it's funny man people want to know how I'm always motivated it's the Unseen work which youus say is a true statement those are false dopamine hits that people are giving you man there's no belief in that these are teamw work dope me like I'm out running at 2 o'clock in the morning 1:00 in the morning in the gym long sessions by myself you that's real how I'm able to just extract dopamine the good dopamine ever I want man I've trained 99% of my life alone no one Pat me on the back I did all of
the work alone and while I'm still hard on myself I know what I did so whenever times get bad for people all this who's going to carry the boats and lot that's real I hate that people know me for that guy cuz that guy is not every fcking day like when they see me they want that energy that's not me every day I can extract it immediately when I need to because when you train alone and I lived alone for so many years in this misery and you're able to get out of it by yourself
I can take myself to such a level of real real passion and purpose and like the feeling I get is something I can't even exp bu myself I don't need anyone that's why that's why people come to me to motivate them no one can motivate me I have a resume full of [ __ ] motivation that whenever I'm down like oh hang on [ __ ] oh you know you know the truth you know the truth you know the darkness of the fing Dungeons and the fcking demons that fly you know and then from there
it's like okay you were there you know this there was no one there to pick up the ru sack to pick up the boat to pick up the log to go in that it was you it was you there was no Pat the [ __ ] back at 300 at at 2 75 at 250 at 220 no that was you so those things that come out of me that extract from me in the darkness people are looking for that P on the back where is it oh I don't need it because what I've done is
in theing unseen work I built Frankenstein so whenever gets nasty David Goggins goes you had nobody anyway [ __ ] so see I'm talking myself right now that's me that [ __ ] fires me the [ __ ] up that [ __ ] makes me [ __ ] nuts you had nobody anyway [ __ ] look around you there was noing team it was you there was no weight loss program or Mom and Dad waking you up saying you can do it you can be better trying to build belief you built belief when you had
nothing Rock Bottom you did that so as times get hard for me the truth comes out and my truth is powerful as [ __ ] it's real it's tangible I feel it it comes out of my brain as I speak about it I'm reliving every single dark moment of my life to be here so that is what people don't get that is what motivates David Goggins is the Unseen work but everybody needs that P on the back they need that training partner they they need that accountability coach H is and neither do they but it's
what we've trained ourselves to believe that we need the brain is the most powerful weapon in the world and it's it's crazy how a kid that wasn't real smart I was forced to go only internal external had to go away the external world had to go away and living so deep inside myself it was me in this brain and figuring out how this thing works and it's so many people are doing exactly that the supplements the this the that and I agree it helps but once you figure out your your brain you become Unstoppable to
almost anything yeah you can't beat Death you can't whatever whatever your brain is amazing once you you feed it the right conversation the right mental nutrients the right mental supplements the right the right internal dialogue at the right time with the right hit with the right proof of what you've done in the past and you send that right to the right circuit dude you're a fing Beast a beast but once again you just can't read about it you can't sit back and be a theorist you have to be aing practitioner and in that practice is
where that becomes proof positive what I'm saying is like God David goggin he's blowing my mind what is this he's not crazy and so many people a lot of people have listened to me the right way and they come back and they're like I'm totally on board I it it happened it happened I'm like it'll keep going man if you keep doing it but that is it man there's no sun there's no glory there's no carrot there's no Victory but there is all of it in one I can't explain it real well to people man
but what you get the other end is something that you're not you're always found you're never lost anymore doesn't mean the Journey's easy doesn't get any easier but you're always found I was suffering from toxic stress the type of physical and emotional abuse I was exposed to has been proven to have a range of side effects on young children because in our early years the brain grows and develops so rapidly if during those years your father is an evil [ __ ] hellbent on destroying everyone in his house stress spikes and when those spikes occur
frequently enough you can draw a line across the Peaks that's your new Baseline it puts kids in a permanent fight or flight mode fight ORF flight can be a great tool when you're in danger because it amps you up to battle through or Sprint from trouble but it's no way to live I'm not the type of guy to try to explain everything with science but facts are facts I've read that some pediatricians believe toxic stress does more damage to kids than polio or menitis I know firsthand that it leads to learning disabilities and social anxiety
because according to doctors it limits language development and memory which makes it difficult for even the most gifted student to recall what they have already learned looking at the long game when kids like me grow up they face an increased risk for clinical depression heart disease obesity and cancer not to mention smoking alcoholism and drug abuse those raised in abusive households have an increased probability of being arrested as a juvenile by 53% their odds of committing a violent crime as an adult are increased by 38% I was the poster child of that generic term we've
all heard before at risk youth my mother wasn't the one raising a thug look at the numbers and it's clear if anyone put me on a destructive path it was Tris gogin I didn't stay in group therapy for long and I didn't take riddlin either my mom picked me up after my second session and I sat in the front seat of her car wearing a thousand yard stair Mom I'm not going back I said these boys are crazy she agreed but I was still a damaged kid and while there are proven interventions on the best
way to teach and manage kids who suffer from toxic stress it's fair to say that Miss D didn't get those memos I can't blame her for her own ignorance the science wasn't nearly as clear in the 1980s as it is now all I know is Sister Katherine toiled in the trenches with the same malformed kid that Miss D dealt with but she maintained high expectations and didn't let her frustration overwhelm her she had the mindset of look everybody learns in a different way and we're going to figure out how you learn she deduced that I
needed repetition that I needed to solve the same problems over and over again in a different way to learn and she knew that took time Miss D was all about productivity she was saying keep up or get out meanwhile I felt backed into a corner I knew that if I didn't show some improvement I would eventually be shipped out to that special black hole for good so I found a solution I started cheating my ass off studying was hard especially with my [ __ ] up brain but I was a damn good Che I copied
friends homework and scanned my neighbor work during tests I even copied the answers on the standardized tests that didn't have any impact on my grades it worked my Rising test scores plated Miss D and my mother stopped getting calls from school I thought I'd solved a problem when really I was creating new ones by taking the path of least resistance my coping mechanism confirmed that I would never learn squat at school and that I would never catch up which pushed me closer toward a flunked out fate the Saving Grace of those early years in Brazil
was that I was way too young to understand the kind of prejudice I would soon face in my new hick Hometown whenever you're the only one of your kind you're in danger of being pushed toward the margins suspected and disregarded bullied and mistreated by ignorant people that's just the way life is especially back then and by the time that reality kicked me in the throat my life had already become a full-fledged you fortune cookie whenever I cracked it open I got the same message you were born to fail 5 weeks after Christmas it had become
obvious that my whole life had changed the unexpected attention and notoriety that came with and followed the release of can't hurt me was as humbling as it was disorienting after Decades of grinding in the shadows outside the public eye I was now spotlit I'd always felt most at home in the mar during my military career I'd go on my longest runs and rucks before anyone else woke up While others were relaxing or partying after a hard day or week of work I stayed in to study my dive tables pack and repack my parachute or run
and grind in the gym deep into the night everything I did on my own time was for my own personal fulfillment and growth I damn sure didn't do it for attention yet I was often misunderstood I was caring a boulder as big as the world on my back just trying to get to the other side of the darkness that was chasing me down I was terrified that if I stopped getting better if I gave myself a break from any of it all my insecurities and innate laziness would get the drop on me again anytime I
felt physically exhausted or mentally Zapped I pictured that 24-year-old fat ass glaring at me with a big smile on his face a smile that said I'm still here [ __ ] I am who you really are and I'm not going anywhere I looked at each day as an opportunity to mind the negativity that had colonized my brain and became fascinated by the power of the mind and how it can work for us and against us often it falls prey to the merrygoround of emotions and situational conditions that cause confusion and sap us of focus force
and fortitude all of which have a natural tendency to EB and flow like the tide my early years made me very aware of this inherent fragility we all have but later on I learned how to harness and Channel all my mental horsepower to accomplish things I never thought possible for myself and I did it by building what I now refer to as my mental lab my mental construction began after my last trip to Buffalo that's when I finally stopped complaining long enough to realize the training ground that I needed was all around me my fed
up life was the raw material I was looking for and if I paid close attention to my impulses insecurities and actions dropped the shame and remained willing to dissect my self-doubt anxiety and fear I would find the strength and motivation to transform my life soon enough I found myself hitting the books hard to prepare for the As v test and spending 6 to 8 hours in the gym or on the trails every day to qualify for Navy SEAL training and it didn't take long to realize that like life itself difficult workouts and long study sessions
tended to Spotlight all my weak points my desire to continue to eat like [ __ ] my natural impulse to cut Corners in almost everything I did my general lack of drive and my flagging attention during those Marathon ASVAB study sessions revealed my willing this to settle for mediocrity but what came up for me most often was my failure in par Rescue Training it was my constant companion during those weeks it shadowed me wherever I went I'd arrived at Air Force boot camp in the best shape of my life and by the time par Rescue
Training began 8 weeks later I was in Peak physical condition I'd read the warning order front to back and prepared for each and every time physical Evolution assuming my strength and speed would be enough but I lacked the mental strength to see it through and after a terrifying pool Evolution my fear of the water held me hostage until I quit the more I dissected that situation the more I realized how much I needed this new mental lab being that I was damn near 300 lb and had to lose more than 100 in less than 3
months I knew it wasn't possible to report to Naval special Warfare command in Coronado in the best physical shape of my life but that wasn't necessary my root problems were not and never had been physical they were all mental in my lab each physical workout became a test of my mental fortitude I stopped caring about how my body looked you don't need six-pack abs when your mind is steel plated from that point on each run every hour on the pull-up bar and all my late night study sessions became experiments conducted to see how long my
mind would hold out when I Contin to apply more and more pressure I was creating a motherucker that was mentally prepared to do anything it took to become a seal even if it meant experiencing three hell weeks and running on broken legs those same experiments continued for the next 20 years and through all my countless trials tumbles and failures I cultivated an alter ego a Savage who refused to quit under almost any circumstance someone capable of overcoming any and all obstacles I felt compelled to share what I learned in the lab because I knew it
could help people and what started as a slow reveal of my inner drive on social media swelled to a deep confession in can't hurt me anybody who tuned in or turned the page knew exactly where I came from and what drives me but one thing I never shared was that there were two sides to my psyche and soul if you don't feel like you're good enough if your life lacks meaning and time feels like it's flipping through your fingers there is only one option recreate yourself in your own mental lab somewhere you can be alone
with your thoughts and wrestle with the substance of what and who you want to be in your one short life on Earth if it feels right create an alter ego to access some of that dark matter in your own mind that's what I did in my mind David goggin wasn't the Savage [ __ ] who accomplished all the hardship it was goggin who did that David was the Kid born with one eye closed and raised scared and Shackled there is nothing inherently special about me I just stopped focusing on what was holding me back and
learned to use rejection pain and failure as tools to harness every available bit of dark matter in my mind all my unused strength passion and desire it was rarely fun I suffered way more than I smiled but it helped me create my Alter Ego goggin was powered by the dark side of my soul that refused to be denied and he had one goal to become the hardest [ __ ] to ever live we all have a mental Lab at our disposal but most people don't even know that they have access to a place where they
can transform themselves therefore they remain locked out by the time they hit midlife the doors are wrapped with a rusty chain and dead bolted the equipment inside is Dusty and broken weeds are sprouting from the foundation and the roof for two decades the doors to my lab were locked too because I'd locked myself inside but after my heart scare I realized that without even knowing it at some point I'd sleepwalked out of my mental lab and the doors had shut and locked behind me [Music]
