yo pornography ruined my life at one time I was actually addicted to pornography I was introduced to pornography at a very early age and I am going to be as transparent as possible with you guys because that's how it should be all this fabrication and faking that people went through things or speaking about things they don't know about I don't really subscribe to that I don't like that you know what I'm saying people do all this research and then jump cut and then get on here and talk about stuff they never experienced I don't subscribe
to that well um when I was in high school I think the peak of it was like my 10th grade year I was addicted bad and it ruined many different aspects of my life I didn't really have the confidence to talk to girls in person I didn't really have the mental Clarity to focus on things other than lustful activities and lustful thoughts um sometimes I would e even avoid being around my family just so I could get in the back room and do the deed and it was disgusting I felt like a shell of a
person I was always disgusted with myself I always regretted it and it was just a cheap Outlet to just degeneracy and it felt even worse when you released all these hormones and did all these things but you were still Alone um I didn't have anyone to call mine I'm young like you know what I'm say saying but it was just it was a disgustful or disgusting period of time and it was bad man I would I would go to school and these girls certain girls would flirt with me and I would go on on the
Hub and find someone that looked identical to him like you could literally find anything you want on there it's it's pretty crazy the um access you have on the internet and it's it's dangerous but it got bad man it was almost like every day I was getting it in and I I noticed a difference in my physical health now always been in shape but I'm telling you bro I used to work out so much but I would also release so much my gains never change now yes I made some some increases and I was growing
too as a young male but when I stopped bro I didn't have to work out nearly as much and retain muscle and all this stuff but it got to the point where I was just so disgusted with myself and iend up I stumbled on a video I wish I could remember so I could shout out to whoever it was but I seen the concept of seing retention and then I heard something about Mike Tyson doing it and this and that so I wanted to try it out two days went by I relapse I went like
a day after that relapsed again then after that I went a week relapsed again after that I went like two weeks without um you know releasing and I relapsed again and then after that I went on a eight Monon stretch without releasing and when I did it was not you know with my hand and man in that period of time people look it's not a superpower to retain and all this stuff it eventually it can be but it's not going to make you glow it's not it's the it's it's the byproduct of doing those things
conquering yourself that's what I like to call it when you conquer yourself you conquer Your Lust when you conquer your desires That's What Makes You glow that that energy that's was with inside of you you know what I'm saying people not just going to walk to you're retaining you know maybe now since it's such a a talked about theme but they going to be like man it's just something about you man or you know what I'm saying even if they don't you feel better about yourself when you learn to control your desires and not dig
into that life but um over the course of those eight months especially after that first few weeks and the first months and stuff those desires started to lessen right and I began to conquer myself and I instead of being so bored and staying up at 3:00 at night and you know finding an activity to help me out I start filling my time in with more meaningful things even just playing the game sometimes I just feel in that space get so busy to where you don't have time to be distracted to where you don't have time
to touch it you know what I mean when you get tired lay down put the phone away but over the course of those eight months I felt like a superhero um one of the things that helped me out was deleting the distractions it's hard to get distracted if there's no distractions any girls I would see that was half naked on Snapchat Instagram I would unfollow them delete them and still to this day I have accounts that um were on my social medias that I didn't even know how they got there some people buy out meme
accounts and turn them into explicit content Pages cuz they know they trap a lot of Mind vulnerable minds and I've had relationship issues about this thing I'm like look I've been in that place before I'm not going back there so you're not going to tell me that I'm some lustful human being and I'm conquered by lust around the earth because cuz I was that at one point in time and I hated that I was disgusted by that and I took the shadowy path to go conquer myself and go through that right so I'm not lying
to you by telling you I don't indulge in these things I'm being truthful I went like I was disgusted I hated myself for those things you understand what I'm saying it was disgusting disgusting to me and I hated it so I decided to make a change and like I said over the course of those months it was just bro life changing I I gained more confidence in that time I actually created an ultimate ego called HBK Manon that had confidence he uh had conversation skills he was able to talk to girls and you know he
stopped touching himself and all this stuff I'm if I'm going to release it ain't going to be by me like you know what I'm saying I'm just telling myself all these little things creating all these little nuances and it actually worked and it got to the point where I truly just stop Desiring any of that right now what you can run into is when you stop the desires may come you know more intense the pleasure in doing you know the real thing the real deed it becomes more pleasurable but you just have to find a
balance man eliminate those distractions just resist it man choose not to do it a lot of of us get addicted and we think it's no way out and we think it's too hard to quit all these things but the easiest part is just deciding not to quit or the hardest part is deciding not to quit or deciding to quit if you're addicted decide to not be addicted decide to quit drugs decide to quit porn that's what you need to do but instead we go man I just can't man it's like I'm I'm too you know
I'm too deep in I I can't stop now you have to change your mindset become my my philosophy in life or one of them is become disgusted in what's not good for you if that's keeping around people if that's watching pornography if that's doing this doing that become disgusted in it right when your mom tried to give you that nasty medicine what you do nasty that's how it should be for your life right porn following all these girls dming all these girls just caving into this lust we scrolling on Tik Tock they got accounts bro
it's insane they literally are manip ulating the male mind it's nothing wrong with looking at a girl it's nothing wrong with being attracted to a girl but what the problem is is you allowing your natural ability your natural instinct to be taken over and used against you like you're not supposed to be horny all the time you're not supposed to be you know what I'm saying this big ball of horniness all the time but social media is overly saturated with women who are chiseled by the God's you have to choose to remove yourself from that
you have to choose to stop liking those videos and start training your algorithms to show you things that matter scrolling on social media and all this stuff is already bad enough but you going to just add fuel to the fire that's why it takes accountability I know the title may be misleading pornography ruined my life but I ruined my life through pornography I ruined my life through lust I chose to change right I'm no longer addicted I like I said I'm I've been out of high school for x amount of years right I'm 20 by
the way but it was like my S my my freshman and sophomore year I was heavily addicted to that stuff and I quit and I would Advocate to my friends and you know people I was close to or came across like yo you ever you know what I'm saying you have any problems with this and I would advocate for it and try to help people because I know what it did for me and and I noticed when I see dudes or not confident and I man yo I had to I had to get one off
and it's like yo it it's more to life bro it's more to life now what I will Advocate on I would much rather you uh you know do it yourself then you go make a crazy decision and go touch something that you wouldn't touch with a 10-ft pole or to go touch something that may leave you with you know a STD a sexually transmitted disease or a sexually transmitted demon I would much rather you do that that's where balance comes in um I'm not going to ever advocate for watching porn um touching yourself is is
kind of iffy when it comes to balance cuz sometimes you you know it's best to get things you know released but there should always be a balance in everything you do you understand what I'm saying but the journey with seing retention maybe it is unbalanced because you have so many things you have to break away from you have to just shut down and go celibate celan is not some type of gold it's a lifestyle so you can't really dig in and now you have to go and turn this thing into a lifestyle you know quitting
until you can reap those benefits and then you can control the you know the flow of whatever but you know I probably went all over the world to make this video but I just wanted to help somebody out man let you know man if you're addicted man just realize that you're addicted don't deny it and um just embracing your mind that you want to quit and you will don't talk about how hard it is just quit bro go cold turkey go cold turkey resist it block it on your phone do something put your phone down
at night I don't know but you're not alone man and it's a way out it's it's it it can really mess up your mind it can mess up relationships and things like that but if it's a way in it's always a way out man it may be harder to get out but it is what it is bro but I'm Shaman Davis if you're new welcome to the tribe I appreciate y'all for watching and um if you need any help man hit me up man I'll see you on the next one
