so despite anything that you're going through right now anything that you've been through anything that has happened that was said you can fix everything except from Death you can turn anything around whether you're 15 whether you're 50 I don't care you can transform every single part of your life if you truly want to and I very much so believe that but not only do I believe that I know that cuz I have done that and so I want to talk about the two transformation the major two transformations in my life that I have encountered so
far and I'm sure there'll be many many more but I want to take you on the First Transformation the first major transformation was when I was a teenager I I began taking drugs at 11: and I was like 4 foot nothing I weighed about six Stone and I think the first drug I ever took was ketamin and my dad was in prison my mom was probably starting a fight with a wall somewhere I think she's still there so you know we were kind of left to our own devices like my brother and I we could
do what we wanted and what we want we did and so yeah that was my kind of teenage years 14 to 15 16 I was off raidar like it was unbelievable the things I would get into the drugs I were taking the things I were doing it was out of this world right and so at 156 I really really had done it all and I decided I no longer want to be this person anymore and change then guys was so unimaginable to me I couldn't even fathom and the one thing that really saved me was
the fact that I love reading to this day I love reading I'm so curious I love learning I love learning new things I love you know embarking on new Journeys I just loved reading and this proves because if I H if I didn't have that that quench for knowledge and you know learning new things I wouldn't be here today because for example my brother who didn't have that and was left to his own devices truly left to his own devices you know he's just got out of prison for the second time this is really when
I can see just going off topic a little bit how you can see you know the crimes in London for example people are getting their arms chopped off these boys are going around with machetes and knives and Eng G you know these are people from horrendous backgrounds that have been through trauma we can't even imagine and they are in pure survival mode and so please love your children please love yourself please stop having children if you cannot give them the proper life that they deserve like I'm so passionate and also disgusted by this because if
it was up to the family that I came from I would have had five kids and I would be in a counsel estate and that's would be my life that would be my trajectory of life and you know thankfully it was up to me and I managed to leave leads where I'm from and I started learning how to trade I started learning to trade the currency Market um investing in stocks in investing in crypto I moved to Australia and I began living a really beautiful life I lived in a gorgeous Penthouse you know could buy
what I wanted when I wanted you know as I said I've always made good money but at this time I was making it spending it making it spending it and so here's the thing because I transformed from literally the gutter to l living laid lo car you know whatever I I then felt entitled to well the world owes me something now look at everything I've been through look at the life that I had to go through look at what I had to be through like now I'm entitled to these things like you should give me
this you should do this for me and here's the thing I was both right and wrong yes I deserve beautiful things but nobody's going to give me that nobody's going to give you that you give yourself that not from external things from in from in here and so this was really my fake transformation because I thought because i' left leads I had changed and I was a brand new person and you couldn't tell me any different and I had this chip on my shoulder and like you know nobody can mess with me and I and
and I had all these layers to protect me as well so I was extremely angry all the time was very volatile Oscar wild has a beautiful quote which is a burnt child loves the fire and that's what I was a burnt child causing a fire every single place I went and because I was burnt I wanted everyone else to suffer I wanted everyone else to feel the pain that I felt and that I did and so at some point you have to understand that that trauma yes the feelings about that trauma is valid but at
what point are you going to shift it at what point do you stop playing victim at what point do you take full control and ownership of where you are and who you are and you're an adult now it's no longer on your parents to take care of you it's on you and even though I had these external things going well for me internally nothing had changed I may have read all these books and done all these meditations and gone to these Retreats but I hadn't truly changed I still hated where I came from I still
blamed my parents they were to blame how dare you put me through whatever right so I was a victim I was in victim mode look at how hard my life has been carrying carrying it around with me it's so stupid though I'm laughing because it's just so dumb like Let It Go I know it's like easier said than done but like at some point what happened to you was never your fault but at some point it becomes your fault the more that you continue to perpetuate it the more that you continue to sit in it
and exacerbate yeah it's your fault now and that's not to invalidate your feelings that's just to be brutally honest like the universe doesn't really give a about your feelings it just cares what you're putting out there and it will Boomerang back and so this is my fake transformation and this is why I feel so confident when people come to me and they're in victimhood and I'm like mhm and I call you out or people say I've tried everything you haven't and I can confidently call you out because I had done the same for example I
started reading in this time living in Australia breaking the habit of being yourself and it's an amazing book by Joe dispenser and at the end there's a four- week meditation that you're meant to do every week every day every week Etc I finished the book and I was like okay perfect I've done the work now close the book didn't do the work right didn't again didn't do the work so I would want all these nice things and most of the time got them but then I was like why doesn't anything stick why do I always
end up in this depressed state like why does this always happen to me victim victim victim because I wasn't actually doing the work I still had the same thoughts in my mind even though ex things had changed externally I still had the same thoughts in my mind of when I was 14 15 all that hatred all that vitual Etc so then it came to my breakup which I've spoken about on this channel and and that was the pain that I needed to actually do the work and it was almost like every single meditation every affirmation
every book that I'd read every therapist I'd seen every Retreat that I'd been on it all just came into one and I was like oh I know what I need to do now okay like my life depends on it so this was the actual I'm going to show you now this was the actual I'll put a screen recording here this was the actual notes page that I used to change my life and these were the nine things that were non-negotiable now let me tell you I was doing more than these nine things but these were
nonnegotiable I actually had a friend living with me at the time and she was like have you finished your eight hour morning routine babe and I was like actually I haven't I've still got like 30 minutes to go can you can you leave and I was so it was so intense I was so intense with it because I was I was wavering so much I was in so much pain okay I have to change I have to change this is the thing like it's that it's that moment it's like I I cannot live like this
anymore I cannot continue doing the that is harming me and harming others anymore and I don't know how to bestow that knowing onto you more than I already have maybe this will help so I was doing the do dispens of breaking the habit being yourself meditation every day and it was an it the whole meditation is about an hour long and I was doing the full thing like you're meant to do week one week two week three week four but I was just doing the full thing every day for weeks self- L meditations plural there
weren't just one okay some days I had to do five because I literally couldn't handle the 3D I literally was in so much pain journaling etc etc all of that stuff you can read it there then I did like a little Notes app to keep me accountable you see the 1 2 3 4 5 that's day one obviously day two day three day four this was the most consistent I'd ever been in my life sticking to something ever in my life and and what I'm actually doing as I'm writing on this because I understand nothing
is everything is right now when I was writing how I'm feeling I was exacerbating the positive and minimizing the negative because if I'd have really wrote down how I was truly feeling it wouldn't have been anything I put slightly obsessive there was nothing slightly about it it was all consuming but remember I love myself and I am worthy also money is pouring in left and right right I love myself and I'm worthy I didn't believe that it was day six for just exacerbating the positive right old beliefs creeping in I am the operant power it's
just all the trash taking itself out again putting a positive spin on things guys I was not thinking I am the the operant power on day seven but here's the thing you can see on on how I'm typing right starting to feel better I am incredible feeling better better every day energy is unmatched slightly obsessive um old beliefs creeping in I am the operant power like you know and then you go back up and then you're back down and it's just these insane oscillations between I am God and I am a piece of right until
you attain that equilibrium because you continue to show up for yourself every single day and so again I W bore you but dreamt of SP didn't want to do my morning routine but persisted and feel great now you know saw my homes in barley and Dubai I'm crying like I'm literally crying doing this work but I'm feeling great now right I'm ignoring what's happening and continuing to go within my like my life depends on it I lived in bacy and I was running to Richmond in London that's the other side of London and back I
was doing half a marathon like sometimes twice a week because I literally couldn't handle being in my own body and like when people come to me and they're like oh but I'm I'm like are you though because I'm I wasn't ever once did I sit here and was like things are just really bad like everything in my life is just really awful like no I'm feeling like okay cool I do the breath work I don't want to do the work anymore but I persisted and I did it anyway I don't feel like this is working
but okay a state of acceptance and everything is going to be okay right right so you coming to me being like Oh but like no you're not changing anything this was true change because here I literally did not feel any of these things I'm maybe a little bit but any of these things I'm writing down is massively heightened than what it actually was because I'm putting a positive spin on things coming back to the present moment whenever I catch myself drifting the present moment is all I have the 3D is Shifting I can feel it
right we're back up here now I don't care I got this I'm unreal right we're back up here now um wobble today you know back down we're constantly oscillating I won't bore you with everything but you know I did this for a good starting to feel lazy all programmers trying it woke up so late Joe dispenser all of that right whatever so you kind of get the drift it was me committing to change as if my life did depends on it and if you can't grasp that meaning by now I don't know what else to
say to you like when you want to sit down and say but this is how I'm feeling that's the exact moment you sit down and say but why is everything so perfect why is everything just being so wonderful all the time right you you think you're going insane like most of the time but just know the more that you stick to it the easier it becomes and then it just becomes your most dominant assumption of course everything always works out for me of course like why wouldn't it the more that you stick to this the
longer that you stick to this like people like oh I want this change now I want this text message now what about in a year imagine you stick to this for a year imagine you stick to this for 6 months like what's going to happen this is not just like you know one and done this is a lifestyle today right now you think I you think I don't have to catch my thoughts you think I'm just like done and like never have to do any work again it's constant it's it's it's every day there's there
it's every day but now I get to have fun with it and I get to be playful with it and it gets to be excited oh my God like okay I see what's happening but like also I know my power so let's just go whatever needs to happen whatever needs to shift whatever needs to be done whatever needs let's go I'm ready for it and this is the kind of energy that you are GR Ed when you have shown up for yourself you don't get that level of conviction when you haven't done so what you
can take from this video is picking a few different things sticking to it as if your life depends on it when you feel that wavering you jump up and get going you get moving I got to shift it I got to change it I'm not sitting and dwelling and complaining and winging moaning anymore Not Another Second longer I get what I want my reality conforms to me now I command my reality to show me a miracle in the next 24 hours I command change because I am being the change I am embodying the change okay
the victim mentality has to go you are the operant power there is nothing else to it there's nobody else controlling your reality there's nobody else out there that's telling you this is going to happen there you know these tarot cards oh I paid all this money on tarot cards why it's like me it's like me sitting here and being like Oh you you're an Aries yeah they're going to dump you yeah now I know because this piece of paper just told me like what are you talking about like you are you are the master of
your reality not a piece of paper does that make sense okay there's nothing outside of you it's coming from internally so hopefully this proves to you that if you have been EXP expecting the worst because of your past yeah you can drop that now okay you can drop that immediately matter what I've seen I know it's absolutely no correlation between where to where I'm going it's it's got no effect on my future at all and so that is the same for you that's true for me one person then it's true for you and it's probably
not just and it's definitely not just true for me it's true for millions of other people which means it can also be true for you so so I trust this video helped you manifest you are worthy you are loved I love you and thank you
