hey everyone it's Taylor and today I wanted to talk to you guys about something that I went through and that was what happens when you're not in prayer you're not in your word and you feel like you are slipping away from the Lord and I know this is something a lot of us go through because sometimes we get too into our own lives and we'll just we'll slip up and when you slip it just feels so easy to stay stuck right so last week I just wasn't feeling my my normal morning routine I'm not going
to say my normal like I am starting a morning routine I'm getting in the habit of like waking up and starting off with prayer and um that encourages me to go into Bible study and and stay in my word throughout the day and um I just wasn't doing that and a reflection of that was how I felt I was like so irritable I was so fatigued like I was complaining that whole time of being so fatigued no energy no motivation to do anything and I had so much worry in my head right like I was
just thinking about all the things that I had to do and there wasn't enough time to do them and just like scatterbrained with all of these thoughts and it it created like so much anxiousness in me and I I knew that wasn't that wasn't from the Lord right so like I was subject to spiritual attack because cuz the enemy knows exactly how you're feeling he he's watching you throughout the day and when he saw me slip and he saw me having those those weak moments of like H I feel like so terrible right now I
feel like not a great person right now I just feel spiritually icky he saw that and he went straight in but the thing is is that he's going to do what he's going to do he's going to do what he's been doing so that means that I got to do what I know I need to do which I is start my morning off with the Lord stay grounded in the Holy Spirit be in my word those are the things that make me feel so good it makes me feel safe it makes me have energy to
go do things and and not feel so scattered brained I'm like actually very calm when I'm in the Lord but you know when I was in that moment of like feeling I know I'm not praying I know I'm not in my word I'll just do it tomorrow and then I never did it and then another day would pass and I wouldn't do it like I started to feel a little bit guilty like you know what I was on this great streak where I was starting my mornings off so well and now I'm not and I
just feel like I fa the Lord and he's upset at me like all of these feelings were surfacing but the thing is is that like even though I felt that way the Lord was still there the Lord was still waiting for me to come to him it's just like I wasn't going to him I was going to other things to to make me feel better and they never made me feel better you know I would compare it to like me not going to the Lord immediately I would compare it to like when somebody calls or
texts you and you don't get back to them immediately and you kind of forget and then a day passes by and then another day passes by and you still haven't got back to them and then the next thing you know like a week has passed by and you still haven't got to them and you're like oh my gosh I'm such a bad friend I'm such a bad person like why can't I just text this person and you just you feel anxious at that point like are they going to be mad at me like that's kind
of how I felt the Lord was going to be with me but that's absolutely not true that was the enemy doing what he was doing he was doing what he was going to do so don't feel like the Lord will shun you for getting out of your routine getting out of going to him he knows it's going to happen and he's there to redeem you all right he's there to pick you back up he's only just to prayer away all right you just got to you got to pray all that stuff away when you're feeling
that when you're feeling that worry surface when you're feeling like you're not good enough and and all of the these things that the enemy is telling you you got to pray it away and it will go it will flee it seems so simple right it seems so simple just pray it away but I know like sometimes we get stuck we get stuck in our own heads but truly like as soon as I just gave it gave it all to God and um you know stopped living in my own little world it got so much better
it things just went back to normal you know like went back to normal with my relationship we got back on course and like you know I did start to feel guilty but as soon it was it's all about like your change in perspective because I did feel that guilt and I did feel that shame but like if I didn't go through that then I wouldn't know what it feels like to not have the Lord right like I now know that that's not how I want to be I don't want to be in that position anymore
so I'm G to let it pass I'm just going to say like that was that was a little season of what my life is like living in a world where like I don't have Christ and front and center in my life and I don't want that that's not what I want so yeah if you are going through this just know that you're not alone and this is one of the reasons why I love having this channel is because I am a baby Christian some of you know that you know I'm a baby Christian I'm learning
as I go and gaining spiritual as much spiritual wisdom as I can again you know and that's going to take time but I know that like it doesn't matter how old you are or how far along in your journey you are like we still all go through the same things we still all go through like the same attacks you know and sometimes we just need that reminder of like God's not upset at you he really isn't like I went through it and if anything it just made me cling on tighter to Jesus you know like
it it I'm glad it happened so yeah um that's pretty much all I wanted to say if you are going through something like this and you feel comfortable comment down below and if you need a prayer we I will pray for you and I'm sure there are other beautiful brothers and sisters that will pray for you too and we can make like a little prayer chain um yeah if you need prayer and uh iy purse too guys like I I slip I slip it's very easy for me to slip but yeah I'm very thankful for
you guys and I hope you're having an amazing day I hope that this made you feel good and let you know that the lord loves you because he does um so I'm going to end it at that Jesus loves you I love you too and I will see you in my next video bye
