[Music] my heart is beating so fast I can hear it this can't be true I've ruined my life all my plans all the time invested yesterday was so different I could see the next four years laid out so [Music] perfectly today I can't see the next moment I just want it to stop breathe Just Breathe [Music] [Music] how do I even look at them I've let them down they're going to know the instant they look at me they're going to know something's wrong deep breath just act like everything's [Music] okay he's going to be so
disappointed he's always calling me his little girl that's gone he'll never see me like that [Music] again just don't look at him no eye [Music] contact [Music] none of this matters anymore the hours of lessons practice Awards all for nothing it's over I never thought it would happen happen to [Music] me this can't be [Music] [Music] happening he doesn't know and I hate him for not knowing I want to go back to what it was like before I knew I want to still believe in a future I'm stuck in this nightmare how am I even
going to tell him [Music] [Music] it was nothing I couldn't handle we really liked each other there was something I hadn't felt before in that moment it felt real and it felt right I should have seen it I knew better I've been taught better only I could go [Music] [Music] back [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music] [Music] why should I feel guilty guy it's my body my life and just a bunch of [Music] [Music] self it's too late [Music] looks be interesting to do a [Music] contract [Music] [Music] I can't keep it from them anymore
I have to tell [Laughter] them what is it honey just say [Music] it two words I'm pregnant why would you do this Laura you have a scholarship I know that's your future I'm sorry yes you are [Music] sorry I've ruined my life I can't have a baby I can't be a parent I I I I I I don't know what I'm going to do I I feel so trapped maybe I should just get an abortion and and this would all be over with and and life would be normal [Music] again [Music] I'll see you tonight
I'll call you at lunch yeah [Music] okay I've been doing some research on the internet and I'm thinking maybe they can help maybe they could have helped me all those years ago I just don't want you to make the same mistake that I made I don't know I'm so confused I'm I just can't believe this is happening I don't understand how they can help they can't rewind the clock but I can I can erase this like it was never there just like before I do anything to change it [Music] back [Music] [Music] [Laughter] [Music] [Music]
[Music] good morning fine how are you how can we help you we need to see a counselor okay do you have an appointment yes I just want this to go away back to the way it was I can't have a baby I'm so embarrassed so ashamed no one else has to know I hate feeling this [Music] way [Music] [Music] L hi I'm Judith you want to come with me please [Music] she's being so kind like she really cares about me so if there's anything it doesn't seem like she's judging me slow down be informed consider
all my options what's the use I know what I've got to [Music] do all right Laura I'm Bonnie I'm one of the nurses here at the Pregnancy Center well the results of the pregancy test was positive based on your you're going to have estim positive I already knew that that would make you around 12 we would like to offer you a free ultrasound with the ultrasounds that we offer we look for three things why do I need an ultrasound that there's a heartbeat what difference can that make how far you are maybe there's nothing there
be interested in today abortion adoption parenting none of them sound good I just want it to go away to go back to my life the way things [Music] were [Music] can't have an abortion I can't do [Music] it it's going to be okay it's real I can't stop that heartbeat I can't do it my life will never be the same I never thought it would happen to me never thought this would be my life but now I look back and I think about this the days I thought abortion would be an easy way out turns
out that is a lie there is no easy way out truth is it's hard really really hard but I made the right choice and he's here and I never knew I could love anyone so [Music] much I can't imagine my life without him and I never want to I wouldn't have it any other [Music] [Music] [Music] way [Music] [Music] I
