so my story started before I was even born um when my sister was born my mom my older sister of 9 years my mom decided to get fixed from having any more children and she had a tubal liation which means you have your fallopian tubes cut and tied and it's a permanent form of birth control well 9 years later God did the Supernatural and I was in my mother's womb she didn't know she was pregnant with me until 6 months and she did not want any more children and I believe she didn't find out till
6 months because if it was sooner she would have probably got rid of me so she decided to keep me at 6 months had me didn't know know my gender until I was born didn't have a name for me and so they named me after my grandma as a baby I was taken care of by my older siblings my sister of 9 years and my brother of 12 years older they took care of me for the first few weeks months of my life my mom wasn't doing well she had a lot of postpartum depression she
tells me now mom and finally she snapped out of it she said she said what am I doing this is my baby I need to take care of her so right then and there now that I am um a Christian born again I had a Spirit of Rejection over my life and I didn't know it because it continued to follow me throughout childhood so time goes on poverties around me addictions my father was an alcoholic we didn't have a stable home we were in and out of trailers in our small town in Colorado when I
was about 5 years old I remember we moved into this Brown trailer that trailer was my home up until I left it was kind of falling apart every time it would be windy or storms it would leak and I was nervous the roof would fly off it was shelter but it wasn't the best so I was always pretty embarrassed as a child to tell others like where I lived I wouldn't want to invite friends over I didn't want people to know my life my brother and my sister at that time were much older they were
in their teenage years and I was just a young child living at home my parents my mom and dad were together as roommates but not ever married they didn't have an intimate relationship so there roommates they stayed in the trailer with me in different rooms and I would choose to sleep with my mom every night until I was about 11 years old not only because we didn't have enough rooms but because I had a lot of fear as a child I used to see a lot of ghosts around that trailer now I know is demonic
spirits um they used to put a lot of fear to me and torment me at night I couldn't sleep as a child I would wake up in the middle of the night and see either a little boy figure like a white figure of some sort all these different molds of of Spiritual Beings and I I didn't feel feel any peace or anything just lots of fear and so there was a point in my life as a child I I uh put on I used to sleep with the eye mask purposely just so if I accidentally
woke up in the middle of the night I wouldn't have to see anything my sister also experienced a lot of paranormal stuff in that trailer we grew up in she had got pulled off her bed and she woke up with marks around her ankles the door to her bedroom would always lock and where I stayed with my mom in her bedroom we had a view of my sister's bedroom door and I used to see figures walking in and out of my sister's door I just thought it was like her boyfriend's coming over or friends and
found out it wasn't it was spirits of some sort my dad used to always sit in the living room and drink and just watch TV he he went to work he was he was a construction man he provided money he didn't provide emotional support he was socially awkward never wanted to go to an event or anything to do with like a school play school um concert for Christmas or anything he was never involved in any of our lives like that he just went to work came home and drank and sat on his chair and watched
TV if I wanted to talk to him he was always intoxicated and very short he didn't really put any effort into my life or what I was what I was doing he was also very abusive to my mother verbally a lot of fighting would take place I would hear them start arguing and I would go to a room and close the door and cry cuz I just wanted it to stop my older siblings were gone a lot they were in high school at the time they had friends they were in a relationship sporting activities and
so I was alone a lot as a child I would come up with creative games on my own um I would spend a lot of time outside and just entertain myself as best as I could I also was exposed to adult stuff that I should not have been as a child my older siblings were the only ones I wanted to be around with their friends and they used to to drink and smoke and watch things on TV that they shouldn't like um horror movies and the movies with explicit scenes nudity everything like that that a
child should not be watching and I would tune in and hang out with them and I wanted to be with them that opened a lot of doors for later on in my years about age 10 and 11 is when I started to drink and smoke and started to leave the house very young um by this time my siblings are out living on their own completely so it was just me my father and my mother in the trailer I remember stealing the little stashed the little like weed and alcohol that my parents had and and I
would take it and I would go do it somewhere hidden and I knew it was wrong but I was still like trying to find an escape I would steal from my parents and I started to um leave the house my dad didn't know half the time cuz he was drinking and out of it I started to have friends at school and neg negatively influenced them I also would always want to be at their house instead of mine and I really did not want them to know even about my life about where I lived I was
embarrassed of the trailer I grew up in I was embarrassed of my father smelling like alcohol he would fall in the house when he was drinking and make a lot of noise and I didn't want also my friends to hear him yelling at my mother my mom also worked at the school as a cafeteria lady that helped me get through school I really attached myself to my mother cuz she was my main caretaker I slept with her in her bed till I was aged 12 because of the fear of the spirits around the trailer I
was not going to sleep alone um I did not want to sleep alone in a room with everything going on paranormally finally I that broke and I did get into my own room the same room my sister was in the same room where she got pulled off the bed and the same room that always locked by itself and so it continued a lot of weird stuff in that room the door would still continue to lock on Me As I Grew into my teenagers age 12 I started to go to my sister's house in another city
in Colorado she was in college at the time and so I started to hang around her and her College friends I was young age 12 and 13 I would leave for school breaks for summer break Christmas break spring break and stay with her so I was exposed to a lot more alcohol a lot more smoking weed and a lot more older people forgot to mention but as a young child I did start having like boyfriends and now that I look back it was I was lacking the love of a father my father was never there
for me emotionally and um I seen seen myself as a child longing after that trying to feel feel that void so when I was 12 and 13 I would go with my sister and we would party I would put on a ton of makeup and dress like an older girl cuz I wanted to fit in with the college scene we used to party and she would take me to all these places and I would get very drunk where I would pass out and probably had alcohol poisoning but by the grace of God I never got
into the hospital or anything but she would take pictures of me and then show me after and like look this is what you looks like and that happened for a few years I would go up there with her and we would do that um I also lost my virginity at a very young age to this older man that she was friends with the family and so when I would follow her to the family's house that's when I met this um older boy and um I know I thought he was loving my life at like 13
and obviously he wasn't I remember I told her I I didn't know how to tell my mom or anybody cuz nobody ever talked to me about sexual relationships or anything like that so I ran to my sister right away and I told her what happened and she started crying cuz she had a child at a young age not too young um she was 19 but she didn't want the same thing happening to me so she took me to um the clinic and she got me on birth control and got me a Plan B pill just
in case and um I took it and I just continued back in my lifestyle drinking every day smoking as much as I could smoking weed um lying manipulating very and pure and modest that continued till age 14 age 14 is like the main year so age 14 um I got my gallbladder taken out I had a an attack my gallbladder got blocked up and I got that surgery to remove it the doctor told me it's because of certain foods you ate and I told him what I had ate the night before and he said yeah
that's what caused it and so that triggered an eating disorder I used to starve myself it started out innocent looking I just wanted to avoid certain foods because that's what hurt me I thought and then it started to get worse and I was like okay well if I'm not going to eat that then this probably does the same thing so I stopped eating a lot of things that turned into a full-blown eating disorder and I really liked it at the time CU it was a form of control everything chaotic in my life my dad my
mom them not loving each other I never got to see that relationship of a husband and wife my dad's always drinking my mom's trying to work and provide and be there for me I had this sense of control I can control how much I eat and also too like I I liked the fact that I felt smaller I guess and it's it wasn't it wasn't good and that same year when I was 14 my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer and um I was still very demanding of her I demanded her to drive me places
demanded money I would lie to her and say I need money for lunch or for snacks I would save my money she gave me and purchased alcohol and weed um I had old people around me that I would give the money to so they can do it for me and age 14 is also a big year because that's when I met my now husband we were in high school I was just starting my freshman year of high school and he was in his sophomore year and we had a mutual class and I thought oh he's
cute like I I want to get to like know him and so he was with one of his friends the first week of high school starting for me and they were scrolling on Facebook trying to talk to people and he said he saw my profile picture and so he decided to message me so he messaged me that first week of high school just like hey what's up probably and I responded and that flourished into a friendship also I was like wow this guy's really cool because he had older siblings that also drank and also smoked
and were also in that scene I would still save my lunch money that my mom would give me and then I would give it to him and he would give it to his brother or his sister and the boyfriend at the time and they would get us our stuff our alcohol and our weed and everything so that was all the um when I was 14 my mom during her breast cancer time I was not there for her I was very rude like I said I lied to her but she has forgiven me and she just
laughs about it and says you were just a kid and I said I know but like I'm so sorry Mom like please forgive me like I wish I was there for you like I'm so sorry and she forgives me and she still like to this day and she um God completely removed removed that from her life completely healthy cancer free so when when I met my now husband when I was 14 we just cling to each other he he didn't come from the best family as well so we were like wow we have each other
let's just be together 24/7 so we would literally stay at each other's house all the time um our parents allowed it they they weren't very strict in that sense he also came from a family that didn't have a marriage we just cling to each other and we partied and uh I used to host parties and I had um also a cousin who was a drug dealer and we would hang out around his place all the time we would we would uh do dishes for for some weed or some alcohol we would drive around with him
while he went and did drug deals and I was involved in that um more than just him many different people who doubt drugs or did drugs and that happened till 14 to 16 those years were seemed kind of blurry to me because I was in the middle of full-blown into an eeden disorder full-blown into addiction full-blown into just manipulation lying cheating I cheated on my husband now but my boyfriend then with other of his friends and um a lot of them would Supply me weed and I'd be like oh like that's cool and then like
go hang out with them when I was about age 15 we had this family friend that um used to supply Weed and Alcohol to us he ended up dying through an alcoholic situation they're drinking and he got ran over and now that I look back I'm just glad like God has protected us from being in that moment cuz that could have been us God has really spared my life a few times many times and I'm thankful now back then it was just a big blur um I didn't care about anything other than getting my next
fix um getting my next high getting my next Buzz um I stayed around my drug dealer cousin always around hard drugs but never did it always around the paraphernalia of it he was our best friend we we were always there partying the moment when I came to Jesus it was actually during one of the drug runs so we used to drive mean uh my husband back then we used to drive my drug dealer cousin around and it was probably evening time it was getting dark out I remember that so it's probably evening we were waiting
for him to finish the deal inside the house and it was just me and my husband my boyfriend at the time and uh we were in the car waiting and so he decided to bring up the devil and I always say like the devil led me to Jesus because he overplayed his hand and what he meant for evil God turned around for the good my husband he mentioned the Devil is a female and I said the devil is not a female because I wanted to defend my gender it was we were children you got to
remember I was 16 he was 17 so we were we were having childish uh conversations I said the devil's not a female like the devil's definitely a guy and you got to remember I didn't grow up with God I didn't hear the name of Jesus like i' I never thought about church like my parents could care less I had distant uh family that like did Catholic and stuff my S well my sister and my my brother said they did Catholic school but they never continued in any of it and so I Googled it I was
like is the devil a female and when I Googled that question um scripture popped up and it was the first time I read scripture and a real quick Point too my husband comes from a father who is a Christian he was saved later in his years and a mother as well so I believe his father's prayers came to pass in our lives and we did get saved and Jesus did take us out from the pit we were in and he has he had caught us many times drinking and smoking and in his bedroom and he
would come in and preach to us and he would say you need to not do this I don't remember what he was saying I was probably too high but I just know it it made a difference and he was preaching Jesus and the salvation that he can give us and just everything so I Googled it scripture pops up on Google and it just hit my heart and I was like wow like it came alive it didn't just hit my mind it went straight to my heart and my eyes were open like my spiritual eyes were
opened and I was reading the scripture and it was talking about Howell and and sin Sinners and how Jesus is coming back soon and it was talking about how Jesus came to set people free and how he can take away all of this her and that there is someone who a God who loves me and I was reading it and I was like okay like this is interesting I want this and I don't remember too much else about what happened after I read my cousin must have came out of the house after his deal and
we drove back to my husband's house we were always together 24/7 always stayed in the same room the same bed our parents didn't care like I said so when we got back to his house his parents house they had a room in the back full of books so I knew there had to be a Bible back there somewhere so I went to the back room and I started searching through all the books and I found a children's Bible and I was like Bingo this is gold I'm taking this and I told my husband at the
or my boyfriend which is my husband now I told him we can't be staying at each other's house anymore I can't stay here tonight like I need to go home like God's real like and I don't want to go to hell like the the the scripture that I read I did not want to go go to hell to this place called hell and I wanted the freedom that Jesus spoke about I was like I want this and so the fear of the Lord Came Upon me and I was like wow like Jesus is real like
there is God like what like I was just mind blowing I was like Jesus is coming back tonight like I need to get my life right and so I told him I can't stay here I got got the children's Bible and that night he decided as well he going to give his life to the Lord once and for all we also decided we needed to do things right we didn't want to break up we just wanted to get married and so I was 16 he was 17 in his bedroom right after having an encounter with
God he proposed to me in his bedroom no ring nothing and asked if I would be his wife and he wants to be with me forever I said yes and we were children and I went home I was like cool like this is great we're going to get married and everything's going to be good and I went home to my parents with the Bible I decided to wait till the next day to speak with them we we decided we need to tell our parents we were going to get married and um I read the whole
book of Revelations in the children's Bible that night because I thought Jesus was coming back that that night and I needed to know details cuz I don't know why in The Book of Revelations I was drawn to it cuz it was the last book so I'm like wow like Jesus is coming back so that means we're at the end like let me just read the end of the book so I read that in the children's version the next morning I asked my mom and my father if I could speak with them they were in separate
rooms remember cuz they weren't together so I called them out of their rooms to meet me in the living room and and in their mind they're probably thinking oh she's pregnant or something because I was living Reckless and they knew it they used to party with me and my friends I told them I was like I want to get married to my husband to my boyfriend at the time my mom wanted me to explore my options but I told her no like I love this man I want to marry him I told them I found
God that God Saves I exposed everything to them I told them I've been lying I've been um stealing from you guys I'm like just forgive me I've not been living good I've been drinking smoking everything I exposed everything to them and that's first time I saw my dad shed a tear he didn't know they didn't grow up with God or they never heard about Jesus or cared to even mention me or mention Jesus to me so they were probably in shock they were like cool awesome like they didn't have the same encounter I did and
she's like well you got to finish high school before you can get married I was 16 at the time and I was like okay I'll finish High School like I'll respect you like I read in the Bible we were to honor our parents so anything in the Bible at that moment I was like I'm doing like this is real I also remember it this was August of 2015 I was about to go into my junior year of high school my H my husband was about to go into a senior year of high school we found
Jesus or Jesus found us and gave our life to him it was August we were about to start school so we also told like our principal if we could start a Bible study in our high school and he allowed it and he approved it and and I also had the opportunity to do my junior and my senior year in one year so I can graduate early and in my mind I was if I graduate I can get married so graduated high school early um with my husband when we did the Bible study in our high
school we used to also pass out Little Life Savers to advertise and we used to attach note that said Jesus is a lifesaver meeting at 6:00 p.m. or whenever it was and we would pass it to all of our fellow classmates in the high school and say come to Bible study come to Bible study and we would just advertise it and we would do the Bible studies it was like on a random week night like a Wednesday night at like 600 p.m. and we had special guests um it was our pastor of our local church
and other congregation members and we would have them come speak at our Bible study with a few people maybe like six people six students we come from the small town of you know like 2,000 to 3,000 people and our our high school class only had probably like 25 people we uh did the Bible study we got involved in our little local church in our town got involved as much as we could we were there as much as we C we could be we got involved in the youth group group we started Living for the Lord
my my mom would tell others how different I was she would say Stella is so different she's acting different she looks different and hearing that from my mom I was like wow like Jesus you're so good like you transformed me like thank you I remember going to Jesus for everything I needed to know what to wear I needed need to know how to take do my homework I needed to know what to do for the day I was just he was my best friend like he was so good like um at the beginning me and
my husband when we graduated our principal asked us to lead the prayer for graduation and so we did we we led the entire graduation everyone there the family students he allowed us to pray for them and I'm pretty sure they probably said Don't Say the Name of Jesus because they wanted to involve everybody but I was like in Jesus name amen at the end because Jesus is who saved me there's power in that name we decided to wait I graduated at 17 he was um 18 I decided I might as well just wait till I'm
18 so I don't have to have parental signature to get married so I still waited um we got graduated in May and we waited until the following year in January to get married so we moved out of our little town for a few months and wanted to start our life in another city didn't end up working out so we ended up back in our small town quickly planned a wedding within a couple months and got married in January of 2017 and and I was 18 years old I had just turned 18 and he was 19
and we um the Lord supernaturally provided an apartment for us like we should not have even had the apartment it was a lowincome apartment but you have to with those you have to be like on a a housing list and then you have they have to go down the list but we just got moved right to the top and we got like the special home where like it had like three bedrooms and it was just us to like those homes are usually reserved for families with kids but God gave us this apartment it was beautiful
you know it's our first apartment as a new newly wed couple and uh we moved everything in the week before our wedding and so once we got married we got to go to our home together Stella I I can't help to to just kind of go back a little bit here I was trying to hold myself back but it's fascinating to hear the drastic change that can come through believing in Jesus and uh it seems like you went through a radical transformation and um it's blowing my mind to just be able to hear how God
did this in your life and we hear it all the time but it's just it's just blowing my mind I I did want to take it back a little bit and if you could give a little bit more information specific specifically I was wondering everything that you were surrounded by was basically Darkness I mean the place that you lived in um the things that your parents were involved in uh your cousins your friends I mean every your the neighborhood like everything that you're around is darkness and here you go you read something online about Jesus
you say man I I don't want that I don't want hell I want Jesus you give your life to God this desire comes in your life to want to be with him how how did God help you if you could give a little bit more details in that Darkness how to not be a part not be consumed by the darkness that was around you even being at such a young age um what was that process is like when um I got saved at 16 after that encounter in the car and reading the word of God
and it coming alive to me it was a radical 24-hour switch around I completely cut out everything the next day cleaned out our entire party area all the alcohol bottles all the weed all the paraphernalia that we had we went to the local River in our town we dumped it all out we broke everything with uh rocks all the glass and everything that needed to be broken dumped all of the weed into the river and watched it float away and we were like I was fil filled with joy I was like bye like you're part
of my past like I'm done it was a radical 24-hour switch completely cold turkey no withdrawals nothing remember I was drinking every day like usually if someone's drinking every day they have some sort of withdraw God completely removed that from me even though I was still surrounded by a lot of the Darkness at my home for the for a couple more years until I moved out um I just shared the love of God with my family and they noticed the difference they noticed the way I was talking the way I was dressing the way I
was walking the way I was more patient I was doing uh I was caring for them like I never had before making dinner if I could washing the dishes just loving on them helping them I also remember the first um worship songs I was obsessed with was amazing grace and um give me Jesus by Jeremy Camp and I used to listen to those on repeat and so cutting out every secular thing every worldly thing the music that was one of the first things to go cut off cut out all the music all the party music
all the music that spoke down on someone's life the depressing music cut off friends unfortunately unfortunately um they were just on a different path than me at the time cut them off told them you know I I Found Jesus um like I also like you should find Jesus too like I didn't know how to like share the go possible yet with them cut cut people out of our life that we needed to and um just continue to love and just Shine the Light of Jesus to the darkness that was left around me and when I
was surrounded by the darkness as a child I just had hope um I just knew there was something bigger I just had to get through this childhood I thought oh like I'll grow up and like everything's going to be fine and when I found out that like I was not even ever supposed to be born cuz my mom had gotten fixed from having kids like that also sparked hope into me like okay then I I am here for a reason you know and that's how I I got through so it was a radical Freedom that
anybody can experience and it's not it's not special to me or my husband or any Christian it's available to everybody that radical Freedom that instantaneous Freedom that you can have you don't have to work through something to get to to being finally Christian and calling yourself a follower of Jesus it can be an instant transformation back to when I was and and sorry before you go back and all of this happened because you read this scripture yes I remember the scripture exactly but I remember it was talking about how and Satan and how Jesus came
to like break that and like destroy destroy the Devil and that he could save us from this place called Hal and then also reading about I don't remember the verse but it was talking about how Jesus is like a loving God and that he could he can rescue us and I needed that like I needed they're rescuing like I wasn't like uh suicidal or anything like I would try to self harm but I didn't like it like it would kind of hurt so I would like no that's not for me so I would uh do
it other ways to like harm myself drinking smoking starving myself and the scripture when it said like he could he can rescue me from that he can set me free that's when I was like wow like I need this like this is real and it became so real to me like it wasn't just a book it was like someone speaking to me like a father finally like the father I never had like finally spoke to me and said I love you and I can help you like you don't have to live like this anymore so
yeah the the the power of the word the power of of the word of God and it just you just you don't always have to be such at a low point in your life to receive what God has for you but for me it was that I was low and um that opened my heart to receive and my heart was ready for a change wow yeah I I just wanted to kind of sit with that for a minute just because I I think it's it's amazing it's amazing what God can do in somebody's life and
so you get married you guys get your own apartment um you're 18 at the time so you're still a kid but now you are now out in the world um uh both of you become Christian or both of you are walking with Jesus uh so what what happened after that yes so and how old are you today I'm 26 26 so eight years since since that moment so tell us about the last eight years yes so the first couple years of um our marriage we were walking with the Lord and um we did stop going
to our local church which is super important to stay plugged into a local church we kind of backslid we we didn't kind of backslid we backslid and uh we weren't serving the lord anymore we knew of him we knew he loved us he saved us initially like he was this awesome God but honestly the worries of Life crept in we started working um started having to pay bills take care of a home and I started started to go to college for a career in the medical field that wedge of being busy not only Drew us
apart from God but Drew us apart in our marriage and so I would be gone in the night for school and sometimes in the day cuz I would also do like work study and stuff at the school and my husband would be gone working all day so we never saw each other very very shortly just to change or just so we had one car just so he can give me the keys and I could be on my way and so that Drew our marriage apart we weren't serving God we weren't going to church on Sunday
we started watching like secular shows again Netflix stuff and just weren't living on fire for God like we were when we first got saved so we ended up just trying our best as young adults and my sleep paralysis and my nightmares and all that started to come back and I was like what's going on like I thought I was free from this and at that point I knew to call in the name of Jesus cuz I knew there is power so I would have the sleep paralysis out of- body like experiences I see myself on
the bed like struggling and I would look around my apartment and I would see like demonic figures outside the window like just like laughing and like wanting to get in and I didn't know what to do like so I would just like try to say Jesus like Jesus Save Me Jesus help me and it would be so hard sometimes like I couldn't say it like it was right there like I was being like choked out and when I did it would break it would completely I would come back and I could wake up and I
was like wow like I I did not it also put fear into me like where I didn't want to sleep again like I didn't want to experience any of that fear and I was like I like I don't want any of this fear to come back like that I had as a child so I was just like God like help me like and it continued and continued and then during college when I was in college had a lot of like I guess attacks from the devil or uh Temptations thrown at me like the lust crept
back in when from when I was a teen teenager hanging around with all the older people and having boyfriends and all this it crept back in and there was um men in in my school and all that like trying to talk to me and hang out with me and the worst part is that like I'm like no I'm married and they didn't care and they still pursued me and they probably thought it was more like a game or something at that point I ended up um cheating on my husband and uh he also was doing
stuff behind my back that I was unaware of um now that we look back we see where the open doors were we first started or stopped going to church that's why it's super important to stay plugged in and the worries of Life choked us out and um we stayed backslid in for a while we ended up moving to another apartment even further from um our local church so that was like even worse because we're like okay now we're definitely not ever going the old habits came back in um started to lie again to my hus
this time to my husband it wasn't my parents lie and be manipulative and just hanging around the wrong crowd again these people in college they didn't they didn't know about Jesus I also didn't know how to share the gospel I just knew what God had done for me and I just wanted everyone to um have the same same encounter I was never taught how to share the gospel and um I didn't even know the Holy Spirit until my early 20s I didn't I didn't know the Holy Spirit um like lived inside of me now that
I look back it was definitely the Holy Spirit but at the moment I didn't know of the holy spirit so we continued to just live for the devil again for the world and for our pleasures and for our flesh and I was getting attention from other males again and my husband he was focused elsewhere and so I was lacking that emotional support again that like my father had given me or not given me and then one day um he found out he went through my phone and I hadn't deleted anything cuz I almost wanted him
to like find out like I I needed uh him to like find catch me so I could come clean and expose it and so he found out and he confronted me and at that moment um I was probably around um age 19 age 19 or 20 I was like it's fine like I don't want to be married like I was ready for a divorce and he was like no my husband really shows me what it meant what it means when in the Bible when it says a husband supposed to love their wives as Christ loves
the church because in that moment he could have completely cut off our marriage said we're done like I'm ending this and he he decided not you decided to forgive me just as Christ has forgiven us and we obviously stayed married and then later on he exposed everything he was doing behind my back and really exposing everything into the light because the devil just loves to keep things hidden that's where things grow but once we exposed everything what we were doing again or yeah for the second time around when we came back to Jesus that's when
our relationship with God really flourished like we really started to to eat the meat and rather than just the milk like we started to mature in our Christian walk it was probably 2020 for me when I started to be curious on YouTube I would find certain preachers on YouTube and I would just binge watch all these YouTubers talking about Jesus and they had like Christian channels and that really helped me get back on track with the Lord just hearing other people's testimonies as well I was like wow like God can save them and at this
point I was like I once knew Jesus and now I didn't like I'm nothing like I'm too dirty for him like he'll never accept me again it's just the devil lying I had also got into New Age stuff tarot um horoscopes astrology yoga like all of that I was like well I I need to try to find my way back to God and so I tried that way and it wasn't working not only did my like fear come back with the Sleep PR and all that but also like my eating sort of got re-trigger somehow
and I just started to fall back into Old patterns I actually allowed somebody to do a tarot reading on me and that was a huge open door and a huge mistake um that's when a lot of things started to fall apart even more but anyways when I started watching all these YouTube Christian channels and hearing other testimonies is when I decided okay like Jesus does still love me and like I can be re-accepted and he can save me for the second time around like I said I did know of Jesus I loved him I respected
him you know well I probably didn't love him because I wasn't serving him wholeheartedly but I knew of him and I respected him like yes he is God but like I didn't know how to get back and after exposing everything we decided to just pursue him wholeheartedly again um we got baptized I got baptized as a as a baby in a Catholic setting but I had never been baptized Elsewhere on my own choice and in a Christian um setting and so we got baptized in the same river that we threw all of our drug paraphernalia
and uh alcohol by the pastor who married us we got baptized in 2021 and we just started Ed to pursue the call of God on our life 2021 um we also attended this revival in our um Hometown that my my cousin drug dealer he put on because he ended up a couple years prior he got stabbed and he had his own encounter with the Lord and he got saved so he would do these uh revivals these outreaches in our town and we really recommitted our life back to the Lord at those outreaches we started to
get involved with him and his ministry with the homeless and hosting outreaches for the community and his motto was he had taken away from the community by being the drug dealer he wanted to give back and so we're like yes we're on we're on board with you that was in 2021 and um 2022 we had a Revival meeting again and we also got involved in a local church um at at the time we were obsessed with like Bible studies we just wanted to know more about the word of God and who who God was like
Not only was um our relationship like with God like more long term because we had been saved at 16 and then got resaved again they're just like wow like God's so complex like there's so much to know like you you can never know everything about the Lord it was just amazing like we were hungry again and thirsty for him and the pastor at the local church we started attending he allowed us to become the youth leaders he saw this call of God on our life that we didn't see so we just you know trust we
we we we surrendered our life to the Lord and um we trusted whatever you know he wanted to do the pastor of the local church also was doing um a call of God class and we were attending and we're like okay like we know we're going to be Christians but like we didn't understand the call of God like we just knew like okay you're Christian like what more is there we didn't know like Ministry or anything was like a thing and he wanted us to come on staff fulltime as like the youth pastors at the
church but we never had the peace to quit our secular jobs and go full-time there but then we went to this survival we we didn't know at the time but we were we were like overwhelmed by the presence of God and this revival and God was calling us to Ministry and the evangelists that were there um told us about a Bible School a Ministry School where you can come and get trained up and you're in you're in it every day all the time you're out there learning how us save people on the streets evangelizing and
doing the work and um they was located out of state out of Colorado and me and my husband were like we're never leaving like this is our home forever and we were stubborn and we also were never going to pursue Ministry or go to Bible school we thought that was useless like we have the Bible like that's enough like we're good and uh just very stubborn very not open to everything the Lord has for us and then but in that Revival it broke just felt the overwhelming presence of the Lord again and we were just
like staring at each other in that Revival but like God was like downloading stuff simultaneously because then when we came together after we're like what happened like what what was God talking to you like oh like we're going to Bible School like we're going to pursue this call of ministry and so we ended up here now in Florida and um back on fire for the Lord pursuing the call of God on our life that had always been there but we just weren't mature enough weren't ready to pursue it and yeah now we're flourishing for the
Lord we know how to save people on the streets and talk to others about Jesus and you know just save the lost to Jesus Isa how's your relationship with uh your parents today yeah thanks for asking so um my brother my sister my mom and my dad have all accepted Jesus as their lord and savior and it's great a great relationship I had to forgive my parents a lot that was also something that I had held on to which which followed me when I was backsliding I had to forgive I didn't know that was something
that could hold you back from the full potential of of what God has for you and that that unforgiveness also is a weight a chain that the devil uses to hold hold you down but my relationship now is great it's beautiful I could say that I have led all my poor family immediate family members to the Lord and yeah who is Jesus to you Jesus is my best friend um I go to him for everything he is my protector yes for sure he is the one I call upon he is my redeemer Jesus Is My
Savior the one who saved me when I when I needed it most Jesus is the joy I have the smile I have and the reason of our life today could you pray um for those who are watching right now and have stuck around and are saying man I want to give my life to Jesus I don't know how to do it or maybe I don't know if I can do it because of how dirty I am or how far I am from God um but for those who have that desire who who are saying you
know what like something's going on and and I this is just not right my life is not right I need God could you pray for those who are watching right now and are responding um to what you've shared yes so I just want to let you know as well that in the Bible it says for all have sinned and come short of the glory of God but the wages of sin is death and the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ and whosoever calls upon the name of the Lord shall all be saved
and we're all whosoever is so I also just want to pray for you quickly so before I give you the opportunity to receive or renew your relationship with the Lord so father I ask that you bless the person on the other side of this screen with long and healthy life Lord I ask that you make yourself real to them as you never have before God and I ask that you just open their heart to receive so my friend if you would like to receive Jesus as your lord and savior or recommit your life to him
I want you to say this with me with your heart and with your lips out loud so say dear Lord Jesus Come into my heart forgive me of my sin wash me and cleanse me Set Me Free Jesus I thank you that you died for me and and I believe you are risen and coming back for me fill me with the Holy Spirit and give me a passion for the things of God and the Holy boldness to preach the Gospel of Jesus Christ I'm saved I'm born again and I'm forgiven because I have Jesus in
my heart amen amen Stella any last last words for those who are watching uh your testimony right now yes so just want you to remember to always run to God never from him he loves you he has great plan for your life and every attack or every devil you think's holding you back is broken because Jesus came to set the captives free [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music]