who is that was your husband soon as he's working late again tough job running that whole department not that tough whatever you're doing stop right now what has happened between you and your father what do you mean but so angry at him ever since you came home no I mean there's some stuff that well I mean it doesn't have anything to do with you soon he's all you'll have please mom no you stop he's gonna need you you're gonna need each other my god you used to be so close what it to your soul like
please don't say that why because he's not perfect because he's not the man you thought he was I can't talk about this I want you to sit down here I want to talk to you sit there now you listen to me because I'm only gonna say this once and I probably shouldn't say it at all there is nothing that you know about your father that I don't know nothing and understand better okay you make concessions when you're married a long time but you don't believe you make when you're beginning when you're young you say oh
I'll never tolerate this or that or the other thing but time goes by darling then when you've slept together a thousand nights and you've smelled like spit up from the babies when they're sick and you've seen your body droop and get soft and some nights you just think oh god I'm not gonna put up with it another minute but you wake up in the next morning and the kitchen smells like coffee and the kids have their hair brushed all by themselves and you look at your husband and know he's not the person you thought he
was but he's your life and the kids in the house and everything that you do is built around him and that's your life that's your history too and if you take him out that's like cutting his face out of all the pictures it just makes a big a hole and it wins everything you can be hard on and you can be very judgmental and with those two things alone you're gonna make such a mess out of your life you wouldn't believe and I want to be able to tell you these things in ten years and
when I think how most of what you learned so far came from your dad it just it hurts my heart to think how little I have gotten I want to talk you let me talk now let me talk your dad won't let me talk because he says I'll upset myself and you won't let me toggle mom please don't talk Brian's the only one who lets me talk he's never here I want to talk before I die I do I want to be able to say the things I want to say the deep thoughts without you
me because what I say hurts you tire beans just want to say I already said everything I want to say except I'm sad I'm sad that I won't be able to plan your wedding so promise me that you won't have a ring bearer or a flower girl because those kids always just misbehave and then they distract from the bride and don't invite too many people get married so whatever if I knew that you would be happy I would close my eyes now I would it's so much easier to be happy my love it's so much
easier to choose to love the things that you have and you have so much instead of always yearning for what you're missing or what it is you're imagining you're missing so much more peaceful
