so it is currently midnight right now and i just kind of randomly got the urge to go out on a road trip kind of to the middle of nowhere so anyways let's get on the road of course we gotta play that girl in red dude of course this is a main character vibe moment we're going on an adventure spontaneously maybe that's pretentious to say but i don't know i like thinking that i'm the main character sometimes you look so pretty i am aware that i kind of look crazy right now i'm i'm literally at a
school in the parking lot setting up my camera looking like a fool but that's the great thing about living in a small town there's no one out here dude it's just me and the camera but it's moments like these that make me really feel happy because out of all the chaos and and noise right in the world around us things that are happening overseas things that are happening right next to us all that chaos all that information coming in it's moments like these where you realize that the world actually moves really slow you know i
don't i don't really have a plan to record a video when i came out here i didn't really have a plan to do anything um but i really just wanted to sit somewhere kind of vent i feel like a lot of youtube for me is just venting and it's helping a lot to be honest it's helping a lot i think most of my problems right now are centered around trying to find myself i feel kind of lost and you know that's okay it's okay to feel lost from time to time but there's a moment where
i felt like i had everything i had everything i needed i was happy i had great things to look forward to in the future but now it feels like i don't know by the way you guys like my crocs dude they're like they're like they're land and water they are pretty cool i feel like someone is gonna sneak up behind me and just like stab me and now that i put that thought into my mind i'm kind of freaking out um i should do this a lot more though i feel like someone's gonna stab me
but i should do this a lot more there's more that there's more to the world than your tiny city the people in your small town there's more to the world than even the whole entire united states or the country that you live in in europe or whatever there's so much to the world that we're going to go off and and and have the potential to see that's why before i die i definitely want to see every single state in the u.s every single country in the world experience every single culture and i know that's impossible
but i can't help but feel like if we die without experiencing all these things of people that we share this planet with do we really know what it was like to be human and how this relates to sitting in a parking lot of a middle school at midnight i don't know but all i know is that right now i feel calm and at peace for the first time in a long time maybe parking lots are the cure to depression everything happens for a reason like think about all the possibilities that led you to being in
this moment watching this youtube video or tic toc video or wherever i post this video i mean really think about that you could have closed the app or just ignore the notification or just scrolled on this video would have never been a part of your life but now it is i could have ended up just sleeping or going for a run in the parking lot you know the craziest thing is i was about to go for a run before i decided to come here but i have this cut i got on my foot i don't
know if i want to show you guys but i i cut my foot while working at the neighbor's house today helping them um build their little deck they're making and i realized as soon as i got out there i started to run it hurt so i stopped and i decided hey i want to go for a bike ride instead but then there was no bike in the garage and i have no idea where my bike is i thought i knew where my bike is i'm still kind of worried about that and then i was like
okay let me take the car so here we are this is all the result of me hurting my my injuring my leg this morning working at the neighbor's house maybe what i'm saying sounds kind of ridiculous but everything happens for a reason and now because of all of that you're watching this video so if something bad happens to you in the moment like let's say you hurt your leg i just hurt my leg don't automatically assume that it's gonna be a bad outcome you know what life might be hard and it's been hard for me
i won't be i won't lie there's a lot of stuff i'm dealing with in terms of you know content and creating and not knowing where i'm at but i feel really lost right now but it's okay to feel lost and i feel good right now because at everything i still have this vague sense of home and things like this and waking up early for the sunrise and catching the sunset or looking up at the stars i'm it's midnight i'm in a school parking lot but i'm loving life you know and maybe that's just what someone
out there needs to hear it will get better guys it will get better it's okay to feel lost it's okay to feel hurt everything happens for a reason it although it's all up to how you react i promise it if you keep that mindset nothing can take you on bro you are invincible you are an amazing human being i'm just so filled with love for you and everyone watching this video just crazy that half the world is asleep right now it's something so therapeutic about being out here that makes me so happy makes me love
life this is exactly what i needed you know what maybe life isn't so bad after all think about that [Music] why should she stands
