Forced to apologize to dental hygienist

all right so I just had a weird experience and you know it's the type of experience that the type of thing that only happens to sub Five Guys Like Me I mean well I can only imagine this type of thing would not have happened if I look like Chad or if I even just looked like normal then there's no way this would have went down the way it did so basically I had a bad experience at the dentist office now to set up this story a little bit it's actually been a long time since I've

been to the dentist it's been several years um I don't even know how long I would say maybe like seven years something like that since I've been to the dentist and I know I should go to the dentist but for what it's worth I do keep my teeth pretty clean I use an electric toothbrush I brush my teeth two to three times a day and I also floss not every day but I do loss at least a few times a week which I think is more than most people so you know I don't as far

as I know have any dental problems don't have any cavity so I just kind of felt like I don't really need to go to the dentist although I mean I guess I know I probably should but you know the reason that I haven't been going to the dentist regularly is obviously because of my social anxiety and one of the main things is you know it's not even just going walking physically into the dentist office office and being there physically it's also making the appointment you know because I don't know exactly how that works because when

I used to go to the dentist back in the day when I first got set up going to the dentist you know I was a kid and my parents did it for me and then when I grew to be an adult you know I just went to the same dentist and I just had the same automatic reminders being sent to me so it the process was all easier then when I stopped going to the dentist when I moved away from home for work and it was at that point you know I just never found a

new dentist and I didn't go to a dentist then when I moved back home I just continued not going to the dentist and my old dentist office like that dentist is retired so it's it's not even there anymore but yeah my parents have kind of been getting on to me about not going to the dentist telling me how important it is I really need to go to the dentist you know why haven't you been to the dentist so long my mom calls me quite a bit just to nag me about this and I think it

was my mom that started nagging my dad about it and that's why he started getting on to me about it and we got in this big argument you know I was like who cares who why do you care if I go to the dentist it's not your teeth you know just let me not go to the dentist and he starts yelling at me he's like no you need to go to the dentist and so I start telling him you know I'm like I don't even know how to make an appointment I don't which is true

I don't you know I I didn't know how to make the appointment that was a big thing holding me back I just didn't want to so I'm kind of telling him this you know not only so he'll get off my case about it but maybe you know thinking well maybe he'll just tell me how to make the appointment or like show me how it works or tell me like what cuz another thing is I don't know which dentist to make an appointment at I don't even know I don't know anyways so my dad's yelling at

me for he starts to get mad at me for even bringing up the idea of not knowing how to make an appointment not knowing how to find a dentist he's like getting mad at me about that and you know I start telling him well I'm like I I don't have insurance so what's this going to cost like $1,000 or something and he's like no it doesn't cost that much and your mom said she'd pay for it so either way I had a big fight with my dad about it and you know I'm already kind of

on thin ice with my dad if you know from recent events if you follow my channel you know about this I made some videos about it my dad had recently kind of kicked me out of the house briefly before allowing me to come back and yeah we're we're not really at on a good standing right now although he he has you know mostly gotten over it and he's kind of been chill about everything in the past couple days but yeah you know with him blowing up on me over the dentist it kind of seems like

maybe it's a deeper issue really than the dentist but yeah so I just didn't want to push you know didn't want to rock the boat anymore at this point so well I figured out you can make an a dentist appointment online at pretty much any dentist office so I just picked the dentist that is closest to my dad's house and I made an appointment online so that was a few days ago and you know then today I actually go to the dentist and uh if you follow my Channel at all then you already know I

I just have crippling social anxi so anytime I have to go anywhere in person it's pretty much a disaster even if things go completely normally I'm just a nervous wreck the entire time so yeah I was feeling not great you know my social anxiety was getting to me but it was going pretty normal you know I just walked into the dentist walked up to the desk and they they were like sign in they made me sign on a piece of paper I guess probably all dentist office do that yeah so I signed in sat down

and waited for a few minutes and then they called my name and I go to the back go to the little room in the back and I'm in the chair and well the dental hygienist walks in and she's a you know fairly attractive woman young woman she's not exactly Stacy level but you know she's she's attractive and you know in these situations where you know it's kind of like how a waitress or anyone in customer service they're always extra nice to you and in my case it's like the only time that that a woman shows

me any kindness so you know it's actually kind of making me feel a little more at ease though there is the initial shock of you know when she walks in the room and I'm like okay that's an attractive young woman and that makes me nervous then she starts talking and she's got a a bubbly personality friendly personality you know she's nice and she's making conversation and uh that that puts me at ease a little bit makes me feel good so yeah so I was I was feeling kind of good for a while but then she

starts asking me why I haven't been to the dentist in so long you know she's like so I hear it's been a few years since you've been to the dentist and I was you know I was like yeah and then she like keeps going on about it she's like you know it's uh I don't even remember what all she said and how it got to this point but eventually she's like you know are you depressed because I guess I guess she's thinking you know because I haven't been to the that means I'm depressed or something

so I don't know she asked me if I was depressed I said no she just kept pressing the issue she's like well because if you were depressed you know there are resources out there and there was something just about the way she was saying it was already making me mad that she's trying to like imply that I'm depressed just because I haven't gone to the dentist because you know as horrible as my life is I actually don't really feel like I'm depressed maybe I am I don't know but the thing is even if I am

depressed you don't know that be just because I haven't been to the D like there's so many reasons maybe why I haven't been to the dentist in years that have nothing to do with me being depressed so I don't know why and again this is the dental hygienist so it's really none of her business you know I'm I'm kind of offended that she's even going on about this because she's not a psychologist she's not any kind of doctor she's just a person that uses a metal hook to scrape plaque off of people's teeth she has

nothing to do with uh depression and psychoanalyzing my mental state it just yeah it it was really pissing me off so you know she keeps pressing just and and the way that she went about it you know in this very passive aggressive way uh well because if you you were depressed you know there are resources out there you know just just be direct tell me I think you're depressed I can recommend you a doctor to go see you know what I mean that there are resources out there just so so passive aggressive I just I

I just really I don't know it really pissed me off and she just kept pressing about it I and you know my retelling of the story really doesn't do it justice cuz she really was just just kept pressing about you know I think maybe you're depressed if you are then that you can get some help and I don't remember how she phrased it but it was just really passive aggressive and implying that I need help and she just kept going on about it and So eventually I just snapped and I said uh I said why

don't you just focus on cleaning my teeth that's what I told her I and you know usually I would never no matter how much bullying I was receiving cuz it really it felt like she was kind of bullying me because even if I was being bullied like legitimately bullied I usually wouldn't snap and defend myself like that but I was actually a little bit assertive you know and I just I just snapped at her I said why don't you just focus on cleaning my teeth so when I said that she said she's like all right

then and uh you know then she just went on she stopped talking completely she just went on quietly cleaning my teeth everything seemed fine you know I I knew she didn't like that I kind of snapped at her like that but whatever she was kind of pressing the issue which is obviously outside the bounds of her expertise if you can call anything she does expertise she's a dental hygienist I don't know but so she's going on cleaning my teeth for a few minutes after that right like it wasn't immediate at all but eventually she she

says like uh I'll be right back and she left she left the room so then after a minute or two another woman came in like a different dental hygienist came in after a few minutes and she finished the cleaning my teeth you know so I didn't know what was up why the first woman left I figured maybe she got a phone call or something like her phone was vibrating in her pocket and I couldn't hear it you know and she left and there was some kind of emergency I didn't I didn't put together that it

had anything to do with me snapping at her in that moment because like I said after I said to her you know why don't you just focus on cleaning my teeth she was just like all right then and then she continued cleaning my teeth for a few minutes so yeah she left the room another woman came in and finished cleaning my teeth and and again this woman that came in the second woman she didn't say anything like oh you upset so and so you know she just she was acting like everything is normal so yeah

so you know after the dental hygienist finishes cleaning your teeth they leave the room and then the dentist comes in and does kind of like the final checkup or whatever and maybe does a little more cleaning well so the dentist came in so it's just me and the dentist in the room at that point and uh he does his normal thing he's he's just acting like everything's normal you know the whole time when he first came in he he checks over my teeth you know and the funny thing is I was kind of right as

far as you know not going to the dentist in so long I've been cleaning my teeth pretty well they didn't I didn't have any cavities I didn't have any major issues um so it was kind of like I don't know uh your mileage may vary but I guess in my case I've been cleaning my teeth well enough on my own apparently but anyway so the dentist was you know he did his he did his thing his dentist thing and everything seemed to be normal then when he was done he gets this serious look on his

face and he's like okay now we need to talk about something we need to talk about something uh he goes on he's like if you're going to disrespect my dental hygienists then I'm not going to keep you on as a patient here so he's basically threatening to like ban me from his dentist office you know and if you're not going to be what did he say he he was something like if you're going to be disrespectful to my dental hygienist then I'm not going to be keeping you on as a patient here and then he

he continued he was like uh I don't know if you think you're better than her or maybe you're just having a bad day but Becky is a hard worker and a valuable member of our team here and she deserves every bit as much respect as I do like it's almost like he was kind of implying that you know I was disrespectful to her because she's not a dentist you know because she's a dental hygienist or something which is ridiculous that had nothing to do with it the you know if it had been the dentist I

would have reacted the same way or at least I would have you know felt the the same way about a dentist trying to tell me that they think I'm depressed it's because it has nothing to do with I'm not here for a psychoanalysis you know I'm here to get my teeth cleaned and I'm really not even here to get my teeth cleaned I'm here to get my parents off my case about going here so uh but anyways yeah the the dentist is just straight up reprimanding me then you know this is where it's so brutal

and this is the part especially that I think you know none of this would have happened if I was if I was just an attractive guy you know if I was Chad this dental hygienist would have never thought I was depressed she would have been like oh silly Chad you just haven't gone to the silly quirky Chad not going to the dentist in 5 years so the dentist tells me that I need to apologize to the dental hygienist and you know like I said he was pretty much implying that if I don't then I'm going

to be banned from the office and I don't know if they would have done that but he was kind of implying it so yeah he called her into the room and she came in and this was a crazy thing cuz she looked like she had been crying and it's like [ __ ] you started this what are you crying for I should be crying I'm the depressed one aren't I anyways you know maybe she was projecting that's the whole thing you know she's so depressed and mentally weak that her being all passive aggressive toward me

than me just snapping back you know in self-defense I was defending myself against her onslaught of haha you're depressed loser cuz that's that's how it feels you know when you've got an attractive young woman talking to you telling you to your face that they think you're depressed what do you think they're saying because they wouldn't say that to a good-look guy it's basically like she's calling me a loser which I am but you're at work you know don't don't be talking to me like that when you're at work you're supposed to be being nice to

me and maybe she was just trying to be nice maybe she was really concerned for me but that concern you know she doesn't even realize it CU she can't even conceptualize it since she lives in a cave uh but you know whether or not she's just trying to be friendly to me think she's doing me a favor you know she's only treating me like that because of my sub status and I know that and it doesn't feel good so you know forgive me if I snap every once in a while when Society constantly beats me

down sorry if I snap once in a blue moon after my daily multiple times per day beating down my lashing from society that is just based on my looks for the most part and and my crippling social anxiety my high inhibition anyways whatever as I'm saying this I know it's not all society's problem maybe I maybe maybe I was rude maybe I was rude I don't know maybe I am in the wrong here anyways it sucks because I didn't want to you know why didn't they just let me leave he had to call her back

in make sure that I see her crying you know and did it really make her cry when I snapped at did it really make her cry or did she make herself cry to make me see her cry to make me know what a bad mean guy I am you know I don't know I don't know whatever I apologize I think I said sorry didn't mean any offense something like that and she just kind of nodded and walked out you know she didn't even say uh that's okay I forgive you know she didn't even say anything

she didn't say anything at all she just nodded a little bit and you know in a way like a just a a crying Woman face just gentle nod and walked out of the room and then the dentist gave me the little bag with a toothbrush and some floss I went out to the reception desk I paid and I left I drove home feeling like crap because in my head it's it's you know I've got I've got competing emotions in my head you know one side telling me like what a stupid what an idiot that dental

hygiene like everybody there morons they're they're evil why do they treat me like this and then on the other other side you know I've got those voices telling me uh man why am I such a dick why am I always such a jerk so I don't know I don't really know what to feel other than it feels bad you know it feels bad man really it's just this is the kind of thing it's the kind of experience I have when I go and you wonder why I haven't been to the dentist off office in years

look what happened when I did finally go and it's like this you know I don't know day-to-day life I can go places and it's usually just normal you know it's usually just normal I might see some people giving me kind of dirty looks or whatever just because of my sub five status but for the most part I don't actually I'm not actively treated like I'm subhuman but sometimes it happens and it's those times that really stick out in my memory you know what happened today at the dentist office I'm going to remember that for you

I'll never forget that probably it it sucks it was just like such a brutal experience and it's like am I supposed to go back in six months to this dentist office like we set the appointment so they I guess they expect me to go back so I don't know I honestly don't know if I will um because like I said they didn't even I didn't have any cavities you know the dentist was saying you know he's telling me you know you really you got to come every 6 months you know twice a year you got

to come here and he he said some stuff about why it's important I do but at the end of the day there weren't any issues with my dental hygiene I did not have any cavities or anything so that they could find and this is after I want to say like seven years of not going to the dentist at all so seems like I'm doing fine on my own as of right now I'm thinking probably not going to go to the next appointment six months from now uh I really don't want to show my face in

there again cuz that same dental hygienist will probably be there and it's not only her you know everyone else there the dentist himself he kind of treated me like I was subhuman as well you know just immediately I guess it makes sense you know he's probably friends with that dental hygienist if nothing else she's employed by him so you know he's going to stick up for his employee sure I guess that makes him a good boss if anything but it's really unfair cuz I think maybe maybe I was a little bit rude maybe I shouldn't

have like Snapped like I did but at the same time as a dental hygienist she has no business talking to me about thinking I'm depressed it just just because I haven't been to the dentist in so long and you know that can't be it because like I say if I was Chad she wouldn't have said that if I was Chad she would not have just assumed the the reason I haven't been going to the dentist is because of my depression she assumed that because I'm you know I look like a guy that deserves to be

depressed you know she looked at me and she's thinking well he hasn't been to the dentist in so long and yeah he looks like a guy that would be depressed I mean who wouldn't be if they look like that you know you know I can read between the lines I'm not [ __ ] so I don't know whatever I've told the story that's what it is that's how it went when I went to the dentist brutal just just now you see you see that's this is what my life is like you know I get a

lot of people saying oh you're a fake sale your whole problem is you just don't well look I went out in person I went and did a normal person thing I went to the dentist and it didn't go like it goes for normal people it went how it how it goes for me I get treated like I'm not even human whatever