so we just got done talking about the pearl of great price this one's actually from 1959 this one's called The Art of dying this was one of my favorite lectures for a long time I still think it's when it comes to the law I just find it to be I find it to be great because he he touches on the the feeling of doubt and many times if you read Neville he's very big on daring to assume and he kind of just like doesn't really care about doubt and as somebody who was very doubt ridden
I felt like I needed some addressing on it and I feel like this lecture addressed the feeling that I had and so he starts to lecture out by saying that Paul in scripture says that he he dies daily and Blake said the death is the best thing in life there is nothing in life like death but people take such a long time in dying at least their neighbors never see them rise from the grave and obviously these people aren't talking about physical death they're talking about the death of the death and Resurrection inside of oneself
inside the imagination that's who they're that's what they're addressing and so you are something ins out of yourself can you die to it can you cease to be it and be something else you'll see how it's actually an act of forgiveness cuz if you are something you dislike the fact that you can die to it and it actually cease to be inside of you and you become something else it's Freedom it's actually Freedom there's no little Reserve there's no well what if I still am that thing no you completely have it ceases to be and
um you know he I'll quote him he says so I see my dream and I must learn to die to what I am am in order to live to what I want to be and and he kind of hints at the what he means by you know sort of Letting Go and dying to what you are he goes I do not wait for signs to appear it is when I'm most aware of my restrictions and feel the pressures then I must learn to die I must learn to let go of what my senses dictate and
go mad quote unquote and yield to what is only a dream and I remember reading that and it just um it really hit me because when he says I don't wait for signs to appear and it is when I'm most aware of my restrictions and the pressures that is when I change that's when I die to what I what I am to what I and resurrect to what I want to be and I remember that hit me because when you're going through life and you feel these restrictions you feel the pressures coming upon you you
almost feel like you don't know who to turn to or where to turn to you don't really know what to do and he says You must let go of what my senses dict and yield to what is only a dream and yielding is a sense of surrender so you really want to let go of what is happening outside and really when you when you see the dream inside of you want to yield into it it's it's there's going to be some resistance within you that's going to wonder well what if it doesn't work and he
speaks about that he says you know if you feel within yourself what if it doesn't work what if it um what if I yield and nothing happens he goes that is when you have to completely let go and give yourself to this dream and then he goes on to say if I could yield myself to a dream and it would not become flesh it would be complete tyranny over this wonderful concept of life but it cannot fail you if you yield so life would be terrible if we if our dreams could not become flesh but
they can and he says that you know this is where he he talks about the doubt he says what if you play you know what if you imagine and you tell yourself what if I play this my last card and it doesn't work he goes then you have not yielded you have not nailed yourself to this idea and so it's that feeling of I I always had that in the back of my mind what if I imagine this what if I go all out and believe in myself to be that and nothing happens and he's
saying then you haven't yielded there shouldn't be any more questions when you yield when you really give yourself to this dream then you will become it it's not it won't fail you you will actually become the thing if you give yourself to it if you die to what you are you and you resurrect and attach yourself to what you want to be you will become that thing you have to and so there must be complete abandonment to what I am to what I want to be I have to let go of what I've always been
what I've always known myself as what I've been called my whole life I have to let go of it entirely abandon that once was a reality to me DI to it and resurrect a new reality by changing myself he says but man is afraid he does not dare to abandon himself so he never dies and Blake would say he would just go mad you know he he called it madness he would just completely let go of what his sense of dictate and believe in what he what he um wanted to be and anytime I've made
progress in my life the way I wanted to I I always was slightly afraid to let go but I didn't really die you know I always felt like afraid to give up what I am but anytime I actually abandoned myself to to what I wanted to be I left myself in into a Dream Within Myself it never failed me but I I I never I never let go of that fear it was always there and even though it might have worked at times I still had this little what if it was doesn't work this time
it was always there um but it's the same it's the same method it is letting go of what you are to what you want to be can I let go of this can I die to it or am I going to remain afraid am I going to remain scared to be it am I going to remain in the insecurity that I am in or am I willing to give it up for Security even though it's a dream am I willing to give it up for a dream and then he says I must I try to
catch the feeling that would be mine if I were the man I wanted to be but that involves death he goes but if I'm not in love with what I am tied to I must yield to something more lovely and make it real so it's a constant you become something and then you are that thing for a while and then you want to outgrow it you might outgrow the clothes as you would outgrow clothes and you have to yield into a new article of Consciousness a new a new State of Consciousness you'd have to you
outgrew the one you're in and and many times people who come and talk to me they don't realize that they're actually in a state of consciousness that they've outgrown a long time ago but they think that they have to keep wearing it and they would and I tell them you wouldn't be talking to me this way unless you actually within you wanted to leave this state but again man's afraid scared of changing their state of mind because it involves them to yield to something new because it's always going to be that way you're always going
to feel you're always going to feel this slight fear of changing because you're used to being what you are but but then you have this other conflict within you that you know you've outgrown it it's uncomfortable the the pants and shirts are too tight now I've outgrown this and yet I still wear it because it's my it's the shirt I've always worn it's the State of Consciousness that I know myself as well know yourself as something new can you know yourself as something new and if you can imagine yourself if you can conceive of yourself
as something new can you abandon what you are now to for it and if you can't then make it Lovelier make it something more lovely and so we abandon ourselves to dreams as if they were true that is what we do it's we abandon ourselves to the Unseen realities within us we see them but it's just unseen by mortal eye but if we don't yield if we don't become the thing that conception of yourself that you have just remain it remains there it doesn't disappear it just remains an unoccupied State unless we yield to it
it just remains unoccupied and then he goes on to claim that this is uh this is forgiveness this is a sense of forgiveness and that's you know that's remember when I first read this the first couple uh paragraphs I felt that feeling of like oh yeah this is a sense of forgiveness because it is um you're when you completely die to what you are and you change yourself it is it is a um it's forgiveness in in in the true sense of the form and and again the the feeling of the pressures the feeling of
in times of trouble and I know that I've been there and it's when it's when those times where you feel those pressures coming upon you when you feel like you need something to work that is when you yield to it it I don't leave myself in that desperate um intense feeling of I need this to work I yield to it already working even though Everything feels on the outside it looks like it's not in spite of that do I have the necessary faithfulness to remain loyal to it as we said in counting the cost you
see how this all ties together will I buy this Pearl will I buy the dream and the dream the cost of this dream is for me to yield to it and you know he says don't think you are greedy because you demanding for things to change um he always speaks about that don't feel selfish don't feel greedy don't feel guilty for changing yourself no matter what it is you yield to it always remember the yielding part it's the thing that has saved me many times whenever I've um you've wonder how or when and you become
frightened or you feel the pressures and you feel like you can't overcome these pressures that's when you yield that's the moment you yield to it and it's always going to be a yielding and I will say this forever because it's I just know it to be true I've seen it work for me and I've seen it work for other people you you have all these questions and you have all these reasons as to why not um all these doubts but can you yield can you let go and by when you yield to it you create
it you have to remember that when I yield to it I will create it there's no reserves no well I'm playing my last card if it doesn't work none of that that all goes away the moment you yield and some people are afraid they don't they don't they can't yield because they're afraid for many reason they're afraid of letting go of their doubt they're afraid of going mad they're afraid of falling into a state of insanity they're afraid of of it not working all these reasons and so they never yield to it they see it
within them but it's like a you know when I was when I was a kid I got I got in trouble and detention and I had to stand and watch everybody play at recess and I had to stand there and watch I wasn't allowed to play it was like it was right in front of me but I just wasn't allowed to touch those monkey bars in a sense and so just it was distant but it was right there and that's how it feels when you don't yield you don't let go it feels like you look
at the Dream Within you and it just remains and You observe it but you observe it as if you're an outsider not a participant you're not participating in it and when you start to participate in order to truly participate in the dreams within you to become those things you have to yield and that's what he equates dying is the same as yielding no more questions you just let go entirely can I let go of what I am really let go even if it doesn't make sense to me can I let go and become the thing
I want to be you know these are the questions that we have to ask ourselves but again I'm going to end it end this one here and this one's called The Art of Dying by Neville 1959 I'll put the um I don't know I'll look for the the um link for this one because he has another one called The Art of dying but I think that one's in 1964 so he has two of them but I like this one from 195 this is my favorite one but I would recommend you read it get more of
an understanding these are just my you know my thoughts on it but again thank you guys for listening
