honestly I look like a hot mess I'm sure that I'm not the worst that they've seen but I'm definitely not the best no for you're on their T the self-confidence is kind of low today hello welcome or welcome back to my channel as I'm sure you can tell the background's a little different and that's because I realized I didn't film an intro for this video so I'm now at home it is Thanksgiving and I am now filming this intro if you haven't seen the last episode of the series that I posted let me give you a quick recap of what we're doing so you see a lot of these self-help gurus productivity YouTubers basically saying you can change your life entirely in 6 months I could use a life change so I'm testing that and that's essentially what this whole series is over the next 6 months I'm going to put 100% effort into changing my finances my appearance my career my Social Circle and essentially my entire life for the next 6 months and we together are going to see if I succeed or if I crash and burn essentially so here's what we're doing in this episode a fitness assessment a full color and style analysis getting out of the house cuz if you watched the last episode you can tell I spent a lot of time in the house starting my first side hustle and seeing how much money we make off of it starting and maintaining a workout routine starting to eat in a calorie deficit for weight loss and starting some new hobbies so without any more yapping from me let's get started [Music] willing to play the [Music] first of all ignore my face I don't know why I woke up so swollen but these last few days I've been so exhausted I have not been able to get up on time I think it was like the friends giving that just kind of was like cycled into the other days but I'm so tired I didn't do my walk this morning I didn't do my workout I just got up and stretched and yeah that's it I'm going to do my walk during my lunch I'm so tired like literally all I want to do is go back in bed and lay down which is what I did when my alarms went off I just went back to sleep Alexa what time is it the time is 7:50 a. m. [Music] I know this is boring outfit but we're going to I'm going to accessorize it I promise here is the full ignore the socks here's the full outfit I have makeup on I have this necklace which has become my favorite necklace I don't know why I have my earrings in and then my rings and then I have this cute little bag something about today my stomach is bothering me so much like every time I look the reason I added this jacket is because I was feeling a little not great about it every time I like look at the mirror all I see is my stomach and it's kind of killing me so anyway I'm all dressed up but I have to go make food and I'm not really leaving the house today except to like grocery shop so I'm going to go make some food and I'll show you what I make so I think I've said this before but I am the kind of person who can eat the same meal every day and be perfectly satisfied with it so I'm making the same meal that I made in the last video which is my toast with cottage cheese and avocado wait I might be at avocado but usually avocado and egg and spinach so that's what we're making [Music] don't judge me but I do like let the cheese slightly burn because I like when it's like brown at the bottom like I like the little brown bits inside it I don't know I always get a middle piece cuz those are the big ones while my toast is going in my air fryer I'm going to make a yogurt perfit some Greek yogurt and some strawberries this is my favorite Kola ever it doesn't have a lot of protein but it is very good and it has like chocolate pieces in it which I really like I have so many chocolate pieces [Music] [Music] I mentioned earlier that I haven't been feeling the best about like my upper body recently but I just had to change my pants because after I ate they were too tight and they were hurting me and that did not make me feel great because those are pants that used to fit me like a while back so the self-confidence is kind of kind of low today like I kind of I don't know like whenever something like that happens I'm like very sensitive to it so I I kind of just want to like lay in bed and sulk and like watch YouTube to make myself feel better but things need to be done sulking isn't going to fix the problem even though it like temporarily feels good but at the end of the day it's not going to fix it um yeah I don't know clearly I'm I'm a little sad about it and it's like not that big of a deal like in the overall like scheme of things but it doesn't feel great I will say now I'm very motivated to go to the gym I'm going to take a walk and see if that makes me feel a little [Music] better so fun topic tomorrow I have my fitness assessment at my gym I'm a little nervous I feel like I need the humbling a little bit to kind of like whip me back into shape I haven't really been good at going to the gym lately like when I first got my membership I was going crazy and I was also doing classes and now I'm kind of just like throwing money in the garbage but you won't be doing that anymore luckily my gym membership has classes included I'm going to start taking those got tomato soup and grilled cheese and I put spinach in the soup too in the last episode I very briefly talked about like hobbies and how I was like applying for volunteer programs and so I applied to this one that's basically like a group of hostiles and you help people who are like traveling to the US and like traveling through this group kind of take them around the city so I signed up for it cuz I was like oh this seems fun and now they are making interview which I've never interviewed for a volunteer position before so I'm like a little stressed and also because I feel like the actual like volunteering itself is a little out of my comfort zone like what do you mean I have to talk to a million people all day like what do you what do you what do you mean but I think since it's out of my comfort zone that's good but I'm not taking this too seriously because I'm trying to remind myself at so low stakes but I am anxious I don't think I can film any of it because when I was signing up they had like a [ __ ] ton of rules so I will keep you updated and let you know how it goes later I'm headed there I'm out of red light obviously I'm a bit nervous just finished and I'm walking back to my car you might be able to hear my roommates upstairs but I just got back from my interview when they gave me this whole like stack of paperwork of like rules regulations like all these things super cool and everyone there was very friendly and so I'm I think I'm going to do it they have to do like a background check on me but after that I think I'm going to do it it's really cool cuz they have like like comedy nights they have like Open Mic nights they have like city tours that you can lead and basically they said literally the point of volunteering there is to meet people and make friends and that's what I'm trying to do so I did feel like I was like one of the younger people there but no one was like that grown like everyone was like seemed like in their 20s at least so I'm excited I don't know what it is but when I got home my stomach started hurting not in like the stomach hurting way in like the uterus hurting way okay now I'm like is my [ __ ] period starting is my period starting that might derail us a little bit cuz the first or second day of my period is not she's not to be messed with I'll tell you that anyway I've like entirely forgotten the night routine I'm supposed to do but I know I need to do it let's let's figure out what it is this is from the same creator that I tagged in like the last video so if you want to see where I got this information from watch her video steps of things I need to do one clean my room two take a shower three skincare four 10 to 20 minutes of stretching five T six Comm music or podcast I'm going to add one seven journaling cuz I'm an anxious girl and I need to get the thing in here onto paper and go to bed by 11:00 p.
m. so I have an hour to do all the things on this list and we will get them done it's super dark cuz I'm in a parking garage but I just got to my gym to do my fitness exam feel like I'm going to be humbled since it's just like a free fitness exam like at my gym I'm sure that I'm not the worst they've seen but I'm definitely not the best or even in the top 50% I just really hope he doesn't ask me to do a pull-up because I can't do a pull-up okay I'm going to go inside soz I have like 7 minutes [Music] but next time when you come work out and you do these exercises I want you to eat more that way how's your legs right now I can El let me know if you feel super light [Music] okay okay so I didn't have enough food before the workout so I almost passed out like three times so the trainer sent me into the sauna to like cool down for five minutes I guess like warm up for five minutes and then I'm gonna go back and do the last two [Music] [Applause] exercises okay I didn't get to finish I was saying earlier because somebody came into the SAA and then it was awkward but I almost passed out my Visions started going black cuz I didn't eat enough before my training session but now I am back home I'm going to eat and then I have somewhere to be in like 10 minutes so I have to like Rush make sure you eat enough kids [ __ ] when I tell y'all that oh that personal training has my legs so [ __ ] up and you would think it wouldn't be that bad I barely got through half the exercises cuz I was passed out so you would think that I'd be fine for some reason my legs are type of sore they have not been in a very long time sitting down hurts moving them hurts bending forward hurts I I just got back from work so I'm going to chill here I'm going to watch TV I'm going to try and stretch them because I signed up for a 6:00 a. m.
pilates class I'm going to try my best to do some in bed stretches but it [ __ ] oh my God literally oh my gosh Lally just sitting up it's just I'm just trying to sit up [Music] hello if you watched last episode you will have seen that I did a full list of hobbies and today we are going to get started on one of them which is Art I have all of these they're technically watercolor sketchbooks but I don't have a normal Sketchbook so we're going to use these for now and then I have a bunch of art supplies from when I used to do art I would say when I was about like 12 years old I was somewhat of like an art Prodigy I think I have a photo somewhere but my grandmother still has a photo I drew of an eye that definitely was not a recreation of a picture I saw on Pinterest in her house so I used to be kind of good at it I think Art's a good hobby to get into just because I feel like I really want to one day be able to make one of like those giant paintings and like paint art for my own house you know how like how satisfying it would be to have someone come in your house be like oh my God that piece is so gorgeous where' you get it from and I it myself you know with my own two hands anyway unfortunately I do not have that skill as yet but I do really want to get there I also feel like art is like one of those things where you can concentrate on it for a really long time and not get bored and will keep me away from my screens you get what I'm saying so we're going to try our hand at some drawing today you're not allowed to judge me I'm not good at it okay actually I'm going to use printer paper because this is definitely going to be like a scrap I have my scratch paper I've been saving art on Tik Tok that I really like and I can't just draw by myself yet so I think the beginning of every like Journey creatively is imitation at first and then you develop your own style and then you could do it yourself so I'm going to look through the things I've saved either on Tik Tok or on Pinterest and see what I'm going to try to recreate obviously we're going to credit the original artist but I it won't be anywhere near as good it won't be even like like close to anywhere near as gun but I'm a beginner so keep that in mind let's find some inspiration I think this looks kind of like it's from the Scott Pilgrim show the one that was on Netflix like the style I feel like this one it doesn't look easy to do do but I feel like because it's not so detailed I think I could try to recreate it maybe let's try it I have low hopes I have low hopes but we'll try this is what it looks like I don't think I think it's okay like it's not the best but I think for a first try after like like at least like eight years I think it's pretty good so okay let me show you so here's the original that I was looking at and keep in mind this is not my original artwork I'm literally just using this to practice so I was not creative in this at all literally everything all the real work was done by the artist so that's the original and this is me trying my best like for first try I don't think it's that bad like could it be better yes I think I could definitely better but for first trying I don't I don't think it's that bad I think what I'll do at least for the first few weeks is just try to like imitate slightly more like harder and harder art and then I need to learn like the actual like basics of art because like this isn't mine like this isn't actually doing art but since it's just for a hobby it's just for fun I think this is good to like get myself comfortable doing it again cuz I think I'm too scared that everything's going to look like [ __ ] but I feel I feel pretty all right about [Music] this I'm headed to my pilat class and I'm running late because I spent too much time on my phone but it's okay but so hopefully oh the time just went up okay I'm a little stressed we're we're making our way there we're making our way there I just finished my PES class and it's 7:00 a. m. and I feel so bad because I was late and then at the end of the class she was like hey she said she was so nice about it she was really nice about it but she was kind of like hey you can't do that again she was like if you if you come in after the class starts you you can't do that again so that was a little embarrassing but that's okay um so I'm going to head home I'm going to get ready and I'm going to go to work I'm really tired you know that guy from SpongeBob who's always like my leg that is exactly what I feel like right now my legs are lit really killing me it's like like my inner thighs it's like sore Beyond Comfort I know that just means I need to work out more cuz then the more I work out the less sore I'll be but right now it's so [Music] uncomfortable I CH would you to know it's the it's currently 9:32 p.
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I've done a lot today but I also haven't done anything I'm so tired I went out for a brunch which is fine like you know weight loss and all these things are balance of eating at home eating out eating healthy eating like unhealthy you know the whole point is you want to be even you don't want to be too extreme one way or another anyway so I got brunch this morning I think 11 11 or 12 and I have not eaten since and it's weird because usually I would be like like starving by this point but I'm not hungry if I'm going to be fully honest the biggest barrier to me eating today was that my legs hurt so [ __ ] much I didn't want to walk up the stairs full laziness like that's literally it there's no there's no R reason to it I am making myself food now we are eating I don't know I'm going to eat I'm going to watch an actual show when I watch YouTube it's good and all but if I watch too much for too long I don't know I think sometimes my brain needs a plot to follow I need to lower the screens but you can't what's the [ __ ] like parent phrase Rome wasn't built in a day as much as we're doing the absolute maximum I can't I can only do so much screens is going to be screens is going to take a while anyway I'm going to eat and stop [ __ ] talking about like whatever I'm talking about today is a very very very busy day I have so much I have to do but the first thing is I need to check my weight cuz I haven't done that for this section yet or I think when I went to the personal the the fitness assessment they technically checked it and they said I was 156 minus or 158 minus 2 lb for clothes so 156 so I'm going to check it again now at home now that I haven't eaten my stomach's empty and I also just woke up clearly obviously look at my face I have this scale and it has these little like plates on it so it's supposed to be able to track a bunch of other stuff like your your water and random [ __ ] like that you like connect it to an app and it tells you like all your stats essentially basically I have to go on Barefoot so I have to stand on a Barefoot and make sure my feet are like on the metal plates so that I can track all my stats I guess so bro how did I go up okay the last time I wi myself on this I was 158. 4 so I'm still 158 so I guess minus 2 lb for clothes I don't know what that means I feel like that means I need to start making some more changes not that like I need to like lose weight at a crazy fast rate but I can't stay stagnant like every time I try and lose weight I get down to like 155 and then I never get to the 140 Mark so if I can break that 140 like or sorry 150 Mark and get to 140 something I think then I will know I will succeed cuz I will breaken broken breaken broken the barrier the self-inflicted barrier for weight loss I guess I don't know but it shows like your BMI body fat subcutaneous fat metabolic age fat-free body weight visceral fat body water skeletal muscles BMR muscle mass bone mass and protein so I don't really know what all these stats mean well technically if you click on them it explains what it means but I don't I don't look at all that information maybe I should we're at 158 right now hopefully by the end of next episode we'll have lost a little more I think maybe my issue right now is consistency because this week has been so busy and I've been trying to like balance actually doing this challenge editing the videos for the challenge which honestly like editing the videos take almost as long as the actual actions themselves so that's been a bit of a balance so it's hard to like maintain certain things but what I need to do is I need to have a setep morning routine that I do every day a set night routine and like follow those but sometimes I just roll out of bed or I just pass out and it is what it is but as long as I can get my walks in every day and my stretches and like my night routine at least like doing my skin care and like all that stuff I think we'll be in a good place but anyway time to get on with the rest of this busy day I don't know if I've shown you guys this before I don't think I have but sometimes we don't want to be grinding away all the time sometimes you need a little break you want just like chill watch some YouTube watch Netflix whatever but I know at least when I like do that and I lay in my bed and I kind of rot away I just end up feeling worse afterwards instead of more relaxed so something I got and what I've been trying to do is get a little bit of exercise while I do it so let me let me show you guys one second so I have this thing I don't know if you guys can see this but what this is is a walking pad and it has been collecting a little bit of dust under my bed recently but if I want to just watch some YouTube or watch some Netflix and just like chill for a bit I'll pull this guy out and I have a standing desk so I'll put him under my desk plug her in and just like do a workout right I'll show you essentially I'll just move my desk up so then I just use my little handy Dy Remote turn this guy on it'll count down for me and now I'm walking it's kind of loud but you can adjust the speed and even sometimes I'll do this while I'm working if I'm working on something that doesn't take a lot of like mental energy so I can just type away work up here if I'm working from home and I'm still getting my exercise in and I'm still technically relaxing a little but I don't feel feel bad about it and then when I get tired and I actually want to sit down and like lay down and watch YouTube I don't feel so bad so in an effort to be more stylish I looked at my pinest board and I tried to like recreate an outfit with the stuff in my closet and it's not here let me show you what the outfit's supposed to look like so the issue is that I didn't have a denim skirt and I also didn't have a white button-up and this button- Up's just like a little too long and my skirt's a little too short so this is what it ended up looking like honestly I look like a hot mess I think if this was maybe like shorter and if the skirt was not so short maybe we could have done something and then in the outfit like there was like headphones but I feel like someone who's like discovered Pinterest for the first time and that's not what I am all right I'm going to change like I don't this is not I'm not I can't like focus in this I'm going to change back into the clothes I had on before okay we're back in comfy less fashionable clothes do I look like a blob yes but I'm not leaving the house anyway today so it's fine but tomorrow when I go to work we'll try again speaking of fashion and style and I don't know image I am going to be doing a full analysis of my face of my body type of essentially everything to see what should and should not look good on me so I can adjust my style accordingly somebody left a comment on my last video and said that the amount of calories that that calorie calculator told me to eat probably not enough and they might have been right I'm so like exhausted I tried to finish doing the analysis and I'm like way too tired I didn't eat enough before my fitness thing and so I almost passed out so I am raising the calorie deficit and we might not hit 40 lb by the end but we still be on the track for losing weight and I won't be suffering cuz right now I'm like exhausted I was calling my boyfriend I was telling him I'm really tired and he was like it might be because you're not eating enough and I realized that even though I set my calorie deficit to 1450 I was kind of always making sure I stayed under it like I was too scared to hit 1450 so in reality I was eating more like 1,00 1300 1,400 Max which is not the purpose of that so we're going to be raising that and hopefully that will help with my energy issues we are currently I'm in my bed because I'm exhausted and I usually don't eat in my bed because I think it's gross but is what it is but I have a snack there and then I'm going to make myself some dinner later as well I might also start doing what the trainer told me to do and eat four to six meals a day instead of three big meals cuz then it's like I eat and then I get super hungry and then I eat and then I get super hungry and then I eat versus like being able to like maintain like a more okay State throughout the day so I thought I would tell you guys that because I feel like it's one thing to like try to show all the things that I'm doing and like show how like perfect I'm being and like how amazing I am um and it's another thing to show you guys the actual mistakes I'm making and I think that that is also very important and that Calor deficit was a bit of a mistake I think I've been thinking of that deficit as like a hard limit I cannot go to 1451 whereas it should be like a general guideline like anyway there's your update yeah I kind of [ __ ] up but that's all right there's going to be many more fuckups to come hello so today is the next day and I have finished finally my digital product so you are going to hang out with me while I upload it see if it works so I made my full notion template thing wouldn't have taken this long if I was just doing this but because I was also filming this video in my other video and doing all this other stuff it took a really long time so all I need to do now is make the Etsy Shop itself make mockups to put on the Etsy listing and post the listing so I finally finished all of the marketing and holy [ __ ] it took so much longer than I thought making the template took forever but doing the marketing stuff also took forever now I'm going to go ahead and post it also I am finishing all of this stuff when I have a flight at 1000 p.
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