hi my name is Yanda and in January 2024 this year on January 15th and 16th I had a nde experiences so how it started out was basically I was pregnant and I started having bleeding so my husband brought me to the emergency that was January 15th and he brought me to the emergency and it took a very long time over 3 hours for me to be seen and I just kept getting heavier stronger and stronger ER contractions and finally they let me into a room to see a doctor and at that time I did end
up miscarrying the baby I wasn't really examined or anything I was just given stuff to clean up and then sent home so before leaving the hospital I went to the washroom and while I was in the washroom I started feeling very cold like my hands were getting cold my feet were getting cold and then I just couldn't feel them so I ended up leaving the washroom and my husband was waiting outside for me and I ended up collapsing into his arms and onto a chair that was there and all I remember really experiencing was being
in in darkness and at first it was just darkness but then it started to give me that feeling like I was underwater not because I could actually feel water but when I looked up I could see there was like a circular light that was outside of something that really and truly it's the same way as if you were think of being under a pool or under a lake and you would look up and see you could tell where the moon was outside of the water that's kind of how it was I looked up and I
could see what looked like waves and I could see my husband on the other side and there was light on that side so I started just like going up to this not really swimming but like having the intention to go up to the light and when I went up to the light I could clearly see that he was on the other side I could see him but he couldn't see me and he was just looking like down into me I guess trying to look into my eyes and I was looking up at him and wanting
to go out of this place that I was in but I just couldn't get to him and after a while of trying to go across this barrier I just got really tired and I just like sunk back into the darkness and next thing I knew I was hearing the nurse's voice and I was being like revived I guess and it just felt like I was waking up like my eyes were just opening it literally felt like if if you were sleeping and someone started waking you up and your eyes are just like you know opening
to the light and that's what I experienced so after that they kind of just checked me out checked out my blood pressure and stuff and they said okay well you know you must have just fainted or whatever so they sent me home and when I got home I continued to bleed I bled so much and by the end of this experience I had lost over 40% of my blood so I was hemorrhaging and I told my husband you know like this is not normal I've actually had a miscarriage before and uh We've experienced this and
this is not normal my body is not supposed to be bleeding out this much so he said look well let me move you into the bedroom and I remember just slightly trying to lift my head off of the cuz I was laying on the couch and immediately the darkness was just coming again I could feel exactly a repeat of what had happened earlier when I was in the hospital so by the time we got home it became the 16th because we got home like after 1:00 a.m. and so at this time now we're looking at
probably like closer to like 3:00 in the morning and he says you know what I'm going to just call 911 and at that time I just went into this place again I just totally lost Consciousness and I went back into this realm that I was trying to avoid but this time I wasn't underwater at least it didn't feel like I was in that same place it felt like I was in a room but there were no walls but everything was contained whatever I was being shown was all just in this area and I didn't see
any being being you know standing in front of me but I could feel the presence of someone I would call that person God but you know I didn't see any bright lights or anything like that I just felt this presence with me and with the way that things were moving in front of me it's the same way that us who have hands would move things so in this place of Darkness I saw all of a sudden in front of me was like this like the same way someone would deal cards to you this is why
I said I didn't see hands but the movements that were happening in front of me were the movements that would happen you know if someone had hands so so it was like this in front of me just like slides of light you know like slides of light were just being thrown like this in front of me and each of the slides I could see portion of my life from the time I was born all the way until that present time and I was looking at them and I remember feeling very happy because everything I was
seeing like all of the images were all good images and you know a lot of it was like healing and like the things that I do with people now and some family memories like just different things you know I was thinking wow this is really great done such good things in life and I remember knowing that the place that I was in is the place where this life or these images get looked at or get weighed is actually what it felt like so I was waiting for these hands you know to come and gather these
images and to see what they were worth and it happened the hands came remember I didn't physically see hands it's just the sensation or the feeling of you know what hands would do but came and gathered the slides from this end to that end and brought them together and instead of doing this like I was expecting for it to literally be like yeah this is good this is a good weight I don't know this is what I had in my mind when I was there and instead of doing that everything just came together and just
like kind of collided and just disappeared and I remember thinking to myself what like nothing like how could it be worth nothing and then I remember quickly thinking well all of these great things that I did you know I did them because of the spirit of God right like I know that it was the gifts that I have and all of this so I can't really take credit for my gifts right because they come from God so it was like okay I understand right not getting credit for that but then I had a thought of
what about being a vegetarian at that time I had been a vegetarian for 12 years already and I was thinking couldn't that be worth something and immediately when I had that thought I had another thought that was like the very fact that you're having this thought about you know you you being a vegetarian being worth something or being counted as good is the reason why it's not counted as good and I didn't even have to like wrestle with that I knew immediately that like my heart was in the wrong place you know towards that and
then after that I ended up coming back into my body and at that time my husband was still talking to I guess the dispatcher and I was telling him like I can't hold on like I can't hold on it was just this constant struggle cuz I kept going in and out of my body and every time I would come back it's like I'm trying to hold on to this realm I'm trying to hold on to be my body and I just kept going back into this place another experience I had while I was in this
place was like that same room I never went into another room everything that ever took place was in this same place but every time I would go back it would be something different so when I went back on this time there was like this room was filled with people like as far as I could see it was just filled with people but they were organized in a way where the people who were closest to me which were my husband and my five children they were like super bright lights they were super bright lights I could
see their form but it wasn't like their physical features it's just like their form like their like light bodies I guess but I could tell who each light was right and so they were in front of me and they were the closest and then it was like rows behind them like rows all the way to the back and all the way out to the sides were just rows of people and I knew that these were people that I had met over my entire lifetime first I I had the thought of like wow that's a lot
of people I never would think that like all of these people would be here because some of these interactions were what I would call insignificant but they were there and they were organized in the way of the people who had the brightest lights were closest to the front and then the dimmest lights you know went further back right and so I remember like really taking note of the light you know that was in front of me which was my husband and my five children and it's like the more I looked into their light is the
more I realized that the light that they were was actually love and I realized like the more I looked into like wow this light is love it's them but it's love I always thought love was you know an emotion but I'm like no this is what everything is made of cuz whether the people there had bright lights or dim lights everybody was made of light so it was all like the same substance and that substance was light but but it was love and so I just was getting this whole understanding of what love is and
that love is not an emotion but it's actually like what everything is made of like nothing is created that's not created from Love And so in that time too I remember realizing that this thing that I was experiencing this light this love this substance this Essence I had felt it before too I remember feeling it when I would give messages to some of my clients sometimes in our sessions loved one who had passed away would come and and give a message and I remember that this is the same thing that I feel I never thought
at the time when I was you know giving messages that this was love that I was feeling but I could feel it so clearly when I was on the other side that this is the same thing so I had a knowing that if I could increase the love that I have right now with my children and my husband when I die I could use that channel to communicate with them since now I knew for a fact that Love Never Ends right so I had this desire but I was now on this other side and I
was very well aware that you know I wasn't in my body and I was dying and I just wanted to go back you know into my body I wanted a chance to be able to love properly and so while I was in this place I also was able to realize the difference between like why the light of my husband and children were so bright compared to the light of like my parents and other other people who I love that were there but their light was more dim than the light of my husband and my children
and I knew that it was because I was giving more of myself you know more of my attention more of my presence to my husband and my children so that caused their light to be brighter and I wanted a chance to come back to this realm so that I could give them more of my presence more of my attention it was like now I know how to love now I know how to do it I can do it and I could make love just lasts forever and so I remember feeling like I was being pulled
back like they were in front of me but then I started going back away from them away from the whole crowd I was being pulled back and there's no time or space in this place but I was perceiving that I was being pulled back like eight years you know eight years distance and I could tell that at the eighty year mark they wouldn't be able to feel that Essence anymore I was seeing that the light was getting dim and I knew that they would remember me I knew that they would remember me but they wouldn't
be able to feel me the way that they could feel me now and that is the only time in this entire experience where I felt extremely I don't know if the word is fearful but it was like a mixture of like extreme fear and heartbreak all at the same time just the thought of like my family not being able to feel me and me not being able to reach them like that whole thing and so I really wanted to come back to earth and I ended up coming into my body again and my husband was
still talking to the paramedics and I didn't know that someone had already been like dispatched and all of that I I just said to him like this is crazy like I cannot hold on like I'm thinking I should come back into my body and there should be like paramedics there instead he's still on the phone and I have like zero strength to hold on and so I just said to him like you know you have to pray I can't hold on anymore I'm dying I said to him this is it I cannot hold on and
I said you know I have to leave a message for the children so he got out his phone and he started recording and I just based on everything I had experienced and come to know on the other side and seeing my whole life review I had some things I wanted to say to my children and anyhow and so I left that message for them but I ended up saying to him you know we need to pray can you please just pray let's ask and I was like I was willing to I never begged never begged
really for anything but I was willing to beg for my life you know to get another chance to just love and then he said yeah he would pray and once he agreed that he would pray I just went back into the darkness and I was there and then the next time I came into my body the paramedics were there and I was so happy that I had come back into myself like God heard my prayers sort of feeling you know and they took me to the hospital they were so great you know they kept me
awake and everything and I was still very floaty for like 2 weeks after this experience I would keep going in and out of of my body not back to that place but just in and out of my body just kind of feeling like re-calibrating I wanted to be here because you know I love my husband my children and other people but Earth was not feeling right this realm was in such a great contrast to the other side which is full of Truth and Love and on this side just had lies you know it just felt
like I was coming from a place of Truth and Love into this realm and there was just so much fakeness here you know and so it's very hard for me to um stay in my body it just was really terrible and so it took about 2 weeks for me to get grounded and to be back in my body but a lot of things were happening like I was getting scriptures you know were coming into my mind and I was understanding them very differently you know like now that I knew what Love Actually was even just
reading scriptures in the Bible it was everything is different it's like a code you know that needs to be understood but you can't understand the Bible or any of these books that are actually spiritual books unless you understand love because you know spirit is love right and so if you don't have love if you don't know what love is you can't understand anything that spirit is saying so anyways that in a nutshell is you know what I experienced I had a great doctor when I went back to the hospital who helped my bleeding to stop
and I've just been back ever since sharing the importance of love and how important it is for for us to forgive and to give our presence to the people that we love and the things that we love so that it could last forever because love is the only that actually lasts and that's my experience we all fall in when the in our staring lost up at the Skylight we are all falling when thees in our [Music]
