Emma was an extrovert but she hadn't always been one I suppose it's my fault that we drifted apart in the end the truth is I fell for all that [ __ ] I listened to that voice the smearing one that niit at the back of my ears with it sharp incizors the one that that asked why is your only friend a girl I fell for the indoctrination every 12-year-old boy does and it wasn't like she was a tomboy either she was a real proper girl complete with the star and heart-shaped hair clips sweeping blonde bangs
posters of horses boy bands all over her purple painted walls she liked fairies she liked unicorns I liked her anyways she was funny she always asked questions she always shared she was quiet around others her long face always pointed down at her shoes but but she wasn't like that with me it was my fault we drifted apart but I I couldn't stand how they looked at us all of them when when we were playing together next to the basketball courts I didn't like how the girls scoffed how the boys shouted things like I I couldn't
quite make out and then shoved each other laughing uously but the worst were the adults I saw the looks that they gave each other when Emma and I showed up the class side by side you know secret looks but I knew what they meant hope we get invited to the wedding right so I stopped hanging out with Emma I made new friends boys who liked soccer and spitting contests and the the looks and Whispers he stopped and [Music] Emma stayed alone that was until High School when we got to high school I started to notice
that Emma had changed at lunch when I went out to the front lawn with my friends to toss a frisbee back and forth like a wannabe college kid I started to see her with other people and when I passed through the halls I saw her with boys leaning against lockers laughing and placing her hand on their shoulders every day it seemed like there were more people more friends surrounding her like a school of fish shipwreck I this wouldn't be unusual except that Emma was always such a small timid girl she she'd been a loner since
she was Tiny this was when I truly realized I didn't know who she was anymore I mean I didn't necessarily miss her anymore it it had been years since we had so much have spoken to each other but it still gave me a strange Pang in my chest to think it Emma was an extrovert now I realized she was nice to everyone huge smile was always pulling at her glossy lips her hair was always perfect falling in little swoops at her shoulders she wore bright pinks and oranges and Blues in the form of tight skirts
and fril blouses she was attractive to the boys in a approachable way but so nice to the girls that she was never considered a threat just just a friend and even from a distance I could observe that everyone liked Emma how could you not like Emma a graduation I looked for her while I was accepting my fake diploma up on the stage my friends and family cheered for me from the Sea of Faces I searched the crowd for Emma I spotted her quickly near the back someone was talking to her animatedly it was a girl
with a tight Brown ponytail and braces and she was smiling a strange smile but she wasn't responding instead she stared straight forward felt my face get a little hot was she looking at me should I wave or something but when I squinted my eyes I could tell that it wasn't me she was looking at she was looking somewhere behind me after the ceremony I looked for her again I tried to part the mass of bodies muttering excuse me and sorries as I went she was surrounded by a throng of her peers all speaking so loudly
and cheerfully that I couldn't make out anything she was saying I got a glimpse of her face for a split second she was she was smiling in that same strange way almost sad I finally heard her say something her pink lips parting like they were crumpled up as if she was crying I'm going to miss you all so so much then came College Emma and I ended up at the same school one that was far enough away from home to feel like a grown-up but not far enough away to actually be one in college I
saw her less so I thought of her less College was much bigger than high school and I had much more to think about than my old childhood friend but when I did see Emma things seemed the same always surrounded by people always smiling I made new friends I tried out for the soccer team I made it MCG grades were okay B to see average and my roommate was weird but he always left me alone I felt content with the little life that I've been building that was until the party it was by no means the
first college party of the Year nor the craziest I was told it would be just a couple of friends at one of the houses on campus being rented out by seniors but in typical college party fashion it got out of hand pretty quickly I went with a couple of my own friends and we mostly stayed in the kitchen rammed into the corner with mystery drinks clutched in our hands the whole place R of smoke and all the light bulbs had been changed to colored ones giving the house almost an eerie nightclub Vibe it wasn't anything
special but feeling the warm Buzz brought on by a mixed drink in a red plastic cup crouched in a stranger's kitchen with new friends I was feeling pretty good I knew when Emma got there I could claim I sensed it like think it was some sort of Psych superpower but I just knew by the chatter the air suddenly felt livelier the people funnel from the kitchen to the living room calling out greetings my friends and I used the temporary quiet in the kitchen to get ourselves fresh drinks and then we filed out to the porch
to smoke my warm feeling only grew and soon I was laughing so hard I felt I might piss myself elbowing my friends in the way that's only okay when you're drunk the music thumped from inside the house muted by the sliding glass door and I didn't even feel the cold when we finally decided to go back inside I was surprised to find the kitchen entirely empty I frowned and checked my phone it was only around midnight why would everyone be gone and that was when I heard someone shout from the other room and my friends
and I eyed each other I felt a guilty twinge at how excited the prospect of a fight breaking out made me but I wanted stories I wanted the college experience so we all rushed into the living room and that's when I saw [Music] her Emma was on the table and everyone in the room was facing her as if she were a caged animal in the zoo she was on her hands and knees but in a way that told me she hadn't been standing up before clutching a clear bottle in one hand and the edge of
the table with the other I watched horrified as she wretched over the side wobbling back and forth like a swaying ship everyone shouted in dismay and crashed backwards towards the wall wanting to avoid the Splash Zone and I was very nearly forced out of the room no she moaned wiping at her mouth with the back of her hand the bottle clanked against her shirt buttons I'm sorry I'm so sorry sorry clearly she had had too much to drink and I wondered what I had missed before I'd come in my friends were laughing nudging each other
in me but I didn't join them Emma kneeled over flopping pathetically on the table as someone shouted get down their voice Brash and cruel someone else laughed someone else started taking pictures of her I never seen her like this and I had never seen anyone be mean to Emma not since middle school at least I like to think I saw her wet skirt before anyone else did at least I hope that's true I would hate for everyone there to remember their last time seeing her alive as her slumped over on someone's table PE trickling down
her legs and pooling at her hip hugging An Empty Bottle like a teddy bear I shoved through the crowd on an instinct ignoring my friend's questioning shouts trailing after me I reached Emma in a few seconds gently trying to pry the bottle from her hand and pull her from the table she finally acknowledged me when I scooped her up into my arms wincing at the wetness soaking through the I like to think I saw her wet skirt before anyone else did at least I hope that's true I'd hate for everyone there to remember the last
time seeing her alive as her slumped over on someone's table hugging An Empty Bottle like a teddy bear I shoved through the crowd on Instinct ignoring my friend's questioning shouts trailing after me I reached Emma in a few seconds gently trying to pry the bottle from her hands and pull her from the table she finally acknowledged me when I scooped her up into my arms wincing at the wetness soaking through my shirt sleeves her eyes fluttered open and she stared up at me her eyes glazed over Andrew she slurred I nodded my face made Stone
the people all around us let out a collective ooh and I was back in middle school letting go of Emma's hand refusing to look her in the [Music] eye I looked her in the eye then though and she smiled in that sad way that only I seemed to ever notice and then she threw up on my shirt I got her to the bathroom and locked it behind us as THS of people pounded against her with their fists chanting our names Emma Andrew Emma Andrew you've become the most interesting thing of the party I thought we've
become the spectacle Emma sobbed as I helped her into the bathtub figuring it would be the easiest to clean off later Emma's head fell back against the tile and she groaned I silently slipped off my shirt and scrubbed at it in the bathroom sink choking back my own bile as I did I wasn't drunk anymore or at least I didn't feel it Andre she whispered after a long time I looked over at her she had pushed her blonde hair away from her eyes stringy with spit and vomit she stared up at me watery and trembling
yeah Emma I gave up on my shirt inside shaking it out and pulling it back on I shuddered at how it clung to my skin I'm sorry it's okay I closed the toilet seat so I could sit on top of it next to where she was laying are you okay she shook her head quickly then slower her eyes opened wide and I recognized something new in them fear I've ruined everything she whispered frantic her voice frayed I frowned and leaned closer wanting to hear her what do you mean you ruined everything maybe I wanted to
I don't know she buried her face in her hands whimpering into them maybe I meant to Andrew maybe I'm I'm sick of this maybe I can't do this anymore do what anymore I pleaded a little bit alarmed she was rocking back and forth now her breath coming in raspy wisps she peaked at me from between her fingers now as if she were surveying me she hiccuped and that somehow triggered a new wave of Blood Ring sobs tears dripping from her chin like fat raindrops I used to be so jealous of you she snuffled wiping at
her red nose and so many friends so many friends and I couldn't have any of them and then and then and then I was jealous of you cuz you didn't have you didn't have to have any my eye brows furrowed almost a painful amount and I searched her face unsure if I should feel offended by this or not the pounding on the door continued Emma Emma what do you mean Emma I I don't understand her eyes glazed over her tears still falling and she stared through me at the bathroom door half there half not it
follows me she was whispered so weak I could barely hear her her breathing quickened what follows you she shook her head and pulled at her hair finally her eyes met mine again as if she were phasing back into reality it's in them she spit jabbing a finger at the door it's in all of them it's watching me always it always knows when I don't have any friends it gets angry Emma Emma Emma I could do nothing but stare at her trying to figure out if she was serious or not she must have been pretty drunk
but right then she seemed stone cold sober I have to have friends she continued the tears never slowing down I've done all my research I wear the right clothes I go to their houses and I peek through their windows I know what they like what they don't like I have a binder everyone I meat is in my binder everyone has to like me Andrew or it'll kill me I know it will it gets closer every time I lose a friend it it started with you I felt suddenly very cold I heard the words she wasn't
saying you were the very first friend I ever lost I thought of her at graduation staring at something that wasn't there behind me that strange smile on her face and I started to believe her Emma Emma Amma and now they all hate me she sobbed bitterly hugging herself I did it to myself all of that work and one night one night one mistake it's going to kill me it's gonna kill me now it's GNA kill me no it isn't I heard myself say I knelt next to her catching her franticness like a cold no it's
not you're safe in here it's going to kill me she mumbled I wasn't sure if she even heard me all that work and it's going to kill me you're safe in here and I'm your friend I'm I'm still your friend I reached out and I took her hand hand her skin was white and cold as if she was already dead Emma Emma Emma Emma Emma Emma Emma the voices had all morphed into one horrific amalgamation the door hinges creaked and shuttered like they were only just Clinging On the lock rattled Emma let out a little
shriek without thinking about it I climbed into the tub with her and pulled the curtain Shut I didn't care anymore about getting any of her bodily fluids on me besides it was was too late for that anyway she stared at me her eyes looked almost gray and they were shiny flickering with something I had never seen before it'll happen to you next she told me her voice Solem I don't know how I know but I do I'm sorry and Andrew it's okay Emma for what it's worth I I wish we stayed like we were she
scooted closer to me resting her head on my shoulder at an awkward angle I do too and then the bathroom door gave way when the police arrived I told them the truth I didn't know what else to say I was far too out of it to make up a story so after hours of interrogation and psych evaluation I was finally released to go home and scrub her blood off of me probably because it was impossible to Fathom how I one boy could possibly do to her what was done to her it brought me no relief
a week later I went to her old house it was a 2-hour Drive Away about a block away from my old house her mom was there she let me in he eyed she remembered me would you mind if I went through her thing a bit I asked my voice gentle but I couldn't Force much emotion into it I was still reeling from what I had experienced at that party I think there's something she wanted me to have her mother nodded led me to a room it was exactly how I remembered it purple wallpaper a Dorn
with various brightly colored posters unicorn figure green stuffed animals covering the bed and the carpet untouched she had still been such a little loser even in high school when I thought she was cool I rifled through her drawers until I found it a purple binder I almost smiled at the butterfly stickers decorating the surface one scratch away from peeling off completely I flipped through it slowly she she hadn't lied she really did do her research everyone from our high school was there their pictures taped haphazardly next to lists lists things about them things that Emma
never should have even known she'd been trying desperately to save her own life when I got to my own entry I hesitated there was significantly less content on my page as if she decided it wasn't even worth it my picture cut straight out of the yearbook seemed to look right at me a thought flashed in my head then burning behind my eyelids and tears began to form I wiped them away quickly alarmed you were so so alone and somewhere far away I could hear it pounding against wood chanting Andrew Emma Andrew Emma Andrew MMA Andrew
Emma [Music] hey there kids it's me Mr Creepy Pasta and I just wanted to tell you thank you so much for watching tonight's video or for listening to tonight's episode of the podcast wherever you happen to do that so if it's like on YouTube then you're probably you know watching the video but if it's on um not then you're probably listening to the podcast like with Spotify or with apple or something like that but yeah thank you so much for uh for listening and and as always I want to give a very big thank you
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