When My Son Confessed His Unspoken Feelings, Our Once Simple Relationship Became....- Reddit Family

when my son confessed his unspoken feelings our once simple relationship became complicated Beyond repair on a calm evening our quiet neighborhood was bathed in a beautiful orange glow as the sun started to drop behind the hills the radio was humming softly in the background while I was in the kitchen making dinner Eric my son had recently spent the weekend at home after attending college the house exuded a Serene cozy Vibe the kind of Tranquility that comes from familiarity Eric had matured so rapidly he was a child who followed follow me around the home and asked

me a ton of questions about life and it seemed like it was only yesterday at 21 he had changed from the young boy I had known to a strong self- assured and occasionally unwittingly aloof young man as he Grew Older our relationship had changed and I was still getting used to it I called him from the living room when dinner was ready he glanced at me as we sat at the table and I noted that it was different intense and caused me to Halt at first I dismissed it as a figment of my imagination we

discussed how much he missed home his classes and his friends but something I couldn't quite describe was evoked in Me by the way he spoke and the way his eyes stayed on mine longer than normal as we used to do frequently before he departed for college we made the decision to watch a movie together after supper the soft cushions and low lighting made the living area feel Cozier than normal which was ideal for a peaceful evening in I couldn't recall the last time we spent an evening together in such Tranquility I noticed how he had

matured into himself as the film went on and I found myself looking at him more than I should have he had grown into a man instead of the child I had reared he moved closer to me on the couch just as I was starting to have a weird feeling of anxiety about the things that were going through my head I initially believed it to be harmless but then his hand touched mine something electrifying something I knew I shouldn't feel sparked through me startled by the intensity of the moment I swiftly withdrew my hand what's wrong

Mom he said in a quiet almost worried voice unsure of what to say I stared at him with my heart pounding I tried to brush the emotion aside and hoped he wouldn't notice our tension nothing sweetie just tired that's all I said however I was aware that something had shifted at that very instant that we couldn't ignore the distinction between mother and son had become hazy and although neither of us had crossed it there were many unset ideas in the air the movie was playing in the background while we sat there in quiet but neither

of us was listening I told him I had to get to bed early and got up but as I was leaving I couldn't get rid of the feeling that something had changed between us that night as I lay in bed my thoughts were racing I knew I couldn't allow this emotion to intensify for the benefit of both of us I had to stay away but I secretly didn't know how I felt uneasy when I woke up the following morning I kept thinking about what had happened the night before I made an effort to dispel the

sensation by telling myself it had all been in my imagination nothing more nothing less than I was his mother I had a profound love for him but not in a way that would ever be be interpreted incorrectly I convinced myself that I was acting irrationally by the time I made it downstairs Eric was already up and enjoying a cup of coffee at the kitchen table he smiled at me as like nothing had occurred perhaps it had been nothing at all simply a strange moment that only I had observed I made the decision to ignore it

for the time being morning I responded attempting to sound as regular as possible while fainting a grin morning mom he said in a relaxed and informal tone I was considering taking a hike later would you like to accompany me a trek we hadn't done anything like that together in a very long time after how I felt last night I briefly considered whether I should spend more time alone with him however I later told myself that it was just a mother and son hanging around that was perfectly okay sure I replied it sounds nice we traveled

to a neighboring path later that afternoon a location we had visited frequently when he was smaller for that instant the sky was a Vivid blue the air was clear and everything seemed normal we strolled alongside each other discussing nothing specific just our shared past experiences his future Ambitions and the typical small talk I started to giggle felt more comfortable around him and wondered if I had overreacted the previous evening however there were times when we stopped talking as we continued on the trail leaving a lingering silence that felt heavier than it should have at one

point Eric stopped walking and turned to face me when we came to a clearing with a stunning view of the valley below he added you've always been there for me mom in a quiet but Earnest tone I don't know what i' do without you his tone was vulnerable and there was something about the way he said it that surprised me and made my heart hurt I tried to brighten the situation by smiling well you won't have to worry about that anytime soon I laughed I'm not going anywhere he was not amused as an alternative he

moved closer and met my gaze his words no I mean it went on you have never been just my mother you've been something and everything I went cold I wasn't prepared for the weight and significance of the words that hung in the air there was something in his eyes that made my pulse race again just like the previous evening but I looked for any indication that he was merely being sentimental or that this was an innocent moment of adoration Eric I whispered in a voice that was hardly audible above a whisper you know how much

I love you right of course he said taking another step toward her I love you too more than you realize my heartbeat accelerated this was not the proper way for a mother and son to look at one another or speak my body felt immobile even though my head begged me to take a step back and create some distance between us I said I think we should head back in a trembling voice it's getting late however he stretched out and softly touched my hand before I could move away even though the touch was harmless I couldn't

help but feel sick to my stomach because of the way he held on in the way his thumb softly touched my skin mom he whispered quiet quietly with a tone that I couldn't quite put my finger on I've been feeling something something I shouldn't be feeling but I'm not sure how to put it I believe you felt it as well I was filled with panic with my heart thumping in my chest I withdrew my hand and stepped back I said Eric stop in a shaky voice that's not what you mean you're perplexed his face was

a mixture of hurt and bewilderment as he gazed at me Mom I'm not confused I am aware of my feelings no I replied with a headshake this is incorrect my son is you we are unable to I was unable to continue the phrase because it felt too heavy and risky to say aloud Eric inhaled deeply emotion obscuring his features I am aware I can't help how I feel even though I know it's wrong additionally I don't believe you can I fought to maintain my calm as tears filled my eyes this was not taking place this

cannot be taking place before things progress rest further and we crossed a line we would never be able to go back I had to put an end to this I broke my voice as I said I'm your mother I also adore you but not in that way we can't I can't thick and oppressive the words hovered between us his shoulders slumped in defeat and I could see the sorrow in his eyes he nodded slowly while down at the floor in embarrassment I apologize he muttered I had no intention of I didn't want to cause you

any discomfort I took a deep breath attempting to suppress the tumultuous mixture of feelings churning within me though I wasn't positive I answered quietly it's okay and suggested that we simply head home the silence on the way home felt oppressive we both remained silent Eric and I every second felt excruciatingly long because of the weight of what had been said on the trail hanging between us my mind was racing as I tried to comprehend what had just transpired but I kept my eyes on the road his confession of feelings and the words that came out

of his mouth astounded me everything I believ to be true about our relationship seemed to have been completely turned upside down upon arriving at the driveway Eric murmured that he was heading to his room he vanished up the stairs and I did nothing to stop him my body shook with the feelings I had been suppressing since the trail moment and I fell onto the couch I had no idea how to interpret any of it he was my baby boy my kid but he was no longer a boy and it was becoming frighteningly obvious that our

connection had become more complicated than either of us had anticipated the the way he had looked at me and the way his palm had lingered on mine told me otherwise even though I wanted to think that his feelings were only a phase something temporary that would pass with time I experienced a feeling of guilt like if I had done something wrong perhaps I had been too close too loving over the years however it wasn't correct was it it was expected of mothers to care for love and support their sons I had only ever done that

however the odd tension that had developed between us now poisoned everything and I was at a loss for how to resolve olve it I tried to avoid him for the remainder of the day by keeping myself occupied with household tasks and anything else that would take my mind off of my feelings of perplexity I was emotionally spent by the time evening arrived though I knew I couldn't escape it indefinitely I didn't want to face what it happened Eric and I couldn't continue acting as though nothing was wrong when it was so obviously not I had

been lying in bed for hours that night when I heard someone knock on my door my heart fell I recognized him Mom can I come in Eric said in a quiet almost tentative tone my mind was screaming at me to say no to put some distance between us but I hesitated but I knew I couldn't ignore him any longer despite how uncomfortable it was I had to confront this come in I whispered Softly As I sat up in bed and pulled the blankets up over my head hoping that they would protect me from the impending

mental storm Eric entered appearing just as torn and uncertain as I was for a minute unsure of what to do with himself he stood at the edge of the room he sat down on the bed's Edge after a few seconds but he remained at a distance he said I'm sorry in a regretful tone what I said previously wasn't appropriate I I'm not sure what happened to me trying to think of the perfect words I nodded slowly what happened earlier Eric that can't happen again I added acknowledging that this was confusing we must exercise caution things

aren't meant to be this way I know he said in a whisper his eyes sad but but Mom it's really difficult I have no idea why I feel this way I've made an effort to ignore it but it keeps returning I was deeply affected by what he said I was overcome with sadness for him for us both really I never thought I would find myself in this predicament but here we were caught in a maze of feelings that neither of us could unravel I repeated I'm your mother in a soft yet forceful voice I can

only ever be that you are aware of that aren't you he nodded despite the agony in his eyes as he stared at me I know he replied I just I don't want to lose you you're not going to lose me I told him but we need to establish limits Eric this is risky territory there was silence between us for a moment though there was still the tension from earlier in the day there was also an implicit awareness that things couldn't go on as they were even though neither of us wanted to admit it completely we

both knew it I gently said perhaps it would be best if you return to school tomorrow tomorrow I think we both need some space to clear our heads I could see the sadness in Eric's eyes yet he nodded slowly yeah he muttered maybe you're right the air between us was Heavy with unresolved emotions as I watched him pack his belongings the following morning I wanted to give him a hug and reassure him that everything would be all right but after everything that had transpired I just couldn't bring myself to do it the house felt more

empty than it had in years when he eventually left I tried to take it all in as I sat on the couch and gave GED out the window it wasn't any easier even though I knew that setting some distance between us was the best decision for both of us a mother and Son's connection should be straightforward and unadulterated but ours had devolved into something much more complex that neither of us could manage I made an effort to get back into my routine as the days went by but it wasn't the same without Eric the home

felt too quiet and I was thinking about him more than I should have I hoped that the distance would be beneficial and that it would allow us both the time we needed to work through our emotions however I knew in my heart that things would never return to how they were we couldn't reverse the change that had occurred between us and I wasn't sure what was ahead for us thank you for watching if you haven't subscribed yet please do so and hit the notification Bell to stay updated with more shocking real life stories happening around

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