You know, there are many quotes in the world that you can take with you and meditate upon, but you know, there's something that Blake said that I think is very important. And it says that self-justification is the voice of hell. And I caught myself the other day justifying the state that I was in.
And you know Neville Neville spoke about this in one of his lectures where he speaks about you know we'll say that he did it she did it you know they did this first or did they did that and there's a lot of truth in it and that's why self-justification is so addicting because you you're right a lot of the times you are correct in when you justify yourself but the problem that comes is that you are actually justifying yourself into a state you don't want to be in so in my case I was in a certain state of mind I didn't want to be in and I caught myself creating all these reasons as to why I should stay even though I didn't really want to stay and I had to really ask myself do I want to be freed from this state or do I want to be right and at times I choose to be right but it leaves me in the same position so I have to choose my own freedom eventually and it really is a voice of hell because it keeps me in a hell so I justify my way into remaining in the same state even if I want to get out of it So when people come to me and they tell me I want to be freed from this thing and they come up with these reasons why they're not freed, why they can't be free, why they can't appropriate the state of consciousness inside themselves because your freedom that you're seeking is not under your bed. It's not in a cabinet somewhere. It's within you and it's something that you need to take.
But we can justify why we're not in that state. And many of the times it's we have this deep need to be right. And I have to ask I had to ask myself, do I want to be right or do I want to be freed?
And I had to choose freedom eventually. I had to see that my desire is not necessarily to be right. Even though I can feel drawn to that, it's to be free.
It's to be um in this case, if it's the voice of hell, if self-justification is the voice of hell, then the the voice of heaven is forgiveness. I need to forgive myself for being in this state. And I forgive it by assuming myself to be in a different one.
And who doesn't want to be right in this world, right? I mean, it's it's um it's a habit that I formed, but not necessarily a habit I want to continue. And I need to learn the the acts of forgiveness, not necessarily the acts of being right.
And we can justify anything we are in inside ourselves. We can find a reason why we're in that and why we should remain in it. But again, it's not a matter of being right.
It's a matter of do you want to be in this mental state? Do you want to be living mentally in this place? You're allowed to live mentally anywhere.
You need to know that or else you're going to feel like you're stuck in the place you're in mentally. Regardless of what happens in the day, regardless of what thing you heard about yourself or what rumor you heard, you can test it. So, let's say you you heard something of the day that about you, but let's say you told yourself something that you didn't like or you heard something you didn't like about yourself in the day and it sends you in this sort of mental position where you are in a crossroads.
Now, do I go down thinking that or do I can I choose my way into believing I'm something um that I want to be that regardless of what was said, can I still be free? I need to test my freedom regardless of what I heard. Can I believe in something new within myself?
Can I continue believing in the good that I was believing in even though I might have heard something wrong? And that that is loyalty to your state. That's what it means to remain loyal.
It's that it's not really about whatifs. It's even if I hear these things, I will remain faithful to what I'm imagining about myself. I'm not going to justify myself anymore into the states I don't want to be in.
I'm going to forgive myself and I'm going to keep forgiving myself uh for this entire life. I will keep forgiving myself. It's not It's not over just because you moved into a state you didn't want to be in.
Just cuz I moved into one I didn't like, it doesn't mean it's over. Doesn't mean I have to remain there. No, I can test it.
Okay. Just because I fell out of a state I wanted that I wanted to be in. and I say I fell out.
I can test that. Do I have to remain in it? Can I move on as if I didn't even fall out of it?
Do I have to justify myself? Do I have to condemn myself? No, I don't.
I can forgive and move on as if I didn't even fall out of it. And that's that's the that's the way to move inside. You don't self-pity.
You don't condemn. You forgive yourself every time. It's the same answer every time.
Forgiveness extends that far. There's nothing that can't be forgiven inside yourself. Nothing.
Your forgiveness doesn't dry up. It doesn't go away. It's again, your forgiveness, just like your freedom.
It's not it's not found in a cabinet. It's in you and it won't you won't be it won't be lost. So, if you're afraid that one day you won't be able to forgive yourself or that you won't live in forgiveness and you'll simply live in self-justification, it's not true.
That's a lie. So really the voice of hell is is just a voice of lies. Forgiveness is what's true.
And so I'm not interested in living in being right. I'm interested in truth. And what I find truth to be is love and forgiveness.
I don't find it to be anything else. It's not necessarily it it is logical and it is rational, but it's beyond that. It's beyond those things.
I don't want to live a rational life. If I want to live a life where I really understand what love is and what I'm discovering what love is is that it's a power and I can use it to forgive or to condemn but its nature is is good. Meaning that I will it will always be available to me inside myself to forgive.
It doesn't go away. There's nothing that can't be imagined and there's nothing that can't be forgiven. And so if I love myself, I'll forgive myself by moving into a different state.
Just the same way if you see a friend that you care about, you see them struggling. You don't you don't feel proud that they're struggling. You don't feel good about yourself that they're struggling.
You imagine them in a greater state and you keep remaining to it until they become that state. The same is true for yourself. You keep unforgiving every single day until you become that state.
And you become these things by assuming you already are them. So, I just wanted to keep this one short and just speak about a certain thing I was doing for the last uh few weeks. I caught myself self-justifying inside.
And I really saw that it was the voice of hell. And again, I had to ask myself, do I want to be right or do I want to be free? What do I want to be?
And I chose being right over and over and over again. And I kept going in circles. I noticed I kept remaining the the exact same way.
And I saw I didn't want to be right. Not really. I wanted to be free.
And so I just wanted to um you know it's just it's just think about that that quote self-justification is the voice of hell. And what does that really mean? Discover inside yourself to see if you're you're justifying yourself in positions you don't want to be in like I was doing.
And instead of justifying, try to free yourself by forgiving yourself into a new state. And so I'm going to end that one here. And I just want to mention I do live streaming and I have a book out as well.
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