[Applause] I replace that negative emotion attached to it with a positive emotion and I'm grateful for everything that happened because I'm a greater blessing to the world I mean so much more to the world now I abuse drugs because my heart bigger than my body like when I love you that's why I don't get close to people now cuz when I love you I don't care about what consequences come I made a a Space and a safe place for me and the be able to start healing though masculinity don't have to be toxic it can
be sacred I saw him fight a turo he closed both his eyes in the sixth round Mayweather be like why you don't never watch none of my fights cuz I love you too much you know if I see somebody put their hands on you I might shoot yeah I heard that like I said I'm not the richest man in the world i' have been broke more times than I have been rich I done lost way More fights than I have won but I won the ones that count it ain't been a time that I wasn't
scared but I operate and I face that field with bravery for a long time people always said I was the devil I was evil and I know I stand for what I believe in I stand for what I believe in my grandfather always he said if you're a man you stand up for what you believe in and when you stand up for what you believe in you accept the consequences that come behind you it's a lot of us That suffer in silence like we suffer in silence to get the things that we think we want
but everybody want what they don't want and we want what we don't need to the mind was never quieted the Mind nevered true r and i a I ain't trying to sound like no philosopher no Prophet or nothing but I'm not happy but I am at peace right now I'm talking about pure peace get part the big boy # big boy3 Kevin Gates my man Kevin Gates has a lot On his mind always great to have Kevin Gates in the neighborhood man and you you never know what you're going to get from Kevin until you
actually got it from Kevin # bigboy 30 Kevin Gates a lot on his mind let's get into the mind of Kevin Gates Kevin Gates welcome back to the neighborhood bro thank you for having me back in the neighborhood man come on now brother our door my door is not open my door's off the hinge for you man so anytime you need be just make Sure that I'm here you know what I'm saying believe that but welcome back man and and it's been not a minute since we sat down cuz we talk you know what I'm
saying we stay in contact with each other you know what I the last time I was here was right before I had went did the um the prison my uh last prison stin really yeah that was like 2015 or 16 no man we haven't sat down since then no sir really six years ago that's the last time we s down oh hey Man you I was I was supposed to come back but I had lost I lost in court in Florida so that was 6 months and then Illinois had a warrant for me so when
I had to go they it was crazy the day I was supposed to get out they was like you've been served they served me the warrant then when you were supposed to get out then they like lay back over into another bid yeah and so I went and served a 3 or3 months in uh Chicago oh damn man so you ain't Leaving nowhere from here though right no sir okay there it is but but you know it's a trip man like I don't know Kev if it's your presence or your energy but it felt like
I've been I've seen you or we sat down before like it has been that long we saw each other remember we saw each other in the mall yeah one time after that we saw each other in the um we saw I saw you at snoops yeah and but we saw each other at snoops but then we bumped into each other again and uh the Mar and wooding Hills man I'm just going to start carrying a little something to rec the foot lock and the Foot Locker man you sure didn't buy me no shoes that day
remember like and you was like man Kevin bro no I told you I said I'd like to see you by yourself you was like I like to see you by yourself heyen and that's you know and I walk of course you the same I walk with God bro I'm good I I walk I walk solo man and any man can try to put their hands on you that I'm Not I'm not stupid I know that things can happen but I don't I don't also put out that kind of energy yeah it's the energy the our
energy protect us yeah you said you don't watch TV or nothing you said your house is quiet no it's quiet it's super peaceful at my Palace why is that it's no nothing like it's no I don't have any pH philosophical meaning to anything like that I just like like to be around peace and if you've went through and experienced as Much pain as I have I've been through tremendous amounts of pain physically mentally spiritually I've been through hell you know in order to go in order to appreciate and understand great peace you have to have
went through and experience great pain you know what they but what's crazy also man they say sometimes that silence speaks louder than anything but you know how to calm that down then it's super loud yeah but like I say I don't need to be distracted From anything I love my solitude I love my Tranquility I love my peacefulness so what do you do at the house like are you watching the NBA finals or you turning into T sound crazy I'm not in the sport I heard that wow I'm not I don't care who win or
lose I like the colors of the uh I like the I like the Golden State Warriors colors I like the Cleveland Cavalier colors I I love the Boston colors go ahead now and I've been wearing the uh Clippers colors they red White and blue and that's like Puerto Rico colors I love hey man let me tell you what's crazy about that that's why I love them I'm on the like I can like I'm in the boxing though like it I gotta watch Boxing I used to be you know but I like when it comes to
basketball football anybody lose I can sleep that night you know what I'm saying like I I I don't have to worry about another man winning for me to feel good right as long as I'm cool I'm I'm like I like UFC Now but it's starting to get too corporate so I'm starting to not like UFC did you ever make it out to any of those no I've never been the one I I did like boxing the last time I ever saw Mayweather fight was when he fought aured that was right after I got out of
prison right before I went back to prison I saw him fight a tur Roti he closed his both his eyes in the sixth round he was like Kevin why you don't never come watch Mayweather be like why You don't never watch none of my fights cuz I love you too much you know if I see somebody put their hands on you I might shoot them yeah I heard that you you you have a dream of being not a celebrity but fulfilling your dream of being an artist and being a better human being right I wanted
to but when you think about what you have not and not versus what you don't have what's the best thing I about being Kevin Gates and what's the worst thing about being Kevin Gates I got a family that's the best thing that's winning that I told you that last time winning for me is having a family when it for me ain't having no millions of females and no [ __ ] like that Them [ __ ] be stressed out cuz I ain't going Burk and who yeah hello I don't know who started this epidemic working
be at the mall by yourself with all due respect I ain't trying to disrespect no woman I please Don't take no no woman take this disrespect if you do [ __ ] your mama but like I was saying if you do [ __ ] you but um you got fake eyelashes you got fake hair you got fake ass you got fake everything on your body but you want a real [ __ ] like I worked hard for these results I suffered I went through the fire adversity builds character I went through the fire for this
I only had surgery one time on my Leg when I got shot [ __ ] knocked my bone out my leg cuz I ain't about to I wouldn't give it up God bless the Dig cuz I ain't going to give it up but anyway long story short you going to kill me anyway so I might as well fight for my life you going to kill me anyway so anyway long story short not again I I just that surgery [ __ ] with me so bad that I can't see myself willingly going through that again I
can't so I worked hard for this [ __ ] I suffered for this [ __ ] and I was honest with everybody I said I became so infatuated with being slim and having a body I used to take ader ra to go to the gym I used to take so much pre-workout it probably would have bust my heart by the grace of God I'm still here until I start just celebrating my success and small increments and not comparing myself to the people that I see on the Instagram with the perfect bodies and [ __ ]
not my Body that [ __ ] perfect well when you say you weren't this person what person were you you know because there's you want me to tell them the truth please do I um I abuse drugs um I abuse drugs because my heart bigger than my body and when I love somebody like when I love you that's why I don't get close to people now cuz when I love you I don't care about what consequences come I am the sacrificial lamb if I love you I'm getting up out my bed at 3:00 a.m. in
The morning for you I'mma Die For You I'mma kill for you whatever it mean I'mma do this and the love I showed people I never got that love back in return never never not one time is every organization I was with that I helped make great they will use me until they didn't need me no more and that's what happened with every situation that I was in so when I told my wife about bread wiers Association she believed in it wholeheartedly and she was like let's Get it forgive my I'm from the south I'm from
Louisiana so my speech isn't going to be like everyone else's but I try to use vernacular that means proper English I try to use it as much as I can [ __ ] you use words that's bigger than come on stop when that slang when the slang terminology come in you going to have to accept it go ahead now but when you get used up and you get used and used and used you begin to question like is there really a god you Know and to numb this pain you know you try some of the
I'm a strong person so it takes strong drugs to make me numb and I've never been to rehab m M ever at one time in my life cuz I believe that rehab is for quitter USS damn we not trying to quit it's go hard to go home with me and that's with anything that I've ever involved myself in where you at now though you know what I'm saying I don't use drugs anymore right and I could say this I got the one Thing that I came in game one in my whole life and that is
a family I never had a family I call somebody that a't even old enough to be my daddy my daddy because that's how bad I wanted a family and every young male that grow up and I ain't going to say black I'm going say cuz I'm mixed I'm Black and Hispanic every young male that ever grew up in a private stricken situation that's all you ever wanted was your big brother Your daddy or mother you wanted that and because you didn't have that you start looking at that in a negative manner it's wrong now you
got to make it uncool you never had it and that's the way I did like to this day I'm 30 years old I be riding and see somebody playing basketball with their dad outside I look and be like what F him right you know what I'm saying but I got to remember my son will never know what that feeling is like I Heard that do you love the Kevin Gates that sits in front of us now and at one point more more as opposed yep can I ask you a question yes you can does it
look like it yes it does but I want you to tell me about what that is this the first time I could say I've been proud of myself a lot of my results came from U beating myself up being hard on myself and I guess that was you know that was a Way of like um dealing and working through like a traumatic p and I just got to the point where I'm able to laugh at myself like I was trying to stand like they got this little AB wheel that I be working like the one
with the little handles on it yeah so um I just I'm I'm back able to stand up and do it from a standing position and stand up and then roll down come all the way back up yeah that's a whole different world and u i i you know You do it on your knees but I'm able to stand up I was doing at first but I had kind of ripped one of my ab muscles my body wasn't ready I was doing it prematurely MH so now to the point where I could do it like standing
up and when I was doing it at the gym I had kind of like slipped a little bit and I laughed at myself it felt good to be able to laugh at myself and not be embarrassed and not care about what other people think so for the first time I really Been like happy and I've been I've been cautious of what I speak to myself like the lady was like you working out I said no ma'am I'm just in here celebrating what my body could do I heard that this been a journey man how has
fatherhood has it changed you um fatherhood didn't change me the transition was made once I made the decision because a lot of time when you're in the streets you can have an Institutionalized way of thinking and that's a lot of people that been in the streets like you'll be like he's so coldhearted it's not that we coldhearted but we know it's only a matter of time before we go back to jail so I can't even love my children like I want to I can't get close to my wife cuz when I go to jail I
don't want to be in there stressing about them you the first person I told this to I can't believe I'm telling you is that even that's now Like I say I've overcame that right I've overcame that it took a lot of fighting with myself to overcome that but that was me when I first had my daughter it wasn't that I was afraid of respon of the responsibility of the child I was afraid of being a let down to them so I couldn't love her like I wanted too cuz I felt like I go to back
to jail any time and I don't want to be in jail this a weakness in jail you miss your family keep crying what you what's wrong with You I walk the te with no tiar should ever fall I'm forever hard give me whatever George I walk whatever yard that's the oath that's the oath you take when you say you in the streets so it had me to the point where I couldn't even love my own family did you think that you would be here not here I never saw this when I first met the people
at uh Atlantic in New York the lady told me I told the lady I say you know I wasn't supposed to be here so I don't care what Happened cuz I died to day I di a day tomorrow I did something nobody from my neighborhood ever did I did it you nobody from my neighborhood ever did it but I did it by the grace of God and my beautiful wife was that for you when you say the ater all working out was that for you or was that for image image cuz I wanted to be
the best of the best of the I wanted to be that and it's like now since I've Been on the mushrooms not the Psychedelic mushrooms but like the Lions man Nisha the CPS the turkey tail like it's like the mushroom blend pre-workouts and stuff like that before I go work out it give me a better cognitive function it's like beet juice and the saffron give you that mental focus that you be looking for it give you all of them things and I just I just I'm thankful that I caught myself cuz I was headed for
Destruction Were you depressed [ __ ] right yeah some something that's a cry for help when you see somebody going to the gym three four times a day right something not right with him cuz something wasn't right with me and as men we'll go to the gym and just kill ourselves and hurt ourselves in the gym to keep from hurting somebody else there a lot of men that suffer in silence they come up to me they hug me In the gym they cry right there when they see me cuz I see you I see what
you going through when you say suffer in silence do you know how powerful that is we do it's a lot of us that suffer in silence like we suffer in silence to get the things that we think we want but everybody want what they don't want and we want what we don't need too yeah we don't we don't really want those things we just think we want it but when you love what you have you have everything You need we was happy to just have a car tell this [ __ ] pulled up in this
rollsroyce on the side of me now I'm suffering again wow hey man did you have people that were afraid not only do you have to go to your chain he got this bad [ __ ] with him but if he go to jail she gone right but this woman right here [ __ ] I go to jail man the horse legs ain't never broke she going to run for me she going to run for me you find that out Though and not not and I know the the question sounds so easy I I know yeah
but I got a simple answer go ahead the greatest test that anything could withstand is time just give it time it'll reveal itself yeah man there's a loose phrase of when people say oh keep it real or he's real you know what I'm saying like I've always gotten from you that the Kevin Gates that I see in the mall the Kevin Gates that walk in here wherever I see a Kevin Gates or anybody that's out there it's going to be this guy it's not like a cape you know what I'm saying or you tur into
Kevin Gates I do have on somewhat of a cape today go ahead now R your kiplin said to thine own self be true and that is the greatest reality so if you skateboard or you ride BMX bikes or dirt bikes or whatever you into that is the real you if you're not afraid to be who you are that is the real you what do you do for but like like without music What do you do for fun like if you just want to have a good day wrestle with my children I heard that wrestle with
they big F is Mom hello hello hey man did was it hard to arrive have arguments you know she like Kevin I just took what you mean you took a shower I bathe you you know just had little argument hey man is was it hard to arrive like whatever life Temptations are you know what I'm saying if it if it Is you know streets if it is the hustle if it is the drugs if it is other women is it was it hard to arrive where you are right now no my biggest problem was overcoming
myself and once I defeated myself like me and my wife used the AR all the time they be like yeah Kevin you made her no I didn't right she made me oh here now she back there shaking her head too like she made me though got to turn around I mind telling people that like I was yeah I hustled in the streets and when it came to getting on that gang to you know getting on that tip you know I can do that all day but when it came to being a man and responsibilities I
would always run from that I always ran from responsibilities and being a man cuz I ain't want to step up to the plate you hear me you know I'm going be honest with you like I went through what all males go through like I don't know if I want to get married I'm tell you the Best thing you can do in life is is you go to sleep ons side of somebody you don't know and wake up and see if you still got that you had before you close your eyes right you know got keep
waking up checking it's cold but it's fair yeah you don't never see dudes that be call theyel so-called players and you look stressed out you know I'm the only rapper that ever I went on Mike Tyson and talked about me and him shared a a Story about us both being molested like I'm the only rapper that Liv in their truth ain't nobody living in their truth why did you feel like you you couldn't had that conversation many men that needed to hear that then they got these other interview these [ __ ] ass talking about
what the [ __ ] I said but you ain't going to see me and tell me none of that [ __ ] in public you not I'm just in a happy place I'll still [ __ ] you off yeah don't feel like you can't get a Total Recall so but it's so many men that done been through that kind of [ __ ] and they all day every day and I made it I made a a space in a safe place for men to be able to start healing now yeah Max masculinity don't have to
be toxic it can be sacred you know you could love yourself so much that you could look at a woman and she don't deserve my right you could you can love yourself that much like you can hey ke do you think you could have had that conversation With Mike Tyson five years ago no cuz I was operating out of fear yeah see I'm going tell you the truth see all that ganga [ __ ] I was doing was out of fear I had that fear of being vulnerable like if a man look me in my
eyes it's it's a challenge right me or you that's fear now when I look at people in their eyes I see myself or different versions of myself and me being a nurturer if I could Aid and assist you along your journey then cool if I can't then cool Just sometime me being able to just give you a look up I understand what you going through just speaking to somebody that could change their day and I know with Tyson man Tyson also always go on record saying before I fought before I got in the ring I
was scared Andy look at Tyson as the man that's the baddest man on the earth you know what I'm saying ain't nobody getting in with him I love that dude yeah man same here I love that dude and do you feel like it Was a safe not a safe space but that was the person that also I had I had already started my healing process from going backwards I had to go back to my childhood I had to go back because I don't want to project these things onto my children and my children it's about
breaking generational curses for me right now I want to always create a space where my children feel comfortable communicating with me so I went back to heal myself and my inner child for my Children I want my children to always that's like toxic masculinity if my daughter fall down get up you all right no that's when it's time for me to exhibit femininity like my feminine side and nurture her come on baby it's all right that's when it's time for me to be a nurturer now if you violator then now it's time for me to
be a monster it's it takes balance you know what I'm saying that's why when I hear like people talk about this like the the feminist Movement and this alpha male [ __ ] that's [ __ ] do you feel like your queen know you better than anyone in the world way better than me yeah and you know I used a tell B I'm tired then once I found I used to hear people talk about it I didn't know it once I found the elixir of life I no longer get tired man can you tell us
what that is or do I have to find it I'm tired bre that down signs are for the conscious mind and I cast not my pearls To the swine but the elixir of life it does start with meditation mhm damn you ever went to sleep and woke up tired right right I mean the mind was never quieted the mind never received true risk and I ain't trying to sound like no philosopher no Prophet or nothing but I'm not happy but I am at peace right now I'm talking about pure peace I've never the things that
I'm doing right now is amazing to me like I didn't had another rapper talk slick you know And I just gave him a huging boy you know I could smash you then slang dangl Lang to your mama and you know this but I'm really may peace be upon you brother I don't even know where it come from I'd be looking at myself in the car like boy you know you [ __ ] I be looking in the mirror like you really spare dude like you know you be like he know not what he do right
that's crazy I had this same conversation with my wife last night bro On everything I love she seen it she was like Mr friendly she was just she that's a little joke for me cuz everybody I see now I give them hugs yeah man she be like Mr friendly dude spilled red wine all on me on the plane I told him he man Kevin I'm so don't even worry about it brother you was just excited go ahead I cry three four times a day yeah I just cry and that's I don't know why I be
releasing I be releasing sometime I just cry and they got this book how to cry Like a man and oh yeah that's Jason Wilson yes sir Jason Wilson and he he a Sensei me and him used to be talking to my DMs and I had read a couple of the inserts from the book and it was so powerful to me cuz I'm like I'm the type of person I'm a nerd I had like three four books and I just two three chapters two three chapters but how to cry like a man and vulnerability is the
most beautiful thing it is on Earth I got That he he a real like karate Sensei master all he will [ __ ] you up yeah but he will also cry be you see the way he is with his kids the kids in his in his classes and he teaching them how to be men yeah man and and how to be emotional at the same time it's emotional intelligence for me like how I navigate is I ask myself why am I feeling like this where does this where does this emotion this me being triggered like
this emotionally where Does this stem from so it always take me going back was it ever a time in my life where my mama or somebody in the family made me feel like I wasn't seen or made me feel like I wasn't good enough or made me feel like I wasn't worthy and could it be that death triggering this I I talk to myself cuz once I talk to myself I'd be like man gay man on that [ __ ] back man man you getting the same results every time man [ __ ] that ho
man we ain't doing no chasing we all Replacing sometime you got to talk to yourself man you got to get in tour with yourself out [ __ ] hey bro there's a book called R young man Rumble Rumble hey no no but let me tell you man the same thing man how you say you talk to yourself right or where did that come from when I went and did some work man they got these thing called patterns and and everything that I did for this uh N9 days bro was patterns PS figuring out why I'm
an enabler you know what I'm Saying I enable you know I got you I got you I take care of that trying to make your problems disappear you need this I I got you I'm an I'm an enabler also man the pattern we all got patterns of yeah you a giver yeah man but guess what talk to me takers always recognize givers Boom the hardest thing for me to do was to set boundaries and say no and and this is the year that I've been putting the energy back into myself for the first time in
my life hey bro I've been Really putting energy into me like I take salt baths at night like I do the things that it take for me to heal I ain't talking about going get a pedicure and manicure that's just maintenance I'm talking about really soul searching with yourself getting with yourself sitting along with yourself and working through them psychological traumas emotional traumas that type of [ __ ] so you don't be triggered when you somewhere am cuz everybody faking living up for side Everybody suffering on the inside and I always tell my wife I'm
like man I can't turn my brain off like I just started meditation that's just one step is meditation it has a lot to do with the way you eat and I don't want to sound like a philosopher bro I don't why not [ __ ] we here it ain't that bro just you know like I say the knowledge is power hey man let me ask you this you did and great knowledge in the hands of a fool would be Self-destruction and I just I'm not about to give all that away but I I promise I
invite you to ever come to my house one time time I live right close to where I saw you at mhm not that close but I live close to there and brother if you ever come just one time just come by yourself I just want you to come you take your shoes off before you enter the house and I just want you to feel what you feel and just tell me what you feel I done had a a bit of everybody want to Come over there just so peaceful over here Gates bro just how it
get like your house could be like this too what about the kids though they bad yeah yeah do you have a a a noise area no because they not that kind of bad they like me they don't do no talking they going with they move I don't make a lot of noise whenever like whenever I did something I never told I'm about to do I just did it I did That yeah who feel played about it cuz I did that and that's just me I'm not about to like I ain't never been that person to
scare you cuz I hate bullies mhm I feel like when I make the move it's supposed to be like a Praying manness unexpected you know what you did though yeah hell yeah and you know why right so I ain't got to get on Instagram and man you I don't get on that trip you out now do all that all the modernday stuff that People do you know what the rawest the coldest you know what the best thing on earth is what's it evidence yeah I don't care what you think you all that's evidence you do
all that that's cool but I don't care what you think about me prove it cuz I signed up for this I heard that I said I'm a Gangster and a Gentleman most people tell me G I'm a Gangster I'm a good father cuz I don't care about what your gangster in mine is two Different definitions you hear me you this new technology y'all on Instagram you hear me you I I hate to say this I was operating out of a a stance of a the head executioner I was just you know I was fulfilling my
title I'm a general so I'm on the front line with all of my sedad I mean my soldiers I'm I'm a I'm a general so I'm always on the front line as a general but as a chief I got to be able to look at each One of my soldiers and see what they need whether it be psychologically whether it be helping them with emotional intelligence to navigate their emotions whether it be the show them how to nurture themselves whether it be to show them how to exhibit that confidence and find that confidence in their
self I got to be able to look at whatever need that it is and it's beautiful that God allowed me to go through all of these things because I'm a greater blessing I Embrace the things that happened to me in my past with a sense of positivity I replace that negative emotion attached to it with a positive emotion and I'm grateful for everything that happened because I'm a greater blessing to the world I mean so much more to the world now don't nobody walk up to no other uh with all due respect like no disrespect
to these other rappers I swear to God I'm not don't nobody walk up to them and tell them you changed my life and show Them slices where they tried to kill they self and commit suicide and say you stop me from committing suicide I was vulnerable I peeled all L back I let you feel a bullet hole in my head and told you I put it there I'm the one who said that I disconnected my Instagram in 2020 tried to take my own life I'm the one who said these things so other people understand it's
okay feel like this but this is the way that I I changed it around I take all of that negative Emotion and energy and I put it I turn my pain and a passion I put it into something that better serves me and Humanity why do you think you you so-call made it as a rapper you know how that and and the reason why I'm asking this is because there's some people it's a curse I asked God to take this away from me all the time I do not like being an artist right but let
let me tell you why I ask that there's some things that People do and that's what grabs the attention and then the real purpose is something else you know what I'm saying like like even with Magic Johnson Magic Johnson is was a hell of a basketball player but magic wasn't put on this Earth just to score points and get Championship I love you you was right right what what finish saying what you about to say and then there's a purpose that's after that that's bigger yeah she argu Me Down Kevin you know no you're Not
this this just you sound just like dreo right so this is the in in speech class when you take stuff like that they tell you to bring attention to yourself first hey I'm about to then boom you got everybody attention then you H them with the message that seemed like that's what's going down right now now we can say oh man billboard and number two and the album of the year and but then that is for all eyes and ears to be said I'll say this I always Knew who I was was and I always
ran from my true purpose I'll say that M I always knew who I was I always knew what I was and if I did anything I took full responsibility for what I did no matter what it good or bad I I took full responsibility for it and I understand that this is what I signed up for I enlisted for this and I know like I say since birth I always knew what I was and who I was and I know what my job is and I always ran from it I am now Fulfilling my purpose
now I'll say that I'm starting to fulfill my purpose did you have a problem with saying no what and where did that come from because not feeling like I was good enough it stem from that and then it also you identify with not having when you really come from nothing you identify with not having so you see yourself when you were struggling in somebody else and so because you see yourself from when you were struggling With somebody else you a you easing your inner child you you you you easing the pain of your inner child
through helping others which is a beautiful thing spot [ __ ] but you got to realize that they got people that are takers yeah and they recognize givers they'll come tell you V they come play vulnerable they play they do all that but when you fasting I haven't eaten in the last like 4 days so you can't even go four hours without eating you really eat my dick [ __ ] you Mhm and in my mind but when you just I'mma know if you my real friend when I tell you I'm not going to be
able to do it cuz you a [ __ ] ass [ __ ] once you tell a [ __ ] no once you tell a [ __ ] no man you low down rotten dirty [ __ ] 99 yeses the hund is a no man F him he changed he's this he's that oh 100% bro Story of My Life yeah man yeah you you I got mountains hey I got mountains in my backyard when I go look it's beautiful I can see my old Spot from my new spot I'm blessed mhm guess who lived there
just me just me really so where is where where do the little ones live at where the kids live at they on the reservation talk to me I got a reservation in Mississippi a for mhm we got camels we got all that we grow our own food all that so all the Clutter is not even in their lives man they so Advanced now since they've Been there and we just went like two months before Co here we didn't know that we was they was like we ain't leaving we going to stay here [ __ ]
that's my answer we G to stay here but spiritually I was called back to California for something I don't know for what this part of it I'm like what the [ __ ] I'm going move back to California for it just something told me to go then once I got the house I was like man I don't want to go but it was There's something for me to do here some work that I have to do here that's going to help a lot of people I don't know what it is but you know the universe
says [ __ ] I'm doing it now somebody going to see this and be like it's going it's going to trigger something and they GNA just work through their problem I want to ask you this now when we talk about just like I think if somebody ask you something if I were to say hey man a girl say do I look fat in this you Probably say Hey you know in a certain way like yeah you do look fat that you know what I'm saying like there there's just a truth that seem like that come
out of you now did you go to Apple and sit down with the people from beats yeah and was there a comment that you made about Beats headphones yeah what was that I told them that they headphones suck and you're you're there with them at this moment I told them the truth yes I like soundis a better because like I'm not no boom boom boom Bas man M I like quality over quantity go ahead now that's just me I love quality really really I like BS go ahead they cool I like nakam me you a
little bit I I ain't really heard them I heard them in one vehicle and I like them but I like souser I like BS I never had and I love those Bob Marley headphones the W ones the Bob Marley you know the wood you know the I love those those are dope so I've seen them but I've never beats no so when you tell them but they did ask you you can't give me a headphones and make me put them on and be like hey this I'm not about to agree with that mm like when
they ask me about the Kendrick Lam more man when he said he was the King of New York I was like that boy must have read all the war I said it in the song but when I heard The Comebacks I was like nah I'm not about to agree with that cuz no that's not raw that wasn't The Comebacks wasn't raw right right right right right I ain't heard nobody come back yet you know I'm just not in that battling Lane so if like I salute him cuz I like what he do he he's super
witty if he was able to diss me id be like haha and I stay in my lane cuz that ain't my Lane mhm but like I like the people that's in that lane the come I can't agree with that like me and my dude I got a dude named Jim guns he from New York he just we Argue about music all day he was like man bro Kendrick Lamar bro he tough Fred the god son he tough them some loaded it looks he tough mhm but like I say they got a lot of people that's
not tough and be trying to jump in that lane you got to be who you are it's cheaper to be yourself hell yeah it is people looking and thinking that they want it all you know when when you have accolades when you have the album you know and I'm talking about From the outside people thinking that they want it then you say you know what I put a a bullet in my head I'm the one that wanted to kill myself I'm the one who you know got off of social media and I'm pretty sure that
you know you bu boxing with de you were boxing with demons all the time to this day we probably still it's a difference if you not you never been in the streets yeah I've been in the streets my whole life see I don't have that story like well I Was never not thugging when was I ever not thugging from anybody that know me when was I ever not thugging you look at the Kevin G now this a blessing this is beautiful to see me right here like this did you know you were going to arrive
here I was afraid to right I I knew mhm every every man know did you know you were not satisfied yes sir it that's what give me my drive right now because when I look in the mirror and I think back in Retrospect and I always wonder I would hate to suffer with the regret of what if I only would have tried yeah I never it it hurt me when I remember being in prison watching all them different artists on TV winning gramms and whatever it is they win I was like you you knowing your
soul that's supposed to be that why I love when Inca Johnson say that we live by this we die by this we don't surrender we don't retreat every man must search his own Soul I listen to that quote every morning and you knew not taking theirs but you knew that I you know yeah I'm supposed to be there but I am there because everything I do is emulated so I am there I was chasing something that I already have you know and me standing on the side of certain people if it's not authentic you know
the authenticity always is going to rule the law of Len States that whenever two opposing forces cannot come to an agreement the Lesser always rules the greater and you know I come as I am and so do do you feel like you have a lane or you just know I'm put my blinker on coming over to that lane oh no I'm in my own lane and I hog it I give the utmost respect but I demand mine I heard that and you don't have to give it to me and if you don't I'm not going
to be confrontational with you I'mma politely vacate the premises Let the clown have the circus you know B you know in a room full of clowns man I can't be part of the circus man when you entertain a clown you become part of the circus it's very true oh man I'm serious though like what's going to be special about me if I argue with a clent the world full of suckers man I I mean the world full of lollipops I can't be just another sucker I heard that you can Do that man I go play
with my children what brought you to psychology I wanted to understand myself cuz for a period of my life everybody was like you the devil I was in and out of prison for a long time the first time I ever went to jail a lot of people don't notice I was 13 I don't know why I'm telling you this you know who took me to no I ain't going to leave no br no send me to jail I'm not even going to put that on I'm not it don't even matter But for a long time
people always said I was the devil I was evil and I know I stand for what I believe in I stand for what I believe in my grandfather always instilled and imputed the knowledge and wisdom in me he said if you're a man you stand up for what you believe in and when you stand up for what you believe in you accept the consequences that come behind it cool I'm cool with the consequences cuz when I was in the streets I wasn't in the streets for me I Was in the streets for the people that
I love so they could be straight so if I did go to jail from a pivate stried environment where there was no Outlets no nothing to do but go to jail and get killed at least I tried M I can rest assured at night knowing that I gave it 100% I'm cool I signed up for this I signed up for this and when you say you've been extremely like Universal too you know I've had you in the neighborhood man you done spoke 45 Different languages you know what I'm saying but but You' been ex I
speak a little Spanish and a little Arabic cuz I come from a mixed cultural uh background but you seen and I was going to say you seen Multicultural like you seem tapped in you know what I'm saying and it's not like a I'm that thing it's not a fake tap in no I'm that thing you know I hate to say it like that but I got to go on Liv in my truth I'm really that thing everything that come around Me lead different but when the Beloved is off location they going to return back into
original form but when they all you got to do is go back in the history books and look anything that came wrong me then became different but when the Beloved is off a location one's return unto original form so I can't get mad if a woman that was dealing with me start backslide once I'm off location Right I know exactly what you're saying it's not I can't be upset if one of my little brothers or one of my little soldiers start backsliding or turning into something elica because when the Beloved is off location ones return
un original form I'm really that thing and I got to acknowledge myself like that and when I say that thing I'm talking about that thing were you afraid to to talk sometimes because you felt like people Wouldn't understand oh I feel like I'm I'm man I'm I'm being too [ __ ] on being boastful but if you being factual MH like like I said I'm not the richest man in the world I have been broke more times than I have been rich I done lost way more fights than I have won but I won the
ones that count and it ain't been a time that I wasn't scared or I didn't have fear it's okay to have fear but I operate and I face that fear with bravery did you did you keep yourself From Talking sometimes because yeah all the time but right now like this other this other lady um I hate to say that she like what you would consider like a uh I don't know in English you'll probably say A Healer M but like in Spanish she like a a kurera so like she told me she said your soul
is so ancient she said when it come on you to speak just speak cuz you never know who you helping right just speak yeah don't don't don't hold don't hold it in so I Had to say that like I'm really that thing like like you can't say like all these feathers in my head I earned these I knew what I went through to earn these feathers all these tattoos on me I earn earn this [ __ ] these scars and [ __ ] all on my body I earned this [ __ ] so it's beautiful
like it's beautiful to be where I'm at right now like I took psychology right and I think that's something I ran from too a oh go ahead I'm sorry the reason why is because I Started analyzing everything everybody everything everybody and my thing was like oh man you do oh you know but it's a great it's a great area cuz it's like when you in the street excuse me us right you a street kid too but us we had already been analyzing people and putting them into C and categorizing Behavior patterns and things of that
nature but instead of you being the uh uh interrogator or something like this Or after we do the individualistic approach and you know after you know instead of you being the playing aloof and all of that you might be one of my sales one of my customers you act like Mr Joe you know this I didn't seen your kind before you act like my home right so we categorized it differently but it's a great area because it was only what one person thought and everybody's bipolar let them tell it I say I studied it it
was cool And you got your psychology degree while incarcerated yeah but it was a trick to how I did that like I took online courses m you hear me and you not supposed to anyway but you get an administr anyway I'm I hate to say this bro you know cuz people be like no he lying but I never been an administrative segregation or protective custody I have to say that no matter what your status is is a high you you're a high-profile inmate whatever you sign a waiver and You live in general population and I
never checked off a line or hit the button to move that mean that wherever I stood I stood on all 10 whatever came to me I I I accepted it and I'm not the type to go to jail and join different gangs and all that know I stand on all 10 that's just me I had to say that what you get is an administrator to administer the test and you could take as many test as you want to all day you if you want to take four of them in one Day you know I'm not
post you can do that you send them you mail them to your professor and your professor grade them for you and send them back and it goes like that when you're in prison you're not going on no College Camp shackles so a lot of people like how do you how did you do that it really ain't none of your business how I did it but you're the first person I told this to I told somebody else like I alluded to it but you yeah you can go you get your Administrator to administer the test and
you take them in front of them to make sure you not cheating you not right right right right make sure you're not cheating and then they mail them out and send them back graded That's So Dope that you they give you the book to read they you read the book they going to ask you the questions out the book you read so like I don't understand how complicated it is I ain't got nothing to do with back Here are you surprised that you here today [ __ ] right I told you that man listen we
can go get Baldhead ass Mike he know I cried I told him I say thank you he said why I say man I'm going be honest if it wasn't for you I'd be dead or in jail when I talk to Fe I tell Fe thank you cuz if it wasn't for you I'd be dead or in jail I wish I could tell my daddy right now you know thank you you know I wish If he listening thank you cuz if it wasn't for you believing in me I'd be dead in jail [ __ ] all
that you whatever you know you had to exhibit the behavior you had to exhibit to make me go with my move to become great so I don't hate you I'm grateful for you you're building block you're block not my real daddy my street daddy like kind of like bird away and [ __ ] like my street daddy like I'm I'm I'm grateful for you I am I I'm grateful when you when you were Incarcerated I gave him my all and I ain't get nothing from it Gotta Be Love I'm up and rank and I ain't
push one button hey when I show Mercy when you when you see where you are now when ped with faces I ain't getting uncovered I know they still trying to get something punished the Godmother gave me Comfort I'm protected on that other end hey man can I ask you about scars free my dog out of slim my Children in they Mama they clutching my am say they killers and I'm one of them no love for the weak Only the strongest Sur these streets I took myself Out Of Reach got tired of pilling all the Lees
you can cover all your SCS up in diamonds but it's still going to hurt man don't give me the talk man you cover all these scars but it's still gonna hurt It's Gonna Hurt say you love me then show me that [ __ ] for real don't play with L CU that type of [ __ ] get you Kill you going to cover all your scars up in diamonds but it's still going to hurt I told him the truth beefing with my chick while I'm in jail trying not to click out bound restriction can't make
bail M gone with all this well I ain't cing a minute ain't baling a minute can't wait to see them stars in the ceiling free all of my H man what man who man that's the real that's the rawest song on Earth how long have you been home home has it been your Your last turnaround was what 200 14 14 14 I've been home since 2014 that's crazy I don't be remembering Big Brother it just kind of now now when you move around now when when you travel just with certain things is it harder for
you to travel now the level of respect is so nothing out here like it's just some I see why some people miss being in prison because in prison you not going to pass by a man and not say excuse Me I've been here 20 year I kill you for that I don't care where you come from I don't care how many bers you done caught you ain't caught nothing of here yeah you ain't got no Knife yet you pass around here being all kaking you know how do you how do you one down boss how
do you keep your little ones from a certain life for when you going to be there I don't I don't because y'all get to see it like if I take you in the hood and show you like you know this this Where that LE you know like my children going with me to prison Lord say the same Sunday we going to prison me my wife my two children we are going to prison to visit somebody I just got cleared to where I can go visit an immediate family member so when a child grow up going
to these places and seeing this you know what I'm saying and seeing the outcome of this man this dude been down 20 years you got to watch him grow up behind the Bars who wants that life who wants that for themselves I don't want to be in jail for the rest of my life it's beautiful out here but I'm glad that I went through jail because I can appreciate my freedom because freedom is a priv do you feel like in and not just in the genre but also just in the the men that we are
that we now you hear people talking about mental health vulnerability peeling off the onion and The layers when you had those conversations first yes years ago yes we did bro and and it's crazy man because I've always I never I never thought of you as like Kevin Gates the rapper like we've had some real conversations bro and and when you embrace you Embrace different yes sir you know what I'm saying you don't it's not and I take everything I I see you yeah cuz I see myself in the picture see most people don't know who
they are so they can't See they s and other people I I see you every time I look you in your eyes I see you cuz I know who I am I see myself hey man can you look in and I know this may sound crazy and people going to have a fi day with this I but can you look at somebody and know when they're not yeah every time cuz I used to be that make others uncomfortable I used to be that too right explain I used to be running for myself I used to
be too hard for myself I was caught up in ego the the the false ego the competitive nature yeah man but I had to I had to I had to kill my ego is that hard to do though not hard is it scary to do it's uncomfortable it's very scary yes it's very scary and my ego is a beautiful thing because it got me to this point thank you for getting me to this point but I don't need you anymore but It's Tricky cuz the ego really only that'll keep us Safe it's only that'll keep
us safe but It's Tricky cuz it it creep back in yeah so quick you know what I'm saying and it and it's an instant recall too bro it it it takes a lot lot to humble yourself it takes a lot to be vulnerable it takes a lot to know how to go through these emotions you know what I'm saying like like the man that can talk like this CRA that's crazy what that you said that uh my Sensei I'm pretty sure it's easier to somebody in The face my Sensei said is more it takes more
courage to exhibit vulnerability than it does to be a tough guy hey man I would see people bro and I would see them talking up a game and I'd be like he scared M you know when I see somebody [ __ ] what I'm like he's scared bro talk yeah he's scared you know what I'm saying hey it's about energy now yeah that's why I don't play these internet games I don't get caught up in none of this about no yeah yeah election Year we were just talking about no man that made me mad like
like when dude said that though okay and he offended me when he said that he was like man F Donald Trump and I was like no cuz you say you believe in God right you believe in I probably like yeah I stood up in the meeting and I was like well you would say F Donald Trump but you know let's be honest you know when George Bush was in office you heard me the numbers was a lot lower on the Louder than you heard me you know and wasn't the police brutality wasn't going on like
this here how it was but then when you got your savior in there you know look what been going on I said now you say F Donald Trump cuz he said something about Muslims but what he don't know is a true Muslim is a Jew and a Christian he don't know that so you it it takes somebody showing him that type of Love they were like so what you would do to him I said I'll walk up to him and Give him a hug I said you know he'll be mesmerized when I hug him and
salam alaikum brother I love you like he'll be mesmerized you know what I'm saying you know what I'm saying he would I was like that's how that's the approach the approach should be love and not no F him you know did you know what I'm saying cuz I like when he get to talk and that Ganges and [ __ ] you he he be funny to me and a lot of stuff he don't know what he be talking about but he be funny like I Like him you heard me do you vote and I I'm
convicted fell and I can't vote I'll never be able to vote never I didn't know that oh yeah if you're convicted for L that right I'm to that's unfortunate that I didn't know all right anyway I'm blessed I'm glad I can't V do you see yourself Kevin Gates going through this transformation did I see myself yeah like like why you're doing it like I didn't see myself going Through the transformation but I all I used to get glimpses yeah and whenever somebody would tell me man you g to be such a great motivational speaker no
I'm [ __ ] not right right [ __ ] ass [ __ ] did you fight it then I done had other people be subliminal like one of my good friends and he I asked I I didn't ask him about it but I kind of hinted around it jokingly cuzz he was on that yeah old preaching ass [ __ ] and I was like and I was just playing I Said yeah big brother you know know you be feeling like I be preaching bro so I just don't be N I wasn't meaning that but you
was hit so you holler than I I you was hit so you holler cuz you was hit you was hit you knew I had you knew I hit when I said that so you backed about it and I was just joking I said no big brother you know you be saying I'll be preaching and all that [ __ ] he was like my but you was hit cuz you know you know you know that I know you know What's up with me yeah and I love you but you know what's up with me amen and
I would think that you would be one of the people that would be extremely proud of cuz you know amen I tell people bro if they was a pack of but it kind of hurt it kind of hurt me but then I was like the heart got to break so it could fill up with love and then it was a beautiful thing that he exposed himself in that manner because it was like you afraid of my growth yeah my growth my Change is scary to you yeah and and you know what they say whatever it
is misery whatever blank blank blank loves company whatever you put in there it loves company happiness loves company misery loves company so if you're changing and your guy not changing with you anyone want you to be with them CU they love that company bro you know man come on man I wasn't tripping on my I wasn't tripping on my PT man you can't you you can't even go nowhere by Yourself stop playing you live in fear you operate out of fear appreciate you brother I appreciate you bro thank you for coming and hanging with us
man oh thank you for having me easy call Kevin Gates in the neighborhood man Big Boy Neighborhood [Music]
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