and I was backed up and I was two years on speed my father is away from us I don't have contact with him a lot why are you drinking because I don't want to think of him and every day is a fight for me mentally and physically and I had to live and find my way to live you know M you are a good girl but in the streets you're going to find a lot of bad people they're like oh she's alone she's homeless bro I would literally rather kill you than like take care of
I told you had uh drug problems that is what the drug does to your brain you don't understand I don't hear from a lot of people he I'm proud for you [Music] hi so remember [Music] me do you remember me right yes I remember you you hat me so much okay how did you end up here well I'm 18 and I left my country like 3 months ago because I have a complicated family and I don't have my father and my mother is amazing but uh she doesn't uh just doesn't function well after being in
that kind of relationship know she stay she she stays with your your your father no no my father is away from us I don't have contact with him a lot they split uh when my when I was 10 or more early okay and now you are 18 yeah okay and you have siblings like brothers sisters you're alone alone this is crazy and uh why did you decide to like okay I'm going to leave my house I'm going to try something because it's very scary to live there why because I have a toxic family and every
day is a fight for me mentally and physically and I'm afraid to be there and just I don't know I had to live and find my way to live you know any way that I just had to live there and this is not my plan for the future be in the street and do shows you know I want to be professional show or professional freestyler or uh get a really good name for myself but I just started and I I am I'm trying hard but I'm alone you know what's your biggest dream to go to
uh America why because I want to really learn the Spanish and see the culture and uh see how people are there really I want to know how it is in every place you want to go to us I don't know South uhia and Mexico and uh do you have your passport here I have an ID how can you go to South America if you don't have passport I am just 18 you know and what that is just my dream but the first step to follow your dream is to do the first step of your dream
to get the passport and then you can travel no yeah but I need the money first ah okay now we are talking how do you think you can make a lot of money suffering for some time and just keeping the money for travel okay but how much do you make a day doing this well it depends on the day today I make 400 Corona That's like 15 okay and with 15 how can you eat and pay that depends on the day that is the problem so but tell me I want to understand you yeah yeah
uh I came to prag because I had enough of GRA okay you you told me about your here about the competition of freestyle and I just wanted to see it next year I'm competing there okay that gets you if you compete there that gets you uh some kind of um you are a freestyler then you are known to the community and it makes you boost up and I want that because I will continue in this uh path but I need to have some kind of name for myself there and uh I went to the competition
to see all everything and I was staying there and it's Liber it's close to prag all right and how do you pay your accommodation and your food cuz I stay in a hostel that's like 20 50 no 30 at night or something like that it's around €1 yeah okay very cheap yeah very cheap and very good I mean I stayed in bad bad hostels trust me one the last one I stayed in had bed bugs and I'm like bro there's bugs in the bed what you doing and he's like what I don't see nothing I
killed them on the wall you can see the [ __ ] stains where are you staying now now in the good but where a and o and uh what are you drinking alcohol why are you drinking alcohol my boyfriend broke up with me really yeah he's Colombian you told me yesterday I remember show me so you have money for alcohol I don't so how did you get that well I did too hard on my body and Italian Italian wine that is the cheapest how much is this but fly like 50 Marka Corona 50 crowns okay
how much is 50 Coronas in two I I drinking two yes so why he broke up with you because he's a [ __ ] why tell me are you putting one in this thing why you cannot oh you know you look like a alcoholic I'm drinking from a Mario cup what what is this in in the Box this this what is this oh it's juice are you mixing juice with wine yeah the wine is disgusting for me I hate alcohol bro I don't drink I didn't drink for two months because I'm a [ __ ]
I'm a I'm a sports and I can't drink because I know the next next day I will be [ __ ] sick yes so why are you drinking now because I don't want to think of him but you don't need to think of him you are better than him you are stronger than him what are you doing here but I want him but uh you have to love yourself no I don't know how he doesn't want you why from anyone where is where where is him now I don't know but he was here with you
we we are staying in the same hostel and before we went to do shows he's like how long have you been together from for one year so he's here in prag okay you're going to make make make up yeah but not really it's not about making up and forgetting about it it's about every day feeling like [ __ ] and fighting and fighting every everything and not trusting each other and beating each other up being in [ __ ] bad situations and I know that it's not healthy and I grew up around that kind of
uh I was about to yeah I grew up at exactly this kind of treatment and it's really scary how bad it is it's scary how bad it is but for me it's in my brain chemistry it's normal it's [ __ ] normal not not like I think it's normal I don't think it's normal my brain just accepts it because I saw just that you know I I I just see my parents talking or doing bad things to each other ever and after effect of my mom always being aggressive and nervous and stressed and really manic
in some moments being crazy and for me after one fight I'm like oh I'm sorry I'm sorry but why are you acting crazy 2 minutes ago because it's normal for me have you ever beat him no no no no we um kind of do it joking I don't know I don't know okay I I got you what are you about to say that I understood I don't beat him um um you know can I can I talk now that happens like pushing each other and that ends up yeah but you know what the next level
is going to be beat yeah but it was trust me that's why I'm saying it's not I'm not drinking because okay listen to me uh I'm writing a book about human behaviors I have been 196 countries I saw many stories many things and as human we have a pattern you know this word pattern mhm so every time our behaviors is going to repeat and repeat and repeat and this Behavior going in a circle yes but this Behavior come first from our childhood and from our family what you hate on your parents is going to be
exactly what let me finish let me I'm going to explain to you if you let me finish what you hate in your parents is going to be exactly the same how you're going to leave because you avoid the problem you know you can't just avoid the problem because you're going to repeat the problem with your partner if it's not this one it's going to be with the next one and it's going to be the next one and always is going to be into a toxic relationship because your brain is going to want it you know
and when you don't when you don't have the chaos you're going to feel weird you're going to feel that oh I need the chaos I need the drama you know let me feelish I know listening listen to me I know what you're talking about because I was like that you know I always live in the chaos not about my mom and my dad but different chaos about money and I struggled my whole life about money because I was looking for the Theos you are fighting about the money when there is not even an issue you
can't you can't think about the money you have to make money works for you you know and when I realize that I start to enjoy the peace not the chaos if you see Instagram people like disasters tragedy this kind of stuff people don't like to to to consume content you are 18 you are drinking and smoking like a like an adud you know you're just 18 you should not smoke like that well I started at 13 okay so how you see your life if you keep like this in 10 years in 15 years you're going
to be dead or by beaten by someone killed by someone or by nicotine or by alcohol you know you have to think about my advice for you if you are open to listen mhm because seems that you're angry I'm not angry at all I'm I'm trying to help you listen I'm not angry I'm listening and I am sad that it's true I'm not but I don't want you to be sad I want to change that okay you have one passion first you have a sport that's a very good way to make someone live uh bad
place you know bad habits you need good habits so you need wake up but look at that you can catch me in this moment drinking but I don't drink I believe believe in you but you smoke yeah yeah I smoke I smoke so much so you at listen to me wow what's your plans for the next days well I'm staying in the hostel and my plan is to do money and when I for for how long you going to do money here well I need to give my mom some money why she borrowed you yeah
but it's not about borrow me it's about wants to give her money why because it's my mom and for years she is alone taking care of me because my father was never there for help before yeah but it's not your problem right yeah but I love her so much yes but if I understand I have parents and uh I help them I move them to Portugal to live with me in Portugal but the point is uh before help someone you have to help yourself you're never going to help yourself if you think about someone first
even though it's your mom you have to help you you have to be good and then you can help her but I can't lose her respect you not going to lose her respect if you don't have money to help her she did she know that you are here in this situation yeah really yeah and she what she said poor okay you are poor but you're going to be more poor if you give your money to her you have to to invest your money in knowledge in you you know like but I left school okay I
left school even though they my whole family is telling me to finish I left it because I wasn't good I was trying to kill myself wow it's a sign it's just two years don't worry yeah that's right that's right you see everything has a good thing you know that yeah I went because I was really really [ __ ] up trust me I I didn't I don't say School is I love it love I want to learn more about human psychology really I love too much because uh I was emotionally and physically abused emotionally for
me is harder than physically because it makes you want to kill yourself the physically someone doing it to you you don't do that to yourself they can cause you bad feelings but you cause yourself the worst ones the worst nobody can make you feel as bad as yours you your head inside I mean maybe it can be caused by other people but you are the one that is physically abused and when you're physically no emotionally abused and when you're emotionally abused you just worse and worse and worse and in your mind it doesn't change I
was in this situation and I left school okay I want to ask you one thing you going to stay here for how long one week and then where are you going um to Croatia a so you're going to go back to Croatia yeah all right where where is your hostel I don't know Metro like ah you have to take Metro okay yeah what would make you more happy like you need money for to to to pay the host right yeah but it's okay you help me that day I know I know but how how besides
the money how would you be more happy did you eat yeah are you hungry let's eat let me do one thing first because I was doing my makeup before you came here and I don't have my life little wait wait that's very interesting that even though you almost a homeless you have your makeup perfect because I still live what did you do you Ste makeup from who don't do that but how you do that you can just do in the I just put it in my pocket bro oh my God don't do that yeah I'm
trying is a Karma you know that if you do that people not going to help you not going to make money never if you T something that's not yours Girl house period every month for seven days the the period parts are too expensive how much well in Croatia I don't know it's just you know you have to buy a look [Applause] are because you have a lot of potential you know like you have a you have a a dream about the sports you know how to do stuff but I am don't don't give up don't
give yourself to drugs to alcohol otherwise you're going to be like one more of these guys I'm done with drugs I tell you really we are poor and and I was [ __ ] up and I was two years on speed wow and I stopped I stopped you stopped so now you don't use drugs I don't use drugs I can because uh I Sports you know already smoking cigarettes so bad and the drugs make your brain too much [ __ ] up and I hate the drugs now your story yeah it's going to going to
inspire a lot of girls in the same situation as you to leave to to work to fight you know that's why I do this kind of videos to help people you know and it's very important you know I I I I went through a lot of bad things but never never I'm thinking of doing I was looking for you today you know really yes because do you believe in God no okay do you believe in energy I believe in the universe the universe today in a French I did the French class and today with my
teacher the universe told me that I should find you oh really so okay let's what do you want to eat there is a show arm over there there is there Sushi what do you want you choose you can go sushi sushi yes of course of course when was the last time that you ate sushi one year ago okay let's eat sushi let me put here sushi sushi but you cannot drink anymore huh no okay Finish drink okay no more drinks you deser you are a good girl you know but in the streets you're going to
find a lot of bad people I used to live in a yes you're going to find people just want to [ __ ] you you know all the time yeah that's why I I'm sad because he lets me go like it's nothing for him and I feel so much alone alone in the street and the big city without anybody that I know is it open thank you very much pleas thank you so [Music] cute never one year he didn't eat sushi this is crazy I mean it's I like but it's really [ __ ] expensive
for me it's here o looks cool oh it look so cool wait you are from Brazil yeah yes Brazil teach me anything in Brazil o to o o to to it's like kak oh o and you say means hi t for please you give us just a minute yes if you of course what is this called in English chameleon we had a chameleon for about 3 months and a big uh cage cage for him and we were feeding him with crickets and I'm deadly afraid of crickets but the C was fine one day I came
to to the terance and uh I look inside and he changed color finally he was green all the time he changed color to like yellow or something and I'm like Mama Mama Bea changed the color he wasn't alive he died he died oh that's a very sad story no because they came there and they they're they're looking at it now that I know I remember remember they're like how the [ __ ] we're going to tell her this how are we going to tell her he didn't change the color he he changed the life but
why do you have this tattoo because I think I'm like a comedian you know I can adapt myself yeah inorder in different situations like I could have a way to talk with you but also I can talk with a billionaire so I I have this skill to talk with people amazing and I really want to help more people you know that's my so good person my purpose I really want to share my what I see in the world and how I see the world I think I have a very unique view of the world you
do and I want to share this there not a lot of people that are going to come to you with this kind of uh intentions yeah there's a lot of people that want to make you think they have good intentions and then just lose all your time and energy or even worse for people that will have bad intentions from the start I didn't have a lot of good interactions with people like this I had lots of people supporting me but anyone come to me with uh hey you want to eat something it's like oh you
do football yeah just like small talks yeah increase your energy I need to have energy I interact I do shows I have to be extroverted I have to interact with the people like okayy people let's go give me some you money no no give me some energy no don't give me money it's I don't expect the people for uh make some I make something for the entertainment the people that enjoy it give me money and that means more to me than begging someone for money because exactly the people that like these things is the people
that I would like to connect with how many hours per day do you sleep like 7 yeah like you go to sleep like 4:00 a.m. and then wake up in the afternoon no I go to sleep the latest at 2: and I wake up at 11:00 okay so you at least at least you have good sleep yeah I had you know I told you I had uh drug problems and uh this this time was so hard for me I didn't sleep for days because I wasn't think speed of course speed doesn't make you sleep yeah
I didn't take the drve drugs to get high I took the drugs to do things because I convinced myself that I couldn't do them without the drug and I am stupid for thinking that because that that is what the drug does to your brain it uh makes you think it's necessary for you to do anything I would wake up at 16 in the morning at 16 years old thinking wait I need to drop myself Al line so I can wake up and go to school to sell drugs why really yeah it's like hey I need
to go to school I need to wake up because my my parents will beat me if I don't go to school I need to wake up and draw myself Aline to wake myself up because I was so [ __ ] up I couldn't wake up when my parents is my mom is coming to me in the room to wake me up and I don't have it I am crazy in the morning it's so disgusting I hate this person I hate myself for doing that but I'm so happy I got out of it you don't understand
I don't hear from a lot of people hey I'm proud for you for that I don't need it because I see what I doing now without it and I'm doing so much more than I did with that and I made myself think I need it not no the drug make you think you need it it's it's crazy what it does to your brain chemistry it's crazy because it doesn't make you it makes you another person really another person in a scary way because you don't recognize yourself thank you so [Music] much oh I'm taking this
home I'm so cute cheers thank you you're welcome I'm going to go wash my hands yes okay fore [Music] how did you stop to use drugs my partner helped me a lot how because uh I think when I love someone I love so much that even that thing that I'm addicted to even if it's not drug or substance I will let it go for this person it's hard I had slips I used it and he found it we he found it and uh he forgave me but uh he's he told me sorry and my English
is bad a b no it's okay um but do you think now after he broke up you going to go back no I don't think about that anymore any any any way because so do you think that uh I can think about other things but that makes think you you can tell that because you did it you you left it how do you think that people who is addicted can leave the addiction you need to push yourself you need to find anything thank you I'm taking a [Music] picture I'm sending my mom p a picture
for you it's hard it's it looks impossible but you don't have to uh when you sleep from it you don't have to blame yourself you don't at all have to feel bad or if you sleep from it the same instant you need to tell someone that you know will literally Ben you from doing it if you don't have this person you need to find in yourself that person because if you continue with that that is making you more and more crazy when you are in that you don't realize it you think you're opening up your
mind you are not opening up your mind you're opening up something that is not real it's uh you only see this when you are clean why do you think that you started to talk about it because I stopped to do it and the first of first month of the year I stopped no no why why did you start which age oh I because of influence of friends okay it's like oh you want one I don't have anyone to stop me you know don't you don't you think that if you have more stable family would you
like hold yourself yeah maybe because you're revolted about your family like I don't care I don't give a [ __ ] I mean my dad is this way he's what my dad is was this way now he's alcoholic but before he used drugs and he told me so young about it so you want to try no it's for you I'm very F thank you what did you eat I ate two sandwich this is so good is it good I'm happy thank you I started because um I was introduced to the trans parties def no trans
parties you can say people come there without drugs there is but most of them are high most of them are high I know I know I know I know it's it's a lot of time to stay there without drugs or Red Bull you need a lot of Red Bull at 17 um was the first time I worked in the modern Festival do you know no I worked there at 17 7 Days 12 hour shifts wa 30 minute break wow and I was doing drugs because I wasn't I wasn't capable to do all of that you
know I was cleaning some kind of plastic boxes that were dirty from the what do you call the thing you make pizza the the before okay you know yeah yeah I know and um that when you put it out it's dries and get so hard and I scratch and that and clean this make B before your exboyfriend did you have more more guys no like how many boyfriends do you have I have two exes but it wasn't long but do you use condoms right yeah why are you asking me that Sor mom because I don't
want you to get pregnant M you have to be careful you know otherwise you're going to repeat what your mom and your dad did with you you're going to do with another kid plus I don't [ __ ] around with people yeah but with your ex-boyfriend I'm telling you you have to be careful but I don't like to look at guys because I'm scared of them you should unfortunately I can't uh recognize a beautiful person or eat inside I understand but when I look at someone in the street I Look Away anyway I think is
maybe beautiful just by looking I look away I don't want anything good but I scared to experience it list you're going to you're going to make me a promise okay yeah you're going to find one place it call vasana there are vasana around the world it's a Meditation Retreat and it changed a lot my life it's not about drugs mushrooms nothing it's just about the power of your B and your breath okay you want to promise you that you're going to go to the nearest vasana you're going to stay 10 days without phone without internet
just studying about yourself wow you're going to be with monks with people around you're going to be Pure Clean and you're going to start to use your mind to solve all of your problems promise me look into my eyes I want that okay that's so good because I want to love myself and find a way but it's hard when you're alone and young and from The Young you know what is hard it's when you are with a lot of stimulus you are here in Prague it's thousand of people passing so a lot of energy a
lot of people and wasting my all my energy on other people most of the guys they just want to have sex with you yeah but I don't tell them go yeah yeah of course of course but I mean they DS you know like you are surrounded of people who who they want to have sex or they want something from you bad intentions bad intentions you need to go to a place safe and this is not safe in your house is not safe yet because when you you understand about yourself you can block yourself about bad
intention you know what I mean and you cannot make people affect you in any way because everything that we have here is temporary like your dad is not your dad it's from the planet because he came from the planet and he after he died we going to go back to the planet this body is not my body it's borrow the planet borrow me yeah but your mind is yours yes it's the only thing you understand yeah because only you can control the yes so when you understand the power of the Mind you can do anything
in your life I love really I love the all the things about psychology and learning more about it but I just never had a really good time to do that and and not know a place one question if you go on the street and you make 100,000 100 what you do with the money food and hotel and more bus would you would you buy alcohol I don't drink just Che yeah like even if if I drink that's like going to be €2 that's it I can't give my money that I worked hard for on a
drink you know that's good that's why I went in the market in the cheapest one and took the €2 like [ __ ] I'm giving that € yeah but it's going to make me forget I know it's not good I know it's not good but I am so [ __ ] up from past when I feel something I feel it 10 times stronger than it is and I make make make make myself really want to crash out really [ __ ] crash out because I don't know how to control it don't worry know okay I
want to share something with her I'm sure that her history can help more people I want to know about her yes her history why yeah I'm writing a book because you're an amazing person thank you you are but I think like why should I get involved with someone if in the street if there are a lot of people that's not in the street and can have another interaction like when you are in the street it means that you are fighting that you are like you you are you are passing you are learning you know you
are not the person to have any kind of R remains or relationship you know of course you have but it's F like before you open yourself to new relationships you should so yourself when I was in the street I was thinking about that I was not thinking to have a girlfriend you know I was thinking like a place exactly how can you love someone if you are you have struggle with self love how can you give someone good things if you are trying to give yourself good things you know yeah well that's because the feeling
of love is so amazing especially when you are feeling alone and you are like this that it makes you think that you can do both in the same time but you can't until you solve yourself yeah because you do the wor you do the opposite of what you want and you just destroy that love you take the love that made you inspire to make and take and stay with this person and you just destroy it because you are not good yeah and that is worse than letting the person go until you resolve yourself but I
can tell you I worked a lot on me to get this kind of me like when I go to place and I find some girl attractive or they found me attractive and if I start to talk and I don't think this girl it's good for me even though she's hot I say no I like most of the men they think with the another head but I start I see you know and I start to think about this head and my life become much better you know there's not a lot of guys like that I sto
to do one night like they are trying I can see someone trying they don't control their other head that's the point to be a man you can't control your Sexual Energy I'm so happy I miss you in the right moment thank you very much okay no problem look at that my phone is fuing thank [Music] [Music] you I need to withdraw money well you have internet you have your phone try to use your phone and your Internet to learn you know about skills about communication about human behaviors about psychology you have an access you know
in my in my time I didn't have a lot of information a lot of access you know you are in Europe you have this Advantage uh so try to use it yeah um I'm going to go this way okay wait wait wait wait this is for you why this is more 50 make to make this is for you this is four days in the hostel okay so now you're going to you're going to work light you know you don't have to think about that it's 4 days in your hostel you can you know but it's
[ __ ] hard to accept that you just accept you give me it's okay it's not too much okay give so me Aug thank you thank you and please go to Viana write it write it write it but my phone is going to die okay text me text me on Instagram because I don't know okay okay okay okay okay bye thank you amazing meet you wish you all the best and the the most important help listen is not the food is not the money is this yeah remember everything that I told you that is here
it's it's important that have to someone remind you thank you bye say bye to the people byebye bye amig for
