[Music] [Music] hello my beautiful angels welcome back to my channel I'm Isabelle palus if you're new here and this is your first video of mine you're watching welcome it is so good to have you this is a video I've been requesting Ted to do so so so much I think this is probably my most highly requested video and this is the video that has been the hardest for me to record because well first of all recorded it about two or three times before this and always something happened to it like some kind of technical difficulty
happened like either it was my audio that was messed up or when I went to upload the file after editing it would be corrupted so I don't know what it was there's all types of things that I think probably were it if you're watching this video it's because you are ready to hear it I'm ready to finally put my message out and talk about my faith Journey so this has also been something I am really upset at myself for not putting out earlier I should have made this video a long time ago and I'm just
done you know caring what people think or what people are going to judge me or if people are going to not like my content anymore unsubscribe unfollow I've had that already and I've had people say things anytime I talk about God or Jesus or my faith but the majority of it has been very positive I'm making this video hopefully to inspire others to give Clarity and also if you have been a longtime subscriber of my channel to offer just a glimpse into who I am now in my heart and why I sto making the content
that I used to make so if you are new here you didn't know I started making Law of Attraction content back in around 2015 I would want to say and I've been on YouTube for a while since I was 16 I'm 30 now and I started off doing beauty makeup tutorials I still have all those up and basically I segwayed into spirituality Law of Attraction because that's what I was focusing on in that time of my life so I'm going to kind of give you guys a backstory about my journey since I was little in
my faith in my spirituality if you guys want to skip that and go on to the next part where I'm going to talk about my thoughts now on Law of Attraction and Christianity and all of that tarot astrology can skip to the next part but if you want to listen to my story obviously it would give a lot of context to why this transition has happened I was a cradle Catholic basically born and raised Catholic baptized first communion all that and I would say that my family even though wasn't super religious my dad is not
very religious I mean he believes in Jesus and in God but he was never the type to want to go to church my mom was definitely the one who would push and guide us to look for God for Jesus and she would take us to mass and to this day she's very dedicated to her faith but basically growing up I've always been very spiritual I've always looked for the esoteric I guess you can say my idea of God was very much like God was someone who was going to punish me and if I wasn't good
God would punish me or things would go wrong or bad things would happen in my life so I very much had a fear of God but there was always something that I couldn't explain as a young child probably like 7 8 9 10 years old going into mass and the only way I can explain it now as an adult is just like a deep love and adoration like this feeling within me that just would drive me to tears like right now I'm thinking about it and it drives me to tears and I still feel that
to this day when I go to to church and I pray I have like this steep overwhelming sense to to cry and not in like a terror or anything like that but just like a beautiful profound feeling I never really had a good grounding of Christianity I kind of would judge Christianity off of other Christians or other Catholics or other people who I would know but I never really knew what it was to have a relationship with God so it was kind of like rules that you have to follow or shame or Catholic guilt some
people talk about so that was kind of my way of seeing I was I've never been like an atheist I've always had this idea that there was something bigger than me and a god and I always had that sense of God so growing up went into high school and high school I still went to church I had my first communion actually kind of late like at 15 but I always had this calling to Jesus I think at one point I thought about becoming a nun like I had this calling all my life always there I
just didn't know how to go about it I didn't know what it looked like I think when you looked at a religious person or a Catholic person or any person of faith you probably thought they were weird like that was kind of my image of it so I never knew how to actually live by my faith if that makes sense I never really read the Bible so I went into having like a very secular High School experience and basically I went into the debate team I was in the debate team for four years and I
remember I had this very specific moment freshman year on the debate team I was like 14 15 years old having my first practice cuz the debate team was basically competition so you would have practices after school I was in LD Lincoln Douglas debate so was a lot of morality-based debate I remember the coach and this is just like a very secular environment logic you can quote Plato you can quote Socrates you can quote Emanuel Kant you can quote John lock all these different things right but you could never obviously quote the Bible anything religious my
morality came from God God from came from God's rules so that was kind of like my Paradigm the way I was raised in a way but going into debate I remember we were having a practice round and it was my very first practice round where we were doing a cross-examination and I think the topic that we were debating which in debate you have to create two cases basically for each topic so you do an affirmative case which is the pro and then you do a negative case which is the obviously the con against it so
you would have a top and the topic was I believe this topic was it is morally permissible to kill one person to save the life of many so that was the topic and doesn't matter what your personal stance was you had to be able to debate both sides of the topic so all is just to tell you what kind of mentality you're in basically in debate so I go in and we're doing a practice round in the coach she was nearby and she's a nice lady you know nothing against her or anything but at one
point the girl that was cross-examining me this is just so clear in my head cuz it's it was just such a formative moment you know like I guess a core memory I guess you could say and she asked where do our rights come from and my knee-jerk reaction was just they come from God they're bestowed upon us by God immediately the debate coach she just snapped and looked at me and she was like no no no no no you cannot say God no religion no God and she just kind of scoffed or like laughed at
me and turned around and walked away and I was just red face I was just mortified in that moment cuz I was a little freshman I was trying to sound smart whatever I thought it was a smart thing to do and just shut me down and so that kind of did something to my brain where it told me basically if you're a smart person if you're a logical person you don't really follow these God rules basically what God says or the idea of God is not for educated smart people and I was just kind of
very shy I never really stuck up for myself or my beliefs really in high school I didn't have the personality for it so I just kind of went along with it you know and I never really questioned those things when people would say oh Christians or this or that or you know Catholics are weird and people would say stuff I would never you know stand up for it or against it I kind of kept my mouth shut I would hear things like oh the Bible is man-made it's all made up it's made to control people
so I started to kind of form this idea in my mind that the Bible was created to control people especially women that kind of continued on to college any kind of semblance of me trying to create a relationship with God kind of just went out the window I think because there was just so much drinking so much partying so many distractions that my relationship with God just went out the window and I started to really have cuz I studied political science so a lot of political Theory classes a lot of political philosophy classes a lot
of my professors just always talked about religion in a negative sense I remember I read Carl Marx and said religion is the Opium of the masses so had a lot of just atheistic rhetoric I guess you can say not only that but I just didn't feel like identified anymore with it I felt like as a woman it was anti-feminist that it was anti-woman it was meant to keep women down and give men all the power but also in tandem with this in college my freshman year I remember I went through a really really rough time
emotionally mentally spiritually and I felt very lost I felt very depressed and obviously drinking and partying was there it was like I went to a very Party Central University where it was a lot of I mean just the town I lived in was was very much like that New Orleans which ju the position of New Orleans there's a lot of Catholic influence and there's a lot of pagan witchcraft influence and I loved the Witchcraft stuff I love the Pagan stuff it was just it was awesome it was dark had that influence and I thought oh
look at all these people they're so happy they have the right way of doing things Christianity is all about shame and shaming you and the idea of sin I was also looking for something more I was looking for a connection I was looking for something something to heal me but then there came a point where God you know Jesus always calls out to you Jesus always calls out to his sheep and his flock and I remember after freshman year I went back home and it was like I had kind of come to Jesus moment where
I said you know things can't continue the way they are and I really felt the call to go back to church to read the Bible specifically to be a Christian woman I wanted to be a Godly woman woman I just didn't know how I remember I bought a Bible I was reading it I didn't really get it I was going to different churches I remember I went to Bible studies at different churches like non- denominational churches I liked them I liked learning about the word all of that kind of culminated to me going back to
school that fall semester and then just slipping right back slipping or backsliding I don't know what the term is but you kind of just go away from your faith again I was still going through tough things emotionally a lot of anxiety started showing up in my life I didn't know if what I was studying was right for me I didn't know if the path I was on was right for me I was just very lost and then as I was searching on YouTube one day I came across a comment on this random video I was
watching and somebody said watch The Secret the movie it's on Netflix those times it was on Netflix watch the secret it changed my life so I was like oh my gosh this movie sounds awesome and I always had kind of like I said an interest in the esoteric and the Occult so when I started watching the movie The Secret I went on Netflix and I turned it on and I watched it and it was like everything just kind of connected in my brain like everything started to make sense I remember whenever I was young me
and my sister we would say that we were witches because anything we would talk about would happen we would feel things or we were very intuitive and all these different things would happen so I watched the secret and I was like this is making so much sense oh and it's in the Bible it says asking you shall receive seeking you shall find oh my gosh so all I have to do is ask the universe and will something and and focus in on it and make it an intention and write it down and Trust in the
universe and have so much belief in the universe that it'll happen like no religion no none of this idea of sin or any of this idea of shame or you know any of this man-made stuff this is this is it so I started to dive into books like the secret law of attraction ction books and I remember I started to make videos on YouTube kind of started pulling away from the Beauty and makeup videos I was making and started to talk about my spirituality and I think there's a video it's probably still up on my
channel I don't know if I'm going to get rid of these videos eventually but still up on my channel where I was talking about my anxiety and something that really helped me with my anxiety was the idea that if I think positive thoughts and I think good things and I focus on good things that's what will grow right kind of like trying to P away my anxiety and so I dove into the world of self-help and the world of self-help does have a lot of Law of Attraction coded language it just has a lot of
that idea that you know it's self-help it's all about you you're the one that does everything you're the one that has to make changes which it has its good stuff self-help I would say but it also kind of veers you away from God and that's what it did for me so I was heavily in the Law of Attraction but there was always something kind of like in the back of my mind that would always tell me like you know what about Jesus what about God and I thought well maybe the universe is God I hear
people say it interchangeably like I'll say it interchangeably Jesus God the universe it's all the same we are all one basically you know Buddha everyone we're all one there's no difference Jesus is an ascended Master Christ Consciousness and Jesus was just simply an enlightened being and that's it so I was manifesting a lot for me the law of attraction was working because I was manifesting a lot of money abundance travel my love life probably wasn't in the best place I you know had gone through heartbreak a lot and situationships and things like that so I
was just very jaded but I wanted to manifest a relationship I ended up I'm not going to get too much into this because this is a long story so I ended up manifesting a relationship that relationship ended up being so bad toxic a lot of manipulation emotional abuse it was a long-distance relationship I've talked about it before but after that relationship ended and I finally was able to get out of that relationship it was like God kept calling back to me and I'm going to tell you how God kept calling back to me there was
witchcraft involved in that relationship by that ex partner I had and I didn't know until after the fact but all the signs were there I was just very blinded which is something that people don't tell you about so after that relationship ended I was pretty lost for a while and I remember when I was trying to end the relationship I say trying because the person would not let me break up with them it was it was a really just bad situation and so I remember I employed a psychic which now I'm not I'm not fond
of that and I had gotten into tarot trying to feel a sense of control over my situation really read into astrology cuz I wanted to figure out what was going to happen what was coming into my life who was coming into my life that was something that I regret doing because I Repent of that because it was just not the right thing for me to do at the moment just because I was feeling lost I was feeling ashamed I was feeling out of control I was feeling weak I was feeling heartbroken but luckily I decided
to kind of release all of that and actually focus on healing and specifically healing in my femininity healing the feminine aspects of myself that I had suppressed for so long because for so long I was in pursuit of money I was in pursuit of material gain material success this is why the law of attraction was so powerful for me and so important to me because of the fact that I was so hung up on the material and wanting to create this life and all of this instead of focusing on what was truly important and focusing
on the true power of the Holy Spirit I was led by other types of spirits and led by other types of energies that we don't talk about enough when you do divination and astrology and things like that especially tarot we don't know what spiritual aspects we are tapping into but we do it because we're looking for answers I dove into gnosticism I dove into all these different things as I healed in my femininity and as I was healing my heart through my breakup I was called to study the women of early Christianity and study the
women of the Bible and in particular mother Mary and Mary Magdalene Mary Magdalene was one that I really did a deep dive in I read you know the Lost gospels of Mary the ones that did and make it into the Bible just so many women of Christianity were calling out to me as I was rediscovering my femininity and especially the women of Christianity which we don't talk about but what did Womanhood look like what was it made to look like in Jesus's eyes and that's something that I'm grateful that I went and I healed my
femininity and I dove into femininity because as I took my focus away from the Law of Attraction and trying to manifest things or manifest myself out of situations or manifest the sadness away instead I actually Dove deep into what my soul was calling me to and as I read of these women especially mother Mary and Mary Magdalene and their love for Jesus and how they exhibited this Holiness and how Jesus especially for Mary Magdalene he transformed her and basically being possessed into being this woman who was probably the most important woman woman next to him
other than mother Mary such a soul call to me that I am grateful that I did and as I dove into that it just called me back to Jesus I never felt fulfilled until I started to dive deep into the lives of these Christian women the early Christians especially and how they did things and the mysticism around it and I actually found out that I could be a spiritual person as I naturally was and be a Christian and those were the things and be Catholic and those were the things that we often don't realize when
we grow up in the faith is that there's a whole other aspect of the faith that is just waiting for us to look at and to call upon and everything started to shift when I started to actually read the Bible and I remember in my single days I would pray so much and pray for a family I wanted so much to be a mother I wanted a beautiful family and I remember in early 2019 I was single and I finally decided you know I'm healing in my femininity I'm surrendering to God similarly to what these
great women did and they trusted in Jesus and they gave their life to Jesus and I started to do that and it's like God opened up so many doors for me God really showed up in in 2019 when I surrendered to his plan he showed up in ways that I could have never imagined and showed me basically look at what your life can be through your faith I actually have a whole prayer Journal all the prayers I would write out and I highly recommend that if you're just starting your journey definitely get a prayer journal
and write down your prayers and it's crazy guys I was single in 2019 and a year later met the love of my life and then less than a year after that we were Overjoyed when we found out my daughter was on her way I know none of that would have been possible without god without trusting in his plan and there's just some verses that I just love so if you go into the Book of John so John chapter 14 do not let your hearts be troubled believe in God believe also in Me In My Father's
House there are many Dwelling Places if it were not so would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you and this just opened up so much in my heart in my mind it really renewed my heart to read John especially through being brokenhearted through feeling lost I highly recommend that if you don't know where to start when you're reading the Bible definitely start in the Book of John but verse 6 really spoke to me always it says Jesus said to him I am the way and the truth and the life
no one comes to the father except through me if you know me you will know my father also from now on do know him and have seen him that stood out to me that this is the truth and this is what I am going to put all my faith in instead of putting faith in cards instead of putting faith in the Stars instead of putting faith in other people instead of putting faith in myself I will put my faith in Jesus another thing that helped me in my healing Journey was the idea that I could
depend on my heavenly father and although I have a great relationship with my Earthly father father it was the surrendering to the Divine masculine that I call God that surrender to the Divine masculine is one of the hardest things that we can do especially as we're healing and I realize the most feminine the most soft thing that I can do is lean on my heavenly father and lean on his protection his love his care and so there's another great verse in Revelation chapter 21 chapter 21:5 and the one who was Seated on the throne said
see I am making all things new it really served as a reminder to me that no matter how many heartbreaks no matter my past no matter what I've been through or maybe the things that I've sinned and I've done wrong Jesus will make all those things new all the stuff from the past he will wipe it and give you a clean slate and start your life all over again obviously I am skipping a lot of my story there's just so much I can go in depth in especially during my single season the season of weight
waiting and the time it took for me to heal my heart that's a whole other video and I can talk about Jesus and healing and the healing of your heart definitely that's something you guys are interested in I'm going to talk about my thoughts on the Law of Attraction because I do get a lot of questions from people who were in similar things as me similar mindset as me you know being open-minded open to the idea we are one Christ Consciousness all these things Christ talked about the law of attraction the law of ractions in
the Bible and I want to talk about that because for a long time I fought against that I would get so triggered when people would say the law of attraction is evil the law of attraction is not of God the law of attraction is not of Jesus you cannot be Christian and I used to say well that is so close-minded that is so fear-based and one thing I think we failed to realize a lot of times when we get into the law of attraction is we look at it as such a positive beautiful thing right
think positive thoughts and good things will come to you and I used to be so naive guys I used to be so naive that I used to say the law of attraction is not evil it can't be used for bad things because you have to be in a high vibration to attract good things the Law of Attraction can be used for good and evil The Law of Attraction works I've seen it work I've seen it happen the thing is that it is create your own will do what thou Wilt which is a satanic Trope do
what you want right create your reality the problem that I have with the law of attraction it's not that it's evil or not like I said it works you can use it for good and you can use it for evil thing about the law of attraction is it fundamentally releases your need for God it takes your focus away from God it puts your focus solely on yourself and on the material and I believe that's what the enemy wants the enemy uses is I mean it says the enemy will use the Bible to deceive you and
that's something that I was so naive until I actually had my own spiritual encounters and I actually saw what evil can be and what the spiritual realm really is what the Law of Attraction does is people like Oprah and celebrities will talk about it and use it h okay okay and it will use the law of attraction to take your Focus away from God from the truth from the life from the way to yourself to worshiping yourself I've seen people in The Law of Attraction space call themselves Gods you know goddesses I was guilty of
this too right and it really takes away your focus on your relationship with God and putting your faith in God that's the issue I have with it was that I would lean on my own understanding which is again scripture lean on my own understanding be my own God be the one who's in control of everything lean on ego ego ego ego wanting to be you know show off all the things I manifest and show all the things that come into my life and make this this beautiful thing and the more I did that the more
I separated from God and the separation caused a lot of pain for me and there came a point where I would say I'm trying to manifest I'm going to ask the universe and I would ask what is the universe oh the universe is a benevolent Mir miror that you know does all this and then I realized okay I can look at the universe as this benevolent mirror or this good energy but where is God in all this God is the creator of the universe why am I worshiping creation or looking at creation as something that
is giving me all these things and why don't I look at the Creator focus on the relationship with the Creator I found the surrendering to God's will it might not go perfectly according to what my ego wants or what the flesh wants or what my mind wants or my heart wants but it's the right thing for me and I have seen that in my own life that when I trusted in God and I released it and I gave faith and I because faith without works is dead right so we have to give Works behind our
faith we have to work along with our faith not just let it go and let it be I realized how much more I don't not only just fulfilled I felt but more at peace Within Myself especially as I became a mother my faith really told me this was a part of God's plan the whole time and God gave me my family my daughter specifically as a promise of the future because I was at a point in my life where I felt like I had no future and I was in a dark place emotionally mentally spiritually
and I felt like I had no future I felt like there wasn't anything waiting for me and boom came my daughter and it was like she transformed Our Lives she did so much for me and made me grow so much and made me realize if I ever had any doubts in God if I ever had any doubts in Jesus she showed me there were no doubts like a physical manifestation of God's blessings was her all I do now is pray and I have faith even when things are going wrong I focus on my faith I
read the Bible when I'm anxious it's the best thing it really renews your spirit renews your mind and I don't feel the need to have control like my ego trying to control everything it's like I've released and I've surrendered I've done the most feminine thing is surrender to the master plan to the divine plan to God's plan and it has been the most transformative four or five years that I've been doing this and I think it really started in 2019 when God really showed up in my life and transformed it and my life has turned
out better than any manifestation I could have dreamed of all of this is to say is to have a relationship with Jesus and welcome him into your heart as Matthew 7:7 7: 7 to8 says ask and it shall be given to you seek and you shall find knock and that shall be open unto you for everyone that asks receives and he that seeks finds and to him that knocks it shall be opened this is not just a little pretty verse for the Law of Attraction it's so much more that is how we come into Divine
Union with the Lord with Jesus and we come into this relationship because at the end of the day as I go to mass and I pray and I take communion and I'm not perfect by any means I'm not here to be a perfect person that's I'm already whole and complete in the Lord but I realize that the more that I seek him and I look for him that relationship is strengthened and the thing about God is that he's he's your father you know he's not going to force you he's not going to keep you in
a jail cell you have Free Will and the most beautiful thing is that when you on your own volition you look for him he's going to call out to you and he's going to look for you and he's going to want you back in his home but the thing is that you need to start that yourself you need to want that yourself and if your heart is seeking that today let go of the past let go of what happened let go of any preconceived notions about Christians or Catholics or anybody Orthodox I don't care what
denomination you are we're all Christians we all Believe In Christ seek your relationship with him seek read get a Bible dive deep into the word if you don't understand get a Bible study go online and and find different translations my translation is the nrsv Catholic edition look for answers don't just lean on your own mind or your own understanding dive deep into this because if there's something that Christian Mystics have taught me if there's something learning about the different women of Christianity is that being a Christian or being a Catholic or Orthodox or whatever it's
not just about reading the Bible going to church it's about living really the spiritual aspect of it opening your heart opening your mind to the supernatural of Jesus the supernatural of God the supernatural of mother Mary and there's so much out there the fullness of the faith is insane it blows your mind so that is my faith Journey my testimony my thoughts it's dark outside when I started this video it was light so I need to get this wrapped up but if you guys have any questions for me or anything you'd like to know any
specific videos you want I am just an open book at this point I'm sorry if my uploads have become fewer and far in between it's because I was kind of in a place with content that I didn't know what to make I didn't know what to talk about and I really wanted to put this video out and I actually watched the video um My Father Mark Goring I believe is his name and he talked about how June is the month of the Sacred Heart of Jesus so I was like wow it's divine timing the fact
that I'm putting out this video in June when I've been planning this video since probably January so anyways thank you so much everyone for watching and I am so grateful for you I'm grateful for you listening if you made it to this point and I hope to hear your own stories and your own testimony your own Journeys down below and I hope this serves as a reminder of what's truly important and even if you disagree with me if you don't see eye to eye I love you still and I respect you and I hope that
you respect me as well so I'm sending you all my love my beautiful angels always remember this no matter who you may be in this life no matter what you're going through what you look like always remember that your true beauty your true worth and your true power always come from within I love you and I will see you in my next video oh and also I don't know what kind of content you guys want to see from me now that I've kind of done this reveal I guess and this switch and I have switched
I have changed in so many ways it's just let me know okay thank you so much and I will see you guys hopefully soon bye-bye
