how do we get back on the horse but how do you get back into that because I think I've gotten so close a couple of times even today where you know you you're right there and then the mind starts going and then now I'm back in my chair and I'm thinking about my taxes and so just how do you get back how do you get back into it because then it feels like okay we're in the middle of the meditation then we've got another you know 45 minutes or an hour to go and I don't
know how to close and now I don't know how to start again so that's you want to throw your lifesaver huh so how many people as that happen to how many people be just cruising along and all of a sudden things kind of go the wrong way and the next thing you know you're hating the person sitting next to you you don't even know them you're hating life you want to quit you hate me you know all of that stuff and look how many times will you have to do that before you realize that you
don't want to do it any longer hmm if you truly are astute and sincere as a student moment you start going there moment you start coming back and you fatigue or you can't reconnect again I want you to know that you've come to the end of your emotional belief you've come to the very end of your neurological network and there's only one of two things to do one is to return back and pick something mundane that's going to preoccupy your mind so you don't have to go any further into the unknown or the other is
to just trust that you can go a little further now if you trust that you can go a little further then all of those thoughts are just thoughts in your head that you have to create coherence around so if you stopped and you said I am going to master this moment forget about going anywhere doing anything following the instructions I'm just going what work with my body to get it back into the present moment and continue to unfold back into possibility here's my question if you turned that battleship around even slightly by executing a will
that's greater than that program and you are in hot pursuit of your own freedom and your brain and your personality is beating you up I've had those moments and you know what it's David and Goliath it has always seemed bigger than me because I've given it so much of my attention and so much of my energy it is bigger than me but when I no longer pay attention to it just like not giving my power to it now I can settle myself back into the present moment and it's just the thought and I examine that
thought I look at it and I become very familiar and conscious of it and then my brain will say well what about this you did this wrong it's too late you know give up and then I address that thought now here's my question 45 minutes of doing battle with your personality and continuously choosing love and unfolding deeper into it if you make the effort to disinvest your attention and energy out of goliath and pull energy back to you is it possible that the next meditation that you have could be the easiest meditation for you to
connect is it possible so then that then had to come up for you in order for you to evolve through it yes or no and your body's just saying look I'd rather be worrying about my taxes then connect to the divine yes or no there's a book that was one of my favorite books I ever read it's called the red lion and red lion is a great story of an initiate that that murders a Alchemist and drinks the Philosopher's Stone drinks the Red Lion the elixir of life that causes immortality and he wasn't ready to
drink this Philosopher's Stone he wasn't of the right consciousness and when he drank it he never forgot any of his lifetimes and he saw all his demons and this book is this journey of this soul through different levels of every single lifetime you can imagine that you and I can relate to and he runs into secret society and he becomes initiated and there's a chapter in the red lion called the kill cure and I ask my children to read that chapter every year every year they have to read that chapter because the initiate sits down
in front of a statue an inanimate statue and his job is to animate that statue and bring it to life are you with me and for years he wakes up in the morning makes his tea he has his breakfast and then all day he's putting his life force and his energy into animating this particular statue and after years he notices it swallows he notices it moving its finger and the moment he starts to realize that he could take something inanimate and bring it to life he gives it more of his attention and energy he with
me still until it is a walking talking beam now here's the problem this walking talking being is his altered ego and he doesn't know it and it is abusive it is disrespectful it is controlling it is arrogant it is mean-spirited and every time he reacts to it it takes a little bit of his energy and overtime he loses all of his lifeforce because he's got so much attention on this thing and and this creature is saying come on hate me and he's provoking him because he knows that the more he reacts the more he's giving
his energy to him and and now he's on his last breath and he has the realization at the very last minute that it was him that brought it to life and it was the extension of his alter ego and he makes the decision from that moment on to no longer pay attention to it and it now is trying everything to get a rise out of him and he is aware of the initiation and over time he keeps his attention off it and the thing starts to wither and he takes all of his power back and
he uncreated the very thing that he created and he no longer had an altered ego afterwards you understand yes you give it power you give it attention it gets bigger if you just know that you got to move through those layers and it is a journey and you're doing it right now and you get on the horse because you make the decision that this is the moment and when your body gets frustrated and gets emotional and you go in the high beta that is the defining moment for you to settle your brain and body back
down into the present moment and unfold back into possibility and I have done it tediously for hours and just when I thought I couldn't go any further and I said I'm done you go a little further and that's when you step into the unknown and it just falls away and you will say exactly what I say every time it happens that was so worth it and now you don't see it as Goliath anymore you just see it as a part of you that you used to be that now you have dominion over you with me
you ready to do it again all right
