the older I get the more I realize how life is pretty [Music] paradoxical when you're young you can't wait to grow up and be an adult and when you're older you long for the times when you were a child when you're young you have your health but not the means to do what you want and when you're older you have the means but not so much the health the list goes on really but there is one I've been stuck on the most I recently bought a Sketchbook with the idea to turn it into an art
Journal but pretty quickly I found my journal unused my expectations too high and my motivation nowhere to be found cuz when you're younger you're blissfully unaware of the freedom you have to just create to let your imagination run free but as you get older you become painfully aware of things like comparison expectations and this urge to always impress that you finally realized just how lucky you were to be able to create for the purpose of creating in 2005 I went on family vacation in Thailand and to document this trip I had my very first art
Journal I'm honestly not even sure I could write at the time so most of it is just collages and drawings and tickets of places we visited but the point is that it wasn't anything profound or impressive by any means but rather that it was a reminder that you had and still have the ability to create freely it's just a matter of rediscovering it [Music] so when my family proposed to go on vacation together I thought it would be the perfect time to take a page out of my 5-year-old self's book [Music] [Music] I've always been
a bit of a perfectionist which I'm pretty sure most people would say about themselves but because of that I can really struggle to actually translate the thoughts and ideas that I have and be happy with it because somehow it seems like it can always be better interestingly enough those old journals would seem like the complete opposite of perfect they were messy and unfinished but that's exactly what made them perfect pages are looking a little bit rough because having such a raw and tangible version of an experience is kind of the closest anyone could ever get
to reliving a memory where you can find everything from the things you did to the sights you saw to the food you ate the feelings you felt or even the music you listen to and that's why I go to music bed if journaling is the closest you can ever get to reliving a memory I think music music is the most effortless way to do so as someone who documents their life and experiences through videos finding the right music to accompany them has been absolutely essential but it can also be very hard to find the right
song but that was until I found music bed their library is honestly nothing short of impressive where I'm able to actually use the very same songs that I have defined some of my experiences and even if I can't find the exact same songs their Search tool will help me find one with a similar sound and feel so that I don't have to compromise on the emotion and Nostalgia that the music of my videos and ultimately my life evokes there will be a link in my description for a 14-day free trial and I highly recommend that
you give it a go because the feel of their music is honestly just unparalleled to be honest this video isn't really about journaling anyway it's just about this constant battle we have between our inner child and our inner critic a common threat in my life and I think probably many others as well is that it always seems like everyone around you knows exactly what they're doing and has it all figured out and I think the same thing can be said for any creative Pursuit really because I feel like I constantly have all these ideas and
thoughts that seem so brilliant in my mind but they get lost in translation when I try to bring them to life and I've definitely beat myself up over the fact that I just can't seem to attain this perfect picture that I have in my head of of what I create whether it's journals or drawings or paintings or videos sometimes it just kind of feels like I have the blueprint but I lack the right tools but to be honest that's kind of what makes anyone's creation so unique and Priceless there is no right and wrong as
to how you can create and if everyone would have the right tools then all creations would look the same I think our ability to create is one of the most interesting things about us not because everything we create is perfect but precisely because it's not there is such a beauty and clumsiness and messiness and imperfection that I think we sometimes fail to embrace creating something that might seem imperfect to you is always going to be better than not creating anything at all and risking losing something that might be invaluable to you in the future I
guess it's just important to remember remember that somewhere within you there is that inner child who didn't care about expectations or needing to impress the people around them and the best way to access that kind of creativity and creative freedom is to just start somewhere small and perhaps even seemingly irrelevant like my 5-year-old's art Journal something that will make you understand why you started and how you can pick it back up again [Music]
