I'm going to pee my pants we've got to get this recorded dang it it I'm going to pee we have damn your dogs are cold my diary you want to lick my [ __ ] nards dude my God I am Nick I talk about my little everything just like he does I want to be a big dick boy I want to be a big dick boy I'm starting [ __ ] 3 2 one Fcking bucking W bucking bucking like a mechanical B all right that's too much look at that horse look at that horse look
at that horse look at that horse pretty as hell on that you killed that I forgot hey pal Buds and lovelies welcome back to mooning amusing with Megan and Hannah woo I'm a little constipated yeah she been looking pretty Sad about that all day so yeah I just wanted I wanted you guys to know if you don't feel certain energy for me cuz she's full [ __ ] I'm pretty clogged so I just wanted to let everybody know know before we got started so how about them Grammys y'all know we were watching the Grammys so
I in like recent times too like it's just been getting like freakier and freakier watching stuff like that um because of just like it Feels very like capital from Hunger Games you know like watching people show up on the like how they look what what they're doing like the lives that they're living that we just cannot even like fathom yeah and wrap our heads around but I will say the Grammys is like it was super enjoyable this year so I I cried like so many times from the speeches you did [ __ ] every time
I looked at Hannah it was like that Snapchat filter with the fake c yeah but There was it so emotional it was so sweet I loved it it was good it was a they really did a good job celebrating black people at this Grammys which they're notoriously bad at so love that for them notoriously yeah but it was like almost half of everything was black people which it should be like that because black people contribute so much to Art like that's like such a huge thing yeah that black people contribute to they influence everything that
was a Big theme this year because Cowboy Carter won album of the Year Cowboy Carter won album of the Year Beyonce not getting it for Limon she should like I could see an argument for like some of the albums not getting it lemonade album of the year that album was crazy crazy still is crazy that album is still ridiculously good yeah I do love that album daddy lessons off of that was her first like that I can that I know of like dip into doing country music um It's good she full [ __ ] sent
it that song is phenomenal by the way that that song is so good if you've never heard daddy lesson daddy lesson featuring the chicks too specifically a lot of people don't know about that one check that one out I'll put it actually on our uh that we have yeah it has three saves so there's one other person on there that's not us I'm bet it's your sister actually am I counter is one of the Saves because I made the playlist to begin with so maybe there's two of y'all doesn't matter point is shout out to
y'all one or two whoever you are probably Emily and if it isn't what the [ __ ] yeah if it isn't what the [ __ ] also your siblings what the hell you guys I know all of you guys watch it so um but I was also going to say at the Grammys it was really like with the Current political climate I was telling Hannah the other day I don't want to be like this at all I would not be if I could trust our government to take care of me I would not give a
[ __ ] about any of this a lot of the political stuff yeah I hate that y'all made me be this person that is like like I was walking out of my job and I was like today I'm glad this is a private company and then I was like this is [ __ ] for wanted to think think or say sh I never wanted to Think or say like I hate that I have to distrust everything and think about all this [ __ ] but at the Grammys they did such a good job of uh
not making it seem like everything was cool oh that was so lovely yeah yeah yeah DOI talking directly to black women her performance by the way isn't she her for DOI yeah winning the The Third Woman now to win that category and then with the album that she won it with that album is so [ __ ] good alligator bites Never heal like that and then her [ __ ] per like we were like getting really pumped up with some of the performances that were coming out and we were like wow this one's good this
one and then she came out and it like kill Entertainer like it she had me focused the entire time on what she was doing that was in every way too like she was breaking ground she's doing stuff I've never seen anyone do before or uh the breath control she the live performing Like just like the and she sounded yeah while doing that type of dancing crazy yeah and then her speech was super [ __ ] touching and moving and she looked directly at that [ __ ] camera she said what she said and she cuz
she was saying what she was [ __ ] saying her she did that uh Lady Gaga bringing up trans queer people in her acceptance speech which she stood on business with the queer Community for entire so I love that um also her voice In California Dreaming with Bruno Mars I also cried during that one that was beautiful and her like she did her 70s aesthetic in the aesthetic of the album that's coming out which I'm super super pumped about um it looks like you oh what is that I don't have good eyesight what is that
top recording we have two cameras going right now so we'll deal with that uh next episode we got a new camera by the way so now I'm Switching to this camera because I thought we were going to be filming on that one but moving along um Chapel too Chapel do you want to say anything about Chapel cuz I actually have a lot to say about Chapel so I don't know if you wanted me to go first or if you wanted to say something well I'll let you say all your lot and I'll just add on
to it going seem like it's that much but anyways I she I'm just so impressed by the way that she has handled Fame truly Like I cannot they asked speciically um I don't know if you saw this interview but they asked her how she like has the confidence that she has at such a young age and she said she thinks it's walkway power like she she said she's been at it for 11 years and at this point if she has to walk away because it gets too heavy for her she will and I think there's
a lot of power in that because you can see like she walked up on that stage and set down her Grammy on the Ground flip her pages in her journal to say what she needed to [ __ ] and she she didn't like need to say those those words that is very sorry you're good um I was letting you finish your thought thought though did you finish it yeah pretty much she set down a Grammy to read from her diary which I think there's something poetic about that in and of itself where she was like
kind of placing herself above these institutions um and then what she said Had to do with making sure people had Healthcare like specifically artists but like there's a big obviously discussion around Healthcare right now so I think that that was really powerful for her to in her genre that she like lives in to speak up for like the little man yeah because i' never thought about that before actually I really hadn't like I think about Healthcare a lot uh but I had never considered like how small artists like Cuz it is difficult being a creative
in this world because it's such an undervalued thing to do it's not looked at as like a profession and career until you're like something the biggest [ __ ] name ever or something and that's just not that's just not accurate not everybody gets to that status yeah and that also gives a really disproportionate amount of um Power to people that have a lot of money cuz if that's the main people that like is Making art and we're consuming that art like you need to see that from everywhere in the I mean I'm going to talk
on a small scale like the United States like voices from every part of the country need to be heard and it's like we're mainly hearing from like California New York like those type of places and like that lived experience is not the same at all it's not it's not even in doi's accept acceptance speech she was like talking about Tampa Florida And she was like the creative coming out of that city alone and it's like she's probably right and like we I mean yep and that's like a bigger City compared to some that probably yeah
Tampa is still like a herd of city like we're coming we're coming at youa from Louisville Kentucky I love Louisville too um but also the fact that it came from Chapel who is so openly She's a Lesbian drag queen you know what I'm saying like that's always it's always Like it's always marginalized women coming forward and doing the work like that I feel like and you'll you'll notice that a lot of the people that spoke out Gaga Chapel DOI women oh and um [ __ ] Alicia Keys her Alicia Keys yes forgot about her I
forgot the award it was but it was like a big big award she got the Grammy was like this like sparkle it was [ __ ] cool but she like her speech was so so moving And just was giving you the hope that you needed type thing to keep moving um that one so [ __ ] good I also just she said so many words too like she spoke for so long and was so like everything she said seemed so well thought out and I'm sure she rehearsed and knew that was coming but I was
still so impressed by that like I just yeah I loved the Grammys this year and I was so [ __ ] glad Beyonce we just talked in the last episode about Cowboy Carter I'm so glad It got album of the year it was the cultural impact of cowboy Carter will be felt for years like I it 100% deserved album of the Year completely there was no other album that had the same cultural impct talk about to win album of the year what is the album supposed to do it is supposed to culture impact culture oh
my God I can't get that word out but yeah and looking at all the contenders that she was up against there are some Amazing [ __ ] albums and I loved yeah like but what she did the meaning behind it everything what she overcame with that album too with the racism from the CMAs with Daddy lessons which was again phenomenal [ __ ] song The Way She elevated other marginalized artists crazy opening up doors yeah loved it I'm so glad like I was so happy to see her gum of the year and Country album her
shot her her being couldn't Even believe it couldn't believe it and neither could I honestly I expected them to be so racist about that like I felt like she definitely deserved it but I just expect the Grammys are notoriously racist so like I saw that happen and I was like we're on the up and up at least somewhere we're on the up and up so you know there there's hope in the world anyway yeah second place I think like cultural impact probably would be Chapel She really did bring like the sapphics up this year you
know what in the mainstream culture yeah I mean good luck bab really just like not only the album but that single really just yeah [ __ ] crazy and she's not the first like queer artist to go mainstream like that but like that album was so unapologetically queer yeah yeah she's out there yeah Billy's too but it wasn't [ __ ] loved Billy's album that's not to say that like Billy's album was so good and it yeah that oh my God that that cowboy Carter did though we're talking about impact yeah and we're not basing
it off of like streams and like you said and all of that it it's the lives that it's impacted yeah I loved Billy's album Still Love Billy's album Beyonce was just such a body of work though and like the the mean yeah get get it we can talk about this said Wa to see the the the work that Billy will still continue to come out with like that's going to be forever change like I mean she'll probably do one even better than Alum that she we just had which is going to be insane she's gonna
pop out with her 1989 that was a turning point for Taylor was it not I think she I think she's gonna take this and be like I am gonna Zone in yeah see what she can do All right on today's episode we wanted to kind of do like a more personal one and ask questions towards each other and just kind of discuss so that's what we're doing today um I'm gonna start out with one of my questions first okay that's okay yeah it's fine okay Megan what's your favorite thing to do with your friends during
playtime I you know what I really miss doing together first of all I really love rolling around on Wheels with y'all We haven't none of these things we haven't played in a while um whenever we get a new thing that we're into it's fun when it's a group thing you're into you know yes right now we're all currently kind of doing piano so that's been fun or have you been on your piano [ __ ] for like a little bit on Saturday and then I went back to it like and did my the pattern that
I remembered and then and then that was it I've been trying to I've been Looking up like um on YouTube stuff you can do to like just get your hands used to things so I've been doing the like all the way up all the way back down all the way up the keyboard and then all the way back down I guess to like get finger control yeah uh I love when we get I just don't know if I'm ready for those jokes yet it's different when I have an actual Contender you know what I mean
oh it's still funny of course it is but I also have to check if she don't think that's funny on air well I guess we'll figure out later if I need to cut all that out if we're going to cut there I'll just restart at the piano part I'll just restart right here yeah we've been we've been [ __ ] around in a piano um trying to learn that I love when we get like a musical instrument we went crazy with ukuleles honestly she bust that back out Uh crazy with the lightsabers but we just
go crazy for a new [ __ ] thing honestly I like a thing we love a new thing yeah these are my things yeah so I love that I love when we like uh act like [ __ ] children love it sometimes I pop out like when I'm feeling childish I make that joke where I'm like do like blue and whenever I get better when you're in the water to say something like that that's when I'm like I think happiest with my friends so that's one Of the things you like to do during playtime is
ask about Gatorade yeah yeah like I love blue Gatorade actually what do you like to be drink play drink blue Gatorade um no not during playtime well actually sometimes during play time you know I like a little special Gatorade uh during my Play Time little SP enhances my Play Time honestly one might say um what do I like to do with my friends during playtime I do miss rolling around on my uh skateboard and I'm just doing The surf skate that one's really really fun I just got a new skateboard yeah we need to [
__ ] bust that out for some reason it's like really warm weather in February so not warm enough today it's like 40 I thought it was going to be 70 today I don't know why I thought that I was too lazy like I had not planned that and I wore my slides with no [ __ ] socks on the way over here so my dog's freezing that entire drive and I was like why did I Not get sock son you were settled dud I like sport related activities too not just like doing the creative stuff
like where we're just [ __ ] around with like painting oh my God God bless you I spit C in my throat I was not it's fine it's fine anyways sports related activities so I got to do some pickle ball Sunday I think it Sunday it don't matter it was over the weekend it doesn't Matter it doesn't matter at all day off I got to play pickle ball that was amazing kicked his ass too because like I didn't know if he was going to be able like able to play because he broke his foot so
like but it was like good for you know like good to do that and um yeah that was fun had a really good time damn I hate that it's like work it's cold it was cold I wanted to play some today sering yeah I can't wait to get back into my Balling I also love dancing with my friends we used to get to boogie in we don't do that no more I mean we still can but we don't what's your question what do you have what are some things you're feeling hopeful about hopeful that are
giving you hope [Music] um it does that doesn't look good when I like pause so long for like hopefulness I actually I wrote stuff down but I did The same thing when I was like having to write down genely do have to think say the question again what are some things that are feeling hopeful to you right now feeling hopeful to me as of right now giving you hope as a person that and you guys are going to make fun of me it's like my brain automatically was like well you're constipated so how hopeful are
you really feeling I'm hopeful that that [ __ ] smoothie will do its job um I [ __ ] hopeful oh the New connections that I've been making in the just the past like honestly just beginning of the year and just we're like what we're doing at work too just I'm interacting with some people more often than I usually do so that's like you know it's just nice having more human connections just in general uh cuz I know people don't have enough of those yep what else am I hopeful about what [Music] Else you got
can you uh can you go maybe yeah if something pops up I'll say something well it is very difficult right now to be hopeful I will say that's why I was saying like little or things like I I can't like I can't think big pictures yeah and I'm going to preface this like I know we've been really political but like I don't know how you can be a person that cares a lot about other people and not be right now with how Like just awful everything's going everything and I like really when we were talking
about this episode I was like I don't want to go super political the whole time but like it's on my mind it comes up con heavy right now because it's affecting everything it feels like maybe I'm just like chronically online but I don't think so like it's this is going to have like a lot of real world effects but anyway hopefulness I think it's really nice That as a generation we've all been so deeply traumatized together that we all react by being hilarious and I love that I the jokes the memes the jokes come through
I love that like we are all reacting by just treating people that are like not on the right side of History right now they are completely on the blind stupid [ __ ] side of History right now like they're just the biggest losers and we're getting so creative with the jokes and I Love it love it it love it I'm yeah that's bringing me so much joy like our generation there's some little bullshitters in here there's some little bullshitters and I know some of y'all but for the most part we're not [ __ ] with
this stuff we are not [ __ ] with it we already weren't [ __ ] with the 40-hour work week like we were like what are y'all on about I'm like yeah why why does it the way we why We look crazy like when we're like I'm not [ __ ] doing that because it's ridiculous and why are we over production buddy over production over consumption I would love for everybody to just chill yeah let's just the [ __ ] out everybody just take a deep breath clim a tree have a grape maybe little some
else with that grape and relax just Chilla yeah it ain't no thing this eventually too is going to be okay like I it's going to be all right at some Point we just got to get through some rough patches F finging who that's like that's what's getting me through that's like a mechanical B B I didn't write this down but also I just looked at my sweet little cat sleeping snug as [ __ ] under my Christmas tree is still up um and you know what we all we still have domesticated animals and fox and
coyotes are trying to domesticate themselves so that's also hopeful to me like I hope by The end of my life I have a pet fox that'd be sick that's a hope I have I actually like have so many notes about foxes in this notebook like right now are you dead ass I'm I am why remember I was do research for like that [ __ ] mm you ready for this their bushy tail helps maintain balance while jumping chasing warms themselves as a signal flag to communicate with fellow peers I need one of those to warm
myself Up tail you'll never catch me with a tail guys you'll never catch me with a tail but if I had one for real is that it mm I have three I wrot down three number two this one's pretty good I like this one there is so much potential in being alive oh so much I like that like no matter how bad things get they can always just change Always you can wake up there's this lyric in a Taylor's Swift song I think it's innocent where she says like uh it's Never too late to be
brand new and I think about it all the time like if you're sitting there ruminating on something that you don't like about yourself or that like you just think you could do better on you can just do better on it tomorrow you know what I mean yeah and even if it's a long process you still got life to live you can just do whatever you can change how you feel your opinion um how you handle things you can just start working on That at any point yeah you literally can there's so much potential in being
just alive and you can there's always like new relationships to build new things to learn new things to do and it's just that that's a promising thought to me is that I just have truly we forget that we have free will I think we can just do anything as adults like if you're having a bad day you can go buy an entire cake and eat that whole [ __ ] thing if you want To I don't know why that's I know I was like bro you can um I don't suggest it yeah that's to tell
you you had the free will to do that I would just say you're not going to feel good like you're physically not going to feel good after that so on a different honestly mentally too yeah some you need to eat a whole cake I can't even need gluten so I don't know why I said that yeah and I cake [ __ ] like that you know what I mean but you Could also like you could hop on YouTube and just like teach yourself how to do physics too if you wanted to just learn something about
that look up our history video like you could just get into anything thing tomorrow if you wanted to the world is at your fingertips all the time especially in this day and age like the library is free uh you can just go outside touch grass like there's just yeah so much potential in living and that that is there is so much hope in That do want me to just keep going okay hello number three because I'm still thinking about politics I do think that this is going to be a turning point for us like everything's
getting really shitty but I think that this will bring people who have been a little confused onto the right side of things because they're about to be affected you know what I'm saying yeah I do so many people are like that's not going to get me well it's got you know and that's because You've been ignoring things and I think now people are going to start paying attention being a little more informed I hope hope hopefulness hope I hope that's where this goes but I'm already seeing it on Facebook like and Facebook's where I see
where everyone thinks about everything especially my like older relatives they're noticing that like egg prices are getting actually worse uh that things are actually getting a lot worse and they're like wait maybe I [ __ ] up here and like that to me is everything when somebody goes way maybe I [ __ ] up yeah I love self-reflection so much and that has to do with the last one too there's so much potential in being alive you can change your mind at any point much [ __ ] strength in like a self-reflection and realizing that
you're like wait a minute maybe this time around was me yeah no no problem with like like realizing that and like noticing and fixing that and doing Something about it and it shows how badass you are if you can do that yes so I mean I don't know why you wouldn't want to try that out the is notoriously accepting that's like what we're known for so we'll you know we'll take you we'll take you gladly truly we love when people come around you know come around yep and I'm thinking we're going to get a lot
more empathetic because I think when people start getting affected by things they start understanding that Other people have already been being affected by things and it sucks so sometimes it takes the you know a personal happening to somebody it's not completely like the individual's fault because we are we live in a very our society's capitalistic which really uh values figuring [ __ ] out for yourself yeah and like making you have to figure everything out yourself and making it kind of actually difficult for you to figure out how to get through things and When we
realize that if we help each other out things get easier put better yeah yeah that was my last one though okay well I like yours a lot so thank you that was very good I I don't have anything to add I I love that yeah yes period moving along next question do you want to do one of your serious ones or should I take one of my goofy ones how many goofy ones do you have I have five left girl go ahead go Off okay if you could have a pet dinosaur what would you if
you could have a pet dinosaur what would you name it and what Adventures would you go on together rarus the what like what kind of dinosaur this one's hard it's okay you don't like remember all the names cuz I don't either well I was thinking like I was going down the line like Avatar like air water Earth fire fire do any their fire breathing dragons weren't real were They were there fire breathing I'm not in the science department I don't think there were but if there were that's what I want but if there weren't which
I think there weren't I think I would just want like a big ass [ __ ] scary one maybe a Triceratops I feel like that'd be fun to sit on and hold on to its Triceratop hold on to his tricerat top yeah okay I think that would be fun I would get it armored R that's kind of hard to say Yeah cuz they have those beaks too yeah those would hurt yeah um and they're heavy as [ __ ] yeah that one Ventures would you guys go on together first thing I'm getting an armor in
Japan I'm taking it to Japan on a fairy boat if there's fairy boats to Japan not letting that thing fly cuz planes keep going down Budd keep [ __ ] crushing yeah that's not not funny that's actually horrible but K mov yeah on a fairy boat I'm taking my Triceratops to Japan to get armor you sounded like when you said that you know what it sound in my brain you know when you're on a car like in a car on a road trip and then you do that thing where you're like I'm taking this you
know that game start a b and then C yeah so the way you phrase that like I'm taking my tricerat that's what I to get armor BR it back and I don't know what I would do I'll probably go show some kids first Thing I'd probably go to school show it off and be like guys this is Roar this is this is my this is my actual dinosaur that I have and they'd be like oh you built it no it's real real living dinos and it poops in the parking lot and I'm like yeah a
big [ __ ] the tax clean it up but yeah I'd show it to some kids first cuz I think kids [ __ ] with Dinosaurs pretty heavy um and then I would probably do some vigilante [ __ ] maybe I know some vigilante stuff with The dinosaur the armored dinosaur and I'd have armor too like Jon ofar yeah I would get that kind too and a sword you would get a sword yeah and take that to a child's School show off the sword fake sword to the school though but I feel like the dinosaur
in and of itself probably counts as a weapon for sure but I'm not doing which is like not true you know what I mean just a parking lot I don't know keep your kids check you know like what the [ __ ] nobody Mak any loud noises all right and like that's probably impossible for children so yeah slamming their books down and [ __ ] what would you name your dinosaur thank you so much for asking me Megan the dinosaur I would choose is a pterodactyl and I would name him Tom but p t o
m pterodactyl was spell with a p um Tom with a p like PT o m yeah because pterodactyl is f with a p you should put a p at the end too the t o m p Tom um The P's are silent it's giving um it's giving like celebrity name yeah it only goes by Tom honestly not gender it's like it's like call that [ __ ] whatever you want to call that no pronouns necessary or any pronouns necessary that's Tom yeah and with a p I liked the armor thing um cuz it it made
me think of Big Hero 6 you were talking about this is making me picture you as the Green Goblin thank you thank you so much for real cir down should I get that Little weird helmet he has yes yeah and you should laugh too what's your what's your evil laugh stop I'm not going to stop I want to hear this evil laugh I'll do one too should I do the one like in friends or should I try and go like a c and friends like j i reference these things and you never know them when
they literally in the dark that's not my fault wait a minute when they in the dark go that is such a niche reference this is not on me if you reference the Leather paint about this like everybody knows I would remember I know we've quoted that scene together guys and you wouldn't remember that either anyway you're not getting out of the laugh anyway you're not I was about to start it that's what that was that um I'll pause how does the Green Goblin even laugh too cuz I was thinking about mimicking it William Defoe so
I hard to do his voice No I'm just going to do that's not my laugh that was my try to do to by the way I can't what is [Laughter] a or or I like when he gives C flying on my pterodactyl it does kind of look batlike so a vampire one would go well I don't know another sound that I could do my cheeks are getting red from doing that I think I would want to do one that's like you do that anyways you can't count That as like a evil well that part was
evil not the beginning oh my God that's atrocious Adventures anywhere and everywhere I have a [ __ ] ter tool I can get anywhere you can you can go over the sea and the ocean I don't know the difference I think an ocean bigger nose is running yeah oan are a little bit bigger like pretty large actually anyways so large you want me to ask one more before we get to one of Yours yeah okay what's the best part about being a kid whoa n whoa noo so many things so obviously you have less autonomy
but well like as an adult answering that question you think about like the things that like [ __ ] piss you off that you have to do as an adult you know I feel like that's our brain's going to first go to that I don't know it's so hard cuz when I was a kid I Hated being a kid like I I I didn't actually but I didn't realize it you know what I mean like uh I wanted just to be able to do whatever I wanted so bad and like now that I can whatever
I want I just want to go back to being that Carefree well I was thinking of the amount of like goofing around time that's just that's just given to you because it's like you think cuz when you're a kid you have to do your homework you're so annoyed you have to Do your homework and then you get to being an adult and it's like doing your homework is optional but you still have to do it like you still have to do you still have all these responsibilities and it's more of them and they're not as
fun um so I think just like the Carefree aspect of being a kid and also the way you're allowed to act in public I think I miss the most actually now that I'm really thinking about it cuz the way that I like have we like are we kidding Ourselves we all want to act the way we did like I want to throw myself on the floor and be like this is [ __ ] unfair I hate it and I can't cuz I'm I literally thinking about like when you would play hideand-seek in the store or
like when you would run around too like you can have fun un [ __ ] around with the [ __ ] yeah when you're a kid I think mainly what I'm trying to say is you can feel your emotions so Openly and you just can do that and like now when you get older you're expected to like control them and you still have them yeah and it's the same thing with like fun or sadness or like anger like you just that's crazy I heard that in my headphones I also heard that in my headphones but
yeah that's that's what I missos is being able to just feel my feelings openly and I've been trying to work on that honestly as an adult with Feeling more comfortable just doing that yeah because we like that's been a journey for me as well failing the feelings yeah and then not worri about being judged in public honest about if you want to play in public yeah I want to throw thef football in the toy section at Walmart why don't you mind your business H worker comes out they're like just like I'm an adult and I
have amazing hand eye coordination okay please don't Money to give a [ __ ] about this yeah and honestly why are you even bothering like just look the other way let probably people that like hit stuff and then just leave it and they don't know we're not those people and why do those people exist guys I say all this and I smeared chocolate on that chair so yeah that was an accident one of those that was a true accident I say again let's get back into those childhood times yeah yeah H missed that what do
You got for me all right uh what books are on your to be read I've been really in a like a big time reading rut and uh I've still I'm still reading acatar like but I'm still putting that in to be read because I haven't gotten the first book and it's like guys I'm like actually halfway through the book it took me a year to finish the first one um yeah cuz I hated Tamlin so much and I have to like set time aside to actually like read it and I I'm getting to a point
where I do have to like just force myself um so that's on there and then I was like I uh I put Anna Karina because I've tried to tackle that book two times two times I've never quite far over halfway you're restarting I'm going to have to cuz like I remember stuff that happened but the book gives you details whereas the movie is just like kind of summarizing and and then the book that You know it focuses on some of the relationships that the movie does it as much so and I really like that story
it's like so good I haven't watched the movie in so long that I forgot what happened so maybe we could you want to book club it sure oh I'm like a I'm not a slow read [ __ ] read that it's like pretty [ __ ] I'll have to see I'll givey it's super old it's a thick book it's a lot it's a lot I might read in a bridge version we'll See and then I also put this book called AR Adney um which is the the woman who helped thesias in the in the Maze
with men is a classic or is it like a retelling it's like a retelling and it's from her perspective so I'm like really excited to get that so it's like um God what was that book called Sir is cersi Cersei okay yeah well that's what started me getting into these type of Greek mythology books was like s of Achilles is so good well yeah and I'm so Excited to see what other books she's going to come up with CU s of Achilles was good and Cersei was good in a different way song of Achilles Man
song of Achilles is that'll just take your heart out of your body and it'll it'll step on it a couple times it'll chop it up into fine pieces and then it will put it into a blender and hurt you yes and then it'll dump it into the sea yeah I have two little gay books that are so like fall love coded call me by your Name and song of Achilles I listen to those on Audible around like I've reread both of those M multiple times in the spring those and Mama Mia I don't know why
but they just all give spring Vibes to me and that's coming up thank God feelings what uh what is on your tub red okay I've been trying to get into like essayist cuz I think think I want to start trying to write essays which we were going to bring that up because I think we're going to start using Tumblr For this podcast um I don't know if anyone cares that much what we're doing but we wanted to get into we're tackle that yeah yeah we both wanted to get into more like writing Endeavors and like
Photo and like just different types of creativity stuff and we think we're going to put that stuff on Tumblr yeah so um I'll link that in the description if we've made it by the time this goes out um so I've been trying to read some essays I've got Joan didan and David Foster Wallace on my like go-to so like there's infinite just um a supposedly fun thing I'll never do again those are both like books of essays by David Foster Wallace and he's a very interesting person I don't remember enough about him to talk about
him on the podcast right this second that might come up later I'm sure it will if we're doing this inor and the same thing with Joan didan Joan didan has a few like collections of essays I've got um Slouching towards Bethlehem and The White Album so I'm going to try to get through both of those um I watch a documentary on her on HBO too that was super super good you should watch that I'm down to watch a documentary anytime um so yeah more getting into more essay is um on like a lighter note the
cruel prints which is like a fairy book that one's supposed to be really good I haven't read that one yet and like I'm running out of those um also kind of Reading Onyx storm slowly because the second one was hard to get through I'm not going to lie to you but I do want to know what Violet's second signant is I want to I know what's going to happen with Zaden so and last one Dracula because of no FR too I really [ __ ] hard with nose fro too I really liked it a lot
so I kind of wanted to Red Dracula I peep that didn't you have that it's over there on the floor yeah I've had it since I was like 12 never read it anyway yeah so that's our tbrs you might see something about that on Tumblr yeah I'd like to tackle Tumblr yep I already have one my user is Megan D ens 333 just like my Instagram just like everything I got except the ones that are Cowboy like megon you'll never know moving along do you want me to go sure this one's serious this one's going
to take a minute bring it all Right do you think everyone has a set purpose okay and do you think you found yours if you do think that we do have those okay oh everyone in the entire world every person yeah every living thing or just person animal I hadn't thought about I was just talking about people because animals do absolutely serve a purpose in my head like differently than people do animals do a lot humans do a Lot but we also do way more damage so there's like also that part so you want me
to focus on humans here do we all have a purpose honestly I feel like an easy way to like uh answer that would be like yes because I for me like my perspective personally from how I'm seeing it and me like yeah that person is like that person's purpose is to be a [ __ ] idiot because they ran like they didn't signal and They almost caus a car like something simple like that but um I mean I think everybody does um but the problem of like finding it knowing it or like what you're capable
of that's harder I think everybody does have a purpose but to understand what it is I don't think everybody gets there like at all that's true honestly the percentage is probably low if we really people serve the purpose of being a lesson to other like I said with the Perspective being like yeah you could easily just say that person's purpose was for this blah blah blah and this reason I could give myself all those reasons and then I guess you could look at the person and say something completely different but it would still be a
purpose then what was the they said uh and have I found it and like myself do you think you know what you're like I guess purpose is kind of a harsh Way to put it but do you think you know what you're like we kind of already talked about this at work a little bit but we did a little bit um I for one think it can change like that too your purpose something like moves you to do something and knowing in your bones that you have to do it like I think that can happen
quickly um I don't think there's more than one purpose for like me um but like this feels like like what We're doing feels like a purpose yeah um and like just with how I've been growing just from the past five years I think I had a different purpose then for myself and for others than I do like now for myself and for others so I think it'll probably change this year probably yeah that's what I kind of said to hold on let me read what I actually wrote yeah so I think I think everyone does
serve a purpose I think to an extent we get to choose our purpose but I think sometimes our purpose is to just be a lesson like I don't know cuz my brain always goes to extremes with stuff like this I know like my brain is always like Hitler like it always goes to like Hitler and I'm like what purpose did he serve and it's like he did so many atrocious atrocious things and the world probably would have been a better place certainly would have been a better place if he hadn't existed yeah but then you
don't Know what like who would have taken his place my brain also thinks of the balance it's like so you need see like the darkness in the world to see the light I think and like while it would be better if that Darkness didn't exist through tragedies mistakes bad things you find the lessons you understand well this should have been done well we should and it sucks that there are extremes with it not just like you stubbed your toe Because your table actually moved a [ __ ] inch and you didn't notice and you're like
well like something's little like that and then compare it to Hitler something like Hitler just and then you have to think of like the the people that don't do much in their entire lives that don't have like a huge huge impact even those people that don't have a massive impact still make a small impact like every little thing you do does something yeah like I was thinking of Like um there's certain things like we we work with this woman at work that like saves animals and she put all this effort into saving this like uh
what was it that she was trying to say a guinea pig or like a hamster or something something like that type rodent yeah and like something like that like thinking that putting that much effort into saving such a small creature and then it like not meaning anything in the long run what was the purpose of that action And then it's just like to serve as a lesson of empathy that just everything matters yeah like that's that touches me even though it like didn't work out in the end and like I don't know stuff like that
I think everyone does serve a purpose to even if you're like evil or like you don't do much you have a purpose but is it predestined I don't know I think we choose it for ourselves the purpose of being yeah I don't know about that and then it gets all funky Because like we said it changes it constant like I mean maybe all that's part of the plan too but [Music] it's but like you also have to think about how rare like I'm to go so deep into this but the fact that we even exist
is crazy like the Earth had to be in such a specific spot and like have oxygen have all these things and like you can also put it like where we adapted to exist on The Earth but like the fact that there's even life and we haven't found it anywhere else and and like the things we think about it's like everything matters and nothing matters at the same time you know what I'm saying it's almost like everything everywhere is happening all at once yeah they literally say that with the nothing matters it's like nothing matters but
matter Matters everything matter pick yeah you get to just pick and choose the pale blue dot thing like that picture of us so so so far away yeah and you can look at it and be like well I'm so blah blah blah minuscule tiny doesn't nothing yeah but then you have to think about how big you are next to an atom too so like that's just subjective perspective and I don't know it's like we are God you know what I'm saying like we are the universe's Consciousness experiencing itself and we could just talk about that
all day well you can cut this part out do you understand making an editing you can cut this part out we can come back yeah you're only as important as you make yourself right so if you treat if you yeah H something to think about y'all I'm G think about that one some more been in negative spiral but like I'm bringing myself out of it talking right now that's my last serious question oh but your purpose what do you think your purpose is this the podcast well this partially yes I don't want to give it
just its own thing because like there's so much of me to give um so like this is definitely a purpose um I think I think my purpose is the the relationships that I have that I like specifically the close ones the the Inner Circle ones I don't know I feel like it's my purpose to have these types of conversations with as many people as I possibly can like eventually get here with anybody who I'm talking to or who I know I love these type of just having conversations about anything and everything with all of your
feelings and being honest or like those conversations I do too I think mine what I wrote down is kind of similar but I just wrote it in different words like I Feel like I'm very good with certain things like I feel like I'm very good at I've been kind of bad at it recently cuz I'm trying to like repress my emotions but normally I'm pretty good at like feeling and articulating my feelings and I feel like I'm I'm one of those people that if you I will just tell anyone anything and like sometimes I think
that that's a bad thing but sometimes I also think that my ability to be Comfortable talking about myself in that way makes people feel less alone yeah when somebody receives that from you I I think they're also like it it's probably like a whoo but then it's also like well damn like she's telling me all this like that's like they're going to do something with that like that sometimes opens up a doorway for the other person to receive reciprocate in some type of way with their own feelings and thoughts and I think as a culture
we've gotten Really weird about keeping everything very Bas level and I think my purpose on this Earth is to kind of deconstruct that a little bit because why are we why are we not talking about anything when we talk to people like connect with another person you know what I mean like if someone asks you like how are you doing tell them how you're doing because odds are if you're not doing great they're probably not feeling great either like I think a lot of us aren't Feeling great right now and trying to pretend like we
all are is not doing us any good so there's that and like I I odds are you're not alone in anything and I think that's my purpose on this Earth is to just live in a way that makes other people feel comfortable living in a way that's comfortable for them and like that pertains to being like I'm a pretty like not a mask but like I'm a pretty like masculine woman in a lot of ways like I'm willing to say And do things that a lot of women feel uncomfortable doing um and I think part
of that is just like social unawareness sometimes but I think that people seeing me act a certain way is helpful to other people um I'm kind of talking in circles now but like in a way community building I feel like that's my purpose on this Earth it's Community Building like yeah the goal has been Community but like the approach is always different so yeah and I I also believe that our purpose is EB and flow with our growth as people sorry I don't mean to look all uncomfortable I just um bathroom yeah I think I'm
about to [ __ ] bust to done yeah what minute are we on3 what do you want to do we can just call it or we can tackle another question and they can edit this out you need to go now yeah I do but we get back into well do you have any questions that you like really Didn't want to ask honestly there's like I mean there like yours you mean like what your favorite way you yourself what's your favorite day or what's your favorite part of the day you I like those though I love
those too that's I wrot them down I have to pee really I drink liquid so after all this that's so sweet if you s in the would happen that fast I was hoping yeah it's very sweet of you um we can I can hit us with one question and Then we can take uh take the quote okay Megan you can cut this back in my God this one's gonna be so heavily edited oh my God okay Megan oh my God I can hear that liquid so clearly I hated the ASMR clink the so why CL
like that's pretty good um okay so what's your favorite way to spend a rainy day sleeping but if I'm not sleeping Painting I really do enjoy putting on like a YouTube video and painting that's okay I was about to ask what do you have you know going on in the surroundings with your painting cuz there's no way you would just be painting I like to watch I really I think I've said this on the podcast before but I really enjoy um those tech support videos Yeah by wired is it wired I don't know but I
really enjoy those tech support videos where they have like a professional answer Like the internet's questions about things because you just learn so much about stuff you don't even really think about um or care about a lot of the time just gives you it gives you enough yeah to understand it yeah so I watch those the Broski report love the brosi report anything Britney brosi does really I like sucking the fart out of her butt truly she would but I love fry Broski um yeah YouTube YouTube and paint or movie but I can't really pay
enough attention To a movie while painting to internalize what I need to internalize so I try to pick something that I can just listen to okay sounds like a good rainy day honestly yeah it is nice yeah it's been a minute um I got two like variations of the answer cuz like if I was say if and I can still do it now it's just a pain in the ass like when you have wet clothes it's fun stomping in the [ __ ] puddles I will say in a rainy day uh I Also like movies
but if I were to do some type of craft I would have music on in the background something like that um but I think more often than not I want like a movie and I Want to Get Cozy on my couch but then I would also probably want to do a crft while I'm doing that it'd probably be a movie I've seen multiple times so it probably would be if it was like a light sprinkle and it was warm out I would like to go play in It I don't do that as an adult ever
but I would like it's too heavy of a drop no no then it's just over stimulating it is and then I'm [ __ ] soaking wet in 10 minutes I do like and I know this is dangerous but being in a body of water while it's raining is kind of a super fun experience like I've like in the lake when it's raining that is such like a weird thing to experience and it's actually so fun euphoric one might say so if on the off chance I can Pull that off that's also super cool with a
speaker ooh with the speaker in the water I got a waterproof speaker at the end of last summer and this year I'm going to have it the whole summer all right do you want to do the quote go pee pee go pee pee you gotta go TI T tutu it's just a Tinky no Tut Tinky Winky Tinky wink Tinky Winky dips all right this one is from January 7th of this Year and I have backstory on this so this pretty good I like when there's back story this one's for Austin he's got a lot of
sledgehammers I need scorpions yesterday it's got to be a video game has to be yeah is it a yeah so we were like both in the game room and like I think I was zoned out on my power washing or something like that and he goes he's got a lot of sledgehammers I need scorpions yesterday and like said It so loud and I was like that is so like I'm not even F like I would laugh harder but I'm so unfazed by it cuz I knew it was going to be Austin yeah he so [
__ ] genuine serious he was like I need scorp I laughed he's like no I need scorpions because he had sledgehammers and I was like can we tell the story about Carissa trying to get in your house real quick oh my God if you can tackle it it's fast as [ __ ] fast as [ __ ] well it's not that it's not point Is Carissa couldn't get in the house we called Austin 11 times and she knocked on the game room window and timing me and we saw him like on his computer and and
Artemis was in the little window with her eyes yeah that was that was insane that was insane ridiculous Austin that's ridiculous but we need scorpions yesterday yesterday we'll see you guys in two weeks maybe sooner who knows little hint for them damn all you viewers out there so many Of you all but who knows I might let y'all down I do often oh
