hey everybody or anybody who's out there listening it's currently minus 53 so quite a chilly evening but I'm quite snug and cozy in my well insulated Log Cabin plus I've got the fire going but I'm a bit concerned about my dwindling supply of firewood which I've have estimated will last me about another 3 months if I'm very conservative about it uh I originally had about four years worth and I naively thought yeah that should do it but we all realized pretty quickly that this wasn't just a cold snap but that we were in this for
the long hul and outside there's literally nothing left to cut all what left is the stumps which are buried in snow and even if they weren't they'd be impossible to dig up because the ground is Rock Solid so I have to make do with what I have and I haven't heard or seen anyone in almost 5 months now it was the 23rd of November to be exact I remember because it was my father's birthday God Rest his soul he passed in the early days of the big freeze as people were calling it at the time
anyway yeah that day the 23rd it was aboutus 60 and uh I hear a faint knock on the door I open it and there's this young guy standing there holding a log in his hands he's shivering his facial hair is frozen solid his eyelashes too white with fall his lips all cracked and peeled and then he just drops the log to the ground because he's too cold and weak to carry it and he just faintly says log for food please and so I was welling up inside and I took him in and he literally fell
in front of the fire curled up fell asleep and meanwhile I cooked up a stew preparing it for when he woke up and well he never did did and that was the most sobering heart-wrenching darkest moment I've experienced during this whole ordeal he was a young man no more than 25 I would guess and obviously I never got his name or found what his story was how he ended up all the way out here at my front door but uh I like to think that he got some comfort in his last moments that the last
thing he remembered was the warmth of the fire the feeling of being safe the feeling that his or deal was over and then his body maybe just said okay that's it I'm content and I'm ready to go right now in this moment of Peace that's what I like to think anyway but the next morning I had to think of what to do because I had to in some way give this young man the send off he deserved but obviously I couldn't dig the Earth although I tried it was just impossible so with a lot of
effort and over the space of quite a bit of time because you need a lot of time and a lot of heat I cremated his body and place the ashes in a coffee jar which for the time being is beneath the snow and the logy brought I fashioned that into a cross and I engraved the words the visitor rest in peace died November 23rd 2045 so that was the last time I saw or spoke to another human as brief as it was that was that was the last time but it's not that surprising I guess
I mean this area wasn't frequented by many people even before the crash so they're certainly not going to be out here Inus 50° they're not going to be out anywhere unless other parts of the world have somehow began warming up and some sense of normality has resumed which I very much doubt is the case considering I'm in the middle of Utah and it's - 53° so places way up North they must be I don't know I'm guessing minus 100 I really have no idea but I know that the lowest temperature ever recorded in the United
States was in Alaska on January 23rd 1971 and that was minus 80 so I'm pretty sure that now it could be below minus 100 quite easily in some parts of the world but news of what's Happening elsewhere is is non-existent it pretty quickly came to a halt after the crash first first it was news about temperatures temporarily plummeting around the world then it was forecasted to be longer then all travel was suspended then came the food shortages then the starvation then the number of people dying from cold and hunger going into the tens of millions
and then then it came to a halt the news the information on what was going on it all just stopped and the world it seems stopped with it it's like I'm the last remaining man on Earth just me and a couple of pretty tough albeit emaciated looking black bears that have somehow managed to get as far as they have but unfortunately pretty quickly meet their end when they come knocking at my door looking for food that food being me but I got the Firepower I'm well stocked up on ammo and the bears being as hungry
as they are they just come right up to the front door but I have like a small Loft area above the door more like storage space so I can just climb up open the latch which is a few feet above the front door and before they know it bang they're dead quick and painless and so that's my source of meat but of course the number of them is decreasing rapidly so I'm in very real danger of running out of food not just yet but that day will come when I'm staring at my last canned soup
thinking oh hell what do I do now anyway it's something I can't Dell on I have to keep going going to give it my best shot in my most professional weatherman voice possible so here we go hello and good evening temperatures are continuing to plummet as fast as my will to live and the current conditions are forecasted to last anywhere from a few weeks to a couple of thousand years the current temperature is minus 54 so cold I can't [ __ ] because my [ __ ] is frozen shut and my nut sack looks like
two meatballs encased in a frozen piece of wispy hair chicken skin north of my ball sack conditions are much the same it's an icy frozen tundra and my shaft hasn't been this stiff since I popped three viagras while going through a phase of erectile dysfunction for those of you hoping to see a bit of sunshine before you die a cold lonely miserable death I'm sorry to disappoint you but that giant pain in the ass of a dust cloud that's orbiting the Earth is going to remain a giant pain in the ass until your actual ass
itself is just two frozen skinny lumps of pale meat scooting up out of the snow for the Bears to feed on wind speeds are also High making the situation even more treacherous so if you're planning to go outside you are a [ __ ] idiot temperatures will drop to about minus 70 during the night so try and stay warm get that fire lit and if you want to end your misery throw yourself into it a snowstorm of cataclysmic proportions is also on its way in the coming days so if you want to save yourself the
effort of digging your own [ __ ] grave just stand outside and wait to be buried alive in it so that's it for me guys have a wonderful evening I'm going to go now and roast these nuts on an open fire good night temperatures could plummet to minus 100 be nuclear war a meteorite any kind of extinction level [ __ ] DJ apocalypse is like a goddamn nasty ass cockroach straight out of the hood who refuses to be exterminated I've seen it y'all Wars famine pestilence and that that was just in the hood growing up
y'all this ice age I mean come on man mother Nate should be a [ __ ] you know but she gonna have to do more than that to get rid of DJ apocalypse I mean come on for real y'all granted I've lost a couple of pounds but that's to be expected I mean before this 99.9% of my diet was Fried Chicken now I'm living off these crazy ass squirrels around here who first of all are [ __ ] to catch they clever they know the [ __ ] you trying to pull so your traps got
to be pretty elaborate to catch them but when you do I'm telling you man they ain't bad they got like a chicken mixed with nut flavor and the meat even look like chicken a bit if they had been selling that back in the day y'all I'd have been buying it the Mac squirrel burger that would have been a hit y'all for real max squirrel nuggets and fries kfs Kentucky Fried squirrel and that [ __ ] would have been the bomb but anyway like I was saying DJ apocalypse ain't going nowhere anytime soon I've been listening
to all y'all doomers out there damn you dudes need to get your [ __ ] together and stop with all that negativity [ __ ] we and this and there ain't nothing we can do but take each day as it come y'all you got to be looking for the positive all the time man regardless of what [ __ ] life be throwing at you you got to wipe that [ __ ] off your face go pick yourself pity and ass up and face another Frosty ass [ __ ] day that's all there is to it
and y'all we got to keep populating I ain't got nobody to populate with but if I did we'd be popping out a little Jabari here a little Jam there we'd be popping out them babies to carry on the bloodline y'all and plus all that back and forth action keep your ass warm it's a good cardio workout too so if you got the opportunity you get right on it you be rocking those hips nibbling on them BJ Li spank all the wobbly bits and in N months time you can thank DJ apocalypse anyway wherever you are
whoever you were whatever you're doing I hope y'all doing good I know I know it ain't easy there's so many things I miss man just a glimpse of the Sun a blue sky some grass a to on the Scooby-Doo the sound of traffic hell even the sound of my ex-mother-in-law giving me [ __ ] I missed movies on a Friday night and blowing up [ __ ] on GT I miss a Summer Street and all them fine booties strutting they stuff damn I can list all the things I miss all day but it ain't gonna
get me nowhere so I try and put that [ __ ] out of my mind and say to myself you snap out of that [ __ ] this is the reality of the situation now get you lazy ass up and go catch that evasive little son of a [ __ ] of a squirrel and get you ass and breakfast but obviously as well I'm missing my studio and doing my thing my freestyling mixing up some beats man and I missed that I ain't heard a song in about three and a half years man all I
got now is the songs in my head and the memories of all the good times listening to them with my homies but uh I still spit some sick Rhymes y'all every once in a while except now it's all like ice and snow related it's hard to get away from that [ __ ] like when you look around and all you see is a frozen Wasteland all the way out to the Horizon is like damn I need to stop rapping about penguins and igloo and [ __ ] I ain't seen no Penguins but it looks like
the type of environment they should be in and so they've started to creep or waddle into my songs and Penguins ain't got no place in Hip Hop but anyway that's the kind of stuff I be doing to keep my mind occupied because there's just a dead silence out here apart from the wind that picks up every now and then is just a dead silence and I ain't used to that man I mean I grew up in the hood my bed time Ambience was gunshots screaming silence overheard crackhead conversations that [ __ ] used to low
me to sleep but the hood just sound like this place now claimed by the cold hand of Nature and I stuck it out for a couple of months after the crash but like once the stores were completely empty and people turn real nasty I mean killing and eating each other out of desperation straight up Hannibal Lector type [ __ ] that's when I said no man hell no I ain't ending up on no goddamn dinner menu so I packed my things loaded up my 1999 Dodge Caravan y I'm old school man that thing was my
baby anyway I drove South and I kept driving South until my Dodge ran out of fuel out in the boonies and lo and behold I looked to my right and there through the gaps in the trees about 100 feet off the road is a quaint little snow covered cabin that looks like it ain't been inhabited since Noah stepped off the ark and that was it my new home that was fate man my Dodge was supposed to run out of fuel at that exact moment at that exact place and that was three and a half years
ago y'all I fixed the place up a bit added a bit of insulation with whatever I could find fix a few leaks I went from DJ apocalypse to DIY apocalypse there was an old [ __ ] out back full of old tools and I learned the trade man started cutting me some wood stocking up catching me them chicken and nut flavored squirrels and just every day bit by by bit learn how to survive and thrive but the day could come when I got to go y' when the squirrel population be like dropping to numbers that
don't satisfy my Hunger no more when DJ apocalypse is going and eating all the little furry [ __ ] into Extinction I'm GNA have to venture out see what other possibilities and opportunities are presenting them themselves I don't know what's going on I ain't heard no news and years do we even got a president anymore or a government or any type of like functioning system I ain't seen a car pass in about 3 years neither hell there ain't even a road there no more I ain't seen no planes overhead I ain't seen another living Soul
since the day I Ste Foot In This Place y'all for all I know I'm just talking to myself damn imagine that that would be sad man but no I think somebody out there hearing me for real there got to be because I've even heard what I thought sounded like voices coming through the static like all distorted and [ __ ] obviously but it sounded like a bunch of rednecks like the kind of dudes whose Mas are also they Daddy's sister the kind of dudes with an IQ of 100 between four of them the kind of
dudes who would Lynch my ass so as much as I want to see people I'm careful about the people I want to see you got to be wary man you invite someone into your home or you see someone and be like yo hey neighbor that evening you could be chopped up into 27 different pieces and your kidneys and [ __ ] be getting boiled in a pot by a bunch of inbred Hills Have Eyes looking [ __ ] there's a bit of interference going on but yeah you got to be wary man you can't be
like broadcasting your location and [ __ ] and inviting in every time dick and hairry around for some squirrel there's a lot of desperate people out there right now it's every man for himself you know I got to go get some more logs for the fire y'all I'm burning through them quick but it's all good I got no shortage of forest and if you put every layer of clothes you got on and you doing some shopping you can stay warm out there plus it's good for the Mind man that's [ __ ] therapeutic all right
I'm going for now catch y'all later asterid 3,000 times bigger than the one that killed the dinosaurs you step outside and it's like being smacked in the face with a snow shovel so you kind of brace yourself each time then of course you got to close the door behind you as quick as possible because even 3 seconds of minus 60 blowing through the Gap will pretty quickly cool the room down and on top of that we've got the extra trouble of going Direction unfortunately it primarily aims itself directly at the front of the house so
every morning or nearly every morning we've got four five six foot of snow drift piled up against the door which my husband actually thinks is beneficial because he says it acts as like an extra layer of insulation but I'm not convinced I mean it's freaking snow but my husband he says these things to keep the kids spirits up it's so hard for them their natural instinct is to want to go outside and play their kids for God's sakes of course they do but they can only go outside most days for like a couple minutes max
with my husband of course and that's with every bit of clothing they got and um yeah within three four minutes they're done they've had enough anyway that type of cold it just penetrates every layer of clothes you got gets under your skin into your bones it's just not worth it and my youngest she's five so you know what that means she's never seen the Sun or she would have but she would only like a year old when the crash happened so obviously she wouldn't remember it and the same goes for many things she's never seen
a blue sky and she's never seen the leaves come out on the tree or heard the birds sing she's never seen a single blade of grass or uh she's never seen a flower or heard a dog bark the list goes on and on and on and on all she has seen is a white Frozen Wasteland and a grayish white sky and of course she's got questions she's very curious about why we live way we live basically she picks up on the struggle we Face day and day out even though my husband and I try and
hide it for the sake of the kids I don't want them thinking you know damn life is miserable I want them to regardless of the circumstances to be happy to have a childhood that they can look back on and say we were provided for we had good times we laughed and we may not have had warmth outside but we had warmth within our home the warmth of the love that we were shown and I want their Futures to be warmer that would be nice but that dust cloud ain't leaving anytime soon not in our lifetime
but before the crash I would have hoped for them to have a secure future financially go to university get qualifications behind them all that stuff and now that don't exist anymore so all I want for them is just simply health and happiness that's it and for them to be able to live somewhat of a normal life I mean of course it's not GNA be the same type of normal that I had when I was growing up like going to school going to the mall the prom clubbing on the weekend the first date all that stuff
but they won't know any different this will be all they know this will be the only normal they know and that's sad but we got to do what we got to do to give them a sense of hope and purpose in life because without that you ain't got nothing so we owe them that and when they do some they have questions we'll answer them honestly will tell them about the crash try and explain as best we can about you know the Earth the universe what caused all this which I won't be very good at my
husband will be better at all that but you know these kids are basically starting off with the knowledge people had from the earliest of times knowledge has been lost so they won't be able to Fathom how the Earth is a huge big ball floating around in space they won't even be able to understand what space is they never seen the star or the moon and we ain't got no books to try and explain all that but they're going to be curious for sure my husband and I are going to have a lot of questions to
answer questions we don't have the answers to but we'll do our best and we'll do our best to give them the best life they could possibly have given the circumstances anyway immedately my brother is trapped he fell through the ground he fell about 50 ft he's not responding I can't get to him we need somebody we're scared and we're cold please somebody help us we in Gloss Creek you will see a blue [Music] sh I mean the asteroids were massive but the chances of them actually colliding and colliding where they did between us and the
Sun the chances of that are so slum you couldn't even put a number on it but they were massive I mean massive te goddamn things were anywhere between 400 and 500 miles in diameter that's the size of some of the biggest asteroids found in the main asteroid belt between Mars and Jupiter and what in the hell they were doing out this direction is anyone's guess but still the chances of them hitting just imagine trying to imagine the vastness of space and that distance between the Earth and the Sun it's 93 million miles I'll repeat that
93 million miles in these two space rocks 4500 miles in diam somehow managed to collide basically just above Earth unluckily for us just close enough for the Earth's gravity to pull that dust and debris from the resulting crash into its orbit and block our source of life I mean we must be the unluckiest goddamn planet in the whole freaking Universe I I lay awake at night thinking about that and it just it's just crazy anyway it is what it is and what it is is [ __ ] bad luck but I hope you're holding up
okay wherever you are we've only got another couple hundreds of thousands of years left of this so look on the bright side it could be warmer tomorrow maybe it'll only be minus 51 imagine if if we just woke up tomorrow and we saw that the ice was beginning to thaw wouldn't that be a sight to behold like by some minor miracle the dust cloud just just disappeared and we saw the sun's Rays streaks of golden light shining through the clouds and a blue sky slowly being revealed is clouds dispersed imagine that wouldn't you just Cry
tears of joy I would anyway but yeah the imagination is as far as it goes and no further it would be nice to know what's going on in other parts of the world even other parts of our own country like maybe just maybe a bit of sun is getting through some gaps in the dust cloud I mean that's what I've been thinking also those asteroids were big but according to my estimates the there wouldn't be enough dust and debris to completely smother the globe there couldn't be but maybe it doesn't matter maybe you just need
a large enough percentage of the Sun's light and heat being blocked to trigger an Ice Age either way it was obviously enough but it would just be cool to hear some news of what's going on elsewhere you know we're all just so cut off from each other I wonder how many people have died around the world as a result of this I mean when you think of all possible causes of death that could be attributed to this hypothermia would probably be number one I'd imagine just general exposure to the elements couple hundred million probably wiped
out by that and then you got starvation the world's covered in ice so there ain't nothing growing no food for the animals to eat so they're dying and we in turn eat the animals to survive and there's not many animals that have gotten through this so again a couple hundred Mill probably gone because of starvation maybe I mean being conservative with those numbers it could be billions and uh then you got disease weaken bodies are more prone to sickness another few million or billion wiped off the Earth then there's accidents there has to been quite
a few of them and uh what else is their uh social chaos desperate times call for desperate measures and people have people are and people people will kill each other to survive so yeah the number of dead has to be in the billions and we're talk about just four years of this four years what about another 4,000 years or 400,000 years Humanity will not survive pure and simple Humanity will not survive I don't mean to be a pessimist I'm just being realistic here if my numbers are right and I'm calculating that hundreds of Millions maybe
billions are dead in four years then in just 10 years time or less every last one of us could be gone and 90% of all other life forms too except those that can survive or withstand these conditions that's a crazy thought ain't it in 10 years time I am pretty confident that every last one of us the human race will be gone and I know some of you will be saying well thanks Joe for that uplifting prediction but I'm sorry folks them just the facts that's the Grim reality of the situation and thinking otherwise is
just fooling yourself I mean I'm not saying give up and just curl up in the ball and die but we got to be realistic about the situation and not delude ourselves like some dude I heard on the air DJ Apocalypto or uh DJ apocalyptic maybe apocalypse I don't know but anyway he was saying how he will overcome this and mother nature will have to do better than this to kill him all that stuff and talking about Positive Vibes St positive well the situation says otherwise and he is not in control of it if nature wants
to kill him it will and there ain't nothing this positive I can do about it I mean not that I would but if I wanted to I could track him down pretty easy knock on his front door and blow his head clean off his freaking shoulders and take all this stuff so what's your positive vibes going to do about that Mr DJ Apocalypto like I said not that I would do that but my point is is kind of arrogant to say you're in control of a situation like this or uh have so much certainty that
you're going to get through it because you don't know [ __ ] you don't know what's coming down the line because me someone else your mother nature itself could just decide that today is your final day simple as that so people ought be weary of like and in a lot of ways I don't miss it I don't miss my alarm going off or the morning commute I don't miss the traffic I don't miss pretending I give a [ __ ] about my colleagues weekend on on a Monday morning I don't miss listening to my boss
tell me how to do a job that I can do better than him and I don't miss the Sunday evening anxiety that comes with thinking to work on a Monday I don't miss the fake Smiles or the senseless Small Talk conversations by the coffee maker I don't miss acting professional or sacrificing my life for a [ __ ] corporation that doesn't give a [ __ ] about me and I don't miss the brain numbing reality TV shows or the celebrities with half a brain cell telling us how to live our lives I don't miss our
corporate Pawn of a president or uh the government control and overreach I don't miss our society's decadent moral Decline and the breakdown of family values don't miss the Relentless radio commercials and God awful songs that were somehow considered music I don't miss the depressing constant bombardment of a agenda driven news that blatantly lied misled and distorted facts to manipulate public opinion I don't miss our greedy self-indulgent consumerist society and I don't miss paying my rent I just don't miss it I am in fact very content with this this peaceful isolated allbe a difficult existence it's
brutal but it's calm it it it's unforgiving but it's it's humbling to just look out there and see the endless expanse of white terrain it makes you feel so small and insignificant but in a comforting sort of way and you actually have time to think and I didn't have that before or maybe I did but there were so many distractions uh constant stream of information with technology and work and whatever to the point that you forgot what it was to just simply sit down and think like I do now I mean once my work for
the day is done and I mean real work not slaving away for some soul sucking Corporation I mean choing in the wood hunting Gathering doing repairs prepar for the next day and all that after that's done I just sit down light the fire get a bite to eat and I can just stare into the fire for hours and I just think and it amazes me that I look forward to something and as simple as that at the end of the day and that's when your mind is starting to reconfigure slowly return to its natural state
before it was corrupted and polluted by the poisonous fumes of a toxic world of course there are certain people that I miss my mom my dad my brother we uh all lived in different parts of the country at the time of the crash and I haven't seen them since and I don't know if they got through it but but who knows maybe someday I'll find out maybe someday I'll see them again it's not beyond the Realms of possibility but without any means of Transport for now it is impossible but it would be good just to
even hear their voices or just know that they're okay that would be enough for me but uh I had a dog my best buddy his name was Arnold and he made it through the first few months after the crash but eventually it got too much for him and I did did what I could to try and keep him fed and keep him warm but it wasn't enough and he he didn't make it and I still miss him every day and feel like I let him down but I well it is what it is but I
do have a picture of him beside my bed which is nice it's when he was about 3 years old and we were out at the lake on a hot summer's day and I was throwing the ball in the lake for him and I remember that day like it was yesterday my brother took the picture and Arnold's got the ball in front of him and he's soaking wet tongue sticking out exhausted from chasing the ball but yeah there were good times actually uh pet would be nice company right now but the selection is a bit scarce
at the moment although there is a spider that lives under my bed I'm not sure what he's living off though because I haven't seen a single fly since well probably a few weeks after the crash but some is keeping him alive he's obviously very resourceful so he's my only companion for now that I know of anyway maybe there's a few other expert survivalists lurking around probably eyeing me up for their next meal watching me as I slowly grow weaker waiting for the perfect opportunity to pounce actually that reminds me I have to check the trap
out in the shed and see what tasty grub I've got for tonight probably another which at first I refused to eat because well it was rat but if you stew it for an hour or so they're not that bad they've got like a an earthy taste is how I would put it they're a bit chewy but uh yeah they're not bad so anyway I'm going to go check the Trap talk to you guys later oh hell no damn y'all I got a hater on my back I was picking up literally no signal before I heard
that loud and clear DJ apocalypse going and got himself a hater talking about tracking me down getting all itchy about my positive vibes tell I comeing up here and blowing my head off my shoulders and [ __ ] yeah listen if you heard me before you know me I'm all about peace and love forgiveness that's just me man peace and love I don't threaten people with physical violence that ain't me those days are behind me but listen to dude I will mess you [ __ ] up if you trespass on my turf stay off my
land and stay away from my squirrels this place be Laden with traps you step 10 feet on my turf man and you're gonna end up impaled on some nasty ass sck for real I'm just giving you a very considerate health and safety War you come on my land and I feel like you putting my ass in danger all H going to break loose I mean come on man I'm armed too you think I was walking around the hood all the years with a goddamn butter knife for back up oh hell no do you best stop
with that crazy talk all your ass is going to end up a death by misadventure the misadventure being y'all ass thinking to come up on my tur running this mouth and waving weapons around and [ __ ] oh hell no that ain't happening you do your [ __ ] and I'll do mine you want to be all down beat and whatever you do that but I'm a positive dude and I know it ain't going to save my ass from the inevitable but it makes my journey towards the inevitable a happier one so you do your
thing and I'll do mine I'm GNA wake up with a smile on my face every morning until my ass is frozen and preserved in a block of ice and archaeologist will discover me in 5,000 years time and say to each other D that D look happy as [ __ ] that's just how DJ apocalypse ROM man don't get all up on my ass because you wallowing in your own self pity and misery and trying to drag us all down with you come on man be cool we got to get along out here not be dishing
out threats and talking about leaving your neighbor with no head and taking his coils and [ __ ] that [ __ ] ain't appropriate anyway that's all I'm gonna say about the matter but damn here I am waiting to hear some signs of life from another human being and the first one I hear is threatening to shoot my ass just for spreading some positivity anyway I ain't going to lose sleep over it but my ears going to be tuned in for any twig snapping any snow crunching and door squeaking and if I hear any of
that [ __ ] and you up to something you shouldn't be up to I'm going to coin East food your ass okay I'm done for the day I'm going to chill make some sick beats with my pots and pans spit some Rhymes over the top of them bust out another DJ apocalypse classic is going to be called Neighbor impal featuring Little squirrel and the squirrel crew all right much love talk to y'all later- 55 and I can't feel my face just literally 5 minutes ago I H you in my arm just been jerking off off
trying to generate some heat nothing left and I don't know how much longer I have I'm down to my last bit of Timber my last bit of gas my last canned soup and it's probably my last few days I'm weak I'm hungry I've lost hope and once the heat dissipates the temperatures in the cabin are going to be the same as the temperatures outside the only thing I'll be protected from is the wind and it's a crazy thought but I was thinking with the last bit of gas I have in my lighter will I just
burn the cabin down with me in it at least I won't die a slow drawn out death in the cold instead it will be relatively quick and warm I'm try trying to think what my father would do if he was in this situation he always thought of a solution to any problem but unfortunately I didn't inherit that skill I just stocked up on a trailer load of food when the crash first happened and came out here to the family cabin to uh say being eaten by the masses but I never learned how to hunt or
actually made an effort to learn in fact stupidly I just ate up my stash of food and thought I'll worry about getting more when the time comes and well that time has come and I'm all out of ideas I look outside and I just see a Frozen hostile Wasteland that offers nothing to me nothing to sustain me or give me some hope and I can't leave and look for help the nearest thing to civilization is over 20 M away and it's aboutus 52 or 3 outside so I would be dead in a matter of hour
so I'm stuck I've nothing left in the cabin to stay for and at the same time there's nothing out decided to leave so I guess uh these are my final words and I have nothing prolific to say only that I've had a good life in general there's been ups and downs but generally it's been okay and uh I'm just angry with myself that I didn't prepare better but that was the story of my life really I was always disorganized and always left things till the last minute and that's going to cost me my life uh
I feel very lonely I always have felt a bit lonely actually I never had kids or a wife so I'm used to being on my own but this is a different type of loneliness it is a scary type of loneliness a fear a fear of dying alone a fear of the unknown how it will feel how long it will take where I will go afterward if anywhere it's just an overwhelming sense of fear I don't know how else to put it but uh it's definitely not the way I expected to go and I don't want
to be just left for the rats to feed on I would like uh Proper Burial but I can't bury myself obviously so that was another reason for thinking that it might be a good idea to just burn the cabin down with me in it that way at least I can give myself a cremation something I'm going to have to give a bit more thought but it seems the most logical thing to do it definitely does and and with that I'm going to go now I'm going to sign off and wish whoever is listening if anyone
all the luck in the world this Frozen world and I hope you and your loved ones make it goodbye
