so in this job you look you you're looking for cockroaches looking for rodents and stuff like that and this next morning or this next night I went to work and I hit the I don't like cockroaches too much I hit the motherload of cockroaches and this restaurant got full of cockroaches and rodents and everything else and I sat there and said this is my life I said this is my life you are exactly who the [ __ ] this is it and I said this ain't going to be it for me so in that restaurant
I quit my job left my canister in that restaurant my my spray canister got back in my Ecolab truck and I went home and I started working out like somebody I was I became the most obsessed person on the planet Earth and I was basically I had to invent a guy that didn't exist I had to invent a guy that can take any pain any suffering any kind of judgment be called [ __ ] be called whatever the [ __ ] in the world and be able to stand in the [ __ ] room and
said go [ __ ] yourself I had to buil I had to build this callous mind and I built it through suffering I built it through downright [ __ ] just crushing myself if if it was raining outside 3:00 in the [ __ ] morning if it was snowing the first instinct is don't go out there and do [ __ ] my instinct was we got to [ __ ] go out there anything that was [ __ ] horrible in my life that I would normally say no that was inhumane to most people I had
to go do it and I started chalice in my mind at this point in my life I don't really want to work out I work out I I really don't want to hammer on a project I hammer on the project don't really want to get up and get out of bed yeah I get up and get out of bed now these could be signals that you need some time off and those signals might be right they could be correct but don't take today off not today wait until tomorrow don't don't give in to the immediate
gratification that is whispering in your ear shut that down do not listen to that little voice instead go Through the Motions lift the weights Sprint the hill work on the project get out of bed if you didn't withdraw in fear from anything that that from everything that life threw at you who could you become and I would say that's the central religious question and some real deep sense you are more things thrown at us than we can manage well that's a tricky question because pretty Dreadful things are thrown our way and you might say well
that's just presents an insuperable barrier to progress that's not very helpful cuz you're alive here you are you got these problems to contend with and if it's an impossible task then how could you be anything but hopeless and desperate but then you think well wait a second how would things transform if I took this on as a voluntary adventure to get through where I became to get through where I'm at now there's nothing but Pride I have for myself that I can't really I can't really show people cuz I have this face I have this
face that they see like are you happy what's wrong with you I'm driven I'm obsessed and that's what you see that's it people need to hear the story this is a this is an exciting story for people because there's a lot of people out there that feel trapped and they feel stuck and they feel like they can't do anything this is who they they are you're a guy who felt that exact same way but figured out how to not be that person and be a person that you would admire how did you what were the
first steps like you had some slips before right because you you quit because of the water thing but then when you went back the second time and you decided you're going to lose all that weight and you quit that job did did you was it just straight forward from there or whether it some days where you just failed and then you picked it back up again so my first run when I decided to lose the weight I was like I said 297 I was about 32% body fat and I went my idea was to run
four miles for my first run I didn't know how bad it's going to [ __ ] hurt me I used to run before I was fat and I was like [ __ ] it I can do this I ran a quarter mile and walked home I walked home sat on my couch and cried I went to my mom's house who was about 40 about maybe 20 minutes down the road and cried and get in her couch say man I can't [ __ ] do this [ __ ] I I don't know what I'm going to
do I uh just got somebody pregnant my life was just [ __ ] I was making $1,000 a month my rent was $810 a month and my mind just kept [ __ ] with me and kept [ __ ] you're not good enough man this isn't for you man these guys are the bad [ __ ] on the planet Earth you're not that and um what it was and it's kind of funny I was obsessed with rocky rocky won in particular and when I was a kid I come home every day and I watch this
[ __ ] show Rocky and I would fast forward with the little VHS tapes to round 14 Round 14 [ __ ] me up like nobody's business why the song came on so when I broke the pull-up record I listened to the song for 17 hours it's 2 minutes and 13 seconds and I'm able to visualize and dream like nobody's business and I know that I can create a vision that many people can't and I work for it so the vision I had was when Apollo cre beat the [ __ ] [ __ ] out
of Rocky beat the [ __ ] out of him he kept fighting he was a dumb fighter couldn't read couldn't [ __ ] that was me couldn't read Couldn't Write just Punchy everything about him and Rocky beat the or Apollo beat the [ __ ] out him he was in that corner everybody was saying stay the [ __ ] down and him getting up him getting up Apollo cre raised his arms up in the [ __ ] air turn around thought he won the fight he turns around and sees this guy getting up and it
was the face of Apollo Creed that changed my life the face of Apollo Creed it was like just by that [ __ ] getting up not winning just by him getting the [ __ ] up Apollo cre was he was champ he was the best Rocky had taken his soul had literally taken his soul his his head goes down he looks at him like who what the [ __ ] are you I wanted it to be that not Rocky I want to be the guy that people looked at I don't care if you liked me
or didn't like I don't care but said this mother [ __ ] is going to keep coming after whatever the [ __ ] is in front of him I wanted that I wanted that I wanted that worse than anything in the [Music] world
