During the diagnosis, I felt that I died, yes, but I also felt that I was born , because I wasn't even reborn, I was born a completely different person. right, so you were the one who goes ahead to solve the father's case, solve the mother's case, you know, you bring everyone in the backpack, you know, so when something like this happens, the family feels it but they also lose this person who goes ahead to do everything Wonderful, right? What I think is something I saw a lot while I was seeing my patients who said like this, oh I can't, I'm going to spare my father, I'm going to spare my mother, guys, and you , I said like this, oh, but he won't take it, love, pay attention.
You're the only one who can, if the light says, I can't handle it, the others will have to and if I can't handle it, it wasn't meant to be Ok, you'll know exactly from now on who you count on, who you don't count on and then unbelievable things happen that mother who was super fragile Vupt became a sister that brother who Ero o Can you believe it, you know that the one who the sister supported, ok, ok, becomes the guy who, like, takes him to and from chemotherapy and then goes, let's go to the cinema, let's go I don't know what, so we can have good surprises when we think that everyone depends on us, no, the world never stops, it will never stop You said something beautiful that when you had it there in Santos, right with the car, you had the feeling that how You know, the world is moving along, everything is happening and I'm here with the diagnosis. As if you were disconnected from collective time, that was the feeling you had , and I still feel it a little bit to this day, yes, but it's crazy because that's when we see that we are individuals in a collective and there is a time when the movement of the collective is not ours, that is the time when you disconnect from the time of the general, right, you do it here. This is inevitable to be done and in reality it would have to be done not because you have cancer from time to time so we can have this vision not only the external vision because we live a lot of routine it is a totally external view of the world connection with the internal we have little internal connection So when you there you had this feeling you started to connect inside exactly that it's a totally different universe that only you walk inside it and it's so difficult Bia, remember that I commented that during the diagnosis I felt that I died, yes, but I also felt that I was born because I I wasn't even reborn, I was born a completely different person, just with the same memories and dealing with that is a huge challenge, so when people ask me, marrio, which of the biggest challenges do I say, eh hum?
At the beginning I tried to find myself After this journey, I looked and said Wow, I'm not finding myself , I'm lost, I've already finished the treatment, right? Today I'm having a follow-up, a blockade, but a hormonal blockade, but I spent some time with myself, I'm not the same person anymore, but I have memories of the person who I was and the people around are still the same uhum of course they also suffered with you but they didn't go through what you went through and obviously not everyone goes through exactly as I'm saying but that was my experience I even like to make an analogy with what the People are talking, I think as if the world were a puzzle and we were each piece, so I feel as if my puzzle piece in this world came loose, went through an earthquake, tidal wave, hurricane and it dried up. well it's dry but it doesn't fit anymore it doesn't fit anymore and I can even try to put it on but it's different and then there are the challenges not only of dealing with it but of people around learning and understanding that I can't be the same anymore person and everything is fine It's more or less, right, because we all have depression, so I felt, there's no fault in the process, right And those who love you will understand that, those who depended on you and didn't understand what happened Will want you to be the same again exactly what you were is not possible for you, it is not for anyone if we think about it, you can go to the same place 10 times in your existence But you never go at the same time, you are never the same person, you just have to the situation you went through made it wide open you know what is very complicated a Once in a conversation at a lecture a doctor said this to me Mari but everyone goes through this because we have a change you are not if you think about Mari, right 10 years ago it wasn't the same way I told her like this I only understand that the frequency that I feel It's as if I were not 100 years ahead of most people but 100 years apart from the other I understood from around me when this is what I said when I said this that today still It's a challenge because I feel a little disconnected with this world, for sure, so I look, I feel more, I already had this habit of sensitivity, it got bigger, right, much bigger, it got sharper , so I feel more love, but I also feel more impatience, uhm, no.
I have patience more sadness more sadness more joy sometimes when you see your daughters playing It's as if you were watching it for the first time It's a different feeling but until then we get into this issue of sadness and joy which I think is really cool I'm talking about this mental health process that I have, which is so cool Have you ever stopped to think about how many times you've put yourself in the background I've also been through this and today I want to invite you to change this story just like I changed mine also a time for me is my new book but it goes far beyond a good read it is a guide for you to rediscover the importance of taking time just for yourself it is now available for pre-order on Amazon it is your opportunity to embark on a journey of self-care and self-knowledge that can transform your life. I don't want you to put yourself in the background anymore, but what can you expect from this launch? Every day of the year, a new reflection that will make you stop thinking and connect with the your emotions you will have 365 days of learning and personal growth at your fingertips each page is a reminder for you to look within, value who you really are and take care of what is most important your mind and how to ensure yours is easy The book It is available on Amazon and in the main online bookstores in Brazil, don't waste time and reserve your copy.
