I went down to the big climbing tree in Harpers woods I didn't admit it to myself until years later but in my mind was the shadow of a thought that Winnie might be there [Music] she was sort of hugging herself and rocking slowly back and forth there was a bit of a chill in the air and she didn't have a sweater for a minute I was scared to approach her [Music] I didn't know what to say I had the strangest feeling it was impossible for me to believe Brian was dead about Brian and I'm sorry
oh and I said today wasn't sure [Music] can't even it was the first kiss for both of us we never really talked about it afterward but I think about the events of that day again and again and somehow I know that when he does to whenever some blowhard starts talking about the anonymity of the suburbs the mindlessness of the TV generation because we know that inside each one of those identical boxes is it's Dodge parked out front and it's white bread on the table and it's TV set glowing blue in the falling dusk there were
people with stories there were families bound together in the pain and the struggle of love there were moments that made us cry with laughter and there were moments like that one of sorrow and Wonder [Music] when when he got back from her uncle's we went for a walk in the park neither of us said a word about it of course but we both knew that the park was where you went to make out [Music] as we approach the baseball field I started to sweat nearing first base second base third [Music] I didn't know what to
do our first kiss had happened so naturally I couldn't even remember how I did it did I did I breathe through my mouth or my nose oh I had to make some kind of move [Music] there was a bug on you oh thanks some move well there was no turning back now we were here so what do you want to do I don't know what do you want to do I don't know what do you want to do I don't know if you something to play with [Music] my time the moment stretched out so unbearably
I thought we'd both explode it was clear we were both stalling we knew what we were here to do we both wanted it one of us just had to come out and say it I wanna go on the swings [Music] yeah sure and in the end that's as far as Winnie and I went that day maybe we both felt we'd already come too far too fast maybe we both realize that growing up doesn't have to be so much a straight line as a series of advances and retreats maybe we just felt like swinging but whatever
it was Winnie and I made an unspoken pact that day to stay kids for a little while longer it was all so unfair I mean this guy already had everything [Music] and now he had my Winnie I wasn't gonna just stand idly by it was time to do what any hot-blooded 12-year old guy would have done if you were in my shoes one dance try to make Winnie as seriously jealous as I was the key would be to appear like I was having the time of my life and dance as I had never danced before
[Music] apparently when he was playing the same game [Music] what are you calling [Music] it all made sense at the time this would be the moment when Winnie's eyes met mine across the dance floor and we both realized that we were really meant to be dancing with each other [Music] excuse me I'm just gonna go outside first [Music] sitting alone outside the school I kept wondering what it would have been like if I had asked when he first had I meant anything at all to her how could she have forgotten me so quickly please don't
be upset with me master I only wish to please you well you can't blame a guy for dreaming but really I knew that I'd already blown it first I had forgotten about Winnie now she'd forgotten about me I guess it was only fair what are you doing out here nothing what are you doing out here do you like him it's nice honey can I ask you one more thing [Music] [Music] and so when he and I had our one slow dance after all but things wouldn't be the same between us we were getting older and
whether we wanted it or not the Lisa burly knees and the Kirk McRae's for changing us by the minute all we could do was close our eyes and wish that the slow song never end [Music] I don't stop [Music]
