was Still there Lisa was
there too and they both insisted on talking sitting me down as though I was the one in trouble Martin I love you Betsy said her eyes pleading I love you with everything I have and I would never do anything to hurt you intentionally I'm so sorry I'm sorrier than you can imagine oh I believe you're sorry I replied my tone cold you may be about the sorest excuse for a wife I've ever seen can't we at least talk this Through she pleaded we've been together for nearly 30 years are we really going to throw all
that away over something that happened years ago and has been over for a long time why didn't you confront me when you first found out I can't imagine the pain you've been carrying all this time I'm starting to understand why there's been this wall between us for so long this is it isn't it I sighed nodding slowly she continued her voice shaking that night It was so incredible it felt like we'd reconnected I'm guessing you must have heard about Mike's death and thought we were finally free of all this that we could move on until
I opened my mouth and ruined it I nodded again the bitterness in me barely contained Martin please let me explain she begged I need to get this out I know what I did was wrong but it ended years ago and yes I know it was you who ended it I have some questions But please just let me explain first I looked at her feeling the anger simmering beneath the surface you've got this one chance Betsy I said I don't owe you that but I'm giving it to you for one reason only I want this divorce
over with as quickly as possible if I let you talk now you won't be able to go to the courts claiming I never gave you a chance to explain so go ahead but there are a couple of things I need to know when did this start with Mike and why She took a deep breath her voice barely a whisper Martin it's 2010 now we got married in 1980 so I suppose it started in 1982 28 years I shouted unable to contain myself this this has been going on for 28 years she looked down not meeting
my eyes maybe Mike looked at it differently she mumbled he probably only counted from when we first you know I turned to Lisa who looked as stunned as I felt is there any chance any at all that Lisa I couldn't finish the sentence But Betsy knew what I meant there's no chance she said quickly the conference is always in July Lisa was born in January she's your daughter Mar there's no question but you hoped didn't you I spat don't pretend the thought never crossed your mind Lisa looked over at her mother her face a mixture
of hurt and confusion Lisa angel I said turning back to my daughter I love you more than life itself for these past 5 years you've been the only person I could Truly trust you have most of my heart but I need to ask would you be okay with doing a DNA test it doesn't matter to me now I'll never treat you or my grandkids any differently I just need to know Martin I told you Betsy began but I cut her off why should I believe a word you say I asked my voice calm but cutting
from day one you've lied to me our marriage is done which means you lied to me the whole time you don't get to make me doubt my instincts now no Martin it Wasn't like that she insisted I've always loved you you just don't understand Then star explaining I snapped this is your last chance to make me understand after this every word will go through lawyers she looked at me eyes wide you can't be serious I only cheated once and that was years ago it's not worth throwing away 30 years for something that ended ages ago
for the past 5 years I haven't seen or heard from Mike you're punishing me for Something that's long since finished it's unfair is that so I replied well I know you haven't seen him in 5 years but you did try didn't you for years ago the year after the last conference you both attended you tried to reach out sent texts hoping he'd meet you for dinner you even asked mutual friends if he was attending they told you he didn't remember you but the truth is he was just scared he knew that if he replied I'd
either kill him this time or ruin His marriage you can see why I doubt it was truly over her face fell but now you know it's over she said almost smiling you know that how do I know that I shot back the last message you sent him said Your Love would last until one of you died it's barely been 5 years since then and yes he's dead now but maybe you weren't lying after all you still loved him enough to ask Lisa to name my grandson after him even if it cost you our marriage no
Martin you're wrong she Said her voice desperate we'd only been married two years when I went to that first conference I missed you terribly it was the first time I've been away from you I kept ducking out of lectures to call you but you were always working Mike was there and he reminded me of you in so many ways talking to him felt easy like I could finally share everything I was feeling the next year we grew closer we even went to dinner and state until the restaurant closed but Martin you Have to understand so
much of it was because he reminded me of you I hadn't been away from you much and sometimes I just needed another perspective and when did it turn into something more I asked voice tight it was the fourth year she replied voice trembling we both had too much to drink and we we ended up in bed it was never planned and it wasn't supposed to happen it was a mistake so a mistake lasted for over two decades I scoffed anger bubbling up she looked Away ashamed after that it just became a part of the conference
for us she said quietly we'd meet up each year sometimes it was physical sometimes it wasn't mostly it was just the comfort of talking to someone who understood me someone who understood you I repeated incredulous you had a husband for that Betsy a husband who spent years supporting you loving you and trusting you I I know she whispered tears streaming down her face and I've hated Myself for it every year I swore I'd end it but then the next conference would come and there he was it just it just happened I never wanted to stop
talking to him but you have to understand a lot of it was because he was so much like you she paused glancing at me desperate to explain we hadn't been together for that long and sometimes I needed to run things by someone to see how you'd react to them it wasn't until the fourth year that we slept together and even then it Was an accident we'd both gotten really drunk and we just ended up in bed we woke up the next morning and we were both just consumed with guilt Betsy continued her voice trembling we
couldn't even look at each other neither of us said goodbye the next year the fifth year we mostly avoided each other truthfully I missed him missed my friend but I was pregnant with Lisa then so unless babies take over a year to come a term he couldn't possibly be her father We didn't have dinner didn't talk nothing that year she paused then went on quietly the year after that he came over to me and he apologized he told me he'd been so sorry for what happened between us two years before that he blamed himself he
even said it was stupid for us to avoid each other just because of a mistake so we had dinner and if I'm being honest for those two years that I'd been avoiding him I'd also been fantasizing about what Sleeping with him had been like my heart Twisted but I kept silent listening she took a shaky breath we'd both been drunk that first time and I wanted to remember what it had really felt like so at that point it had been 6 years since it happened and we'd only been together once that night though it was
just dinner nothing happened she seemed almost pleading now hoping I'd understand the following year nothing happened again but there was this Strange tension it felt like like we were only going to these conferences to see each other by your eight the tension was too much I gave in and we had sex her voice dropped and she seemed to cringe as she spoke I think that's the one I feel the most guilt about Martin I've been avoiding him for years all while wondering what it might really be like with him I built it up in my
head but when it actually happened it was awful no it was worse than awful it was Boring I raised an eyebrow not sure where she was going with this but she looked at me almost apologetically look I know that size isn't everything but Mike wasn't exactly your equal in that department and worse he'd been with his wife for so long that he only knew what she liked which was nothing close to what I liked it was then that I realized I had made a huge mistake she went on speaking faster as though eager to get
it all out the next Year I avoided him again I mean I didn't just avoid sleeping with him I didn't even want to speak to him I even hid from him for most of the conference at the end though I went over and acted like I'd been looking for him all along I asked him a bunch of questions about his wife and then just left I could barely believe what I was hearing but I let her continue not wanting to interrupt the year after that it had been a full 10 years since we First met
she said her voice softening he was waiting for me at the airport telling me how special it felt to be celebrating 10 years of friendship like it was some kind of anniversary I didn't want to hurt him so I I gave him a mercy sleep that year a mercy sleep I repeated feeling my stomach twist with anger and disbelief sleeping with him was worth risking your marriage Martin you have to understand she pleaded her voice shaking he really was A lot like you I didn't want to hurt his feelings besides it only happens once a
year there was nothing wild or strange about it it was like old people's sex and look at what you and I have it doesn't compare Mike wasn't into trying new things it was plain almost obligatory she paused giving me an almost embarrassed look I've never done anything intimate like that with him I mean not the way I have with you he's only ever been well you know she stopped And I couldn't hold back any longer Betsy you really don't understand this do you I said trying to keep my voice steady you and I only started
getting experimental after I found out about you I let you do things for me but I never did them for you I wasn't about to put my mouth anywhere that mik's been and honestly every time I slept with you it wasn't love I was just sleeping with you like I would with a stranger you were just there and you were available her Face fell and she seemed to wilt in front of me so for the next few years I survived it she continued her voice barely a whisper I'd go to the conference and I knew
he'd be there I dreaded it but I looked forward to it too even though I knew I'd end up having sex with him at the end after a few years I started making up excuses one year I told him I was on my period next I put up with it then I claimed I had a yeast infection another year I said I Was on my period again for about 3 years I didn't have to sleep with him but then we'd do it and I'd find another excuse to avoid it for a few more years she
looked up at me almost pleading the year that you beat him up it had been four maybe 5 years since we'd last been together we hadn't had sex in years he always talked about it like he loved it but for me it was like pulling teeth he was my friend and I didn't want to hurt him he likes hearing how much I cared About him and we told each other we loved each other but I never really felt it I just didn't want to hurt his feelings so you chose to hurt me instead I snapped
the bitterness in my voice evident Martin how are you hurt she asked sounding genuinely baffled it went on for over 20 years when you found out we'd been intimate thousands of times and I loved every one of those times with you in all those years I may have been with Mike eight times at most and I Hated every moment of it if it had been a matter of me choosing Mike over you I'd understand your anger but that never happened if I'd given you secondhand treatment or done something that would embarrass you I'd understand but
that never happened I love you too much for that it was a once a year thing far from home where no one knew us and even the year you confronted him it was already ending on its own she took a shaky breath glancing down since you know About my texts you probably know we'd been talking about how much better things felt without the guilt that's what I meant Martin I was trying to let him down easily I thought the relationship would drift apart naturally she reached for my hand but I pulled it back feeling the
sting of her words Martin please you have to believe me she whispered I love you only you whatever happened with Mike was a stupid mistake I made years ago and I didn't know how To end it without hurting him we have so much more history love and a life together please don't throw it all away I leaned back studying her as I tried to process everything she'd said I felt the anger still bubbling inside side but I could also see the pain and Desperation in her eyes this was the woman I'd loved for decades the
mother of my child my partner in life but her betrayal had cut so deep and it was a wound that wouldn't heal easily I understand Betsy I said Slowly I understand that you made a mistake and that you regret it but the fact remains you betrayed me you betrayed us every time you met him every time you said you loved him you took something away from our marriage you broke my my trust my faith in you in us and while I can see that you're sorry maybe even understand why you did what you did I
don't think I can ever get past it tears streamed down her face as she listened her voice breaking Martin Please she whispered I'll do anything to make this right anything just give us another chance we can go to counseling we can work through this please don't end our marriage over something that's been over for so long I shook my head trying to hold back my own emotions it's not just the affair Betsy it's the lies the deception for 28 years you've kept this from me for 28 years you've let me believe our marriage was something
it wasn't you took away my ability to make An informed decision about my life about whether or not I wanted to stay with someone who could do that to me you robbed me of that choice she broke down sobbing and Lisa reached out holding her mother godamn damn it Dad Lisa said her voice soft but pleading mom made mistakes but she's trying to make it right can't you at least try to work through this for me for the grandkids I looked at my daughter and the pain in her eyes mirrored my own Lisa I said
Softly I love you I love you more than anything but this this isn't something I can just forgive and forget it's been eating away at me for years and I can't keep pretending that everything is okay when it's not Betsy opened her mouth to speak but I raised my hand enough Betsy I don't want to hear anymore you've had your chance to explain and I've listened now it's time for me to move on I'm filing for divorce you can take whatever you want from the house but I need you Out by the end of the
week Dad please Lisa begged her voice breaking don't do this I looked at her my own voice catching I'm sorry sweetheart I said but this is something I have to do for my myself I can't keep living with this betrayal Betsy sank into a chair her body shaking as sobs racked her Lisa knelt beside her trying to offer Comfort but I couldn't stay any longer I stood up took one last look around the room and walked out of the house as I drove Away years of betrayal and pain seemed to press down on me like
a weight I'd carried too long I thought about all those years we'd spent together the life we'd built the memories we'd shared it hurt to think that so much of it had been tainted by her lies but I knew staying would only deepen the wound I needed to find a way to heal to finally move forward with my life in the days that followed I put my Affairs in order I filed for divorce and made Arrangements for Betsy to move out of the house Lisa tried to reach out to me a few times but I
couldn't bring myself to discuss it further the decision was made I needed to focus on my future on finding a life where I could breathe freely again the day Betsy moved out was a mix of relief and sadness she took only what she needed leaving behind many of the things we'd accumulated over the years as she reached the door to leave for the last time she turned to look at Me her eyes full of Sorrow Martin she whispered barely audible I'm so sorry I know Betsy I said my voice steady but sorry isn't enough goodbye
and with that she left and I was alone in a house that had once been filled with warmth laughter and love I knew the road ahead wouldn't be easy but I also knew I had to find a way to rebuild to somehow discover peace and happiness again over the next few months I focused on myself I poured my energy into my work spent Time with friends and even started dating again it wasn't easy and there were plenty of difficult days but slowly I began to heal I came to realize that while Betsy's betrayal had devastated
me it didn't Define me I was Stronger than that and I could still find happiness Lisa eventually came to terms with the divorce she still loved her mother but she understood why I couldn't stay our relationship grew closer as we supported each other through those difficult Months in time I found peace in knowing that I'd made the right choice for myself I'd reclaim my life and my happiness the scars from Betsy's betrayal would always be there but they no longer held power over me I was free to move forward and build a new future filled
with hope and possibility 5 years have passed since that day I finally walked away from Betsy in those years I've rebuilt my life though The Echoes of pain and betrayal still linger more Haunting than before the most unexpected and heartbreaking blow came during a heated argument over the divorce settlement Betsy in a moment of desperation let slip that Lisa wasn't my biological daughter she was Mike's child the Revelation cut deeper than I could have imagined I'd loved and raised Lisa as my own a paternity test confirmed what Betsy had said and the knowledge shattered me
that one truth made the Betrayal feel fresh and raw again as if The ground beneath me had shifted despite everything Lisa stood by her mother struggling to understand why I was so determined to move on it was like a knife in my heart when she chose to support Betsy after all that had happened in the end I decided to remove Lisa from my will it wasn't a choice I made lightly but I felt it was the only way to regain control of my Life and Legacy Betsy and I split our assets evenly she took took
half of our savings And a few personal items while I kept the house but it no longer felt like home not with so many memories stained by betrayal I eventually sold it and moved into a modern apartment in the city the transition was tough but I found solace in my work and slowly began to date again it was at a business conference that I met Nancy one who became the light I hadn't known I needed she was smart kind and genuinely interested in me she had a successful Career as a marketing executive and her life
was refreshingly uncomplicated she'd been married before but her husband had passed away in a tragic accident despite her loss she was optimistic full of life and from the start she had a way of making me feel alive again her presence felt like a bomb gradually healing wounds that I thought would never mend while I was finding happiness again Betsy's life took a darker turn after the divorce she Moved into a modest apartment and tried to find a job but her depression and guilt consumed her she began drinking heavily and her health quickly deteriorated the weight
of her actions and the loss of her family proved too much she attempted to rebuild her relationship with Lisa but even her own daughter couldn't fully understand the depth of her actions The Strain between them grew and Betsy became more isolated Sinking deeper into her despair eventually Betsy lost her job and ended up on welfare the vibrant woman I'd once loved faded into a shadow of herself broken by guilt and loneliness she tried to drown her pain in alcohol but it only pushed her further down mutual friends told me she'd been hospitalized several times both
for alcohol poisoning and severe depression it was hard to hear but I couldn't bring myself to reach out the woman who'd once Been my wife had caused too much pain and I needed to protect the happiness I was finally beginning to find Lisa despite her efforts couldn't save her mother from herself she had her own family now and the burden of her mother's decline weighed heavily on on her though the rift between Lisa and me remained I found peace in knowing I'd done what was best for me one year later Nancy and I got married
it was a small intimate ceremony with only close Friends and family the day was filled with love and hope for the future and I finally felt a sense of wholeness I hadn't known in years her presence has been a constant source of strength and joy together we've built a life free from the Shadows of the past looking back I can see now that those years of pain and betrayal were a necessary part of my journey I've learned that forgiveness isn't always about the other person it's about freeing yourself from The chains of the past while
I may never fully forgive Betsy or forget what she did I've found a way to move forward and embrace the happiness I deserve bets's downward spiral stands as a tragic reminder of the consequences of betrayal and the importance of honesty in any relationship as for Lisa I hold on to hope that one day we might rebuild what we had but for now I'm focused on the life I have with Nancy grateful for the second chance at happiness that life has Granted me