Full Story: My Best Friend Tried Taking Her Life, and I Don't Care

my ex-best friend attempted to take her life after I caught her fooling around with my boyfriend and I couldn't care less I haven't reached out she slept with my boyfriend behind my back we're both 20f and we've been friends since reception four to 5 years old UK thing she was my sister my rock and we stood by each other through everything when my parents divorced she was there to offer a shoulder for me to cry on when her grandmother died I was there keeping her afloat throughout High School I've been dating my boyfriend 21m for

about 3 years we started dating in six form a version of college and he was my first serious relationship I introduced him to my family he was many of my firsts he was sweet a little awkward being a gamer guy but he treated me to date nights and always made me feel special maybe this is me being young and dumb but I thought I'd marry this guy someday this was something I told my best friend well about a month ago while my boyfriend was in the shower I saw a text notification pop up on his

phone we look at each other's notifications all the time so I grabbed his phone to see it it was from her asking if they were still on for tonight and if she should wear his favorite dress he told me he was hanging out with friends and going drinking him going drinking with friends wasn't unusual so I never thought anything of it but in hindsight I wonder how much of him going out was with friends and how much of it was going out with her I saved screenshots of their conversations I sent them to myself I

show him the messages when he came out of the bathroom and demanded he explained himself about them I couldn't contain how upset and angry and hurt I was an argument ensued where I told him he was disgusting and I left his place shortly after arriving home I started getting bombarded with calls and texts from my best friend I answer none of her calls I couldn't stomach hearing her voice but her text ranged from she never meant to hurt me my boyfriend hit on her first it didn't mean anything then it got angry saying I should

hear her out if I was a real friend I would take her calls I'm being petty and childish for not listening to her side then back to sad saying I was her closest friend in the world and she didn't want to lose me my boyfriend was strangely quiet during this time after a few days I got myself together enough to send them both messages maybe it was cowardly but I didn't have the strength to call them I told my now ex-boyfriend that we were done and I won't give cheaters any chances with me he responded

by trying to call me but after the third or fourth attempt he gave up he sent me a final message saying it wasn't that big of a deal that they just fooled around but agreeing he didn't want to date me anymore my ex-best friend was more persistent after I told her I wanted nothing to do with her day after day I get messages and calls from her demanding to talk demanding we resolve this demanding I not say anything to anyone saying she stopped seeing him saying she'll un alive herself if I don't talk to her

really messed up crap I ended up confiding to a mutual friend about what was going on because I was seriously beginning to wonder if I was being a jerk this friend reassured me that my feelings were Justified however I wasn't expecting this friend to spread around what happened the gossip spread like wildfire and a few days ago my ex- best friend tried to take her life I said nothing I haven't visited her in the hospital I haven't sent any messages to her family thank now her older sister keeps messaging me telling me I'm a heartless

speech for leaving her at her lowest for not trying to prevent this and that everyone makes mistakes and that her sister didn't intentional hurt me maybe it does make me a heartless spee but I don't care I'm relieved she survived but I'll never forgive her I'll never forgive her betrayal she destroyed our friendship when she slept with my boyfriend update one month later hey again it's been a while first I want to thank everyone for all of their comments and support in hindsight I know now I wasn't being a beach but in the moment when

I was being bombarded by texts and calls from her family it's hard not to let those thoughts mess with your head I didn't know if I was going to post an update but some things have happened so this might get a little long sorry than you two fake names X BFF is Nikki her older sister is Tammy my ex-boyfriend is Josh I'll name anyone relevant as I go mentioned in a comment that my mom wanted to speak to me later that day I had a few replies warning me that she would try to pressure me

into forgiving Nikki and they were right she came over to my dad's that evening and wanted a conversation in private she asked if I'd spoken to Nikki yet I said no she asked if I was going to I said no I was trying to be as firm as possible because I knew what she was about to do she asked don't you think you should my response was no I don't see why I should I sent her a final message almost a month ago this is where things began to really go south in the conversation mom

love she's in the hospital right now she needs all the support she can get you're meant to be her friend I didn't even know about her condition until her mother called me than really I meant to be her friend after she slept with Josh behind my back I didn't say anything about her because I didn't want to talk about her mom are you really going on about a silly Grudge I understand she hurt you but she's hurting so much more right now love thanks she's hurting mom yes you both are I raised you to be

a kind forgiving person why can't you forgive her me what like how Dad should have forgiven you this wasn't my finest moment I didn't bring it up before because it wasn't relevant but the reason why my parents divorce was due to infidelity on Mom's end and it wasn't only a onetime thing not that it matters even if it had been but my mom always believed Dad should have just forgiven her I admit this was a low blow from me and the conversation spiraled into an argument from there with both of us saying some not so

kind things to each other eventually I decided the conversation was over because we were just going around in circles and heading into yelling territory so I told her to leave and I'll try talking to her again when we've both calmed down when she was leaving she said this I hope you're not as cruel as your father I'm typically not an angry person but this infuriated and hurt me I lived 50/50 between my parents they both made sure I had everything I could need or want but she felt her situation and struggles were undeserved dad never

helped with bills or payments that didn't involve me she expected more cheaters always do I didn't say anything when she left I just blocked her number and social media accounts and cried she cared more about the girl who had hurt her daughter than said daughter she realized pretty quick what had happened and came back the next day but Dad told her I didn't want to talk to her true and she had to leave it took maybe half an hour before she finally left the new few days she kept trying to reach me through other people

but I stayed silent the Friday after my post I decided I felt calm enough to talk to her and unblocked her we spoke over the phone which wasn't as exciting as above basically it was her apologizing and telling me she was wrong for trying to force me to forgive Nikki that she'll respect my decision but tried to suggest I think about it I very firmly told her I was not forgiving Nikki she just said okay things didn't really feel the same with us I couldn't bring myself to be as chatty with her as I was

before and it didn't help that she kept giving me updates about Nikki the first time she did it she told me Nikki had been put on a 72-hour psych hold assessed and eventually released I told her I didn't want any updates on Nikki's situation I won't stop her from checking in but I didn't want to be involved she complained and said she thought I'd want to visit her but I threatened to block her again if she kept pushing and she shut up nothing was mentioned about Nikki for a couple of weeks before Mom again broke

my boundary and brought her up telling me about how Josh had stopped talking to her and how Nikki needed a shoulder to cry on I again told her I didn't want to know and this was her last chance not to bring her up or I would cut her from my life for good she complained again but eventually promised it wouldn't happen again maybe I should have learned from my mistakes because I know my mother she doesn't take no for an answer it was really quiet for a while my friends and I had all basically carried

on from what happened and even though I know a couple of them still occasionally talk to Nikki they never bring her up around me or tell her how I'm doing I hope I thought I could finally close this chapter on my life but nope today my mother called me and asked if I wanted to get lunch I hadn't seen her in a while so what was the harm I head to the weather spoons we plan to eat at and who do I find sitting with my mom Nikki and her sister Tammy as soon as Nikki

sees me she gets up and tries to hug me but I just raise a hand and take a step back and this girl has the audacity to look upset mom immediately knows she's messed up because she's scrambling with all of the excuses it hurts to see you two follow apart like this you were so close I thought you'd forgive her by now and my favorite she made a mistake she misses you during this time Nikki has been quiet and I can see tamy glaring at me I'm just so freaking angry and upset I honestly didn't

think she'd pull something like this I wanted to leave and cry I looked at Nikki and said for someone who's made a mistake she sure hasn't apologized for it yet she had this guilty look on her face and muttered something about me having her blocked and having no way to I said is that really all you have to say and she just looked at me confused I was done I turned to leave and her sister started yelling after me saying that I owed Nikki a second chance with all the trauma I put her through while

Nikki was begging me to just listen to her and talk to her I told them all to f off and never contact me again and left I managed to get out of there before Tammy started a fight and went home where I sent my mom a text a while ago telling her she'd better lose my number because she no longer has a spot in my life then I blocked her and just C my dad's been doing his best to comfort me but it just hurts so bad that my own mother did this to me so

that's where things are at right now I'll update if anything else happens but this whole situation really freaking sucks new update 16 months later hey there everyone I'm the girl who made my ex-best friend attempted to take her life posts I didn't think labeling this posts like that really fit I first want to apologize for taking so long to give you an update and to also thank you for your kind words I've not been able to reply to many messages and I've had a lot but I've taken the time to read through every single one

I appreciate every single one of you this Christmas has been amazing I spent it with my family with my dad I I went out boxing day night with my friends to party hard and regretted harder the following day I'm in a much better place than I was back in December 2023 that's kind of why I struggled to give you all an update because around Christmas and New Year of 2023 I was not in a good place I really needed to focus on myself and work on getting myself in a better place as of January 2024

I've been no contact with my mother unfortunately I've seen her since then and I've done my best to avoid talking to her on the three occasions I've had to be in the same place as her not out of choice mind you but it is what it is during Christmas 2023 she had expected that I was spending it with her and her side of the family given the events at that time this was obviously not happening in my dad told her as much she lost her mind she refused to take no as an answer leading up

to Christmas to the point dad and I left for my paternal aunt's house on Christmas Eve to spend the night there according to a neighbor my birthgiver showed up pretty early in the morning to catch us leaving but was I rate to learn we already weren't there thankfully my aunt had moved house quite recently so my mother didn't know the new address but we came home to Parcels completely destroyed on our porch the following boxing day there was even a Christmas card labeled to me but inside was a horrible letter from my mother describing me

as the worst daughter on the planet that honestly destroyed me and I spent New Years a mess it's difficult cutting off your own mother I spent half of January of 2024 trying to fix things with her but it came to a head when I realized I was the only one forced to compromise I finally cut off contact and it's been that way since there's been more between then and now but I think those are incidents I'll post on my Reddit page or in the comments of this supposed to prevent it from getting too long in

terms of Nikki I've heard she's doing better we've not spoken since my mother's lunch Escapade but she's found a job and according to a mutual friend found a new Circle despite everything that she's put me through I'm happy for her it's almost 2: a.m. here in the UK so if I suddenly stop responding to comments I fallen asleep