and so as the adult builds up a s identifications that form the identity and unfortunately it's never quite enough there's always something missing and quite often it is painful to compare yourself to others the more am I do I have more or less than the others so the ego is to do with what I can do how I look what I have my possessions uh abilities uh playing an instrument Sports good at this good at that whatever it may be for a long time I struggled with an identity because I had an unhappy sense of
identity I couldn't identify with possessions because my parents didn't have any possessions or just basic ones and I didn't have any I couldn't identify with a great strong goodlook body didn't have that so I was struggling I felt diminished I say compared to others I felt diminished it's pain very painful and so after many years I suddenly realized ah I got it I know what I can do I can be more knowledgeable than others I can read books and then I can talk about these books intelligently and I can show others that I know more
than they do it worked but it didn't make me happy I was still very insecure and basically unhappy trying to show off how how what great intellectual I was dropping names of famous authors I just dropped kfka but that was for another reason that was not for egoic reasons I can assure you and so you live in a precarious way uh feeling I I I my my identity is not complete yet I need something there's something missing that is a very fundamental feeling for humans who are trapped in their own ego there's something missing there's
something something not right and so they are seeking seeking seeking and they ex add seeking to add something to who I am or who I think I am it's always conceptual and so the ego also needs uh boundaries the ego needs a boundary it needs to say this is I me and this is the other without the boundary uh it cannot sustain its sense of identity so it needs to feel uh better than or Superior to somebody else the or the the boundary around the ego needs some kind of enemy the other people have I
forgot to mention an important part of conceptual identity for many people is also Collective identity it's not just personal you also take things from the the collective the country where you live or your religion whatever it may be or your political persuasion and that becomes part of your identity your conceptual identity of collective identity it could also be race uh if you are a racist then you identify with your race as Superior than another race another conceptual identity religion can be an important part of your conceptual identity too and you what it usually means uh
my religion is the only one that is true and all the others are false when you hear that it's a clear sign that is the ego speaking the ego has adopted identified with the religion and it needs to pronounce all the others as inferior only ours or mine or our religion is the only true one all the others are going to hell we are the only ones who are going to heaven well that's very satisfying to the ego wow I I I am one of the few chosen ones look at me wonderful but then you
need others that disagree with you because without the others you cannot sustain your your conceptual identity if the others don't don't disagree then your identity becomes fluid and dissolves so you need the others who opposite interpretations of your same religion or other other some other religion and they are your enemy because they are probably controlled by the devil there that's them politically you can do it too you have the a political system that pronounces the other as uh not just inferior as actually evil that's all kind Collective identities um any kind of prejudice that people
have is to do with conceptual identity race is a one that many people have if if you don't have much else in your life you could identify with your race and see okay our race is a greatest and all the others are inferior and then that gives you your sense of identity now you can see how you need the other let's in an imaginary scenario let's say a person who is a racist one morning he or she wakes up not having become a beetle as in Kafka no so he one morning he or she wakes
up Suddenly finds himself on another planet and then begins to realize that everybody on this planet is exactly the same race as me there is no other race in fact on this this planet where this person suddenly finds himself the word race does not even exist because if everybody is the same race and the same skin color you you will not even have a word for race so the entire identity that was built up on Race would collapse immediately without the other it cannot it cannot be sustained you could also say you can take any
examp example let's say you have a uh a noisy Italian sports car because Italian sports are meant to be noisy to attract attention so you have a Lamborghini and it's painted red to attract even more attention and it gives your ego boost look at me everybody looking because it's so noisy and then in another imaginary scenario the next day you wake up in another another dimension and in this Dimension every human being has the same red Lamborghini or whatever it is immediately it be your ego cannot use it anymore it becomes totally meaningless so then
the your conceptual identity then collapse without the the other the egoic identity desperately needs the other who is not different me the enemy it's it loves its enemies that's actually how many wars even start like that you you demonize an entire group of people make them into an enemy and then you feel a much stronger sense of identity another identity is from Collective is for people to identify even with a gendered male or female I'm not sure gender has become a problematic thing I'll put that aside for a moment let's just say there's male and
female and and in in older in older cultures or under is still in some cultures now an important part for a person's identity is actually their gender if they are male for example they male that becomes a very important part of that conceptual sense of self because what it is implied that male is automatically Superior to female so you already have 50% you already you can you can be a very stupid man but you have superiority over 50% of the population that is female no matter how stupid you are you're M you're a man in
in some countries that still operates more or less so I'm man and in some countries also females are put are conditioned to identify with and act out a particular way of Behaving and speaking female that's they don't know it's totally condition is part of their identity so I've been talking about uh the ego the human ego one could talk who thought for hours but I won't go on and on you you're all familiar with the ego because at some point before you went through a spiritual awakening you also had an ego so cons it all
comes back to conceptual identity is that who I am is that all there is to me or is there maybe a dimension to who I am am that I have never known I'm not aware of at all is there more or am I just this this ego entity the the eye and that's why we are here we need to part of Awakening to this Dimension that exists in every human being the possibility of realiz izing that there is in you the potential of a deeper dimension of Consciousness in every human and the discovery of this
deeper dimension of Consciousness in every human is the most important part of your life Journey here on this planet
