my friends this channel was created so that your learning experience becomes extremely Pacey you don't have to consume an entire podcast but you do have to watch a bunch of the highlights of different podcasts on this channel this is TRS Clips I remember I did a 40-day anusthana of uh of bhagavati MAA Durga what is that anushthana is basically a a more concentrated form of fupasana you take a sankalpa okay sankalpa means a promise okay traditionally it's a promise to madurga okay 40 days I am going to do your Worship in this this manner considering
that you're also working professionally yeah I used to go to my office was in hiranandani and is to go by train and then come back by train and with that I used to do so I had a 40-day sankalpa in my mind and uh and sankalpa means it's a promise basically your promise to the deity you can't you don't make a promise like like human beings see date is very different if you make a promise you better go through with it okay and if you don't oh then the trouble will follow you like what various
kinds various kinds I mean depends on where exactly you are in this if the initial stage is still little bit less amount of uh you know troubles you will pass off but if you're at a higher stage and you make a promise either you don't make a promise if you make a promise you go through with it they are sticklers of Truth the deities like 100 not human beings human beings with my friends okay uh let's meet up somewhere Etc then right after that you know I call him and I couldn't come somebody I was
busy or things like that it's perfectly fine the details doesn't work that way at the higher level whatever you say whatever you intent it's to be very clear and if you have certain doubts then and never ever try to be smarter than that you are okay in front of a devatha it doesn't work because the datc is not just you sees where are you coming from what were you in your past life how many lifetimes have you crossed what have you done and in the current momentum where exactly are you heading they see everything okay
because it's got the power of God it has it is hwara it is God deity is God deity is the Divine there's no doubt about it it's absolutely no so then uh but today I did that anusthanam and anusthanam with the promise that I need certain guidance from her from the you needed guidance for life I need my next PATH to open up which is your actual ambition ah my main focus had been my upasana from the time I had started uh got into I had a lateral interview but that's don't want to deviate to
that story but let's what is the word of pasta mean again is the method of worship upasana is just any any worship of a devotee I I am choosing these terms because it conveys the right sense though though we are speaking in English but these I believe that at one point if these terms become common currency it's easier to speak on these topics okay because in Translation something gets lost sometimes okay go answer so I did that and I took a promise and the promise has to be done formally which means that you take water
and you drop it and you say that you are so and so okay and this is your name this is your gotra this is where you are staying you want to worship XYZ devatha through this method for so many days for whatever results you want okay like that and then you drop the water basically it's it's keeping Witness sakshi whom are you keeping witness water on the ground that is the earth everything they are witness to your promise okay so you go back in your promise these two tatwas are going to react to you and
not just that the deity himself herself will react with you okay so they they are like and the other thing that happens is yeah they test you once you make a promise so if you don't do a anushtan like that you just normally worship it's one thing once you do do an anuttanam um then what happens is the deity is also going to test you test you means are you pit for it but I remember when I did that 40-day thing very third fourth day I felt tremendous deal I mean I had like 100 203
fever but even then it has to be completed three and a half hours has to sit and complete in terms of when you make a spiritual promise Maya or the material realm will keep pulling you away from achieving that yes various entities will try and pull you away various things will try and pull you away even the deity will pull deity will be aware that these are the obstacles that will come but he or she will allow the obstacles to come to see that how strong is your willpower it's like you're doing push-ups exactly it's
a test of your commitment I are you just being frivolous are you just being here then anyway you'll you know not problems after that 40 day I completed and there were other small hassles but thankfully I was able to do it what about the small hassles one was this um I had very high fever I remember and after having that fever even in that fever I had to complete the at the correct time I had to sit that this time after coming back from office then one day I remember I suddenly started getting a call
from somebody uh pretty high up in my office whom I had never had the uh never had any reason to interact with but till that point of time and I wasn't sure why he's even calling me at this time after hours when some sort of issue had happened in office very peculiarly I had to resolve it of all people and and it made no sense because all these years I've been working in their company never had this issue come up neither has this individual ever needed to have a direct communication with me because he was
pretty high up in the chain Etc and things like that and I am in the middle of the Puja the conflict that is going on in the mind is if I pick up that call I have to start again there are rules three and a half hours again I have to start and I'm already tired after office and coming back okay so at that time I didn't I it was like I had to take a quick decision so whenever I've had a conflict between work or any other aspect and my personal my focus had been
on personally they will see you tomorrow whatever happens we'll see okay I I'll go through with this thankfully things got resolved but this is a very typical example of how the deities will test you when you're doing a person but after we completed there are a few dreams I had to go to certain temples and do certain homas fire rituals it was positive positive I knew that these are indications from the data that I next paths will go through here so I uh went to one of the Tara temples in vindhyachal okay okay vindhyachal is
uh in uttar Pradesh there's a very beautiful vindavasini Devi Temple and in the outskirts of that town there is a small Tara Temple uh those who know about it they know the other it's not widely popularly known but somebody had suggested me and two of my friends had gone there and I remember once they entered into the Tara Temple there was one sadhu sitting there and there was a dhuni dhuni is a continuously burning fire small amount of fire will go on so you can do fire rituals on that dhuni okay and the sadhu was
there and he told me suddenly that you should do a Homa there and that fire was very different by that what did he say Thomas is fire ritual basically when you do a ganpati Homa or something like that basically you light a fire you uh you uh you consecrate a fire and you worship the deity in the fire okay so when you're worshiping a vigraha murti you're worshiping the deity in prithibita It's Made of mad or wood or something like that when you're worshiping in a fire you are worshiping the deity through agnita so like
that all the fact that those can be employed in the worship of a devatha understood so fire rituals are fundamental to Dharma it has to be there everywhere so uh that fire had a specific uh that's a different from the other normal fire because that specific fire was taken from a cremation ground okay so there are there is one fire which is the average we use for all whether for Puja purposes or with the cooking Etc and then the fire that comes from The Cremation which is touched a body a dead body Etc so that
has a different property all together and it's normally not to be preferred with uh casually at all because it has a tremendously different kind of property and some kind of effect Etc just one note for international listeners in Hinduism Agni Dev is considered the distributor of energies yes Agni Dev is the god of fire god of fire so way of saying fire is a portal to like higher Realms yes for higher energies yes and also in the very conception fire is the priest of the deities you have a panditji when you need to do a
Puja you call somebody so fire acts as the priest he's the one who will connect you to the land of the Gods so that's why fire is very important it's a deity in itself and he also connects you to the devadas whomever you want to worship fire will connect to if you do it in the right way if you know the right methodology of doing and this is known as a Homa but I haven't what we call a not havan or Huma and extended version in The Vedas called the agyas and all that things Etc
so what I did there was a Homa Huma too the deity to the ma Durga basically but the fire was different the fire was a cremation ground fire that fire is normally not to be used until you know what you're doing because it as I was mentioning the moment you enter the commission ground or the date is then the rules also will change because they have their own ways of things Etc but anyway by the blessings of the mother it went a wonderfully well fantastic it went the nimitas were perfect the signs that you will
get there's a whole signs of these signs that come in and it's difficult to explain but as you go deeper you realize this gurus will tell you and things like that and after a few days of that Homa I received a mantra in my dream the deity okay like a beach month full like a full month full month already remember it oh that's because the Dream came twice so that one day one day it was very Vivid kind of dream I woke up and I saw that and not just the month right was like there
were some actions that were being performed some things were going on Etc in the dream are you comfortable sharing um okay so there was there was one form of the mother one of the mahavidyas very very intensely powerful mahavidyas uh I saw her taking me to a pond and there were two pawns actually and she asked me in the dream that which one do you like the color of the water was different one was crystal clear and the other was bluish and he pointed to one of them I'll not say which one because uh those
who know these things they will understand what I'm saying those who not know these things they will have one understanding of what I'm saying so after that she kind of dips me in that water in the dream and then there's a mantra that is told and then it's told that you start doing that but after the dream happened it was very Vivid I woke up and I refused to do it because I know that that specific form of mahavidya's intense okay and should not be done just like that without a proper guidance from somebody or
things like that Etc so I I resisted I said no and then my my tendency in these things is not to act as the believer to be a skeptic if a dream comes okay let's hold on wait let's see if there's something meant to be done is then some action meant to perform nature is going to show you more signs one dream could be your own mind playing tricks with you all the time it happens we want to believe that we are very good so tomorrow I am dreaming of all the all the hundreds of
deities that are coming I mean nothing so in order to be on the you know uh on the side of caution and also because I thought that uh I was pretty not sure that I is this the form I should worship not the form I knew the the intensity of the form is very strong so I did not do anything but the dream repeated itself again after a few days and with more Vigor so that I remembered exactly what was going on etc etc and then the inspiration came very strongly and started doing that of
the form with the Mantra with the Mantra and after doing a few months of that Mantra sadhana means basically uh you're doing Japan of the Mantra reputation of the Mantra in a proper manner proper means not just roaming around and doing you sit like in meditation you sit you have a Japan you keep doing it you chant yeah with the beads with the rudraksha beads or whatever beads you have you count how many times okay you are counting it and doing the jumper so like that as I kept doing foreign that is when I had
a one day I remember pretty late in the night I was meditating and I uh I saw a figure standing in front of me okay I could sense that it was not a it was not an ordinary person it was there's tremendous amount of pages they just means it's just Brilliance hello glow glow is still a softer term I'm saying Brilliance this is there's one light that is a it's a glow that's you know nice soothing in the eyes and there's one that shines like the sun something like that okay like that and um there
was some instructions told to me that read certain books of is one of the greatest spiritual Mystics who lived and there in pondicherry okay yes uh I picked up I had earlier before this one two years ago I tried readings it did not make sense to me because I found this language too complicated for my understanding it's like one meter above the head it flows at that time and this time you read it it slipped into your eyes everything just this is and not just that I opened that specific book that page and there were
certain things he was talking about this is precisely the confusions I was having at the time in my mind that's how the right spiritual books work yes exactly the knowledge will enter your head when you need it exactly and uh then it's after some time I I some more experiences happen but that I will not I'm not comfortable sharing but eventually what I realized is that an experience of Krishna started happening actually after that which was very strange and I wondered why is Krishna coming from anywhere at all because I am not even worshiping Krishna
I am something else I am doing and then I started picked up a book of srior Windows biography and I realized that he he was a he had attained perfection in Krishna prasanna he was Krishna was the primary deity he is the one who's and the bhagavad-gita and Lord Krishna the ones who whom he worshiped most intensely in his own way so he did not do the normal vaishnava upasana of Krishna what he did was more of meditative connection with Krishna to the extent that he had sort of become like Lord an emanation of Krishna
that time he had that energy fully in him and the question started that there are many forms of Krishna so there is one form of Krishna that is to mention there's one form of Krishna who is who is the who's popular in the bhagavatam which is one of the spiritual texts who is the uh is the Delight of the gopis okay he's very sweet he's he is beautiful if you worship that you feel like in Bliss if that energy of Krishna a little bit comes in but there is also the Krishna who gives you the
bhagavad-gita who's standing in the battlefield okay and there is a confused Arjuna who's saying that no no I can't fight and then there is a conversation that goes on so that Krishna he is the teacher that aspect of Krishna is one who will pass make you pass through uh you have seen how clothes are dried by ringing them he will do exactly that throughout all impurities so that afterwards you have nothing left but to become spiritual and then he will give you the Gita and then you will never forget including people including everything that is
what is that is what his style is yeah that is exactly what his style is okay and um and sales were worshiped Krishna properly they all know this whether uh there's as I said there are two types of worship one is that the general bhakti you can do this all all doing and then you have that intensity of longing now I want that devatha in the manner like a friend like a father like a mother or whatever form you want to personalize that equation so that there is a two-way communication with the deity that is
the highest stage of sadhana that is where you have to go Okay so Krishna is like that he's beautiful so if somebody tells me I find it very interesting just my personal opinion that somebody says that Krishna is the sweetest of course he's the sweetest but if you go closer to him he is going to make sure that everything that is non-spiritual in you every element in your body in your and means your environment slowly slowly pick out everything one after the other take take and that is going to be painful also what happened then
uh that was a period of excellent Spiritual Development for myself but at the same time mind you uh I used to I got a during that time uh once I had I had couple of more experiences of Krishna at that time automatically it started once I was uh developed a strong reverence for Sri aurobindo okay because uh SRI aurobindo is like my is the portal for me for Krishna from him I went to Krishna otherwise I did not have any information for Krishna so only uh after reading him and developing a strong understanding so I
used to like that one specific sentence to write about Krishna somewhere written that if you know only Krishna then you know nothing about Krishna he's so vast that he can Encompass everything okay he's absolutely Universal in one sense and he's also very personal he holds both of these aspects in him but at the same time while I was doing a certain amount of Krishna basana I got some books on Krishna books with bhagavatam the 10th chapter of the bhagavatam srimad-bhagavadam contains the life of Krishna that is the most beautiful text if somebody studies it actually
people do pass enough it seven days they will study you know confine yourself wise to tell people confide yourself to a room for seven or ten days don't meet anybody unnecessarily eat completely uh as satwik food as you can okay as light food not just vegetarian I am saying that as light food I mean if your stomach goes full up to this Mark then eat three-fourths of it not more than that okay keep a little empty spend reading the bhagavatam spent contemplating on the bhagavatam imagining how Krishna from childhood what is he doing every story
there is something of the other that is going on okay if you if you go deeper into the explanations and it's beautiful uh seven ten days you do that properly and don't meet people don't and no unnecessary phone calls cut off your internet and all that things that is the the biggest rahu roaming around in the world okay that's breaking of concentration is the easiest thing to do from the internet but keep all that aside just do that you'll have a blissful experience that text has a power it has a Shakti in it uh so
bhagavadam was reading the bhagavadam was very good and uh meanwhile at the same time my primary Persona was still going on okay it did not it doesn't stop for the Mata the my main devatha upasanas will always happen wherever I may be even say today also uh I've whenever I'm going somewhere I have to first plan it this way that okay if I reach here uh this amount of time I'll have to do need to complete my uh it's like a sewer to the gods service to the gods okay I don't look at it as
something like oh I have to again complete second it's not like a task that has to be completed it is something you do willfully out of Joy then only will enjoy then only you can sustain till the end otherwise the moment you feel that oh just a task you have to complete 100 after some days it will fall off and then you will also fall off from the path that's how it goes only those who can enjoy doing it you look at it as a sewer to the gods okay and they will also interact with
you eventually so anyway that uh that sadhna was going on uh the Krishna phase went on for few months and I read a lot of Sri aurobindo it helped me clarify many Concepts about spirituality and even though my path is primarily I am a I like Tantra basana that's what I do but I found no conflict in the ways to explain various things and how those applies to the traditional tantric path okay he's a brilliant thinker I mean one of the best in my opinion uh that I've read and I remain eternally devoted to him
for the excellent writing he has done but yes his his writing is little complicated so it takes time to get in once you understand the Rhythm and then you'll why have you highlighted this whole experience though like what was special about this whole phase uh because that time first of all uh this came to mind because we were talking about Krishna so that's why this episode came to mind that I had an experience for you so that was important in the sense that two things were going on one was the Krishna upasana Krishna and srior
window wasn't in fact once I remember I was coming in a local train uh coming to office and I just finished reading the bhagavatam in the morning and suddenly you know how Mumbai locals are like full Market going on Etc so I get down from the train and there's this uh I don't know what two groups were fighting among themselves or something I just buy my mind was in a different state at that time so I was going to office but I was not fully aware that what is happening okay around me Etc and um
I just somehow stepped into that fighting Zone and both the size didn't know who I was with so both of us started beating me okay no the funny part is and just like that okay it is everybody is meeting everybody and then that's the few blows came in and then my mind was back into the normal oh where am I okay what exactly it is and this happened outside of the vikroli station remember because I have to get down there from my office sometimes and right after that suddenly they realized that who's this guy okay
they left me and they kept doing whatever they were doing right after that this guy comes another guy some random guy comes in he opens a packet of sweets and says so this is uh this is Prasad from Krishna Lord Krishna okay and he puts one into my mouth okay just like that this was the I mean if you look at it rationally it makes no sense but for me because I had just come I was in that kind of a state so you have to immerse yourself into the devada you're worshiping and that time
my mind was completely into Krishna completely into okay what is the the stories of the bhagavatam every description various other things and whatever else was going on Etc so that when you say this from Krishna that was like a shock it's like a tongue and then I felt very funny because this is precisely how he works actually when he decides to take somebody to the highest levels so he will kind of cut out all the weed around you and things like that what he thinks it's he's not going to give you what you want by
the way so that is impossible that you sort of give up that if he gives you that then you are perhaps at the very lower stage of the person after that because human beings have this tendency that we love to hang on to our flaws otherwise we would have self-progressed without the need of any day with them we love to hang on to our flaws so that is when he does the kurukshetra on you and after doing the kurukshetra then the Gita will come to you and then you will be in a must state cleanse
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