hi welcome to my channel my name is amanda dillinger this is my buddy watson and this is his friend sharkey anyway it's been a long day we just got back from visiting the psychologist where my kids both got diagnosed with autism spectrum disorders uh sensory processing disorder adhd and generalized anxiety disorder so yeah about to take in i will link dr service's uh youtube channel and his website down below he's been amazing to work with and i'm going to be calling in the morning to get an evaluation done on myself which he did suggest could
be a possibility for me to also be on the spectrum just something i suspected but this video is about authenticia and dreams so authentication what is it authenticia is the inability to visualize in your mind's eye cannot see images in my mind that i'm just trying to think about and create i only see what is right in front of me and when i close my eyes it is black it's dark there's no textures shapes or images so in my dms on my instagram which is i am mind blind on instagram yesterday and this morning actually
for some reason i got a lot of questions about dreaming and i'm fantasia so i figured i would do a long format video on that so short answer yes i do dream so i don't remember all my dreams but i feel like a lot of visualizers sometimes don't remember all of their dreams either there are times where i will remember a dream but not know if i visualized in the dream and only about two times in the last several months or so do i actually remember both streaming and having a visual in the dream um
the two dreams one i was dreaming and a family member was very vivid in the dream um the second time my pet watson who's no longer sitting with me was in my dream and i could visualize them and what happens is that kind of moment between sleep and awake when you're in my conscious that's the only time when i'm aware if i am visualizing so as i'm starting to wake up but i'm still sort of asleep uh in the two times that i remember i could see the image of the person or the pet and
as i became more and more awake it was actually really very cool to see that image when it wasn't there it's not an experience i ever really get to experience in daily life and i get really excited which wakes me up and then as soon as i'm all the way awake the image is gone so my generation or might remember the old tvs that when you turned off the tube the tuba tvs they were big they weren't thin they were big tubes the image would shrink down to nothing so you know the screen would be
full and then it shrank down that's kind of the experience that i felt uh both times when i had the visual in my mind i could see the pet as soon as i woke up it was like the image just shrank in on itself and disappeared so i'm not a scientist or a medical doctor or anything but from my understanding the space in your brain that for dreaming and the space for awake visualization are two different spaces so that's why a lot of people with authenticia can actually dream and visualize in their dreams i'm curious
if you have authenticia what is your dreaming experience like do you remember if you visualize in your dreams and do you do it often um i've heard you know some people without fantasia don't report dreaming with visuals but again i don't know if it's do they not remember because i've only remembered it doing it twice and like i would say the last year or so um i'm sure i've done it more but i just don't remember my dreams a lot of times when i wake up so that is you know my experience with dreaming um
but i do know that there are a lot of times where i do dream and i just don't know if i visualize or not when i wake up i remember the content of the dream but i don't know if there's any visuals with it anyway i hope you found this really interesting i would encourage you to subscribe to my channel i'm going to be talking a lot about authentication my memory disorder sdam and my personal journey to getting an autistic diagnosis as an adult if that's what it ends up being i appreciate you for watching
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