hey good evening guys this is uh steve cannon steve just wanted to say thank you to good tv usa for recording this interview uh and i hope it leads people to true repentance and salvation through the gospel of jesus christ thank you good tv usa god bless everyone hey guys my name is steve and it's good to have you all welcome to our office today we are excited to sit down with steve as he shares his miraculous testimony of surviving a drug-triggered psychosis that left him in a coma i grew up in korea until the
age of nine so i was born in seoul i remember living with my aunts grandma grandpa like ten of us sleeping in one room so it was a very cozy community-based living but at the same time my parents were not around because they were overseas preparing for us to move over here to the united states you know from the age of six i was attending the temples and i was very into it unlike some of the other kids who were just kind of coming by i was actually asking questions to the monks i was sleeping
there going there every weekend as a matter of fact i remember asking myself why are human beings born what is the purpose of humanity what is the purpose of life and because i was not exposed to christianity back then buddhism was the only like venue of me finding the answers to my curiosity i came at the age of nine and at first everything was so good right big supermarkets you have to remember back in the 80s in korea there was no supermarkets of that size or even restaurants never mind pizza mcdonald's none of that was
ever present in korea back then so i was so delighted by the holidays the toys the amount of food but i had an identity crisis as i entered middle school and i asked my mom like why am i korean-american mom i want to be white living in boston there's no asian there's no asians there guys this is like the countryside of boston in the late 80s early 90s so we were like the minority of minorities there's no one you can really there's no role models that are asian american around you everyone's caucasian or puerto rican
or african-american back then so and that does create not just confusion but the confusion becomes anger and that anger responds through rebellion and i think long-term you know depression or sadness because anger is a sign of being sad or not having something you want right so i think there's a big relationship there i don't want you guys think i was doing drugs for a long term i actually started doing drugs during this like the freshman year we were just smoking weed once in a while i ended up living with my friends who were it was
a deal or home so we're having like huge jasper bags of drugs going in and out we're transporting it we're carrying it we're selling it we're smoking it three times a day [Music] now school reopens in the fall and i'm trying to readjust to life but i can't because i'm so drugged out so another guy came and we smoked out again but this is where it gets kind of crazy but i smell what's called a death bowl a death bowl is the street name for heroin cocaine pcp it looks like marijuana but it's laced so
when i smoked this drug i stayed up for 10 straight days after the third day of staying up you lose sight of date time who you are while you're alive on the last day i actually had a encounter with i believe is satan now but he came to me in an open eye vision he just looked at the asian grandpa and said i know you're having a hard time and i said yeah i thought it was my buddhist god so when he came to me he said it's time for you to take your own life
cut your neck cut your stomach and i'll spare you from hell and i didn't know jesus back then so that's exactly what i did i went to the kitchen with my mom in the house and i grabbed the biggest knife i could find and i cut my neck open and also my stomach open you know which and i lost 90 of my blood my mom walks into the living room and she sees her son almost dying she calls 9-1-1 and the cops come over to try to get the knife away from me and they came
in within like one minute right i was wrestling with them they took the knife away they maced me whacked me with the bat and were struggling and that's when i fainted after being whacked whacked whacked by the bat and pretty soon i'm going in and out and and i'm in the hospital and at the hospital um that's when i had the the ob i literally you know lost consciousness before the surgery and i see myself but i'm not going to having like the false god satan and coming as old grandpa said i'm sinking and it
feels like an elevator just falling down and after five minutes of just this horrific feeling of being abandoned and fear multiplied by 100 by anything you can feel on earth i land and i look around and it's hell how do i know it's hell because first of all i never had to stop before but when i got there during this auto body experience i looked around and there was just so many countless people i wasn't the only one there demons are ceiling high they're everywhere i feel pain and i knew i was a sinner and
i will never leave this place i don't know where the idea came from i just supernaturally knew instinctively knew and that's when i realized like i made a big mistake i woke up the next day and they told me i was out for 12 hours but it was a five minute visit to hell and i knew i didn't want to be there because it's like hopelessness to spirit loneliness pain when i came out of it i was like you know in just very traumatized for the next three months that's how painful it was jesus talks
about a place of torment where there is no quenching of fire and there's no stopping of the gnashing of teeth and i did feel heat i did feel darkness i felt hopelessness that's how he knew it was biblically valid it was exactly what he said when i opened my eyes i was surrounded by pastors like you want to see the sinner's prayer i was like yes i do i was so relieved and scared of hell and relieved of being alive at the same time that i think i said the sinner's prayer about ten times yeah
so the lord allowed me in his grace and love and mercy to to see hell just like it is in the bible and then six months later or or rather more like seven months later in the summer of 1999 i was in korea now now for six months yeah i was just resting at the prayer mountain i tried to go back to school but i couldn't really be physically all there so i ended up just kind of leaving school i'm resting i'm trying to become a christian right but at the same time i'm still partying
with my my non-christian friends heard what happened they still kept coming so i still went drinking after this happened i was like lord i heard this mercy of forgiveness let me have one last shot right it ended up causing me to party like every day but in the midst of this parting in the summer the lord allowed me to have a car accident which really struck fear in me and at the same time he gave me a dream like i'd even asked for this dream i was on the top of a mountain the dream very
vivid and i heard the voice of god and i've never heard audibly this clearly and and god speaks to me in bible verses and he said jesus is my beloved son in whom i'm well pleased listen to him listen to him listen to him and i was like oh my god did i just hear god and i saw this triangular light like rotating in the dream and and i'm on the top of a mountain and i see this huge beautiful valley with the river and mountains on both sides and just like it says in revelation
21 verse 2 it says i saw the holy city the new jerusalem coming down out of heaven from god prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband it was literally a transparent pyramid triangular city just i think it was a new jerusalem and it came down and there were angels on both sides just flying with trumpets that were so long and they're worshiping god and i knew it was not human voice because it was just so holy and perfect and majestic and beautiful at that moment compared to seeing hell and compared that hopelessness times
100 which of anything on earth painful with pain wise and seeing heaven where the peace and the joy and the comfort you feel of having father right next to you like tangibly visibly with you is incomparable and i knew that god was showing me heaven to because he wants all of humanity there he wants every single soul there the defining moment for heaven and hell seeing heaven and hell and coming to a point of realization and resolution of lifestyle change was i need to share this gospel with every human being i meet we ask ourselves
like what can we do to love this person right we can do acts of service give them money pray for them but if they don't know jesus the greatest gift we can give them is to let them know these two places are real and that through jesus you can actually go to heaven only through jesus actually you know and have a relationship with with the father where you're his child it's the most beautiful thing we can give somebody i can with 100 confidence tell you right now that i do not struggle with depression or suicide
ever except when i am overworked and physically tired but then that's not depression or suicidal thoughts right why am i saying this because i believe not taking care of the body is a big element of having a unsuccessful spiritual life the degree to which you take care of your body and your spirit is a degree to which we can have uh true joy and and enjoy in the life for jesus i really believe in that big proponent of that if you're struggling through depression and sadness or lack of motivation uh we have to start by
shifting the focus from ourselves to others i don't know if you notice this but when you're with others it's hard to be depressed when you're with god it's hard to be depressed when you're more aware of other people's suffering than your own it's hard to be unmotivated because you're gonna do stuff to help them jesus said in john 12 24 i love this verse it's actually my second favorite verse unless a kernel of wheat falls to ground and dies it remains alone it's not good for us to be alone but if it falls to the
ground and dies then it bears much fruit it will bear a huge harvest so can we ignore it it's not just about ignoring but it's about shifting the focus from being aware of my depression to thank god that i'm even alive but some people come to a point where professionally they might need psychiatric help and i'm not against that because medicine too is a blessing from god i believe but there's comes a point when you're healed to a certain degree now it's up to you and the lord so i start my day through prayer and
thanksgiving and praise and it re-shifts priority and joy right and in this presence it says in the bible there's a fullness of joy so our job is not to get rid of depression our job is to get into his presence and he will get rid of the depression for you when i'm down i have a thanksgiving notebook and i will start writing what i'm thankful for and then you're like oh when was i down all right so it's all about the reshifting of the focus and doing what we can do when we are hopeless and
when we're going through depression and suicidal thoughts i want to encourage you guys that there's it takes one word from jesus for me it took one encounter to get rid of that junk so have hope because god can literally change the situation from the prison to the palace in one day for me it was like literally held to earth to heaven in one day so god has a plan to use you and there is a purpose to your suffering i didn't know this but now i have so much compassion for suicidal people so i want
to encourage you guys that jesus has allowed the suffering to happen because number one he wants to deliver you and number two he's gonna use that story for you to be able to relate to those who are gonna go through the same thing later so you're in good hands it's gonna be okay says the lord it's gonna be okay after the pandemic happened the lord's installing more fire more anointing more faith than when before the virus came i you know people say oh now i'm not motivated to do stuff you know we've had daily prayer
today's day 54 of our daily prayer chain every morning we've been praying and what god what we feel like god is saying to the body of christ and to us who seek him daily in the morning first thing is i want my church to wake up i want my church to be a pure spotless bribe if i come back so my heart burns for the church when i meet a believer my number one priority is how can i get this guy on fire how can we be radical because if you're not crazy for jesus you'll
be crazy for something else like golf or something else i don't know what but every human being worships and is crazy for something even if that's laziness or you know saving souls so i feel like god is saying be on fire be hot don't let me spew you out of my mouth be like the five wise virgins who was ready for his coming because if you're not if you miss it it's too late live on fire for jesus and i'm not talking about just outwardly on the inside we can live on fire for jesus for
the world i feel like god is saying anyone can meet him so mars burning for both the church and evangelism and i feel like we have one shot at this you know only one life it will soon be passed what's done for christ will last we're very excited to see you know god use everybody in the body no more people on the sidelines this is not time for silent christianity everyone's in the game everyone's in the coliseum everyone has to fight i was once lonely confused and fatherless but now after meeting jesus heart person to
person i belong to a eternal family i have a good good perfect father who will never leave me nor forsake me i am found and made whole i'm one with myself and i am probably the most grateful person ever alive for just breathing i don't need anything there's no more selfish goals it's just being with jesus is more than enough and the person in front of you is number two in the sense that there's jesus and then there's a person in front of you who is made in his image so i would say i am
very thankful joyful and fearless because of meeting jesus now we hope you were encouraged by this episode of defining moments be sure to like subscribe and share it with a friend also in the links below you can stay connected with us on facebook and instagram as well hope to see you there god bless [Music] you
