so that we have an opportunity to discuss this as impersonal as an impersonal reality it's you could say it's unknowable aliveness unknowable alive is what is for each one year now it's it this is that's it and chances are to hear there's a search going on and that search is for that unknowable aliveness that already is the case that unknowable Lyman's could also be called wholeness or fullness completeness but as what's already is and has knitted completely unaffected by the serve its unwanted being unwanted it's not popular because it can't be wanted it doesn't serve
any purpose at all the personal is always interested in serving the purpose having a purpose finding a purpose for failure the emptiness of what's being shared here can be terrifying but as far as I'm concerned everybody already knows this isn't it isn't going to be something new to anyone and in some way these meetings aren't about learning something or getting something it's it's just permission in the in the story of Jim I tried very hard after there was an awakening to find what I thought was missing and all the realizations and all the things that
happened seemed all very important and meaningful and in the end when the bottom drops out is recognized well at the end of any one that recognizes anything all that's left is nothing it's recognized that it's just completely unwanted well it was never it wasn't there was nothing that was ever gonna happen or ever gonna be done that was gonna bring about the end of the search that the end of the search is all there is its wholeness and completeness as this already the difficulty for the experience of the person is that has no choice it
might here this actually you'll never hear this but something might hear this mm-hmm but the individual can't stopped it can't stop searching it can't do anything in relationship to what it's looking for because in reality it's not separate from it so when I say this is about nothing to me what the end of the difficult for the individual the separate sense of self is that it wants to focus on nothing for this Nord let's say this is negated by nothing it wants to find the position in one of those two aspects of the sentence and
what's in the impossibilities is what's being presented herein expressed is that both aspect for the same thing so in reality it's impossible to say because you have to say no and yes at the same time if say is it isn't at the same time you say is an empty at the same time you have to say nothing is arising there's not nothing moving to a rising it's the arising is nothing appearing as something of course that's not true because it's not appearing it is nothing this is something so what the individual do necessarily because it
lives in the world of knowing which is a position I know here is the first position here is the first knowing it's on a path to find what it thinks it's missing any defines that something's missing or nothing's missing so it's either looking for more we're looking for less and it does that by creating a system of right and wrong good and bad it's basically a straightjacket in which it lives where it tries to find the right way to be to get what it feels like it needs to feel whole to feel complete to feel
to feel good enough because basically the individual feels it's not good so it's on the search looking for something and the problem for the individual it always finds something it's looking in reality for nothing but it has no idea what that is it can't actually look for it because nothing and this is unwanted this is obviously unwanted because it already is how could you want what is what need would there be to want what is but the individual can't imagine is that what is is the fulfillment that it's looking for that has no relationship to
the experience has the fulfillment of getting out of getting high of getting full of having a nice walk or a nice experience this has nothing to do with the experience what's being shared here is not a negation it's not a negation of one thing is not a negation of need it's not an engagement of experience it's not a negation of the individual what it says this is that all of it is already complete fulfillment it already is wholeness and it is already what it is and there is never anything outside of it there is nowhere
to go although the experience of somewhere to go the individual is contained within their military this in reality is not happen it's nothing appearing that happen it makes no difference if we die now or in five minutes or in 10 years none whatsoever nothing changes nothing ever happens to the individual the first reaction is of course to something change of course something happens I will get something next ten years that's the dream of the individual that something is really happening something can really be taken with it something really changes the fact is doesn't make any
difference nothing makes the difference and it doesn't make any difference not in the sad hopeless way that the individual experiences that it doesn't make any difference because it doesn't need because this is already the coldest completeness unconditional love that's absolutely suited search for this exactly as it is including everything this this meeting is an opportunity to discuss discuss what what is that might sound simple it is actually very simple there there is actually only what is what is is what appears and what doesn't appear what is is all there is what is is already complete
and it's already fulfilled if there's seeking happening what's being sought is is what is if there's only what is and there's nothing else the question then arises how come their seat near how could there be seeking and that's because within what is arises the energetic experience that there is something else or that there needs to be something else because what is isn't enough it's not it that experience is the experience of I or me of self of here and there and that experience is either subtly or rather dramatically dissatisfying the experience of being individual is
the explicit is a tension in the body and so the seeking is actually the seeking to get rid of the tension seeking and the effort at rid of seeking are the same thing so it's actually sort of on a circle that's going around in a circle the individual the experience of being individual is self confirming so there's no actual escape of the individual from the sought from the search for the end of the individual what's being suggested here is at that search and the experience of being individual are completely illusory they're unreal there's no meaning
to there no purpose to that experience of being individual says that this what's happening what is is about something there's a reason for this and because that's completely illusory there's notice that there's no solution for the individual in that the fact is that this has no reason this what's happening has no reason for the individual the experience that things have a reason seemed to have some experience of fulfillment it has meaning it has hope that meaning and hope is actually affects just the opposite it means that hope needs to be found and reason needs to
be made and the individuals life is that finding meaning reason and hope and what this what this meeting is about or the opportunity is to discuss the illusory nature of that search the alizarin nature of the individual and the reality that what is has no meaning or hope reason or purpose because it doesn't need it because it's already complete and fulfilled as it is and by what it is I'm not talking about another wouldn't I'm not talking about something that somewhere else and that's not something that I'm not suggesting that there's something that needs to
happen that something needs to change no special insights it's literally just the end of the experience that this what is is about something and all that's left is this is about nothing you whatever's happening for anyone here that is everything that is what's looking for that is the absolute there's nothing outside that or beyond that there's nothing nothing missing in that completeness is completely unaffected by what appears to be happening it doesn't care if it's recognized or not recognized the experience of the individual happens to cover cover up the completeness or the reality that nothing
is missing when the individual dies that's not that's not then the experience of nothing missing that's not then the experience of completeness or wholeness which is what the individual wants and is looking for that's just the end of the need of something to happen just the end of the experiences something's missing so we're talking about loss a loss of an experiments that what's happening is real which is at the same time the experiences something's missing so there is only what is or what's happening and that's not really it's just what is and sometimes within that
what it is there's a tension that arises which is the experience of being an individual or a person and that tension has the experience of trying to find something real in with it as there isn't anything really hit the hole closer it makes no difference if there's a search or not a search if this is recognized for areas or not because it is as it is not what happened this is the absolute it's not coming from anywhere it's not it's not going anywhere what is is infinite this is infinite there's no beginning to this there's
no end to this there is only everything what is this is everything really what is it a complete mystery it can't be spoken about it can't be perceived it can't be experienced it can't be known but in the mystery that can arise an experience of individuality of being a person the experience of having a center of being a center an experience of here that experience is an experience of knowing that knowing makes the absolute makes the mystery appear to be something it's not the mystery then turns into something that has meaning and purpose a beginning
and an end and the story of the individual is finding confirming and maintaining that meaning and purpose that experience hides completely the reality that nothing is known that the appearance this this is not another appearance as this it's completely unknowable there's nothing many missing in it it's never incomplete there's no that experience I'm talking about of being individual is simply an experience of a contraction in the body which simultaneous turn looks outside for meaning for itself it covers over everything that's apparently happening with the search for meaning if there's an individual that's doing it right
now it's not hearing what's being said it's giving meaning to what's being said it's putting it into context of what it thinks everything means what it's good and bad and right and wrong for you it's not only doing it with the words it's doing it with the face the body the chair the wall the table everything everything's covered over with that search for meaning so what all this is is not seen there's not Ricky there's someone looking instead of there just being seen there's someone listening and said they're just being hearing so that experience as
as this talks about this is that what's being said isn't what's meant he must mean something else it can't be this it can't be what is he must be somehow speaking mysteriously about the absolute or about a mystery that something needs to happen for that to be revealed and that's exactly how it maintains how it keeps itself covered over even the experience of being individual is the mystery so what's being said is exactly what's meant there's nothing behind it there isn't another mystery somewhere and nothing needs to happen for that to be revealed it's already
this hello there's re nobody here this meeting is about freedom absolutely unconditionally it's not a freedom that anyone ever gets because that personal freedom it's not freedom for me to be able to make the choices I want to find what I'm looking for it's not the freedom to become enlightened to meditate enough to eat enough white rice to find the freedom that the individual thinks is the solution to the problem I'm talking about unconditionally so I'm talking about free learn actually can't be understood it can't be conceptualized it can't be known within this freedom there
arises the experience of an individual that individual looks for free the individual is a very simple construct it's a tension that arises in the body calls itself the first thing it knows it's here I am here and that experience is immediately seeking meaning in everything that's how the story begins that's how real time begins real cause and effect begins that's how the story begins this being about freedom this meaning what's being pointed to is that this exactly as it is already is that freedom is that unconditioned unbounded freedom this isn't and that within eNOS arises
that experience of the individual and that experience is an expression of freedom that experience says though I am NOT free it doesn't know it doesn't experience me and so it's on the search it's not searching for freedom it wouldn't have any idea what was an accountant it's searching for meaning and purpose its searching to defend what it thinks it knows which is Here I am here my life is important I am so the suggestion of the meeting is this is the freedom that's not being good for for which is the solutions the experience of the
individual that says this isn't enough this isn't what I'm looking for something else needs to happen the suggestion years nothing is the problem for the experience of the individual is this is what it's looking for there's nothing else there's nothing else to find so the situation for the individual is absolutely hopeless sometimes that that such a statement will be called nihilistic and for me it's not realistic Neel ISM says there's an individual for which there's no hope what's being suggested here is there to know a real individual you so these meetings are about the end
of the search the end of the search isn't isn't going to be finding something the end of the search is just the end of the search it's the death of the seeker it sounds a bit more dramatic than it is because the death of the seeker is the end of something that never happened the seeker is really in a sense a body belief so there's a tension in the body and around it wraps itself a belief a justification for there's somebody saying I am and the whole search is trying to confirm the reality of the
individual the whole search is a search for security permanence or power over the situation that it seems to find itself in the end of the search isn't that that's known that there's no one at the end of the search isn't that it's known what this is the end of the search is the end of that need to know what this is what's revealed when the search is over is that this is unknowable that's what the search is an effort to find knowing in what is unknowable that's why it's so unsatisfactory that's why it doesn't work
because trying to confirm the reality of something that has no reality so liberation is liberation from the search enlightenment is being enlightened from the need to find something else what's left when the search is over and then he dies is just what is is what's happening the search is the experience that what is is real that there's a real continuity that it's coming from somewhere and it's going somewhere that this has meaning and purpose the end of the search is the revelation that this that what is or what's happening is empty the experience of the
individual that it's real covers over or makes that the experience that everything else is also real solvent that there's something in everything because there's something in here there's something and everyone else there's even something inside that painting or inside that chair a solidity to it when that falls away there's just what's happening which is the emptiness of everything and in the end that isn't something that actually happens because the individual is also emptiness appearing as or being in the experience of something that's real so nothing actually changes something that might happen because this is sitting
here and you're sitting there is the idea or the the sort of thing I can't think of any English word but that something is known here so I start talking if this starts talking and things are said and it sounds like that's coming from a knowing like somebody knows something and there there's something that's not known and if that just knew what this seems to know that that's would be the solution to it and that's completely the misunderstanding there isn't anything known it's a loss of knowing it's a loss of having so what is left
isn't a knowing it's the recognition of the revelation that there is only unknowing so the biggest problem for the individual is death because it wants to know what happens when the body dies unknowing death is unknowing this is death this is already death it's already unknown
