I did the scene afterwards and I'm like this is me this is what I want to do lifting anybody up and saying kind things it's just a beautiful thing number one is Captain Marvel that catapulted me into another atmosphere in my career I'm pansexual so gender means nothing I like everyone you know for for how they are who they are hi my name is Brie Mills and I am a porn director with a purpose now throughout my career I have covered just about every Niche and I've created some award-winning films and Brands along the way
but now I'm much more interested in getting to know the real people behind my characters and that's because I believe adult entertainers can be some of the most powerful Role Models when it comes to sex ed consent empowerment and Wellness by asking the right questions our community can really help people better understand themselves so that's the mission of this podcast let's get up close all right Kenzie Taylor hello now you are an experienced podcast host and I am just new in this game so why haven't I been on your pod yet uh well I I
would love to have you on so I've done 50 episodes so far which was my season one um season two I'm going to be starting like I film and it goes on YouTube and then all streaming platforms um I'm going to be doing season 2 within like probably like end of April to like July I tend to do kind of like how you do several interviews in a day um cuz I you know pay for the space and I just want to utilize it as much as I can but I definitely want I have you
on season two all right good good so this can be like our warmup to the real show yes which uh which is the sauce right that's what you call yeah all right awesome well this is this is all about getting to know you obviously we we we know each other we've worked we've worked together we definitely are you know within the same community of crazy artists but it's cool to be able to talk to you in this capacity yeah I'm happy to be here so let's let's just dive right into it give me uh I
guess a little bit of backstory on on what led you into the industry and um LED you to where you are today um well uh I started in the industry later in life um when I was 25 um I was working in nursing before uh porn and I decided I wanted to do something that I could be My Own Boss I could make my own schedule um something that would lead me to be able to do different things like open more doors and I was familiar with you know um dancing at different clubs and stuff
like that so I was comfortable with being naked um I did some camming and I was like okay it's that's fun but I I feel like the movies would be more fun um and uh I spoke with an adult star that was featuring at a club that I was working at and I asked her some questions about the industry and I was just very intrigued by it so I don't have like a super interesting thing because I just I wanted to do it and I did um that's kind of how I've been my whole life
like I'm a hustler I'm always doing something um I grew up in a very lowincome household and um in a very very small town like probably like 800 people wow so small like I think we have like two or three stop lights yeah yeah it's very very tiny um so I just kind of like went for it uh I contacted agent and uh I sent him photos and then I did a FaceTime interview type thing and he said we would love to have you so I flew I was living in Florida I flew from Florida
to California uh I had my first photo shoot which I was very nervous MH and my hair was actually about how years is right now was very short um and then the next day I had my first actual movie shoot it was a boy girl scene with Mark Wood who is awesome he's a veteran and then the director was Mike quazar which I love him to death um and it was an awesome day I was super nervous but they kind of like walked me through beforehand like what you know we were going to do and
the positions we did all the the still photos beforehand and I was just very excited um to be able to explore my sexuality in such a safe space and to be myself because I've always been boxed in my whole life like when I was younger and I knew that I liked you know men and women um that was like a problem where I was from so I was very like boxed in you know couldn't really like tell anybody anything and couldn't be myself never um so I was just really excited let it all out I
did the scene afterwards and I'm like dude this is like this is me this is what I want to do um and ever since then I went back to Florida I decided I wanted to move to California because I knew that in order to actually be serious about it and work as much as I can and meet different people networking all of that you know all the events we do and all that stuff um I knew that moving to California would be best I did not know anyone here yeah um I literally sold everything I
had except my clothes my dog and my car and I drove all the way from Florida to California um I found a um model house to stay in and I was there for a while um and I started to shoot more you know at the at the beginning um when you're new it it's it's hard to kind of like ask people for advice I mean at this point in time I think it's not but at that time I did yeah for sure um I was very intimidated because there were a lot of women that weren't
very kind um and I don't think that they were intentionally unkind I think that it was more along the lines of oh she already knows like she's just doing her thing whatever but really I just really wanted somebody to kind of like tell me something like give me some type of not guide book but some type of advice yeah yeah so um I actually ended up meeting um Kendra Lust I I love her to death she helped me a lot when I was new I've heard I've heard kender's name come up more than once as
somebody that somebody that helped mentor and kind of got new performers she's phenomenal so she helped me and um my one of my very very dear friends uh Cali Carter so both of them um really helped me they they gave me advice you know uh Kendra taught me how to like prep for anal all that stuff give me all of that because I didn't know I was just so terrified like not in like a you know I something bad's going to happen to me but terrified as in like I don't know what I'm doing and
I don't want to fail yeah and you don't want to you know you want to be professional you want to look like you know what you're doing right like and doing anal still this day I never want to moop on somebody I just don't want to do that I understand that my butt is an exit and that that does happen at times but I just don't want to do that so I'm like ridiculous with my my prepping uh with the starving and all that stuff but yeah um so helped me a lot and then um
I ended up moving out of that model house and I moved in with my boyfriend at the time who is now my husband Seth gamble um and yeah I just I started like working a lot more networking um my social media you know I really pushed myself on social media like constantly on there um adding videos to um you know another site that we use um that helped with like getting my name out there and building the fan base I go to Exotica conventions um there's four of them I go every year so there's Chicago
Miami uh DC and New Jersey um and those uh I sign at a booth there and I meet fans from all around the world as well as AVN as well I got that convention um but I believe that connecting with fans on a level such as going to a convention taking time off work from shooting or any other things that I have obligation wise and going and like making time to like meet them face to face really means a lot to them yeah and I believe that that kind of helped me get to where I
am today as far as the strong fan base I have because due to starting later at 25 now I'm 33 as a woman in this industry once you're past a certain age or you have you know breast implants and whatever you look a little older you kind of get put into box and it's very tricky to have that longevity so that's how I've maintained that longevity so I'm curious just there's a lot of there's a lot that I want to go back and ask about your journey the first thing that struck me was you know
you mentioned that you had you were in uh school for nursing and you were also uh working at clubs what um when did you kind of start working in clubs and how did you get to a point of comfortability with your body and was that something that was an instant or was that something that you had to build towards um so I started originally as a waitress at a nude club and um they had this thing called amateur night and the winner of amateur night can get a job there as a dancer and this was
like a very like big Club cuz there's only so many in my state so it was like one of the biggest there at the time I don't even know if it's it's still there but um and uh then you I also win like $1,000 or something and at that point in time I was just like really struggling and then I don't know I something in me I was like ah whatever like I'm the type of person like full send like if I do something I'm doing it yeah so I went ahead and I did the
amateur night and then I won and I ended up starting to dance there um and that's when I was uh young uh you know I uh I wasn't a good kid I had a fake ID to be a certain age so I could do things but yeah so I was dancing and uh I was nude so I mean it was I don't know like I was I I wasn't uncomfortable because of the space that I was in there were other women there that were very kind to me um I worked at a club where you
know the girls are very kind they they weren't like thinking of me as competition we kind of like worked together in teams of like it's really weird to explain but yeah but it was like a i a Sisterhood but like a community it was yeah and at that point in time you know um going back to like growing up and not being able to be myself I finally was kind of like the turtle starting to pop his his head out like oh yeah before I started to really like crawl you know um so that was
really cool to to be able to feel free like that yeah I never felt that before ever I always felt like don't say anything about liking girls just have a boyfriend act like you like boys only um don't say anything about gay like anything like that very homophobic where I was from um and yeah just being just being nude in that club it it just came to me like naturally I wasn't I didn't feel like weird or anything like that well there was a sense of acceptance right because who you were surrounded with and and
the women you met and you mentioned that you uh asked advice of a adult star so what did you ask what were the questions back then to look back on like what was the burning question at that time uh well I asked her um what doors has it opened for you being an adult film um I asked her I didn't ask her like what she makes per scene but I said typically per year what do you make after taxes you know and then I also said to her I know that's kind of a personal question
if you don't want to answer it's fine but she was very open about it um and then I asked her about featuring because that's something else she does you know um which I now do it's pretty amazing that's another thing reaching out with the fans of featuring it's opened a lot of doors for me um yeah I just I asked her um kind of questions that I I feel like nobody would really ask uh per se like people are afraid to ask like I asked her you know um do you get to choose what type
of scenes you do you know uh how is it when you're working with several people like if you do like an orgy or something like that how does that work cuz I've I'd never had sex like that with several people and and you know I I I had been watching porn so I knew like that there were scenes like that where there was multiple people and she was just telling me stuff and then I was asking her about this safety of it um and she told me about the testing you know testing every um at
that time I believe it 30 days right yeah yes um but now it's every two weeks um so she was telling me about that and about like how we fill out paperwork and all that she said everything is legal there's nothing legal and yeah so those are the questions I asked pretty logical stuff yeah but logical pragmatic enough to get you in your car and driving you know across the country uh to to take a major leap right yes um scary a scary yeah scary leap had you ever up until that point done anything like
that I you mentioned coming from a very small town very boxed in uh I had never done anything like that except when I moved from Michigan to Florida but that wasn't like a huge change for me because I'd been to Florida several times but moving to California coming where I was actually from it took took me like a year a year and a half to get acclimated it was like a culture shock for me like I remember going to Hollywood for the first time and I'm like I'm seeing you know women like making out out
in the public and holding hands and just living their life you know there's nothing wrong with it and I remember going to the ABY like that was my first time going to like a gay club and I felt so free and I loved it and I I still love that place to the day I've had a few good nights at the ABY not for a long time but back in the day and um I remember uh going to my first drag show like I love drag shows I have friends that um do drag and my
huge RuPaul Drag Race fan so I've met a lot of those girls as well but um yeah I just remember all of those things and it was like a culture shock but also in a way of like this is where I should be like I I I'm accepted here and I'm okay and everything's going to be okay so it was it was really really special and surreal I guess is how you could put it but there was a pretty big departure from that community that you found within the dancing Community to coming to do you
know La Bay Studio porn so that must have been a culture shock as well it was and it was back in you know at that time I mean I I remember that era too there was there I'm really grateful to see the ways in which the industry has evolved positively really including the sense of community again with performers CU for sure it was a bit of a like Cutthroat everybody's Frenemies everybody's direct competition yeah so how did you like how did you find your mentors throughout that and what advice would you give for new newbies
coming in nowadays to like find those right people um well uh I would say um the way that I found you know Kendra and Cali um I just kind of like fell into it of the agent that I was with at the time um she was being represented by Kendra and Cali um and I you know be befriended them and talked to them and everything like I said and then Kendra actually ended up starting her own agency so I went to her agency um and I was there for you know a little bit during the
beginning of my career um and that kind of branched me into meeting other girls throughout the agency and everything like that kind of just stepping out I'm a very outgoing person so I would say probably being like an introvert it's it it's probably very difficult to do that to reach out to people and ask for help and stuff um I always look at social media you know and I also post on my own social media I'm a huge advocate for like mental health addiction recovery all of that um and I always post on there like
I'm willing to help anybody like Seth and I both we both say like you can call us text us like we've picked up people before like you know whatever um we've taken people to rehab that needed you know to go there and they didn't know who to call so I feel like social media it it is negative a lot of the time but then there's another half with that's good so I believe in like looking for the good you know if if you pay attention to the good stuff you'll find that and just kind of
like looking at different things and um there's Reddit threads too uh that you can kind of go through reddit's kind of hard but but once you discover those subreddits yeah well I know that I saw like this would have been a couple months ago but uh Seth had posted something about you know like everybody share you know boost somebody up share somebody that you want to Hype up and even stuff like that I was on set with him the next day or something I'm like you know the more of that we can do the more
like holding each other up versus cutting each other up like that that Cascades you know people are going to see people of influence like the two of you doing that and then they're going to think oh good to do you know and so it it definitely has that that impact for sure it can be for good yeah I believe that too and and I also believe that in doing so it it's it's not about um the gratification of that person even answering you it's about the gratification of you're speaking highly of someone else you're being
kind and generous and you know lifting someone else up and that's a gift in itself and and me as a as as a person I I don't like being angry I don't like being mean that's very uncomfortable feelings for me um I really love lifting people up and saying nice things and I'm a jokester like I love joking around I'm very sarcastic thinking about doing standup uh little afraid but but yeah so I don't know I totally believe in like lifting other people up and I mean why wouldn't you want to right you know you
want somebody to smile and feel good there's a guy and he'll go and do different kind acts he'll go and stand in front of like a mall or grocery store or whatever he'll blindfold himself he'll hold a big sign and it says if you need a hug just go ahead and hug me and people will go up and hug him and like start crying and like they need that there's some people that don't have anybody yeah it's true you know like i' I've been like that in my life prior before I got sober you know
um and also like I just I've seen it I just know that there's people like that with broken hearts and homes where you know maybe they're abused or mentally physically in uh domestic violence relationships you know I once was in one of those um so I've I've spoken at some uh seminars actually like women's seminars at some different universities throughout the US um so I believe in stuff like that just lifting anybody up and saying kind things M I mean it's not going to hurt you mhm it's just a beautiful thing it is a beautiful
thing well I I you know um obviously have seen such like seen your journey from the outside right but it it's maybe it would be interesting to share with I know that you're very open and transparent about sobriety and about your own Journey but there could never be enough platforms to speak about about it so age maybe if you can share a little bit about your own you know recovery and and and just in general like the the because you know I understand with sobriety it's it's it's not like it's there's no there's no cure
it's it's part it's part it's a patch of your life it's part of your life yeah addiction is a disease addiction is a disease and it it centers in your mind and a lot of people don't understand that um you know I I was addicted to many thing I don't know if you want me to tell you what I was ad you have you have the four my friend yeah so I mean I I I used to um you know drink a lot of alcohol um I would snort drugs up my nose I loved that
I loved snorting Aderall XX I've snorted meth like anything I could get up my nose pain pills I just wanted to numb everything I didn't want to feel I wanted to escape um what I was doing though you know being sober now and realizing it is I was just as escaping my own self because my disease isn't the problem it's me right so I'm the one that's doing all these destructive things I could go right now and get high as hell and then tomorrow I'm still going to have the life I have and the duties
or problems or whatever and a lot of people don't you know realize that that going and having a few drinks or whatever or you know 15 drinks it's not going to solve anything so I didn't know that at the time obviously um I was a blackout uh drinker so I never believed in having like two drinks to me I was like if we're going to the bar I'm I have no idea how I'm going to get home yeah I'm not proud of it but there are many times where I was drinking and driving um and
the bottom for me um I woke up in a jail cell and I had blood all over my shoes I thought I killed somebody drinking and driving um and the reality of it was you know I I I did hurt someone um in a blackout phase and it was unintentional I would never do something like that sober um and I remember sitting at that jail cell and just thinking for like a moment like I had this I'm in a program and we call it um a god shot so I had a god shot and it's
not God Like Jesus Christ it's a god of my own understanding right so I had a god shot of like what the [ __ ] are you doing like what the [ __ ] is going on like why what are you doing to yourself yeah and and I just I hit a bottom like a really really bad bottom um and I had got out of there and then the day after um you know I I I slept I woke up and I instead of drinking I was going to but instead of doing that I called
like 65 different rehabs and I literally said to them if I don't get in today I'm going to slip my throat and I'm done like I was done I told that to every single rehab if you cannot get me in today I am dead I'm I'm done and one person from a rehab got back to me and she was like we're pretty filled up like we don't have room but I'm going to make room for you and to me that was a sign of like another God shout of like you're meant to live y don't
end your life um so that goes back to like I'm a mental health advocate of I I know I know what it's like to want to die I wanted to die every single day for nine months I I had plans in my head of different things I was going to do like it really dark and I know what that's like and it's such a horrible feeling um and and at times like it's hard to pull yourself out of that you know um so I ended up going to that rehab and um I stayed there for
31 days um and it was a glorified jail um I woke up every morning at 5 a.m. we had chores we each had jobs we had to do um we had meetings all day long classes uh we had uh different like readings and then there was other meetings where um women would come speak it was all women facility um and when the women would come speak there was one that I met and I at that time her message really spoke to me um and I asked her to be my sponsor so when I got out
of there on the you know the 31st day I went home basically uh showered for like an hour cuz I was like wow I I can shower and like no one else is in here like cuz I mean we had a disgusting shower and then this cheap like curtain and rehab and it was see-through and there were some girls in there that they were pretty scary you know like I I was pretty scared it wasn't uh that safe um yeah I showered for like an hour and then I met up with her and um I
started um doing readings and um I did uh 12 steps uh obviously not in one day but through a period of time within within the first nine months I did 12 steps um and that's a daily reprieve mhm so 12 steps isn't something you just do and you're like oh I did this step like no like you live them yeah do them daily um and yeah so I just I continued on and went to meetings and uh up until now I have 6 years and 3 months clean and sober I do not do anything that
alters my mind no no alcohol drugs nothing I smoke nicotine and caffeine and yes those are my addictions now but but I'm not getting high and drunk so we're cool yeah and there's a there's energy drink in this cup so yeah well it's you know it's a battle Yeah you know I I still deal with depression and anxiety uh you know I'm on medication for those I'm very open about that um the the medication that I'm on for my depression I would say you know saved my life because like I said I wanted to die
every day for like nine months and and it takes a while like a lot of people don't understand if you have to be medicated takes a while not all me like my medication might not work for you you know what I mean everybody's doses are different medications are different all of our brains are different uh it's a very tricky thing so it took a while to get the correct meds but once I did I was like okay wow because I had a chemical imbalance I I felt very like finally like I could plant my feet
you know well I would imagine like you know in um there was there was this video that I saw once and I I don't know if you've seen it but I for me it I've never been somebody who has has struggled with an active addiction but I definitely have an addictive personality so I and I have addiction some Addiction in my family so you can see the you can see just how easy it is to go from here to you know suddenly not being not that you're not out of control but you convince your how
your brain can trick you right yeah it talks to you and and this this one video it's the simplest video of this little bird walking along it's an animation it's a bird walking along and then it finds something and it feels so good and it goes up and then it comes back down and then it keeps going and it finds another one and then you just watch over time it gets more and more kind of bogged down by this looking for those that next seed and it just doesn't have that effect anymore and again it's
like the simplest little cartoon but I I look at that and I'm like I I have not had an active addiction but I've had I could be that bird you know and and if you could like I I would show that to anybody growing up and be like don't be that bird you know you know what that is instant gratification well it is huge addiction yeah is we want instant gratification that's why we like alcohol and drugs because I could snort drugs and immediately I'm [ __ ] up you know sorry I don't know if
I'm a lot of swear or or relaxed or you know like you know I I don't I don't smoke weed anymore but back when I smoked weed it was like under the guise of oh it's going to help me relax and then at a certain point like no that's not what it's doing like I'm more I'm more anxious about the fact that oh my God this is going to turn into something worse and finally I was like I had this Moment of clarity I'm like what like he's why am I doing this yeah and cut
it out and it you know like anything you have that instinct like God I would just want to have a drink or God I just want to like you know go back into that instant gratification or that dopamine rush or whatever but I have never felt more clear and Alive since not doing that since sort of stopping that and and you know and I definitely think there's some there's a great bravery in living life in that raw sense of really being with yourself cuz like you said you have to you have to battle yourself you
are like your best friend and your worst enemy there's a thing that my sponsor says and she uh she like lives by this and I I always it's getting grained In My Memory she always says we have to be un we have to be comfortable with being uncomfortable oh yeah and I I didn't understand that when she first said it to me I'm like what do you mean comfortable being UNC what and then finally I got to the point I think at that time I was I got three years at that point I was up
to my three-year Mark and you know the I did a lot of drugs so the longer I'm sober the more they're coming off my brain basically cuz people don't understand you you don't just get sober right away and then your brain's just normal like it takes time you do damage and I did a lot of damage um but at that three-year Mark when she said that to me is I finally understood it because there are many times where I'm a very outgoing person but like for example if we have like an event we have to
go to for work or something I get anxi like social anxiety about it but I love everybody I love talking to everyone I always have so much fun but I get such bad social anxiety but it's I have to be comfortable with being uncomfortable that's right and I and I used to always want to be like Oh I'm just I'm going to take a drink take the edge off or I'll be drinking half a bottle of wine before the thing just to chill out yeah like no that's really not chilling you out no it's not
it's just yeah it's just it's just like making it worse making it worse well and I I think about you know you know what you've been able to accomplish in the years since you know and I mean I I know Seth is on has been on a similar Journey his sobriety right like like you both have been on this journey together and like like the accomplishments that have come afterward are a testament to the benefit of being comfortable with being uncomfortable I agree I I believe that with him and I the the strongest thing about
it all is you know we're coming up on eight years together and three years married in June um and he just got seven years in February like I said I have 6 years and 3 months so he got sober before for me and he had to deal with me being you know an an addict an active addict yeah right at your bottom yeah yeah and and he didn't have to you know but but that to me yes all of the things that we have today we've worked for and you know earned them and whatever they're
amazing not taking away from that but I I love to look at where we were and and and the whole come up of it because to have somebody love you I've never had unconditional love in my life ever until I met him that's unconditional love when somebody sticks by your side like that and to be able to hold your hand when you're literally you know visiting them in rehab and just being like everything's going to be okay I love you I'm here for you I never had that in my life and it's a beautiful thing
um so I I always love to you know focus on that and then all the other things that are amazing and great fall into place yeah yeah it's pretty pretty miraculous it is yeah well I I I want to talk a little bit about the miraculous um because it is worth it is worth talking about so let's talk about I mean within within your career as a performer you've taken on some amazing roles what what's your favorite kind of role to date what would be your your P pesta resistance in terms of performance well I
have two I would say my number one is Captain Marvel I mean that to me that catapulted me into another atmosphere in my career that I thank Alex LeBron every day because I never was given the opportunity to act in a movie and I absolutely am so passionate and I love acting and I believe that I'm good at it because I'm so passionate about it you know I've I've washed myself evaluated myself and everything like that so I believe that um you know I I earned that uh spot you know I auditioned and everything and
that movie to me was just everything I you know the whole movie it was almost like a Showcase in a way because I was in every single scene MH um I believe we had like 50 it was like a 50 page script like you know almost the whole thing a dialogue um I had to run in a forest in 8 and 1/2 in Stato heels which is you know inconceivable in my mind so people do not understand like how hot it is too in the costumes because he gets legitimate amazing costumes made just like they
do in the movie it's not like cheap like materials they're very heavy and hot I'm running in a forest this was in like I don't know like the end of July beginning of August so you know like in California hot as hell oh it was like I think 103 so I'm running around in the forest and glad I didn't break my ankle but yeah that movie is amazing um and it was also the first time that I got to act with Seth uh he was Deadpool um and that was very special to me to get
to do my first big project ever that really was going to like catapult me with the person I love most in this world and I know that sounds very like cheesy or like it kind of sounds beautiful and wonderful but to me that was just so special like I have a on my phone it it could literally make me I'm a very sensitive person um but I act hard I'm a cancer I'm also a cancer so uh we're crabs yes but um I have a clip on my phone it's one of my favorite videos ever
it's a behind the scenes clip of um it was me as Captain Marvel Lacy Lennon um and then Seth and we're standing um and doing dialogue but it's BTS so you can see the mics and everything and we're we're doing dialogue but it was my portion and they're just looking at me but really I was looking like past Seth but I could still see him grinning but in the video while I'm doing my dialogue that was the end of the movie um you could just see he had the biggest smile on his face like how
happy he was and how proud of me he was it's like one of my favorite Clips ever like it just shows like how amazing that is you know um but my second thing that I've ever done for acting that I'm super passionate about and I loved and I wish I would have won best actress I might have cried a little about it but it's okay um was for deranged um which was um Seth's first uh Thriller um I believe it was eight parts series that he did um yeah it was called deranged me and Tommy
pistol were the leads um I do method acting so um I had like an emot like a legit emotional breakdown in that movie to be able to portray what I believed my character was feeling and doing at that time so anybody that does method acting will understand how hard that is oh yeah if they don't do it you won't understand it but if you do it's extremely hard and it's very hard to pull out of that once you're down like that you know that Seth did that actually for you when exactly like he would come
home and he was just like like not himself he even said that when he won in he in his acceptance speech he was like saying you know thank you to me for putting up with it because it was crazy because he did method acting yeah and there was quite a unpacking afterwards right yeah like it it was quite impactful yeah so I did that for deranged and um I just loved that it was so amazing such a I love scripts that are just uh interesting and keep people guessing like I love the Thriller aspect it's
awesome very fun I also love comedy stuff but um getting to work alongside Tommy pistol though as a lead and it was amazing like our our sex scene that we did um I was like in an interrogation room with him and he's like the prisoner um and I just remember how hot it was like I get up on the desk and I like open my legs and I pull the key out of my [ __ ] to unlock him it was just so hot but uh yeah it was awesome those two movies though to me
are probably the most special mhm yeah but there I mean there are a lot of things I've done but yeah yeah to date those are two special things to date yeah um let's talk about your foray into directing yeah so that's something that's super cool but occupying a good amount of time and you have a specialty which is the world G born so tell me a little bit about I know like obviously it's a plug like it's it's for you know it's for uh with the next door and you know part of our family but
um tell me about the experience of one like going from performer to director yes and then two like diving into the world of you know gay content and I know uh that that is a personal passion of yours so yes speak to that please I I I believe that I am a very very good gay porn director and that there's always room for improvement so I'm constantly wanting to learn more and do more um actually want to take some master classes for like camera stuff and editing and all that cuz I believe if the more
you know the better you do um just watching closely to like other people and learning um asking questions but gay porn to me is just home I just love it so much you know the guys are so great they're so happy to be there um all the projects I've done I've written myself uh the scripts and everything the story lines um my favorite one I've probably done is is the one that I did for disruptive um it's titled The Good Samaritans you should check it out has alpha wolf and Roman Todd um very very hot
yes that was kind of like a thriller type thing um but yeah I just I just love it so much because again going back to you know like never being able to be myself and I'm pansexual so to me gender means nothing I I I I like everyone you know for for how they are who they are I I don't it doesn't matter to me like I literally I've had sex with gay men trans women you know what I mean all of like everyone none of that applies to me and doesn't it doesn't like disgust
me or bother me like I love it like I really love it so um I believe that the gay performers that I've spoken with because I love to ask questions um I think it's really important uh coming from performing to directing knowing that I want to have that level of conversation with them on like what do you want to do more of what would you like to see you know done here do you guys want to do more acting stuff do you want to do you know some crazy gunzo stuff like what are you wanting
to do here and a lot of them that I've talked to have said they want to do like you know feature films and stuff like that they want to do more acting and all of the um ones that I've directed so far I believe I've done like like five maybe and then I mean six if you count I also directed I I direct lesbian porn as well Kenzie loves girls for Wicked yeah I just got green lit yesterday so casting Kenzie loves girl exent excellent yes but yeah I don't know I have a knack for
for gay porn I don't know I just I love it and I believe too just um appreciating appreciating the performer because I know like what they're going through you know I also know what it's like to get [ __ ] in the ass because I do I've done very hardcore scenes and I understand like starving yourself and stretching and all of that stuff so I think that that helps too the fact that I know all that I one of the things I mean that I really I really believe the next generation of producers and it's
already it's already coming true the next generation of like the best producers in our business are going to be those who have uh you know transition from being in front of the camera to behind the camera and a huge part of that I mean Talent is Talent so you know at the end of the day if you've been in front or not you know you need to have the chops for it but there's that added value I will never have that you know I will never as you know sensitive as I I aim to be
or as much as I try to learn and grow from from you all I will never have that very unique perspective that you have from having been a performer and so to that and to be able to bring that in to the set environment and to the dynamic to me it's so valuable so when when that performer has those chops and has that drive you know I think the best thing for our industry is to help carve Pathways for great you know directors of the future that have that sensitivity and that understanding for sure I
agree I also believe that a lot of it too you know it's not for everyone and I I believe that if you're either a creative or you're not I'm a very creative person you know I I I'm very visual um and I think that that really helps the process of all the things that I've done and all the things I'm going to continue to do that's the same with Seth and you know this like he's so visual and everything that he does it's just everything he touches is so good and I know it sounds like
I'm kissing his ass but you're proud of I love you so much Seth I know you're not going to listen to this but I love you oh he will he for sure will listen to this but yeah you better but yeah it's just you're either creative or you're not and if you are creative and you are you know going from performing to producer director it's phenomenal because you're you're getting to know all of the different dynamics of everything you know um but and I also believe too we're not coming in as a position of like
oh I have power over you because we know as performers we don't like that oh yeah we like being on sets like this that are you know gentle but fun you know uh that's the type of environments I like to be on I don't I don't ever want somebody to leave my set and be like oh my God I never want to work for her again [ __ ] I want them to leave and be like this was [ __ ] awesome yeah like when I all the things I've done you know people have said
that but the disruptive day Roman and Alpha and actually Joel over here we're onet um uh they at when we got done we were there I think we did like 10 or 11 hours something like that um I thanked them you know I thanked them I said thank you guys so much I know it was a long day um but you did incredible and they were so appreciative they were like this was so [ __ ] cool what we just did the acting like ala got really into it cuz he played a homeless man so
we painted his body we did coffee stains on his pants and stuff to make it look like they were like dirty and he was so into it and he loved it it was like messing up his hair and everything but um I don't know like it just hearing anyone say like I loved being a part of your project it's just very special oh yeah and you know this cuz I know people have said that to you but it never gets old and you always want to hear that no it it never gets old and it
reminds you of to like what fuels your passion and your creativity right exactly yeah I feel same way and funnily enough my first gay porn I ever direct it was also well I know it wasn't your first eat with Roman but my first Roman was in okay it was the very first episode of disruptive films and so he's amazing yeah he's been a a great actor with us ever since day one yeah yeah no he's really great very beautiful too oh yes see it doesn't doesn't hurt that he's extremely hand extremely handsome um keny we
could literally go on and on and on and on and I didn't I told you I was going to like ask one question and then never look back I'm sorry I feel like my answers were so long I'm no no listen listen I one thank you for sharing your story because that's the whole like whole goal of this podcast is to have like really real interesting conversations I think you had a lot a lot to share um and I know that you're always super open about sharing that but thank you for doing it again because
again we reach one person and that's that's all I want to do person each day like of course I want to help more than one but if I can help just one person each day to me like that's a win I hit my pillow at night and I'm like today was a good day well today was a good day it it was it was I appreciate you having me today well I it was Studio here it was long it was long overdue and the next time we talk yes we'll be on your podcast yes exactly
it'll just have to be after May when I'm done that the the next crazy movie I'm going to drag SE yeah yeah yeah thank you my dear thank you all right I just wrapped the most inspiring conversation with Kenzie Taylor I mean every time I talk to Kenzie I Walk Away Learning something new and feeling an even greater appreciation for just who she is as a human and who she is as a like person of influence and respect in our industry but man today like she went deep it was a great conversation I probably asked
one question off my list and then we just went uh she's got a lot to share and if she can she can help one person with her story to her that is a win and that is a day well spent and I really encourage really encourage you know everyone to get out and share this one thank you so much for listening and sticking around and I would love to hear your comments leave us any messages any of your own stories show us your support by liking by subscribing to our Channel by giving us a rating
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