it was 2018 I was 15 years old and I was in my room as always playing my favorite game on the PlayStation 4 it was called OverWatch and I was playing with a particular somebody in my PlayStation party that night and it was a girl let's call this girl Jessica now Jessica was unbelievably attractive if I were to look at her right now I'd genuinely say she was a 10 out of 10 stunning and we somehow actually met each other on on this game and guess what I would talk to her pretty much every single
day I would wake up and as soon as I woke up I would check my phone send her a good morning text and she would want and she would send one back it was amazing at the time I was genuinely so shocked that she was talking to me because she was genuinely a very nice person as well on top of being super attractive and I will I wasn't let's just be real I wasn't the most attractive looking guy it felt like a dream that came true because for most of my life I mean I grew
up a very lonely kid I grew up in a household where I had two older brothers one mom and one dad and the age gap between me and my brothers were really wide which meant it felt like I had three dads at times you know and I never really could properly connect to anyone in the house and I was always through shy to socialize two other kids and make friends I was super super lonely on top of that you'd imagine you know no girl was obviously ever into me throughout these 15 years of my life
I mean that was obvious just look at the way I looked who would be into this and of course the cherry on top I'd be addicted to right I'd be addicted to it I would watch it every single day beat my you know the drill however when this girl came into my life it felt like I just saw the light it as clear as cringe as that sounds it felt like I could actually show my true colors for once in my life and I was actually genuinely happy and guess what the amount of I would
watch during this time when I was speaking to this girl Jessica it was so minimal it went from every single day down to you know maybe once a week and that was an insane Improvement for me and the cherry on top of all of this guys was the fact that she own only lived 15 minutes away from me unreal it felt like everything was just connecting together for me and our connection kept on deepening to the point where one day he actually asked me whether or not I was Keen to go watch a movie with
her I think it was um Ready Player one and I was so nervous but you know of course I had to say yes right and everything felt like it was going perfectly until a few days before before we were planning to meet up I was on the game again OverWatch and I was in a PlayStation party but this time it was with my other friends that I used to play with and as soon as I told these guys that I was going to go meet up with Jessica right because we all we're all in a
very tight-knit Community right everyone knows each other in this OverWatch playing Community when I told them that I was going to go meet up with this girl guess what they did they immediately told me that she's a bad person you shouldn't go meet up with her she's a and guess what I believed them I believed these jealous [ __ ] she wasn't like that at all but I believed them cuz I was a naive and immature little kid and because of this I decided to treat her badly I'd ignore her I'd ghost her for a
little bit and obviously you know she' ask what was wrong and I would just ignore that and just act like a complete [ __ ] right and eventually she had enough and told me to [ __ ] off like she she literally said [ __ ] you to me and um fuing voice crack not the right time the voice crack bro we stopped speaking after that one right and the thing is I was 15 and dumb and I didn't realize the insurmountable mistake that I had made until let's say about a month passed and I
realized that the amount of I was watching per week doubled no it tripled quadruple even I was watching it multiple times a day at times because the intimacy I had with Jessica was gone and I was finding a place to kind of fulfill that void I was feeling right and I just did it through watching multiple times a day because that's the only place where I felt like I had love the same exact [ __ ] going on for 3 years straight and I was 18 years old now my final year of high school in
fact I just finished high school but the the the thing was I was the exact same person nothing at all changed I was still a boy on the inside and by this point you know I'd sort of forgotten about Jessica you know every now and then I'd have a thought about her you know but it it would just go away right until one day I was playing this game called Dark Souls 3 one of my favorite games of all time by the way and I just had a thought about Jessica and I did something that
no one should ever do in their entire lives and it's check old messages and so I'm just scrolling up our texts on Instagram just reading through them like an idiot just um Reminiscing on the good old days and this made me so unbelievably depressed you have no idea but 3 years it just felt like I completely forgot what that feeling of being intimate with a girl was like me losing an absolute gem it'll hit me now 3 years later and I just felt so so bad after that so so bad and you thought my bad
before but it got worse off to this point because now instead of socializing and getting myself out there to go and speak to more girls I would I would watch even more to kind of keep me in this satisfactory Zone because I don't have to talk to women when I can just you know watch this stuff right and my brain during this point filled with so much lust and just desire to you know the bad desires right it just got filled up with that negativity and I was just in the mindset of I'm just going
to wait for the perfect girl to come to me like I always have right but let's let's be real [ __ ] what girl was going to come to me I wasn't improving myself at all my physical appearance was down the drain the next few days after this point I would watch so much to the point where my my would hurt like I do it three four times a day to the point where I wouldn't like I would nothing would come out bro and now this is where things get a lot more shameful for me
than it already was maybe about a month later later it was around 600 p.m. and I was about to go walk my dog around the neighborhood and this was like the only exercise I got during the day and I was forced to do it as well and as I'm putting the leash on my dog getting ready to go for this walk I hear a beep from my phone and I check my phone right and just to see that I've got a new follower on Instagram or someone requested to follow my Instagram account the name was
it was like a girl's name now first of all I was really shocked that a girl actually followed me first for once because that was not happening for me right and I looked at our profile we had no mutuals okay and this was a very attractive Asian girl and it seemed like she was from a different country but you know obviously me right without even being any form of suspicious this wasn't sus at all I just went and accepted her follow request and requested to follow her back let's say 30 minutes after I'm in the
middle of my walk still and I get another beep a notification saying that she's accepted my follow request and she sent me a message hey I'm so sorry to you know follow you out of nowhere but I just thought you were really handsome bro the smile that lit up on my face when I read that and so we just started texting for a few days I was building this connection with this new girl right and I asked her where she's from and she says Oakland which is where from I'm I'm from Oakland what the [
__ ] and again I just felt like the luckiest guy in the world she's quite literally perfect like she's attractive as ho she's nice she listens to my problems I listen to her problems and we've been texting for maybe a week at this point right and guess what the amount of I'd watch it dropped again because I was feeling the same intimacy I felt with this girl like I did with Jessica and everything was going so well that one day it was 8:00 p.m. and I was chatting with her like I usually would every single
day and I just had a thought in my brain you know I should probably ask her on a date cuz I don't want to lose this girl you know like I did with all the other girls I should probably ask her on this date and so I asked her hey we should watch a movie or something sometime and you won't believe what she did she kind of just ignored my message and said this I'm feeling a little bit weird right now and I asked her what's up and she said I'm what the and just like
that my heart it sunk to the floor right and I just got that instant lust feeling inside my brain like that same feeling you get when you you whip out your favorite video and I just completely forgot that I even asked her that question before and I just said me too and then you wouldn't believe this but but she said let's voice call and my heart dropped even further like down to my balls bro I was so nervous but I was also so excited and just filled with lust and I had to say yes just
a quick break I'm so sorry to disturb you but if you really are enjoying the story I'd really appreciate it if you press the Subscribe button cuz it does help me out a lot so thank you so much for that and I straight away ran inside my room locked the door closed the windows and sat on my bed waiting for her to call me and I was so nervous but she ends up calling me and I answer the phone and there she was holy [ __ ] she is so cute and my nervous ass was
like hi hi hi and you know she says hi back and we start having a little conversation right it was so so awkward though and my heart is beating out of my chest so hard I'm mumbling all my words because honestly I was not sure what was going to happen like is she going to you know is she going to do something is she going to or [ __ ] I don't know measure herself cuz she said she was you know the HW before and as soon as some words came out of her mouth right
I realized that she couldn't actually speak very good English it was like she wasn't even from the country like I suspected before but right before I was going to ask that question she starts tripping and I completely for get about even asking that because I'm Eyes Wide Open just flabbergasted and by this point bro I have the the the hardest hard on I've ever gone in my entire life I was not only very excited but very confused as well like what is going on bro this is 50 times better than any video that I've ever
watched and then she says this take off your and show me your you know my dingdong my brain just turned off it literally just it turned off because in my mind this was the greatest form of intimacy that I have ever gotten in my entire life because again prior to this it was just watching it on my phone I was obviously a virgin up to this point pretty much I was so turned on that I couldn't think straight at all and I did the worst thing imaginable this is going to sound really funny but I
assure you bro what I did was not funny but pretty much I I did exactly what she said I pulled down my and I started chalking my of the camera can't make this [ __ ] up I wouldn't lie and say I wasn't enjoying it you know this I was enjoying it you know hering herself to me chalking my stroking my you know it was it was a nice feeling this was only going on for 10 seconds before the worst thing ever happens she ends the co and I'm just left there blue B I was
very confused I was feeling a little bit ashamed as well from what I've done and uh you know it it should be fine right maybe her mom was just about to walk into the room and she had to end the call maybe it'll be fine it'll be fine you know nothing nothing bad is going to about is going to happen and then two minutes later Go pass and I get a text from her and as soon as I saw this message I swear to you bro my heart dropped to the floor no it dropped to
hell because I realized that she recorded me it was a video of me she recorded the whole thing and my face it was obviously caught in the entire thing as well and I thought this wasn't going to get any worse until she sends me a photo of my Facebook account with all my friends and family members inside she says if you don't send me $200 right now I'm sending this to your whole family and [Music] friends I'm telling you bro there wasn't a time in my entire life where I was this scared and anxious and
just full of regret just all the negative emotions you could even think of I guarantee you I was feeling this right now I was just so scared I was just a dumb little 18-year-old boy who just [ __ ] up and this all happened because I had a major addiction to to corn and now I'm literally getting and if you guys don't know people who get some of them end up themselves because of things like this because if you if you send them money they're not going to stop asking you for money they'll just ask
for more and more and more and more and more and more and more until you you give up and I didn't really have many friends you know obviously I couldn't speak to the family about it was just I had no one I could properly talk to about this I was alone and scared and so I did what any other scared little boy would do and I I listened I didn't have my own money at the time I didn't have my own bank account so guess what I did I snuck into my mom's room went into
her purse and got her a credit card and came back and and yeah this girl she told me to pay from this weird foreign website it was called like I don't know World remit something like that right so this is when I knew that she was obviously from another country like she was just this must be her how she earns money just diabolical and I fell for it so it's honestly my fault but I tried right I I entered the Cod details in and I was so close to sending in I I just didn't know
what was the right thing to do but again my mind was just all [ __ ] up right it was just so so so confused I ended up pressing send $200 however it didn't end up going through an error came up right and at the time I didn't know if this was a blessing or a curse like I just didn't know I tried to tell her that but she didn't believe me she was like send the money send the money right now send the money right now or this this video is getting sent and my
brain was just so fried right now to the point where I just I just I just said [ __ ] it right and I blocked her and I also deactivated my Facebook account as quick as possible and I just hoped I just prayed to God that everything will be okay and I went to sleep that night you know not knowing if I was going to wake up the next day and be banished from my household just be completely killed by my parents and family cuz I live in an Indian household right and thankfully I woke
up the next day I went into the living room and I greeted my parents everything seemed normal my family was all good nothing seemed out of the blue thank God and later that same night I went back to playing my favorite game on the Play Station and just living my life completely forgetting about this thing that happened and I was just so happy again [Music] until I see my door open and my mom walks through with the most disgusted looking face on her and instantly when I saw her face I knew exactly what happened the
video it got sent my mom just shouted at me you know scolded me obviously right I deserved it I love my mom a lot and hearing seeing her shameful face just of pure disgust at me I felt like um an alien I felt inhuman it was the most shameful moment of my entire life she left the room and next my brother came in my older brother and he did the same exact thing and then after that my other brother he wasn't at home and he ended up calling me and scolling me through the phone and
it was just like one after the other and one after the other I don't know how many people this video got sent to but I did not want to check my phone anym bro if I would to look at these notifications I swear to God my life was it was just going to crumble and I didn't know what was going to happen to me and I was just waiting for my dad to come in because he was the last person who's yet to see me and I just started crying cuz I thought it was I
thought it was game over for me right I was going to get kicked out the house I was going to get beaten up I don't know bro just however after like an hour of me explaining what happened to my family my brothers and my my mom thankfully they were very supportive OB obviously they shouted at me and Sh but thank thank God that they were actually supportive and we came to realize that it didn't actually get sent to my dad and we decided to keep it a secret from him thank you so much family in
the next couple of days bro I just felt so dirty going outside my house because it just felt like everyone knew what I did you know everyone got sent this disgusting video of me chocking my chicken right and I I realized that my auntie got sent the video as well some of my cousins got sent the video I don't know who else saw the video I just I just don't know and honestly I don't even know if I want to know I was really scared of whether or not that this person would come and me
again because they probably still had the video but thankfully they never did and I just thoughted thanking God you know instead of me blaming oh [ __ ] I can't believe this happen happened to me I'm so unlucky I started being grateful because it could have been a hell of a lot worse unbelievable way my life literally nearly got ruined because of a stupid just because I was too lustful unfortunately I'd be lying to you if I said that that was the end of my addiction that was the end like I I never watched it
again cuz unfortunately we're living in the real world and that's not how things work I was still addicted to it however 2 years later I actually DEC decided to battle this demon for once in my life and so I worked on myself I developed myself not only on the outside but on the inside as well I transitioned from a boy to a bit more of a man and I'm not saying I'm where I want to be just here you know I still struggle with lust every now and then yeah for sure but as soon as
I started loving myself more as soon as I started knowing my own selfworth that I am actually an attractor person I do love myself guess what I naturally started to watch less and less and less and less and less to the point where I can safely say that I'm like one and a half 2 years free from watching this [ __ ] I haven't watched a single bit in that long and I never will I will never ever go back and for the people who say that watching this stuff is normal in what world is
this normal in what world is me acting this way for me to nearly ruin my entire life what way is this normal this was never normal I don't care if there's no scientific evidence backing up the fact that watching this stuff is okay I just don't give a because this is not normal chances are you want an actual proper relationship and I'm not saying you know this is the sole reason for why you don't have a girlfriend but genuinely guys I'm I'm certain that it's definitely has a big play in it it's not easy it's
not easy but we need to slowly get rid of this demon I mean if I can do it if I can go from having the most shameful moment of my entire life because I was far far worse than any of you guys were if I can completely erase this demon out of my life why can't you genuinely why can't you and I'm not even going to give you any specific advice because if you wanted to truly quit you would again it's a long journey took me two to 3 years of failing relapsing to finally just
stop at once in for all but I can 100% assure you bro that it it is well worth the effort I can pretty much guarantee that you got this brother sister I don't even care what gender you are it [ __ ] up both of our Lives believe in yourself like how I believed in myself and if you don't believe yourself believe the fact that I believe in you I hope that gives you enough motivation because you have got this okay I believe in you if you enjoyed the video I'd love it if you press
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