Friend Fusion Season 4 Episode 1 with Tabitha Brown

Hey friends I'm Trinity Mitchell better known as your friend Tren and welcome to today's episode of friend Fusion y'all today's episode is so special to me um I think for a lot of us especially as Believers as we grow in our success often times God gets left on he gets left on the back burner that's just what it is um we live in this culture now where you can express all of who you are and if you do especially if you're a Believer uh you're not wanted you're not accepted today's guest doesn't care and it

has not limited her actually um it's changed the trajectory of her life because she P God first and she's loud about it and I'm so excited to have her and talk about her journey with God if you're in any space in your life right now when you're trying to figure out is he even real you can look at me and today's guest and I promise you you'll be reminded of his Authenticity of he's real when I like when I tell you he's real oh fre Get Ready for today's episode of friend Fusion you better have

your fan cuz girl is about to get hot in [Music] here fusion fusion f f f [Music] Fion Fusion [Music] [Music] [Music] friend Fusion marker and action hey friends it's Trinity M better know it's your friend Tren and welcome to today's episode of friend Fusion today's guest y'all y'all know her um I'm so grateful my heart is so full actually an hour before I came to set I Said Brandon can I just cry on you because I need to just take in God's goodness and his favor meeting me like this and while everyone else talks

to her about her vegan lifestyle I have been challenged by the Holy Spirit to talk to her about her journey with God I'm so excited to welcome I'm so honored I'm so privileged to Welcome to the set of friend Fusion the Tabitha Brown say hey hello there it's such an honor to have you Thank you for having me how you feeling honey I'm I'm amazing yeah I feel great good good you have you've had so many great things happening You released a a air fryer recently we have our wine here today did you have a

crock poot the other day yeah I just released a Crockpot Sunday uhhuh what are what are your favorite things in your latest release of course the air fryer cuz everybody know I love a air fryer um the the slow cooker which is the crockpot I'm excited I'm actually going I'm thinking of this uh recipe that I'm going to make when I get home uh that'll cook all day um what else do I well no one has really seen them yet okay but I did pots and pans oh nice and I made them very much so

like your nails multiple colors okay but the handles are afro pics and then of course my Afro pic cutting board everybody's going crazy it's selling out and and people are upset they can't get it right now so I Have something to tell you cuz I got an issue uh oh it is so hard for us to get your products in Mississippi what is that about interesting is it hard to get the the new collection or are you talking about the lto collection so the newest collection there there are like some things but not all things

um we couldn't get our wine until we got to Texas well that's a state law got it right so certain States will not allow it to be sold in Target gotta so if it's Not there then it it ain't really nothing to do well thank you for informing me well I'll just keep hitting the road to get your stuff cuzz it's worth it it is so worth it and I'm glad you mention my nails they're beautiful I I wanted to like I don't know I wanted to do something memorable with having you today so I

was like I need to get some fun nails and this is my Signature Nail for tab time that is crazy and you know my son is crazy about tab time tell Now you got to look at my nails when you watch the show oh wow You'll see it's exactly that I was telling her before we turn the cameras on y'all that I told the nail te I something fun because I had a great guest and she was fun so she's like well let's just do these two colors look yeah doing the right thing yes yes

so I know for a lot of interviews you've had you've discussed what is your journey in becoming a vegan and um and I think it's a beautiful Story but I asked in prayer what should I talk to you about and God told me to talk to you about your journey with God can you tell me about you always talk to us online about y'all's conversations y'all talk a lot yes we do and uh I find that to be so inspirational know because a lot of people when they get a certain kind or amount of success

he kind of becomes like the back burner but what I found so to be so inspired about you is that he's still at the Forefront and I Absolutely love that when I see you I start to believe God for more yeah and so tell me tell me what was your first do you even remember your first encounter with god um my first encounter I don't know if I remember but you know I'm from from the south sohm I grew up in the church yeah and I know that my first introduction was through my my grandmother

uh my granny was just my mama's mama so you know she was Pentecostal so holiness is still right Right okay okay um and so I would go to church with her as a little girl cuz my my Mom and Daddy won't save yet but they made us go to church you know and so and my great-grandfather my granddaddy John is who I would sit with CU he was like my favorite person uh and he had the keys to the church okay right and so that was my first um like all of my first memories of

church and having a relationship and knowing what it was that uh I remember as a kid not knowing What it meant to pray per se um thinking that you had to like be on your knees to pray or or be in church to pray or have food in front of you to pray and I remember my granddaddy saying no you you can pray at anywhere you stand you can stop at any time and you can be walking and you can talk to God at any time because we'd be on the farm or you know feeding

chickens or whatever the case may be and he could just be talking to the Lord so I remember those things as a Child yeah um but yeah I remember like learning to play the tambourine he taught me that and he was like you doing this this is for the Lord right so I remember those are my first memories of uh I guess you would say my relationship and getting to know uh you know God through that that type of lens yeah I love your granddad teaching you that you can pray at any time at any

time talk to him anytime yeah so tell me how has that Revelation shaped your connection with God and your relationship with him honey as you said like I talk about him all the time talk to them all the time um it is my Foundation yeah right even though I was raised in the church you know I went to you know Pentecostal church with my granny until sixth grade and and or actually about fifth grade my daddy had a car accident M when I was in fifth grade he died and came back he my dad was

alcoholic before and he was a functioning alcoholic though so he went To work every day had a great we had a great family life but I didn't know cuz I was so young but he was an alcoholic and so um and he they didn't go to church my mom and dadd didn't go to church my mama didn't drink but my daddy did uh but when he had this car accident and when he died and they brought him back he was a different person and so from there we started going to church but we started going

to Baptist Church okay and so we got from Pentecost to Baptist yes okay and so and then going to Baptist Church is when I learned as a little girl that there's a lot of confusion in religion because I remember my granny said um oh y'all going to Baptist Church the Holy Ghost don't live there I used to think that yeah and she was like oh they be over there playing and I was like oh man hm and so that stuck with me as a child and then as I grew Up I think it wasn't until

I really surrendered my life again in 2017 uh that I realized I had to start unlearning everything I was taught wow and let God just deposit inside of me yeah and that's kind of how I've been living ever since tell me what is one of those things that you had to unlearn that's been revolutionary to your faith uh one [Music] thing I think the one thing is that you Have to go to church every Sunday H because there was always guilt Associated if you didn't go yes and I used to as a kid I would

say well what about people who are sick what about people who don't even know about church they going to just go to hell because they didn't even know yeah that doesn't seem fair to me I would ask these questions as a child yeah uh and nobody could answer those right um my mama would sometime tell me she would say Well that's what missionaries are for you know they go out and find the people I said but what if the people don't get found and so as an adult with a free mind that's not being controlled

by anyone else I Now understand like if you have that relationship that's why it's a sick and shut in list right yes uh you can still you can and God can you can find each other anywhere yeah so yeah I love that mhm cuz I think for me even today as I was getting dressed I love This outfit Brandon styled me in thank you immediately I started saying I feel like a church mother I feel like I want to judge somebody oh hilarious you you too fly to be judged don't judge them okay got it

but I too used to hear I grew up um Church of God in Christ and they did not believe that Baptist folks had like it was it's just so much confusion the religion overall and I remember remember even as a child Judging the kids at school who went to baptist churches cuz they weren saved for real it yeah they weren't sa you a't really Sav oh y'all wear pants Oh okay that's how my granny was y wear makeup oh yeah earrings yeah trying to Temp folks Hood we red red nails or lipstick oh girl bye

a oh yeah I'm telling you yeah and I remember all of that judgment and now I look back and I'm like what I have I've come to a place in my life I just Decided like if God is not concerned with it I'm not concerned with it right because I used to be caught up in all of that stuff because you were taught that yes I was taught that and that's why we have to unlearn what we were taught yeah and it takes it takes a lot of grace and patience for yourself when you're unlearning

things yeah and that's all did you did you feel like some guilt with unlearning um I think I don't know if I Felt guilt but I did feel weight being lifted and I felt wow I was restricting my growth yes you know what I'm saying and I but I've also been triggered in in in in different scenarios I remember about two years ago we was home in North Carolina and we always go to church when we go home it was summer my daughter was with us and so at this time she's like 21 and we

going to my daddy's Church Which is um a different Church and I grew up in cuz he's changed churches since then okay and but still Baptist and so um she had on a sundress now in La anywhere it's come as you we I can go to church like this in LA and I was like girl you can't wear this sundress would you why you got to put a something she was like what are you talking about Mom I was like cuz you ain't got no BR like you just got a sundress you got to be

covered and she Was like Mommy you're doing to me what you said was done to you that you don't like any she had to call me out on it and I realized in that moment I was like oh girl you right my bad I I I was triggered yeah and so all the old ways had like just had crept into my mind and I was like thank you you're right yeah she was like how where is the church if we in LA right and I was like it's a sundress it's a they showed us mhm

no that's just just shoulders it's a little Bit of chest yeah like yeah but yeah for me I used to walk around trying to tie something around cuz I'm a an hourglass girl so I used to feel like I needed to cover my bottom like I was just so self-conscious about it I used to wear jackets around my waist all the time and Brandon was like can you can you stop living like this this is horrible cuz I literally used to yeah as an adult you're trapped yeah trapped in bondage and yes we don't even

realize it Yes I mean for a while I was wearing and which is is so crazy even now I wrote about this in my book um and my did a new theme book I wore a fitted dress for my birthday last year yeah and everybody kept saying did you lose weight oh my god did you like girl where this butt come from like all this and I was like this is why I don't like wearing fitted stuff cuz I used to wear it all the time back in the day and I done always had hip

Styles and prize okay okay and so I Realized I didn't like the attention cuz it made me feel bad from childhood of hearing like my grandma and them say like you don't need to be wearing nothing too fitted so I would wear loose clothes I still wear loose clothes very often but now I've kind of like gotten out of that and got back into like no I can I can wear it's clothes this is the body the lord gave me and she goes up and down sometime I might be thicker than other days because I'm

also going Through param menopause Jesus so weight is up and down but it's like you're letting somebody else control you yes and how you feel it's like cod switching really right which there's no Freedom there yeah so uh but yeah I I 100% understand yeah I used to oh I know I'm huge into my fitness journey right like I it's everything from LIF and weight to cardio all the things I'm fully committed to the process but I used to go in the gym with bagg of clothes on Big clothes and Brandon bought me a whole

Fleet of like a wardrobe and I was like o I don't know if I'm supposed to wear that because and that was about just maybe a little bit over a decade ago I felt like that yeah cuz I was yeah you're right tra tra tra control and here we are supposed to be free yes and not is't that something like I I hate that that for Christians that we're supposed to be Free yet so many of us live bound yes not because of not because of what the Bible says it's because of what you were

taught yes because of what people have said yes absolutely so many of us so tell me this you shared parts of your story where you shared parts of your story where loss and challenges have come into your life what has your journey with God looked like in times of uncertainty and doubt how did you find his presence in the most difficult times Um I mean I tell this story often but when I was sick right so we talk in 2016 uh to 2017 I was sick for a year and a half and I thought God

forgot about me and I also thought he probably forgot about me because I wasn't really being honest with him about who I was and I wasn't um truly speaking to him in the way that I know that I should I was I was sick but habitually praying so Praying out of habit rehearsing the prayer like you know whatever I learned to how to pray in that way but not believing what I was saying and so I just thought there's no way for me to get to him in this in this body of mine that I'm

in because I also was conforming and so I I was you know I was covering my accent wearing my hair one way trying to be one siiz trying to fit in and look one way in Hollywood right so I thought well if I'm not even who he Like created I'm trying to be somebody else M he probably threw with me like he can't bless who I'm not right like I'm trying to be somebody else so why would he want to deal with me I got to I got to get to who he want me to

be yeah and so that was my biggest I think struggle in my sickness but I had to get to that understanding for myself I was like oh this ain't got nothing to do with God it's got something to do with me how did you get to that understanding in a very Dark place when you were at your end I was at the end yeah I was like I don't know if I'm going live to C 40 I don't know if God going to bring me through this one so I was at the darkest place of

my life and my cry was God if you heal me you can have me yeah and that was my prayer and I just kind of released the old Tab and was like from this day forth whatever I do is going to be because you put it inside of me to do it and that's the Walk I've been walking ever since oh I thank you For Your Surrender CU I don't know um I don't know that there's anyone that that comes to mind in this moment um that I could think of who represents God the way

you do um I feel like it's I I just feel like when you experience you you experience God yeah I really and I I love that so much about you and it's genuine it's really like that's who you are I don't even want I would hate to who that previous tab was you know the Thing is I thought she was um like you know in my mind I'm like dang I hate I was trying to be somebody else but all of my friends and family they were like but we always saw you you were you

were always the same Spirit uh you know i' I've always had a gift yes and it was just that I thought I couldn't be completely me yeah I didn't think this tab was enough I heard did you talk about how you had to remove some layers right what was the hardest layer for you To remove uh the hardest I don't know if if or maybe I should ask what was the most rewarding oh I think showing up threee like not cover my accent no more cuz I would be so exhausted what was your previous accent

you know what's so funny I feel like I I don't even know like the voice I mean I can cover my accent but it's like if I'm reading a script I can Hear another voice for this for the character gotcha but um I used to be just trying to sound neutral like oh my God how are you yeah this is so great like girl who are you right I can look at old videos and be like girl this is cringe i' be like Lord but it's so funny cuz my husband and my daughter uh even

in her young age would help me like with auditions and stuff and and when she was she say Mommy why do you change your voice and I would so Choice been calling You on this oh been calling me out been calling me out yes uh and my my husband would he hated Hollywood he still has a LoveHate relationship with it okay because he was like it it you can't be you why you want to be in an industry that you can't even be who you are yeah and I'm like they don't want this this stab

they they want this one that I created and even you know working in Corporate America I you know talked about this I remember many times my Daddy would call my office and I answer the phone and he'd be like um I was trying to reach tab at the brown and I like oh it's me Daddy I'm I'm just I'm at work so but he didn't recognize my voice wow that's how hard the code switch was like you know it was just crazy but being able to just show up completely free I remember I used to

be at parties and stuff you know if I get to drink in a little bit or if I got tired my accent would come out they like O girl you sound country and I'd be like oh it's time to go on home yeah it's a little late in the Midnight Hour okay I got to go home I got to go home I can't I can't hide it no more but yeah absolutely yeah so tell me this marriage and motherhood are often described as Journeys within a journey how have you and your husband chance kept God

at the center of your relationship especially in times of transition or challenges as you both have evolved o uh I Think we haven't had to necessarily uh focus on keeping him we just know that that is he has to be the center and first yes right and me and chance is Faith walk is different so he didn't grow up in the church he didn't grw up being a Believer you know me and chance were together when he got baptized oh wow and so he got baptized at the at the Baptist Church um when we were

I think we were 20 maybe when he got baptized um But he still in his walk is different MH and the thing that I just adore and love about my husband is he always says our life our relationship the things that we've accomplished is how he know God is real he's like we are living proof he was like I'm so glad I he always says he's so glad he he didn't grow up in church he was like I'm so glad I didn't have no reference point he he said because this way I found out for

myself I I know God is real because of how we Live our life um what he has shown Us in real time you know whether it be through dream and then it comes to pass uh God is just in the center of everything that we we do and and who we are and my husband I have witnessed him we've been together 26 years go from boy to man yeah and the journey ofoo thank God he ain't get locked up to Lord Jesus my husband a police officer to like okay now he on a golf course

like my husband like chance Brown like It's just it ain't nobody but God and so when you when you know who you were and now who you are he he has to be in the center yes without even being said you know but we are um adamant about keeping him first and even when it feels like oh we're not giving God enough time we always come back to that and so I think it's just it has to be who we are yes yeah it has to be have you guys been challenged to chill on God

like like like let's Like let's chill oh oh sorry have you guys been challenged in any way because you guys are so loud with your face you want tucked in oh okay oh I'm good sorry just okay um so have you guys been challenged to like you know to calm down with the faith talk not chance but I have okay like and I posted about this a couple years ago uh especially when I started doing content So now I wasn't being actress tab anymore right although I'm still an actress but now I'm doing content I'm

in a new space excuse me so a lot of like my actor friends and some producers and things that I'd work with I was getting messages they were like I know you doing something new now and you but you know you talking about God a lot and you know people might not want to work with you because you know religion and all that stuff don't really mix in the industry And I was like well if those people don't want to work with me I don't that that ain't who God has called me to work with

this going to be the tab that you going to get yeah uh but that's not a challenge for me I love that it's what it is yeah I don't want no mistake about it when I show up when I get in the room you already know what it is that's what what she live her life out loud when I walk in they like we know that girl love The Lord right I don't try to push it on nobody yes I simply just share that's that's all it is and if you if you don't like that

then baby I ain't supposed to work with you no how yes so it's all right right it's okay it's yeah cuz I feel like I don't I'm it's not even up for a conversation it's not up for debate like no you like God bless you honey you know this not going to work for me yes and I do that too I be like oh okay this this is great but it's It's a no for me right if I can't bring him I can't come listen he was here before I got here exactly exactly he already

in the room yes I love that I love you T I love you I love you so tell me in raising your children how have you guided them in their own spiritual Journeys um what role has your relationship with God played in your approach to Motherhood oh I just um it's so crazy excuse me me and my son just had This moment where uh because when he was smaller cuz he 12 now taller than me but when he was smaller just like with my daughter every night we would get on our knees we pray together

read books things like that they both had like little children's Bibles and things excuse me me and this cough um but the other night this actually was a couple weeks ago I was telling him I was like you know Mommy doesn't come and pray with you like we used to when you were Little I was like but when it's you it's a new school year yeah I was like but mommy still prays over you I say but I think you need to be reminded what that feels like so that you know cuz my son also

has um motor ticks okay and they increase with anxiety and so he and I you know we held hands and we prayed and I was like you you want to say something because I always want him to know that he can talk to God the same way me and him talk yeah You know my daughter knows she's 23 now and with him it's a little different um it's it's something different about little boys and he's a lot like his daddy in a way where he wants to um I don't know have this coolness yeah and

so I'm trying to remind him and help him understand like God is cool yes you know like being a Believer is cool you know knowing where your help comes from that's cool right and so I was like so when you have Anxiety a little bit about meeting new people cuz he's in middle school now or when it's a test I said right at your desk I said how mommy is holding your hands you can you can if you want to close your eyes but you can put your head down for a minute and just imagine

mommy is holding your hand and you just say a little prayer to yourself and let God come in and get in your mind and all the things and I was like you understand that he was like yep I got it I got it Right um same with my daughter my daughter of course because she's older um she got to experience different levels of me and so uh she also has a gift that I have with with dreaming um and and a very strong uh intuition as well but uh so she and I have a different

connection it's a it's a very it's it's so spiritual like we have C dreamed before wow right so like I have I have uh woke up from a dream and Been ready to take her to school and I'm about to tell her this dream and she starts to tell me Mommy I had this and we were in the same dream it was the same same dream wow and so even with spirit I see Spirit I can hear and there's been times that she has seen it at the same time so that's how God has confirmed

it for me and just dealing with her her whole life and just helping her to understand in a deeper spiritual level I never wanted to force my kids to Go to church like I was forced to go to church and when you're forced to go you don't really take in what you need you take in what you're taught right right right some of the teaching is great but then sometimes you don't want to be there you ain't really paying attention you you going because of guilt you going because you got to go I wanted my

kids to to understand who God is for them themselves but I teach them the Basics as they say but also helping them to Understand you got to allow God in I can't teach you who God has called you to be you got to allow him in so that you can hear him for yourself yeah you can feel him it's just like making a decision that may alter your life something that could be terrible in that moment we all have a thing that happens that's what God is saying you want to make this decision that gut

that in you're like this something don't feel Right about this but if we go against it that's our decision to take the ultimate route right and so I'm trying to and always have teach both of my children that's how you also allow God in those feelings those moments but also with uh understanding you know the stories of the Bible just different things but not Overkill with that um because I I want them to have a personal relationship right I never want them to get stuck on religion yes I I honestly I hate Religion I I

feel like religion separates us it does when we should be all together so tell me in your journey of motherhood and them growing individually in their relationships with God tell me how has that impacted your faith like when you see Quest finding God cool well you see Choice communicating with God through dreams like how does like you know what I mean that has to be so beautiful you know she posted something today and I just smiled Hold on let me see I'll tell you what she posted go for and I was like look at my

baby oh and then she had text me after some stuff that she had been uh waiting to see what was going on before she like shared it with me because she was so excited but she she posted at some point you got to stop thinking God didn't hear you and asked yourself did you hear him o and it was like a re okay I said girl You it's just I get I do get joy I get excited and it it's also like I did something right yes you know because also you got to realize now

you know you're a mom as much as God blessed you and used you to bring life into the world yes he's not yours he's not mine yes that's a crazy Revelation but it's so true true it's so true like we we got blessed to be the guide for them yes to the vessel to bring them but they don't belong to us they belong to God those Children are ours to help and protect but ultimately there's nothing you can do to create his personality there's nothing you can do to uh to shape who he's going to

be like who God called him to be yes you can help guide to get him there but whatever is inside of him only God can put that there for sure I've been I pray over him every day and one thing I tell him I'm G give you a lot of gifts BJ you're gonna have a lot of things but The greatest gift is I can give you is Jesus yeah and if because if you don't have him son like you know what I'm saying and I tell him that now even at almost seven months because

I I just want him to be used to that name yes I love it yes so tell me as an entrepreneur and public figure um you're constantly in the spotlight how do you stay grounded in your faith while navigating success Fame and the demands of your career I think it goes back to What we talked about before know who I am before I get there I love that I don't change right so it ain't it ain't nothing to navigate from that that's who I am yeah so that's the thing that got me there so I'll

never forget that so that's first and foremost that's how I get to be entrepreneur that's how I get to be a content creator that's how I get to be an actress because God created me to do so the the entrepreneural path is full of highs and lows I'm sure you know Oh yeah girl how have you found God in moments of success and then moments of failure excuse me I think that all of it whether it's success or failure I don't necessarily look at things that don't work as failures I feel like that's God's blessing

where he said that's not for you okay um he's in everything I do you know the success anytime I post something you always going to say see o God we thank you get my caption cuz I am doing the work yeah I have the but like he is orchestrating right he is the god of order and so uh even when things don't work well I'm In Praise mode even when things fall through I'm In Praise mode yes cuz I'm like oh God all right like even right now I've had this little cold um it's not

even cold anymore I had a cold like two months ago and the cough is lingering yeah and like two weeks ago my back went out like I have a a bulging disc and my hip like I have a whole lot Of like some things that's going on with my spine and and I was just reminded of how sick I was before in 2016 and 2017 yeah but how the Overflow came through the sickness and so I was like oh so my body is under attack Something Great Is On The Rise Like I just got excited

about what God was going to do so even when the enemy try to make you think something bad is happening yes what Paul say we Rejoice at tribulation that's it I get excited like that's praising them In advance I'm like oh something great must be coming I tweeted that like maybe last week or weeks ago because anytime you under attack yeah something something great is on the ride so you said that overflow came through your sickness before and so tell me explain it overflow to me so when I so I got sick in 2016 I

was working a regular job pursuing my acting career where were you working um it was a Contract Manufacturing Company okay and so uh we made like skincare products and um uh different so you was getting practice for Donna's recipe absolutely got it hated the job I took the job before I had my son cuz I told my husband we were planning to have another baby and so I said well I'm going to take a break from acting so we can get pregnant yeah and I'm going just go get me a regular job right and so

in getting that job I was like I'm going to work There for like two years then I'm going quit and go back to acting full time yeah and that did not happen I was there for like five years wow I was so upset I felt stuck and I ended up getting sick and had to go on disability and so when I uh left that job going on disability I was making like almost $40,000 a year in Los Angeles okay it's not l no yeah I was paying that good old C I was paying all the

utilities at the house um excuse me So then I went on disability which you know is less than what salary yes is and I was on that for a year so all my little savings that we had had was gone M and we didn't have um really any money saved up anymore yeah after that and my husband was still working of course and I got cough drop somewhere and so um not got his cough drop but what I was saying so I was making uh you know about $40,000 maybe right so I was on disability

for a year my husband Was still working and after kind of going through all of our savings I didn't necessarily want to go back to work when I was feeling well I told my husband I was like I felt so stuck at the job and now in this new Journey that I was on I was like I'm going to go drive Uber right still ain't got no money but that August of 2017 we had sat in our backyard we had a notebook he had a notebook book I had a notebook and we said let's write

down All the things that we're going to believe God for like Supernatural crazy blessings and I think at this time I might have had like $260 in my account M this episode is great right friend I know join me for more episodes just like this one in my patreon community that's patreon.com yourfriend TR I cannot wait to connect with you in real time car payment was about 240 um so there you go right yeah yeah uh and so we wrote down all these things I wrote down things Like um I want to be debt free

in in 2018 I want to buy a house in 2018 uh I want to pay my car off uh I had put that I want to book a commercial by the end of the year just so I can make $10,000 to catch up on bills yeah all the stuff I put I also put I want to retire my husband within the next five years from from his job because it so dangerous all these things with no money in the bank just super crazy Supernatural just believing yeah we gonna believe in God For these things and

August of 2017 is when we did that that's also when I had went on this vegan challenge for 30 days and then decided I'm going to go vegan like this is going to be my life and had started doing content only because of obedience right and by October I told my husband I'm going go drive Uber driving Uber every day to pay a bill right so I'm like okay how much is my cell phone bill okay I know I need to drive this amount to pay this okay how much is the Light bill I'm going

drive this amount cuz me and my husband always we're Partners right so he would always pay like the rent you know the big stuff yeah I would always pay all the utilities in the house and groceries like you know we put our money together but it was certain things that I'm just not going to leave him stranded to do on his own yes and so uh I started driving Uber and then uh December 30th of 20177 is when I did the video for Whole Foods Uh the tcla video that went viral that I had no

idea was ever going to happen I didn't know what viral was and excuse me within four days hov's reached out when they saw me eating the sandwich and was like oh we saw your video we would love to work with you and so when I partnered with them the very first check they gave me was $110,000 wow just what I had put on the list and I did that video on December 30th wow my notebook says before the end of the year I need to book a commercial I didn't realize I was shooting a commercial

giv me chills in my car right by that April I paid my car off I had no money yeah by that April I paid my car off by that October we bought a house yeah this is all within a year wow from having no money to having an overflow began when I went to do our taxes um so I had because of disability I had only made $26,000 for the year the next year my and I've never shared this with anybody CU I Don't talk about money but the next year I made like $360,000 wow

right just from doing content and traveling and doing things yeah the following year it doubled yeah the next year I get it and so on and so on uhhuh but the very next year after that I was a millionaire and and the rest is history the rest is history God is so faithful but you know what let me tell you this because I dreamed I was at that house so When I'm coming okay come on because I remember I I woke up I told Brandon I said I just dreamed that I was at tabon Brown's

house and it was normal like I was at like fan Girling over here I was like just there and I said it was her and her husband and they were host us oh y'all probably going to come on Fridays with t and CH listen I listen table it was something and I'm so glad you said that so tell me you talked about how you and chance you guys have a partnership Can you speak to wives watching how important it is to be your husband's partner I think that when we realize that you know as much

as we're different we're the same right we we should be in Partnership no one should do more than the other we should both be loving each other equally yeah and we should be um the like it it it just should we should never put so much on one in the relationship like it should be like a Level Playing Field yes so when you need A little bit more I can give that when I need a little bit more he can give that but we should always be in Partnership I just feel like that I just

feel like he's not my provider he's my partner yeah I'm not his provider I'm his partner that's good we partnership and it it just works everything you saying like so we had Brandon and I had a moment this morning I woke up and I was grateful for today because I had tablet of brown today so I'm thanking God for Like all the things and then I get a little frustrated because I don't have DJ with me right and so I'm like man I I have to be able to afford a nanny and I said you

know what I'm not going to just talk about it I'm going to write it down I said Brandon can you tell me who we got to pay and what that salary looks like and that happened this morning so I cannot wait to tell you that when when you got the noney theyel all things absolutely yes because I wanted to hug BJ after I finished praying cuz that's my usual and then it was like BJ is not here that that has to change that has to change so thank you for saying that because it's just like

that happened this morning yeah it's gonna happen it is it is I believe it's gonna happen um so so tell me I can talk to you all day but I want so so tell me in navigating the like I feel like you've been who you are but there have definitely been some changes since you've become like the Tabitha brown right so tell me how has that been for you with in your marriage like um I love love love love so much that you love chance the way you do yeah I remember when you uh gave

him a retirement party mhm and a lot of people people women talking online that who don't get it they don't get it and I hate that they don't get it because it says they don't they've never had a partner right and so you had share the story of his retirement why the job he Took as you pursued your career all the things and so now God blesses you and you're like I'm retiring my husband it's so beautiful because I would say that privately Brandon would tell you but I wouldn't say it out loud because I

was embarrassed of what people think because so many women thought that made you taking care of a man this man is my partner and I love to tell people like when they see me on free fusion and I'm having all this exceptional growth y'all Don't know what my man is doing y'all don't know how he contributing and I'm so excited to be able to retire my husband right and you you gave me the boldness to say that out loud I love that yeah um because he helps me like with everything from producing the show to

like my cont like everything right he's a partner like he's and a lot of people especially like especially women the more successful we are a lot of people they struggle in their Relationship with having a partner who's jealous of them um but my husband has been my number one partner my number one cheerleader all the things so before I even asked you that question I had to say thank you for that thank you so much cuz I was I was like you know people think you taking care of a man when you say that but

yeah but you know what you are and he taking care of you yes yes perspective I am taking care of my man and you taking care of me and that's What we should be yes and that's our business yes that is our business absolutely so tell me how has it been for you with coming like the Tabatha Brown and I think Chance um he has he I know he loves basketball apparently so he coaches and things like that he has a nonprofit team chance basketball so how has that been with you like navigating marriage as

a celebrity you know what it ain't really change for us okay I love That u i don't believe the hype like I let the world believe that's that's y'all business if y'all want to believe the hype cuz I know what the alternative is I can have nothing yeah but this is God's grace and His blessings on our life yeah I'm never going to believe the hype yeah me and my husband we come first yeah that's it the only thing that has changed is our financial status you know where we live what we can obtain um

we get to spend More time together of in a in a different way although I do travel a lot and work a lot but when you was working like 9 to5 and you go on every day Monday through Friday by the time you get home at you know 6 or 7 o'clock at night you tired you get two hours a day but now you know it's weeks that I don't have to travel and we both home every day and we you know see each other um we've gotten closer during the pandemic we got even closer

yeah we are um you Know we we both I think the the one thing that we've had to navigate and more so for him is just people know us and we don't know them right so we go places he'll be like I was at the store and the lady was like Hey chance and I was like I know she was like he forgets cuz we don't go out like unless we're traveling or you know we like we're not socializes like we ain't out in La like going out you know we might go to dinner every

now and then but I cook you know So um just getting used to that part but it doesn't change our marriage if anything we've gotten closer and stronger that's beautiful yeah so tell me with growth comes a shift in relationships and you know coming on they coming on down now I should have put on that cam there you go looks so good though tell me when two one action so tell me with growth comes a shift in relationships And I have a platform that encourages people to Value other people right so tell me have you

experienced the loss of friendships or close connections as you evolved how have you found God in these moments of relational loss and how has he guided you through the process of letting go girl where you want to start at [Laughter] Jesus that's been the hardest part of of success the relationships that um have Just disappeared had to grieve mhm I mean because you grieve multiple things you grieve the loss of that friend U or a family member and then you grieve the person you were when you were with them uh but it also has been

a different layer of obedience because I tried to fight to keep a lot of relationships and God had to deal with me and let him go he was like see I can't take you where I need to take you if you keep looking back for them so you distracted and They're holding you back um they also don't serve you well anymore uh the the other part is that and the most hurtful part is when you get to a certain level of success some people they stop seeing your Humanity H they only see you for what

you've accomplished so I haven't so I haven't made it there yet you got to teach me unpack that for me so they stopped thinking that you got regular human Problems you no longer become human anymore you just become successful yeah you ain't a wife or mother a daughter a sister no more you are can I hold 5,000 can I get 10,000 not five not 25 listen let me tell you wait a minute Oprah said went straight to thousands Oprah said she knew she had made it by the amount of money people started to ask her

for I remember when it used to be t I bought $20 and I bought $50 $100 and then it became from strangers family and friends Can I get $10,000 can I get $100,000 can you buy me a house can you buy me a car hundreds and thousands out of their mouth with ease with it cuz what thousands of dollars oh they don't care about what bills you got they don't know about how many taxes you paying they don't know how many employees you got and they don't care wow they only care about their needs in

the moment wow and so When you get to that place where you realize oh dang you don't see me anymore I'm only a a a like what what you can get from me now I'm no longer your friend or your your your cousin or your sister or your brother or whatever the case is is so hurtful MH because while I I am still the same tab I've obtain these things and I love people and I do help so many people yeah but it's like d you you ain't even ask me how I was doing right

um the other part of having To let go relationships relationships that I fought really hard to try to keep uh God had to reveal to me you're the only one fighting what did your fight look like I'm interested constantly messaging them calling trying to get us together um and I actually I posted about this I wrote about this in my book and I did a new thing we had a um a a group thread you know like a telephone group chat you know and we had this chat for years it Was about maybe 16 of

us on the chat coup really yeah couples and friends cuz I used to do Sunday dinners at my house so everybody would come to you know I would cook and I mean this went on for years and years yeah and even in all of My Success and and and working a lot and traveling I would always like in the group chat like hey y'all like you know everybody want to come over you know I would try my best To force it to stay do you think you were trying to make sure they didn't think that

you were changing in the sense like I think a part of me did that a little bit um because I wanted to wanted them to know like it's still T like yeah yeah yeah I'm still mean and it was only because of the energy I was getting from people you know uh some people not all and God had to like deal with me with that cuz that's also not Freedom cuz now I'm thinking about what You think of me and that ain't that a not even your business that ain't my business right uh but living

your life freely yeah when you had friends that you met when you were not free everybody ain't ready for that cuz now I'm free and you not and and when you look at me it's like a mirror that makes you look at yourself and if you ain't ready for your freedom walk I make you uncomfortable Jesus and I can't have hard feelings about that I got to be all Right and respect the fact that our time has come to depart ways yeah and it took a it still hurts me to this day there's some friends

uh that I had my husband and I that I did so much with like from being pregnant to traveling like every holiday these are people I thought I would grow old with in Friendship wow and it hurts my heart to this day but I had to be obedient cuz God kept telling me you got to let them go if it's meant for us to be friends again one day maybe It'll happen got to spin the block on it but God is like I got to protect you and where I'm going baby they can't go yeah

they're not even ready yeah they they're not even ready for their own walk how you going to take them on yours God be reading you down I feel like he read you work he read he do and I love it and I be here for it I be in the floor like for real kick a dog while they down dear Lord but yeah absolutely I think too I've I've done the same Thing in terms of trying to hold on to people trying to constantly contact them so I don't you know there's I don't know if

enough people talk about it but there's some guilt that comes with growth yeah and that's what I'm saying but that guilt is not ours to car it's not it's really not and we found ourselves trying to apologize or play it real cool commic collect so they're not uncomfortable with us with our freedom is is people pleasing and that ain't Freedom yes so that's the thing that I have worked so hard on releasing because I love people so much I I love people and I love making people happy um I love people making people feel seen

and and appreciated and so when I feel like you don't see my heart in that way yeah I used to feel upset about that and really want to go over and and beond uh but now I be like may the Lord watch between me and thee while we're while we're absent one from another amen honey you going About your business I'm going be all right tell me we we all like everybody loves your personality right um if they don't they're such haters cuz how you got a problem with tth brown make it make sense it

be something out there but I God bless them too the math don't matter tell me you you talk about your mom a lot and we honor her we saw that you you just talked about been 17 years since she passed away yesterday um so tell me what parts of your personality Do you think are the most reflective of her oh uh Grace and compassion that's beautiful my mama was the most graceful and compassionate human being I ever met wow just kind on a whole different level yeah like my mom never even raised her voice wow

like she didn't yell the the crazy thing is I lose my voice a lot um with especially because I like I do a lot of talking and so trying to raise my voice like on stages and stuff I'm not meant to Yale and so that's why like I I Lose and IID be thinking like that's how my mama was she was so softspoken yeah she was very softspoken uh but she was so loving like she just taught me how to see people yeah and understand that everybody is uh fighting a battle you don't know nothing

about mhm you know be kind to people give give them Grace uh love them through it and um she was a social worker she was also a pastor and so she just she loved people and I I know that I picked that up from her so you've built a brand from the things that you got from Mama oh yeah yeah and then you know my personality the the humor the storytelling that's my daddy yeah my daddy listen he was telling jokes at my sister wedding just jokes but he was doing it like it just cuts

up like that um but you know when you from the country girl you know we we storytellers and we just we like to have fun like That and not take life so serious and that's my daddy yeah I love that for you I remember when you bought him a truck I was so excited he still driving his truck you believe oh yeah no honey that truck probably got 5,000 miles on it cuz he don't really be going nowhere um he go to the barber shop cuz he a barber too okay and so uh but he

still had his old truck that he would be D I said if you don't drive that new truck I'm going to come get yeah it was his first time Ever having does your dad experience people like can I get 5,000 cuz oh absolutely not and you better not call my D don't try your daddy we HT you better not call my okay I think they hurt you cuz I I've heard people say that their family their loved ones have experienced it well they they they try to call my daddy or my sister to get to

me MH um don't do that either yeah my sweet baby do that don't do that N I'm laughing so hard so tell me you always share with us how God is revealing something to you what are you allowed to share that he's been revealing to you most recently you know and i' I've talked about this excuse me but um a talk show H I thought I was I was like Lord I think it'll be a couple more years but he keeps put putting it in my face I just love it I mean yesterday I hosted

I was a guest host on The Talk um and when they called to ask If I could do it I only had one day that I was in LA I flew in on Sunday night I was there yesterday and then I had to come here to Texas and I was like I only have one day home and that's the day that they needed me to come and host yeah and I was like okay Lord and that's the day that my mama passed wow so I was like okay I see what y'all doing up there yeah

yeah yeah but I really think I thought it would be years from there before I would do something like that But apparently he wants me to do it now yeah he got something up his sleeve so I wrote a book my my first book actually um and it's titled now not next and that's a revelation that God gave me that often times we think that things that he drops in our Spirits are far off in the years from now and God is like no now not next and so um I love that I'm so excited

for you I love that congratulations I love that that title is amazing yes thank you thank you um You've been a great inspiration to me and I I I dare not sit with you and not honor the one you honor the most on your platform which is your mom a so I have a gift for you for me for you oh my goodness I brought it for you oh my Lord Jesus okay let's see okay we got a box that was very tabl likee I mean the pink and orange all of my tap time look

at you oh my goodness Sarah did the decor in there okay very good look at the Flowers I can't believe that you didn't know pink and orange were my T time colors uh I mean I watch it but BJ watches it yes I mean it's like I'm there but I'm not but I also used to wear those Nails all the time and then when I stopped doing the show um I just be getting all kind of stuff now but oh my goodness so I had my friend to make this for you oh my goodness this

is beautiful these are earrings oh my Lord baby y'all try to Make tab cry in here don't oh my god with the dimes on with the dimes it's beautiful hold let me take this out they are beautiful okay M May okay I'm glad you like them oh my goodness thank you you're so welcome you're so welcome thank you so much oh honey I can't wait to wear these I love them I'm glad you do so look I can't see the year on the dimes I'm trying to see if I can see but can you See

the years on the dim the wrong person you're asking my eyes ain't what they used to be Sarah can you see the year on it you want to see if you can see the year Sarah has on glasses she's on her glasses let's see can you see the years on them can you see the years on them 1976 and 1967 H I have to look those up okay got you but I love it 76 and 67 so thatp uhuh that is something very good Interesting thank you so I heard you talk about the dimes your

mom your mom leaves behind and I got this gift back in August not knowing that it would be 17 years when I saw you I had no idea yeah so yeah oh thank you I hope you like them I do yeah this is one of my favorite pieces of my mama yeah we went we went across the internet and found yeah CU I always I do a lot of pictures with my hand like that because of this oh yeah you do you do I realized that And seeing this picture I was like dang I do

that a lot yeah and so now I always when I do do certain pictures I always like do my hand up yeah it's so cute I like didn't we hold them up for everybody did we oh yeah to that camera but to this camera y'all see the dimes up there and then my mama right there to cute and the earrings are just so tab like okay I told she really killed that she did she killed that I love it I'm glad you do it's very good and the Sun So the sun here um you know

I just announced my first children's book and it's called hello there sunshine and that's behind it is a a ray of sun yeah with purple I mean come on y'all did that that's awesome it's very good I love it thank you girl yes you're so so welcome thank you for coming to friend Fusion absolutely you know to be honest with you this is probably um my highest profile show thus far oh um and so I'm So I feel like this is a lifechanging interview well thank you thank you for having me of course absolutely thank

you for coming I'm so proud of you thank you absolutely thank you um yeah I don't want to keep talking to you cuz I'm end up crying to you um we are we've done well today this has been great thank you have me back again what now that mean that y'all have to come in yes we got to come to La come to the house you already had the dream yes we already had the Dream and all the things so yeah and I ain't going to never worry you okay they ask you for thousand okay

listen going let you why don't people like and let people in their lives let that gets a certain kind of success why don't they just try to contribute instead of just be distributed to ain't that something people don't know how to do that some people don't know how to do that yeah go serve yeah I mean saw some great I don't want it you know there's no I don't want It to be mistaken I have some amazing supportive absolutely family and friends absolutely but you got some people that's just yeah this is it an entitlement

entitlement yeah you feel entitled to the things I have worked for ain't that something how explain that to me Jesus we can't yeah we can't I don't even understand where them type of people come from is something but they be coming so tell me what what is your Advice before we leave today to the Friends watching um yeah just just leave whatever God is leading you to say with them um I think a lot of times we especially in our journey uh with God and when we are um trying to do better right uh and

and I heard um uh Pamela who is uh my talent um person at at Target how I got with Target and I just have been fasting and and praying on this ever since you shared this with me a lot of times we Say more of you God and less of me and instead of it being more of God and less of me all God and none of me let that rest in your spirit yeah like so that he can just show up completely and fully in who you are yeah so cuz if you say more

of him that means you only giving him a little bit M I'm going say all of you God and none of me yeah up in that way yeah that's amazing thank you yes well friends that concludes this episode of friend Fusion thank you for joining us For this episode I am so grateful that you guys chose to watch today I pray that God blesses you I pray that even in your journey with God that you realize that it's not about what other people got going going on it's not about religion it's about you and him

and I hope that you and him connect intimately I pray that this episode encourages you to walk and walk boldly with God I love you guys so much you go and have a good day I get to say it but even if you Can't have a good one don't you go damn go messing up nobody else's I love y'all see y'all back on the next episode of free in the future I love it you better you better close some people out girl I love it this is [Music] amazing fion fion f f f [Music]