What Does A Teal Swan Workshop REALLY Look Like?

Okay, we're going second to the right, totally back of the row. Yes. [ Giggles ] Everybody looks like they regret it so much when I pick them.

[ Applause ] You guys enjoying this? [Cheering] Me too. T: Hello.

Attendee: Hi. T: Welcome to the pressure cooker. A: Okay um.

. . My question is what do I do if I.

. . I know I need to.

. . I know I need to change something in my life, but I don't trust myself?

I feel like my self-compass is very off and. . .

every time I follow something, I feel like it's. . .

when I grew up, it just, it fails me. I had a very close relationship with my father, that failed me. I grew up religious in a certain religion, failed me.

Um. . .

I met people who were conscious, aware, spiritual. . .

they're just people, they're going to fail me. Um. .

. I don't. .

. And then there's always just voices and concepts in my head that's questioning every single thing. I love watching your videos and I know you're awesome, but and then for some reason in my dreams you come and you harm me, even though I know you'd never do that.

But I just I can't set focus on one thing and then, when I think "Okay, it's all within you, you just need to focus on you, focus on your intuition, focus on what you feel". . .

Um, my brain is just in every other opposite direction. "No. This is why: 1) 2) 3) This can't be it.

This can't be the truth there's. . .

" I just can't trust myself. T: Okay, so in. .

. The reason why I'm not following, really, is because you say "I don't trust myself", but then every story that you are telling me is about how other people have ruined your life. So, it's it's almost like if there's a self-distrust, it's that you put yourself, almost like, relying on another and then, the other fails.

So, why do you keep doing that? A: Well, I'm talking about that in the sense of the past. So, I'm trying to become more aware I'm trying to become more conscious of myself and whatever powers I have in me, but I can't get over that step.

There's too much resistance, there's too much: "You're wrong. You are crazy. Coming to something like this, what, are you joining a cult?

" Um. . .

Just every concept like, "what are you doing? ". I can't freely just follow something and really do it, because.

. . T: What does that aspect of you want you to be doing?

Remember the one that I did before, I think it was before lunch. . .

? yeah, before lunch I did this thing here where I showed you that there's a protector, right? who's in the way.

Obviously, there's a part of you that's trying to keep you safe in this whole dynamic, but I wanna understand what exactly that part is after. Like, if it had its best case scenario, it got to design your life for you, what would that look like? A: A life of.

. . No, that's the other side, the other side just really wants.

. . Well, the protector, yes?

It wants stability, it wants inner peace, it wants to be able to sleep at night easily, it wants to not just have constant thoughts coming in, anti each other. . .

I just, I want to feel grounded in something and i feel like anything I ground myself into it's just, it's not absolute. There's no one absolute truth that I'm constantly looking for. T: That's not that aspect.

No. That's more like, when you talk to me like, like you are right now, it's more like you've got a manager aspect of self that is telling you about your internal system. It's not like, the truth of that part that's constantly chiding you for being here, or doing anything else.

A: Okay, so you're saying specifically why that aspect is trying to protect me? T: yeah, not why that aspect is trying to protect you. .

. A: Oh, what it's protecting me from? T: What it's protecting you from and what it wants.

A: It wants to do the thing I was always raised that's right. Grow up, have a family, get the job and get the money, do all that. But, I've been on that track, I'm not happy.

It's not what I want. It's not enough, it doesn't give me purpose. Like, when someone asks me "who are you?

" I can't even identify, like, I find it kind of ridiculous to say I am a student dentist, I am a daughter, I am even a future mother, I'm a. . .

All of that is not enough to be grounded. It's, to me it's. .

. Like there's gotta be more, there's gotta be something else. That's not, I'm not happy with that answer.

Any of those. T: Can you tell me what's happening in your body right now? A: I'm shaking.

Actually. . .

T: More sensations. A: I feel tingly in my hands. T: Okay, I'm gonna need to get you more in the body.

A: Okay. T: Part of why you don't trust yourself, is because you're like, out here. Like, really out here.

Almost in the mental field, like all the time. And it's not until you really come down into your body that you get close to that core self. So the way to start that is with sensations.

A: Okay. Wanna know what my brain is telling me right now? T: No, because that's your mental.

A: Okay, no. T: Remember it, I can come back to it. A: Okay.

T: God, it's interesting. . .

when I get you down into your body it's like you wanna fight me. A: [ Laughter] T: So, do it. A: It's almost like that's why I came up here, to challenge you.

Every single time I find a speaker or something, I always. . .

or even in my own personal life, I have to challenge you. T: So, do it. A: Really?

T: Uhum. Audience: [Laughter] A: Well now you're. .

. [laughter] I don't really know if you can do the things that you say that you can do. How?

How is it that you can feel us as a crowd? Or. .

. Well, up until before you picked me I really did think that you had those people like, picked. Audience: [Laughter followed by Applause] T: But, okay, so but that hasn't changed the way you feel towards me, the fact that I picked you, it didn't change the way you feel?

So what are you telling yourself now? A: What am I telling myself now, when you, for example say: "Feel into your body", I've read a lot of things and like, you know, watched videos that will tell you your body, it's not even you either. Like, you shouldn't even be grounded in something like the physical world, in this body, there's multiple dimensions, multiple things.

. . and this body, you're gonna lose it one day.

So, why even be so super connected to it? T: What if somebody said that about a child? A: Like, to a child or about?

T: Either. A: Well you think a child can't comprehend all these things? T: No, i mean just think.

. . A: I mean, T: If not a child, think about saying that about anything.

Is there not some sensation of tragedy inherent in saying that about something? A: Saying that. .

. T: These flowers are gonna fucking die, why the hell would you get connected to these flowers? They're gonna die one day.

Audience [Laughter] Do you feel the. . .

? I want you to start to feel the violence in that. Would you like me to have that attitude towards you?

A: No. T: Me neither, so why would I do that? Why would I.

. . ?

A: That's just what I gravitate to constantly challenging and questioning and being like: "No, I have to find the one perfect ultimate truth that's not gonna fail". T: How are you gonna know when you find that thing? A: I won't.

That's why I'm lost. T: You guys better follow along with this, okay? Yeah, like any of you who can relate to this I need you to follow this process.

And that's the question I need you to ask yourself: How the hell are you going to know when you've found that ultimate truth? A: It will feel good? I'll feel at peace, I'll feel the things I'm looking for?

T: Uh oh. Audience: [Murmuring] T: Number one, you have to be in the body for that, and number two. .

. believe me, when I take a little girl from Mississippi and I teach her day in and day out that the only way that she's gonna feel good is by getting married to a specific man and by belonging to a specific church, guess what's gonna happen? I'm gonna be able to mess with her compass to such a degree that she actually thinks she feels good.

This is, I mean, this is part of what makes this so complex. You guys, I would love to make this easier for you. Sometimes I try to.

The complexity that you're dealing with on this earth and in this process is extreme. Which is why I have to say there's serious merit in following your emotional guidance system. There's merit in caring how you feel and paying close attention to your joy and chasing it.

But, also. . .

A person could mess with your internal system to such a degree that you don't even know anymore. Both are true. So, how do we navigate that?

A: First, accept that both are true? T: Can you? A: mmm.

. . I'm actually, I think that's part of my problem, why I overthink, why I see things from every single perspective, because I can accept multiple truths at the same time and be like "Well then where does that leave me?

" "Where do i lie then on the spectrum? If every single thing, if every single person who's hurt me they have a reason, like they had their own reason and their own upbringing and their own everything. T: that doesn't excuse anything, it just explains why.

A: So, if I know the explanation then I should not feel so bad, because I can have empathy towards the fact that's why. T: You guys, here's another theme again empathy does not erase the pain you went through. Audience: [ Cheering and Clapping ] A: But, to to be quite honest I don't have anything in my childhood that could have caused me this much.

. . T: That's not true.

A: I had a very good childhood, I have a very good life now. T: Nope. A: As one would look from the outside, you know?

T: Ohhh. . .

I know you wanna defend the people in your life but there is no possible way. A: But I don't want to waste time thinking about that. I don't want to get in like, a victim mentality.

T: That's not a victim mentality to look behind you as to why you are the way you are and what elements need to change as a result of it. That's the only empowered step. You don't even need to ruin your relationships you may have to take a pause from certain relationships for a while, but you don't have to ruin your relationships to do that.

You should have to look at the reality of what was and why you are the way you are. Like, this obsession with challenging everyone including especially authority. It's making you miserable.

I used to be like you. A: So, is there a way to get rid of this urge to challenge everything including myself? T: Yeah you've gotta see where it's getting you.

A: Nowhere. T: If you were so convinced of that you would have let it go already. I can tell you what the moment was for me.

A: I'm sorry? T: I can tell you what the moment was for me, if you'd like it. A: Yes, I would.

T: All right, the first thing I need to say to get it out of the way is that my IQ is so incredibly high nobody else could get near me. Now, what that made for in my teen years was absolute torture. I would sit in you know, session after session after session after session of psychiatrists and psychologists and everybody my parents could think of dragging me to.

I could shred them in two seconds. And then, after so many times of that, I realized: "I am a fucking miserable person. " I mean, miserable.

And it occurred to me: "What if I never find somebody smart enough? " Now, that's the thought that set me free. My quest to do what you're trying to do was not about finding someone who could beat me, it was about realizing that there is not one person who has nothing to teach you.

So, I walked into these offices with a completely different mentality. Once you accept, like I did, I accepted "Nobody's gonna be smarter. " All right, so then I have to walk into this room with an attitude of: 'Maybe they still have something of value' Do I want to be unworkable?

" And then for the first time, I sat down with a therapist and said: "I actually genuinely wanna hear what you have to say". It changed everything. A: And did you listen to what they told you to do?

T: Yeah I did, because I made it a practice. I literally was like: I'm gonna try every fucking thing, every fucking thing. A: Did it help?

T: Yeah, yeah it did. Not only that, you start to see that everything is talking to you. It's not just people whose profession it is to tell you wisdom, you know?

Everything. I got to the point where it was like I was giving myself challenges, like sitting on a park bench watching like, cigarette butts fly around in the wind challenging myself to see if I could see beauty in them. Then I realized some of the best lessons are not even coming from moments you pay for.

But, I had to stop fighting. Instead of looking for someone that could fight me. A: What kind of therapy?

Because I have tried therapy and. . .

Audience [ Laughter ] A: Her answer was: "Oh my god, I like, I don't know what to do with you, I'm going to see you every day. I've never said this to anyone that I've seen in 30 years, but, I need to see you every day because this is just such a special complex case. So I left because I felt like that wasn't working.

T: If I were you I wouldn't be looking for therapists. A: I stopped. T: If I were you, I would be challenging myself to stop fighting everyone.

So. . .

go sit next to somebody on a park bench, ask him a question. What question is it that you can ask? A: If I sit next to someone?

If I'm sitting next to an amazing person? What would I ask? Is.

. . Is it all worth it then at the end?

Like, will you find the ultimate answer that makes, puts everything into perspective and makes sense? T: Okay then I encourage you to ask that question to everyone you meet. You wanna ask it to me?

A: Yes. I do, I would like to ask it. T: Try me again.

A: If I follow your tips, and I do my best to learn from everyone I come in contact with, is it worth it? Will I find answers that I'm happy to hear, or will they be like dark horrible ultimate truths that just make me lose my will to continue? T: My answer is: "I have no idea".

I literally have no idea. What worries me is your conditional relationship with truth. If I told you today that following my stuff was gonna lead you straight to becoming aware of the fact that the universe is an absolute shithole.

. . What would you do then?

That's a question for everyone. A: If I knew that for a fact, I would just go and search elsewhere, because that's not the answer I wanna hear. You are on a perpetual quest my friend.

A: [Laughter] It's awful, it's awful. . .

T: What's it gonna take for you to be done with it? You know, this has been something interesting. You don't need to believe me when I say this: So, in this non-physical field that's around us you can tell that this, some of you who are a little bit more sensitive can tell that this room is loaded right now.

The overwhelming question from the majority of the six dimension right now, towards you, is: When are you done? If I were those of you who are interested in using this workshop to the benefit of your life, I would write that question down with a giant sharpie across my mirror and ask myself every morning: When is this gonna stop? A: When this brain dies.

That's when. T: Then, it's serving you. I know that irritates you.

It's benefiting you to do this, then. How? I'm curious.

A: What do you mean? Ah, how is it benefiting me? T: This constant quest where you you go and you look and you're like: "No, that's not the answer I want" Listen to how dangerous this is; "That's not the answer I want, and so I'm done with it".

Another person, "Not the answer I want", then done with it. What's dangerous about that? "Not the answer I want, so, it's not for me".

A: I'm just looking to like, reverberate basically what I'm looking for, I'm not looking for the truth I'm just looking for what I'm internally looking for. T: Exactly, so essentially your quest is a gaslight because you already know all the answers. Audience: Yes.

[ Applause ] T: I would actually do you a greater service for what you're looking for if I just sat down and said: "You're right. You can get off stage". Audience: [ Laughter ] A: And I wouldn't believe you, I'd be like: "No I'm not".

Yes. And then another thing that scares me into going down this path is that I feel like it's oftentimes lonely, because no one can see or understand why I am this way. No one can agree with me, no one can see what I see, and so.

. . T: That's a powerful statement.

A: Well, it feels that way from the way I. . .

T: Why do you feel like I don't? So, start with me. Sometimes instead of globalizing, you've gotta start with me.

Why does it seem like I don't have any understanding for why you're this way? A: Because you don't have, you're not like inside my brain, you don't know what's going on. You don't know how there's like, rapid fire just concepts from every angle.

T: Well, if you've decided I don't know, then there's nothing I could do to argue with that, is there? You enjoy running people, including myself, into dead ends. And that's what I'm trying to understand.

What is that doing for you? It's proving. .

. It's proving this ultimate fear that I have in my head that like, no one knows, you will never know, ou will die that way. T: So why do you need.

. . Why is that benefiting you?

It's like benefiting you to find out that no one knows. Why? What then?

A: I don't believe it's benefiting me, it's causing my pain. T: It has to be, otherwise there's no way you'd keep it up. That's so important to understand, these behaviors that you would judge as self-sabotaging all of them are are done for you.

All of them. The question is "How? ".

How does it benefit you? You can ask, by the way, sometimes you'll see a shift here, when there's a shift here. So, how does it benefit you to run somebody up against a wall where you can prove they don't know?

What does that do for you? And I'm not asking this in like, a snide way. Genuinely, what does it do for you?

A: It helps my ego feel better, because I'm like: "Okay, you don't have it. Next. " T: Do you actually connect to that, that there's like an ego hit?

A: Do I connect that that's what happens inside of me? T: I just wanna make sure that's not like, you're smart enough that you can essentially, grab all kinds of information, including my own, and then turn it against me, so that I think you're telling me the truth when it's not really the truth for you. So, what I wanna make sure is that your mind, right now isn't just throwing out things like that.

I want it to be actually: "Yes, when I say this I am feeling an ego hit, I'm feeling better about myself when you're proved to be an idiot. A: Yes. Even though, it's not like I think that I'm that smart, I'm just looking for someone who I think is smarter.

but I truly know that I'm not that smart because if I was smart, I wouldn't be in this situation. T: But at the same time you're not looking for someone. Do you see?

If we that. . .

it's like, remember earlier I was talking about the women who are like trying to get pregnant, and that's all they connect to, is the fact that they want to get pregnant. And then I come along and I tell them: "You see, the thing is, is that you don't". There's a part of them that genuinely believes that if they get pregnant, most of them have a lot of trauma with their own mothers, that all of that's gonna repeat.

So, when I just asked you that question, you told me, you know, the opposite of that story. What what I'm needing is for you to tell me how. How that is, you know.

. . No.

It's more like what I'm trying to get you to understand is that you don't want somebody to be right. A: Yeah, because I think everyone else is wrong, So I'm like: "Okay. Assured!

I was right. Next". T: Yeah, because that's what you just said.

A: Yeah. T: Ooo. .

. A: I'm not that smart, I lost you. T: Okay, backing up.

. . Can you accept that you you're continuing, for the sake of feeling good about yourself, you don't actually wanna find somebody who can have an answer for you?

A: Uh. . .

It's. . .

I mean. . .

to follow back on what we've been talking about it seems, maybe I don't believe that someone does. T: Yeah of course. A: Yeah.

T: But that's a whole different problem. A: Oh, it's a different one. Is that what I want?

No, if you truly ask me right now, full honesty, I would love nothing more than to meet someone, not even like partnership or any, like a relationship-wise, just someone that I can feel like: "Okay, I trust in you, it seems like you have the answers I wanna follow". But then, the other half of my brain is like: "Nope, that's that's just another religion called something else that's not you. It's not coming from you.

" T: But you keep fighting for the fact that you have the answers. Stick with me. A: Sorry, I hate doing this to everyone that I do have these conversations with, and I hate doing it to you.

. . and I hate doing it to myself.

T: What are you wanting for me right now? Like, at this minute. A: This moment?

I want you to tell me something that's gonna put me at ease. T: Okay, you understand that's totally the opposite direction of truth, right? Or, I could potentially tell you something true that puts you at ease, but what does that do?

A: At that point, that would just be a lie. T: But let's say that I said something true, but that would put you at ease, what would that. .

. what would that ultimately do for you? Because that's almost like, asking for one thing and then asking for the other.

You're like "Tell me the answer, I need the answer. I need somebody that can actually tell me the truth". "No!

Put me at ease. " You are absolutely determined to kill me. A: That's not it.

No. T: What do you think I want? A: Um, from the few things that I've seen of yours I think you just.

. . you really want to end suffering that could.

. . T: Oh, come on.

. . Tell the good story.

You're right. 'I'm so benevolent I just want to end suffering in the world'. Audience [ Laughter ] A: It must make you feel like you've used all your abilities to your best.

T: Yeah, but that's my argument. A: Oh, what do I actually think? Like.

. . T: Um hum.

A: Because you don't believe that answer. Okay, fair enough. Um.

. . T: You're still determined to win up here, I think.

You see, it's not about me giving you an answer, it's not about you finding a solution. You're determined to win. A: Does that mean in my childhood I was always winning or I never won?

T: Which would you think? A: I never won, so now I'm constantly seeking it? T: Potentially, yeah.

But, I mean you're making it about the past that's good, I'd like you to explore the past, like I said, but, right now in this minute, you guys, the present moment is always where you get this truth. Get access to this truth. You don't.

. . to globalize it is to complicated, right?

So, I keep trying to bring it down to this minute, with me right now. Why are you trying to win? A: Then I'll feel good about myself.

If I win, I feel like. . .

T: Did you think about that before you answered? Because that is the low. .

. that's the low-hanging fruit. Yes.

I know you can do this. A: I don't know what it is I'm doing. T: Is it clear from out there?

Audience [ Yes. ] T: Okay. I actually am gonna do something strange.

I'm gonna do something strange. All right, I need the lights lowered. If any of you feel like you really understand what you're seeing from out there, I want you to raise your hand.

Hmm. . .

All right. Okay, this row. .

. one, two, three, four, five, six back. .

. This row. .

. Is it a purple shirt maybe? Lots and lots of bracelets.

. . Yes.

The challenge when we're doing this is to see if you can recognize the aspect of you that does this. Yeah? I'm interested in taking the time, seriously, to work on this one, because this one will get you in real trouble in life.

What are you telling yourself about this one? Okay, what did you notice from sitting out there? A 2: the first thing I noticed was that you're running from your truth in a mated way.

I feel. . .

I feel the pain. . .

I went through the same thing as a child. I was the oldest out of four. I had to be responsible for everything.

I was never good enough. I had to challenge everything. I became an adult at 10.

Narcissistic mom, narcissistic abusive stepfather, alcoholic father, real father, that left at two. I was never good enough for anybody. I never had any power.

I did the same thing you did. T: And what did it do for you? A 2: I challenged everybody in my past.

T: I wanna know what it did for you. A 2: The challenge? T: Yeah.

A 2: It gave me power. T: Yeah. A 2:That's your reward for what you're doing.

That gives you your power. Because that's the only control that you have. That's the only thing that you can control in your life right now.

I'm going through a situation now, my second divorce. My first husband was a marine, he beat me nine out of 11 years we were together. I met my present husband, we've been married 28 years, I'm divorcing him.

In the middle of it right now. He lied and manipulated his way into my life. At 30 years old, I had never had a child.

He told me the night that I met him: "I'm not married, I don't have any kids, I can't have kids". Six months later I was pregnant, found out he was married and had two boys. But I was 30 years old.

I'd left my first husband. I was trapped. And I always said, everybody says: "Oh, he's gonna leave when he turns 18".

He didn't leave. I couldn't understand why he didn't leave. He trapped me into that marriage purposely for full control of me, and I never knew it.

Three years ago, April 3rd I had gastric bypass surgery. Almost died three times. I had seven surgeries in 14 months.

In the hospital 14 times in 15 months. I saw the light three times. Guess what?

He had a girlfriend for seven years that was my friend. Never touched me in seven years. I am now in the middle of a divorce T: Do you feel like this is where she's headed?

A 2: Yeah A: Can you explain how these situations that you are in are related to how much of a challenger you were? A 2: I was weak. He caught me in a moment of weakness.

I let that power down, I let my wall down. He got behind it. I've never in my life been in a healthy relationship.

This is my first seminar ever, and I'm so glad that I'm here. Audience: [ Cheers & Applause ] A 2: I see myself in you. T: I think what she sees in a very powerful way is that as a challenger, what you're trying to hide is the fact that you feel no power.

And if you continue to ignore the fact that you feel no power, and actually find genuine power, then you'll keep this strategy up, and where it leads you is stuff like that. A 2: I'm almost 60 years old. Please don't wait that long.

Audience: Awnnn. [ Applause ] A: Thank you. A 2: I got my power back and I'm gonna keep it.

Audience: [ Applause ] A 2: I just felt a connection with you. I'm sorry. A: Thank you.

T: So what's genuine power to you? Having been through all of this and having experienced weakness, what is genuine power? Versus false power?

A 2: My own truth. Be true to myself. Audience: [Applause] A 2: Don't let anybody change you.

Especially a man. Not that I'm against men. .

. [ Laughter ] But don't ever settle for what is not for you, and not true to you. Don't ever let a man change you to satisfy him.

A: When. . .

at what moment were you sure: "This is for me, this is my truth, this is my power"? A 2: When. .

. I got away from my husband for a month, last august, I went up to where I'm from, Maryland for a month. .

. He didn't check on me at all the whole time I was gone. Ind when I told my family that I was divorcing him after 28 years, I lost my entire family.

Because they told me I was a fool for leaving the "security" of him. I'm on disability. he's told everybody that I'm not gonna make it on my own.

I'm gonna prove his ass wrong. Audience: [Cheering & Applause] A: You already are. A 2: Exactly.

Audience Attendee: "You already made it". A 2: Thank you. Audience: [ Applause ] T: Clarify your question.

That was a good question, clarify it. A: That last question? At what point exactly you knew.

. . T: that something was for you, instead of for someone else, for you?

You see the reason that we're asking you this question is because this is where she's struggling all the time. Like, she. .

. it feels like she can't differentiate what is genuinely her truth, versus things she's been told by everyone else or things that people say are for her, but they're really for them. A 2: I actually thought he cared about me.

And when he didn't contact me while I was gone, I drove 16 hours alone. . .

And. . .

Nothing. A couple times the whole time I was gone. .

. and then I realized, just like: "If he cared about me, he'd be contacting me, making sure I'm okay. Nope.

T: So then what what self-loving action did you take after that? That was genuinely you? A 2: When I realized that he really didn't care, and that I could not depend on him, The only person that I could depend on, is me.

And I had to take control of that power, because he had taken my power from me. When I got that power back because of my truth, I was taking care of me. I didn't need a man to take care of me.

T: And did it feel good even though it was scary? A 2: Fucking great. A 2 & Audience: [Laughter] A 2: It was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.

T: Okay, so that's a defining factor, the weight is lifted off the shoulders. A: I have a question A 2: Um hum. A: I'm sorry if.

. . We're being honest here.

. . Do you think you'll be able to make relationships not even partnership or, you know, another man or another husband, do you think you'll, after all this, still be able to trust someone else?

Find and. . .

I mean, as you say that all your power is within you, but then there's also this other side that tells you that you can receive from others. A 2: The receiving part is the hard part. And I've finally gotten through that and I'm not bitter anymore, I'm not upset, I've forgiven him.

Guess what? Higher power, hasn't. He's gotta deal with his own karma.

And he's getting it when I get the divorce. Audience: [Laughter] T: So, so what is it that makes you believe you can have good relationships in the future? After all, that is what she's curious about.

What is it that makes you know? A 2: Because I know that I have a lotta love to give. Audience: Awnnn [Applause] A 2: And whoever gets it they're gonna have to work real hard to get it.

But, guess what? When they get it, they're gonna get it all. A: While still keeping your power.

A 2: While still keeping my power. you can never let go of yourself. Don't ever lose yourself.

That's what I had, I'd lost myself. . .

I gave everything to him. T: So what does it look like, instead of fighting the world? A 2: It's a whole lot peace, a whole lot more peace.

When I let go of that power and I stopped fighting with people. . .

It was like. . .

I was reborn, literally. T: What did you do instead of fighting? A 2: I turned in my faith.

I never had the faith before. I took faith over fear. Fear is what's gonna get you.

It's just like she was talking about putting that toe. . .

that's one of my favorite phrases, I'm putting the toe in water. Fuck that, I'm jumping right in now. Everyone: [Laughter] A 2: Because I know my power and I know I can swim.

Audience: That's right. Yeah. A 2: You've just gotta have your power back and you gotta get it, and you gotta keep it.

But the truth in yourself is where you keep it. It's not giving it to other people. You should show it.

Show your love. T: That's power. Thank you for that.

A: Thank you so much. Audience: [Applause] T: I'm not done with you. Audience: [Chuckles & Laughter] A 2: Do I stay?

T: You can go. It's good. Thank you.

What did you learn? A: It was learn insightful. That's.

. . exactly what it is.

Audience: We can't hear you. A: Sorry. Audience [Laughter] That's.

. . I see a lot of similarities.

I mean, she literally said exactly the same childhood. Eldest, had to be made an adult quickly, had to make those decisions, have all the responsibilities and. .

. It must come from a weak place, it makes sense. T: So then, power is your thing.

So, how about this: Instead of, you know when we're talking about ending the fight? Right? Because that's like a really weak way of going for power.

. . but what I would encourage you to do is to go straight for power.

Straight for it. Do you understand power? A: I have a bad understanding of it.

T: Okay. . .

Power is the ability to achieve what you want. That's it. The reason we say money is power is because it helps a person achieve what they want.

The reason that status is power, is because it helps someone achieve what they want. It's literally that simple. So, you are powerless to the degree that it feels like you can't take an action to get closer to what you want.

So, I want you to make it that simple. "Power, I want to go straight for power which is the ability to get what I want. A: Another question: "What do I want?

" What do I even care about? T: Well if you spend your whole life fighting the world you're never going to figure that out. A: So, save my energy, conserve it?

Focus on. . .

T: Conserve it to try new things. For any of you who are struggling to really define what it is that you want, you're not gonna be able to shortcut this process of trying things. But I need you to start trying things from a totally different mindset.

I don't care if you have eaten a food a hundred thousand times before, you've gotta try it like it's the very first time. Because if I showed you how many aspects of your brain have projections from the past 20 plus years on that one food, you're not really even tasting it the way it is. Luckily I don't have to put you in a coma for that.

You can just pretend, okay? Here's my favorite exercise you guys. You've got two options.

One option. You pretend that you are waking up from a coma today. Second option: you pretend that you're an extraterrestrial who landed on the planet today.

And what you do, is you experience everything, new things, old things. . .

with an attitude of: "I'm doing it for the very first time". And only from that experience arises your genuine feelings and perceptions about it. So, then what happens?

If you try it and you're like: "I really don't like it", you don't ever have to do it again. If you try something and you're like: Take the next step, take the next step. It's this is what we mean when we say you know, "follow your joy".

If you start to follow those experiences that genuinely light you up in any way, it's impossible to not find the truth for you. Especially, regarding your purpose. Then it's about chasing that.

A: Much better way to spend my energy. T: Yeah I think so. It's much more powerful.

A: And much more powerful. But, you officially have. .

. I'm literally telling you on behalf of the universe today: Go for power, directly. A: Very well.

T: Okay.